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304. You Are What You Can Afford

 

Who decided to put a number in front of Life? Is that the real mark of the Beast? the Fruit of our Evil? The price to pay for our sins? A lesson to be learned?

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For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

Redefining CAPITALISM

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

 

 

Pricing System

You might remember your first acknowledgement of what money is through looking at prices as a child and this being the decisive factor to know how much money your parents had, what you were able to afford and what type of living ‘lifestyle’ you had access to.  This is the closest encounter with the ‘money system,’ probably the easiest one to understand and the easiest one to accept ‘as is’ without further questions.

I remember being given money on a weekly basis as a means to create the habit of saving, and I was pretty good at it because I simply didn’t require to spend it. Money in such a way was no different to the loads of fake bills that I had to play with as a child, it was only when going to the grocery store that you confront the ‘pricing system’ for the first time. The money  I had was really not that much to buy all that I would want to, and so I became aware of what it was like to have a ‘lot of money’ which meant having the ability to buy Lots of things, instead of having to choose and be limited by getting only one thing or two.

Then comes the supermarket experiences wherein you want to get something that is not precisely a need – like your cereal, milk and fruit – but a Want: I wanted this toy and learned to see these ‘exorbitant numbers’ as ‘unable to be afforded/ too expensive/ don’t even think about it.’ And so, I learned to stop asking to buy such products from the get go, I would see more than 3 digits on the price and I knew t was simply unthinkable for me to have it.

Desires began forming about money: All that I could buy if I had all the amount of money I wanted, I could buy looots of things and enjoy myself with it. But, unfortunately, I learned that I could Not have access to that as easy as I could dream of: one had to study, become a worker, escalate in social status to be able to earn more and more to then become part of the elite that I saw could afford just the amount of things I thought was my ‘aim’ to obtain as well – this was the pursuit of happiness linked to money here, which would allow me to be ‘free’ and ‘enjoy life’ without limits. Smell the conditioning here?

 

Comparison began taking place: why can’t we afford that other family’s lifestyle? What do they have that we don’t have? And then even worse things became part of my awareness: there were children begging for money on the streets and often pondered what would they be able to afford with such amount of money? – not much, that’s for sure. That’s where I learned that I had a ‘better life’ than those begging on the streets and I have a ‘lesser of a lifestyle’ when comparing my life and my family’s economic station to that of the super rich with gigantic houses and multiple toys – of course since that was my item of comparison at the time.

Inequality was tattooed as an inherent condition to everything. Life was then not seen as Life but as something with a price tag, without ever having seen Mother Earth precisely doing the price-tagging or the bar-coding and charging interest rates for that or scheming how she could ‘get the most’ by setting the higher prices… no, none of that was able to be seen around me.

 

I learned that my education was ‘big numbers’ in price as well, I learned that my books were expensive, that renewing my uniform as I went growing up would take money, that food prices would constantly go up every year, that I had to ‘always seek for the cheapest price’ when being at the store and call it a convenience and refrain from even looking at some other ‘treats’ just because they were mostly expensive and not really nutritional. I got scarcity and lack imprinted within me as ‘who I am toward money.’ And prices became a compulsive manner to measure myself according to the cheap and the expensive, the poor and the rich and being always in the limbo that seeks for cheap deals while walking a life aiming at being able to ‘afford it all’ as an ultimate dream. Life became a series of dreams to attain such high power of acquisition later on in my life, and this reveals to what extent ‘consumerism as life’ became the ‘measuring point’ for ‘who we are’ within our social system.

 

In essence, I’ve lived a life wherein I got used to being ‘price-conscious’ according to what I am able to afford and what I would like to be able to afford. Every decision moved by fear of not having enough money later on, every choice made based on the eternal dilemma of price vs. quality, the kingdom of god was simply never on sale, and we certainly were not equal at all. Even if I tried to pretend that I didn’t care as much for what I was able to afford , it did shape ‘who I am’ according to others and this sense of injustice became an unspoken anger to see people begging for scraps of food because of them not even having access to a proper job to afford basic needs while I could see others spending obnoxious quantities in clothes, cars and useless things that could pay an entire month of someone’s school.

