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576. Facing the Self-Created Delusions

 

Or how everything that I judged, thought and created as an experience towards art came back to haunt me.  

I’ve been busy these past weeks/months rekindling my relationship with art. It is a relationship at at the moment because – as I’ve shared before – it became a source of many judgments, opinions, beliefs about who I am in relation to it, which means I ended up creating a bunch of experiences ‘towards it’ and identifying that as my posture within doing art or towards art in general – but interestingly enough, I stopped seeing myself as my art because of how I started imposing my experience towards it – as judgments, beliefs, opinions, emotions – instead of focusing on simply doing it and working with the physical outcome of it.

And this also reminds me that even if I give myself the authority and ‘green light’ to create something, I will invariably also confront all the past baggage and sort it out in the process, can’t have a clean slate by itself, I have to actually do the ‘cleaning’ process which is what I’ll share here.

I consider that making this difference is a primary point here because we tend to create an ‘experience’ towards something or someone and lose that objective view on things and start romanticizing them, just like we do with anything in our minds through energetic experiences that we end up being controlled and driven by in our lives, making decisions based on an experience, rather than objectively and consciously looking at something, assessing and then making a decision.

What I’ve been realizing is that I am facing all of that clutter of experiences, judgments, opinions, comparisons, insecurities and self-doubt that I imprinted onto ‘art creation’ over the last years, which wasn’t necessarily always the case. I started doing art as a response to wanting to express and do something for and by myself that I could solely enjoy for the visual aspect of it. I’ve called myself a ‘reformed visual vicious’ because I did get to a point of turning everything into something I could fixate on and create an experience towards, be it related to beauty or astonishment which is again me creating a relationship, an experience towards things instead of embracing what I would see as myself – take it in and breathe it out so to speak – but instead, I developed a form of romance with art which became eventually a love hate relationship where as some song goes, to ‘hate’ something you first had to ‘love’ it and love in this context wasn’t a living expression of myself towards myself at the time, but glorifying something external to myself through which I could find a sense and meaning to my life, which I now don’t really seek to find one because #IMatter, so I am the meaning of whatever it is that I am living, doing and placing my effort on.

Within seeking to do something ‘meaningful to life’ and others’ lives specifically, I disregarded myself in my own self-creation process – this became obvious in the kind of relationships I created over the years, how I placed myself in at ‘at your service’ type of stance to anything that sounded good to me and in that, well if I would have continued, a strong sense of ‘losing myself’ would have continued emerging from it. I distanced myself from doing that which in fact was challenging myself the most and that is art creation, because I linked it to self-creation and because I linked it to this whole process of transformation of who I am where my points of view have dramatically changed over the years about virtually everything, going into an extremism of sorts where my absolutism led me to the ultimate limitation: “you can’t do anything that is for your own pleasure and visual viciousness, you have to do something meaningful to life.”

But, who told me this? No one else but myself, I created my own standards and limitations, I created my own ideas of what was more ‘noble’ to do in this world according to the idea of getting to create a substantial change in this world, but how could I if the expression underlying that attempt was one of self-limitation, martyrdom, self-sacrifice, denial of what is it that I truly want to be and express? It is the truth of it really, how can I attempt to be an example to the world of what living ‘freedom’ is if all I’m trying to do is impose my principles and views on others while living in a continuous self-limitation within myself?

And that’s what I’ve been facing currently in the practical day to day process of painting. I am the creator, I have the creative ability as anyone else in this world and I set the limits, I set the boundaries, I define the shapes, the forms, the colors, the subject, the meaning, all of it – and that to me has become in my head quite a challenge in fact, which culminated in the past days going through a physical experience of pain and headaches because of all these ideas, beliefs, perceptions, judgments and opinions about what I’m doing in art again and in essence, facing my-self-creation: facing all of these reactions that I imposed into something that is part of our reality as ‘art’ and confronting myself with my self-created limitations and fears while doing it.

Well, this is the real challenge to me, to go beyond the conditionings I’ve imposed to myself in something that used to be ‘so free and careless’ to me as an experience, it was ‘my point of liberation’ yet I turned it into a masochistic experience over the years to the point of not wanting to do anything with it and now having to ‘take the dive again’ into the same pool and face the process of creating or recreating myself as these words that art used to be for myself: enjoyment, liberation, carelessness, a sense of freedom and authority to decide an outcome, a final result of something.

I ended up turning that into an uncomfortable ‘limitless’ set of possibilities. I am being challenged out of my very ‘squared’ way of living actually, where I can be a very efficient and structured oriented person when there’s a beginning and an end to a task and project that can be gauged and ‘mathematically measured’ as finished, as complete… but! I am definitely challenged when it comes to having no limits, no boundaries and having to actually push through my own fears within this notion of reinventing myself in it.

So, this is more of a realization of that ‘crisis’ that comes when we have resisted to do something for so long because of all of the reactions we had imprinted onto it and finally decide to walk through it. I don’t have a problem to get myself to ‘do something,’ but being satisfied with what I do is a whole different thing and that’s what I want to focus on here, because I have the determination, I am creating the discipline to incorporate painting – at the moment – as part of my day to day, except for this week where I’ve been mostly reflecting on all of these points, which has resulted in spending more time in my head than actually doing anything about it. But, I won’t criticize this either, because I’ve been writing and speaking with other people about this creative process which kind of opened up perspectives in me to not judge this ‘stage’ that I’m facing, to understand it as part of the process in itself and also, to practically start redirecting myself in every moment that I see there’s this limitation or ‘idea’ of what I should be doing creeping in and instead test out ways, find my way of expressing myself, without creating ideas, beliefs, perceptions of ‘what it has to be.’

 

I had postponed the decision to actually get to paint for months to the point where I had these lined up white canvasses in front of me without actually moving myself to make the necessary space in the place that is now my ‘workspace’ for painting and get myself in motion.

So now I’m ‘in motion’ but that was the easy part it seems… To me what has become the most challenging is the ‘who I am’ in it where a lot of doubts, uncertainties, ideas, beliefs come up in me about what looks fine and what doesn’t, what I’d like to express – but at the same time considering the painting as something that someone else will buy according to their taste and hang on their wall as something they will be having around and part of their living pace.

I consider that part of the reasons why I had decided to give up art before is because of the plethora of ‘uncomfortable places’ I found myself in while doing anything related to it, thinking more about how others will see it and then using that as a way to limit myself though projecting ideas, beliefs of how it’s going to look at the eyes of others – potential buyers of it – and if it will be ‘good enough’ for them.

Essentially what has been coming up these past days is a fear of failure, fear that no one will like them and so ending up with a stack of stuff that no one will ever pay something for. And this is then the right place to be at within my process, where there is no finite way to measure what’s ‘good or bad’, where there is only an expression that I can be satisfied with or not and getting to know such ‘zone’ within me which, I understand is existing in me, it is there as a potential but here comes also the second layer of what has been creating a sort of ‘cloud’ over my head.

I stopped doing art for several years. It used to be my ‘daily bread’ for a part of my life and then I started judging it in all possible ways as meaningless, as purposeless, as a waste of time, and in that I justified stopping doing anything related to it for quite some time, even though it always remained there in the back of my head. And this has made me in a way be regretting those decisions. These past days I’ve been in somewhat of a ‘lost zone’ within me because of being thinking too much about all the opportunities I once had in front of me related to art and I denied it all, I said ‘no thank you’ and turned my back to it, completely and in quite a righteous stance I must say. And within that, I became all the thoughts that I created towards art, only to now be in the process of having to forgive myself for all those limitations I created towards it and also letting go of ‘all that could have been’ ideas in relation to it and how I ‘think’ that I could have developed myself if I had not given up on myself in art for some time.

What comes up mostly is the perceived ‘lost time’ and this is the idea that has been running around in my head, which is now creating a sense of having to ‘rush’ to practice, to get things done now in a way trying to ‘make up for’ the past, for the ‘wrong decisions’ I believe I made, not only in relation to arts but other contexts in my life like relationships or mistakes that I’ve made for not having sufficient precaution and consideration, as well as an outflow of procrastination in relation to my professional status which I am now on the way to take responsibility for and close those ‘holes’ that I’ve left behind me.

So, within participating in all of these thoughts – which are also fueled by the lack of money, fear of not making money, fear of not ‘making sufficient money’ – I’ve caused myself quite a strain in my body these days more noticeably so, fueled by also comparing myself to what I am aware my fellow peers in art school are accomplishing in their lives and in a way seeing myself as ‘having lost my track’ or even ‘having lost my mojo’ so to speak when it comes to creativity, and in essence, being a bit too exigent on myself expecting certain outcomes or results ‘already,’ considering that with arts- and with anything really – one has to practice to get to a point of satisfaction and eventual mastery, and it is kind of obvious that if I didn’t practice for such a long time and completely disconnected from it,  it’ll take some time for me to ‘get back on track’ and develop myself with it, which means I have to change my current approach stemming from fears, judgments, limitations, regret and in a way yes even if subtle frustration that if I would continue to allow as ‘my experience’ would lead me to ‘give up’ because that’s apparently the easy way out in our minds, which I am aware I won’t do as a conscious decision, but still, I lay out that potential outflow if I don’t actually take a self-responsible action in what I am experiencing.

So this takes me to seeing ‘who am I’ when I am in front of a canvas to paint? All that exists is the idea of having to do something that can be liked by others and this is the challenging spot for me, where I can create a balance between expressing myself, representing myself while also at the same time considering others without going into the point of compromise. And to understand where and how I would compromise myself in something as ‘subjective’ for a lack of a better word as art is not an easy task, but I am willing to find my way in it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret the choices I made in my life before in having created a load of judgments about art in order to justify stopping doing anything related to it instead of seeing that at the time that’s who I was, that’s where I was in my life and that even if I could ‘go back in time,’ I would still be ‘me’ at the time making those decisions that I was quite certain of at the moment. Therefore this is where I have to own my creation, to see nothing and no one as the ‘culprit’ for me desisting on this creative path but myself and so that means I can place myself back on track on it as I can now decide to test out this route and see how I can develop myself on it and so continuing to see what I learn and discover of myself that I had ‘given up’ to before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be deciding to create art from a starting point of fearing failing, fear of survival where then all that becomes is me living as ‘fear of survival’ while painting or doing anything related to arts within which I create a pressure in me that eventually takes a toll on my body and gets to the point where it becomes unbearable to do anything, because my head and body physically gets drained every time that I am seeing through the eyes of fear at what I’m about to create or in the process of creating, therefore

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live trust, consideration and patience within the process of creating something new, where I am instead trying to ‘achieve’ something in a short period of time within a starting point of ‘need to produce more and more’ and in that, not seeing that who I am and what my expression itself is existing as is fear of failure, fear of not having these pieces being liked and bought and therefore having other fears in the background having to do with survival and sorting out other consequences that I’ve also created in my life and that I have to attend as well.

I realize that existing in that ‘survival’ mode while creating something won’t lead me anywhere but creating further stress and pressure on my body, which I actually need to be at ease and in an equilibrium in order to create.

I also consider that I have contaminated my expression a lot based on adding this dimension of ‘potentially selling’ something where I haven’t equalized myself to that possibility and outflow of creating art and instead, have turned it into this murky experience that I believe I have to be at all times considering in order to satisfy a potential buyer’s taste.

If I look back at how I started doing art – and the reason why I also decided to go back to it – is because It was one of the points I took on for myself as a decision I made and lived up to the point of choosing it to be my career, which I then regretted, which I now not regret, and this is the kind of ‘change of mind’ that in my mind and system seems unreliable, untrustworthy, believing I ‘cannot change my mind about something like that, I moved on and that means moving on!’ but I have had to also face the absolutist in me and be humble enough to ‘eat my words’ and rather understand them within the timeframe and context I was in.

