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92. Thinking = Metaphysics

How deep is your thought? Is it really ‘out of reach?’ or are mysteries another way to keep us occupied in our minds? Is thinking a hobby? A blatant way to keep us enter-tamed?

Fathomless
1    [usually with negative] understand (something) after much thought.
2    measure the depth of.


 

I just became aware of how we can feed each other’s experience within just being here wherein thinking becomes a mental masturbation, trying to ‘grasp’ our understand reality. Now, I had talked about this before in the Stoned Philosopher – and this is something similar – however the point here is indulging into the act of analyzing and thinking in itself as a way to understand, wanting to make sense instead of seeing common sense.

 

Hell, this knocks hard on my guts as I have throughout my life delved so many times in the ‘unfathomable’ and then resorting to THINKING to make sense of it all. So the point here is to walk how I have tried to ‘Make Sense’ of something instead of walking it breath by breathe – knowledge will never be life, because knowledge was in itself the very consequence of our awareness being in separation of self here.

 

Now, I definitely recommend listening to the interviews ‘The Secret History of the Universe to understand this point. To me, ‘the ‘thinker’ it was a ‘profound revelation’ = another character- that I gave too much value to, so much that I heard the interview #6 about 6 times already, something I had not done with others before. So, within this the ‘fathomless’ character which I had specifically defined according to and toward ‘the origin of ourselves’ was being debunked in my ears, just like that – and that was a ‘shocker’ to my personality that would rejoice trying to ‘grasp’ things with thoughts in my mind.

Now, it’s cool that the word came up, because it had become ‘me’ so much that I was not even looking at it. Yet, it is thinking, it is ‘trying to understand’ and ‘grasp’ in separation of myself here.

 

Hence, Self Forgiveness ladies and gentleman.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the ‘fathomless character’ that I used to resort to every time that I would indulge in wondering and trying to ‘find out’ truths of the universe and our existence, creation in an attempt to ‘make sense’ of myself through thinking, without ever realizing that thinking in itself is separating self from here as self-awareness as a whole, wherein ‘awareness’ then became only knowledge and information that I used as a way to intellectualize my reality and within that, missing everything that is HERE as myself, as reality, as the physical and only believing that ‘through thinking I would get to the truth of it all.’

 

When and as I see myself resorting to knowledge and information in separation of myself to try and attempt to ‘make sense’ of myself and my reality, I stop and I breathe. I realize that knowledge and information in separation of myself is just another way to keep me occupied in my mind while missing what is here. I realize that every point that I am able to understand about myself exists here as myself – there is no separate point that I can ‘seek to attain’ as that would be the character seeking its fuel to continue existing, which I am not.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this fathomless character when I was a child and learning how to read, picking up a book about the universe and the space travels and within that, generating this fathomlessness experience within me wherein the thought of the universe overwhelmed me and deciding that ‘I would never ever get to grasp who we are/ how big is the universe/ get to know the universe itself’ and in that, becoming a ‘thinker’ throughout my life wherein from this premise of separating myself from what is here through thinking and making ‘the thought’ of the universe as More than myself, I became a seeker of the truth, seeker of knowledge in an attempt to understand who I am, why I am, how I am through knowledge and information outside of myself, instead of Looking into Myself.

 

When and as I see myself stepping into the fathomless character and experiencing myself to be ‘overwhelmed with knowledge,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am separating myself from here and that I do not require to make of knowledge and information as something separate from myself in order to ‘make sense’ of who I am. Who and What I am does not require to be ‘made sense of,’ but simply walked, lived and understood upon practical living and self-introspection through writing, applying self-forgiveness and establishing myself here as the physical to really, in fact get to know me from the practical physical reality that is here as the totality of this world, beginning with my own mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an analyst of myself, others and reality in separation of myself, believing that because I am able to ‘understand’ I am now more ‘empowered’ in a way which I am not, because who I really am is not knowledge and I have to instead realize that I have simply separated myself from understanding and realizing who I am because of having separated myself to live only as a mind consciousness system that works through knowledge and information in separation of the physical reality that is here – thus, I walk through the information and practical application thereof in order to ensure that what I realize and understand is able to support me to stop the ‘fathomlessness’ character and as such, occupy myself with the matters that are here in this world to be taken care of, which is the Reality that we have veiled through the illusion of the mind.  (Please listen to How Illusion became Reality for further context)

 

I realize that whenever I see myself not hearing here completely and absolutely to a interview, it is because I am trying to protect that which I had become to such an extent that it is almost like not wanting to take the mask off because of the value/ worth I had given to the character as myself, as self-definition.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being an analyst, a ‘thinker’ was a natural ability to me and that it thus defined ‘who I am’ as a person that is able to ‘understand/ grasp more than others,’ which means that it became the egotistical character o ‘understanding’ in separation of self, as no knowledge and information can possibly make someone more than another-  yet within this I see that I complied to the rules of the system wherein  I learned that ‘knowledge is power,’ and a such believing that I was special and unique for having all these existential questions and eventually getting to the answers only to find out it had all been a blatant character mindfuck, which is pretty cool.

 

When and as I see myself stepping into the ‘thinker’ character when I am alone with myself and getting a kick of excitement when ‘understanding’ reality along with a sense of the opposite because there are no more ‘mysteries unsolved’ in my mind, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am now simply being able to understand and equalize myself to that which I have always been and existed as – yet separated myself from when becoming just one single character in this character reality. This means that walking through knowledge and information that explains the reality of myself here is no more than who I am, it does not make special, it is only an opportunity to now stop my actual ‘kick’ such as indulging in mysteries and wonderings and trying to elucidate about reality, which had become a past time in itself in my life, thinking about the world, life, the universe and never even questioning such ‘thinking’ activity in itself, but considered that I was special because I was asking such questions myself.

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create an entire personality out of ‘not being understood’ about my fascination with the universe and existence and pondering ‘where do I come from?’ ‘Who am I?’ ‘Why am I Here?’ which were the basic questions that got me into seeking answers as knowledge to ‘make sense of myself,’ seeking for solutions in separation of myself without ever even realizing that if we are all that exists then we are the origin, and as such, we would have to eventually realize who/ what we are as it is in ourselves – and instead focusing on removing the veils and conditions we have imposed onto ourselves and this world to not see the Reality – and instead realize that we veiled ourselves in order to continue existing only as an experience, instead of realizing ourselves as one and equal here.

Realizing ourselves as one and equal is a living-practical process, it cannot be taught onto another, it cannot be solved through knowledge and information – it can only be practically realized through getting to know ourselves as our own mind, seeing who we are in relation to others, to the environment, toward this entire world that we had separated ourselves from the moment that we became only this separate bubble of knowledge and information as the Awareness of self in relation to defining ‘who we are’ based on comparing/ contrasting/ differentiating ourselves from one another.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of ‘fuck! we missed it all the time’ and going into some instant kind of remorse or regret – whatever it is that came up in that moment – it is just another mind-created experience upon knowledge and information – thus

 

When and as I see myself listening to points wherein I realized to what extent we have separated ourselves from ourselves, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I have allowed a tendency to get infatuated with knowledge and information and with that, going into the ‘I missed it all’ type of experience based on not having been able to fulfill my desire to ‘know it all’ form the beginning, which is yet another character of ‘wanting to know it all,’ without taking into consideration that this is not about one individual knowing or understanding, but about realizing how we came to be who we are, how we came to ‘separate’ ourselves through knowledge and information from that moment that our awareness was directed in separation of another as ourselves.

 

Thus I realize that any experience that comes when getting information, stems from me going into a personal interest of ‘wanting to know it all’ in separation of myself, which is useless. I walk the point here to assist and support me to stop participation in further curiosity about the world, reality, who we are as it is quite obvious by now that there cannot be something ‘more’ than myself to be understood, but that these are practical points of support to understand How we got ourselves to the point we are in currently and through that, walking a physical living process to place that into application to finally see and realize and place into action our actual potential as creators, as expressions of what is and has always been here.

 

When and as I see myself going ‘deep in thought’ such as trying to fathom things in separation of myself in the physical moment, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I can only work/ walk what is here as myself in the physical moment – I instead ensure that I am not trying to go into ‘deep thinking’ based on wanting to avoid taking responsibility of myself in the physical moment and my physical reality, which is how the ‘thinking’ became a habit/ hobby in itself to escape reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have never ever accepted and allowed myself to realize how thinking had become a habit and a hobby in itself, wherein it would not matter that I was alone because I had my mind as ‘best friend’ to talk myself into multiple realities and outcomes trying to ‘understand myself’ and ‘make sense of myself,’ wherein I built a character of ‘thinking myself’ in itself, which is like meta-physics in itself, lol, going beyond the physical to try and understand ‘who I am’ as thinking, never realizing I was only going to perpetually loop around the same thoughts and the same programs as ‘thinking’ itself, which is not HERE as the totality of myself – yet.

 

When and as I see myself ‘rethinking’ the information and knowledge I am able to listen, I stop and I breathe – I realize that being HERE when and while reading/ understanding is sufficient to grasp the points that I require to grasp and that I do not require to make of this information something to ‘know’ but simply integrate it within myself as an understanding that supports me to stop the ‘incognita’ creating the ‘fathomless character’ within me.

Therefore, I walk through the material that is provided as self-support for what it is, wherein I see and realize that making it something ‘outstanding’ and ‘over myself’ is also ego and a character that tends to go into a positive experience as a ‘Eureka!’ type of realization that I then fuel by over-hearing something as if I could grasp ‘more’ than what is said in an attempt to make it something ‘great’ and ‘magnificent’ above myself, without realizing that: all that I am listening and hearing is part of who I am that I have separated myself from – thus it is no more than myself, it is only a point of support to see, realize and understand myself here.

 

I commit myself to stop thinking as a habit that goes into the ‘deep crevasses of my mind’ in an attempt to understand in separation of myself, as I realize that no knowledge and information can change ‘who I am’ already – and that I instead have to see how I have accepted and allowed myself to become knowledge and information in separation of myself here.

 

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Day 26: Captive in My Own Cage

 

While listening to the latest chapters of the  Atlanteans’ series wherein the entire process of being being ‘imprisoned’ is explained in detail, I could see that my reactions to this energetic caging and enslavement were like physical experiences of slight chest constrictions and a general sense of regret mixed with powerlessness, as I explained yesterday.

I can see how the word ‘captive’ depicts the associations that I created of myself within such experience, which is what I felt like and fed through various thoughts that were part of the crutches that I would use as an excuse to pursue spirituality, seeing my body as a cage believing that who I really was is some spiritual being trapped in this body, this vessel – yet the point that we got to understand today is how there is no-part of me to oppose, neglect or dispose here, it is about an actual integration of who I really am as one and equal within what would be popularly identified as the mind, body and spirit – however this is understood as: the mind, the physical body and consciousness as the trinity that we’ve become wherein the equalization of all three points implies me walking myself back to self through occupying my mind, body and understanding how I created myself as consciousness to only later on, get to the point of birthing self as life which is only a possibility once that we walk ourselves backwards.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as a captive, as a prisoner and exist within a perceived victimization from what I accepted and allowed as a process of being captivated in order to become who and what we are today as human beings, without being able to remember why I had lived in such an internal conflict within feeling like a prisoner in my own body, without realizing that I haven’t actually ever occupied my body in its totality – therefore, how could I deem it as a cage if I am not even aware of the internal processes it functions as?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to an experience within the mind as an energetic imprisonment which has been the real ‘captivity’ that I have lived within and as, wherein I disregarded the absolute draining of physical matter to keep up my delusions and experiences of alienation from my very physical body, it is unacceptable to say the least what we have done to ourselves, what we accepted and allowed and how a single belief about who we are led us to the consequences we are facing today.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold myself captive of my own thinking processes about what I have accepted and allowed within my life and throughout existence, which means that I created general reactions of irritation and loathe toward everyone wherein ‘my freedom’ was sought in separation of the whole, wherein I thought that I was the only one feeling like imprisoned and limited, being ‘caged’ in my own body, without really understanding how we function as one organism that exists in constant recreation of separation by me using my mind and physical body to elaborate further ways to separate myself from the whole, which is what has led us to ‘upgrade’ our human version into a more distrustful, fearful, jealous, envious being that fears its own fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate ‘freedom’ with being out of the body- having no body at all – and not having to eat which is what I also have held as a constant experience of enslavement whenever any physical need has to be met, simply because of how I have judged this physical body and design wherein I created an experience toward it. I sought to make myself feel better about it, without realizing that in this very movement to ‘get out of the experience’ I would inevitably stir the waters and create further inner conflict, as I resisted to see and realize that it was simply me creating an energetic experience in my mind that is absolutely separated from the actuality of the physical reality, in this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as my mind, as my physical, as my creation which is my own body and everyone else around me wherein I got to be reluctant to accept myself here, because of not seeing ‘any point in life’ and within that, only fueling the separation that could only exist within my own mind, without any actual physical reference of the body being actually a cage or any other form of confinement that I believed it to be within my own mind, only. I realize that who I am as consciousness could only understand the physical through its narrow and limited ways of understanding the physical reality, which is not a beingness but knowledge only.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that whenever I sought to overcome/ fight an internal conflict, when and while I tried to force my way out of it, I would invariably create further resistance, conflict, friction as separation, which means that any belief of me being ‘over it’ is only a defense mechanism of my own ego to protect the reality that is still here and that must be self-forgiven in order to reintegrate myself back to self, wherein there is nothing to oppose or overcome or grow out of, but instead realizing the separation for the mind-creation that it is and walk the process of reintegrating myself back to self in equality and oneness, where no further conflicts are created as I will have then understood the starting point of me separating myself in friction and conflict as a self-created experience to only generate energy for my mind to continue existing, as part of the ‘maintenance processes’ that I have participated in within the co-creation processes within this reality.

