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Be-Lame

“It’s all your fault!”  How many times have we been ‘impressed’ by these words and taken them personally, creating an experience that runs through our body as a mix of fear, guilt, shame, embarrassment eventually resulting in us feeling like ‘shit,’ because it is apparently ‘our fault’ and now we are the scum of the Earth because: we fucked up.

Hearing these words directed toward myself was something quite common when I was a child – I would be automatically pointed at for anything that would go wrong in my house. Sometimes I had actually been the one that caused something to break or be ‘in disorder’ because of my own negligence/ laziness, some other times it was just ‘out of habit’ that anything wrong would be then ‘my fault’ and questions would not be asked, but only fingers  would point at me; I would then try and defend myself, usually sobbing and already in that ‘victimized’ state saying ‘it wasn’t me,’ but it’s as if any form of credibility had been lost from a series of events where I had been the actual ‘cause’ which is how then one builds a certain ‘reputation’ that can work for either one’s curse throughout life or benefit. I’ve experienced it both ways – for now I’ll debunk the first one.

 

I can see myself as this pattern of being blamed for shit hitting the fan and getting this constant ‘nagging’ about things that I had to do and I wouldn’t do, being quite a ‘disorderly’ person, very lazy and with a great inertia as a resistance to not move if I didn’t have to. I was the type of person that would get from school, eat, go upstairs and plug myself to watch ( M)TV the whole time, this includes the time while I would do my homework – I would only be rather ‘responsible’ and turn it off for proper concentration when studying for exams. I never had any problems with this because I did ‘well’ in school, so my parents probably thought I was some type of lucky person for being able to be responsible and get excellent grades even when spending long hours watching TV.  I became very sedentary, only caring to be in front of the TV and getting more and more sucked into being entertained or rather ‘stimulated’ the whole time. This is just a ‘background’ perspective on how I could be quite careless within my reality which is what lead me to neglect doing tasks and having my world in order; this is how I would get constantly ‘nagged’ for not being an orderly person, not taking care of my stuff and within that,  ‘being blamed for’ things because I was the only one that was such a ‘disaster’ at home.

It is now that I realize how what others say about us might influence us in deeper ways than we are able to notice in that moment. I can see as I write about ‘being blamed’ for shit happening around in my reality, that I ended up believing myself to actually be the cause for shit happening in my world. And I am only now seeing these old memories of how much I took it all personal and how I would write/ speak to myself that ‘I wasn’t loved’ in my family and that ‘I bet they would all be happier if I wasn’t part of the family’ – these thoughts would come up within an entire attire of self-victimization experiencing sadness and belittling myself/ feeling sorry about myself.  I would usually leave the dinner table whenever I was told something along the lines of ‘you caused this shit.’ Parents and sisters would sometimes direct heavy words towards me – or each other for that matter – and I can speak for myself how I would take them deeply seriously and never considered at all that they were only speaking about themselves and only using anyone as an ‘outlet’ for their own personal problems, anger and frustration.

By ‘heavy words’ I mean offenses, cursing that would come out with great ease such as from my father’s mouth. I would only resort to cry because that’s all I knew at that time, feeling bad about what he had said about me in that moment of anger for whatever cause it was, and eventually having my mother coming up to me and explaining that he was just in a bad mood and that he really ‘didn’t mean it.’ And it was indeed just him exerting his own emotions on to anyone else, which is one of the patterns I’ve shared here before in terms of blaming others about stuff that is only a way to not face our own responsibility, which I have also played out to a great extent throughout my life.  Thus, I have realized how this was never actually ‘about me’ but about each person directing their anger on to each other. It’s very clear here how a lot of shit can fly around within the context of a ‘family’ because it is a group of beings facing each one’s programming in different shades – hence the ‘confrontation’ with oneself is more clear and direct, spiced up by the notorious different personalities that ‘mask’ the differentiation that exist at the core level of DNA.

 

When taking such words and scolding as ‘real’ and within me defining myself as being very sensitive to people’s words, I would always take it personally and within this, drown myself into a deep grudge toward the person until I realized how it all worked by me holding that memory of ‘being offended’ and link it to the person, which became quite obvious when after several days I would have to ‘recall’ that I was ‘mad at this person for having said this/ that about me.’  I would mostly then ‘forgive’ in a way that I would be able to talk to that family member/ person again.  Similar situations to the one I explained about my father also happened with my mother and sisters – within this, all I created of and for myself was a nice suit of victimization wherein my mother would sometimes point out how I was making a ‘big deal out of it,’ but I would mostly only argue for my limitations because in a way, I wanted them to ‘feel bad’ for having ‘made me feel bad’ and in that, we can see how this coming and going create endless drama, retaliation, desire for ‘vengeance’ that would turn into grudge-scabs that we would tear off from time to time to bring the memory up again and use it as a way to manipulate and have an effect on another.

This is absolutely unnecessary as we now can see – yet this becomes even at a human-culture level ‘how things work’ in the family. It has become such a cliché that we cannot conceive a family that could live in equal ways wherein there was ‘no shit flying around.’ As human beings we have accepted these ‘fucked up’ relationships in our very own house and from this, manifest this entire world as it is: a world/system of retaliation, seeking vengeance, holding grudges, calling names, wanting others to ‘feel’ what they have ‘done onto us,’ seeking ‘to be the favorite one,’ comparing ourselves to each other, finding our ‘place’ in some form/role in the family wherein we can only support our own ‘life experience’ as something real, as ‘who we are’ which is obviously not based in common sense and an actual integration as part of an entire society, but remain living within/as that survival mechanism.

We become ‘who we are’ in this nest that we call ‘home’ and from there, we accept this role and carry it as ourselves throughout or lives. We accept and allow ourselves to remain in that same shape and mold that we create mostly through our early years in this world. And it is within that very first relationship with our parents and how our parents ‘treat us’ that we will then walk through the world believing it is ‘who we are,’ simply because we had not been able to realize and understand that it was never about ‘us’ in fact,  but it was always about them creating this relationship toward ‘ourselves’ as their children which was only them playing out their own relationship toward themselves in their own mind. Fascinating stuff however, we didn’t know  about this until now.

I became aware of how it was even ‘cool’ to have and almost cherish this something I could ‘brag about’ toward my parents, it was a way of having the power to blackmail them for ever having ‘hurt me’ in such a way, which is obviously unacceptable. Yet, this type of patterns are played out by many, many human beings in their personal relationships; this is very common in marriages for example, where it becomes a dog eat dog type of relationship wherein people bring up memories and each others shit and throw it at each other without ever being able to see the harm that they are inflicting not only to themselves as a couple, but kids if they have any in such ‘family’ scenario. It is truly unacceptable, and this brings up the title of one six feet under episode: ‘Terror starts at home’ which is true as this is the first ‘entry’ we have of the world in our mind – we will accordingly walk into this world within/as the shape that we acquire within the family nucleus and often remain like that for an entire lifetime, without realizing that who really am  as life, as one and equal has nothing to do with the role I got to play as a child at home, who I am is not the character that would get easily offended or ‘hurt’ by  words that any family member  used to deprecate myself in anyway,  as now I see and realize it was never about ‘me’ but themselves all the time.

This is how it is ludicrous to continue accepting and holding this image of ourselves as ‘who we are’ because it was simply an entire personality created and shaped according to the conditions that we were born into, which as we know, are not based on ‘what’s best for all’ but only according to the rules of a fucked up system that we have accepted and allowed without any question before. Carrying ourselves as self-limited boxes of memories as ‘who we are’ and bringing up all of these reasons as to ‘why we are the way we are’ is only another excuse to not dare to step out of the victimization role and take self responsibility. It was almost ‘painful’ having to see that I had lived as a victim asking ‘why’ all the time instead of asking ‘how’ I had accepted and allowed the entire situation in life, how it is not only about ‘me’ but about walking an entire program wherein no self-awareness was existent – I mean, Self Forgiveness here is really forgiving ourselves for merely playing out roles that were solely programmed to cause conflict and separation within our lives, never being able to self-forgive because some other form of ‘intermediary’ was then created/ sought which is how God probably came into the play = another form to avoid confronting the reality that we had created between ourselves.

No matter what ‘intensity’ of it, any form of name-calling, point-finger done in absolute self-indulgence creates consequences that reverberate throughout a being’s life without it being even ‘noticeable’ by the person as it becomes just part of the self-definition that we take on because: that is all we know. This is how it is vital that as parents, human beings are able to understand how each and every single word uttered toward their kids will have a direct influence within their lives because of their receptive condition to accept what they are taught as ‘how things are.’  It is thus unacceptable to continue disregarding the fact that anyone that wants to be/ become a parent must first walk a process of self-responsibility in Self Honesty to ensure that none of our personal bs as a preprogrammed limited consciousness systems is passed on toward a child that walks into this world in such an innocent manner, wherein anything that ‘father’ or ‘mother’ says becomes ‘the law’ and ‘how things are’ without ever questioning – or even having the ability to question – why it is that we are accepting and allowing ourselves to diminish ourselves by words/ thoughts that others may utter toward ourselves?

In my experience I saw how I took on such words as ‘who I am’ and no matter how I would see myself not being ‘stupid’ or a ‘dumbass,’ I would use such memories of others  saying that to me so that I could go back to ‘feeling bad’ about myself and within this, justify my separation and general segregation from the rest of my family. That’s how I justified myself ‘not belonging to that family’ and creating this general ‘silent’ grudge toward them all because of me believing all the words they would say. As a child I sometimes got to speak about this with my mother, and she would say exactly the same, how such words were only coming from their own anger and self experience, that they weren’t about ‘me’ per se, but still I decided that the whole thing was very real and I would rather choose to be sensitive about it because I thought that my mother was only trying to ‘make it all look better’ than what it was – meaning, trying to excuse my sisters/ father or herself for the words that were said. In that moment I decided to ‘not buy it,’ instead I lived out this separation that I  justified with creating an entire personality suit that I’ve deemed as the ‘black sheep in the family,’ just walking a road that I designed in opposite direction to the one I saw my sisters were taking on, just because of not wanting to be ‘predictable’ and following their entire set of preferences and lifestyle.

This was a deliberate point of self-manipulation as well so that I would not have to actually face myself within the family system, but instead build myself a comfortable niche to be the ‘odd one’ and thus have a ‘place’ within that ‘oddity’ so to speak. Once I got to understand this, I then went into a polarity of being ‘unbreakable’ so to speak but not through an actual understanding of such beings speaking only about their own limitations, but in a form of defense mechanism wherein reactions would still come up without working with them, it was only a façade and in that, I wasn’t actually working with stopping my reactions. I didn’t know of Self Forgiveness so I simply did my best to ‘cope with the world’ without ever really looking at my reactions and how I was only shoving them away while pretending ‘nothing could hurt me now’ which is something I’ve shared before in the hard and soft veneers blog. I see that’s how I saw ‘being/ becoming an artist’ quite a cool and acceptable role within society, being ‘eccentric’ yet part of the ‘whole’ in a distinctive manner.

Now that I see, my ‘choices’ in life were then stemming from this entire personality development: from the victim, to the rebel to self-righteousness that I exerted as my career choice, the type of friends/ relationships I had, the type of life I dreamed of having, the type of music I would listen, the clothes I wear, the interests, morality, values – all of it was then specifically designed/ chosen by myself having this starting point of almost creating an unconscious retaliation toward my family/ the family system I was born into.

I had ‘seen’ this before through this process and writing this out, how I had only played out that odd-polarity that was sticking out within the family pattern – however, I had not seen how it had all begun from these early experiences of ‘being hurt’ by others’ words such as ‘being blamed for everything that went wrong’ and within this, belittling myself, wanting to just ‘leave home’ in my mind because I thought that I was not ‘loved’ there and that I was only like this undesired child that had come to interrupt their happy-family life. I mean, I am writing the thoughts as I am recalling them, I think I even wrote this out when I was quite young when I would use writings as a catalyzer to cry and feeling sorry about myself, as a con.firmation of ‘the world being a fuckup/ mean place to live in’ and within this, believing that the only way to coexist in it was through not participating in the same ‘game’ that I would see the entire family and then ‘society’ was playing out, never realizing how the personality that I developed as myself was in fact absolutely defined and created in-opposition to my family. It’s just like an atheist that is still defining himself/herself according to the Non-existence of a god – and within this obviously still confirming the existence of a god as a concept – and curiously enough – belief in itself.