 

My first great shock with the ‘pricing system’ was when I was 9 years old in what was then a ‘big city,’ we went to ‘check out’ a luxurious clothing store, I remember randomly grabbing the price tag of a shirt and discovering it was as expensive as my monthly school fee at the time, or even more. I could not believe my eyes, in that moment I realized that there was something absolutely Wrong in this world: how could a single shirt be worth an entire family’s sustenance for an entire week or a month, who knows! This event allowed me to see and realize one thing: I was not part of the rich that would regularly buy at this store, and their wealth – I got told – was the ‘product of their hard labor.’ But is it? Not really.

 

This is an introduction to the pricing system, the confrontation of one’s power of acquisition in a world wherein one gets a direct realization of our social position according to the amount of money that we have, we are either rich, poor or middle class, you live in abundance, you starve or struggle to always make it through with the amount you have. You can either feel free and relaxed or oppressed and worried in the shopping experience according to the numbers in the items you require to buy, either for need or pleasure, it is all determined by our pricing system, essentially who can afford to live and who can’t. Is this the way we want to continue existing as? No, of course this is an absolute demarcation of individuals and their ability to live, a full-view of discrimination and speculation everywhere and every time that we require money to buy, to live.

 

Our life within this system can have a price, and we’ve believed this to be ‘true’ since money has become the decisive factor to enable or limit one’s ability to live. But life is certainly priceless and money is a social imaginary convention that should not exist as a means to measure your ‘economic status’ as more or less than, but as a collective agreement to support each other as Life, as Equals – and this is what will certainly give an end to everyone’s lives of scarcity, fear of losing money, fear of not having enough to live, fear of having to resort to getting loans and ending up enrolled in endless debts, fear of missing out on ‘the great life’ just because we can’t afford to miss a day’s salary, fear of not ever having the life of your dreams because somehow t is not affordable to all.

This must end, this whole social conditioning must stop here: Equal Money Capitalism 

to be continued…

 

 