It is quite interesting though how righteousness veiled my stance towards arts, believing that what I was thinking, judging and creating as opinions within me were ‘right’ and ‘justified’ and it only makes sense that now I am facing my own ‘bullets firing back at me’ so, yep! I did it to myself and it’s a great way for me to realize what owning one’s creation is, it’s nothing glorious but sometimes it will be as uncomfortable as what I am describing here.

So, how I see it is that unless I clear my relationship with art in all the minute reactions that come up as I am doing it, I’ll continue compounding this experience within me, because as with anything: we are the words that we live, we become what we think, act or don’t act on – therefore if I am constantly churning these experiences of feeling inadequate, incompetent, out of practice, having ‘lost my mojo’ then I will only continue tampering the actual practical process it will take to get back on track within it again and see how I can develop myself currently in it.

I also have to make peace with the fact that yes, that time where I didn’t get to do anything related to art is the same as when one used to exercise every day and stops for several years and one suddenly wants to ‘get back at it,’ I cannot expect my body to respond exactly the same as it was when doing it on a constant basis and I’ve proven this to myself also with exercise even with two or three weeks of not getting to it, takes some time to ‘get back on track’ and readjust.

So, I consider that as much as I’ve been trying to get comfortable with starting over, painting over what I consider as ‘not good enough,’ I also have to stop trying to ‘achieve’ something ideal in my mind, because it only creates a pressure that then becomes a compounded reaction that gets to eventually become more of a physical pain to sort out that prevents me from painting or doing anything related to arts.

I also have to stop judging all of these points as petty points as well, considering how for many it would be a luxury to be dedicating myself to what I am now taking on again as a career path – however, can’t compare myself that way, nor try and compare myself with the idea of what I believe ‘I should be doing by now’ and instead be realistic and humble about the fact that as much as I may have had some practice before, at the moment it will require some time to develop the skills again, to rediscover them if anything through practice over time. I am aware I am dedicated, and I can spend time on it without a problem, so working on something is not the problem – this is about my self-expression and breaking through the multiple self-imposed barriers I’ve created in my mind towards or ‘within’ the creative act and finding the equilibrium to create something that I am satisfied with and at the same time becomes a source of income.

I have to also let go of the ideas of comparing my stuff with what I see some of my peers doing because I am quite aware that becomes also a recipe for disaster if I then create an idea of what ‘I should be doing’ instead of working with what’s here, what I can do, express and work on developing and be OK with the process it will take in this case to develop the skills, because that’s an actual practice that takes time and diligence to it.

What can be immediate though is me living words that are supportive like patience to develop a consistent practice yet not expect ‘excellent results’ right away or ‘master pieces’ type of ideas, because that becomes also an underlying pressure that I am trying to achieve which ends up causing more of a wreck within me than being of any support, therefore I have to Let Go of those ideals and even letting go of seeking that ultimate ‘good outcome’ that I believe I should be aspiring to create – because this becomes also something I am ‘thinking’ about in my head, instead of rather focusing directly on what’s in front of me to work with and express myself as, which is what I consider I haven’t fully aligned within me, all related to notions of ‘good enough’/ ‘not good enough’ and the subtle frustration that comes in me when realizing I’m not ‘fully being myself.’

Doing art is quite the perfect challenge for me to focus on, because there’s nothing else that triggers so many points for me to face by myself, alone, with my literal creation than this. I’ve tested various things and I’m usually ‘good’ at getting things done and taking responsibilities, doing tasks from a to b, but anything that exists within an actual ‘open possibility for anything’ it becomes a challenging task for me, as much as there is an enjoyment in it at the same time I end up clouding it with my ideas, expectations, beliefs, judgments that for sure then become ‘what I express’ in a very literal and visible manner.

One thing I’ve been more ok with is making mistakes. Before I would not dare to start over again or paint over something, I have been more accepting of that rather than giving up completely on it and not working on it for years as I’ve done before.

Also the point of ‘I matter’ works quite well for this process as well, where I have to yes, consider others, what the purpose of this creation is for, but at the same time to do it for myself, not ‘for others’ in my mind constantly or the ‘potentials’ for this or that creation – I have to first and foremost find out again what it is to express something that represents me, is me as who I currently am and I consider that with that, the rest becomes by default an easier point to approach, because then I am trusting myself in it/as it, which are cool words and platforms to start from.

The rest is entirely up to me, where I can translate these words in forms, ways, trying out things that I haven’t done before and be ok with taking those risks and experimenting and seeing ‘what comes out of it’ without trying to control such outcome in one way or another. I have to be fully embracing me in this and stop torturing myself with thoughts of ‘I should not have stopped doing this, I should not have left this behind, I should not have made that choice, I should not have listened to this/that commentary’ Because what’s done is done, and can’t turn back time, but can only work with what’s currently here in my reality from now on.

At the same time, I also have to be flexible and see what outcomes I create, where I don’t create an absolutism of ‘this is the only thing I’ll  fully dedicate myself to from now on’ and take on the absolutist stance in that and closing any other potential ways, doors that could open up as well. This is in a way also assisting in realizing that my whole life doesn’t ‘only’ depend on this, yet at the same time considering there is a potential to work on and be patient and diligent with it too, so that I can embrace myself, my creations and be more carefree with it as I used to be within it, which was the actual source of enjoying my expression in art, ‘boundless’ in a way and realm of possibilities this implies.

I am glad I am embarking myself on this path again, because as much as I ‘separated’ myself from it with a cloud of judgments, it is something that never ceased to be in the back of my head, I just denied it and judged it and told me ‘don’t go there,’ but why deny it any longer? I see how supportive it is to transcend these judgments and actually get to do what in a way has been a constant in my life, very present at times, some other times in the back of my head as a suppressed potential, and now I placed it back on the board for myself. I definitely have to also let go of the idea that I’ve wasted ‘precious years’ for it, because this is also not about ‘time’ entirely, but about what I decide to live and do in this moment and from now on, as myself, as my expression and not judge or compare myself within it based on ‘what I could have achieved by now’ in a parallel universe of having continued doing it without interruption.

So, that’s what I’ll be focusing on while also not creating an absolutism about it and being ‘only driven by’ certain desires to fulfill with it, but discover what it means to express myself as it/in it completely… and there’s only a way to find out: By actually doing it, not thinking of it.

I suggest checking out these audios on Eqafe.com that are assisting to see how we create this absolutism in our minds and establish ways to investigate where we are being one and so limiting ourselves in our creative authority and capacity:

My Life of Absolutism – Life Review

My Life of Absolutism (Part 2) – Life Review

Hitting a Wall

 

 The more I think

 

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421. Art is in the Eye of the Beholder

 

I took this great blog title from Leila Zamora Moreno who gave it as a name for her son’s Cesar first masterpiece which I am going to share here because it’s his first year alive on Earth today!

We got a Pollock coming, people!

Cesar's Masterpiece 1 Year

 

So, I watched a documentary on Marina Abramovic’s work called Marina Abramović: The Artist is Present and noticed how through watching it, I was constantly seeking for some kind of ‘meaningful’ thing to come through, something that could match my idea of ‘art.’ Through writing the self forgiveness I’m about to share, I realize that I had become this constant judge toward anything I’ve defined as ‘art’ and within doing so measuring/gauging it and see if it does match my idea of art as something that can ‘change the world’ and if not, usually I would follow through to judge it as pointless, useless, a waste of time, etc. In fact I had written out a blog about the documentary, but obviously noticed it was filled with righteous comments so as to impose ‘my perspective’ which then of course was a cool thing to do or else I would have remained within the idea/belief that ‘I was right in my assessment’ lol.

I also reacted when seeing people organizing performances and/or artistic creations around an ongoing situation here in Mexico about students having been disappeared/most likely killed due to a political point of convenience for a governor in one state here and then judging this as ‘pointless’ and ‘meaningless’ and then rehashing the judgment of ‘how come I can despise this ‘art world’ so much now and I once was so eager to be a part of it, where was I?’ – so here I go straight to Self Forgiveness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say to myself, how was I ever involved in this art/cultural realm and come to despise it so much at the same time? Which is only showing the usual love-hate relationship wherein of course any ‘negative’ experience is in fact denoting I still hold a relationship toward art, and as such, it’s all about ME in fact and not at all about art/artists or the art world at all – this is then the point of self-responsibility to expand upon here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience remorse and embarrassment for having ever aimed at achieving an artistic career as I followed my desire to experience something ‘special’ through art and aim at ‘changing the world’ with it, which simply means that I was entirely driven by my own emotional and feeling experience and that this clouded my ability to see reality for what it is and genuinely question whether a ‘work of art’ has in fact ever changed people’s lives to the extent that I thought it would.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge art as something frivolous or useless, wherein by defining it in such way I am then creating a negative relationship to it, but still a relationship nonetheless, so this is about me taking responsibility to ensure I no longer impose any ideas, beliefs, perceptions and reactions toward ‘art’ itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create yet again an experience of disdain toward people that are using art as a way to demonstrate the corruption and deaths of people here in Mexico, wherein now artists are gathering to create portraits of students that have been – most likely – sent to be killed by a high authority in one of the states here in Mexico, and so reacting with the experience of ‘this is utter bullshit’ and so having the desire to just curse at the people that believe that in any way doing a portrait or performance of and for the people that have disappeared will change their family’s grief or would in any way ‘solve the problem.’

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that this ‘disdain’ is simply a tantrum like experience that comes after one had created certain ideals and expectations upon something, which is why one has such a ‘stance’ toward – in this case – art, instead of realizing that ‘art’ in itself in this case is not aiming at creating a tangible, physical solution, but simply a remembrance that some people might find supportive and that’s up to each person and how they react/interact with such artistic expressions – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become hypercritical to anything that has to do with art and aiming at bashing it constantly or whenever I can, which only demonstrates my own judgments and ‘false expectations’ created and imposed toward art, wherein I was trying to make of art an actual ‘tool to change the world’ but I realize that ‘art’ in itself as a manifestation and expression cannot do that at all – self change is and will always be here as ourselves, it is about who we are in our mind and in our actions, which in turn will define our creations as well.

 

I realize that in this, of course I’m missing out the actual self-forgiveness that extends beyond ‘myself’ only but as a human being that has lived in a world where pictures, emotions, experiences are the actual ‘drivers’ and/or ‘fuel’ of our reality, wherein the society of spectacle also involves creating this kind of ‘motives’ and ‘remembrances’ using art as a way to ‘heal the wounds’ or else, without realizing that in essence, art only works at a mind level and as such, it creates no solution to real-reality problems and in this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge art for not being what I expected it to be, instead of realizing that it’s only me that tried to make it’ more’ than what it in fact is – in this

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly try and fit ‘art’ into the category of a human creation that will in some way ‘change the world’ or ‘change people’s consciousness’ wherein in my desire to ‘fit’ art into this ideal, I’ve actually created such an unnecessary conflict within me, because I see that it is just impossible to do so, because nothing, no object, no image can ‘change you’ but only oneself in actually understanding why changing is necessary and how one can practically do it – in this:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get so infatuated with the idea of ‘change’ being able to exist within art, which you know in terms of the large scope of what art is, this idea of ‘change’ is already a limitation, a definition that is coming strictly from who I am and what I am walking in my life, which is very much aligned with ‘changing myself ‘ – thus, I have to stop trying to fit the world, fit people’s idea of art into my own.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be gullible and somewhat stubborn in trying to fit ‘my idea’ of art into everyone else’s artistic creation, which then of course leads me to only criticize, judge it, see it as ‘not good enough’ or ‘pointless’ or plain ‘bullshit’ without realizing that I’m judging it from my own point of view that aimed to make of art ‘something life changing and revolutionary.’ Therefore, I realize that I have to STOP trying to impose my own ideas of what art was supposed to be as a catalyst or a way to change people’s minds/lives and instead of trying to measure ‘all art’ against my own idea/belief and perception of what ‘art should be, I have to rather use all judgments as a way to continue checking what exists within me as an expectative or assumption around art, as this is then how I can use art or anything else as a mirror to continue seeing where I am creating experiences and separation from what is here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play out the love and hate relationship toward art, which only signifies one thing: there are still remnants of self-definition within me according to ‘being an artist’ or wanting to stick to that profession as ‘what I studied’ or ‘who I was,’ because in a way I still wanted to try and ‘save the profession’ as ‘my choice’ and having done so in absolute clarity and conviction within myself; and so this was my attempt of trying to justify my decision thinking that I wasn’t so ‘out there’ or detached from reality when I chose to study this – but, at the moment I can see that I was in fact not really ‘grounded’ on Earth 10 years ago when I made such decision and that somehow I am still beating myself for it, which is not necessary – therefore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having chosen what I now judge as some self-conceited and self-importance and absolutely self-indulgent profession as ‘art’ which in this is in fact only judging and ‘dissing’ that which didn’t ‘turn out to be what I expected’ and so, I realize that I have gone back and forth within this experience in the past of the ‘love and hate relationship toward art,’ but the problem is that I still tried to ‘suit my idea’ of what art should be in everything that I continue to see/watch and consume as ‘art,’ instead of realizing that I have to absolutely let go of the idea that I once held about art, let go unconditionally of my past choices in life, of my past ‘mindset’ and as such, stop any judgments around this point within me.