So,  now we are aware of how within this system, every word that anyone may speak toward another is actually about themselves. Now, it’s not to be self-dishonest and then talk about light and love and flowers to others because of wanting  you to see yourself/ portray yourself in such a nice way, which is how a lot of people is currently ‘functioning’ at a mind level. Talking yourself into positivity is certainly Not the way to walk Self Honesty. It is about becoming aware of every judgment that we may create toward something/ someone, and instead of believing that to be ‘actually so,’ we take it back to self and see where and how we are existing as such judgment toward ourselves. This has been one of the key points I’ve learned through Desteni, wherein we take Self Responsibility for everything we do and say because we understand that we cannot ‘affect’ another but ourselves in any way, so this is how walking oneness and equality practically becomes a point that we then ‘keep in mind’ to always take a moment to ‘watch our words’ for the sake of being aware that what we think/ communicate actually support what is best for all, and not only come out as preprogrammed babble that reinforces some type of mental limitation and judgment that has no-place to be here in Self Honesty.

I am able to write about it and see it for what it is, there are no strings attached toward my parents or sisters on this topic as I now understand how this process o projecting blame and one’s frustration and anger onto others was a common thing without the ‘scolded’ one ever knowing that it was never about ‘me’/ ‘them’ but the person themselves. This is how we see things ‘for what they are’ and break the links/ chains that we tend to create the moment we link experiences and hold those experiences as ‘who we are’ without ever questioning them.

Within taking Self Responsibility for each word we think, speak and how we interact toward each others, we are able to stop all the unnecessary conflict that is created when we become just blabbering fools arguing for our own limitations and experiences without realizing that anything we say or do is revealing nothing else but who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.

Time to stop blaming others or being-lame ourselves for buying into words that do not support who we really are. By breaking that retaliation toward ourselves as our mind and toward others in our world, we will stop the current war we are all living in this world.

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2012 The Illusion of this World is our Reality

This might sound like a paradox, and it actually is. It has been created within the human mind and has no other meaning or purpose other than creating a nice excuse to abdicate our responsibility upon this world and everything/ everyone involved in it.

In Buddhism, there is little doubt that to view the world as an illusion was a conception designed with a specific purpose. It is a spiritual device. One aspect of that purpose was to loosen the ties with the material world (with samsara) and so to encourage practitioners to turn away from the world. Thus, so loosened, one moves closer to the world of spirit.

 Yes, the eternal journey to that non-visible and ever elusive spiritual world that till this day I ask myself how have so many human beings deposited their entire existence in the desire to attain such a world without ever having a tangible proof that it could possibly and remotely exist. Yet, it is as everything else that is sought and looked for – even fought for – a nice delusion created at a mind level, embraced as a belief and defended as part of the religion of self that guards ‘spirituality’ as that untouchable preference within each human being’s life. Have a look at how people often say “respect my belief/ I am respectful of others’ beliefs” but what happens when such ‘respect’ becomes a blatant allowance of abuse and disregard toward this physical reality that is here, that we wake up to every single day and that we are clearly witnessing, is not getting any closer to god or some ineffable heaven-like scenario. We are only compounding the already existent hell on Earth and it seems that excuses like ‘this world is an illusion’ – ‘let go of this world’ are the fallacies backed up as part of spiritual dogmas and uplifted at the level of ‘divine truths’ only for the convenience of us, human beings that seek a way out of taking Self Responsibility for this world.

See, Self Responsibility would not have to be this ‘drag’ and ‘lousy’ type of consideration. It has become so because we weren’t initially born in a world where we all became aware of having to take responsibility for the consequences of our words, thoughts and actions. If we implement a living-reality based on Self Responsibility from birth, we will integrate it as a normal-aspect of our interaction within this world. Abuse and harm would diminish extensively as each one will be able to ‘think twice’ before doing, acting and speaking something that isn’t in accordance to what’s best for all – yet this can only be existent within a system that does consider everyone equally.

To see the world as an illusion and combined with altruistic motivation, bodhichitta and very great compassion for other living beings, produces a very pure and joyous view of the world. The conventional basis for this is that knowing the sufferings of others, wishing to care for them and knowing the impermanent nature of things and the inevitability therefore of all suffering, one then combines compassion with a view of the world as illusion, thus converting a grim situation into one of joy, hope and faith, as it is clear that all beings are our friends and always have been, and always will be.

 Whenever you encounter these type of fallacies wherein something that is considering an actual physical and tangible reality of suffering, abuse and disregard of human beings, animals, plants/ the world in its entirety into a Mental Experience of self-interest based on ‘joy,’ bliss’ and ‘purity’ is then an immediate red flag to realize: I am being sold a nice experience based on actual physical negligence and abuse that I am accepting and allowing to exist as part of who I am in this world. However, who is REALLY willing to take the red pill and step out of the comfortable lies upon which we have built this social, economical and political structure that we are living in?

Idealists, romantics and religious people of all types tend very predominantly to view the world as having some spiritual element and not being utterly corrupted, nihilistic or material. They choose, indeed they need, to see a mental, spiritual and moral dimension to life – pervading and underlying the raw physical facts of existence given to us by our senses. They also embrace the idea that good will always triumph over evil and they tend to regard the stark facts of materialism with considerable horror. In order to live happily they need to believe there is a spiritual and good, kind backdrop to life and the universe. It is very comforting to believe that hope and joy are justified.

This paragraph describes who I was right before Desteni. I rejoiced in creating all forms of nice perspectives upon life, consciously and literally trying to make the ‘bad shit’ look ‘cool,’ while existing in a make-believe system of justification toward the abuse and general disregard we have perpetuated as species toward all life forms.  Within seeking this ‘spiritual dimension of life’ we get lost and caught in these warm fuzzy thoughts that justify  why suffering exist, why wars exist, why deliberate abuse exist, using statements like: ‘there is a god/ law/ all seeing eye that knows of it and knows what and why he/she/ it is doing.’ This I would have to repeat to myself whenever facing a reality that simply didn’t match an ideal of what a ‘peaceful world’ should be – problem: the inner self-created mental experience wasn’t in consonance with the reality I saw before my eyes. Plain indication of self deception at hand – yet I kept playing blind for a while.

Holding a view/ perspective on life that is supportive instead of promoting philosophical mindfucks

Saying that ‘the world is an illusion’ is an attempt to solve the primordial problem on ‘what is real/ what is reality’ and follow the laws of the least effort and ‘seeking/ following your greatest excitement’ to not have to face and care about the world/ reality without seeing that this world/ reality is as real as we have to eat, shit, drink and relate to others to continue existing in it. How come that we as humanity dared ourselves to side-view the most basic common sense in the name of joy, happiness, faith and hope? Easy, it’s nice to rejoice in the mind and neglect our responsibility within it all.

This ties into the spirit vs. matter point that I had previously discussed in a ‘raw’ way in terms of using the elemental polarity-relation that has created ‘good’ and ‘evil’ as we now know it. I’ve read that ‘this reality is an illusion’ countless times and the first aspect that I see is required to be debunked is the use of the term ‘illusion’ and how it has been a comfortable ideal-meaning to give to a physical-reality that is assessed at a mind-level, to not take into consideration the full ‘weight’ of it all upon ourselves.

We know that the mind is a system, it is limited within its abilities to perceive reality – yes, I repeat: limited to perceive reality – yet it IS reality what we are perceiving and living and interacting with; we are not seeing the actual totality that is Here, but that doesn’t mean that it is  ‘an illusion’ at all. I’ll place Bernard Poolman’s words here because it would be the ideal definition toward ‘Illusion’: “Nothing is what it seems”

This phrase was given within the context of explaining the reality and events that we have experienced as our reality and how this process that we are walking is about Self Realization, which is something that has nothing to do with ‘spirituality’ but the eventual comprehension of how we all have created this world = how we are all responsible for what is here and having to face the space-time manifested consequences of our existence. ‘Nothing is what it seems’ doesn’t mean ‘it is not real’ – yet there is more than what meets the EYE, which is not in any way suggesting that ‘it’s not substantially here’ or that ‘nothing really matters,’ which is one of the common phrases coming from people that seek nice and beautiful experiences even if being aware that there are billions that have nothing to eat today.

What I see is how we have used words to separate ourselves from what is Here in all ways. I have shared in the past how I conceived language as the primordial form of cookie-cutting reality into specific shapes and forms eventually losing our own ground and perspective on such different shapes and forms stemming from the same cookie-dough = one and equal. It is within this point that we’ve gotten ‘lost in translation’ within the sense of believing that anything that we ‘point out’ in the form of a concept/idea encapsulated as a word is in separation of ourselves = this is the very first point that must be revisited to understand how Equality and Oneness has been side-viewed from the moment that we began singling out elements, things, people in separation of ourselves.

The abstraction of reality – if done in self interest – can result equal to the fabrication of weapons that will be able to justify the most hideous reality in the name of human supremacy over reality.

Thus saying that ‘This world/ reality is an illusion’ is equal to creating the greatest joint to neglect the world that we breathe in.

The mind became the data base with all the necessary nomenclature imposed onto this world for the sake of having power and control dubbed with ‘knowing.’ Once again, the human being as the all-knowing and ‘rational being’ that is here to conquer reality. The mind is the source and platform upon which such ‘rationality’ emerged as a form of supremacy that has become our current reality  where the human has obliterated the life that was already here, unconditionally. What is this human world? A world where everything and everyone was regarded as separated from who we really are as one and equal = self as the totality that is here. Within ‘forgetting’ who we are, where we come from, what we have done within this world, we have continued to perpetuate this eternal idea of ‘evolution’ and ‘progress’ while continuing  an invasion of a world that we are scavenging without ever taking into consideration that the beingness that exists here is one and equal as ourselves as well. This is then the story of human nature as self-destructive,  self-abusive because of a single premise not being looked at from the very beginning: we are one and equal to everything and all that is here.

Isn’t it common sense that if this reality was an illusion we could then just step out of it at any given moment? Oops! got news for you: we can’t, that point was missed then by Buddhists and Berkeley and anyone else that supported this convenient idea of considering this reality as an illusion.

The anthropocentric religion

One of the points that have vexed me in the past years when having to read books about art, philosophy and religion is how it is all stemming from an anthropocentric perspective – yes as ‘obvious’ as it may sound, it is only now that we are able to read and get to know about the perspectives given by beings that we never thought would be equally aware of what is here. This is in fact a fascinating point that I have been realizing when listening to interviews recorded by Atlanteans and describing their world, their creations and how everything that they ‘created’ would eventually become a being/ entity with awareness as well – hell, that is common sense, how come we had missed that all along! I remember having externalized stuff like this when I was a little girl and telling people that maybe the door of the car would feel when being slammed or the grass when being stepped on – this was more obvious when plucking out the petals of a rose, yet no one seemed to care or deemed that I was a bit coo coo – I accepted the latter name and have remained as such in an ‘affectionate way’ within my family. lol Anyways, I kept this ‘belief’ because it only made sense, somehow.

Within this life-experience premise, getting to school and learning about the egotistical ways in which the human portrays ‘himself’ within this world is just proof of how a mind will always seek to impose itself onto reality without any regard to anything/ any other being that is equally existing within this world. Within this perception, what’s being accepted and neglected is the equal-right that anything/ any animal, any plant, any element of this earth has as part of this world equal and one to us, human beings. These are aspects that must be considered when we speak about Equality and Oneness. It is about creating a world that will not only consider the creation of a supportive system for human life, but for all beings equally. We can agree that it is in fact the human being the one that must take Self Responsibility after all the damage done in the name of this ‘Quest to conquer Earth’ without ever realizing the long term effects and consequences of our endless attempts to become ‘Gods’ in this reality. We’ve failed in our godliness and we are now aware that we missed the most vital principle: Equality as Life – giving to each other what is here as ourselves in Equality – no more and no less, no masters, no slaves.

Saying that this Reality is an Illusion within this context, is diminishing and almost squashing down with a single footstep the entire world that is actually providing us with all the necessary means to keep our mindfucks in place – I mean, how ludicrous! We feed ourselves to continue existing as mind robots that do not give a reverend fuck about this reality – and we even dare to say that ‘what is Here is an illusion’ just so that we don’t have to ponder too much about the problems and obvious consequences for all of the abuse and misuse of what is here to create our bubble-gum world where sex and money move mountains, keeping the shackles in place for everything and everyone – this is All a self-created prison. Unfortunately, we have abused others in such mindfuck as well, and by ‘others’ I mean the animal kingdom, nature as every single particle that is also here, sharing the same time and space that we continue scavenging and that we will probably only stop once that the consequences are undeniable and most likely, unbearable.

From any point of regret of what has been done, from any form of projected embarrassment toward anyone that is and could still utter such statements in the name of ‘joy’ and ‘bliss’ – we are able to Forgive ourselves. There is no other way that I could see we could correct our stance toward everything and everyone in this world.