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Day 44: The Evil Veil of Me

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever pursuit the positive in life and believing that that was ‘the path’ that I had to walk as it would make me be a ‘better human being’ while neglecting the fact that such positive energy was in fact the result of the actual evil as the bastardization of life to energy wherein I made sure that ‘who I am’ as a point of separation from the whole always stands on the ‘positive side’ which I allowed myself to deliberately ‘stick to,’ regardless of the actual inner-experience that would come up when being possessed with anger and obsessive thoughts as a child, which then developed into generating a double experience within myself wherein within the outside I would present an affable and charismatic persona, but in the inside I judged my very own participation as I knew that it was only fake and ‘to get by’ within the standards of society that I always accepted as ‘how things are’ without daring to really question it as to How it is that we were all just playing games of pretending to care about each other.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to exert that inner inexplicable irritation toward myself as a child as a gnawing experience that I would then try and exert out as annoyance, annoying others and seeking attention because I did not know why I was experiencing such inextricable physical discomfort wherein I just wanted to peel myself off of my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to develop obsessions from a very young age wherein I would feed my obsessions with constantly thinking about something until I would get it, and I would then experience the temporary relief of finally ‘achieving’ something that I wanted, only to find something else to obsess about in no time, which is how I became used to being holding on to a future-experience of self-gratification which is how we are currently living as beings that only care about the immediate instant-gratification wherein there is no actual regard for that which we are consuming in the name of such gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I always accepted and allowed myself to believe that through sticking to the positive self-experience I was being a ‘good being in existence’ without ever, ever imagining that this is the actual evil of this world as all the spiritual beliefs and ideas of positive, light and benevolence stem from the very acceptance of that inherent separation of who we are as one and equal, thus becoming a worshiper of the very evil that has leads us to exist in the current state we’re living in as humanity, which is now, more clear than ever, that is taking a toll on all of us that believed that we were ‘on the good path’ of walking with and as the ‘good guys’ while neglecting that in reality, it was the other way around.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to ‘fear the evil’ and react to such word without ever having known that everything we have been and manifested as the consequence of our primordial separation has been evil, pure evil in nature, which then explains how I would constantly hold the thought-pattern about ‘Humanity being evil’ and creating this constant ‘hardening’ experience when being ‘exposed’/ being interacting with human beings as I believed everyone was ‘on to get me’ and ‘against me,’ which explains how retreat, isolation and the desire to simply interact the least possible stemmed from this that I deemed as ‘irrational fear’ – yet it was real as the actual nature that exists as all of us, not only myself and that I can only see and understand it for what it means to ensure that I walk the process to stop any form of continuation to degrade and defy life in the name of any form of energy – whether positive or negative – it is my responsibility to stop all patterns of energy within myself, as I realize that this is the only way that I can give myself back to myself the points that I had initially separated myself from.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever only seek to be a positive-supporter a ‘cheerleader’ when it came to positivity and positive experiences, without realizing that within this I had made of reality nothing else but a chemical reaction that would only make me Feel Good about myself and my thoughts and place myself into this angelic pedestal, while neglecting the fact that the foundation to such experience was stemming from the actual evil that we became the very moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to be the cause and effect of energy as the result of the desire to ‘experience’ and ‘be more’ than ourselves as equality and oneness, which means that I abdicated the wholeness of myself and vulgarized it to me being and becoming only a single experience that would only continue to keep satisfying itself through generating the same positive experience within the participation with others in reality, using them/ using life as a way to transform it into the necessary crutch for my self elation.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to try and ‘fix the world’ in separation of myself and believing myself to be a ‘good natured being’ when in fact, I was only trying to save my own ass when it comes to realizing that any desire to do good was actually stemming from the fear that I had realized was absolutely undeniable within me, which is how I feared everything that had to do with ‘dark’/ ‘darkness’ and ‘evil’ because I had feared myself as my own ‘evil’ experience/ thoughts/ imagination that I had not been able to communicate with others, because of fearing being judged for having such experiences within me, which reveals to what extent we as human beings experience these type of inner confusion and not knowing how to ‘deal’ with it, because we were always taught to simply ride the wave of experience until it ‘fades out’ – yet not really understanding why and how I would suddenly have ‘evil thoughts’ as a child toward people in my reality, with no apparent reason, which is what manifested that self-annoyance and irritation that I tried to cover up with a positive attitude and being just cheerful, because I knew that that would keep me ‘safe’ from the evil that I actually feared as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever pursue a ‘light working career’ wherein I would dream of being able to ‘help people’ and make this world a ‘better place’ by implementing solutions that had to do with giving hope, having faith and believing that ‘after all, it all must come down to a positive end’ – which is in fact the problem that hope instills and creates in this reality as a the laxity wherein the real nature that must be worked with through writing, applying self forgiveness and  the Self Corrective Application had been simply pushed down and covered up with all things positivity, which is like trying to build a solid foundation upon a swamp.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek relationships as a way to make myself feel better about myself, without realizing that it is through the nature of relationships that our ‘real nature’ was shaped and formed, which implies that creating relationships was an automated way to continue the perpetual desire to ‘be more’ than myself because relationships in themselves already imply separation and energetic experiences created from that moment of separation toward that which we are attempting-to and trying to reunite with. Which means that I had only reinforced separation through trying to connect/ establish relationships due to such separation only existing as an energetic experience that doesn’t consider the actual physicality as the fabric of existence as substance/ as life of which everything and everyone is made of.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deem that everything that was ‘evil’ in this world had nothing to do with me, which was me neglecting my very own thoughts as the constant seeking for power, control, recognition, glory, instant-gratification as a constant ‘win-win’ desire within me, which is the actual core and initiation of all evil in this world wherein ‘who I am as money/ power’ is all that really drives us to want to ‘be something/ someone’ in life, which is Not living but instead agreeing to play the game and ride the ‘waves of success’ that we all comply to live in within this system that only cares to perpetuate such constant fueling of experiences, instead of regarding and supporting life in equality, which is now our duty to establish as a living principle on Earth.