 

I realize that the only solution is for me to unconditionally stop any type of judgment, not only toward the body in itself, but toward this idea of myself having been a captive throughout my existence. This implies that no victimization can be held toward myself/ anyone else. I become the point that stops all mental captivity in reducing myself to being a single idea, a single experience and being ‘held captive’ by my own deliberate participation in such concepts that I gave my power away to in order to regenerate the initial existential conflict created from that initial moment of separation, wherein I accepted an existence of seeking the positive to feel more/ feel better about myself and the idea of self that I accepted and allowed as ‘who I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate an experience toward the word ‘captive’ which implies that I can only inflict such limitation upon myself through my own participation as it, which is how easy an entire relationship of mind-abuse toward self can be followed/ created by living out a word as an experience, instead of realizing that I can simply self-forgive it and stop regenerating such beliefs and perceptions as myself.

I realize that captivity is simply an experience created within my mind as the accumulations of thoughts that I tried to make as if it was ‘okay,’ when it was really a draining experience when having no direction over my experiences and essentially becoming sad and dismal whenever any thoughts of a similar nature would come up.

 

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this existential woe and dread from the belief and perception of being held captive by ‘someone else,’ without realizing that the best cage that I’ve built for myself has been my own thoughts that have created and generated an entire fortress as a limitation to my actual ability to live and express here unconditionally.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to want to blame others for this experience of feeling like a captive, which would imply that I sought for revenge other than actual freedom from such captivity, disregarding at all times and not even considering that I had been the one that accepted and allowed and fully agreed upon such moment of separation, which stemmed from a set of beliefs that are no different to the current belief system that we are still living in as our world-cage and fueling with our own participation in it every single day, just by the mere fact of living in a world wherein money decides who lives and who dies.

 

Okay – here’s the point tied with the point of being born into this world and essentially the memory of ever having blamed my parents for bringing me into this world. I can see how that is also another aspect of me blaming my mother/ father because I apparently didn’t choose to be here, so all in all it was me trying to find a reason and a general culprit for what I accepted and allowed beyond family ties and being born from two human beings. I now realize that this comes from such primordial separation wherein I accepted and allowed my energetic imprisonment as the mind, as the solidity of the individual that I’ve been wherein I probably spent lifetimes loathing my body and seeing it as a cage, because I essentially had a pretty bad relationship toward my body that I’ve walked for the past years and continue walking it.

 

This is just another perspective in terms of how whenever I wished to just die. This was also supported by the belief system of there being an apparent heaven that I would go to wherein some ‘real freedom’ could be experienced. But in fact, what I had held as a non-conscious thought of seeing this reality as a prison, was just feeling that I was not able to identify, which is what propitiated my vexed experience in this world. And what I can see is that, we probably all feel and experience ourselves in a similar way, because we are the same in fact, and that very first moment of separation explains how there is really no one to blame for this belief of ‘captivity’ because we were the ones that built the cage ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a captive of my own beliefs, thoughts, feelings and emotions wherein I used such internal conflict to apparently ‘resolve’ my ‘unresolved conflict’ within this experience of simply loathing the world, myself, reality and everyone, wanting to challenge and question any god: ‘why the fuck am I here for?’ which is part of the grudges toward this ‘god’ that lead me to stop desiring being a ‘good person’ and presenting this immaculate image, simply because reality was showing me the opposite at all times, without realizing that I was the very creator of it all, I am responsible for such primordial separation and in that, responsible for any inner-conflict experienced within myself against my own body, reality and every living being in this Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever feel claustrophobic in my own body, which was actually a self-created experience from me being haunted by my own memories, my own fears, judgments and emotions that lead me to be constantly wanting to run away from everyone including myself, which is why I developed ways to not be alone or when being alone, being a complete absentee from my very physical body, because I simply neglected it and believed that I could only solace myself with entertainment and relationships where everything seemed at least ‘not that miserable,’ without realizing that through wanting to ‘clear up’ my experience, I inevitably also fed the negative inner-experience that was not actually self-forgiven, but only buried by layers of suppressing myself and building myself into an idea of self that could apparently ‘forget’ about my own mind as the experiences that lead me to ever really question who am I and what am I doing here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever desire to just ‘die’ to be ‘free from my body,’ without realizing that the actual prison is and has been ourselves as our own mind, as the reality that is stemming from our very own mind wherein we have decidedly created a point of friction, separation and absolute disregard to each one of us being in fact one and equal, being the very cause of all our experiences wherein there is nothing and no one to blame anymore, but simply stand up, take Self Responsibility for our creation and ourselves and within that, stop any experiences from all that which we have accepted and allowed to exist as ourselves from the very moment of separating from self as one and equal.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that heaven was the ‘real freedom’ and the place wherein I could finally run free and no longer be held a ‘captive’ in this matter world, without realizing that heaven is non existent, that I fed heaven through my very own internal conflict and friction that kept me thinking in and of separation, which only fed my own separation from the actual reality that I am which is this physical body that I neglected within my mind, without ever pondering how it is that I can judge that which sustains my very beingness, how can I neglect the very processes that allow the food that I eat be digested in order for me to continue living in this world, how have I become spiteful toward my very beingness just because of allowing thoughts in my mind to run rampant as an eternal friction, conflict and opposition toward my very beingness and matter.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the word ‘matter’ to ‘problems’ wherein I then believed that all problems that I experienced could be ‘ended’ if I ceased to exist as such matter, without realizing or even understanding that the reality that I am is actually matter, as the physical that I have neglected, diminished, abused and tortured by my very belief system of ‘being a captive’ in my own body.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever support belief systems of ‘life after death’ being ‘the real life’ and this being only a sick joke that I had to endure with lots of inner conflict and mental pain that I created and fueled by my very own participation, never ever questioning ‘what the hell am I doing to myself?’ because I saw it as a righteous way to blame any ‘creator’ for my existence.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to want to blame my progenitors for ‘bringing me to this world’ without me apparently having chosen to be here, which only points out a point of desiring/ wanting to abdicate my own responsibility that has been always diverted to an ‘authority’ and some ‘greater force,’ wherein I became part of the masses that prefer to blame than actually get to know and understand how reality operates, and how we got ourselves here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to within this experience of and as captivity, seek to spite ‘god’ or fellow human beings for being born into this world that I see simply continued participating in within the ‘accepted ways’ of detracting, criticizing, judging, blaming everyone and anything outside of myself for my very own existence – and in that, becoming a captive of my own beliefs toward my ‘captive-state’ without realizing how I had created and generated it all for myself, from that very acceptance of separating myself from myself, ensuing the current state of reality that we’re living in, which is my creation and absolute responsibility to get myself back to as a whole again.

 

I commit myself to expose how we create our own cages of the mind while believing that all we are is this personalized fuckup that exists as thoughts, feelings, emotions that are only here to recreate and generate further inner conflict within ourselves, without realizing that it is in such separation that I have become this reality in its full splendor of human nature that spites itself back in the name of personal power and ‘freedom,’ that can only exist within this energetic-system of abuse as the current power games we play with and toward each other as personalities, fighting for survival and seeking the most ‘heavenly experience’ which is achieved with gaining/ earning/ getting the most money.

 

I commit myself to expose how any victimized state of being stemming from wanting to blame a god/ creator for our existence, is in fact abdicating our responsibility toward ourselves, this world as our creation and the very mirror of what we accept and allow to exist within our very own minds, therefore sharing and demonstrating how it is possible to stop living in such state of captivity by and through supporting ourselves to write out our cages, our frames of mind, our limitations/ fears/ judgments to walk a process of reintegrating ourselves back to that initial state of no-conflict, no opposition which is only able to be lived as self by walking this process of self through writing Self Forgiveness, developing Self Honesty and walking the practical living correction to ensure that we stop all separation in this world beginning with the separation that we have accepted and allowed in and as ourselves, as our physical body and mind.

 

I commit myself to walk my mind as my creation, my point of responsibility that requires a process of self-correction to ensure that I understand how I created myself, how I have limited and diminished myself to only being an ‘idea’ that is existing in constant and continuous conflict, to stop and walk a physical integration of such conflict into self-directive actions wherein who I am is able to be lived and expressed within the principle of what’s best for all as Life, as my actions and thoughts are from here on walked, self forgiven and directed to express the will of who I really am as one and equal, which implies no separation is allowed.

I commit myself to expose how we are the very ones that wrought this cage as our own mind, and how it is in reality that only through standing one and equal as our mind, as our physical body and taking responsibility for the consequences that are here as our reality and creation that we can finally birth life in the physical, the way that it always should have been.

 

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‘Born Free’–Warfare on your MTV– Day 19

I watched this video by M.I.A Born Free when it came out almost two years ago after I had spent one year ‘out of the matrix’ and Lady Gaga was only a repeated image I would glance at magazines while paying for groceries at Pick & Pay and mainstream music was only background music for shopping. I didn’t write at the time about the experience that it was coming back into the world and finding videos like this one or the ‘Pursuit of Happiness’ of which I made a reference about in a vlog I made, simply because it seemed like the age of cynicism had arrived and ‘made cool for everyone.’


I was a music video sucker-fan – the 90’s era – so I grew up watching MTV at the time where desolated kids with whining grungy guitars, passive-aggressive style, shoe gazers and violent femmes taking the stage – then it got a bit more ‘pumped up’ when electronica and some other genres started emerging,  then I lost all interest on it and eventually stopped watching that. I mean, I’ve watched a great amount of videos as I spent like over 10 years of my life being really stuck at it, and I had not seen anything similar to M.I.A’s  ‘Born Free’ video – hence the  ‘special mention’ here. I must clarify I have been fairly disconnected about the ‘new stuff’ and video making and marketing lately, yet the stuff that I have seen lately is entirely driven by sex, big eyes, pink-pop plastic all over and zingy sounds that make you cringe out of the obvious repetition.


I am aware you could watch these images in any R-Rated movie or even PG-13 these days, I’m not really aware of the levels of violence they allow for a 13 year old now considering the video games they and younger kids play. However, the point is that such message/ level of violence for an intended MTV hit is rather chocking considering the various topics it depicts with the obvious title which is quite a cool way to mock the state of any country in this world wherein our constitutions claim ‘all men are created equal and free’ yet living the exact same opposite.


We are still living under tyrant systems that we have created, accepted and allowed as humanity, always ‘at war,’ and it seems to me that this piece of what could be labeled as motion shock art is the depiction of the same desensitizing process that has been ongoing as violence, war, abuse and national home-security policies are made part of your primetime regular cable TV programming.


See, the point to look at here is how this message might be interpreted by the viewer. To me within a ‘critical perspective,’  it is an allusion to the obvious stupidity that war represents wherein a group is targeted only by a particular skin color, religion, culture, haunting them down and waging war against them until all fall down – yes ‘Ring around the Rosie’ was not exactly a ‘bright’ theme for a nursery rhyme – yet the point is still being missed here for a real exposure than the obvious violence that war produces: M-O-N-E-Y.


M.I.A. seems to also just make videos and music for the sake of money – here’s another one of her videos Paper Planes which is a rather catchy tune where you can only hear the chorus with gun shots and cashier register sounds to find out what it’s all about while repeating  ‘All I wanna do is (afore mentioned sounds)  and Take your Money!’ Therefore, what’s missing here is the Actual important message which is: the acceptance of war as a way to regenerate economy = war is all about money and so is M.I.A. apparently.


Does the end justify the means?

Now, this writing is not to create the usual discord used in any criticism toward society – this is just dissecting a bit of our reality to do some critical thinking – out of our box – and realizing what the hell we are watching on TV and what the hell is most likely to become a ‘jingle’ in a child’s ear. It’s already enough for me having to see how difficult it is to trade some hide and seek game in order to stop having kids playing with toy guns pretending to kill each other. Now, watching such videos/ hearing the lyrics, it’s realizing that we are digging our own hole when it comes to the indoctrination that happens through TV – not to mention the entire industry dedicated to sell toys to children which is another topic in itself. This is about me placing myself as a 7 year old watching MTV but within the contemporary context wherein I would have probably grown a hard veneer to watch M.I.A’s video and accept it as ‘okay,’ just as I accepted as ‘okay’ any explicit sexual content in videos as well as any other implied or explicit depictions of self abuse, which eventually became my ‘visual culture’ while growing up.


