65. Treacherous System or Original Self-Deception?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that my trust has been betrayed in the system, that I have been tricked and deceived by ‘others’ that ‘abuse my power,’ without realizing that I was the first one that accepted and allowed to give my power of Equality away to live as a mind-system that would only equate everything that is here as Life as separate from myself,  turning everything into a monetary value in separation of myself as Life.

I realize that the quality of the system being Treacherous is merely reflecting back to ourselves the Lie that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to build around life itself: a system of values/ worth that begins with words that define a fictional existence of ‘value’ in separation of myself as life, wherein all words entail a relationship that I create toward everything and everyone I see, which reveals the extent of the deception as only definitions/ limitations can exist in inequality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to place ‘trust’ in a system of values where Life was clearly never considered as Equal and in that, believing that such system was created for the benefit and utmost care of each being on Earth, which is only a product of the propaganda and information that I have come to believe is Truth, just because of having learned that ‘those in power’ would be taking care of the best interest of the population, which is and has clearly been proven as the total opposite in fact.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn from a very young age to save money, to ponder money as something ‘important’ while creating an inner conflict as to who decided ‘what price’ to place to all things and why some things were cheaper than others? Without getting any straight answer which lead me to stop asking because ‘I asked too many questions’ and instead accepted and complied to simply get used to the idea of being able to buy things with paper and metal coins, which seemed absurd all the way when what is here is no one’s property but the Earth’s itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a system wherein lies are told from the get-go in the form of accepting a fictional value system such as money which implies that first ‘life lesson’ of separation toward children: you require money to buy what you want and in that accept money as truthful and real, believing that this ‘agreement’ of using money as a way to obtain things was best for all – never realizing that it was in that moment that I stopped asking questions about money and how the banks worked that I simply complied to game and ‘played along’ with becoming a ‘good saver’ and learning to value money over life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything that was produced in the system was in the best interest of all, wherein I could not fathom that there could be products that were not fully tested to its ultimate consequences – or tested on animals – and could be sold/ or providing services where the health of the person would be taken care of with utmost specificity, only learning much later and to my anger and absolute awe that a lot of abuse was taking place in the name of money.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to only ‘swallow’ all of those reactions I would get whenever I heard an explanation on how the system works, wherein all the anger and frustration of feeling powerless to change how ‘things worked’ in the world became layers of frustration and anger toward the system that I later on sought to escape or retaliate in my very own selfish mode of criticizing the system and seeking to be ‘separate’ from capitalism, due to my ignorance and absolute unawareness of my own responsibility entailed within the creation of this system by my own acceptance and allowance.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed to equate things to money, wherein that simple ‘logical’ equation lead me to accept the entire treacherous system as who I am, because I gave up the actual value of Life in Equality and started monetizing everything as numbers that varied according to ‘someone else’s laws and regulations’ that I stopped bothering to question, because of thinking that ‘people in power knew what they were doing’ due to the premise of learning how our government is supposed to take care of all the population and guard the implementation of the best policies for all, only much later realizing the extent of corruption that I got to be aware of within the political elites, which proved to me that I had been ‘deceived’ – yet it was my own deception, my entire acceptance and allowance for having assumed and taken for granted the system as something that would be designed in the best interest of all, not being aware of greed being a more powerful quality than that of ‘honesty’ and regard for Life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ignored how the ‘dissociation’ that I would experience in every moment that I would face ‘greed’ and taking advantage from certain positions in the system – linked to having more or less money – would stir this sense of ‘unfairness’ within me that I simply neglected because I saw that no one else was ‘caring’ to ask or know further about it, within this complying to how the rest would move/ be/ think and act wherein everyone seemed to be perfectly fine with how the system operated, thus I complied and ‘moved along’ because of assuming that things would be taken care of and done in the best interest of all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the physicality of money as an actual value in itself, wherein I learned that without money = I could not get anything, and in that, becoming very cautious/ fearful about money/ losing money, being very careful with what I would buy and start living in limitation and contention in order to always have money as a form of security in my life, always equating having money in my wallet as being secure, being powerful and being ‘prepared’ for any eventuality or emergency, which is accepting living in absolute survival wherein the very presence of absence of paper and metal coins with me would make a difference in how I act, how I move myself in the world and my relationship to all and everything.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept some things being ‘more’ expensive/ worthy than others within such monetary values