I commit myself to see art for what it is: a series of visual or experiential-based objects or images or actions wherein one is challenged to see reality with another pair of eyes and get to see reality from each person’s mindframe and perspective – thus to take it ‘for what it is’ as an individual or collective expression, instead of continually trying to see ‘where or how is this in any way changing the world?’ which is My idea of what art should be and the reason why this conflict still would emerge within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘the past me’ as vain and superfluous for having chosen such a career and now in one way or another wanting to throw shit at it, which is not really acceptable at all, because art as any other action and creation that we do in this world, is part of what we also have to take responsibility for. Thus my way to contribute to it, is not to ‘bash’ something because it did not ‘fulfill’ my expectations upon it, but rather take the words that I had once associated with art / being an artist and live them myself in the way that I see is supportive and best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to having said this morning ‘where the hell was I when I decided to study art?’ and say so with a sense of regret and disdain toward me and so toward everything and everyone involved in such practice, instead of realizing that if I did this same kind of reproachment for everything else that I see we have done ‘wrong’ in our lives, I would live in constant reproachment which is obviously not necessary at all as in that, we only trap ourselves in guilt and remorse, instead of focusing on what is required to be changed HERE.  

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that what’s hiding behind this is me not wanting to admit that it was my own starting point toward art that defined my now judgment toward ‘art’ which is not about ‘art’ but about me and how I was in fact living and acting in a self-absorbed manner and was seeking for the kind of things like fame, fortune, all the money and the ‘good life’ as well as bashing the system while earning good money, lol – so I realize that I have to simply admit to myself the kind of decisions that I made in the past, the reasons behind it and that there is no way that I can ‘turn back time and change my decisions and career choice’ because I do realize that the decisions I made in my past were absolutely ‘congruent’ to my mind-frame, my interests, my aspirations in the past and within this, I have to absolutely let go of me trying to ‘make sense’ of my initial ambitions and desires in life so as to justify them, and try and see them with a ‘good light’ so to speak, which is not really necessary to now super impose some ‘goodness’ to it, because that would simply imply that I am still judging my past life and decisions as something ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ or ‘self-interested,’ which is not really necessary once that I realize I have simply moved on from that phase in my life and my interests and aim in life have veered substantially from how I used to think 10 years ago, which I am of course grateful to myself for as well and for all the past moments that led to this realization.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my dissatisfaction with my past choices upon every other artwork or artist I see and get to know of by judging their work and activity in all possible ways wherein I diminish it to being ‘pointless’ and ‘useless’ and taking this as a ‘fact,’ without realizing that all of these were only self-judgments that I have created around ‘art’ based on my own judgments toward myself and my past.

Therefore I commit myself to stop wanting to impose my idea of what ‘art should be’ upon others’ creations and simply redefine the word for myself to live as the actual creator of my life within the principles that I have established for myself of self-responsibility, self-introspection, self-forgiveness and self-correction as I see that this is what I have realized is the genuine way to do what I always aimed doing through art, which is changing myself and so with that, changing the world – therefore I hereby let go of the desire to ‘change the world’ through art  or attempt to make of art that ‘one point that changes the world’ which is also not ‘the point’ here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a human being desire to do something ‘more than myself’ through objects, experiences, artifacts outside of myself and now judging art for what I believe or assume ‘artists’ are aiming to do, which is another judgment coming from what I used to do with art itself, instead of realizing that art can be used as a bridge for self-investigation, yet it is not ‘the change’ in itself at a massive level that I wished it to be at some point, as I realize that self-change and self-realization cannot in any way be something done through only one action, one object, one image and have an effect ‘en masse’ – there are no magic tricks on this.

 

I commit myself to stop judging art, artists, art collectors, art supporters and everyone that enjoys art and instead see ‘art’ within the realm of any other human activity that we do at the moment which means that everything we are and do is yet to be walked through a process of self-realization and self-correction, which means there cannot be something that is genuinely ‘supportive’ if there is no foundation to understand such support or what would be supportive to ‘change oneself’ or ‘change the world’  – thus I am the one that has to stop seeing art through the eyes of ‘practical change’ and/or ‘practical relevance for self-change’ wherein I then create a righteousness to create ‘negative’ judgments toward it, which is once again falling in the judgmental trap that leads nowhere and in fact then I would support the continuation of separation, reactions, judgments and division in the world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that because I studied art, I have ‘an authority’ to bash it which is really only playing the same critique conundrum that I have also criticized in the past, instead of seeing art or anything else as just expressions that each one of us will have to take self-responsibility for, for the intent, the purpose and the experience within which it was created – thus, I am no one to judge anyone or anything for what it is, I can only reflect myself upon the world and thus take responsibility for my judgments, my experiences, my expressions ‘toward others’ and always realize it has nothing to do with art per se, with artists or with the artworks themselves, but with myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still have wanted to control ‘my vision’ about art and so be able to ‘measure all other art’ according to what I had defined as ‘art,’ not realizing that this definition of ‘art’ is not even certain for people in art creation themselves. So, this is once again a point to show how when trying to ‘fit in’ one’s definition upon something/someone, because  each definition is created in one’s mind, it will always be a source of conflict to try and define something that in its nature is not meant to even be ‘defined’ as such, thus I see that my point of control was coming also from self-interest and still wanting to somehow remain with the dignity of having studied something ‘meaningful’ or ‘more than’ any other career, which would then lead me to play a value game that is once again of the mind and of consciousness definitions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still go and see art in the hope that I will find something that is ‘life changing’ which is why every time I obviously come out without ‘anything’ or ‘nothing learned’ because I am seeing it all through the eyes of ‘come on, art exhibit, change me, change my life!’ which is impossible of course, it would be like thinking that praying to the image of a god or a saint will change your life, which is simply a delusion.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having ever been fascinated with creations because I have now judged this as ‘vain’ instead of realizing that just as anything that we create in this world, we can appreciate it for what it is in its physicality and no longer having the ‘artistic value-frame’ with which I was trying to measure it against, as this is once again trying to control and impose my own perspectives and experiences toward ‘art’ itself upon others’ creations. It would be like trying to define which human being is more ‘beautiful’ than another or which tree is ‘more expressive’ than another – it is really pointless and a waste of breaths to be dwelling upon this kind of questions, because ultimately if there’s something in art is that precisely this whole ‘valuation’ scheme is meant to be broken or questioned at least.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged this point as ‘petty’ or ‘non important’ or there being more ‘relevant things to blog about’ but, I realize that due to the actual judgmental view that emerged within me while watching Marina Abramović’s documentary and when getting to know of artists gathering to create something around people that have disappeared through political reasons, it was then a point to of course review and open up within myself so that I can align this one point within me and my day to day living and so stop the judgmental me toward art or artists as a constant source of conflict.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have some ‘right’ to judge something because of having ‘studied’ it, which is essentially a belief learned from how our system operates with licenses and such, without realizing that a judgment will always be a judgment specifically when it’s made in an attempt to debase or ‘debunk’ something as to ‘make it less’ in a way, wherein then my judgment becomes in my mind something ‘superior’ to point out.

 

In this the application is actually to ensure that I can investigate all things and keep what’s best, instead of investigating all things, judge and criticize with an attempt to ‘debase’ something and then place my judgment as ‘superior’ which is obviously a destructive and consequential way of looking at things.

I realize that I can use anything and anyone in my world as a mirror, and in this, whichever I may think, believe and perceive relates to ‘another’ is in fact about myself, because I can only think/judge something about someone  if I have judged myself in the same way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was in fact desiring to ‘take a position’ or ‘take a side’ in relation to art because of the self-definition I have created within and towards ‘art’ which is how one then creates a sense of ‘righteousness’ as in having ‘one stance’ in relation to it, which is all knowledge and information based, it is not at all considering what is common sensical or looking at what’s supportive within something – but instead, immediately putting on the ‘judgmental glasses’ and ‘finding fault’ eyes going into ‘attack’ mode to point out all the ‘flaws’ but all of these flaws are pointed out within the starting point of me already seeking to ‘debunk’ another, which is quite the usual nasty game that we play when we want to impose our own mind/righteousness, what we believe is ‘right’ above others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the ‘impulse’ that I sometimes have in relation to wanting to talk about something/someone in an attempt to ‘debunk’ them while still holding a judgment with experience in it as to ‘prove it wrong’ – instead of realizing that I can talk about something/someone without having to resort to taking an antagonist stance toward it, but simply be able to reference it, to look at it in common sense and then  focus on reflecting any judgment back to myself, that’s the only way one can really develop self-honesty, and stop only criticizing things for the sake of feeling ‘righteous’ about something or someone and so justify my experience toward something or someone, in this case, my ‘experience’ toward art which shouldn’t exist at all as an experience.

In this it is to realize that any experience that I have toward something/someone, it indicates I have created a relationship to it, and so it becomes a point for me to take self-responsibility for which means: it’s never about ‘art’ itself, it’s about how I see it, who I am toward it and this is then a much more supportive starting point to look at art and visit art galleries, to see ‘what comes up within me,’ instead of visiting and looking at art from the starting point of ‘proving it wrong’ or wanting it to ‘match my ideal’ of art, which is why all this back and forth friction toward it emerged: it’s all an inside job.

 

I realize that ourselves as human beings tend to seek for answers or ‘find ourselves’ ‘out there’ instead of realizing that everything we require is already here, as ourselves. So in this, I commit myself to stop judging anything that we do/use in order to get to this point of self-realization, wherein I see that art can be used as a tool of self-reflection as with anything else in the world and what we create and do within it. This is where I then have to realize that my process and realizations cannot be the same as others’ and so, I have no authority to judge others’ processes, ideas, beliefs and perceptions – this process is about self-responsibility so here I then commit myself to always see art as a cool point of self-reflection wherein I stop all judgments ‘toward’ art or artists themselves, but rather see ‘who am I’ toward it and use that for my own process of self-honesty.

 

I commit myself to integrate the realization that everything that I judge or criticize in a judgmental manner is and only has to do with myself and the relationships I have created toward something/someone in my past, and so I can only look at things/people objectively where I can first identify if there is any reaction, take it back to self wherein I see the origin of such judgment toward it, do a self-reflective analysis on it in order to support me in common sense to immediately realize: I am imposing my past definitions upon this moment here –  and so I then focus on seeing, watching, reading and participating in anything related to art for what it is – no hidden agendas allowed within me.