What did I develop? yes, sir, some type of lugubrious fascination because hey, that was cool to watch and made me different, seemed to shock people and I wanted to stand out of the crowd so – why the hell not liking this and going for that which initially scared me, then embracing it as a part of ‘what I like’/ ‘who I am’ – more or less in the fashion of how you unite your enemy if you can’t fight against it. I could write pages about other videos that created an impact in a similar way and that are regular cultural clichés of what was eventually banned or seen at late night hours on MTV like Prodigy’s Smack my bitch up. I remember being quite astonished at seeing what was made a ‘music video,’ and I mean even skeletons having sex in the toilet of a club in the Chemical Brothers’ video Hey boy hey girl made a significant imprint within me and my conception about reality and ‘fun.’ Virtually any video that contained explicit allusions to sex, violence, or a bizarre mix of it was too shocking for my eyes because of being a child (!)  I eventually made myself ‘used to it,’ then forgetting about what had been once shocking or ‘unacceptable’ to portray in a music video: my morals were ‘expanded’ which is why these type of videos are being made acceptable – repeat: being made acceptable.


Now, when/ while watching such videos I had some fairly cool ‘grounds’ wherein I learned how to be a bit critical about it and just take it for what it is – but what about every other kid that may watch these videos nowadays and want to live out just what they see on their screen? What about watching some bizarre Lady Gaga video or M.I.A’s Born Free or singing along to Paper Planes along with the obvious sounds that are implying killing for money?

What I do see is that if people/ kids/ teenagers watch this video and again grow a hard veneer to be able to ‘handle it,’ in a few years time, snuff movies and public executions will probably become part of your regular MTV Hitlist and I am concerned about it – why? Because I was once that kid that was 7 years old and got exposed to stuff that made me miss  out my entire childhood – not to blame anyone, of course – it is a simple realization of becoming aware of what the hell is being accepted as ‘entertainment,’ while trying to be edgy/ controversial which is what sells very well nowadays.


Question is, who on Earth financed such video? It seems like a short film to me and not any regular Hype Williams type of green screen studio production – it took a lot of money and seems more like specific propaganda to, once again, make controversial juicy materials that can be equally appraised as masterpieces or plain terrorism.

I ask a simple question beyond the transgressive obvious attempt of the video: would it exist if Money was not a motivation – from all angles that you can view it – to make it/ produce it?


Are we accepting something something that is inherently depicting the obvious violence and abuse in this world as part of our edgy and cool controversial videos as that which we can  incorporate within our ‘visual culture’ and make it okay for us to just see it as some part of ‘human evolution’ to watch explicit sex, female objectification, expressing the desire for All the power while portraying semi-god self-portrayals with all the gold as the cultivation of greed and desire for money as the perfect heavenly realms where ‘beautiful women’ are all around?


If we really want to evolve as humanity, we have to stop supporting everything that is pointing out  to praise money, power, heavenly existences, war, violence and sex alike as mere ways to ‘escape from reality’ – which is what entertainment actually is –  and start looking at what the fuck is being allowed as your regular TV programming on a music channel.


There’s plenty of points to take on from here like movies, video games, public advertisement, TV commercials which can be an entire realm of indoctrination in itself for the visual/sound/motion effect it contains – as well as the rest of open source/ god’s will access anyone has to unimaginable content on the internet that I will probably end up coming as ‘too short’ to name only a few of it, I’m sure you can imagine it – picture your worst case scenario of finding a photo about in the internet and I’m almost certain that Google god will bring it up to you at the click of your left button.


I am not willing to accept this video as something revolutionary as it’s only what it is: part of an entire machinery of brainwashing that takes place in your regular music video channels that are forming the seemingly non-existent children that are currently being exposed to extreme levels of violence that become part of their every day screenings at home, eventually becoming the perfect enlisted soldiers for the army.

Pop Culture is the Doom of the Nation

For now there is a plethora of things to say about this – and this is just the beginning in terms of what we are accepting and allowing to be made ‘popular’ and part of ‘pop culture’ within our world and society.


This is not about being a puritan and coming from a moral perspective of what’s right or wrong,  but rather an opening to look at the unethical aspect that is being induced in all things entertainment – not to mention the so-called reality TV shows that are also another topic in itself when it comes to what sells today on regular people that spend several hours in front of their TV screens.  This is about finding out/ becoming aware of what is currently being integrated as images that are kept for a lifetime within a child’s mind. I can speak from my own experience about shocking stuff that I’d watch on TV and eventually became used to or even keen to watch – yet every time I glance through what’s being broadcasted or made popular, I see that the envelope is being deliberately pushed further and further and that’s where some critical questions must be asked: who/ what is behind this? Is it that we are the ones setting the new ‘targets of allowance’ every time to take our levels of excitement and entertainment a ‘notch up’?


I’ve tried not to react when watching such stuff within the criticism of me being a puritan, but every time that I see a little girl singing to an obvious song about hooking up with boys to have sex, it is my duty as a human being to strike a chat with them to get to know what they think about the song and if they have any idea of what the hell they are singing to.

We must stop considering the lascivious eyes that pay well for entertainment and start considering the ones that also have access to a remote control at the tips of their little fingers at home.

If we tolerate this, then your children will be next – Manic Street Preachers


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Watch the Fabrication of an ill-bred idea of ‘freedom’ that focuses on creating self-seeking individuals that pursue happiness wrapped with a glowing gold-like ribbon of  ‘free will’ to buy everything that you/ I ‘need’ to be ‘fitter, happier and more productive’ = Our society:

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2012 Physical Incorporated

The extent of separation that we have lived in separation from our very physical body is absolutely abhorring.

One single eye twitch and we can know that we are activating an entire network of self created relationships that we have participated in a continuous period of time, in relation to the past that we re-create here when we impose our ‘human nature’ as an experience toward others. One single eye twitch and hours of explanations that blew my mind for the while wherein I just realized how much I have disregarded my physical body. I mean, before I had thought that eye twitching was lacking potassium or some other mineral. What we haven’t even realized is how such minerals and physical energy is actually drained by the mind, and that is blood-curdling enough to realize that science fiction was never that far from Reality.

 

Writing is the structuring of self, as that which we will live by, as a new living direction that we all have to do for ourselves – this entire process depends on our individual participation – common sense: we are all here walking the same process and no one can walk each other’s mind for another.

 

While walking and hearing all of this, I noticed I probably had a face of being absolutely astounded to see how much we have neglected our human physical body. It is the most obvious point that we have missed, and it could not be any ‘further away’ in relation to how we are living at the moment, running around in circles in a conscious layer while not being able to be fully aware of ourselves Here as the Physical Body.

 

I mean, how come we never questioned the fact that we could not be aware of all the processes that go on within our body, how the blood runs through our veins, being aware of every breath and instead live as a constant threat toward our own life, ‘killing us slowly’ by draining life to support our most elaborate mindfucks.  Why is it that I am not able to see ‘This’ that I am existing as? Sure, our eyes of the mind only allow us to consciously look at ‘how we look’ – and, what did we do with it? We remained in that ‘how we look’ and made of ourselves an absolute 2 dimensional picture presentation of ourselves – it is abhorring to see to what extent we have neglected every single breath that has kept our ego running ‘alive.’

 

The fact that I can be grateful for is having the tools and the support to, for the very first time in my existence – be able to have all of this material and tools to support myself. I mean, we literally Do have everything on a golden platter, every single detail to the T of how we have created ourselves. We wanted to be gods yet remained in a closed polarity reality, switching off and on like a binary signal – definitely limited. I can only see how everything that I ever ‘thought’ I would ‘lose’ of myself was absolute bs that has, literally, no substance other than the one I gave to my thoughts to ‘live.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use and drain the very life substance that I exist as in the name of keeping my mental-reality ‘alive,’ while not being even aware of every breath that I take to do so.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and diminish who I am to a single picture presentation as a two dimensional reality that I have lived as my mind, as thoughts, feelings, emotions, conversations wherein I schemed a ‘life’ that ‘I’ could only get the most benefit from.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never question the fact that I could not be aware of my physical body as the actual ability to see how I am actually existing as, and abdicating my seeing-reality to a limited system wherein I have accepted and allowed myself to be self-enslaved to a series of experiences, emotions and feelings that I believed was ‘all there is’ to living, while neglecting my very own physical body in its entirety while focusing on chasing after an experience and pretend to be alive.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed of myself for having always remained within a limited idea, belief and perception of myself and never having dared to question who am I really, and how it is that I relegated my own physical body to being a ‘nuisance’ to myself, never really ever considering how separate and oblivious to my very own physical body I have actually being throughout my life.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that who I am as my thoughts could be the key to seeing and realizing the actual nature of myself, instead of seeing it as a limited and constricted program to which I thought I had ‘nothing to do with.’ Oh man, was I wrong.

 

I Forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to for the first time realize the extent to which I had lived only within my mind, seeking for experiences while neglecting the actual self-consumption, self abuse and self destruction that exists as a continual process every moment that I ‘give in’ to thinking, to feeling, to keeping myself busy with some internal conversation that has No physical relation to what Is HERE as myself.

And by HERE as myself it is realizing the extent to which I have abdicated my entire responsibility to an automated system wherein I could just ‘rejoice’ and do nothing, other than continuing wishing and hoping while neglecting the actual abuse that I was/ and still am inflicting to every single cell and atom within my physical body, by the single act of engaging into an emotional experience created at a mind level.

Because we cannot see it, because we cannot feel it, it doesn’t mean that it is not happening. And it is only ourselves that veiled ourselves from seeing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear for the very first time seeing the actual nature to which I am consuming myself and the reality that is here as me by my own participation in the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ponder an emotion, a feeling, a single energetic kick above every single breath that I have abused to power my ego-trips. I stop any judgment that comes with this as there is no point in making it more than what I have already done and become – I can only direct myself to establish myself to accept myself – the consequences of what I have become and walk the process that is here for me to finally be HERE as my physical body.

 

It is absolutely unacceptable how we go throughout our days, judging ourselves, our physical bodies for absolute bullshit while not being able to remember or even see how we are consuming the very life that keeps our judgments alive.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having sustained a lifetime of mindfucks alive with my every breath. Double judgment is always a double-mindfuck and it all must stop here.

 

So – we realize points, it is shocking yes – the most prominent reaction I had was when realizing to what extent we have kept us ‘living’ in this reality, absolute robots circling around our conscious mind  – and then came the realization that there is an entire process to walk, I mean, we are so far from actually ‘getting here’ that just a single twitch in our body is and has been an indication of to what extent we are feeding our own mind-assessments that we have abdicated life, the physical reality to.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce the physical life and reality that I am to a single thought, a single experience, a single energetic fix that creates a sensation that comes and goes just as it started – it cannot be real – how can it?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to separate myself from all parts that conform who I am as the physical and believing that ‘who I am’ only exists as the idea of ‘myself’ within ‘my mind.’ How ludicrous, I breathe and I realize that I can only direct myself to establish myself here, willing to walk my mind, taking responsibility for every single thread that I have created in separation of myself as a mind system that consumes the physical life that is here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to having lived a life of absolute self-interest wherein I took for granted every single process that my human physical body does in order to keep me alive. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me-from-me by opting to believe that living was an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a surrogate ‘living’ as the mind, as that comfortable limited experience wherein I did not have to see the truth of myself and where I neglected the very physicality that I exist as, relegating it to a second plane that I could only use to sell myself as an image, as a single picture presentation while neglecting the very life that exists in every pore that holds me.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to reduce life to being a business, a single corporation wherein I could remain as the eternal CEO believing to have ‘power’ over myself, without even realizing that I am not even aware of the very process that every breath that I take creates within my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependency to create an experience out of my every day living and breathing here – giving up my own physical living to a mono-reality wherein all that I confined myself to experience is myself as a mind, with constant thoughts while neglecting the totality that is here as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted the very cells that conform ‘who I am’ as a physical body. What does it mean to stand equal to and as my cells? That will only be lived, but for now I see that the least thing I can do to honor the life that I am by stopping using/ abusing it to feed my mental realms of self-judgment as a continuous self-righteous act upon the physical.

We have judged dictators, ‘powerful people’ abusing others to get to a certain position, while neglecting that we have and are doing the very same thing toward our physical bodies, using it and abusing it to keep our delusions of power as our ego-trips wherein we ‘believe’ that we are ‘above it all.’

How wrong have we been.  This is only as scratch on the surface.

 

I can only  renew my vows to live here and actually do so – I am aware of the consequences that we are facing for not having realized this before, it is definitely the least thing we can do here, to face the consequences for having separated ourselves from our very own physical body, from life by transforming it into a single shallow experience.

Everything is in constant movement inside ourselves, how come we have claimed we could be ‘still’- it is only a stillness of the mind that can exist! have a ‘look’/ physical-experience within yourself: blood is constantly flowing and endless processes are going on.

 

When and as I see myself worrying about some bs story in my mind, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am neglecting the very breath that is keeping my blood running and focus on realizing how it is that every breath is allowing me to give the next step to ‘enjoy myself’ while walking. lol how fun will it be to be able to finally be here, like literally realizing that all our ‘loneliness’ ideas is simply because of having existed as a mind system seeking for another mind system to talk to – neglecting every single cell that we could actually communicate to as ourselves – here – and to everything else. How could you ever get to feel ‘alone’ if we are actually in fact all that is here?

Some necessary buckets of cold water to realize how attentive we must be when walking this process – to never ‘lose sight’ of what is it that we are in fact doing here: walking out of the mind and into the physical.

 

I cannot say anything else other than give yourself the opportunity to investigate Desteni, the current interviews which have been like fire to melt down any little effigy I could have created of myself. I realize to what extent and with what ease we can recreate the same old patterns by simply giving into it again. It is also great because I see and realize there is no other way I could have ever faced myself.