The religion of ‘mankind’ has then been that of believing ourselves to be the ‘superior species’ that ‘know it all’ and can ‘resolve it all’ with nice catchy phrases dubbed ‘wisdom’ to place them within an equally airy-fairy hierarchical system of values as ‘beliefs’ that have separated ourselves from what is HERE as Life, and created/manifested into/ as the current monetary system that is the actual ‘ruler’ within this reality. We’ve created our own monster and we’ve ostracized ourselves from our own reality through our own creation. We judge the ‘creators’ of this reality and judged them as ‘stupid’ for having locked themselves out of their own creation: we are doing exactly the same within this current monetary system, we have neglected ourselves as Life within our fantabulous creation of ‘money’ and ‘wealth’ as power over this existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed for being a human being that is part of the human race and that has neglected the very air, water, sun, earth that holds us and that allows us to continue existing, while disregarding that everything that is here I have separated myself from within and through a monetary system that is NOT here as the creation of equal-support for all and within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a human being that has supported the separation of ourselves as life, as everything that is here due to/ because of implementing a system that has only confirmed and supported our delusions of grandeur as ‘superior species’ within this Earth, without realizing that this is only a mind valuing itself according to how it can perceive itself as the only beings with such ‘instrument for reasoning’ and within this, neglecting and not even considering that there could be other forms of awareness without having to be existing as a human being to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a human being to impose my views, my perspective, my ‘philosophy’ on top of what is here as reality, imposing within this the mind’s reign upon the physical reality that is here, unconditionally, tangible, reliable and consistent which is everything that the mind is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust a mind instead of relying on the actual visible and undeniable facts that this physical reality reveal of who we really are as beings that breathe, eat, shit, relate, reproduce and die as organisms that live here within a certain cycle with a beginning and an end – within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a human being, believe that the purpose and mission of the human being within this world had to be of some type of ‘spiritual nature’ that could only confirm the self-created and programmed supremacy of the mind over matter, the ‘spirit’ as the mind creation over the reality that is here, as what is tangible, as what we breath, eat, shit and sustain ourselves with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever allow myself to think or indulge into thoughts about this reality being an illusion, without ever realizing that I could only indulge into these thoughts because of not wanting to take Self Responsibility for this world, which I as a human being, have used and abused in the name of creating my ‘realm’ within an attempt to ‘conquer the Earth’ stemming from a delusional idea of such thing being possible in this reality as a fact. We can only abuse another in an attempt to create such supremacy that can only stem from who we are as the mind – not in consideration of who we are as one and equal.

Who we are as physical beings, as part of this world and reality cannot possibly be more than or less than what and who we already are as the entirety that is HERE as a whole.

“The void is not the void because there’s nothing to be empty of” – I’ve recalled this quote several times through my blogs and it’s possibly one of the Zen Buddhism type of quotes that allowed me to grasp what it is that makes any ‘desire’ and ‘longing’ such a useless mind-fuck to keep us well entertained and diverted from looking at the reality that is here, that we are absolutely abusing and neglecting while getting ourselves high on ideas of us not being this world, us not being ‘real’, our bodies being only ‘vessels’ and essentially only justifying any form of abuse toward each other while seeking joy, bliss, love, peace, drugs and rock & roll.

Only standing within this anthropocentric perspective of this reality, can we dub this world as ‘an illusion.’ We are now facing the consequences of the continued abuse to the extent of getting to a point of no return for life to continue in this world. I have to go as far as saying that only human beings have created theories, ideas, perceptions, axioms, hypothesis and endless philosophies in an attempt to describe, grasp and have a hold on what is here. The starting point of knowledge is that of control and power over this reality, this physical world that is here. And here I add one of my favorite Bernard Poolman quotes: “Knowledge will never be Life.” Such a simple statement shook my reality to the extent that I had to walk a process to see what was knowledge in fact and how it is that I had placed value and worth upon myself as knowledge. We as species have neglected reality in an attempt to be gods. Who/what created any idea of inferior/ superior but ourselves in our mind – it is but a program, a single structure of information that has served as an actual weapon to exterminate any ability to live and understand this reality from a common-sensical perspective which would have to be based on what is tangible, physical, constantly able to be verified and confirmed by all participants in this world.

The very manipulation, the very creation of something and someone – in terms of becoming parents – in separation of ourselves has become nothing else but a power-game, a failed attempt to be ‘gods’ and ‘creators,’ neglecting the most basic facts: anything we name, anything we create, we have to take Self Responsibility for.

Another Bernard Poolman quote: “If you create something, you have to give it responsibility as well” – that’s part of the fundamental principles to be applied and lived by every single human being in this world – I emphasize the human aspect and perspective as this is what I currently am aware of and what I see/recognize is the primary reason of why we are facing a reality that is busy collapsing = it is our creation collapsing as the entirety of the mind-empire that we’ve built like castles in the air with no foundation whatsoever on LIFE.

Everything that surrounds me that has been shaped and formed and given name is tainted by the human intellect, it is part of the prison we’ve built in separation of ourselves. Why? To create ourselves as ‘masters’ of the world. The Earth gives everything we require to live unconditionally, we have done the exact opposite and formed a system that can only benefit some to live in the type of heaven promulgated by religions, yet having the vast majority being locked out of this magnificent creation due/to and because of Money.

Money is a mental system. It is the actual  Illusion that has become the most convenient lie of them all for some. We all have accepted it as real. The more I see it in my pocket the more it becomes surreal that we still use this as a form of obtaining that which should be given as part of being in this world (no more papers required, thank you.)

Money has been created for the sole purpose of abusing, imposing and sucking dry this reality in an attempt to maintain the human being as the ‘supreme being’ in a reality that is then called an ‘illusion’ to remain at ease and with a false sense of peace that results as a comfortable Lie that we have all bought in the name of our personal interests, our personal goals and lifestyles that we accepted as how reality is, how humanity functions, how ‘human nature’ dictates our reality.

Nice comfortable Lies

Thus it can be argued that Berkeley – and the Mahayanists – simply and neatly sidestep and resolve this huge problem by proposing a theory that the whole world is an effective illusion upon our senses, and that the only reality is an entirely spiritual one. In Berkeley’s case, he argues that it is a part of the mind of God and is thus loved by God, seen by God and is part of Him, part of the fabric of his Being. This is a very comforting viewpoint for the Deist.

This statement says it all. What are we exactly complying to when saying ‘reality is entirely spiritual’? It is saying: ‘Neglect this ‘physical reality’/ this current world, do not even bother to see what’s going on, what’s wrong or what must be changed and corrected because: it’s not even real anyways!’ This is a key quote because it contains the ‘magic words’ to make it acceptable within  human’s gullibility when it comes to emotions/ feelings (which we know are programs and knowledge constructed to generate fluffy energies of being alright without actually being so.)

The magic word is ‘Love’ – by saying that this reality is God’s creation and it is loved, people that are believing in a God feel ‘honored’ and stupefied enough to never question why such ‘godly creation’ reflected our very own mind/ human nature allowing destruction and starvation that could have easily gotten us to get some type of realization about there being something inherently wrong within this reality. Once blinded by the light, it takes time to recover the ability to see what is really HERE. Love is then that glue that has kept the chains of enslavement tight and wrought into a nice presentation that we all bought into in one way or another – both positive and negative aspects are equally created at a mind level, hence we can’t deny that our participation in this.

“An advantage of the view of the world as an illusion is that we become genuinely fearless and relaxed in our life, accepting things as they are, people as they are and delighting in everything that comes along just as it is something which was meant to happen and which certainly contains something for us of value and benefit. We behave as if we are in a dream and as if all events are happenings within a dream.[…] It also enables one to be joyous and to be a friend of everyone. It enables us to develop greater hope and faith in ourselves, others and the world at large. It is unthinkable to even consider a life or world without these qualities of hope, joy and faith. Taken together all these advantages also form a basis for deeper spiritual insights and progress. They form a basis of relaxation and deep calm within one’s life, precisely because of the love, joy and contentment which the view engenders within us”

If ‘reality is an illusion’ how come that the very mind that thinks and formulates this excuse is not then seen as part of the illusion itself? – hence discarding itself out by mere inference of the origin being an illusion as well – I mean, this is just an attempt to equalize the mindfuck that is currently being promoted in the name of what we just read above: joy, hope, faith, relaxation, calm and love – we’ve become our-slaves to the creation and perpetuation of ‘nice feelings’ in an attempt to create some form of ‘support’ for a ‘deeper spiritual process’ which is then again the non-tangible realm where entire intergalactic battles could take place without a single physical mortal being able to confirm it.

Art has contributed to this creation of the perfect illusion of reality. From my own experience any time I tried to equate a drawing to reality would only result in frustration for not getting it the right way – we like art because of the illusion it represents of reality – when there is no light all shapes and forms disappear – yes – but a starving child remains a starving child during daylight or night time. How narrow minded have we become the moment that we only consider ‘life’ as ‘ourselves’ and how we live it/ perceive it and within that, dare to publish such points as ‘truths’ that many others that were also viewing the world from the perspective of me-myself-and-I then resonate with and follow, creating the ‘masters’ and ‘slaves’ that seek such grandeur in an attempt to control reality and dare to call it ‘pursuit of happiness.’

Why Bother?

How is reality any different from a dream?’ And ‘what difference does it make if they are the same?’ It was not possible for me to see any substantial difference between them, thus why bother to pretend that there is a difference? So one can confidently treat the world as if it IS an illusion and use that as a basis for living one’s life. That shows contempt not for the world itself, but for the materialist paradigm, maybe!

‘Why bother?’ Key phrase of the ultimate abdication of self responsibility upon this world and reality. A more colloquial translation would be ‘fuck it’ / ‘who gives  fuck’/ ‘I don’t give a fuck.’ What a convenient phrase to brainwash oneself into a pervasive negligence:  “So one can confidently treat the world as if it IS an illusion and use that as a basis for living one’s life.” We can see how the person that wrote this is inherently wanting to ‘oppose’ the materialistic perspective of reality which instead of remaining as common sense, became just another antithesis of spirituality without going any further than denying the postulates presented by spirituality.

It’s all here:

So to sum up, I think to entertain and thoroughly consider the idea that the world is an illusion is a surprisingly powerful and profound technique which can lead to real spiritual insights and lasting joy and delight both with oneself and with the world.

If the world is not real then not much that happens in it is of any great interest, worth or consequence –

See, there are internal paradoxes in all of this type of ‘views’ even when seeing it from a rational and logical human perspective based on how knowledge is built

What is supposed to be the ‘Illusion’ then?

And now, for the cherry on the top to give this entire unacceptable perorate full-mindfuck-circle

The world IS essentially an illusion as that is precisely how it is perceived by the mind of an enlightened being, a Buddha. Thus it can be argued that through cultivating the view of the world as like a dream or illusion, prepares us for the final stages of enlightenment, for the attainment of the view of a Buddha.

 The advantages of believing in the world as non-physical or as an illusion and thus essentially spiritual, are very comforting and indicate a desire to believe in the essential and pervasive ‘goodness’ of humankind and the world and universe we occupy. Such a view might be difficult to maintain in the light of our frequent battering by bad and unpleasant events that befall folks all the time. These events shake our faith, our hope and our joy and tend to negate our spiritual paradigm. It is similar when trying to love everybody and to regard them all as friends and kind folk when they go and act in an unkind or unfriendly way. The disadvantage for a spiritual person of believing the world to be only physical, is that it appears like a form of mindless nihilism which is unbearably depressing. Such a view makes life most definitely NOT worth living for the romantic idealists and spiritual persons. If materialism were true, such folks would be permanently in a state of profound despair.

I can call myself a human being that lives by the physical laws wherein if I don’t breathe, eat, shit, drink, sleep and exist in a network of relationships, I would not be able to exist. Is this ‘materialism’? I call it realism without placing emphasis on the ‘ism’ but keeping it close to the ground as the Earth that we eat from and where we all will end up lying once dead. I see this reality is Real for all that it takes and I am in no way in a ‘profound despair’ anymore-  even though I was before. I have forgiven myself, I am standing up to never again succumb to neglect my world and reality in fluffy thoughts and feelings that are actually damaging others and our sense of what living actually is.

The illusion is placing value and worth to the words that have no physical correlation to what is here as one and equal. This illusion is what must be stopped before it becomes an actual reality that we can later only regret about.

We’re still here, walking a process to establish what the real world is once we are fully here, fully equal as Life. Be part of this as well.

It is the mind that labels this physical world as illusion, the physical is real, the mind is just that -a maker of illusion.” @RebeccaDalmas

La Ilusión de este mundo es nuestra realidad - The illusion of this world is our reality
“La Ilusión de este mundo es nuestra realidad” – 2008

Educate yourself with a never before told reality on this existence beginning at an atomic level The Psychology of The Atom

Quotes taken from:  The World is an Illusion: Berkeley’s Philosophy and Mahayana Buddhism  by Peter Morrell http://www.homeoint.org/morrell/buddhism/illusion.htm


2012 The hard and soft veneers

While listening to Life Review: Keeping Quiet I saw how I was tensing my body, and my muscles were contracting and certain memories passed through my mind, specifically when he mentioned the point of  fearing conflict which was one of the reasons why I played-out and created a ‘nice person’ personality so that I could be the ‘neutral’/ stand in the middle road in all situations and be in a ‘safe zone’, be accepted which means not being opposed/contradicted, not to create any ‘enemies’ which I developed a fear for in terms of having being sort of bullied early on at school and not knowing what to do/ how to react to that, suppressing an entire shock and pretending that I didn’t care.