 

For a review on the documentary:

 

What life can be

 

 

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372. Desteni Insider: Mind Control and Brainwashing

“The world is in reverse” is the premise to consider whenever the Desteni Material is approached and that is because you are going to face your own brainwashing to the utmost degree, up to the point wherein the ‘you’ that has been occupying the body that you are living in will be stripped down to the core to see what is of real substance and what has been only the byproduct of the endless indoctrination and conditioning within a world-system wherein fear conducts the way toward happiness, light, love, success and an elusive freedom. Reading the first words again “The world is in reverse” means that we haven’t even yet pondered why we seek all these ‘great and good things’ without realizing that such desired experiences indicate that we are by default existing in the exact opposite: sadness/depression, dullness, hate, failure and enslavement. The Orwellian state of the world is the premise one could use from popular culture to understand that such perversion of words is not limited to governments or any other corporate institution that seeks to make the most profit by selling the abuse of life with smiles and frequent client rewards, it has become the foundation of our very own vocabulary as the words that we claim we “live” without genuinely understanding what such verb in fact implies within a reality that is intricately designed to abuse and harm all life in order to continue supporting the schizophrenic concept of ‘living’ that we are enduring at the moment. Yes, it’s being endured without pondering why is life such a struggle, why do we have to strive to make a living, and the point that I will focus on within this blog is the righteous act of wanting to revolt and blame the system for how things have come to be due to our so-called education process where we learn the best ways to dissociate ourselves from the realization of who we are as part of a collective organism that will create reality according to the nature of the thoughts we have in mind. It’s clear that such separation has turned to be the mirror reality we try to avoid and recognize as our own reflection.

 

Continuing from:

What you are in your mind won't pravail - wake up

What you are in your mind won’t prevail, wake up! (2009)

 

It is interesting that the Desteni Material and all of us involved in applying the principles at Desteni have been called out for being a ‘thought reform group’ or ‘mind control cult’ and any other form of slander which, according to the necessary premise on how ‘the world is in reverse,’ it is actually a good thing since that means that we are genuinely breaking the status quo of what has been accepted as ‘healthy thinking and behavior’ because we certainly such thinking processes have led us ( k )nowhere but evolving the ways with which to abuse life and each other in the name of greed. What I have done throughout my participation within the Desteni group is to learn how to investigate all things and keep what’s best, which is placing everything we’ve ever known under the magnifying glass to see whether the education at home, in schools, in society, in our relationships, in the words that we speak genuinely stand as the tools words are to create a world that is best for all.

We shouldn’t even require to confirm that none of the ways in which we have ever lived have been supportive for all of us as human beings, otherwise the world would have already been a place that is genuinely best for all and our reality as our creation is an irrevocable proof of that. Some of the misinformation propagated by the Desteni antagonists claim that we ‘segregate’ ourselves from humanity, from our families and friends, from our reality by being submerged in an individual process where we forgive ourselves for accepting all the lies and deception that we were taught as ‘how things are’ and the relationships based on self interest that lead us to become the predictable patterns that keep the world as is– what a disgraceful behavior, isn’t it? To self forgive every single aspect of our separation from our living realization of how everything we have ever been has been a lie since it has never given birth to life.

 

 

If anything it should already be a matter of concern that we all know that the education system is not working, that parents don’t even know how to educate their children, that our authorities stand as examples of how to get to be the most ‘powerful and successful’ individuals by being the most corrupted version of ourselves as personality profiles that are accepted, allowed and endorsed in a world-system that is founded upon abuse – yet! If one begins to understand principles that consider Life in Equality, genuine Self-Respect, Honor, Integrity and the consideration of Life as the one and only real value that exists, one is called out for being ‘brainwashed’ or ‘mind controlled’ or attempting to introduce ‘communism’ which is just another word like the bell to Pavlov’s dogs to ‘instantly’ react to it and expecting security and a sense of comfort as the reward by defending the right to be ‘free to be a capitalist,’  without even understanding what the words they are reacting to in fact mean.

 

The main problem we have realized is to what extent words as equality, collectivism, dignity, respect, integrity and so on are as vacuous as can be, simply because there have been no living examples in humanity that stand as such  living words – Jesus was one of the few and then was turned into a religious effigy to obfuscate the genuine fact that he was a man that lived the physical common sense meaning of such words. As humanity we have become the example of what it is to intellectualize and even deify living examples of what it is to live in self-respect, to live self-forgiveness and the willingness to be in the service of life itself which doesn’t only entail human to human interaction, but toward every single particle of what is here as part of ourselves, as the life we have hijacked in the name of power and control and within doing so, mining our own home that we’ve been trashing for far too long now.

 

(2011)

 

When facing one’s own brainwashing one can distinctly realize that every single word we’ve been taught and consequently “lived” has been part of the necessary deceptive mechanisms to keep this flawed, corrupted and vile condition on Earth, a collective acceptance and allowance of distrust, lies, abuse and adopting any form of contract to settle ownerships upon reality for the sake of buying and selling, no matter how much harm such processes inflict upon life as long as one’s own survival is secured.

 

Brainwashing and Mind Control are terminals of the same function within which we have all accepted and allowed ourselves to live in this world basing ‘who we are’ on ideas, beliefs, perceptions, feelings, emotions, imaginations, future projections and an innumerable amount of memories that we go collecting and layering as ‘who we are’ throughout our lives with which we form our identity, the ‘self’ that we Think ourselves to be – is it, really?

 

This is the main point one face within and throughout the Desteni I Process, which is the necessary process to walk through when one realizes that all of this understanding needs to be applied at an individual level to see where we stand within it and how to practically lay out the solutions that we ourselves can write and cross reference with other people that are doing this same process with themselves, so that the development of Common Sense as the living application of acting, thinking and doing what is best for all is established as the foundation of the living self that we commit ourselves to be and become once that we realize that yes, we cannot trust the foundation of who we are as the ego that was bred to re-enact the same patterns of self-abuse, we must change it and this won’t come with a simple realization or a few positive thinking statements – not at all, because everything that we have become is in essence the accumulated history of humanity turned into the most convoluted forms to ensure survivalism, self interest and enhancing individual traits that have created the current alarming state of the world as is right now which is on the verge of self-destruction by our own thoughts and hands.

There is nothing more beneficial that can exist nowadays but to walk this process that consists of a fundamental self-investigation on and about everything that exists within and as all levels of our mind and reality to see who we really are within it all and how we can instead direct ourselves to integrate living patterns and habits that can be beneficial for ourselves and everyone equally; this is what I have realized is the only way to generate a living society in conjunction with the understanding and integration of the physical laws into the new equation necessary in this reality to  actually create a world that is best for all. Where is the point of abuse or ‘brainwashing’/ ‘mind control’ within this all? I would like to ask someone to explain to me because I see nothing else but the common sensical and honorable directions that if embraced by each individual on this world, we would have a New Earth without a problem – and this is where Self Responsibility comes in.

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(2003)

Throughout these 5 years walking with the Desteni group and practically applying/living the living principles promoted such as Self Honesty, Self Forgiveness and the consideration at all times of that which is Best for All to implement within and without of myself, I have been able to break-through the main patterns in which I had kept myself complacent to the system, including the personality-traits in relation to ‘wanting to change the world’ without first understanding that such change must be first self-directed at an individual level. To me it was common to spot the ‘flaws’ within the world system or people’s behavior, but I always used to take the righteous stand of ‘I am right and you are all dead wrong’ – I had to go through a personal scrutiny to realize that I also had been brainwashed and had accepted such brainwashed stance as my own mind control of ‘who I am’ and ‘what I must be.’ Only throughout time I have been able to look back and see how within the particular path I had chosen in terms of my career on visual arts, my particular behavior and stance toward humanity – which was mostly that of superiority toward the ‘brainwashed’ and ‘sheeple’ in humanity – I was on my way to become the usual dissident within the world system, the kind of person that would be protesting on and on about how wrong things are while diving myself into the usual suffering-despair of how ‘No one is going to change, so let’s just live our lives the way that we want to, because we can’t change anything anyways’ and ultimately losing any ability to discern the potential of the capabilities I had but begun tampering with dreams of escapism, evasion of reality and enhancement of personality traits veering toward more ‘spiritual solutions’ rather than considering the physicality of the problem I was witnessing in this world, my world.

 

This particular personal stance of opposition, dissidence and antagonism went on to extremes wherein I was aiming at having nothing to do with the system, only focusing on pursuing my personal interests and becoming an individual that is well known for producing ‘nice pictures’ and get great money out of that – that’s all that I had reduced myself to in my belief that ‘we are doomed, there’s no way out of this system’ and within that using my own self-talk to justify such stance and position –hence the main topic of my art being mostly that of self destruction and emotional states that I thought were ‘the real me’ and it was, until I literally took off the blindfold when I got to Desteni.

 

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(2007)

 

Amidst a general sense of despair, hopelessness and apathy toward politics or anything having to do with the structure of the system, I moved myself out of any attempt to ‘make it’ in the system within the false belief that I was going to be able to do things ‘my way’ and never again have anything to do with that which I came to despise: the world system, humanity, money, politics and social sciences, economics… It was truly a tantrum the one I was living in right before getting to Desteni, yet it seemed very normal to others in my reality within the acceptance and allowance of my self-proclaimed belief that I was ‘beyond’ that, and that my inner-truth was to express through something more ‘meaningful’ like art where I could be ‘in touch with my emotions.’ Yes, believe it or not, that was me and it can be read in a very palpable way in the very first years of my process wherein a single moment with myself alone still felt filled with  a mixture of anxiety, depression, sadness, despair, helplessness and hopelessness turned into a victimized state of how ‘the world is a shitty place and there’s nothing I can do about it.’

 

It has only been in the past 3 years that everything started becoming more clear in relation to how our particular personalities are the perfect locks wherein we get so entrenched in our beliefs and ideals that we neglect almost everything that does not ‘fit’ with our self-religion, where we can guarantee the maximum ability to ‘enjoy life’ and keep augmenting our egos to ensure a safe spot in the concrete jungle where survival of the fittest means having a successful living – well, in my case it meant: do whatever you can to not be in the system, forget about everything that is evil in the world and rather promote a form of benevolence that can make people feel better, at least for a moment. This also implies doing things that according to my point of view then meant ‘challenging the system’ like smoking weed and making statements wherein I considered that I was ‘challenging the powers/the system’ and inciting people to ‘explore the spiritual realm’ in a desperate move to simply ignore reality and seek for some ‘greater meaning out there.’ Little did I realize then that what I was in fact doing was giving up on myself, seeking for something ‘greater’ to just do the work for us and not have to take responsibility for the hideous reality that I could ‘not bear to live in any longer,’ without even knowing what the meaning of ‘living’ in fact is.

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(2007)

The easiest way to brainwash people in a similar personality design to mine is to let them believe that they are in fact ‘doing something’ by ranting and raving about ‘the system,’ by calling out the thieves, by protesting, by yelling, screaming and pouting in front of banks/corporations and governmental offices, by creating riots that could ‘disturb’ any form of control that only evolves and escalates due to the ability of the human being to be led by emotional states that are becoming more and more unpredictable, of course leading to more destruction than any form of practical solution. We can see on our daily news how unreliable and unstable the human mind is no matter what position/character in society one plays in – you can be a priest, a world leader, a loving mother or a proficient athlete and kill their partner, children or commit any other form of atrocity when being taken over by their emotions and feelings – all  kinds of atrocities are justified by each one’s acceptances and allowances at a mind level, the mind that we have taken as the immovable premise of ‘our nature’ throughout human history. It is only now that I am able to realize to what extent the profiles of a dissident, a ‘free thinker’ and a ‘willful ignorant’ are just same brainwashed characters in which people are kept well-controlled by the power of their own rage against the machine, holding a similar faith to the most assiduous religious person that somehow we will ‘overcome the evil in this world,’  holding on to the hope that shouting and pouting will ‘bring the powers down’ and create some form of solution – even the so-called ‘alternative media’ are only new mechanisms that aid this control through utilizing ‘new’ ways to approach young people, calling out to revolt, to be angry, to go out to the streets, to ‘challenge the system’ by promoting the legalization of drugs and internet privacy within the belief that such propositions are the only bastions left to ‘regain the power’ and that’s precisely the problem that has happened throughout time: revolutions were never meant to establish living principles in this world, but only a call out to take over the power and turn the tables, keeping the world in exactly the same place – same inequality with new righteous hands in office. The age old saying of divide and conquer has not been fully realized, yet.