 

Facing, walking the mind is having to let go of the greatest addiction that we have ever created, an addiction fed and sustained by life – how can we dare to judge a single point of abuse if we are doing this to ourselves every single moment that we are not HERE breathing?

I’ll stop here for now.

Thanks for breathing.

 

Read and realize many more points with and through Bernard’s words:

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2012 Wake up, Character: Life is not a Play!

“Your past history and all of your hurts are no longer here in your physical reality. Don’t allow them to be here in your mind, muddying your present moments. Your life is like a play with several acts. Some of the characters who enter have short roles to play, others, much longer. But all are necessary, otherwise they wouldn’t be in the play. Embrace them all, and move on to the next act.” Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

 

The reality is that the moment that we accepted and allowed ourselves to believe that ‘life is but a play-out of events’ and ‘people the characters in our play,’ we define and reduce our living-physical reality to a  single –and often looping – story-to-tell and cherish for a future, where we can ‘look back’ and get a kick-out of re-experiencing such memories in our minds. Is it that we are only predictable characters in a story that we apparently only ‘find ourselves walking into’? ‘When,who, what and how am I generating these experiences and events in my reality?’ – ‘How on Earth have I gotten myself to this current experience?’ ‘Why am I torturing myself with self-deprecating thoughts?’ ‘Why can’t I stop thinking about the past!’

These are common sense questions that we tend to shove under the rug in one single moment, and it is in such moments that we have ‘skipped’ in our reality that we blindly accept that such experiences as thoughts, feelings and emotions are ‘Real’ – the blasphemy that comes when saying: it was all in your mind’ often crushes the gist that some have defined as an energetic kick gotten from a ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ experience in our reality – yet it was never actually REAL, but only generated within our own minds. Who we are here is the accumulation of the past, present  – and certainly if we continue the same way, the future as well – thus Time is only a nice elusive trap to believe that we have actually moved – yet we haven’t – we are here, we remain here and the only thing that will move is self as the establishment of being and becoming a living-moment of breath, of self directing self in such simple moments wherein we are Here or only perpetuating the past.

Have we exchanged this living moment of breath for a limited rush of experiences that eventually wither and decay? Who are the ones enslaving ourselves to such mental relationship? We are – and ‘moving on’ won’t be as easy as just saying so.

 

Who created and manifested such ‘hurts’ in our life? We did – what Dr. Wyer suggests is only using a band-aid solution to any accumulated backchat and reactions toward a particular person or event in our life that we fed in a direct way through our own thoughts, emotions and feelings. It is easy to say ‘embrace it all and move on’ as if the human mind was so ‘detachable’ from everything that we have linked ourselves to in specific relationships, we become our relationships and it’s clear that in our current reality, all relationships have been based on being self-interest driven characters that sought personal drama and glory all the time. How limited, to be dead honest.

 

These nice theatrical statements lead us to believe that ‘we must seek characters for our play!’ lol – and then go through life yearning to establish a point of connection with people to have some drama in our life. And I speak for myself in this – I was so imbued in storytelling and living through books that I only yearned and desire to live some of the experiences that the Characters of the books had. We called this ‘series of events’ as ‘life’ – experiences that we lead ourselves-to within the accepted and allowed belief that living is going through this rollercoaster of highs and lows – just like how sugar and love create a chemical reaction within our minds, wherein the moment we are ‘on a low,’ we seek the next rush in one way or another. In my case even the pit of depression would feel ‘good,’ because it was still a miserable energetic experience, eventually becoming a constant dependency that must be kept ‘down’ as a constant mental-state that I would feed with words, pictures, ideas and beliefs about the world, people, etc… Ehm-hem: it was all in my head!

 

Whether being the tormented or a cheerful positive person, both poles lead us to believe that life is a high end of a low and vice versa – lol – is it, really? Sounds more like the mechanism of a rollercoaster ride. Are we only these experience-seeking beings going up and down, bouncing off one moment then dozing off, then waking up to seek the next greatest energetic experience?

 

Move on to the next act’ – again, another play, another story to tell, another sequence of events that must have an ‘extra layer of adrenaline’ to make it better than the last one, more ‘extreme’ and ‘outrageous’ – just for the sake of gaining props in our personal scores. The next act we create with other people that apparently ‘leave a mark’ on us, never realizing that all experiences we created toward ‘them’ have always only existed in our own minds.

 

Is life – better said- should life be reduced to such feeble mind acts? No, that’s definitely dishonoring the very breath that holds all our mindfucks alive. Is it that we have never realized it? I’d say it’s more a point of not having allowed us to stop for a moment to see ‘who am I within seeking the next greatest ‘fix’ in my life? – ‘Is seeking to create events an actual way of Living?’ – What is Living?

 

Being here as breath, being absolutely self-directive in everything we do, think, say and how we interact with others is the base foundation of a life based in and as a sequence of breaths and not ‘events’ that hold the entire novel-like development, taking us on a ride up until the never quenching moment of climax/ orgasm that can only last for a moment to inevitably – by Newton’s law – fall back into a low, leaving us like addicts seeking for one more ‘ticket to ride.’ LOL

The power of equality is the gravity that bounds us to the Earth, to that which is real and applies to all. It is only the helium that we pump into our minds as thoughts and feelings that make us believe we can fly.

 

Oh god, all our songs, our culture, our behavior, our personalities, our characters defined according to playing a role in this entire play that we have called life – is it REALLY this in-and-out reality all that we are? Are we supposed to only be these storytellers that must always have a happy-glowing end or a tragically absurd type of human misery that leaves us Also craving for more?

No – who we are as Life must not be defined by energetic experiences that are self-created and induced as chemical reactions that we eventually become addicted to. No one can blame another for being an addict, because we all are as long as we are seeking for our next big score.

 

We are more than capable of scripting a reality that is constantly based on a living-physical experience that is satisfactorily for ALL as Equals – no need to create fluffy-puffy experiences to believe that ‘we’ve made it’ somehow. Lol! This is about Life!  Not a race! How can it be? We have trapped-ourselves into but an illusion of winning and losing – loving and hating – wanting and rejecting – all existent in our own minds.

 

So, the point is quite clear now: we require to stand as the principle that writes a script to LIVE, to enjoy and express for the sake of actually experiencing our physical bodies and sharing ourselves with others as well – allowing all to see that any mystical idea of being in a tragic comedy is only a game played to keep us busy in our minds, to then seek for a remedy to our own self-created misery – neglecting  the actual reality that certainly requires our full attention to see that what others are physically enduring is not only a ‘role in the play’ but the consequence of us living in fairy tales and missing out on ReALLity – we have become real ET’s on this earth, living up in our minds while missing hearing the grass grow.

 

So, we’re here to become the actual Characters that Live, the care-takers of the Earth = the Living Words that are not only a flickering result of lights that go on and off in a binary mode. I suggest that you give yourself a chance to take your life by the hand, and walk yourself out of these squared lines to finally hold the pen and script the life that you are willing to live for eternity as All, as One and Equal.

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“Love and Feeling must be understood to stop the abuse that is allowed in its name as Biochemistry. What is Real? man know thyself!!!”
Bernard Poolman 

 

No more strings attached to the past, the future or the present – no more Tie-me’s that exist only as the mind. We exist here in every breath that we take in and out – moment by moment wherein we establish who we are as Life or a character that lives through the eyes of the mind. What do you choose to be?


2012 Dreamcatchers: Who Imagined this Fuckup?

 

“Be willing to dream, and imagine yourself becoming all that you wish to be. Keep in mind the basic axiom — all that now exists was once imagined. It follows then that what you want to exist for you in the future must now be imagined.”

Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

 

“all that now exists was once imagined.”

This can only lead us to ponder the nature of the accepted and allowed mind that could go to the extent of imagining a world in poverty, starvation, war, rape, crime, animal abuse, violence, genocides, political and economical enslavement affecting the lives of billions of beings that are currently pending from one string to remain alive. Is our imagination something that we could be proud of?

Have you ever pondered how ‘comfortable’ it is to sit within our minds and ‘fly away’ into an alternate reality for a moment, only having to snap back to reality wherein the landing is often rather bumpy – why? Because in our imagination we ‘take the wheel’ whereas in reality, we have allowed ourselves to be driven by our own thoughts wherein we believe that: what we think, we can manifest. Is it really so, Mr. Dyer?

 

That ‘mind’ has been ourselves all the way: we created everything that is here, as it is, and within the current aberrant conditions we’re living in, we care realize that we manifested a fuckup as our reality that we have now covered up with a thick layer of glossy and sticky statements like Dr. Dyer’s quote above– how fluffy and nice! ‘Be willing to dream!’ I mean, as if it wasn’t known that sleeping is one of the most common methods to suppress our experiences and avoid facing our reality which is, yes, not a nice cotton-candy reality wherein we can all enjoy ourselves – however: we created it!

 

This reality has become the polarity opposite of our ‘wildest dreams and imagination’ wherein everyone is fearing each other, living only to get the next paycheck and seeking to fulfill the inner-experience with relationships that are mostly adding on to the self abuse in this world. Is this what We Imagined? or rephrasing: How come our imagination never fit the actual reality wherein any super-happiness and ultimate bliss-dream cannot possibly be fulfilled as a reality for ALL Beings? Of course, if Dr. Dyer speaks to the rich and famous that can follow the dreams through playing the game in the system, then there’s an obvious counter productive and abusive side to sustain such ‘charming’ words. Having such ‘bliss’ can only happen at the expense of others, and this is the single acceptance that reveals our ‘true nature’ within the ability to only imagine and fool-fill ourselves with unrealistic panoramas that are mostly keeping everyone busy making money to hypothetically make them their reality. That took quite some nitty-gritty scheming that we are all participants of as this entire system.

 

It’s a usual selling-grip to instigate human’s gullibility to buy that which sounds like honey to your ears – I mean, who on Earth wants to hear about Self-Responsibility and Self-Honesty and creating a world that is best for all through actual work? Not many, unfortunately – however what Mr. Dyer is missing is that: life cannot be neglected, denied, suppressed or even cheated through magic games like ‘imagining your best possible scenario and it will manifest!’

 

How predictable have we become to literally buy-into such glorious effortless quotes, that add fuel to an already fucked up Idea that living is about accumulating stuff that can define ‘who you are’ or ‘having all the money in the world’ or getting the ‘person of your dreams,’ which is certainly – proven 100% here by the writer of these words – Not what you ever expected it all to be. The fame and glamour that  you believe you want to get eventually becomes a nightmare for many – not even in having it all would you be able to sort out your inner-conflict that is most likely Not solved with money.

 

Bottom line is: when imagination meets reality you can either stop fueling these mindsturbations by daring to be Self-Honest and realistic about the current situation we’re living in and facing within this world – or you can decide to continue mind-fucking yourself which implies not only doing it to yourself, but dragging more along, such as what Mr. Dyer is doing within peddling such statements that are Not in any way whatsoever supportive for humanity.

 

How easy it is to sell dreams.

 

Dare to be Self Honest, Dare to see that his world is NOT here for our personal-fulfillment while having some actually slaving their time away while barely having anything to eat, just to make ‘your wishes and dreams come true.’

 

Who’s been the abuser and evil in this world all along?

 

Time to take Self Responsibility and dare to actually LIVE – it won’t be as easy as wishing or hoping without realizing that we can actually – instead of hoping and wishing –create a reality that is tangibly physically best for ALL LIVING BEINGS.

If you seek to ‘dream’ and ‘imagine’ just because your life is apparently ‘sad and miserable,’ read the following quote and see that reality is not about mansions, ‘beautiful men/ women,’ wine racks, boats and personal gurus that massage your ears with words that temporarily satiate your ever quenching ego as the mind – reality is something that our human experience cannot even grasp at this stage. Will you Dare to be Real or do you fear losing your ability to imagine and dream?

 

 

“To feel sad implies there is something lost or that can be lost – nothing real can ever be lost – Humans are not real –their bodies are real and will remain and return to earth when the opportunity of equality is recalled suddenly in a breath — when there are no more humans left and only life remain in various forms – you will not miss the illusion as it would never fit in with reality.” – Bernard Poolman

 

In the end: all that was mind-created will simply NOT exist as it was never real in the first place.

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2012 Meet your maker

In the back of my head – backchat – there is this thought ‘why am I once again having to talk about ‘God!’ as a resistance to go again into this topic. However, throughout the past years walking the Desteni material I came to realize how I could not side-view this concept – aside from the various beliefs I held about it in the past – thus I see it as a relevant point because it has become our chronic state of dementia, forgetting that initial moment of separation that lead ourselves to who and what we are currently living in.

This is going  beyond any usual idea/ belief or concept of a Christian or Muslim or Jewish idea of ‘god’; this is about the single acceptance and allowance of ‘god’ as a primordial separation from being one and equal – this is that basic make-believe IDEA of anything/ anyone being able to be ‘more’ than who we are.