Interesting, this just came up as I am writing here, I hadn’t even considered that I have in fact played out both characters out of the same ‘fear of conflict.’ I created a ‘strong hold’ personality as well out of fear. This just came up as I remembered stuff like one girl wanting to asphyxiate me in the classroom, it was sort of in a ‘playing mode’ but still it affected me at the level of not knowing how to react/ what to do in such moments. She was one of my ‘best friends’ at the time. Events like these and being picked at for being a ‘smart ass’ early on in elementary school lead me to have my personal-support  coaching to ‘stand up and be stronger,’ which were words mostly provided by my mother which were ‘cool’ at the time to create a defensive mechanism of ‘I am not affected by others words toward myself’ – yet never getting an actual understanding of how or why they would react in such a way and how I simply didn’t have to participate within such judgments allowing that to obfuscate myself and create an entire experience within me.

That’s when I started developing a personality of being ‘tough’ or keeping a certain stance wherein I made sure ‘no one was able to fuck with me’ and this developed as early as elementary school into puberty.  A point that I played out in certain situations – standing within this same ‘tough/ superiority’ role is that I would deliberately test myself getting involved in opinionated conversations in school, just to prove my point right and within that, inflate my ego as this personality, which turned into superiority wherein I would then ‘not give a fuck about anyone else in this world’ because I was apparently ‘above that’/ not able to be affected. 

Now that I look at it, I’ve actually walked both polarities on and off.
One was the personality that I lived earlier in my life which is the one I have described as ‘being above it all,’ staring  at everyone with a blank-face in an ‘I don’t give a reverend fuck’ type of mode. This was also linked to what I’ve shared these past posts of believing myself to be a victim of this world, ‘not belonging here’ and having to deal with ‘stupid humans’ (playing out the superiority complex)– because that is exactly the type of thoughts I had to create in order to not exist ‘in fear’ toward other human beings. This is how I would judge and automatically ‘see’ everyone around me, wherein only those that shared the same views upon people/ this world would be the people I would hang out with – which were about 2, lol.

And as I’ve been walking this point, I can say that this is part of the physical corrections I am still walking I mean, it’s become quite a ‘way of carrying myself in this world’ wherein I would get feedback from others in how I seem to be a grumpy person all the fucking time, when I don’t ‘see’ myself as it, yet this personality has been recorded at such a physical level that I have to be completely Here, aware of myself as my breath to see how I am walking, how I am experiencing my physical body, how I am either frowning or tensing my jaw line when and while walking in the  street, stopping all instant-judgments that I would generate to virtually anyone, all in the same type of ‘shade’ as in belittling others while pretending to be ‘above that’ – yet living such belittling point within myself as an actual ‘nature’ that lead me to develop a ‘strong hold’ as a personality, a ‘hard veneer’ to present to this world, to not be vulnerable, to avoid being hurt = to avoid conflict at all cost.

The other side of the coin was later on becoming the ‘nice personality.’ It’s fascinating to look back at these two faces/ phases of my life which were clearly marked by the type of people I held as friends. Actually now that I see those two friends represented both poles – oh was it such a bomb when they lived together, it was like merging heaven and hell and me stuck in limbo. Eventually I could not keep up with both and had to ‘leave’ the friendship that supported this first aspect of playing out the strong-hold superior type of personality, the gloomy-dark times of absolute pessimism, depression and self judgment wherein I definitely resorted to paint, write and read a lot of books that would equally support this personality.  I can relate to what the man tells in this life review in terms of guarding his books like a treasure, I did the same and I was so ‘content’ with my little bubble of books, cd’s and paintings.

Back to ‘the other side of the coin’ aspect, the ‘glowing’ façade  I experienced in my late teens when having some sort of ‘spiritual awakening’ lol, changing my all black wardrobe to absolute flamboyant pieces of clothing that matched a ‘new perspective’ on life which I deemed to be ‘healthier’ and ‘full of positivity’ – I really thought of myself having ‘found the way’ while seeking some form of ‘higher purpose/ mission in life’ and presenting myself to people with this ever lasting smile, being servile, being ‘loyal’, being ‘positive’ about life, having a ‘good time’ apparently while smoking the hell away to suppress what I was in fact experiencing and still existing-as, without having had any actual direction to see how I was only creating the exact opposite of my past to apparently ‘wipe it out’ only keeping the same point in place but with a new mask that had to eventually blow out as well.

Now, I mention this ‘positive façade’ because in my mind I became very aware how I didn’t want people to antagonize me, I sought for their approval and the only way was making sure that they liked me/ accepted me = they weren’t able to tease me/ oppose me and that’s how I created a rather ‘happy’ person as a presentation of myself,  which ensured that I got everyone’s ‘appreciation’ and no one would dare to become an ‘enemy’ = fearing conflict. I can see how whenever I deemed someone to not like me, I would immediately react toward such being, which was only me projecting the inner fears that I never dealt-with in fact, because I was just covering-up all the fear with a nice benevolent and meek personality, suppressing the hell that I realized later on I had absolutely ‘blacked out’ from my experience through using weed. Yes, this I only got to know of because of all the writings I’ve kept for over 10 years now, wherein the mind-experience would come out, only to eventually forget about it all the next day. It was quite a shock for me to see how in my mind I link that time of my life as ‘glowing happy years,’ yet in fact they were also hell as I continued experiencing a constant inner-struggle and discomfort in my own skin that I simply managed to  suppress more and more all the time. This became unsustainable and it all burnt out to ashes the moment I found Desteni – thank Anu for that, otherwise fuck knows where and what I would be doing now.

The latter personality is still able to be spotted in my first vlogs wherein a bubbly personality comes-through while letting through at times the actual ‘inner experience’ that I was only covering up, which was exactly the  type of walking contradictions we have become as human beings when fighting against ourselves in our mind, and living a double life within ourselves and toward the world. Yes, complete schizophrenics, but we’re here walking our corrective process.

 

So, this point of the ‘nice person’ is still playing out at times, yet asserting myself as I go. When I was at the farm I would react whenever I would see/ hear conflict. This became so obvious to me at some point and it was so cool to face it in one definitive scenario wherein Bernard just spotted it like that:  ‘You Fear Conflict!’ – and yes I was, my entire body was in this constricted state while presenting myself to be ‘cool with it,’ yet being actually fearing to be ‘in the middle of conflict’ even if it wasn’t ‘directed’ toward myself.  Hence I had to walk through the point of realizing that I will be dealing with these situations and having to direct myself to face  reality and stopping the ‘I’m over it all’ and ‘I’m such a nice person you can’t oppose me’ personas which were created as defense mechanisms to not have to stand up in moments of perceived conflict or create any form of  perceived rivalry/ opposition/ antagonism.

What triggered both personality creations was fear and seeing ways to ‘cope’ with the fear of being vulnerable, fear of being hurt, fear of having to take responsibility for myself, fear of having to confront another, fear realizing that I was still belittling myself toward others. It becomes quite clear to see how we develop coping mechanisms to not have to stand up in common sense, which is ludicrous to even place out like this because it doesn’t make any sense to create excuses to not stand up for what we see is common sense, what we see is required to be done, lived, spoken-up about. Instead of using coping mechanisms, we have to create practical ways to face reality, that’s essentially what we’ve learned through walking this process: how to practically direct ourselves in any given situation that we would have previously simply ran away from/ shut down to not face it.

After I became aware of this fear of conflict once that it was ‘in my face,’   I’ve been walking the process of deliberately taking on points of speaking out, commenting, pressing-myself as common sense regardless of what ‘reactions’ it may trigger, because I see and realize that this is the only way to see and test who am I within those situations.  I am able to direct the point within common sense instead of just wanting to get rid of it and not having to face it at all, or having ‘others’ to do it for me, or eventually just pretending that ‘I don’t care’ which is what I saw was quite the nihilist type of defense mechanism, yet dealing with quite extensive inferiority/ in fear of others which lead to a constant requirement to ‘uplift myself’ to ‘keep up with the pressure.’ We were just discussing how it is really energy-draining to keep-up these ideals of ourselves as personalities, while living here in self honesty, as life, is actually very very simple and effortless as it only requires us breathing here.

We have accepted and allowed ourselves to cage each other in this world ‘keeping up’ nice pictures of ourselves as being affable and smiley as well as creating a tough-rough presentation out of fear. This became quite evident when interacting with people that would seem like absolutely ‘tough’ and ‘rough’ and with a haughty way of carrying themselves and getting to see how they were in fact these ‘sensitive, vulnerable beings’ that had developed such image/ presentation as a defense mechanism toward ‘others/ the world, which is then standing as an ‘inferiority’ point in fact, though we require Equal stance in all ways.

If we look at this point it is essentially how gangs are formed and why they exist the way they do. Look at the Maras, they create such self image to portray this literal ‘fearless image’  as beings that are able to provoke fear in others to protect themselves – why? because they are mostly beings that have been born into circumstances of extreme poverty and abuse that they eventually seek a way out of. That’s how they run away from home and become part of gangs that become ‘their family’ = their security, their way of developing an entire self-image that ‘cannot be fucked with’ using the ‘power of unity’ at its max– all because of fear and probably resenting the fact that they are not being considered as equals in this world. Surviving through using these defense mechanisms becomes part of their being, as their full-blown personality and lifestyle that justifies their actions like committing crimes out of that inner experience of having been disregarded within this system from birth. A usual mindset would be ‘Why would they ‘care’ to not ‘harm others’ without considering how they have been neglected/disenfranchised from birth?’

See how in such gangs, striking up confrontations is  actually part of the rites of initiation for 11, 12 year olds that want to become a part of such gangs. They have to endure all of  the pain and fear to ‘become a man,’ to be ‘over it’ – eventually becoming beings that are in fact only walking with a hard veneer out of fear, fear of others, fear of death, fear of anyone that could have more ‘power’ than them in this world, which translates to once again economical disparity wherein the Maras are usually coming from poverty backgrounds.

 

I realize how I have feared conflict, I see how I have created personalities based solely on ‘fearing others,’ developing a stance of being ‘over this world’ or ‘knowing better’ –  yet the point that differs from what we heard on the interview is how I didn’t remain silent. 

Now that I remember, I deliberately decided to start speaking up because I would see my mind filling the gaps in terms of, for example, seeing two people getting into a form of conflict and I would see the common sense of the point – yet because of seeing myself as not wanting to stir up anything and not wanting to ‘lose my friends’ or not wanting to ‘come across as fill in the gap,’ I would remain like the silent person that pretended to be ‘over such conflicts,’ being neutral, feeling/ portraying myself as some wise person that would only speak if enough ‘wisdom’ was at hand to share – quite a deluded position; and as I bring the point here, as I write and rewind on the points in my life wherein I would ‘feel’ this very same way, it is almost like having to keep up with the character, having to ‘sustain’ such silent frame of mind, such ‘wise person’ and ‘peaceful’ type of being – yet the internal conflict was still there, it only grew and grew – the more fear grew, the more I started compounding this experience wherein the only valve of escape was smoking weed and drawing and ‘listening to music,’ while experiencing myself in perpetual annoyance and irritation toward myself, this world and  everything, because of not seeing a ‘way out’ and it was all because of not having dared to face myself, to walk through that which I was gladly just covering up in an ‘everything is fine’ personality wherein the abuse and the gory aspects of this world had been ‘left behind’ to seek for ‘new healthier horizons.’

From this I can see how having being into spirituality, seeking a god and seeking some form of ‘remedy’ to myself and my “reality” were only ways to mitigate the fear and inner conflict that I experienced within me. It is fascinating that no one never really got to ‘know’ what the hell was actually going on inside me as I moved myself throughout my life, only ‘I’ knew, only I could see how while being with others I could create this ‘everything is fine’ personality, literally like a guru that believes that all conflict is just a mind problem and it can just be ‘sorted out’ by remaining in a perpetual resistance to think, speaking the least possible and ‘simply ‘stopping thinking’ which is and would be equal to trying to ‘stop breathing,’ because we see and understand now in our process how it is not about ‘shutting off our mind’ and our thoughts, but to walk a process of self-correction stand one and equal as our mind = being self-directive through actually participating and interacting with others in our world, instead of being taken by a ride by our own thoughts. This is taking self responsibility for ourselves.

