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Day 39: Hypocrisy

 

hypocrisy
n   the practice of claiming to have higher standards or more laudable beliefs than is the case.
hupokrisis ‘acting of a theatrical part’, from hupokrinesthai ‘play a part, pretend’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge another being as being hypocrite without realizing that we have all become hypocrites the moment that we live according to the idea that we want to fulfill of ourselves in our minds, chasing our wants, needs and desires and using all means available to achieve them, wherein we portray ourselves as a character that is able to ‘get what one wants’ by using deceptive means that in no way consider life and what is best for all, but only self interest and personal gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people in my reality as hypocrites toward myself, when in fact the only one that was judging them was myself in my secret mind, believing that because ‘they need me/ they require my stuff’ they are being hypocrite toward me just to keep things ‘at ease’ around, without realizing that I have been the only one creating the point of hypocrisy by having thoughts, judgments about others in my mind that I have justified in self righteousness wherein projecting blame toward others makes me ‘the victim’ and the ‘good person’ that is ‘good spirited’ and is ‘true’ to herself – without realizing that the very act of judging and having thoughts in the back of my head about others that they can in no way see/ be aware of is making me exactly that which I am judging others for:a hypocrite.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that we have all always been hypocrites as that has become ‘the way’ to survive in a dog eat dog world, wherein pretending to care, pretending to be interested in another’s life, about animals, about the environment, about those in need comes like a ‘nice thought’ that makes us feel like we are ‘considerate’ toward fellow living beings, just to eventually in one second forget about it and continue living our lives, pursuing happiness, scheming ways to win, seeing how we can get the most with the least inversion, planning out ways to become effective within the system that functions in corruption and dishonesty by playing the game, without having ever considered that the acceptance of such constant scheming to be ‘more,’ to be ‘above others’ is what is driving this entire Earth to its absolute depletion, wherein everything that will be left-  if we don’t stop ourselves -is our dreams of chasing after the elusive pot of gold in the name of personal ‘power,’ that can only exist as an illusion within the delusional and schizophrenic monetary system that is based upon abuse and not life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as hypocrites for having approaching me in the name of self-interest and not in a ‘genuine’ way, without realizing that there are no ‘genuine intentions’ in this world wherein we have all bound ourselves to a system of survivalism, where the one that is able to be the best liar and ‘fool’ the most is the one that gets the most power as the ultimate reward = money in the world – hence how could I have ever gotten ‘hurt’ by seeing the truth of ‘others’ intentions’ without realizing that I have ruled my life according to the same principle of having to play the rules of this abusive game in order to survive, which are rules that I had never questioned and that I had accepted as ‘how things are’ and in that, justify all abuse and neglect toward life, which became me accepting hypocrisy as ‘who I am’ toward everyone and everything in this world, pretending to be ‘just fine’ while in fact, I could only deem that ‘everything is fine’ by deliberately accepting lies as truth and making myself ‘more’ through such ‘truths,’ as knowledge and information that I have defined as ‘who I am’ – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become equally deceptive and hypocrite the moment that I accepted another to be and become only a personality, a set of preferences, beliefs, judgments, values, words, pictures, emotions and feelings that I have accepted as ‘who I am/ who others are,’ which is in fact accepting the abuse of life ‘as life’ and pretend that we and everyone in this world were in fact ‘living,’ while in reality, we have all become hypocrites in pretending to live while abusing life, regardless of the evidence that is here every single day, in every moment  wherein animals are going extinct due to our abuse, people die out of sheer human negligence to provide unconditional life support, the environment is extremely exploited in the name of personal power, in the name of human supremacy over all other life forms that are regarded as ‘less than,’ which in fact makes me and all that have defined ourselves as our ego, our personality, our beliefs, our dreams, our feelings, emotions, preferences as hypocrites toward life, because we never dared to question ‘who we are’ in relation to life and how come that our ‘lives’ could only be fueled by using what is unconditionally here as the Earth and what we call ‘resources’ and selling it for our own personal ‘benefit’ which is translated to money as power in this world-system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the ultimate hypocrite by believing that I could point out ‘flaws’ in others, while not even having dared to realize that who I am is the product of a society and a world built upon lies wherein no genuine thoughts, intentions and values have ever existed, because we’ve sold life in the name of money which means that whatever I ever pondered as genuine, as ‘sincere’ within me/ others was in fact part of the lies to keep myself within the belief that ‘I am a good person’ / ‘I am trust worthy’ – not wanting to see that this can only exist as long as ‘I am protected’ and I have money in my pocket as a form of security – otherwise, when my very own survival is threatened, all ‘honesty’ and ‘sincere intentions’ would be dumped out of the window because reality then knocks at our door to realize that: nothing that we have ever perceived to be ‘good natured’ was in fact so, as it had always been a cover up, a make-up for the inherent negative experience that we have all stemmed from since the inception and conception of ourselves within this existence. (Read Sunette’s blog for more)