Back in 2008 when the Reptilian interviews came out on YouTube, I was immediately ‘hooked on’ to them. I understood that any reaction that I could get toward their presentation was only a reaction to the  inherent ‘nature’ that resides within us all – I understood what the infamous ‘image and likeness’ meant as the ‘human nature’ that sought to be god at all times – we are still living that, certainly, look at this system, it is a dog eat dog world wherein controlling, manipulating and having ‘power’ over others is still an alluring idea that many have defined as a point of ‘fear’ – who would we be if we had all the money in the world? What would this world be if everyone allowed themselves to step upon anything and anyone in order to ‘get to the top’? However, the point here is looking at how such ‘power’ and ‘top’ has been in fact an induced belief, a fantasy created upon what is here which we can see now manifested as the cruel reality wherein because of some striving and fighting to be ‘on top,’ some have to be invariably existing ‘below’ and in the worst conditions that we might not even be able to outline here. And this is our creation.

 

It is within this point that we place ourselves in the shoes of the contemporary gods which can be ‘rich people’ that are able to ‘do as they will’  because of such godly-power that money represents. But, let’s rewind a bit: how on Earth have we gotten from Anu the mythological god that is often seen as ‘malevolent’ and the punching-bag for how fucked up this reality turned out to be, into this current reality?

 

In the interview that was released 2 days ago [1] he declares how he had only used what was already HERE within a basic realization: he is one and equal as that ‘source’ that everyone would deem themselves as coming from instead of being one and equal-to it.  Once again, the use of words is precise here – we must distinguish to what extent a refractional-shift in meaning can mean the whole world going into enslavement. Yes, this is the moment when we would all have to go quiet for a second to re-consider how much shit we can talk with no awareness whatsoever, which is what we have manifested and poured-out as this half-baked reality wherein the raw nature of this creation could not be essentially ‘someone’s creation’ only, but was astutely recognized and used by a single being in order to be ‘god,’ to be that point that has ‘the whole world in his hands.’

 

What we often miss is that: it takes two to tango.

I’ve received probably hundreds now of angry comments on the reptilian interviews, trying to blame Anu for how this reality exist now, yet having no understanding of creator and creation being in fact one and equal. It became quite obvious early on that having the reptilian gods presenting themselves to ‘their creation’ was yet another opportunity in a golden platter to realize ourselves, to understand that they had merely used what was already here as a preprogrammed system and manipulated it into a specific energetic functionality that became an ongoing enslavement. Anu reveals his true-intentions in part 2 with specific details about the energetic system that we are still living out – fascinating stuff to place into perspective everything that we had deemed as ‘who we are’ without ever having been able to realize and understand what was it that it was all actually for.

 

As I went hearing them I kept having this immediate clicks on what is it that he was actually revealing here: he had been nothing else but part of the same game, he merely played the role in this reality of ‘god’ – we have missed the fact that it is still ‘us’ as a separate point playing the character that would show us to what extent we could be blinded by the illusion of the ‘physical experience’ and all its pleasures and divinities. These divine-ties is what we accepted then as a life on Earth, a life filled with both your greatest misery and your ‘greatest excitement’ – all of these back and forth rides for the sheer purpose of using the Earth’s energy, human beings going from cathode to anode and create enough energy to produce the white-light that we then, foolishly, sought to ‘go to,’ always missing that we were in fact the ones generating it.

Duh.

 

It is ludicrous  and I even experience that I am missing a word here in order to explain this ‘forgetfulness’ – yet self-created and self-indulgent deception of the human within this accepted and allowed self-enslavement within an automated system. This is about words in separation of ourselves that became beliefs, that became make-believe systems such as the one we have now with our god-money system.

 

The revelation that Anu brings forth is that he merely played his part within this entire scheme that is self-created. And the truth is that I see this as a very long and tumultuous process to realize who and what we really are, a system that has been agreed and placed by all of us, always forgetting about it because we had to see to what extent we would abuse each other in the name of a God. Who’s been the dishonest ones all the way? We all have.

 

This sounds absolutely abhorring – however it is real, as real as having more than half of the world still suffering this primordial separation. This idea becomes suffocating for me at the moment – this is the actual moment when we see what we have done onto ourselves – everything becomes so clear and it seems like the most vile yet perfect plan for us to get caught in our own bite of the apple, stuck within the same point forever: we all wanted to be god, we all wanted to have the same power that Anu was able to simply acknowledge as one and equal as himself and use it, play along with it.

 

This was the ‘key’ point and decisive factor: while everyone else was believing to ‘come from source,’ he could realize himself as one and equal as everything that is here. However, the fact that he acknowledges that he wasn’t a self-directive consciousness implies that there is yet a lot more to understand and follow through in his interviews. There’s a ‘desire to know’ which comes from a curiosity point that arises – but it’s also from the basic god-debunking factor that re-draws the map of what this reality is, who we are, what we are, where we come from, how is it that we accepted and allowed ourselves to exist here as we are now.

The relevance of this material is not for mere ‘mystery solving’ purposes – no, absolutely not. This can be applied in virtually everything that we do in this reality till this day, as it is understanding the very ‘driving force’ that we live-by in every moment when existing as a mind-system.

Look at politics and ‘the system’ – we believe that there is this ‘system entity = god’ that is ‘more than ourselves,’ that cannot be questioned, that cannot be changed – and if I learned something today was understanding how it is the actual fear of challenging such ‘untouchable entities’ not from the perspective of ‘winning’ over them or boycotting them – as it is usual to approach such ‘entities’ for example within activism – but to actually debunk the embroidery they represent as a single self-created over-wrought presentation that we deemed as ‘superior,’ separate from ourselves instead of realizing who and what we are as one and equal as it. This is where the ‘as’ particle throughout the Desteni material represents such a key-word within the acknowledgement of everything and all being ‘it’ as well. As = we are it as well.

 

All of the grammatical categories become a single way of creating different shades of the same color – it’s always been us as one and equal  – yet in separation of ourselves we have fucked each other into oblivion, always forgetting that anything and anyone that we ‘fought against’ has been only ourselves.

It is not only saying ‘I am a part of you’ but ‘I am one and equal as you’ – man, imagine all the fucked up relationships we’ve created with ourselves beginning with our own mind, then toward our family, then toward this ‘god’ idea as that supernatural being or any other form of ‘god’ as anything that we could deem as ‘powerful’ or ‘superior’ to ourselves – the most commonly known god at the moment is money, for sure, a make believe system that we have endowed with the power of giving life and death – which also were points introduced by Anu, he’ll go into it within the following interviews he’s placed out for our de-light.

The relevance within this is seeing how the so-called and self-proclaimed ‘God’ is now talking to us in a rather modest manner once that he is willing to share how he’s just ‘played his part’ and has not been in fact a ‘creator’ but only a great manipulator of what was already here.

Hence, it is not that the nature of ourselves as humanity comes specifically ‘from him’ – common sense is: it’s always been part of ‘who we are,’ probably from that very first moment of separation. He just had to become that role of ‘superiority’ and extrapolate it to an extent wherein ‘his manipulation’ upon this this creation went out of control, wherein he even got himself out of the game because of not realizing what he was actually ‘dealing-with’ which is life, substance, what is HERE and has always been here.

 

As long as there is polarity, there is ego – as long as there is a lived-perception of ‘high and low’ ‘good and bad’ ‘up and down’ ‘rich and poor’ ‘winner and loser,’ the idea of god is still existent. It is just like people wanting to ‘crack capitalism’ which is no different to wanting to ‘cease the existent as god’ yet becoming oblivious to ‘how to do it.’ Common sense is: stop participating in going from the cathode to the anode generating the same polarity-experiences. But the point is not to ‘eradicate god’ only as a concept/ idea/ belief – it is about actually understanding how the fuck we created IT in the first place! What is it that god represents? Is it the extrapolated epitome of our communal desires to be ‘above all’? Is such god actually the image and likeness and mirror of ‘our inherent nature’ that we then turned our backs on, pretending that ‘someone else did it to ourselves?’

If we understand this, how ‘evil’ can we be to claim amnesia and label only ‘him’ as evil for daring to play out such a character in our reality – it takes two to tango and in that we are all equally responsible for abdicating self-responsibility, for going the easy way out to fulfill our individual yearnings in separation of ourselves.

Is this all going to be about the promise of an outrageous physical experience on Earth? Have we all fallen for the same points over and over and over again without being able to remember why we created such recycling system in the first place?

Were we always desiring to ‘experience’ something, hence the primordial point of separation, labeling him or any other ‘godly character’ as ‘evil’ for daring to epitomize our inherent secret desire to be ‘god,’ to be ‘above it all’?

These questions place into perspective what we have always missed which is ourselves – it is only now pertinent that we face the consequences of having allowed such separation – there is no other way to do it as we all know how easy it is to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and do nothing about it. Using love and lies as a self-talk that is ‘positive’ is like trying really hard to avoid seeing/ realizing who and what we really are.

I also realize that I am sharing what I have realized at the moment – but this can only be realized by-you if you give yourself the opportunity to actually walk the process which is walking ourselves as this process of self-realization, understanding our own mind and how this reality function so that we can take on the wheel again and become self-directive beings that ensure no other fuckup is perpetuated ever again in this existence – no matter ‘how’ the future looks like – we focus at the moment in this lifetime, we have this one-opportunity to realize ourselves as one and equal and actually take responsibility for this reality. There are no more ‘future moments’ for that, we direct and dedicate ourselves to be and become that which we always should have been: living as one and equal – the implication of doing that, the necessary changes and transformation is already here and explained as this entire process of Self-Honesty wherein we get to understand How it is that the mind is not who we really are and how it is that we must focus on the physical reality that is the direct consequence of having imposed a value-system as a hierarchical-godly system to enslave each other in order to be ‘more’ than another.

So, we continue walking and integrating this understanding so that we’re able to finally correct such ‘inherent nature’ for once and for all.

Anu’s interviews are able to be found at Eqafe

                                                                

Listen to the First interview:

[1] Anu the Reptilian God in 2012


Allegory of the Cave: our excuse to remain as slaves

 

The fact is that we come into this world without having any idea of ‘Why on Earth are we here’ becomes our drive in this reality. We then equate living to achieving goals, having a family, becoming successful (rich) – becoming a ‘winner’ in everything we do, following a single ‘dream’ without really questioning if such ‘missions’ or goals in life are actually what we are here for.

 

The accepted idea of us coming from a state of ‘forgetfulness’ and coming here to get back to ‘remembering’ something is already placing a massive condition to ‘who’ and ‘what we are’ from the get-go. This ‘forgetfulness’ must not be understood as ‘getting to complete ourselves’ here on Earth, but getting to realize how it was a deliberate plan to enslave man to always want to KNOW and Never Live.

That’s the key point of this here and I had to drive around in circles to get to the following: Life is Not Knowledge

 

Man Know Thyself

 

Getting to know yourself implies getting to see how we function within ourselves – the relationship toward our own mind – as well as the relationships we have formed that we have called ‘Life.’ If we have a look at it, the law of our being is currently compromised by money and the delusion of ‘power’ – we have then created our own cave wherein we have delegated our power to play only with shadows, believing that those that cast them are ‘more than ourselves’ and even separate from who we really are.

The fact is that we have forgotten to ‘know ourselves’ as the understanding that: we have set the rules of the game, we have cheated ourselves into believing it was never our ‘creation’ and that we could blame some ‘God’ for it.  It is now our turn to establish some basic living-conditions that will enable Life to flourish where there has been none, previously.

 

“God is really all people know and then this is called Man know thyself –that should be Man know thyself as Life” – Bernard Poolman

 

What Plato described as ‘Real Knowledge’ within this context would be knowledge that can be lived as living-words that stand within a practical realization of what Life is and can be lived-as in this world. This is now re-defining the usual philosophical rhetoric that never lead to a tangible and useful ‘use of words.’

We have lived ‘knowledge’ in a separate realm within our reality.

Equating enlightenment to the ability that some ‘privileged ones’ have, as passing on knowledge to the ‘ignorant ones’ already places an unequal starting point within the game. The Lie that is accepted and allowed is that the world of ‘ideas’ is what is real, when in fact we words not lived have been a primordial separation from what is here as the physical reality.

 

If we take the Allegory of the Cave as an example to illustrate this, the Prisoners of are set ‘by default’ as the natural-condition we are born into – yet we invariably created at some point that is ‘not remembered.’ We get to this reality wherein we are placed to race within this ‘game of life’ to attain nothing else but Knowledge that will apparently ‘set us free’ and give us an actual realization of what ‘Reality’ is.

 

Who are then those that solace themselves casting the shadows of a make-believe reality for the prisoners? We all are.  Even before that! Why on Earth did we allow ourselves to place us in such a position as  ‘prisoners’ wherein some others would be casting the theatre of shadows ?

We did – in our attempt to be ‘more’ than the rest – self interest which later on was capitalized as seeing everything with eyes of ‘personal power’ and a strong desire to obtain anything and all that could fulfill a sense of ‘freedom.’

Once we start asking the pertinent questions to everything we’ve bought as our ‘reality,’ we’ll start really taking the illusion of the shadows and the light of knowledge for what it is: our own knowledge trap that would perpetuate ourselves as prisoners wanting to ‘get out of the cave’ through attaining this ‘ultimate knowledge’ which leads to a perpetual state of ‘happiness’ and ‘everlasting grace.’

Nowadays we call this process the pursuit of happiness.

 

The fire is specific – light as enlightenment that only a few can achieve if having enough money for it.