 

How have I supported myself to stop fearing conflict? Through writing, applying and living Self Forgiveness, walking a deliberate process of placing myself in the ‘eye of the storm’ not for the sake of ‘proving myself better,’ but to see who am I within the face of such perceived conflicts/ confrontation and seeing who I am within it: am I able to ‘cope’ with it, am I able to stand fully and not fear speaking up, am I still fearing compromising any ‘idea’ of integrity I may have of myself, which can only exist at the ego level that we are here to stop and correct to stand in common sense as equals. This requires me to deliberately ‘push’ myself to participate, how else would I have known that I feared conflict? I mean, even the reason why I had initially created a blog in a service that wasn’t ‘well known’ was part of keeping myself in a safe zone out of ‘creating conflict’ with people in my reality reading my blogs and eventually having any form of reaction toward myself/ my words. I’m glad to say that I found a way today to bring all my blogs into this domain which is awesome. Yet I could still see the thoughts related to fear coming up in terms of ‘this being a well known domain now and people having more of a direct access to my stuff’ – which is yet again ‘fearing conflict’, ‘fearing exposure.’

It is a matter of walking the correction now because I’ve seen and realized for myself what such apparent ‘superiority’ as  in not speaking/ not participating because of seeing everything and everyone just so ‘out there’ and not having anything to do with me, and keeping myself in a fantasy land feeling like the incomprehensible human being that has this ‘sensitive side,’ yet portraying and carrying myself as the exact opposite to not have to explain myself all the time. It was almost a way of having others ‘fearing me’ to protect myself. This has remained as a point that even people walking this process have expressed having as an ‘idea’ of how I am based on the pictures they see, based on one single point of expression that vlogs are, until getting the actual experience of talking face to face and living together, which enables us to really tear down any beliefs created about each other. I saw then how ‘instilling fear’ is a protection mechanism as well as a form of creating an idea of power based on ‘being above others,’ a way to generate an idea of myself that people can ‘respect’ instead of being someone that is easily ‘picked on.’

Having said this, we can see once again how any form of fear is an actual limitation lived out as ‘who we are’ while remaining as the faithful followers of our personal religions wherein common sense is neglected while sticking to our “safe ways” of existing to not have to face ourselves. It takes a while to fully stop this,  it is only after four years that I am beginning to see how I have created myself in terms of creating positive and negative personalities from the starting point of fear.  From this we can see how this entire world is built upon fear! This must stop here, that’s how all polarity must be eradicated as any reason to be opposing anything or anyone is only separation, a point that we’ve neglected exist within ourselves as well.

We are here to create a world that’s’ best for all and that cannot be ‘questioned’ but simply realized and walked as that principle.

This blog is über lengthy now, but let’s say that the main point here is how stopping fear is the first point to be able to take on our own lives and the world through this process of walking the consequences. The moment we allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by the reality we are creating within and without, we become ‘less’ than that which we are creating, which is like a reversed-god complex if we can call it that, making ourselves less than our creation yet portraying a ‘superiority’ image at the same time. Quite unnecessary if we can stop it all by simply walking here as breath.

For this, writing is the tool, self forgiveness implies the self corrective process to walk the correction as we go living every single day. Simplicity is the key, we can just see through these experiences how I complicated my reality by trying to ‘cover up’ fear, instead of seeing fear for what it is: a self created limitation that comes in the form of thoughts that I can work with through writing, applying self forgiveness and directing myself in common sense.

That’s it.

Thanks for reading and suggest you listen to that interview because it was the point that triggered all of this here.

 

polarity as me

 

 

 

 


2012 The End of the battle Matter vs. Spirit

Separation created between matter and spirit is one of the  unnecessary polarities created at a thought level.  Spiritualists promote that people should stop focusing on the ‘material world,’ deeming it as the ‘source of evil.’ People like Mokichi Okada that promoted the advent of a ‘New Era,’ believed that people should veer toward a spiritual-growth that could be in consonance with the coming age wherein ‘happiness’ would reign on Earth as part of ‘God’s divine Plan.’

People like Okada – a.k.a Meishu Sama – believed/ proclaimed themselves to be enlightened masters in this reality. If one reads their message, all you have is pointing out the need to be in alignment with the ‘new era,’ removing all the ‘bad thoughts’ from our minds and toxins from our physical bodies, and essentially kind of only ‘wait for it all to  happen.’ How could these beings call themselves to be ‘enlightened’ if all that they ever did was focusing in a non-tangible world that they simply ‘believed in’ according to apparent forms of communication/ access to knowledge given by a ‘god.’ I mean, common sense, if one has such access then:

Why only letting ‘him’ give the great news and not asking about the abuse and suffering that is currently existing in this world?

Why did none of the so-called ‘masters’ dare to challenge such a beautifully placed future ‘divine’ projection of humanity without giving any perspective on how the current system has been created by ourselves and how it requires an actual reform to create such  ‘heaven on Earth’?

Why did God did not come up with a holistic solution like the Equal Money System? Why was this reality based on a hierarchical system wherein only some had to inevitably be slaves?

How come an Equality system has never been the ‘order’ in this existence?

According to Okada and many others within the New-Age movement, there is a ‘great awakening’ about to happen. Imagine yourself being able to wake up in an equal world wherein everything is just like ‘heaven on Earth’ with abundant food, water, everything you need to build your wildest reality dream. Imagine if everything would be just ‘freely here’ yet each one of us would still find ourselves judging one another, fearing each other, not knowing how to cooperate and work together, essentially stuck in a general separation and apathy toward ourselves because of not having even become equal and one to the mind that generates and formulates such experiences and thoughts within and as ourselves.

It is common sense that a process of Self-Correction is required if we are all aiming to create an Equal world. I’ve recently read through interactions in twitter that ‘self is perfect as it is because God created us’ – which is just an ego trip and the tip of the iceberg of the massive abuse we’ve accepted in the name of ‘God’s perfectly flawed creation.’ Many people could equate Self-Correction to a purification process – yet the process we walk at Desteni is not able to be ‘chosen’ in order to  have that ‘ultimate experience’ such as ‘heaven on Earth,’ or reaching ‘enlightenment’ – it is a process that each one decides to walk within the realization that who and what we are is and has been always HERE – all the time – and that we don’t have to wait for some ‘divine discharge’ to happen for us to take self responsibility for what’s here.

The word ‘responsibility’ is not able to be found in Okada’s compilation of editorial letters called Teachings of Meishu-Sama – Volume 1 not even once – which gives us the necessary idea that in all its 60 plus pages, we won’t find an actual realization that it is not to create an eternal discordance/ separation with what is here as the physical reality/ ‘material world’ and the spirit (which we still can’t see) – but instead promoting taking Self Responsibility for how we are creating this world and setting rules that are clearly not created to support everyone equally and within doing so, looking at how we can practically create solutions for the matters in this world.  By ‘matters’ I mean the consequences of us disregarding the fact that we have been following and submitting ourselves to an elusive ‘divine plan’ that many of us have sought to be a part-of by following a certain ‘clue’ to get to accomplish our ‘mission in life,’ only to then get lost in translation when it comes to simply becoming a single servant of a ‘god’ that doesn’t exist and that we cannot certainly remain as ‘slaves to.’

The reason why matter was seen as ‘evil’ by Gnostics/ spiritual people is to maintain and perpetuate the belief system that could keep feeding ‘heaven’ with the necessary energy to preserve itself – that’s part of what you can learn at the Desteni Material, which explains how it is that such a god-belief system was an ideal distraction (in the form of spirituality and sex) from realizing the actual enslavement that we were living here, only being batteries that run an entire divine plan that promised ‘love’ and ‘bliss,’ while keeping a reality of suffering and abuse ‘well equilibrated’ this way.

That was a shock indeed, realizing I had been in fact perpetuating the abuse in this world while focusing in establishing a magnificent connection with ‘the whole,’ neglecting and deliberately ignoring the reality that is here, as myself and the world.

Here’s some facts from such document in terms of the words  used in it:

Number of  times we can find the word ‘Equality’ in this book: 0

Number of times we can find the word ‘Oneness’: 1

Number of times we can find the word: ‘Honesty:’ ‘0

Number of times we can find the word ‘Forgiveness’: 4 – all of them as mere titles, not in the actual content and only referring to ‘asking God for forgiveness’ prior to ‘judgment day.’

Number of times we can find the word ‘God’ in this book: 131

Number of times we can find the word ‘Spiritual’: 261

Number of times we can find the word ‘Light’: 103

We can figure out the rest in terms of ‘divine’ plans, guidance, love, etc..

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People following these writings usually believe that ‘we are not our physical body’ and that this is a ‘temporary lifespan’ wherein each one is essentially only waiting-to-die to get to some personalized heaven with the god of their choice. I once also believed that this body is only a vessel – and a rather annoying one -which is the same as treating myself as a carcass while being alive, absolutely disregarding the fact that it was my very own body the one that had to ‘endure’ my thinking processes of such nature while disregarding the very oxygen that I inhale to nurture every single one of the cells that constitute this physical body, that holds this mind system that creates who and what I am.

I have forgiven myself extensively for having placed all my ‘value and worth’ into a non-existent reality that I would only get to ‘know’ about through the knowledge upon which I deposited faith, belief and hope, really only wanting everything to just be magically fixed so that I wouldn’t have to actually deal with the physical reality. I am here to stand one and equal to my physical body and this existence – which is still a knowledge point, yet I realize this is to place into perspective what I am actually walking here.

Today I got a video response from someone claiming the above: we are not our physical body.  I once believed that, I once thought that there was some ‘superior’ or ‘greater phase to come.’ I pretty much indulged into readings such as Okada’s while immersing myself in the new-age writings wherein I took many words as ‘facts’ while following an inherent desire to prove my negligence toward this reality as ‘not being real’ to be ‘right,’ to be ‘ad-hoc’ to the process of Earth. I was utterly wrong, I’ve forgiven myself. That’s probably part of the guilt I would experience before, how I had neglected this reality and myself as my physical body in various ways while believing that who I was in this ‘material world’ is worthless, is non-important, is ‘useless.’

It is through these types of beliefs wherein the ‘spirit’ is placed above matter that wars are justified, because in the end they claim: ‘who really cares about some bodies just dying, they weren’t even ‘real’ in the first place’ – and this is not just me making stuff up, I’ve read and heard the above twice today and it came with a shudder to realize what we have become just because of a sole belief in us being a soul/ spirit/ superior being that we have never gotten a hold of to even ‘guide us’ to create some common sense in this world – in case it was ever actually ‘real’ which is not of course.

“We’re doomed” yes, by all of the positive bs beliefs that are being propagated in this world, neglecting the very body that allows us to indulge into such  hatred and separation of ourselves. It is unacceptable from this perspective that life continues supporting humanity’s delusional belief systems unconditionally, no wonder all the shit is now hitting our fan.

A luxurious ship half sunk getting more hype than 20,000 children dying of starvation every single day, a 170 million dollar mission to mars failed, millions of sharks are killed every year in the name of exquisite Asian cuisine while billions join in the lines of starvation and poverty because of being ‘invisible’ to a system of profit. This is our world today – are you willing to continue like this while focusing on ‘the positive’ and hoping to ‘enter a new era’ of bliss and happiness? Read this: we won’t go anywhere as we are already Here – we have to sort out this reality unless we allow our ego/ self interest to get ‘too high’ and destroy the world that we are blatantly disregarding every moment that we believe that ‘matter is not real’ and that all that exist is the ‘spiritual reality’ wherein you’ll be in the presence of some magnificent being that never even cared to show his face on Earth.

Common Sense is required in this world: only through creating/ establishing an Equality System can we create dignified living conditions on Earth. It is not about the spirit, it is about the beings that are placing rules upon the matter in this world. Matter is the physical, the actual god that is here regardless of us ‘the observers’ being aware of it – we’re not even aware of the totality that is here, we are submitting ourselves to a limited fraction just because of holding our mind/ spiritual invisible realm as ‘all that there is.’

We have to get down to Earth to see and realize what we are neglecting, what we are supporting even by holding papers with fictional value that allow us to enslave each other to only ‘live’ if having such I.O.U’s in our pocket. It is a sick joke and a game that must be given and end by ourselves.

The only ‘distance’ we have created from ourselves and this world is through our own mind through beliefs, thoughts, fears, judgments that have been externalized creating our accepted and allowed current monetary system. The Equal Money System ends the eternal battle of matter vs. spirit wherein we won’t have to focus on having a ‘better life’ once we’re dead, but we can create it and give it to each other only Here on Earth.

Om

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We Express no matter what!