 

I commit myself to debunk any inkling and remain of positivity within me as I walk myself out of the mind and into the physical, remaining as the awareness of who I have become as a result of having lived in fear of ‘the evil’ in me for such an extensive period of time, wherein morality took the place of any form of common sense and in that, becoming a biased being that only cared about listening, doing, being, supporting all things positivity for a while, while having been on the exact opposite, which lead me to a final great confusion within my life that actually lead me to Desteni and that I see and realize is the only way to stop ALL Confusions that we may have in this world when wanting to deliberately stick to the positive out of the actual fear of ourselves, fear toward fellow human beings, because we see and realize that our actual current natures is that of evil that is also a veil that we have created upon ourselves the moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to live as energy only, as an energetic presence instead of a physical beingness that requires no definition to exist.

 

I commit myself to expose how within our current society and the ‘need’ for us to ‘define who/ what we are’ is in fact reinforcing the evil nature that seeks to have its place of consumption, satisfaction and opposition wherein we become just these lighting bolts that seek to be excited at all times in order to move while constantly wanting to get away from the negative experience and remain in a state of perfect bliss, which can only exist if energy exists – and energy is the very abuse of the physical substance as life that we have used and consumed in the name of our personal ‘power’ and satisfaction.

 

I commit myself to stop the need to be constantly defining myself as an experience and instead, embrace silence as I walk here as breath wherein every pattern of self-deprecation as an energetic experience – whether positive or negative – is understood, seen and realized as a self-abusive pattern as I now see, realize and understand how all the experiences that had no ‘explanation’ before are now becoming clear as a result of us having become the manifested consequence of our abdication toward life/ as life, which perpetuated the ‘who I am’ as that experience of separation which is then what leads to a constant seeking of experience in order to ‘feel alive’ or ‘be someone’ which is only seeking to define ‘who we are’ as that very relationship of separation which must stop here, as I realize that I am perfectly able to exist without using the mind as a constant energetic input onto the physical reality that I am able to move in, walk, breath, eat and experience as an actual moment to moment – instead of future projecting, or remembering or seeking to ‘feel something’ in order to ‘feel alive.’

 

I commit myself to show, how – we have become servants to the Devil/Energy-Authority for ourselves to only WITHIN ourselves manifest our Authority/Godhood unto ourselves, where our existence had become completely internalized and automated within ourselves as Mind/Consciousness – only existing to survive and possess ourselves as Energy; with no substantial living action visible to bring about a change of ourselves within and without.

In this – I commit myself, to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, speaking and sharing – walk the Visible Action of The Decision to no more accept and allow myself to Serve the Devil/Energy-Authority within and as the Cause/Acceptance of accepting separation, and Effect/Allowance of allowing the relationship between the negative, neutral and positive energies of Mind; but align myself into and as equality and oneness with and as the human physical-body, to stand with and as Life-Authority of and as equality and oneness as what is/will be best for All, as my process of taking directive-principle as responsibility for who, how and what I am in every moment of Breath, and so no more exist in and as the automation of Consciousness that has become the authority over and of me, the physical-body and this physical-existence, but in fact walk in and as Awareness, here in every moment of Breath.” Sunette Spies*

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I commit myself to continue exposing our ‘real nature’ as evil in order to finally take off the veil of energy that we have abdicated our self-directive power to, and become a being that is willing to walk the necessary time and space to reintegrate myself as the physicality of oneness and equality as Life, as that which I separated myself from in the pursuit of happiness, the pursuit of ‘me as an experience’ as energy, of which now I see, realize and understand has been the very key point of ultimate enslavement that must be stopped with the implementation of the Equal Money System wherein real Neighborism is able to emerge as a new human nature, once that we have all realized that we can only thrive in equality as a group, as collective that is able to decide what’s best for all to live by and simply apply it/ be it/ become it.

 

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