 

Anything that could have bound us to keep facing the wall of shadows as some invisible force as the White Light as God, as Consciousness, has been debunked. 

 

What is left then? The ingrained idea that what we are doing here as humanity is seeking ‘God,’ seeking Knowledge, seeking ‘The Truth’ that will ‘Set us Free.’

 

So, we direct such myths to explain our current reality to a point of support.

 

 

We Cast the Shadows

“So what we see and experience is not necessarily real, yet we give existence to anything from actual structures to thoughts, concepts, ideas anything possible by our human mind. Existence is that which we give existence to and as – becoming that which we experience ourselves within and as..”[6]

 

The reality of the prisoners was depending on the shadows casted by those set as the shadow-creators behind the prisoners. In our reality that role is performed by those with enough money in the world to dictate the rules and the reality: politicians, corporations, bankers, elites as families and sects that were deliberately placed in this reality in order to maintain ‘God’s order.’ The fact is that till this day, they are seen as the ones to blame for our current status of the world – we never realized that they are also part of the game and that in fact, we have all accepted and allowed it in an equal manner.

 

This makes us all responsible because, what is money but knowledge imposed onto this reality as an ‘unchangeable’ and ‘unchallengeable truth’ – it is our own deliberate system of separation to make some remain facing a wall with shadows while others had the light to cast the show. This is allowing some to remain as the directors of the game – apparently – as ‘more’ than those who remained ‘tied and bound’ to facing a wall as prisoners – they never could realize each other as equals. We have accepted the shadows to be as real the same way that those that were deliberately and placed in the position of ‘casting the shadows’ believed themselves to be in control of this existence. The fact is that not even the creators were actually ‘in control’ of what is here – Life is directing now.

 

 

At an individual level we create this ‘wall’ in front of us as well, whenever we keep believing that the shadow we see in front of us is ‘everything we are,’ we see ourselves trapped and enslaved by this self-image/ self-idea, without ever questioning why on Earth are we even bound to this cave-reality with shackles that can definitely be taken off if we all agree it IS what’s best for all to Live.

 

See, this premise of the ‘prisoners’ in reality is that “original sin” that we have believed we must ‘pay for’ and this is something that could not have been understood until now that we get to hear from our Real ‘forefathers’ where and how and why we are here on Earth. [2]

 

 

Within identifying the shadows as knowledge, as all the ideas and systems imposed onto this reality, we get to see how we are directly responsible for perpetuating and accepting this reality ‘as is,’ because it was all we had ever known.

 

We just ‘can’t’ remember that we created such forgetfulness in the first place, and this is where the importance of studying the Desteni material exists. We would not be able to tell the ‘truth’ of reality as is without having the ability to ‘know’ beyond our own mind as that only instrument of cognition within this reality. That is through the Interdimensional Portal which should already be regarded as a once in a lifetime opportunity for humanity to see and understand what we have become, why are we here on Earth, how is it that we have created this world in separation and from there, while being able to understand and educate ourselves about the actual process of Creation. We have been the Gods we have blamed for our current situation in the world: we have set the rules all along.

 

 

Out of the Cave into Reality

because we created it in the first place

We are all responsible because we all accepted and allowed even the creation of allegories and mythologies as plausible and ‘credible’  explanations to our own deliberate separation, to justify our beliefs, our spitefulness toward each other in disregard of the whole. We created our own demise through accepted and allowed separation from each other as words– we tried to make sense of this world through knowledge and information and forgetting about the reality that has and always remained here.  [2]

 

Without understanding HOW we created ourselves as the reality that each one of us is constantly living and playing-out within the context of replaying the past, present and future, we will remain holding on to this shadow-like reality wherein we can only complain, feel miserable about the idea that we accepted and allowed ourselves to actually become.  It is through our very own participation in the constant and continuous thinking and communication based on this idea of being ‘separated from source/ left by God,’ that we began creating these words as ‘who we are,’ as prisoners that have been forever cast out from the realization and living experience of being one and equal.[3]

 

What are beliefs but words that are taken as ‘truths’ that eventually become part of our self-definition, it becomes ‘who we are’ without questioning it further.

 

“We are as real as what we have allowed ourselves to become as this world– the world being a system expression equal to our minds –we use our minds to create all the machines and technology–our minds interdimensionally actual looks exactly like the systems and machines and TV’s and computers we have in this world–that is our apparent evolution — the externalization of the mind into form — the next stage is the mind becoming actual physical form — this will be really tough to live through — prepare yourself effectively as all sentient life will face this in all ways” – Bernard Poolman

 

 

This is how we are walking a process of placing out the ‘truth’ of ourselves as thoughts, ideas, beliefs and perceptions of who we are, what we have become through our own accepted and allowed thoughts as patterns that we have continued playing out as ‘who we are.’ This goes from the micro to the macro – each self-belief as the self-religion that we have bound ourselves-to has become our own self-created cage that we feel we are betraying every time that we dare to equalize ourselves as God, as everything that is Here. How ludicrous! And some of us have gone to the extent of blaming a ‘god’ or some other beings in apparent  ‘higher positions’ for this separation, without ever actually realizing that: we did this to ourselves, I did this to myself, by a single belief in Separation.

 

 

Knowledge is ‘God’ and ‘God’ became an excuse

The words that created such separation as a belief became ‘our law,’ it became almost like ‘the word of God’ that no one ever dared to question again.

Knowledge is separation, words not lived are all lies told to justify our irresponsibility – we’ve knitted our own blindfold to remain in a victimized state within this world, feeling like the prisoners seeking to get out of the cave at any cost – even if that means enslaving our lives to menial jobs that could at least ‘shed some light’ to our day to day experience as temporary energetic fixes like fixating on love, happiness, bliss, light, money… Is this Living? No! Absolutely not – can we stop and change the current accepted reality? Of course we can.

Knowledge has  become our very own trap as the elaboration of words that could justify our deliberate belief on separation from what is Here. Knowledge became the words that we speak, the words that we have perpetuated as ‘who we are’ which is what is currently being taught as our philosophy, religion, morals, cultural values and mythologies wherein the role of ‘God’ is the utmost separation toward all humans[4].

 

‎”Spreading the word of God is equivalent to spreading a message of terror – the fear it creates makes humans blind to reality.” 
– Bernard Poolman

 

It is madness to see how a single be-LIE-f has separated ourselves from Li(E)Fe through believing that only through a process of enLIEtenment we could ‘attain’ the truth of ourselves once again. Knowledge and information as God, as the ‘law of our being’ in absolute discordance to the reality that is HERE and has always been here.

In essence this is us showing/ revealing to ourselves how it is that blaming and projecting our own misery, feeling ‘enslaved’ to this world is a self-created belief that we then formed as ourselves as the physical reality we live in now, creating the idea of the ‘original sin’ that we then would have to redeem ourselves from.

 

“We are the Living-Words that has become Contaminated by the Knowledge we have Accepted.” Bernard Poolman [5]

 

We are here to establish the living principle we have neglected while following knowledge. We have been ‘separated’ from reality, never realizing that such separation has been self-created and never inflicted by a higher-being. We must now as a matter of self-responsibility make sure we dissect all possible separation that is now ingrained at the systematic level of our reality – as our laws, policies and values that are embedded on to anything as a price tag.

We have justified suffering and abuse through our own elaborate words as knowledge. Who is the real ‘evil’ in this word then?

It’s time to take Self Responsibility for our creation, it cannot be ‘clearer’ than this that it is us the ones that have played the joke on this existence.

 

Seek life–dump knowledge–who you really are created knowledge–let your creation not be the controller of you as creator”   Bernard Poolman

 

 

Sources:

[2] The Cross’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni,  2012

[3] The Decision’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[4] ‘The Friction’ – Atlantean Interviews through the Interdimensional Portal. Desteni, 2012

[5] Poolman, Bernard. “Knowledge.” Bernard Poolman Quotes. Desteni, 01 Mar 2012. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://bernardpoolmanquotes.wordpress.com/2012/03/01/knowledge/>.

[6]  “What is existence?.” Desteni. Desteni, n.d. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-is-existence>.

 

Suggested Read:

Poolman, Bernard. ” The Age of Knowledge – The Point of Consciousness and The Power of Now.” Desteni. Desteni, 21 Aug 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-23-the-age-of-knowledge-the-point-of-consciousness-and-the-power-of-now>.

Poolman, Bernard. “’The Secret Knowledge of God’.” Desteni. Desteni, 18 Dec 09. Web. 1 Mar 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/interviews-from-the-farm-42-the-secret-knowledge-of-god>.

“What was the White Light and why did it exist?.” Desteni. Desteni, 2007. Web. 1 Mar 2012. http://desteni.org/a/questions-and-perspectives-what-was-the-white-light-and-why-did-it-exist.


2012 Self Forgiveness: How-To, Why, What, Where, When?

So, I’m watching Desteni videos – I am going one after the other looking for the ‘magic code’ that I can use to essentially deprogram myself now that I’ve understood that we have been preprogrammed Mind Consciousness Systems and we require to do something about it! I definitely don’t want to remain just as another ‘consciousness robot’ that’s not living, but only killing time – What do I have to do? – Where do I find the way out? – What’s the secret?’  these were my thoughts 4 years ago.

Initially I got so freaked out by watching the videos and hearing the words ‘STOP THE MIND’ so many times, that I feared ending up in like a vegetative state. I thought that this process was simply impossible and wondered how on Earth will I go on through my life with ‘No Mind’! I admit here that I was very gullible, that’s probably one of the reasons why I indulged into so much bullshit (spirituality and conspiracy theories) that I researched right before getting to Desteni. With having this ‘background,’  I didn’t take into consideration what was actually meant by ‘stopping the mind,’ and only allowed myself to get into what I now call ‘the whiner experience’ wherein I created a turmoil of thoughts, giving up on myself even before I started. This was due to this process being seemingly  impossible at first glance: ‘too much’, ‘unbearable’, ‘How will I do this?’ – It worried me for a while, lol, all part of the same mind-experience created within myself.

Within this state of enraged-pity, I sent a message to the guys at Desteni explaining my situation, how I was literally ‘losing my mind’ by realizing that I had to stop my mind – and wondered how will I live, what will I be? Etc. The reply that I got from them was, to my surprise, of such simplicity and obviousness that I literally laughed out loud while reading it, as I realized how usual this experience had been throughout my life: it was my mind throwing a tantrum, the mind’s defense mechanism to not have to go through this process = it’s not who I really am as life the one that’s complaining! So, this point became an initial realization: stopping myself from being the whiner. Ever since then I have shared that video with anyone that experiences the same point of it all being seemingly ‘impossible’ to walk through, only to realize that it’s the mind’s survival mechanism kicking-in and literally crying out for help when realizing: we’re about to debunk its kingdom.

Once I got over my initial reactions, I simply continued watching the material.

Self Forgiveness ?

I constantly heard the words Self-Honesty, Self-Forgiveness, Writing, Breathing, Self Corrective Application in the videos, which I inferred was ‘the way to go.’ I began assessing my then ‘values’ and ‘stance’ toward such words.

I was a ‘pro-Honesty’ person within the understanding of what ‘being Honest’ is/means in the system, which could have been like declaring war toward another being or country in a ‘rational and logical’ manner, and be considered as ‘being honest’ by ‘speaking the truth of their intentions’ without ever considering what’s best for all in such words/ decisions. I had considered myself to be a ‘frank person’ within those parameters, not really considered ‘what’s best for all’ in such a honest self-created idea of myself.  So, this is how I began opening eyes to what SELF-Honesty was, which made sense to me in every bit of it.

Writing was something I had been doing at the time – yet definitely using it as a reinforcement of my own personalities wherein poems or lyrics to songs I never sang would come through, lol – in essence, I wrote to form and shape my personality, just like a sculpture that I was busy creating of myself as a nice idea that I could wear. Those writings became the ‘code’ so to speak, wherein I would reassure to myself ‘who I was’ and why I thought in a particular way, why I liked or disliked the world.  I didn’t really write to get me out of my self-created‘hole,’ but rather reinforced it and justified it as ‘a way of living.’ This was all I would write about at that time.

When realizing what the process consisted of, I understood that this had to be developed in order to ‘change the world.’ I had no problem in directing such points into a ‘one and equal’ understanding, but… Self Forgiveness? All types of judgments went on inside me along with the usual questions like: ‘Why do I have to forgive myself?’ ‘Why can’t I just ‘let it go/ stop it?’ – ‘Isn’t that a religious thing?’ – ‘Isn’t there just another way to do this (process) instead of having to write out this format-like sentences to correct myself?’ I was very skeptical and even went to the extent of fearing ‘deprogramming myself,’ fearing getting to a point of having ‘no control’ over myself = essentially fearing becoming a ‘self forgiven drone’ lol, without actually realizing at the time that I was already Not ‘in control’ of myself and that I was a mind-driven being that had never actually lived.

We tend to get overwhelmed by the sole idea of having to forgive ourselves for everything that we’ve lived-as thus far and forgive ourselves as the entire world for that matter. This was only an initial mind-experience that we then fear ‘getting ourselves into,’ because it just seems ‘too much’ and we go into self-pity experiences of ‘I can’t possibly do this’, I went through a breakdown due to having to let go of my ideas of there being a ‘quick fix’ to this reality, or even some type of God existing to which I could ‘connect to’ and get to a ‘greater self-experience.’ This was all part of the mindfuck that was required to be stopped in the first place.