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept the bullshit explanations as to why some fruits were more expensive than others, which is the moment wherein I started realizing that the price of things was not ‘in itself’ but contained a series or processes that were also related to money wherein all that I am buying and consuming is a chain-massacre of fake values imposed onto life wherein the only way to obtain it, is through getting money which is a forced way to participate in the system – because if you question it and have no money = you simply die. Thus,

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comply to the existence of a treacherous system wherein I believed that I was being cared for and later on realizing I was not, blaming it on ‘the system’ without ever seeing and reflecting back to myself all the series of moments wherein I gave into accepting the system ‘as is’ with no further questions asked.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed the deception of the system because of wanting to be a ‘good citizen’ and ‘complying to the rules and regulations’ which was actually stemming from fear of being punished, being wrong/ being bad, which I took as ‘normal’ and within that accepting a system of survival based on fear of punishment and further isolation from the rest of society, which is what jails represent as the impartation of the law.

 

I commit myself to continue debunking the most ‘obvious’ yet primordial acceptances of value as money in separation of myself as life, and how that has shaped the ‘who I am’ as an individual that currently uses money as a way to ‘survive in the system’ while realizing that everything that is Here is of the Earth is and should be granted in Equality for All – yet, because of the amount of lies we have bought as ‘truth’ in relation to the world-system of money, I am now walking the consequences of delegating and even negating my common sense to trust in the system that I thought ‘knew’ what was ‘best for me.’

 

I commit myself to write to investigate where and how I have built my own value schemes in accordance to the primary premise of things not being ‘equally worthy’ in this world, wherein I then learned that to be ‘special’ I had to place some things/ people of ‘more worth’ than others, such as beginning with favoritism as a child.

 

I  commit myself to reveal to what extent we have used the word ‘Trust’ as a way to blind ourselves to premises that only sound ‘logical’ to a mind trained in/ as Logic, wherein there is and has never been any common sense that could point out the most obvious points such as money being a fake-system, a belief-system that we use to empower some and deliberately abuse others to maintain a system based in inequality where ‘power’ can only exist as abuse of others through generating profit in a system that blatantly accepts it as a form of success.

 

I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as this is the most obvious common sense we have ever missed in this reality and existence, and that we can only continue existing if we accept the fact that we have been living a LIE as the current world-system and that it will take self-honest and self-responsible beings to dare to correct the consequences of our gigantic mistake and deliberate spite toward life, in order to finally establish a world-order in and of Equality as Life.

 

I commit myself to continue debunking my own logical acceptances of the system, wherein logic stands as the basic ‘love for knowledge’ as truth, in a world-system where knowledge has become the weapon of choice to kill and abuse in the name of power over life.

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Mundo Abajo/ World upside down (2003)

 

Equal Money System Book:

• Equal Money – Future of Money – Volume 1

Common Sense Education on Money and the World System:

• How Energy and Money benefit from our Physical-Separation

• The Problem and Solution of Money and Energy

• Bernard Poolman – What is Money in the World?

• Bernard Poolman – Why Equal Money?

• Bernard Poolman – Freedom of Choice and Equal Money

• Bernard Poolman – Gold

• Failure is an Economic System

 

Blogs:

• Day 64: Will Power

• The Evolution of the Female: DAY 64

• Day 30: The design of desire

 

The ‘Loving’ perspective

 

The point of considering others or everything/everyone within my equation of the previously perceived and self-created idea/definition of ‘love’ certainly broadened my perspective of how we are used to holding ‘special bonds’ to people that se consider ‘special’ within our reality – that’s then an obvious point of separation wherein anyone that would claim ‘loving’ would in fact only have in mind/consider that particular person, thing or even activity that they ‘love doing’.

I had only spoken/ written about ‘love’ within the past as all the illusions of relationships based on the creation of a certain ‘feeling’ or ‘experience’ towards others which were nothing else but my own creation, I never even considered that I had to first see what self-love was to be able to then consider ‘loving another’. That was an absolute energetic game that has no place within what’s here.  All in all I’ve cleared the word from the usual associations and then realized that I would simply use the word ‘care’ – as a less-energetically charged within the general understanding of such word within our society – to indicate that which I want for myself and others as Equals.