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was sincere and a genuine ‘good hearted’ person, without realizing that I used this as a way to manipulate my reality to obtain and gain that which I knew would make me ‘worthy’ at the eyes of others in society and in that, being able to eventually create a ‘good reputation’ that can be translated as ‘good source of money’ in a system wherein personalities that are presented as ‘good willed,’ ‘sincere’ and ‘honest’ are ‘rare to find,’ yet not realizing that any self-perception of being ‘good natured’ and ‘honest’/ sincere has only been a way to continue surviving in the ‘good side’ of reality, while avoiding and deliberately covering up the ‘bad side’ which is how I had deemed others to be: hypocrites, cheaters, liars without daring to see how the very scheming and planning of my own life, myself, my personality and the picture presentation that I built of myself toward others, was aiming at serving two gods –  wanting to do ‘good’ to life but wanting to preserve my specialness and my recognition in the system as a way to be able to continue abusing/living a ‘good life,’ yet pretending to care about those that were ‘less fortunate’ than myself.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that I’ve become the very epitome of hypocrisy, not only as an individual but as humanity, as an entire race that has dared to pretend that ‘everything is fine’ and we all go walking our days, seeking to ‘make it’ and looking for our greatest next excitement and successful living, living to the ‘max’ while neglecting all the effects and consequences of having lived by the law of self-interest throughout our existence, which is now facing a turning point that affects us all, and that must be a wake up call for everyone that is already seeing and living the consequences of our endless disregard toward life.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge smiles as a sign of hypocrisy without realizing that I would play out the exact same mechanism every time that I actually perceived a potential ‘threat’ or ‘antagonism’ from another, wherein the positive attitude such as unconsciously smiling was used to ‘soften’ any form of hostility that I could be facing in such moments, which reveals how being ‘affable’ and ‘good natured’ as an overall positive attitude is actually stemming from fear of conflict, fear of having enemies, fear of antagonism wherein through deception and lies we can ‘buy’ another to have them be ‘on our side’ in a world wherein only self interest can be the reason to divide and conquer.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have been a hypocrite from the very first stages in my life wherein I knew that presenting an ‘adorable expression’ would lead family, teachers, older people to be fascinated by me and in that, have everyone just ‘loving me’ and ‘appreciating me’ which would make me feel ‘good’ as the positive reward that I then became so used to constantly and continuously obtain from others – in this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that hypocrisy became the deceptive portrayal of a decorative positive experience toward people as my modus vivendi, in order to always have everyone/ the most ‘on my side’ and ‘agreeing’ with me, wherein I ensured that all things would always work according to ‘my plans/ my way,’ which means that hypocrisy became the ultimate manipulation to always get what I want, how I want it and whenever I want it, through instilling sympathy for me as the devil that looked for ways and means to always get ‘the most of the cake,’ as all the positive energy experience that attention, care, money and compliments that I could gather from others, in order to then ‘value’ myself as ‘worthy’ because others could see me/ consider me as ‘worthy’ and a ‘valuable person.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept positive rewards toward my hypocrisy which made a professional life-long hypocrite that knew how to ‘handle’ the system through creating and developing different personalities according to ‘where’ and with whom I was in my world, wherein I learned that different tricks as behavior, personality, words, self-presentation could work different according to each moment, each person to obtain my positive reward  becoming a chameleon that is multi-personality based,  and never ever considering this as something that was signifying deception and dishonesty, because I thought that everyone else was doing it, so it ‘must be’ the way to cope with reality, and in that