So I said to myself, I can’t go on as I am we’ve got to stop the world and for that we begin with ourselves. At first it seemed really petty to have this as a reason to do so, I still held secret desires on a magic wand doing the job for me wherein I would only have to ‘apply self forgiveness’ as in writing it out and the problem would be solved – later on I found out what it really was all about.

I got my shoes on, let’s walk this!

I went on to the forum just to see what Self Forgiveness was after spending the first weeks just trying to get used to the idea of me applying Self Forgiveness – initially it seemed like a repetitive drone of words wherein I would have to go through every bit of my memories, my ‘life’ and apply Self Forgiveness for it. It seemed extensive, in my mind there was like an immediate ‘No way! That is impossible’ within forming ideas of having to then spend the rest of my days applying Self Forgiveness non-stop, lol. That’s the ‘extremist’ aspect of the personality I continue exploring through writing and stopping within this process.

After reading the very first examples on Self Forgiveness by Jack, I sat on my bed in the afternoon and began reading. I saw myself in the awkward position of reading along those statements aloud for the very first time in my life. . I probably even blushed to myself, even if I was absolutely alone, it was just so ‘not me’ to be forgiving myself considering that I had lived as a self-righteous person that thinks, believes everything I do is ‘word’ and cannot be wrong. The single act of sitting down and reading self forgiveness was an immediate humbling moment, it was already being like a hand grenade blown toward my ego: it was about to be blown up for life.

One of the first points that I walked through self forgiveness was exposing the mind’s limitations and fears and any other emotion/feeling attached to beginning this process in itself. I literally had created this surreal scenario of ‘me walking process’ wherein I saw myself as a zombie passing by ‘regular people’ on the streets and simply having to remain ‘blank’ the whole time. Nope, that was my own misconception that was later on part of my own fears blowing Process out of proportion – laughing at it was a cool way to shed the point off and simply get myself to start writing,  committing myself to myself to life no matter what.

WHAT?

Okay, so… what is this supposed to do now? I’m now free from god? from the female ego? and I’m now Self Honest?” Lol, my first ideas on Self Forgiveness were linked to this being a process wherein I would be doing some type of magic spell by simply stating the words/ writing myself out and having it all ‘cleared up’– let’s say that the entire aspect of having to Live Self Forgiveness wasn’t really understood at that time. So, I decided to apply the point of being unconditional about it, I had nothing to lose.

I proceeded to first start writing a point out to see ‘how it worked’ which was working with the most prominent experiences I had in that moment. I wasn’t even participating that much at the time in the forums, I just focused on setting this foundation for myself, because I knew this was the way to walk the process, to stand up for life and finally stop my mind – I ‘knew’ it, yet it had to be walked and self-realized.

I noticed how at first it all seemed so repetitive – ‘Why can’t I just say ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself’ once and then just name the whole list and ‘get over with it’?’ – I was still looking for the ‘fast and accurate’ way out of it, took some time to grasp what I was actually doing as ‘Forgiving myself’ after applying the usual ‘fake it till you make it’ wherein words don’t seem to mean anything – and in fact, they won’t! Unless you Live them. This was the ‘aha-moment’ that I had to walk and discover for myself through the actual application of it in time.

I must say that the judgment toward the word forgiveness remained even after a while into writing and process. To me it was like a silent-cringe inside me whenever I would hear myself forgiving myself, because of having these concepts of religion and priests and the entire religious-construct along with the word ‘forgiveness.’ It was just plain icky at the beginning.

Key-point here: I hadn’t applied Self Forgiveness for judging the word Self-Forgiveness in itself and clearing out the associations toward it. I had to see how the ‘awkwardness’ was linked to this memory of that one and only time that I ever ‘confessed myself’ to a priest, which remained like a very bitter experience in my life, almost like having to swallow a medicine that leaves a very bad taste in your mouth for a while. The priest spoke the word ‘forgiveness’ and so to me that had just left a stigma toward that word. I never went to confess myself again and in my mind, applying self forgiveness was like confessing my ‘dark deeds’ to myself, which I saw as a cool point in terms of not having to resort to telling my stuff to someone in order to be ‘absolved from my sins.’ Then I realized what a nice trick religion had created in order to be the ‘only ones’ that can endow you with such ‘god-given right to forgive you,’ whereas Self-Forgiveness implied: I can do it myself –  awesome, way to go to debunk faith and beliefs.

I applied self forgiveness on feeling ‘icky’ and weird and judging the word forgiveness and self forgiveness in itself – the whole lot of points that went opening up as I went writing out the sentences around thoughts like ‘why do I have to forgive myself,’ ‘why forgiveness sounds like something priests do to others,’ forgiveness related to god, forgiveness related to me having done something ‘wrong’, forgiveness as in ‘asking someone forgiveness’ and even ideas on this being a humiliating process and embarrassing even for myself alone.

When beginning process I also  noticed how I also wanted to ‘get over with my past shit and move on’ which I did through writing it all out and sharing it as a form of also demonstrating something to someone of my own application – in a way following an ‘ideal’ of clearing myself fro such ‘sins’ as soon as possible. This is not something that was ‘wrong’ or anything. simply I found out in that process how we find our own way to establish ourselves through process in a ‘trial and error’ manner.

In my case it was mostly through writing that I opened up points to apply Self Forgiveness for,  having that ‘freedom to write’ wherein I’d share all the apparent trivial points of my days. I would experience certain blockages while writing out self forgiveness whenever I would jump in my mind into an idea of ‘myself within process’ wherein we believe that we are doing something that will make us ‘better,’ make us ‘more’ in any way – Nope, not at all. I quote a sentence that came through a chat  once“The Self as life has no language or Skill yet.” Realizing the humbleness required to walk this process was quite a cool point within it all,  as it allowed me to stop having to ‘uphold’ a particular idea of myself I had been bound myself for my entire life as living up to the ‘highest standard’ possible at an intellectual level.

I had to let go of this ego-formed around been specific and effective within my application – it is still being stopped whenever it rears its head. I realized that it could only feed yet another ‘ideal’ of myself becoming something/ someone ‘better’ instead of simply realizing that self-honest application here will not enhance any egos, but only reveal/ expose and function as support to direct ourselves into an actual practical physical living realization of who we really are, supporting us to take off the blindfold to see what we all really are.

WHY ?

The simplest reason I can name of why I came to apply Self Forgiveness was to simply get to actually Live. I understood we can’t possibly go on as we have in this world,  we have to stop what we’ve accepted and allowed within ourselves and actually get to the realization that it is in fact possible to create a new world if each individual that is willing to stand up for life, dedicates themselves to themselves, to live a process wherein Life is considered in all aspects as one and equal – always.

I wanted to stop being the same self-deprecating system with all these habits and obsessions and desires to know and obtain any form of ‘truth’ to create a ‘meaning to life.’ When I heard that Self Forgiveness was the way to first of all STOP all of those delusions to then live, I realized that I had to ‘test this out for myself’, I couldn’t just continue watching the material and absorbing all the knowledge and information for the delight of my own witty-ego satisfaction, no.

I initially went ‘full-on’ applying Self Forgiveness and had a heavy-duty time with it with writing out a lot. I was still having this ‘urge’ to get something done, to ‘get it done’ and be finally ‘here’ with “no-mind” and being finally free, I was still applying Self Forgiveness from that starting point of achieving something, not really realizing what I was doing was part of the process of first getting to establish Self Honesty within myself.

I realized how this process is not about ‘bettering ourselves’ or ‘personal growth’ but simply the realization of what we are actually able and capable of living-as, directing ourselves toward our optimum-state and living in our fullest potential. This all made sense to me as the way this world and reality ‘should have always been’ – I saw how the point that was in between us from realizing our actual ability to stop and correct ourselves had only been ourselves as the mind. We are the only ones standing on our way– this is paraphrasing Bernard. All the ‘lostness’ thoughts began to diminish, because I saw that I had only ‘gotten lost’ according to the thoughts that I had given space and many breaths away to exist as ‘who I am,’ I then realized to what extent this had been my own creation and how I had to take self responsibility for it.

I suggest reading the blog ‘How I was able to Hear Desteni’ for further details about these first days of encountering it. Even though it all sounded extremely weird to me, I decided to ‘give it a try’ simply because I had already gone through other processes in trying to ‘make myself feel better’ which had not really been effective or with ‘long lasting effects’ just like the temporary bridge they were. I decided to apply Self Forgiveness in part also to see ‘what it was all about’ and not allow me to only formulate ideas/ beliefs about it without testing it for myself.

HOW ?

The initial experience within applying Self Forgiveness was fueled  with regret, shame and guilt when realizing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist-as in this world, and how we had – within such possession-  created a world of hatred and separation. Myself being the +1 point that supported such depression,  anxiety, walking with this constant judgmental view on the world  that I allowed myself to be and become.  I walked through my reality seeking for experiences, people, drugs or anything that could allow me to ‘grasp’ this reality, to not feel ‘lost’ and apparently gaining some type of ‘higher status’ to be special, to at least ‘know’ any form of ‘truth’ within this reality that would make me feel like there was a ‘point’ in this existence –  though I could only continue seeing  that nothing made sense.

This is almost a ‘normal thing’ to go-through when realizing all the moments that we’ve spent in our little bubbles secluded from the rest of the world. Thus I initially rushed in means of ‘clearing my name/image’ as soon as possible. I had the idea that it was all about writing the self forgiveness out in one go, and then being ‘clear/ absolved’ of it forevermore. No, that was only my ego once again wanting to ‘shove it all away’ as fast as I could to regain a certain ‘peace of mind’ and be done with it –  it was just another attempt to regain the experience of ‘everything is fine,’ without really grasping how this was a process to be lived for a lifetime.

Self Forgiveness can only support us in identifying the points that we have to correct ourselves,  yet as we know, this takes the actual physical integration of that which I vow to stand for, Self as the starting point in all ways = walking the talk.

It was through the support through forums, Bernard, Sunette and everyone else participating at Desteni that I realized that Desteni was no quick fix, that it would take the actual living-application of it, that I had to actually walk-it, live-it, fall and rise again, make mistakes as many as I had to in order to get to know which road Not to follow – I realized that I actually required to DO THIS, that this was no prayer or magic wand wherein I could just simply spell nice words and pretend all is well – no.

I also had to see how I had never ever done this as it’s not a preprogrammed thing to do. I realized that it wouldn’t come as a single easy decision wherein you chose from one color to another, but that it would take an actual self-commitment and self-will to prove if what was being shared with regards to Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty and writing ourselves to freedom was actually supportive. Till this day I can say: yes it is, absolutely.

At times I would be quite overwhelmed with all the points I would go opening up through Self Forgiveness. It was a process wherein through writing and making it a consistent point within my every day living, it became a habit, a cool habit to start getting to know myself, to see where and how it is required to apply self forgiveness, how to apply self forgiveness for the experiences of the day. I mean, to me writing became like the most enjoyable part of the day and till this day, If I don’t write a day it would be because I’m absolutely sick or something – even if I don’t write blogs on a daily basis, I am continually writing somewhere in the internet or for myself in a notebook. It’s become part of myself – and it’s a very coo habit to develop a point of self-communication wherein we are able to ground ourselves as self-support and share it whenever we can with others as well. Writing and words are the key to this reality – and this is a Destonian realization, we are proving it for ourselves as we walk.

All in all, Self Forgiveness was a trial and error process initially, wherein I virtually began applying Self Forgiveness for everything and all that I noticed in my environment, in my thoughts, in the world – it’s cool though because that’s how I got to discern what is common sense, what is Self Honesty, what are points that I have to open up further and how eventually applying/ living Self Forgiveness would imply the ‘actual doing’/ walking of all of these statements.

This was finally something that I had to ‘make it work’ = it was no quick fix or magical wand as I had desired it initially to be – that’s when I began ‘meeting my maker’ for real, because Self Forgiveness became ‘the way’ to start seeing what the hell on Earth I was thinking and going through at all times as the inner chatter that I had dared to call ‘my best friend.’

WHEN ?

Once I started grasping Self Honesty, I saw that I could no longer be fooling myself with playing the same old ‘me’ when I had clearly set out the reasons, excuses and justifications for me being/ becoming a particular way – the self-interest, the narcissism, the arrogance, the self-inflated ego, the obsessions, the self-created delusions were out and in the open now, I could not fool myself nor did I want to continue deceiving myself. I can openly say now that it is through applying and living Self Forgiveness that I found what Self-Respect is, what actually establishing Self-Trust is based on one’s own writings and realizations and practical-living application of such realizations as well.

The moment that I saw that even after leaving behind all the idea of myself I was still ‘Here,’ fears started vanishing – and I continued walking no matter what. Self Forgiveness became ‘the way of living’ from the perspective of being able to correct myself when seeing ‘the point’ that was missed in a moment wherein – yes – a breath was missed.

Breathing through resistances to bring-through a point within Self Forgiveness, breathing through the initial judgment that may come whenever we expose to ourselves a point that we had suppressed and not looked at out of embarrassment, shame, guilt or fear – breathing through reactions is the way to go once you see the same points emerging after having applied self forgiveness for the point, such as my initial judgment toward Self-Forgiveness in itself.