I simply saw that it is not necessary to create little fluffy clouds or create the opposite reaction as rejection to all usual representations around the word love – like experiencing the usual ‘heart’ as something obnoxious, nothing but an inciting red representation of what seems like a 180 degree opposite placement of an ass or a pair of boobs. Instead of ridiculing the word with such symbols, we should all rather consider what actual love is.

Considering love as myself first and see what I required correcting and aligning within myself to realize what it was in fact was the first point to take on.

 

What is caring for myself? Not abusing myself would be the  first definition and association, but it would be based on a polarity towards ‘abuse’ only. So within that, self care, self enjoyment, self responsibility, self respect become the building blocks to see how to construct myself as that and live it out; this way we actually create such point of self care which didn’t precisely exist before in such a common sensical perspective – meaning considering that what I can take as ‘self-love’ can be lived and applied by others equally devoid of any mental experience as feelings/emotions.

Self acceptance became the foundation on this as I had resorted in ‘finding love’ as finding ‘acceptance’ in and through others, by being ‘someone’ in another’s life so, that point had to be brought back to myself to Care for myself. Then it was an entire process which I’ve described before and that is still being lived and applied as we breathe here.

The point of physical care became an actual consideration of myself as the physical, and not just wanting to preserve a ‘machine’ in a ‘well state’ – it became a completely new understanding through what we’ve realized as ourselves being this physical body at the moment and how much we’ve neglected it while existing only as thinking upper boxes at the top of the body. That point of being gentle with ourselves, learning to experience ourselves from head to toe at all times – caring for myself as in making sure I am well nurtured, I don’t oversleep or sleep less than what I required, not place myself in any situation of potential harm etc. – and not done out of ‘fear’ but out of common sensical considerations. Being self responsible is also a point that has supported me to establish that point of self appreciation again.

There are many things I wasn’t even aware of at a physical level – if I ever was, I would regard it as ‘normal’ like experiencing a nerve wracking sensation, an anxiety experience, some type of depression experienced  as something ‘normal’ and ‘usual’ only to then find out that I’m actually also abusing myself within existing in such energetic possessions instead of being here-as-life, breathing.

From physical care as self-care to caring for another. I bite my lower lip in means of the giving and taking action that this implies. We’ve got to demonstrate through actions, words in our living reality that we in fact care for ourselves and thus, we extend such care for another as ourselves – equal and one – without any hidden agenda, being unconditional in any point of support given and received by another. The point of receiving is something I had to learn to ‘accept’ as myself as I would tend to go into a ‘humbleness possession’ wherein being ‘too meek’ becomes just another way of not acknowledging what we’ve become, what we’ve achieved for example within this process and it’s standing in a polarity point of other points like being ‘recognized’ and so, such humbleness became just another way of playing a personality as a limitation to give and receive what I want for myself.

Giving unconditionally, receiving unconditionally – then we have the creation of such relationships as stable ways of existing – meaning, making sure that such giving and taking is not compromised in any way, that we’re actually able to do this as part of our daily living acts, that we are in fact supporting each other within the principle of what’s best for all and not just continuing the support of ourselves as egos, as personalities – personal-ties –  as people with hidden agendas that seek something else out of it all. That’s how in fact we go transforming any initial point of self interest into a walking-realization of the points that require to be modulated so that any potential separation through the creation of a ‘special bond’ is always re-directed here as what’s best for all, grounding it back to the basics without further poof-loops in the air when realizing it.

Then caring becomes an expression that can be lived with anything or anyone regardless – it must be a two way system just as our binary codes and the very breathing we give and take – because exhaling might be seen as a residue or excretion but it isn’t, it’s beneficial for those beings that take the co2 for their own nurturing like trees/ plants. So we live in a system that is organic in nature where all parts – if not artificially modified to the extent of plasticity – can be restored and reintegrated to the environment with great ease.