 

I have realized time and time again that there is nothing more important right now as an individual in this world other than focusing on actually taking responsibility for ourselves, however such words cause allergy to anyone that gets a kick out of ‘confronting’ the system in all of the ways explained throughout this blog. I can attest how it is only when realizing all my personality traits to evade reality and use this willful ignorance in an eloquent manner led me to mislead myself, my own choices in life, the people I had established relationships with and the evasion of reality that I defended and guarded as having a right to ‘do whatever I want in my life because I was hurting no one’ – this is the mind of the willful ignorant that is looking at the problems, that pretends to understand but when it comes to living a solution that can be of benefit to ourselves, to actually understand the responsibility we have in our hands to stand as an example of ‘the change we want to see in this world,’ all kinds of excuses and backdoors are open to just have a righteous statement to not change, to not challenge that which we have cultivated for so long which is our own ego, our own brainwashing and mind control. This is what I have come to irrevocably realize day by day whenever we approach solutions to the world system which we have through developing various means like the proposal of the Equal Money System which was an entire process that I will also walk and an essential aspect I decided to stand for and as by myself to precisely shed the anti-system skin I was busy turning into a hard veneer to justify my antagonism and antipathy toward ‘the system’ and humanity itself, which I later on understood was only a constant fight toward myself. This is one of the multiple realizations of the simple words you might hear many, many times throughout the Desteni Material: Oneness and Equality, where the Oneness points out the interdependence that we exist as toward each other as the coexistence in this same world and the Equality that is existent at the substance and physical level, yet perfectly concealed with all forms of separation that we have CULTivated in our minds in the form of egos, personalities, cultures, religions, political parties, the very words we use to justify any form of separation and abuse.

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(2012)

 

One of the most prominent points I decided to take on within this process was to develop common sense to stand as a voice that proposes solutions, that investigates other solutions and point out why they are not genuine solutions within the ability to spot a point of deception that would in turn only re-create the same patterns of the past instead of genuinely creating a present with a solid realization of the solutions to implement in this world. So I’ve walked from the anti-system character to an individual that first walks this personal process of de-brainwashing through the dissident, the rebel, the antagonist to the system and instead walk a process of self responsibility to understand the problem, to see my direct participation within it and direct the problem toward directive solutions that we can all embody in the form of living principles. This is where I am now and it is certainly something never ever in my ‘wildest dreams’ did I envision myself doing, which is proposing solutions for this world system as it currently exists, placing political statements on a written and spoken manner suggesting ways to learn how to coexist as humanity since I had already agreed to ‘give up on humanity,’ which was really only ‘giving up on myself.’

This process is not yet done, every day, every minutest form of resistance, any movement toward the old patterns of sadness, despair and a giving up can emerge and that is where every moment I decide who and what I accept and allow myself to be. From this perspective the platform that we are developing as a group as Desteni is actually the perfect foundation to establish a solution at a global scale wherein the brainwashing, the problems in this world are understood and directed from within to establish clear directives without, as we learn how to understand the cause of the problem – ourselves, our own mind – and as such learn how to stand one and equal as the system to establish clear solutions without as the world system. This is the one process, the one ‘thing’ I have been the most consistent of within my life that was meant to veer from fad to fad seeking for more elaborate ways to justify my personal inaction to establish solutions – this time I have developed sufficient self-trust to place myself in a position where I can support myself and others to realize the points I’ve explained throughout this Witness blog as I can stand by the words explained here, having stopped participation in primary forms of personal reality evasions like alcohol or any form of drugs to stand sound and clear on a daily basis witnessing myself and this reality as one massive creation to turn into a genuine work of art, and that begins within myself, ourselves.

 

More to come…

 

Thanks for reading and walking with.

 

CaminandoelTripleProceso

Walking the Triple Process (2010)

 
The Revolutionary Character: From Activist, Anti-Politics and Anti System to Self Responsibility
The Elitist Character – Seeking Success and then Antagonizing the System

 

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Blogs and Vlogs on Brainwashing and Mind Control:

355. Activism and Mind Control |
2011 Activism Is Futile
2011 The Zeitgeist Movement: Resistance is Futile
98. Words as Mind Control |
183. Like and Dislike = Mind Control
2008- 21 days of no weed!
Communism stigmatized Equality
217. You Fear Communism? Why would That Be? |
Mind Control VictimsRead all about it! |
Occupy LOVE: New Activist Brainwashing
Occupy Wall Street’s Solution: Equal Money for ALL –
2011 Capitalism is Brainwash: Are YOU Brainwashed?
Earth Day? Please… Common Sense Required
You are what you Can Afford
2012 Money is MIND Control
2012 Gun Culture in America
2012 I Just Want to BE HAPPY – Equal Money? WHY Should I Care?
Sex, Drugs and…College? Hookup Culture
2010 I Use Alcohol on a Regular Basis

263. The Remedy to Stop Addictions

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

How to Develop Common Sense? Desteni Process Support

 

 

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368. Economic Human Rights | Equal Money

 

Until today there has been no International Organization that first guarantees an Equal Economic Right for every individual to have the sufficient means/money to ensure their Human Rights are guarded and applied. The Violation of Economic Rights is an outflow of the entire economic, social and political system which is the foundation of all our current problems that lead to harm and abuse without any solution implemented yet. We propose an Economic and Political System Reform to ensure the Constitutional recognition of all Human Rights presented in the Equal Life Foundation’s Bill of Rights without any cultural, religious and economical restriction that are still the basis of separation that prevent humanity from living in Equality as Life.

 

 

Continuing with:

  • 315. Rights and Equal Money Capitalism

  • 316. Rights are NOT Guaranteed to be Successful

  • 317. Equality in Equal Money Capitalism

  • 293. Services in Equal Money Capitalism |

  • 358.Human Rights and Equal Money

  • 359. Equal Life Rights

  • 360. Humanitarianism and Equal Money

  • 361. Food is a Human Right | Equal Money

  • 362. Water is a Human Right | Equal Money

  • 363. Housing is a Human Right | Equal Money

  • 364.Education is a Human Right |Equal Money

  •  366. Health Care is a Human Right | Equal Money

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    Problem                                                  

    • Civil, cultural, economic, political and social rights are categorizations that have been set up to conveniently separate fundamental aspects that should be given to all by recognizing the Fundamental  Human Rights of Life in Equality. For the purpose of understanding the Principle of Equality as an Economic Right we will be disclosing the current violation of what are currently considered ‘civil, cultural, economic, political and social rights’ from the understanding that all basis of civilization revolves around the management and availability of resources to make life possible on Earth and as such, all of the current forms of violation to human rights stem from the lack of resource management in an Equality basis, as well as lack of physical living principles that have been side viewed to ponder religious, political and ideological above physical living rights.  This is how the implementation of Fundamental Human Rights is inextricably linked to the Right to Equal Financial Support that is presented as the individual and unconditional right to be granted with equal access to everything that we require to make our lives possible. We will be reviewing the reasons why Human Rights continue to be violated within our current world system and why no attempt to address the problem at its root and cause has been directed by the UN or any of the multiple International Organizations that defend or watch the application of Human Rights around the globe which implies that No Change has been conducted to make of this world the best living place for everyone equally.

    • The very definitions of culture, politics, economy and religious doctrines represent the primary forms of separation that enable a wide diversity of considerations that create vicissitudes that lead to the abuse and further deviation from the application of the Fundamental Human Rights reviewed thus far. This is how when proposing What is Best for All, the main obstacles besides the economic inequality reside in the social considerations and or exclusion of traditional, cultural and social boundaries that beyond supporting the Equalization of Life on Earth, continue to define the limitations accepted as part of the geopolitical and cultural barriers that we have come to accept and allow as part of our ‘how reality works’ and our ‘Human Nature,’ when they are in fact only an obstacle that continues to divide humanity in groups identified by non-tangible ideals that create sectarianism and further discrimination to make believe that some humans are more worthy of having their right to have money and security than others – this is a collective form of compliance that has turned into abuse that we have accepted and allowed by virtue of blindly binding ourselves to the current economic and political system that is founded upon the polarization of society between the haves and the have not’s. This is currently an alarming fact when 3/4 of the world lives in Poverty which in essence means having their Fundamental Human Rights being violated  without any effort to end this problem being established to resolve these problems satisfactorily, since they all have their origin and foundation in the economic organization each country and society has adopted as ‘how things are,’ as well as the years of cultural traditions and religious doctrines that also lead to the violation of the recognition of all life as equal beyond race, gender or language barriers as self definition.


    Therefore, the thesis of this article is that all Human Rights Violations stem from the lack of an Equal Economic Human Right to live in dignity by being granted with all the necessary to live in the best possible sustainable living condition for all on Earth.

     

     

    • The word violation indicates a severe problem in our thinking and acting behavior that we have managed to accept and allow without further investigation as an ‘aspect’ of ‘who we are.’ We have never pondered to see what of our day to day living and thinking processes lead to create the meaning of such word.  We have never questioned what does the nature of the word Violation in fact represents as part of our day to day living behavior and coexistence in relation to one another in our world.

      • violate
        n    verb
        1    break or fail to comply with (a rule or formal agreement).
        2    treat with disrespect.

     

     

     

     

    The Universal Declaration – on Freedom, Equality and Non Discrimination

    Article 2.
    • Everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration, without distinction of any kind, such as race, colour, sex, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status. Furthermore, no distinction shall be made on the basis of the political, jurisdictional or international status of the country or territory to which a person belongs, whether it be independent, trust, non-self-governing or under any other limitation of sovereignty.

     

     

    Non-discrimination is a cross-cutting principle in international human rights law. The principle is present in all the major human rights treaties and provides the central theme of some of international human rights conventions such as the International Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Racial Discrimination and the Convention on the Elimination of All Forms of Discrimination against Women. 

    The principle applies to everyone in relation to all human rights and freedoms and it prohibits discrimination on the basis of a list of non-exhaustive categories such as sex, race, colour and so on. The principle of non-discrimination is complemented by the principle of equality, as stated in Article 1 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights: “All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights.”
    – What are Human Rights http://bit.ly/12TbFAn

     

    • If we truly lived in an Equal world, this article and consideration of Equality would be the very principle we would all be embodying as the physical and practical realization of the best living conditions we can create for all on Earth.

     

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    • The very existence of different languages led to the emergence of Cultures that became political, economic and religious regimes that formed their own relationships to function in hierarchical systems that later on got their own category in the world-system as we know it today. We are still bound to arbitrary forms of economic arrangements such as the exchange rates wherein our individual rights to have a dignified life are primarily violated from the moment that our living condition is entirely defined by the economy of the country we are born into and the position it holds in the panorama of the global economy. This is the extent to which we have neglected the problem at hand that goes deeper than the usual Human Rights Violations that we are used to hearing about based on gender, race, war, religious doctrine, war crimes, etc. However  in the documentation of Human Rights Reports, the very source of the problem as the current economic and political world system is not seen as the primary source of the problem, when in fact it should already be obvious that the continuation of these extensive reports on worldwide abuse will continue until a new organization presents the origin and cause of the problem as our current world system’s economic and political powers that are fundamentally based on separation and have never been genuinely intended to be best for all.

     

     

    Economic, Social and Cultural Rights

    • This is the name for a category of Human Rights that we will disclose to point out how money is the component that is missing as a consideration to implement Equality in our world.

    Economic, social and cultural rights are protected under various international and regional treaties as well as in national constitutions. International Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights is the most comprehensive treaty which provides protection of these rights at international level.

    Status of ratification of the International Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights.