I remember once buying myself an only-self-forgiveness bloc of notes and the day that I had finished writing on the very last page, I felt ‘so cool’ about it, I planned to save it for the posterity lol – I lost it that same day at the bus station, I realized that such process was not to be ‘cherished’ and that it wasn’t about creating a collection of self-forgiveness, but actually walking through the process of living it, living the correction that I had seen through my writings that I had to stop, correct, align within the principle of what’s best for all. Eventually I understood that I could write heaps – yet if it wasn’t applied, then it was absolutely useless.

I also saw how any ‘good feeling’ I could get out of applying Self Forgiveness, was a mind generated experience and had to be stopped.

When getting specific support on the point through the Tree of Life I realized how ‘my past was still haunting me’ literally and how I was creating an actual experience of rushing or even anxiety in wanting to ‘get rid of the fucker as soon as possible and be at peace,’ without actually realizing that I had to first let go of wanting to ‘overcome myself’ but simply face the points for what they are, self forgive and walk the process at the physical pace of breathing – moment by moment.

This ‘rush’ had to be stopped by first realizing that I had to clear myself from such thoughts of guilt, regret and shame that had emerged when writing myself to freedom, I wanted to ‘get over with it’ as soon as possible. I then realized that ‘there is nothing to attain’, there is nothing to ‘get to’ or ‘become’ – It is about realizing who/ what I really am,  that I am Here and I can’t define and limit myself within a perceived amount of time that I require to do this. So, rushing is linked to a self-competition through time against myself, against the personality I had become. So, forgiving myself for that became the pillar to walk in humbleness, to realize there is nothing to ‘attain’ or get, but is an actual walking-living self-realization that will be proven through our own participation in space and time in our reality.

This also included stopping the expectations or ideals of ‘who I will become once I have applied Self Forgiveness’ – making sure I didn’t form any self-grandeur within it, any ego enhancement as being then ‘more’ than others or now being ‘done’ with myself and not requiring to continue, that’d be rather another mindfuck to debunk indeed – and I remind myself of this every time that it is required. It is a constant living application. 

Living Self Forgiveness

I never knew how layered my personality was until I started applying Self Forgiveness

It was shocking to start seeing how I was essentially avoiding ‘mingling’ with people around me based on this idea/ personality I had of myself. I started realizing how I had become that which I had vehemently judged others for: I had become my own worst nightmare without ever noticing it. By this I mean a rather picky, elitist, judgmental, arrogant being that would only care to ‘spend time’ with those people that would ‘care’ about me as I did for them – conveniently so – I would not give a reverend fuck about the rest, I only cared about my little bubble. So, when applying self forgiveness and going understanding that this process was to expose myself for everything I had become, it initially was something I resisted, just because of fearing to face the reality that I had become, the actual  ‘true nature’ of myself while I had though of myself as being a nice and delightful person. This was then obviously out of still playing out my core-personality, instead of being fully unconditional within the application.

See, the cool thing about Self Forgiveness is that we realize that we’ve existed as patterns, patterns repeat by ‘nature/design’, we realize that due to the extent that we’ve lived as the mind, we will be facing layers upon layers of the same pattern in various different aspects of our reality. Thus, we know we can’t be ‘done with it’ in one go – we’ll in fact amalgamate ourselves to the physical as breath, moment by moment, walking with the necessary patience to go stopping and correcting ourselves. That is translated to simply being able to stop the mind, stop all unnecessary time-loops of repeating the same experiences over and over again, until we realize that we simply require to Stop, Self Forgive and let go of it. Sounds simple, yes, though it takes a constant application that becomes ‘who we are’ every time we stop ourselves from participating in the mind, in every moment that we do not participate in that which seems enticing and alluring to go into – that moment that we don’t ‘go there’ actually supports ourselves to ground ourselves in/as the physical, we prove to ourselves that we can actually do this, that it just takes one breath at the time and sufficient self-will to do it.

I never even thought that I would get to enjoy this process until I simply started living it. I would spend hours writing out self forgiveness because I saw it as a very effective way to go opening up points and almost ‘challenging’ me to transcend my fears of ‘oh no no don’t go in there!’ within my mind wherein I would have to kind of give myself an internal kick in the ass to write the point out. Embarrassment, shame, guilt, heaps of self judgment, self-hatred, a lot of judgments toward other people, the world – I was overwhelmed!  However, it was the most liberating point once it was ‘out’ like a physical relief from having now exposed this rotting corpse to myself, it no longer was this ‘dead talk’ inside my head lingering around, provoking me to go into certain moods or experiences that I would then dare to participate in and define as ‘who I am.’ These experiences began diminishing, simply because I could not kid myself into such thoughts after having extensively exposed them for what they are. Once the can of worms was opened, the can was empty and I filled it up with soil to grow something rather supportive for myself to live in common sense.

The specificity implied in the writing itself of Self Forgiveness has been a key point of support in order to learn how the mind works as a perfect-system for excuses and justifications to not take Self-Responsibility. Hence the only way to ‘tackle’ this problem is through walking an equally specific and perfected system of self correction, which is why Self Forgiveness is such a specific way to correct ourselves. Each word in the basic sentence as ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself…’ is an absolute statement of taking Self Responsibility for having given our lives up to a mind-driven action that was done in inconsideration of who we are as one and equal.

Throughout the process of getting to know how Self Forgiveness works, participating in the forum, reading others’ posts became a pillar and vital point of feedback. I was pretty much amazed how any single action/ event was able to be directed by using the same tools – indistinctly – and how common sense is always able to be established in any given situation, by the fact that every action is exerted through a process wherein a process of decision making is involved: to act or not act – it is self-created and as such, it can be corrected.

How come we had missed this throughout time?

No Excuses: Life Cannot be Denied

I see Self Forgiveness as giving ourselves a second chance to live – to finally create ourselves as that which we see is and will be best for all as one and equal. This sounds ‘cool’ but living the words implies a life-dedication, a commitment toward ourselves that we support ourselves with and share with others. It is a way to expand our ability to see/ realize that who we really are had been caged in our own mind-traps and we are ready to take them all down for we have been the very creators of it all.

There is no ‘mystery ’in Self Forgiveness, it’s not a self-god-given right, it is about understanding that we stop ourselves from existing within a single point of definition or idea of ourselves that limits/ defines who we are, and living it out through first removing/ detaching ourselves from such memory, idea, thought, belief, picture and standing up from having accepted and allowed ourselves to remain limited within such conception of ourselves.

It’s about getting to know ourselves, to learn ‘how’ we function and  take Self-Responsibility for it, which is realizing and understanding  how there will be no miracles happening in order for us to correct what we have accepted and allowed to exist in this world.  We have this one life, one opportunity for us to be the creators of a reality that we are willing to exist as from now on, within common sense, within the principle of what is best for all as equals. This is the single starting point for creation we have missed throughout time – it is only now that we have the opportunity to stand as the living example of what is possible for us human beings to be and become when we become the change that we want to see in this world.

Enjoy living this out for yourself.

Supportive Articles I read to walk Self Forgiveness:

And many more at: http://desteni.org/articles

Self-Forgiveness Blog


2012 Life After Death–Interdimensional Portal

It’s been some years since I’ve been writing and I can’t recall having written about meeting Sunette – the portal – at Desteni while being in South Africa.

I had explained before how watching her in the videos wasn’t such a ‘new thing’ for me in terms of having beings talking from the ‘afterlife’ through a human being’s body – even though I later on got to know that channeling wasn’t precisely what she was doing. However being living with her and witnessing how it all works was something quite amazing, yet ‘normal’ as every being that is in the body simply does the same stuff that Sunette would do in any given moment. Whenever I was curious I would ask  ‘who’s in the body?’ this I would do whenever I could notice a particular voice tonality or ‘stance’ that I could recognize wasn’t Sunette – some other times it’s just imperceptible and you learn how to stop creating any idea of ‘who Sunette is’ in contrast to the rest of the beings. I see that’s part of the Equality and Oneness process wherein each being can only have these distinctive remarks as long as we try to find/ spot them – other than that, it’s just an equal and one expression, all equally part of ourselves which is quite fascinating nonetheless.

I could write my personal stories of being a bit surprised in relation to particular beings that would come through and my reactions to it – however the point here is to simply declare that it becomes such a ‘usual thing’ that we even tend to forget what ‘the portal’ actually represents for humanity and existence as a whole.

Hearing the Interview ‘History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 2’ reminded me that which is still fascinating about Desteni, that which I can answer almost on a daily basis in semi-automated answers in YouTube videos in relation to Sunette being an interdimensional portal, and how her body is the point of physical expression for beings coming through from the dimensional existence to share and communicate about the existential process we are currently walking. However, listening to stories like this made me realize the actual Process we are living, which is a once in an existential-lifetime opportunity for us to finally realize who and what we really are beyond the veils of our mind, as Life – as One and Equal.

It is interesting that we have taken this point as a ‘regular thing’ within our reality, at least for myself after being so used to hearing, reading and chatting with dimensional beings – well, the latter while being at the farm with Sunette around – that I simply didn’t create any further ‘divide’ or separation of being talking with beings that are dimensional = don’t have a physical body/ are not alive any longer as in having a ‘life of their own’ on Earth – yet the words are and have been one of the key points within Desteni and our process as humanity.

I understand that this is the part of Desteni that many people still react to in terms of not being able to ‘prove it’/ witness it for themselves, however we have given testimony of it even in situations wherein we have been scrutinized for traveling ‘all across the globe’ to be at the farm, which is the usual point of identifying it with ‘meeting the portal.’ I can only say that one can make a ‘big deal’ out of it if the message is not heard, because it was through all the words that have come through the portal from beings in existence that I actually got to realize what regarding each other as equals actually implies, which is something that then takes off the ‘weight’ of the portal being something ‘more’ than us, once that we understand what oneness and equality actually means. Within this, there is no need to ‘believe’ in it, but simply HEAR the words and live the message that is shared.

Back to the interview…

The story narrated by this 7 year old boy that died, describes his entire realization of being in a different dimension on Earth. It reminded me of that which is still here yet we have veiled ourselves off from because of being only existing as our mind and in that, missing out the entire existence that is HERE and has always been here. This places into perspective the fact that we have been only walking thought-feeling-emotion machines without any further idea of there being something else to this life.

The fascination that I got from listening to this interview was similar to the one I got from listening to the Atlanteans interviews, which have been so far the history of existence coming from ancestors that we have never gotten to know of in this reality until now, narrated and explained with such detail that makes us really ‘wake up’ to see the bits of ourselves that we have missed within this reality, while being so occupied within our own mind and fighting against each other.

I see for myself how I tend to ‘lose perspective’ at times of what it is that I am actually getting to hear within these interviews as something that I would have never gotten to know of if it wasn’t for the existence of the Portal itself. However, it is also cool that it doesn’t become something ‘more’ than myself, I simply see it as part of the realization of getting to equalize ourselves to as one and equal, which is the entire process we are walking here. The importance or relevance of hearing these stories from the afterlife, as well as the history of mankind, is simply to get a broader perspective about ourselves, about existence and life itself, to learn how to take all points into consideration in terms of the realization that everything we are and do is part of a whole, and within this take Self Responsibility accordingly.

Listening to any material that has been created by the portal/ Sunette for the last 5 years now, has been a definitive turning point for humanity – whether people are aware of it or not – and this is what makes it such an important point to create a reference for as part of this process. With this I mean: we probably wouldn’t be here writing and sharing and applying ourselves within this process if Heaven had not ever been dismantled as the entire system of enslavement that it was.

As fascinating as this may seem for anyone reading here that didn’t have any reference to what Desteni is, I suggest taking a moment to simply listen to that interview as well as any other interview in the Internet from Desteni, as each video-interview is a key point to get to know ourselves, to understand who and what we really are and, most importantly, HOW we can practically assist and support ourselves to become a living-part of the solution that is proposed as the Equalization of Life as who we really are. (See the Unification of Man as I am)

We have never had such an opportunity in existence before. We have this one lifetime to stand up for Life and realize all the lies that we have perpetuated as this current mess of reality and stop them forevermore. Obviously within stopping = a new input must be created, and that’s in essence how we are walking our process to realize and understand what it practically means to stand as One and Equal as this reality – these are common words yet not properly understood within the actual implication at an existential level of what they imply.

For that, I can only suggest visiting the Desteni website and forum for further support as it is definitely quite an extensive amount of material that has been unconditionally published since 2007, plus all of the thousands of blogs and vlogs by us Destonians. We are here and walking the material as our own process which is what makes of Desteni such a cool group of people that are daring to walk ourselves out of our mind and into the physical  – which is nothing else than realizing who we really are as Life and giving us proper support for that to establish a system in this reality that can make of Equality as Life a Reality, regardless of any current obstacle such as money. For that, read all about the Equal Money System

To wrap this up, don’t be afraid to get to know what there is beyond the reality that we see with our current physical eyes, everything/ everyone is one and equal as ourselves and we are here to realize so that we can Birth-Ourselves as Life from the Physical, to finally and actually Be Here.

Enjoy!

Portal expanded interdimensionaly

History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 3

Self-Extraction out of the body - Interdimensional Portal

The Story of Sunette


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