This is a blog response to Lindsay’s video Uselessness that came in a very cool moment wherein after vlogging about Child Slavery and having spent few hours editing a video about war and poverty scenes last night, it is almost inevitable to not get a sense of despair with regards to the extent of abuse, negligence and general disregard that we’ve lived by in this world toward each other and everything else in this world.  I have often wondered ‘why only a few are able to listen and care enough to agree and speak up?  Why is it that no one cares?’ But this is in fact taking the points outside of myself without seeing how If I don’t like what I see within such considerations, I stand as the point of correction within this world that is able to demonstrate that such carelessness and disregard is able to be stopped, that the general apathy to address the problems in this world was more likely linked to these thought patterns explained in the Uselessness video like ‘What is the point within this all? Will anyone actually read/ watch/ care about what ‘I’ have to say about this?’ All of this being also a convenient point in the system for those that are currently ‘in control’ so that no one dares to stand up and start questioning their life and the reality we are living in.

The point of ‘Uselessness’ has come up many times throughout this process certainly. I remembered just now a moment at the farm where Matti was working through a similar aspect as ‘pointlessness’ wherein we got to hear Bernard’s perspective on how he was ‘missing the point of it all’ and that point was simply ‘himself.’ That was quite a revelation, it was like suddenly it all clicked, I realized how we had always sought something else to be the point of motivation for our lives and how we’ve never actually lived and done things for ourselves, within the realization that ‘this is it, I make it happen’ and making ourselves the point of our existence. Within this, we realize that we are doing this for ourselves, for what we see and realize is common sense regardless of how our backchat and general observations around this reality may say otherwise, hindering our expression and determination to speak up for what we see is common sense if we allow such thoughts to direct ourselves.

This is the point wherein we come ‘back to our senses’ and see the voices in the head for what they are, only thoughts in the manner of ‘This is useless, no one will care, no one will read, humanity is fucked anyways, we won’t change, it is all futile,’ and instead allow us to ‘just do it’ because we see that we’ve been deliberately hiding and suppressing ourselves for whatever fears and reasons we might give power to, wherein we diminish our voice while having a LOT to say.

I have definitely discovered that any time I allow myself to go into the thought of ‘Nothing is going to change the world’ it is a form of wanting to not take the necessary actions and responsibility that it would entail to create a point of change beginning within ourselves. I can actually realize in this moment that it is in fact so, ‘Nothing’ will happen and suddenly change this, WE have to do it as we realize that this is our creation.

If people at Desteni would have not ‘cared’ to commit themselves to share and become the base foundation for self support for all people that are willing to do so around the world, we would not be here. They are all living proof that it doesn’t matter what anyone says, common sense will prevail after all the lies and the deception of this system finally falls apart, because of it not being based on reality anyways.

We are Here and ‘We will not stop till life is free’ – this is Desteni, this is us, this is you and me that see the common sense required to be exposed, shared and lived in this world. We continue educating ourselves, sharing our perspectives within walking this process of Self Realization and supporting everyone that is willing to walk with us in Equality.

This is the most supportive bunch of people I could have ever met in this world, I invite you to check what Desteni is and take a stand today to speak up about the Equality, to share what you see is required to be lived in this world, commit yourself to Yourself,  become the point of change you want to see in this world and within that, walk and share with all of us that are doing the same already.

Thanks for reading, thanks for the vlog, Lindsay, awesome support.

http://www.equalmoney.org because Equality can only be implemented if ALL is equally supported in a tangible and physical way.

 

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Creation and Responsibility

If god had not existed as part of the preprogramming in this reality, we would probably not be in such a chaotic situation in this world where we’ve made of invisible gods and money the invisible rulers of the planet – instead we would have accepted our point of responsibility within creation. “If I can’t find the origin = I must be the origin” this should be the ultimate debunker for  the entire idea of ‘God’ as the creator. Though we are here, 21st century and no real change or ‘evolution’ as many claim has taken place – right, because it won’t ‘take place’ by itself, it must be created.

 

Such evolution is unlikely to ‘happen’ according to the inherent programming we have. God was a fucker that made us with the preprogrammed belief of ‘creation is not equal to creator’ and in that, because life was not taken into consideration at the moment of understanding creation, they ended up locking themselves out of this creation as well. Figure it out, Life cannot be really subdued, only not recognized and realized within each one in Equality.

Due to not recognizing each other as one, due to being in a constant strive to ‘get to the top,’ the reality that is here as this world is being absolutely neglected to the extent of existing in an absolute alarming state in all human aspects – and no one seems to care enough. I ponder: how long can we endure this? How long will we have to wait until everyone starts caring? Probably the moment that you open your tap water and get no flow out of it or you go to a supermarket and find the shelves are empty or go to the gas station to  fill your car’s tank and find there is no oil left for a refill.

We’ve been so used to only take and take and only give paper and coins in exchange and use it self righteously as if it was a real ‘fair pay’ for it, without never really caring to know how our water is distributed, what happens to the shit when I flush it, where does my garbage go, how is electricity distributed and generated, where is the food that I’m eating coming from – and then extending it to the rest of the world like getting to know how our usually made in Bangladesh, Thailand, India clothes are the result of slave labor that can only benefit the retail store that sells it to you for a high price, only because of the brainwashing we participate in as some type of prestige and fame that the brand itself has created according to an entire propagandistic campaign that tells you what is In and out in fashion. Fashion is currently a rather fascist business that is blatantly abusing people that don’t have any other opportunity to have a decent job and the only thing that’s left is creating clothes in massive factories wherein each second is equated to a cent. Time is Money and we must place a final stop in such ‘equation.’

I watched the documentary on water and they reveal shitty facts about Mexico City. I actually live quite near to one of the devastated areas with what once was like ‘Venezia’ with great methods used in pre-hispanic times for agriculture. Now it’s known that if one dives in there and you’ll get all types of diseases like cholera – yet food is still grown there. Negligence is everywhere,  not considering that resources are not precisely renewable. The environment in this city is living proof of the inconsideration upon the environment and resources available here. The most basic principles are still not lived at all.

I have been giving my garbage to the same men for almost 5 years now, they know me and I see how because of the regard I have toward their job I’ve developed this way of greeting them every morning and smiling as if that could make their lives and jobs ‘less miserable,’  I have written about this point specifically yet, it seems that they do appreciate the fact that one can say more than the usual ‘thank you’ and giving some coins as if that was our ‘compensation’ for the job they do.  So, all I have to do is change the starting point of me not feeling ‘sorry’ for them and simply express in that moment.

I’ve probably expressed before how they should get at least the best pay in the current system because of what they have to do , but this wouldn’t be ‘acceptable’ within the current fucked up value system wherein people that are ‘well prepared’ and have master’s degrees are the ones that get the most rewards by the system for sitting on a chair and pretending they care to be an actual example of what it is to create solutions in this world. Not at all. It’s very common to see that people with jobs like garbage men, general cleaning workers or in construction smoke weed for the sake of ‘getting by’ in their reality. This is also common for public transportation drivers, people working in grocery stores, 9-9 businesses selling random stuff. If we dare to look at the amount of people being in some type of drug, we would realize that almost everyone is in some form of drug and that it is the only way that everyone is ‘coping with reality’ instead of finding a solution.

I was lying on the floor of my room, I  saw  a note I took on from some other documentary: 900 million cars are in this world – holy fuck! Is there any viable solution to keep filling each car’s tank? Do we simply have to Stop? And as I was pondering about this and many other problems we’re facing in this world, getting myself in a momentary mindfuck of ‘there is no way we can continue this way,’ when everything began moving around me,  it was an earthquake just  few hours ago, the Earth literally shook the ground beneath me. I snapped out of it and went outside – all is fine around here and it was a literal wake up call to not indulge into these experiences.

 

We go back to the initial point: why only seeking to bail ourselves out instead of taking the wheel of the car and changing the entire fucked up structure of this reality? Why only focusing on case-specific situations in our world to ‘create solutions.’ Sure I mean, we have seen the ‘hero of the year’ on CNN with people trying to eradicate slavery, but it won’t work as permanent solution because it’s just putting on the infamous band aid while the wound is deep to the core of the entire system. Same with ‘peace prizes,’why having to implement ‘peace’ while we could be creating a permanent solution that creates living conditions that are honorable for everyone and with that end all forms of disputes between humans –  why then having to make of such actions that should be everyone’s responsibility a matter of ‘awards’ and pompous events sponsored by corporations that are most likely responsible for the direct permanence of the abuse they could be reflecting upon in the show.

It’s certainly Not the way to go and we’ve made of any possible solution just another race for fame and glory, not really considering the whole picture that is ourselves as well.

What I watched on CNN in a show called ‘Bullying Stops Here’ with the so-called ‘sane’ people in American TV like Anderson Cooper and Doctor Phil, we see how they try to address the bullying problem, bringing the kids to expose their stories only to generate more feelings of condescendence ending it all with creating some type of ‘reward’ to the suffering they have to endure after they exposed how they’re hit, peed on and cursed at every single day, without having any solution coming from ‘teachers’ or parents as ‘authorities’ being able to solve the problem. Instead Anderson makes space for the kid to sing a Lady Gaga song so that the show ends with this ‘sweet taste’ in people’s heads like ‘oh, poor kids but he got to sing and be applauded for it, how nice was that!’ then change the channel and forget about it all. Same with the rest of the kids that exposed how they were picked on due to apparent sexual preferences, race, size, being ‘intelligent’ in school etc. I can relate to the latter, I never experienced it as intense as these kids do, but I definitely know how much others’ comments can ‘lower your self esteem’ if not ready to face such words and support ourselves to not take them personal.

All of this makes us ask the ultimate question: what we we doing to ourselves? Our kids are becoming bullies or bullied without there being a ‘solution’ because: it all begins at home!  The world is simply reflecting back the disregard and negligence we have toward ourselves, abusing ourselves in any means possible, seeking for ways to ‘cope with reality’ without taking self responsibility to Change it/ Correct it in a sustainable way.

 

As long as we remain subdued by the imaginary and fictional story of money having more power than life, we’ll remain with the same constrictions that we’ve created almost in a masochistic way to remain in separation, to remain absolutely hating each other and getting used to the idea of ‘this life being this way’ and that’s it, no more ‘questions’ about it. I mean, that’s how my parents were probably educated, they educated me the same way and that’s now the reason why I must be the point that stops from perpetuating the same old ways on to future generations. We cannot possibly continue this way and unless we vow ourselves to take humanity through this correctional process, we will simply cease to exist – not by any ‘mysterious’ condition, but as the result of the consequences of our actions reaching the top and overflowing in an inevitable end to the entire human drama.

I said to myself at least 3 times today: the problem is the human being –as without us, non of this would be happening on Earth. We are the problem = we must be the solution and using the homeopathic principle of ‘like cures like’ we use Money as the point to cure the atrocities that have been perpetuated by money itself, by changing its principle and base foundation of existence – from debt and a tool to subjugate to an accounting tool to make life available for everyone equally.

We don’t require ‘spiritual gods’ or any other light and love belief system to take self responsibility, it is in fact through accepting our self responsibility that we can stop looking up above for answers and start caring for what goes on here on Earth.

Becoming part of the solution begins with each one of us, the more we wait, the more shit will hit the fan. We must stand together, we must learn how to work together and work with our ‘differences’ individually, until we are able to stand within one single principle that rules this entire reality: Equality as Life – as all as One as Equal. That is the universal law that must be practically lived in this world and for that, human beings must love each other as neighbors, for real.


“If you create something, you should give it responsibility as well”
– Bernard Poolman


Fluffy-sparkly li(v)es

We all are here for some special purpose so STOP
STOP being prisoner of past
AND become the architect of your future
DO the things u fear… – spiritual proverb

If we were here for some special purpose, don’t you think we are way overdue in accomplishing it? Or that we should be getting some clear indication of what it might possibly be about? We have gone through the same cycles over and over again throughout thousands of years with no possible answer to ‘fulfill our mission’ – could this be an indication that there was no mission at all? What would it be like if we got to understand that we’ve been a cosmic joke? Would there by any ego-enhancement within that?

The relevancy of the Desteni material is to realize that all sweetened justifications and ideas of us being here for some ‘supreme reason’ have been  blatant lies to keep the entire belief system of ‘god’ and the holy trini.ties in place. In other words, keeping ‘good faith’ and believing that we would eventually ascend to a ‘higher status’ once we brake the ‘chains of the past’ has been another form of control to keep everyone seeking for the ultimate blissful experience and never ever questioning how dysfunctional the system is and how we’ve managed to live life after life without any actual progress.

Evolution anyone?

Here we are, more ‘human’ than ever, not even able to recognize ourselves as the creators of this entire existence and take self responsibility for it, not able to see the blatant lies we’ve believed in for such a long time beginning with the current monetary system, not being able to stop such basic problems like terminal diseases, poverty and starvation regardless of having enough technology to get to Mars and explore the nice pictures of the universe far far away; not being able to stop the constant thinking which is the very same chatter that makes us believe that there is something ‘magnificent’ yet to be unveiled as our living purpose. It’s all been fluffy sparkling lies to make us feel better = less miserable when realizing that there is no such purpose in this world other than realizing what self creation is – and that hasn’t been understood within all its implications.