     

    • Beyond  the differences that exist according to race, sex, age or religion, there exists the necessary consideration for Economic Inequality that creates by far the most significant form of discrimination that should be addressed in contrast with the usual topics that get the most attention when it comes to the Defense of Human Rights

     

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    Are economic, social and cultural rights fundamentally different from civil and political rights?

    The market economies of the West tended to put greater emphasis on civil and political rights, while the centrally planned economies of the Eastern bloc highlighted the importance of economic, social and cultural rights. This led to the negotiation and adoption of two separate Covenants—one on civil and political rights, and another on economic, social and cultural rights. However, this strict separation has since been abandoned and there has been a return to the original architecture of the Universal Declaration.
    Are economic, social and cultural rights fundamentally different from civil and political rights http://bit.ly/138bt1K

     

    • As we have reviewed, the full implementation of Human Rights requires an economic assurance that would in fact recognize all of these Rights at a fundamental physical level – however this has not happened because we have accepted and allowed to separate government and economic affairs linked to the ideology that free market capitalism brought to the scene, where that which always should have been given and unconditional rights were placed under the same terms and conditions in which any other living right has been subject to: money and its availability to have access to basic needs, support and security.

     

    Finally, in reality, the enjoyment of all human rights is interlinked. For example, it is often harder for individuals who cannot read and write to find work, to take part in political activity or to exercise their freedom of expression. Similarly, famines are less likely to occur where individuals can exercise political rights, such as the right to vote. Consequently, when closely scrutinized, categories of rights such as “civil and political rights” or “economic, social and cultural rights” make little sense. For this reason, it is increasingly common to refer to civil, cultural, economic, political and social rights.

    – Key concepts on ESCRs – Are economic, social and cultural rights fundamentally different from civil and political rights?

     

    This separation between economic and cultural rights – even if claimed it is no longer existent – exists as a multiple variety of problems that until this day generate the issues that can be all traced back to the lack of money to create the Equality that has been proclaimed and sought for years on without any success. It should be obvious by now that suffering exists due to lack of money –but why is it that we would allow us to divert the attention on, for example, focusing on defending the right to religion and tradition instead of focusing on ensuring every single individual  on Earth has a food to eat, water to drink, a house to live in and an assured job as part of the social and economic rights that are usually sidelined in these Human Rights Reports?

     

     

     

    Examples of violations of economic, social and cultural rights

    Next we will review the day to day atrocities that are happening as part of our daily news without us questioning the very core and origin of these problems to get to a clear solution for them.

    • Forcibly evicting people from their homes (the right to adequate housing)
      • Manipur Christian body slams eviction
        ”The state government, with the purpose of setting up a five-star hotel, demolished the houses and the churches of Kabo Leikai a few days ago.Amco said the government served a notice on May 18 and asked the people to shift out the following day, which was a Sunday. The eviction drive was on May 20. This reflects the government’s unsympathetic attitude and religious intolerance, Amco said.”

    • Contaminating water, for example, with waste from State-owned facilities (the right to health)
      • Sole allows civic administration to serve legal notice to OCW
        ”The city presently suffers from an old and malfunctioning water supply system. In majority areas, contaminated water supply along with improper delivery by water tankers adds to the problems. Corporators are under constant pressure from residents, and are hence trying to force a resolution by violent protests. This has led to exasperated citizens and corporators attacking OCW offices.”

     

    • Failure to ensure a minimum wage sufficient for a decent living (rights at work)
      • Big Backlash in Bangladesh: Workers Escalate Demands for Better Working Conditions
        ”They were demanding higher wages.” The demonstration is part of a rising string of protests over the past month. Since the April tragedy, a million people have signed petitions calling on global corporations like Gap and Walmart to end unsafe labor practices in Bangladesh, with hundreds protesting at stores across the country.

     

     

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    • Failure to prevent starvation in all areas and communities in the country (freedom from hunger)
    • Haiti faces a summer of hunger
      ”There are 6.7 million people, over half the population, that suffer from hunger in Haiti. Alejandro Chicheri of WFP says that of this number, around 1.5 million Haitians face severe hunger. Drought and a series of storms severely damaged agriculture, placing already impoverished families under additional stress.”

     

     

    • Systematically segregating children with disabilities from mainstream schools (the right to education)
    • Failure to prevent employers from discriminating in recruitment (based on sex, disability, race, political opinion, social origin, HIV status, etc.) (The right to work)

      “The European Commission is launching legal action against the UK, which it believes discriminates against EU citizens by making them pass an additional test to prove their rights to benefits. The UK says it will fight to keep the extra test.”

       

    • Failure to prohibit public and private entities from destroying or contaminating food and its source, such as arable land and water (the right to food)
      • Amansie Central determined to stop illegal mining
        The illegal Chinese miners have been accused of destroying water bodies, large acres of farmlands and other property and even to the extent of  killing indigenes.
        As a result of illegal mining activities, the Odaw River, which serves as a source of potable water for over 20, 000 residents in the district and beyond, had been polluted.

         

    • Failure to provide for a reasonable limitation of working hours in the public and private sector (rights at work)
      • Several workers file lawsuits against Missoula County health center
        ”People forced to clock out, and then continue working overtime without pay. Full-time staffers replaced with part-timers who don’t get benefits. A boss who screams and curses at employees. Workers so stressed out that they seek medical treatment for anxiety, panic attacks and depression.”

    right to work salon. com

     

     

    • Banning the use of minority or indigenous languages (the right to participate in cultural life)
      • New law discriminates indigenous languages
      • The controversial law on education, signed by President Vladimir Putin on New Year’s Eve, states that classes in non-Russian languages cannot be conducted to the detriment teaching in Russian language.

        Here it is to understand that all minorities are being systematically limited for eventual extinction as they represent ways to live outside of the system that undermine the hegemony that a particular political faction wants to impose along with the corporate faction that can also be holding major interests on territory or resources that are usually guarded and protected by minorities. This is to realize that no matter how the violation seems merely cultural, it is deeply rooted in economic interests as well.

     

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    • Denying social assistance to people because of their status (e.g., people without a fixed domicile, asylum-seekers) (the right to social security
      • Why Undocumented Immigrants Should Have Access To Taxpayer-Funded Health Care
      • The common argument against providing health care to undocumented immigrants is that, since they’ve broken the law, they should be punished. A part of that punishment involves denying them health care services through public entitlement programs or federal subsidies that are dependent on Americans’ tax dollars.

     

    • Failure to ensure maternity leave for working mothers (protection of and assistance to the family)
    • Arbitrary and illegal disconnection of water for personal and domestic use (the right to water).
      • Escalating Water Strains In Fracking Regions
        ”Shale energy production is a thirsty business: to free up the oil and gas from shale deposits, anywhere from two to 10 million gallons of water (along with sand and chemicals) are injected into each fracturing well. Multiply that times tens of thousands of wells and you’re talking lots of water. The impacts are even worse when wells are tightly concentrated.”

     drinking water savethewater. org

     

    This demonstrates how violations continue to happen on a daily basis where all major forms of disregard to what are the best living condition for all parties affected stem from the flawed economic foundation of our world system in conjunction with the political powers that haven’t served to genuinely support each individual to satisfy all basic living rights.

     

    What are the obligations of States on economic, social and cultural rights?

    “The obligation to achieve progressively the full realization is a central aspect of States’ obligations in connection with economic, social and cultural rights under international human rights treaties. At its core is the obligation to take appropriate measures towards the full realization of economic, social and cultural rights to the maximum of their available resources. The reference to “resource availability” reflects a recognition that the realization of these rights can be hampered by a lack of resources and can be achieved only over a period of time. Equally, it means that a State’s compliance with its obligation to take appropriate measures is assessed in the light of the resources—financial and others—available to it. Many national constitutions also allow for the progressive realization of some economic, social and cultural rights.”

    – What are the obligations of States on economic, social and cultural rights? http://bit.ly/137vxRS

     

    • Right now the maximum available resources are being handled not by political powers but corporate ones that in conjunction with sufficient political lobbying are being controlled in order to perpetuate an economy based on debt and scarcity which in itself is already a Crime against Life – however, we are the ones that have accepted and allowed this form of system based on the economy that we have believed to be a real representation of how resources exist in this world – it is not, it is a fixed game in which our best interest is being held at stake under the banner of scarcity, debt, poverty in a global picture where those countries with the most money have the most control over the rest of the resources and consequently of the population’s well being. 

     

    • Lack of resources has been used as a way to justify the deliberate apparent inability to provide with basic needs to all individuals on Earth. The fact is that millions of tons of food are wasted, empty buildings and foreclosed homes are lacking inhabitants, water sources are being arbitrarily privatized for profit making purposes and all forms of jobs are only created to continue fueling this profit-making scheme as the world system we live in – there are no living rights being considered or guaranteed within this.

     

     

     

    Can economic, social and cultural rights be litigated at courts?

    “Yes. Decisions of courts in countries from all regions of the world covering all economic, social and cultural rights demonstrate that these rights can be subject to judicial enforcement. Nonetheless, the justiciability of economic, social and cultural rights has traditionally been questioned for a number of reasons. First, economic, social and cultural rights have been seen by some as being too “vaguely worded” to allow judges to justify decisions on whether violations have occurred. While adjudicating such rights may raise questions of what constitutes, for example, hunger, adequate housing, or a fair wage, judges have already dealt ably with questions of what constitutes torture, a fair trial or arbitrary or unlawful interference with privacy. Filling in the gaps in legislation is a clear function of the judiciary, not only in human rights law but in any area of law.”

    – Can economic, social and cultural rights be litigated at courts? http://bit.ly/18wIx5D

     

    • One requires to take a breath to realize to what extent the defense of the interests held by people in power is against and/or in complete disregard of common sense as what is Best for All. We have reviewed news around the world that indicate only one clear example of the violations of human rights that are being physically endured by people, animals, the environment on a daily basis – yet, when it comes to laws it is too easy to side-view the problem due to being able to claim a lack of understanding on what would ‘genuinely’ constitute hunger, or violation of working rights, or plain scavenging of common resources by corporations for profiting purposes. It is absolutely clear that even though Human Rights Violations can be taken to court, as long as Money is the real obstacle to implement, respect Living Rights and bring to justice any form of violation toward them, we will continue to have daily news where the most basic forms of human integrity are not being ‘followed through with’ due to profit, greed and lack of compassion for fellow living beings as equals.

     

     

    Second, the realization of economic, social and cultural rights depends heavily on Government policies. Yet, reviewing Government policies in this area, as in any other, to ensure that they are consistent with constitutional principles and obligations under international human rights law is clearly a function of the judiciary. While the role of the judiciary in reviewing Government policy may vary from country to country, policy review is not policymaking. The judiciary is therefore not overstepping its constitutional role by taking decisions on economic, social and cultural rights.
    – Can economic, social and cultural rights be litigated at courts?
    http://bit.ly/18wIx5D

     

    • As it has been reviewed when looking at the Disparity between Economic and Political Powers
      “After all of this, the enforcement of these convenient policies is being Money as a Gun from private corporations toward the government, therefore there is no such thing as government power over economy at the moment, and this same gun is endorsed through culture and media wherein you end up accepting that going to war to save foreigners and bring democracy is a good thing as long as  You  are happy and secure, but have no clue why such amount of money is being spent on waging wars rather than sorting our health care and educational systems. The power of the people is sold when dreams are bought as a purpose to live.”
      – (Read: 321.Political vs. Economic Power –EMC

     

    • Both political and economic powers  are the result of our individual abdication of Self Responsibility due to how we have complied to be and become comfortable with having others managing what should be an integral aspect of our day to day living: ensuring we contribute to make of our system functional in Equality to establish what is Best for All for everyone – yet none of this exists because we have abdicated this responsibility from the moment we believed it is only those actors in politics and those managing the economy that should take care of it all – therefore we are all collectively creating the nature of our judiciary system that is not willing to respond to these evident violations, because we haven’t first cared to realize how that is our Collective Responsibility to ensure each other’s well being.