[Isn’t plastic just another attempt of self-preservation? the long-lasting inherent desire of humans to be ‘immortal’ translated into an artificial compound that is ‘apparently’ unable to be destroyed? – fascinating us, humans, not considering the outflow of our exertion of inner-desires into the external reality and its disastrous consequences]

 

To care then is to consider that what another is going through within their lives is me in another life as well, considering that what we’ve walked and shared in this world will mark the way for others to come and as such, we cannot leave a world based in fluffy-popable love ideas that require money and feelings to exist. Love must be deflated as the ideal that has been implanted in our heads based on the continuous brainwashing process obtained through our media, through nice stories passed on generation to generation, through traditions and cultural ways of conceiving ‘love’ as that which everyone had to ‘live up to’., inherently linked to success, sex and excess.

We can make of such ‘love’ a grounded expression that is able to be applied, lived as being given and taken as naturally as breath, as who we really are once we’ve realized and placed into action the realization that we are here to learn how to coexist together as individuals, yet moving as one single being. Just like cells in the body that remain individual yet work in groups to form tissue, muscles, organs and systems that conform the entire physical body. That’s the basic functionality that we must realize as ourselves and knowing that if we fuck with ourselves, we’ll eventually fuck with another and within that, cause multiple harms that might not even be seen at first glance, but eventually within being part of the whole and everyone existing in such individualized and compartmentalized version of ‘life’, we start creating rifts between ourselves that are imposed on to this very basic functionality of what we must be/ exist and live as, a separation created only at a mind level – not at a physical one.

Hence the importance of stopping the mind, stopping ourselves from falling into any alternate delusional reality other than what we are and represent at this moment as part of the group that is this living being called Earth and thus simply adjust ourselves, our living reality to be part of the system that’s currently emerging that is completely aligned with who and what we are as Life, where all mental experiences and definitions are being corrected and placed aside to focus on the reality that is palpable and physically verifiable by everyone here.

 

Caring for another as myself then becomes a living condition that we take into consideration not as a ‘must do’ as some type of political obligation, but as part of the basic input we can all integrate every moment that we express ourselves and that when we use our mind, we use it to create and construct that which is best for all, to think that which can be externalized without any ‘shame’ as it won’t contain any personal desires or interests behind. That’s the process we’re walking and that’s the place we have to get to in equal-terms and as part of the equal agreement we’ve now committed ourselves to here on Earth. Transparency in fact.

So, love becomes the realization of self-acceptance, self care, self responsibility and self respect that we are all able and capable of living as ‘who we are’ at all times. It’s always been there, we just haven’t accepted and allowed ourselves to live as it, so we  have to simply live them as who we are.

If you’re ready to love yourself and get out of the previously cheesy conceptions towards such word or even repulsion to it – as I had experienced before –   you are ready to embrace and amalgamate that word as ourselves, as all of the practical living points mentioned here wherein eventually whether we say love or care or consideration, we will be living-it which is what actually matters: being the living word.

Motivation then becomes the movement of self to enjoy being/ doing/ giving what we want for ourselves and everyone else equally which stands along the terms of what’s best for all, so that I live every day knowing and realizing that I’m being part of the necessary change in this world to create an equal-world where Equality is no longer a ‘correction’ or a vacuous concept, but a living reality. I realize that all motivation had been previously delegated on to money, power, success, feelings, sex, glory, fame and any other ephemeral experience that we had tagged as ‘love’ -which is similar to ‘seeking happiness/ love/ bliss’ as the ultimate goal in life – and instead we make that a constant property of living through actual continuous actions, with no more having to pursue glorious scenarios of achieving such elusive ‘lasting effect’ as part of an overrated concept of love or ‘eternal love’ which is unfortunately how it still exists now.

 

So, if we want to change the starting point of our motivation as humanity, we have to begin with ourselves. Seeing where self interest is overriding our reality, seeing where self-enjoyment is not being allowed as ourselves or is obstructing our basic responsibilities – it’s all part of equalizing and moderating our reality into what’s best for all.

We can also realize how we cannot dissociate the Equal Money System from this process to create the necessary conditions for such unconditional love to exist.

Loving sounds like law-being, the law of our being is to stand as equals as life and live the words written here.

For more support or discussion, visit de Desteni Forums wherein we’ll be glad to read and support if required within the understanding of the new way of living as Equals as the life that we’re yet to become.

 

thanks for reading.

 

Embracing Self – by Bernard Poolman

Point of reference for this post, some interviews by Bernard Poolman:

How will people be motivated? – Equal Money FAQ

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