False self-empowerment can only uplift someone through pre-accepted and allowed beliefs of grandeur and magnificence as our ‘true nature’ wherein self then tries to ‘overcome the past’ and the ‘limitations’ through doing that which you believe will ‘break you free,’ apparently becoming ‘more’ through beating yourself against the odds – lol. It is really ludicrous to have this idea that becoming a ‘better being’ entails only considering your own experience, your own beliefs, your own reality without even questioning what type of ‘fear’ can someone that is starving  overcome to become the architects of their future? Hmm, I bet that their greatest fear just as any other human being’s would be linked to dying and currently, not even if they could use the law of attraction and visualize themselves as ‘god’ itself could they manifest food to eat and clean water to drink. How narrow minded do we have to be to believe in such ‘uplifting statements’ of there being a god, a something/someone that is having it all ‘under control’ while there are beings that cannot clearly even conceive that the suffering they endure every single day could possibly have any ‘higher purpose’ other than being a sick joke from a non-existent god that solaces in watching people starve wherein they can’t even uplift their condition to a living one. If there is no god, then who are the ones allowing such atrocities to remain as a constant aspect of our reality without doing anything to stop it? No one else but ourselves.

All things god, all things light, all things love, all things happiness, all things enlightenment, all things spirituality, all things bliss, all things that can be ‘exciting’ have but one single purpose: keeping everyone with a fake smile in place making themselves believe that human life is inherently benevolent  – how can we possibly even pretend everything is ‘fine’ and feel ‘blessed’ and ‘loved’ when there is but a single person in this world that is you and me as well that is being abused, that is starving, that is suffering some terminal disease, that is being raped, that is being fired after serving as a loyal slave for a lifetime – all events designed by an apparent benevolent force according to all those that preach some form of godhead exist. How come that we’ve kept ourselves perfectly occupied within our minds, not being able to see the forest for the trees, yet always seeking the next biggest excitement, the next uplifting energetic experience that can keep us ‘going,’ putting on the same show everyday until there is eventually no more artificial power to keep it running.

This is how Self Honesty is the most difficult thing we’ll ever walk in this world as there can be no other point of motivation outside of ourselves but ourselves – being the point of our existence is something that we’ve never realized and in that, self-acceptance, self-will and creating an actual consideration toward ourselves as this reality are points that must be cultivated for the very first time in our human existence. Self Honesty means that we move by principle, we realize ourselves as the creators of this reality simply to take self responsibility for it, stopping any form of personal ‘upliftment’ to make us then feel better and special, just to have something to ‘strive’ for and accept the enslavement that exists as a tricky aspect of our existence and that’s it.

Well, there are thousands of quotes like the one at the beginning of this post polluting cyberspace – I say ‘polluting’ because they are like temporary kicks of sugar to our brain wherein we believe that we can ‘do it all’ and feel better about ourselves which is already accepting a form of ‘positivity’ and ‘brightness’ added to an existence that we’ve accepted as inherently flawed in the first place – that’s the only reason why we would stick to the ‘positive side,’ just to hide the actual facts and self-experience that I suggest: must be exposed for what it is. The more we keep our demons trapped, the more difficult it will get to face ourselves as such experiences to stop and correct them. Living in denial is living in such false sense of self-empowerment, it is definitely  yet another crime against humanity as one is certainly missing out the entire reality of this world that is certainly NOT blissful, not great, not special in any way whatsoever.

The moment we dare to step down from our high horse, we will be able to walk in humbleness, understanding how reality operates and walking the necessary steps to become the solution that has never existed within this world directed and created to benefit all equally.

Overcome your fears.

Okay so by following such advices like the one in the quote, I could jump down from the top of a skyscraper and apparently that would be creating my future and being ‘my architect’ – I bet that wouldn’t change a thing other than experiencing major fractures or injuries or even death – this reality is certainly not exactly the same as the matrix movie.  We can all see how this is the type of energetic ‘uplift’ that anyone can obtain in some form of spiritual exorcism wherein you feel completely ‘great’ and apparently liberated in the moment, only having to wait for a while until the effect runs out and the actual bullshit starts hitting the fan – just like any other drug really. This leaves us with the realization that such words can only feel like ‘sweets’ that dissolve very quickly and end up leaving a bitter taste which won’t be corrected unless we start taking actual self responsibility to Stop the Past, and be the actual creators of a reality that isn’t based on fears, limitations and polarities of good and evil as the memories of abuse and negligence lived out toward ourselves. For that, Self Forgiveness is the way.

The fact that in such statement self creation is only existing as a way to ‘overcome one’s fears’ and feeling great about it is revealing to what extent we’ve limited self creation to. ‘Overcoming fears’ can only be an initial point to start debunking the lies and limitations we’ve accepted as ‘who we are,’ but it cannot possibly be ‘all there is’ to this reality, not at all.

Real self-empowerment begins when we consider the ability to create a world that’s best for all – this has nothing to do with becoming ‘more’ than or ‘better’ or ‘supreme beings’ – No, it is simply establishing the way that things should have always been in this reality, it is a matter of aligning with the principles of life, the life that has been absolutely disregarded while getting ourselves lost in the ideas of being/becoming nothing more than some type of super hero that runs on batteries, eventually having to step down from the cloud to face the actual process of creating a world that is best for all.

Let’s stop being prisoners of our mind and start learning how we can direct ourselves to finally live, for real and not just think about it.

‎”Gratitude when half the world starve is not based on love or oneness or light, It has its roots in survival. To feel love and gratitude in spite of the evidence of suffering in this world confirms that good feelings are also demonic possessions and purely the result of trained methods with which to turn a blind eye to actual truth as reality. All masters and Gurus should be seen for what they are, send to deceive and distract you from being the dominion on earth that produce a reality that is best for all. What excuse are you going to have for not attending to the suffering when you are able to?”-Bernard Poolman

Learn more about the very basic steps to start supporting yourself in this process of Self Honesty, correcting ourselves to eventually live.


Pole-ticks: the uncomfortable truth

If we all know that politicians are only chasing the throne of power for the sake of their own personal benefit and have no intention whatsoever to care for people’s general well being, then why are we still accepting and allowing ourselves to believe that any person that is currently ‘running for president’ could actually make a difference in this world if throughout history none of this has been actually done?

It is quite lame to find out how politicians behave in their positions, becoming nothing else but a ‘good show’ for people to watch, criticize and talk about and in that, becoming even more popular even if it means being so for all the wrong reasons.

Unfortunately, one of the points we’ve had to realize is that: politicians are us as well and we are the ones that have create such group of people to delegate all our responsibilities to while they, of course, make good use of it following their greatest excitement which is certainly Not related at all with being an example of what being a living honorable being. Yet, isn’t this the very same desire that we are all chasing after as well?

I often see myself reacting to politicians – I have written about this before – without realizing that I am criticizing in another what I haven’t yet corrected as myself, when I haven’t yet directed me to be living here as breath with the utmost discipline to make sure that I can stand by every single word I say. This is written here to become aware of my own judgments that can become quite harsh toward the general fuckups in our world, which is me as well and any fuckup has to do with my own participation in the negligence toward this reality that we’ve created with such spiteful and abusive nature.

This is how we’re all responsible for everything that is here, this is how Self Honesty is not nice or beautiful as it implies realizing that we’ve become our worst nightmare and there is nothing or no one to blame for it but ourselves. Then we realize blame can only create further victimization, so all that’s left is standing up, taking self responsibility from here on and ensuring I don’t play out the same actions and deception that anyone in this world is currently living by, including myself of course.

Politicians are the incarnation of our constant desires transformed in a convincing image that can be voted on to get into office. That is us achieving our ‘goals’ and ‘dreams’ regardless of who or what we have to step upon, regardless of how much we have to lie and neglect our own self dishonesty as long as we have our ‘success’ guaranteed, as long as ‘we are fine’ and the rest of the world is just not ‘here’ for us to face.  It is because of these thinking processes that we’re currently facing the ultimate madness of the human as we become a savage demon seeking its ultimate fix in any single possible way.

Keeping ourselves sane in this world requires a constant grounding point: writing – sharing – discussing – breathing to realize I am here and we can’t trust anything of this world as this has become the last play of the ego of the human seeking its last drop of blood to drink and quench the interminable desire for such glory, fame and power regardless of the amount of beings that must be sacrificed in order to attain so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge politicians in separation of myself as inept people that are obviously pouring out deception and becoming the greatest liars on Earth, while disregarding the fact that they are the very manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the ultimate abdication of self responsibility while seeking the fulfillment of  hopes and dreams through the power that we’ve endowed on to money itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to criticize politicians for their quest to the ‘power’ without realizing that we all live by that same quest to make our dreams come true, to have the best and most wonderful life where everything is fine and taken care of, which is how we’ve delegated our self responsibility to others to do everything for us, to not have to become self responsible and do the things ourselves because that would imply that we actually have to become the solution and stop complaining and judging the system, which is us as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be judging another for the way that they speak, act and behave as it is clearly ‘deceptive’ and only seeking to get to power without realizing how such person is only playing out that which is existent in myself and everyone else wherein we present a ‘face’ to the world that is only seeking approval from others, seeking ‘your vote’ to become that which can have ‘all the power’ later on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge in another that which I haven’t yet acknowledged and accepted exists within me as well  – therefore I stop judging and having endless backchat when seeing ‘politicians’  as the ultimate scavengers on Earth, without realizing: they are me as well.

Time to stop – this is a reminder: whatever I am judging outside of myself must be brought back to self to see how I have created this manifestation as an outflow of my very own abdication of self responsibility, of my very own self dishonesty and my very own dreams and desires that have driven my entire existence never questioning who or what had to be stepped upon to fulfill them.

In an Equal Money System we won’t be having politicians that are keeping up a good show only for the sake of ‘gaining power and control’- no. Each one will be equally responsible and in that, we’ll all learn how to take care of this reality as ourselves, ‘loving our neighbor’ which is giving to each other what we want for ourselves and stopping any delusions of grandeur that perpetuate the ideals of ‘who’ and ‘what’ we must become in order to be ‘fool-filled’ in this world.

We stop buying into lies and create the actual freedom that can only come if we stand equal and one as that which is best for all – process of realizing that we are able to create better ways to coexist than what we’ve ever could’ve thought possible before.

This is it.

 

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The ‘Feel Good’ times

I fooled myself so many times trying to seek something of ‘meaning’ and ‘value’ outside of myself that I ended up looking for ‘something’ that could make sense of this world in almost every single religion, philosophy, gnosticism, physical practices and anything that I could use as a point of giving myself some meaning and purpose in a world where nothing made sense to me.

I got stuck into spirituality for quite a while using it as a way to not face my physical reality while placing all my attention into that which I thought was ‘real’ as the intangible realm where the “true self” existed – quite a paradox in terms of the definition of reality, yet I tricked myself very well into my own belief systems.

I can read my writings from that time and they are all filled with words that could be nice enough to sell hallmark cards. I hid behind words that sounded pretty enough to be  a constant attempt to speak like walking poetry and in that, becoming another brick on the wall of the false-portrayal of what is here as this world, becoming comfortable in sugar-coating this reality. I hid behind knowledge that made me feel special, superior, ‘all knowing’ and almost ‘too good’ to be in the physical world.

I thought of my body as a cage and in that, I did nothing else but separating myself from it further and further, keeping myself busy in my mind, building up a personality that I could present on to others as ‘who I am’ and be excused for not fitting in, for having this ‘kind-hearted’ way of being wherein I saw myself as a living tarot card, a ‘guide’ of sorts or a guru living in the modern times just so that I could be and remain  ‘special’ for those people in my world who would also support this mindset of mine.

I dug the nice spot I built for myself: thinking positively, seeking love, talking about the realm of the intangible and trying to find some freedom from this ‘oppressive world’ through following my greatest excitement. I made of my life a series of self-created fleeting moments and coincidences that could keep me trapped believing that all of it would make sense someday, that I was following a certain pattern as one of the many life lessons that I had to fulfill to eventually complete my ‘mission’ in this world. Yes, no different to being playing  a a game of sorts. I got to be quite obsessive about numbers, names, people, ‘meant-to-be’ experiences in my reality, books, pictures – I was thinking my reality through a filter of some ‘divine hand’ guiding it all. I never realized I was doing it all for myself in fact.

Apparently, god’s mission for me was being nothing else but a fucked up energy interrupter that could go up to the ‘highest excitement’ and then drop down to the deepest pit of denial and misery wherein I would mostly seek to get back on top again through self-created experiences.