     Judicial enforcement of human rights is fundamental. A right without a remedy raises questions of whether it is in fact a right at all. This is not to say that judicial enforcement is the only, or indeed the best, way of protecting economic, social and cultural rights. However, judicial enforcement has a clear role in developing our understanding of these rights, in affording remedies in cases of clear violations and in providing decisions on test cases which can lead to systematic institutional change to prevent violations of rights in the future.

     

    • Just consider that if we would have in fact created a world system, a monetary system that represented a genuine rights document to grant equal access to all to get all that which we require to have a dignified living condition, we would not be having to resort to going to courts and having these judicial systems to report any form of violation to human rights, because we would recognize that any violation is a point of self abuse and that within living in a principle where Life is valued and lived as Equals, we certainly would not be requiring to ‘protect our rights’ because each one of us would be living the respect, honor and integrity that we can in fact still create if changing the way our current system functions.

     

    Protests and Social Disobedience

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    “An important lesson of the Arab Spring is that a mobilized public can be an agent of positive change. Yet many governments in their foreign policies still frequently prefer quiet diplomacy and backroom dialogue to the exclusion of public commentary that all can hear. Social media has proven a powerful new tool, giving each individual the potential to report repression and mobilize against it.

    The Arab Spring has inspired people the world over, encouraging many to stand up to their own autocratic rulers. As its leaders act at home, they also set an example for the world. Much is riding on making this precedent positive—one that succeeds in building elected governments that live by the constraints of rights and the rule of law.”

    – Kenneth Roth, Human Rights Watch World Report 2013

     

    • One would ponder why is this part of the problem instead of a genuine solution? As a result of the Arab Spring and the Occupy Movement around the world, the youth of the world begun to Believe that there is hope in changing the way the world works by finally tackling onto the financial cores of what actually drives this world around. The Occupy Movement that spread from Wall Street to the world attempted to demonstrate that we are all aware of what is the actual cause of violation of human rights, which is our current corporate capitalistic system existing in a hierarchical distribution of resources with fixed economies that make it seem as if poverty, scarcity and social polarization are just aspects of ‘how things are’ in this world.  But the tactics of revolution and antagonism toward the system have only led to violence and upgrades in the system to ensure further control, as well as no definitive resolution to the problem, because there is no political foundation to their protesting but only demanding others to do what we should all individually be actually taking care of as part of our day to day living – however we created a system that resembles the family unit where the parents/authority are the ones that ‘must solve the problem’ because we believe ourselves to be incapable of establishing solutions ourselves.

      As much as people are getting informed about how the world system operates and how the corporate capitalistic model we are running our lives in is driving everyone to the verge of poverty, there is still a fundamental flaw in the starting point of these protests and the investigation process, which is mostly still done to seek culprits instead of genuine problem solving situations within the structure of the system itself.  This comes along with the realization that the system is ourselves and by attempting to create a massive revolution to shut down the major corporate powers that run the world, we are essentially waging war against the very mechanisms that we all use and have accepted and allowed to exist without any political regulation throughout time. This means that there is still no understanding that the individual participation in the system is what composes the system, and to fight against it only means there is no sense of responsibility and understanding that a genuine solution cannot come from revolting against the powers that represent our very abdication of Self Responsibility.

    • No movement, no revolution and no environmental solution will change the world unless that change comes from the Individual by a Self-Willed Decision to Live, Act and Speak in consideration the Individual Self Responsibility toward each other as Life to ensure we cooperate to create a world that will ensure everyone’s Life is guarded as Our Own.

    Further  Investigation and Experience Report by Lauri Kotaja

     

     

     

     

    Solutions                                                                         

  • Creating a New Organization at a global level that establishes feasible solutions to all the ongoing violations of human rights is the necessary step to be able to recognize that all our governments, international organizations and institutions have failed to do their work in a proper manner to guarantee our living rights which is now the purpose of the Equal Life Foundation as an International Organization created by people like you and me that have no other agenda or intent other than establishing a world of equal support, of solutions at a constitutional and political level to stop the suffering, the abuse and general arbitrary management of our lives by interests that don’t have the principle of what is Best for All as their primary purpose and reason to be. This is where you and I also come to recognize our ability to become active participants in all affairs that determine our every day living aspect through implementing a new political and economic establishment founded upon the Principle of Life in Equality through the Equal Economic Right as outlined in the Equal Life Foundation’s Bill of Rights in conjunction with the Equal Money System.

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    1. An Equal Economic Right that insures that all financial needs are accessible and available to ensure that the fundamental requirements of a healthy and fulfilling life can be realized and manifested.

     
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  • The  solution to all current human rights violations is to provide a guaranteed access to all the basic needs that will ensure physical well being that in turn translates to a perfected state of coexistence where self support, cooperation, solidarity and the consideration of what is best for all in each individual’s thoughts, words and deeds become the building blocks of a society that will ensure mutual cooperation to the benefit of the collective in Equality. Through the political, economic and social reforms presented within the Equal Money System, we will be able to guarantee each other’s well being by virtue of each one of us as the people of the world becoming active participants and overseers of the political and economic systems to ensure that we are genuinely conducting them in a beneficial and most efficient way for everyone. This also includes the consideration and regard of all ecosystems being cared for and guarded within the physical cycles that nature requires in order to create a sustainable system where life is honored and respected. As we can deduce from this, it implies for the first time not placing money over life but making of life the actual value to guard as our collective responsibility for the betterment of all.

     

     

  • The necessary individual education on the history of the world-system and how we have become particular human beings with certain belief systems and personal creeds, will assist to realize how all cultural, religious and traditions passed on from generation to generation don’t have a physical correlation to what unites us all as physical human beings, but instead have come to generate the greatest divide that till this day, is the source of not only inequality at all levels, but wars and further discrimination of each other not seeing and realizing that we are an equal part of who we are  here.  This is an individual process that one can already begin to walk through the Educational Programs developed to understand ourselves as our mind, as individuals that require to understand principles of Equality, Self honesty, Self Forgiveness and the development of Common Sense to see and realize that human rights cannot be tampered by a religious, ideological, political, racial or gender based association – but instead to consider at all times the physical requirements we all have to exist in a satisfactorily manner.

  • An overall reform to the system is necessary and for that, we present the Equal Money System in conjunction with the Bill of Rights presented by the Equal Life Foundation which are the necessary steps and Constitutional foundation to ensure the application and guarding of all Living Human Rights on Earth. This, however, won’t come from our current political parties and International Organizations, they have already had their opportunity to create a better world and it just went nowhere. This is why the Solution begins at an individual level where each one of us must become active participants within all political aspects that determine our lives, this is about taking our future and the future of the children to come in our hands and taking part in conducting and creating the necessary solutions to establish the Equal Money System as a political reform founded upon  the constitutional Human Rights that will be implemented for All world wide, because Money no longer will be an excuse to not do so.

     

    Equal Life Foundation - Bill of Rights

     

     

    • Within the Context of Equal Money the following propositions are presented where Equal Rights = Equal Responsibilities.

     

    Democracy

    Democracy in an Equal Money System will Practically engage Every Citizen of the World to Vote on Every Aspect that will influence Day to Day Living, and No Politician will have Any Power to Make Decisions. Politicians will only Function as Administrators Effecting the Will of the People.

     

    Perfecting Life

    The Equal Money System will allow only unbiased Record keeping and Reporting of Events and History, from the Starting Point of learning from Events with the Goal of Perfecting Life for All; in Educating and Critically Investigating how Humanity as a Group can Best Co-Exist with Each Other and All other Living Beings on Earth.

     

    Well-Being

    The Equal Money System will Study the Psychological Well-Being of Humans to Ensure a Lifestyle free of Fear. The focus will be on Supporting Life to Practically Live Fulfillment and Happiness in Ways where Self-Gratification will not Harm any Living Being or the Environment. This is to Ensure the continuation of Earth as an Effective Resource for the Enjoyment of Future Generations.

     

    Up-to-date

    The Equal Money System Policy Statements and Goals will be Amended from time to time to Achieve the Greatest Effectiveness in Policies and Goals that Will lead to the Best Possible Life for all on Earth.

     

    Freedom

    The Equal Money System will allow Religious Freedom of Association as long as it does not impede on the Right to Life and Protection and Equal Distribution of Resources, or impede on the Fulfillment, Education and Lifestyle of Each Living Being on Earth.

     

    Stewardship

    Within an Equal Money system it will be recognized that Humans are a part of the Ecosystem they live in. The word ‘eco’ stands for ‘home’ – and thus, each human will be responsible for maintaining the Balance and Harmony within their home, within their Ecosystem. This involves the Monitoring of the Well-Being of the Plants and Animals within one’s Environment and to Intervene when Disharmony occurs as a result of Human Impact, so that a new Equilibrium can be established.

     

    • Consider that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to see suffering, lack, harm, abuse and loss of any form of honor toward life every single day in our news, therefore: isn’t it time to establish a solution where WE are the ones that ensure no single violation to our integrity exists in this world? This is where we have to realize that through Educating ourselves about how the world works and will ourselves to be and become an equal participant in society, we can work together to establish new political parties around the world that are founded upon these principles presented here as a self-willed decision to no longer remain as a silent observer of the atrocities that, as we have shown, continue to happen every single day.

      This is the time when we place our cultural, religious, political and ideological differences aside and focus on the common ground that each one of us have in relation to establishing that which is Best for All Life as physical living beings to be able to coexist taking responsibility for how we manage our resources, how we respect and honor each other as well as every element in the planet that makes our lives possible – animals, plants, environment because their rights are also depending on our ability to live together as equals in care and consideration for all.

     

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    Equal Money For All Equals

     

     

    Rewards                                                             

    •  Having the certainty that every single living being on Earth is taken care of, respected, honored and supported as an equal inhabitant of the planet by the principles and rights that we decide upon to make the best living condition possible for all on Earth is certainly a gift that we will not only enjoy as a peaceful and harmonious world-system in our lifetime, but also for all the children and generations to come. This is where we can redeem ourselves from our past of violence, hatred, abuse and greed and transform it to a general regard and consideration of care, support and honor to each other as that is the foundation of peace and general wellbeing on Earth.

     

    • Having no dictatorship or tyrannical global organization deciding where food goes to, who gets health care and who doesn’t, what ideology is ‘better than others’ or waging war for resources implies that it is us who will now ensure that each one of us integrates these living principles as part of the understanding that: to make all human rights a guaranteed thing for everyone is ensuring our own individual and collective well being. This is where the ability to think as Us instead of Me will create a world where every single thought, word and deed is directed to a best for all outcome, because that is in essence how we will ensure that our well being is protected and secured by our collective participation in creating a world that is best for all.

     

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    • We won’t need courts and judicial processes where only monetary interests are looked after – we will use courts to a minimal point because we will prevent all forms of harm and abuse by integrating living principles such as honor, dignity, self respect and consideration of all living forms as who we are as one and equal – this is the key to create the lives that we dreamed were only possible if having ‘all the money in the world’ – but if we give money to everyone Equally along with the individual decision to create an equal well being for all, we will be and become the living law of life in Equality ourselves.

     

    • Having the ability to decide at all times to give and implement the best policies that we can all agree will ensure a general well being in our communities and society at large is the kind of power that we will endow each other with as an equal participant in this world. We will be able to create the lives that we have always only dreamed of being possible and make them our reality as the result of the work and participation that we will ourselves to put our effort to, because the understanding of creating a world that’s best for me is also best for you will be the foundation to no longer fight against one another but instead learn to work together, cooperate and support each other to become the best living beings we are all capable and able to be and become. This is where defining our rights stops being a struggle but instead becomes  living realization moment by moment that our well being is in our hands and that we must then ensure we participate and take direct responsibility for everything in our world and reality.