Fascinating that I sought people that could feel exactly the same way I did, so that we could all delude ourselves into a comfortable foggy existence wherein we could agree that ‘the world is fucked because there must be a reason for such people to suffer,’ and where karma became the most comfortable belief I took on to not feel ‘bad’ – or even daring to think of myself as responsible – about seeing poor people on the streets.  I would say to myself ‘They must be paying some bad actions from a previous life, they are not only ‘there’ because of this world being fucked, no. There is a higher reason and purpose for it.” Yes, it could be embarrassing to share this but I’ve walked through the points so I’m simply sharing them as they were – no strings attached as I can only recall the general aspects of my reality back then, which was subdued not only because of all the belief systems I was integrating within myself, but because of the daily habits of seducing myself into the realm of the intangible where I could justify it with artistic explorations and solace in the multiple coincidences that I could take on as ‘signs’ indicating that I was on ‘the right path.’ A bunch of crap obviously.

Hiding in spirituality was a great thing for the sake of keeping an acceptable personality that is pretty noble and smiley and seeking beauty all around – literally – that made me popular in my family for a while, lol. What no one really knew is that such happiness wasn’t the ‘naturally good spirited me,’ it was self induced by means that are not necessarily endorphins or a genuine sense of self fulfillment, but more like in a sense of fool-fill-ment through smoking weed as that was the only way that I thought I could ‘get to understand’ reality, that I could be relaxed and enjoying while making of every moment like an episode in a life-series of events wherein I would eventually finish the ‘quest’ by obtaining some type of ‘superior knowledge’ and become super enlightened and be blissfully happy ever after. All of it was a major reverend fuckup.

Now, I’m not recriminating this to myself, it’s taken me years to be able to be writing this out the same way that I could write about my day today and how I got partially intimidated when walking past three older males wherein I realized oh fuck I’m still reacting to seeing men walking down the street with certain aspects that I could consider ‘attractive’ – you know? that type of experiences that are just like regular for human beings lol.

Why I’m writing this today is because I tend to create some type of self-evaluation according to the time of the year. 4 Years ago around these days I was into conspiracies and pretty much starting to believe that something marvelous would happen in ‘4 years time’ and that we were only waiting for it all to unfold in such a nice and blissful way that it would blow all our troubles away, and wash our suffering with some type of magical dust that we could snort and be eternally fulfilled with.  Yes, that’s only an exaggeration of how I thought of this world and reality back then.

Though it was actually through conspiracy theories that I started stepping out of the usual mysticism I had cultivated and getting into knowing the facts that I had absolutely dismissed my entire life. It was a time where I began being ‘afraid’ of the unknown once again because of seeing how there were all of these secret societies trying to control the world and how we were only puppets putting up the show while others moved the strings at their will. Once again, we got really into it and spent several days researching while having our usual past-times doing the regular stuff like ‘being creative’ and pondering about our ‘meant to be’ lives together. Yes I’m talking about the friend/partner that I’d spent almost my entire day with.

One night we actually stumbled upon a Desteni video, a Hitler’s video yet we only saw the beginning as the entire breathing in out freaked him out and took it as a joke. I wanted to see more but, hell, I was quite a submissive one back then and wasn’t  in my full senses either to be self-directive enough – so I complied and allowed the point to just ‘sweep away.’ We really got ourselves into this weird mind state wherein we thought we were discovering the greatest secrets of the world at last, we went around the reptilian point several times which was something that I had definitely considered as a nice myth to entertain humans and nothing else. We all now know how that went  on in reality.

I started getting more interested in meaningful dates and years like 2012 and the mayan calendar which was explained by Ian Xel Lungold while he was alive, and I certainly got hooked on his explanations about it. I devoured his lectures, so I sought for more and in doing that, bam! I found Desteni’s videos on the mayan calendar with Ian Xel Lungold from the afterlife. That was the first video that I saw, I got so excited I texted my mother about it, I almost pee myself out of the excitement as it was just mindblowing for me to be having such characters speaking through the portal. Again channeling was something ‘familiar’ to me, so I didn’t even question that point at the time. I proceeded to register at the forum and began my daily marathons of watching all the material while rolling a joint for the sake of ‘being able to handle the truth.’ It was quite a nice timing as I was completely alone in my apartment during the winter break of my second year in art school. I never thought that my life as I knew it would change forever from that day on.

After 4 years I am grateful that I found Desteni right before I was going to be really screwed-into spirituality and other forms of ‘enlightenment’ or training myself to be some kind of healer, tarotist, or a plain deluded mystic while pretending to make some type of art that could be ‘sacred enough’ to awaken other human beings. I realize I cannot judge myself for all of this because they were all steps that lead me to where I am now, which is still here and facing myself, taking self responsibility which was a non-existent point before this.

It was 4 years ago that I tried my first acid and with that, I thought I had discovered the reality that I had sought for such a long time, everything fit and I felt just like a guru that ‘hits home’ at last. I felt special, I felt that I had to recommend that to everyone – and in fact I did – that was the only thing I required to experience to see that there was ‘something else’ that I was being subdued from. In a way it was an experience that lead me to see a bit beyond my own limitations, so all in all they were part of the game and I took the experiences as part of the same bridge to get to this point.

Now after having told the nice side of story, let’s get the points cracking. I essentially used spirituality as a form of superiority where I could have some sort of ‘control’ over this reality through knowledge, never ever considering that I was actually supporting the entire enslavement of this reality just by keeping myself well deluded in spiritual topics. I neglected the entire world, I could only ‘feel bad’ about other people’s situations, yet saw myself as too incapable to do something about it. That’s how I would feel when watching all those conspiracy theories and such, I saw myself as incapable of becoming a point of change and I only saw ‘spirituality’ as a potential way to solve the problems of this world. It’s not that I never really ‘cared’, I did, but didn’t care for myself and didn’t even consider that I had to first accept and support myself as the individual that I am. I was seeking so much ‘outside of myself’ that I was completely neglecting my own life and reality which is what we now know is what must be taken as a point of Self Responsibility before anything else.

That’s how I began walking this process, as awkward as it was to sit on my bed and beginning to read Veno’s self forgiveness statements as a training point to see how to do it and how it ‘worked.’ From that moment on, it’s been a process of learning through trial and error which is what this process is about. We’re not wanting to keep everyone of us in a certain type of confinement, we actually learn through facing our reality while having the support and necessary tools to see how we can direct ourselves in a way that is best for all.

And for this and many other reasons I’m grateful for finding Desteni, this is just one of the main aspects of it which is stepping out of my habits/ addictions and faith in the spiritual realms. I instead realized I had to do this for myself and this was probably the most valuable point anyone could have ever let me know about.

Thanks for reading and visit the desteni forums to check out what I’m talking about.

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And Justice for All

The quality of being ‘just’ is defined as

just
n    adjective morally right and fair. appropriate or deserved.
(of an opinion or appraisal) well founded.

Justice is usually used within the context of ‘making others ‘pay’ for what they’ve done’ as a form of everyone getting to live the consequences of their actions.  The word justice just as liberty and – unfortunately so – Equality as well have become these empty shells that are broadly used and apparently understood, but the reality is that whenever words are used to ‘fit’ someone’s intentions/ interests, then we know that we’re not using words as living words that can be applied by all – we are instead using the words as representations of our own moral standards and our own value-schemes that are only relevant to ourselves as personalities, as a particular individual shaped and formed within a particular country, with a particular culture which are aspects that influence someone’s perspective toward life from the get-go, as it’s accepted as ‘how things are’ – within this we can go to the tribal-example of how a certain practice of killing a murderer with machetes can be ‘making justice’ for a certain group of people, while this could be also considered as murder and a crime within another set of laws and political conditions.

 

Therefore – taking the point back to HERE where it all began. I came across the following post in the Self Forgiveness Group:

 

“How can I forgive myself for being a human shaped by my environment without accusing other people for being the same?
Then i have to forgive them too.
I can’t
For me to do that. I have to be sure that justice is and sure about what justice is. If it is.
And about those issues I´m not sure.
Without justice I can’t forgive anyone.
And anyway. If everybody is forgiving everybody is it not the same as nobody is forgiving nobody?
Then it’s all right because without justice no one needs to be forgiven.
OR?”

 

The point that’s usually missed within the implementation or consideration of Justice and its application is first of all taking the points back to self and focusing on Self Responsibility. We’ve learned from the demons how they got stuck in one single mind-dimension of wanting to ‘make justice /retaliate/ take revenge for’ the abuse that others might’ve inflicted towards those that they ‘loved’ – only later on realizing that the point that was missed all along was Self Honesty. So within this, a single desire for justice vindicated atrocious killings and murders for centuries, with no actual solution to heal such drive to ‘implement justice’ eventually becoming in nothing else than a usual mental-possession to keep an energetic-idea of self running.

What is ‘Fair’ in this world currently? What is ‘Just’? Nothing, it’s non existent because this word is not lived according to what’s best for all at all, but according to the ancient rules within rusty old constitutions that cannot even consider or fathom a world living in Equality. Hence we’ve really got to Let Go of any and all definition we’ve held as any form of ‘making justice to ourselves’ for that matter – we could only create justice if we advocate for a world in Equality and live every single day till it is done. Any other form of justice can only exist within the parameters of what ‘I’ as an individual have defined ‘Justice’ to be

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘Justice’ implies doing on to another the same that ‘has been done on to me’ and ‘make them suffer the same way I’ve suffered’ as if that could be the best way to clear my name and clear ‘my stance’ toward myself and others in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to imprint within the word justice a sense of ‘honor’ based on my ego, a sense of ‘clearing my name and my stance’ with seeing others go through the same that has been done on to me/ others around me which I have believed is ‘the way to correct ourselves’ without realizing that this is in essence taking revenge of and being spiteful about something or someone wherein there is no actual self-realization of instead seeing/ realizing HOW I created such event within my world, How I have lived and contributed to its existence? How I have accepted and allowed such event/action to exist without me ever wondering or caring to know about my point of participation within it?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only participate and be part of that which is being ‘just for all’ without realizing that I’ve lived and participated in this world that has been the antithesis of justice for all without ever questioning it or realizing my self responsibility within that.

See, we cannot judge another, we cannot possibly point fingers in this world as everyone is ourselves – we can only point out the flaws in the world that has been accepted and allowed by ALL Equally without realizing that the actual problem is that: we live in these separate containments as our minds that doesn’t allow us to see how our words, actions and life experiences contribute in all ways to everything as it exist in our world. We’ve got to literally expand our realization of how everything I exist-as is relationships and how within everything and everyone being part of this world as myself, we are all equally responsible for anything and everything that’s here. Basic Oneness and Equality.

 

Justice within our current living-condition would be for all of us to simply allow ourselves to Forgive Ourselves unconditionally – because what’s been fucked-with is done, there is no turning back, there is no point in taking ‘revenge’ of anything as that would continue the same cycles of abuse . The point is to STOP all forms of abuse and instead walk the process of self correction wherein we face the consequences of our words, thoughts and actions; wherein we accept Self Forgiveness as this great second chance we can all walk and live as the opportunity that we have within this One Life to create at last a world that is of real justice for all, that is actually able to consider each living being as equal and living within fair conditions that enable LIFE to be Lived, expressed and enjoyed at last – there would be no need to ‘ask for justice’ then, there would be no need to want to ‘punish’ someone as the very basis of the system will take care of itself by a single principle that WILL be lived in this world and won’t just exist as nice ink letters in a shabby papyrus.

 

Our sense of Justice must begin with ourselves in humbling ourselves to realize how it is only LIFE that we have to redeem here – not our egos – and it is only Life as a single principle lived in this world that can implement such justice, and that’s already HERE, it’s happening and we are glad that we are finally able to face the consequences of our acceptances and allowances; we are glad that we can finally give up the idea of a ‘just’ god that would ‘sort it all out’ according to some ‘supreme’ ideals that were nothing but nice words sold but never applied.

Giving to each other what we want for ourselves as the living realization of being here on Earth implies giving ourselves the ability to Self Forgive and walk within this process as that opportunity to correct ourselves, to stand up, to stop the desire to ‘make justice’ of something toward another – We must Self-Forgive and that implies stopping all retaliation and potential obstacles that could prevent us from Forgiving Ourselves.

Only our Ego can prevent us from Forgiving Ourselves, only our history, our past, our ‘personality’, our ‘honor’ which is also another tainted aspect as the human creation that is perceived as this right for self-consecration that only boasts our idea of self up to the non-existent heaven which is lived out as a blatant sense of self-righteousness within a self-created moral code that benefits only ‘one soul’. You can read the previous entry to this one to gain more perspective on that.

 

Time to allow ourselves to walk in humbleness, realizing our Self Responsibility and living a life that’s worth living, a life that stands for actual Justice that can be lived and implemented for ALL Equally, without any personal agendas and past-dementia to redeem, but instead walk here as a principle to correct ourselves from this moment on – breath by breath, grounding ourselves here.

 

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