      Equal Life Foundation - Third Right

     

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  • Day 1 – Clearing Starting Point: Writing

     

    We are beginning a phase in our process wherein we will be writing ourselves to freedom, writing ourselves to give structure to our every day living throughout 7 years. Sounds like a commitment? It is, it is the type of commitment that we have never actually given to ourselves in our lives- until now.

    This is part of the process that I’ll walk and that I’ve defined ‘Sculpting in time’ within the concept of becoming a real artist, an artist as a human being that recognizes our full ability and capability to transform society by each individual ‘sculpting’/ molding themselves to be the change that we all see is required to be made here. And that begins with ourselves, here, a group standing up for Life in Equality as a Living Principle that ensures that we all eventually, are able to be equally standing here – yet, for now, we must stand as a forefront and do what’s necessary to be done in order to pave the way for the future generations to come.

     

    In the past I had used writing to build and create my personalities, all written in the most hermetic way so that I could not even grasp what I was trying to say and ‘hide’ behind my own words, all done for the purpose of not having anyone understanding or even being able to decipher my own writing. I only ended up spiting myself in that – so, part of the writing point will have to be walked physically wherein I develop a writing that is ‘more readable’ as well.

    However, when realizing the initial point: why I had not allowed and directed me to write every day was because of ‘fear of commitment’ to creating a pattern, regardless of how supportive I’ve seen it is – and this is also in relation to ‘how it would be seen by others’ if I publish a blog every day – ideas about past patterns that I’ve lived, a ‘fear’ of being seen as ideals that I haven’t allowed myself to face as an actual possibility within myself.

     

    For the past 2 years, I’ve walked the point – slowly but surely – of establishing a point of self-acceptance and also related to ‘perfection’ which I clarified in relation to how I had lived ‘perfectionism’ and the connotations lived throughout my life.

     

    Now, it is today, this moment that I listened to a must-hear interview of Self-Support for this existential process we’re walking, by Anu of course, on walking the point of Self-Perfection to stand as an example for humanity. This is the day that it begins with writing, and I realized that I already ‘knew’ I could do this, however I allowed certain factors to tamper my ability to expand, even though the point of writing is already a daily point within my life –regardless of being writing a ‘blog’ specifically, I must be writing somewhere, exerting a comment, a post, giving a perspective that is certainly the way that I have allowed myself to verify ‘I am here, I am walking, I see, I understand, I align myself and support others the best way that I am able to.’

    However, these points are here, revealing themselves now as I will walk through Self-Forgiveness, along with various other points related to patterns I’ve lived ‘as myself’ in relation to this point of ‘being an example’ and having people ‘taking myself as an example,’ which brings up necessary experiences to clarify, as the starting point of my writing, which must be understood as Self-Support – self- for myself as one and equal which then includes and implies for all equal and one.

     

    I am ready? I remembered Bernard asking me this, and I replied with something like: as ready as I’ll ever be – meaning there is no ‘doubt’ to take here, we either do this here as this great opportunity we have to live, or we’ll just degrade ourselves into what we are already existing as, which is not nice, not pretty and must be stopped.

    This time, I won’t allow any external perceptions to limit myself here – I have diminished myself throughout my life on purpose in fear of being ‘outstanding’ – yet as Anu said, this is not about ‘fame’ or ‘recognition’ – not at all, it is about Self-Here walking to live to our utmost potential, realizing our full abilities and capabilities. I stop my deliberate sabotage in fear of being ‘too out there.’

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to not take the habit and self-supportive pattern of writing every day in fear of committing myself to live a point that I would have to ‘live’ as myself, invariably so, every single day– instead of realizing that within this, I limited myself within the ability to expand myself, my process and self-support through making of writing a daily habit wherein I am giving myself a structure to live, to direct myself within my every day living and interactions, wherein I see that there are corrections to be lived – not only as ‘myself’ but as a whole, as we are here to eventually walk a process that involves us all.

    I realize that the reason why I didn’t commit myself before, is because of fear of ‘not being able to keep up with my commitment’ – yet, I see that I am the only one that can ‘trap’ myself within my own sabotage for whatever reason and excuse I could find to not write.

    When and as I see myself believing that ‘I cannot keep up with my commitment to write every day’ – I stop, and I breathe – I realize that I am mostly creating an ‘ideal’ of writing as ‘having to write every day,’ instead of integrating this as an every-day application, similar to breathing as words, wherein I realize that I am giving myself structure to live – words are here to support ourselves to live, and no longer be used to formulate excuses and justifications as to why we ‘give up’ our ability to expand, express and give ourselves practical support through writing.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having limited my ‘intention’ to write every day, in fear of ‘putting up pressure on others’ and within that, allowing myself to ‘back down’ out of fear of how it would be ‘seen by others if I wrote every day’ – which is ludicrous that I accepted my own mediocrity as an ‘acceptable way’ for the sake of how it would be ‘seen by others.’

    I realize that this is a pattern that I have lived throughout my life, fear of ‘outstanding’ yet desiring it at the same time – however living the latter as a ‘reversed personality’ that I built for myself, and that I have realized exists as the very manifestation of what my current handwriting is, which I will also be walking in order to clarify the reason why I created such a crooked handwriting as a way to spite myself and ‘others’ from perceiving myself as ‘miss perfection.’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having feared being ‘in the spotlight’ in the past, wherein I deliberately physically hunched, looked down and tried to be as ‘less seen as possible’ because of not anting to take the forefront within my reality in any given moment or activity. I realize that the only fear that exists within this is actually me being able to ‘keep up with my stance in the forefront’ – yet I realize that this is not about ‘leading the way’ but standing as a single principle that is in itself, an example of what must be done as existence, as this reality and for that, there can be no more and no less.

    I realize that all the perceptions that I projected onto others have been actually my own fears and desires of recognition and wanting to be a wallflower at the same time.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever having feared being seen as ‘conceited’ or ‘showing off’ by actually working and living as the ability and capability that I realize I am able to live as – I see that I have only limited myself out of ‘what others would say’ without seeing the obvious fact that this only exits within my own mind as limitations to Not take the actual necessary steps to clarify for myself that: such thoughts are only judgments that are Not and cannot ever be real, as all that exists here, is equal and one. There can be no ‘more’ or ‘less’ but just inflated egos and diminished ideas of self, both poles must be stopped in order to establish Self within a directive principle as what’s best for all which is: not good, not bad, not more, no less than who and what we really are as One and Equal as Life.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having deliberately diminished myself and belittled myself in order to ‘get the necessary approval’ to give myself enough ‘trust’ that I am in fact ‘trust worthy’ to this process. I realize that all of these points of recognition and seeking approval stemmed from a actual fear of standing as an example, fear of being ‘conceited’ which is a point that I will be walking here, to make sure that  the words I direct, the starting point of my actions is in fact considering what’s best for all – walking the process of integrating this principle as a written process wherein I assess where and how I require to re-consider myself, my application, see ‘who I am’ within any given moment, to reintegrate myself to all points that I have separated myself from.

     

    I realize that all the patterns, fears, judgments, deliberate self-sabotage that I created for myself toward the point of ‘self-perfection’ and ‘standing as example’ have been but Ideals based on a system of values/ worth in separation of Life. I realize that the way to walk here is within humbleness, wherein I ground myself as the Earth that keeps me breathing, because otherwise, I lose myself up there in the mind, believing myself to be ‘something’ instead of actually living it and seeing the consequences that it manifest.

     

    I realize that living words entails responsibility, and this is not to be taken lightly. I realize that any given moment that I see ‘fear’ arising with regards to taking responsibility for myself, and others eventually – I stop and I breathe. I realize that at this moment, I focus on myself wherein I establish self-trust and allow myself to be the director of my every day living, my every day moment wherein I stop any experience wherein I am being taken for a ride by my own participation within my mind in a useless and unnecessary thought pattern or experience that ‘diminishes’ my ability to stand as a living principle and example.

     

    Within this process  – and more specifically the last 2 years, I have been more directive within myself to get to a point of comfort within taking a fore-front, which implies walking a process of self-forgiveness in relation to all the ideas, beliefs and perceptions as a  constant battle I lived toward ‘authority’ – and taking that point of self-authority as an actual direction to build self-trust as the application of myself throughout this process, self-acceptance which I have recently clarified in order to give it a more substantial realization of self-acceptance as the physical – and, last but not at least, liberation.

     

    What we are doing within writing, is giving us structure to finally ‘free ourselves from the cages of the past.’ And I am here to take the point of rattling the cages of the caged, beginning with myself, letting go unconditionally of any limitation of how I will be perceived and fearing ‘not keeping up with myself,’ which can only exist as a future projection of the nature of self-sabotage which is not acceptable because I see, I realize and understand how the only point that can limit myself is a thought that I am able to stop participating in, from the very moment that I can spot myself facing a resistance.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience resistance to write within the ‘ideal’ of requiring ‘substantial time to write’ in order to create an ‘acceptable blog’ – which are just standards that I have created within my mind, instead of realizing that the moment that I write myself, here, being fully attentive and developing my writing as myself – day to day – I am walking the structure and direction in the moment. There is no way I can create an ‘ideal’ of something that must be and can only be walked in every moment while doing it. 

     

    Words are the key to how we create this reality. Within establishing words as ourselves within a self-equality and oneness principle, we are able to in fact place the very foundation upon which we will eventually walk this process to equalize ourselves as Life. Not to be taken lightly, and I can say for myself that, after these years there is not much of a fear toward this. It has taken me time, definitely – so, this is just to share how it IS possible to go from an absolute fear to ‘stand up’ and ‘be in the front’ into an Actual Self-Acceptance which implies Not allowing anything less than who I really am Here – as Life, as One and Equal.

     

    When and as I see myself diminishing myself and believing that ‘I must step aside because I cannot keep up’ – I stop and I breathe, I realize that this pattern can only stem from me existing as a point of comparison and competition which is not the way to walk this process. This is about me, here, establishing a point of discipline, consistency and amalgamation of words as myself as an actual tool of self-creation.


    I see and realize that, what’s best for all, is and will always be that which must remain as a living condition for each one of us living in this world. This is how common sense throughout this process will be integrated as a living-understanding of what in fact means to ‘write ourselves to freedom,’ as a consistent application of what we are aware we are able to live-as individuals, to finally free ourselves from fears, limitations and perceptions toward ourselves and each other, and equalize ourselves to a living-principle that we all can live as equals.

     

    I invite you to do the same – no thoughts on ‘how it must be done’ – this is Your Process, this is My Process, this is Our Process and within this, there is and cannot be any ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ as, within writing from the starting point of developing common sense and establishing Self-Honesty, we can only learn how to correct ourselves As we walk our writings. This is a continued application – yet reinforced to be lived as a daily-action, a daily participation to infiltrate the web with common sense and Self-Forgiveness, which is truly the only way that we are in fact able to unlock ourselves from our self-created cages.

    And, I’m grateful for everyone that is equally walking this process-  no matter where in the world you are, we are all together here as a group that stands up for Life, for that which Matters in this world,  a world wherein no common-sense has been lived as a principle. We are here to walk it, and establish and get comfortable with it, get comfortable with wording ourselves to freedom as that’s a human responsibility that must not be taken for granted.

    This is our one and only chance to do this. As I heard from the lead singer of Refused last night: This is Not a Rehearsal, this is IT.

    No more fun and games – no more fucking around.

    Yet! that doesn’t imply that writing is not enjoyable  – the more you walk through resistance, the more it will be easier to let go of any preconceived ideas of ‘how this must be walked.’

    As my nose clears up, I see that this is it for today.

     

    Thanks for breathing.

     

    For more info on this process, visit Desteni and the Forum 

    Self Supportive Material to walk this process:

    Reptilians – Guidelines through the Maze of the World-System: understanding what Resistance is when writing, how to consider the commitment to this process as a lifetime responsibility within the understanding of the principle of Equality as life. A great lesson to learn how to stop fears to face this process and actually allow us to step up, within the realization that There Is No Other ‘Time’ for This – what better place than here, what better time than now. And it’s all in our hands.

     

     


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