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an equal part of a deceptive, corruptible and life-treason system wherein we have all pretended that it was ‘okay’ to place price tags upon ourselves to be sold for that positive reward – to place price tags upon  life wherein we thought that it was ‘okay’ to have people starving in isolated countries in the world wherein they could not ruin our ‘pretty picture world;’ wherein I made it okay to compete against others by presenting a made-up personality,  misrepresenting, manipulating and abusing the very  life that constitutes my beingness and diminishing it to a single personality as a bundle of thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, wants, needs, preferences as a constant engine that had to be kept running by consuming more and more of anything that could keep me existing in that ‘positive idea of self,’ never pondering why I required to ever feel ‘more’ and ‘better’ about myself – and in this, never questioning why we were always seeking to be and portray ourselves as an ‘image of success’ at the eyes of others, in spite of the actuality that was going on within us, as all the inner conflict, self-hatred, self-loathing, anger, frustration and desires for revenge that we were only seeking to exert toward ‘the world/ others’ as an apparent blame for ‘them’ as the ones that went before us, having left a world in shambles, while the reality is that I as everything and everyone that is here have been equal participants in this game that we have called ‘life/ living’ wherein only through deceptive/ hypocrite means could we get some form of ‘decency,’ which implies that respect for life and human integrity have never been existent in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘higher standards’ can exist as an immaculate form of benevolence in this reality, without realizing that all positive experience is in fact stemming from our very own strife to make ourselves ‘more’ and ‘higher’ than what we are, because we have enslaved ourselves to an energetic system wherein we can only be ‘worthy’ and ‘good’ at the eyes of others through building up an image as a reputation that can be then ‘upgraded’ and ‘inflated’ like a price and sold and rewarded for good money as the actual positive-reward that can lead to fulfill the ‘higher standard’ that I sought to get and be recognized for as the ‘moreness’ of myself, which is and can only exist through abuse and general conflict/ opposition and abuse toward life and the consideration of Life in Equality.

 

As I see and realize that everything I have ever believed myself to be and think as a positive attribute has been part of the lies and deception in this world, I understand the importance of walking a process of Wiring, Self-Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application to give back to myself that positive experience that I always sought to be and become in the name of personal glory, wherein I tacitly agreed upon living in a system of abuse just to eventually get my positive reward for having been such a ‘good player’ in the system, abiding to the laws and rules of ‘survival of the fittest’ as the natural selection that I used as a justification to build up my ‘positive attributes’ to become part of the ‘winners’ in the system, and in that, forgetting eventually about all the ‘good-doer’ type of personality once that power and the desire for it simply corrupts even the most ‘honest’ man on Earth, as once that abuse is accepted and allowed in one single part/ aspect in our reality = it becomes acceptable for all, which is precisely how it is important for me to become The Point that Stops perpetuating the existence of myself as a deceptive and hypocrite toward myself/everyone else and this entire world the moment that I pretended to ‘care’ but only really care about my personal satisfaction, which can only exist as the saturation of positive energy based upon the abuse of all life.

 

I commit myself to expose my own hypocrisy toward myself/others/ the world from the personal to the global systems wherein everything ‘positive’ and ‘good natured’ was in fact the make-up put upon the actual shady, nasty and greedy side of each and every single participant in this world system that we have accepted and allowed to use for personal glorification and self-interest, and seeing it as something ‘normal’ and ‘acceptable’ to live-by and seek-for, without ever questioning why it is that we can’t ever get to an optimum position that benefits all and seeing that the cause for the problems in the world is in fact our own personal pursuit of happiness wherein we only care about ‘our own stability/ benefit/ security’ as money, while deliberately neglecting to ask/ ponder/ question the fact that not everyone in this world has the same access to money to have a decent living condition, nor can even they exist in the same ‘dream state’ of pursuing happiness without even having the very basic needs such as food, shelter, water, clothes, sanitation available within their world, which places into perspective the extremes of our deliberate human ignorance toward the world as ourselves.

 

Therefore I commit myself to walk my process to show and reveal to myself that anything that I had deemed as ‘good’ within myself, could only stem from a negative self-created experience that sought to be covered up in an acceptable way wherein I could obtain and gain other’s attention and acceptance in the name of my personal power, power that can only exist if others are ‘less’ than me in my own mind.

 

I commit myself to walk in every moment in Self Honesty wherein I ensure I no longer place myself as a separate part of the system that apparently ‘doesn’t abuse,’ because of believing that ‘I always wanted to do good’ – while not even realizing how this was also seeking a reward to myself for ‘doing good’ as recognition and eventually making of it all a ‘great life’ that I could live out of keeping myself as a lie within a system wherein hypocrites gain the most as they are the best liars when complying to the system and being seemingly ‘benevolent’ while in fact the world is in reverse, and all those that had nothing were the ones that we kept in such a deliberate isolated and caged position in order for us to ‘feel good’ about being able to do something for ‘the less fortunate,’ which proves that altruism is the most blatant form of hypocrisy that is stemming from personal glorification and never from a genuine care toward another as equals, as all that is sought in altruism is to feel good about having people depending on you, as that makes you ‘powerful’ as a mind that thinks that having power over others is something fulfilling.

 

I commit myself to stop any projection of hypocrisy as a judgment toward others in my head as I realize that we have all been equally participating within a system wherein we have compromise each other to only be able to thrive if we comply to the ‘rules of the game’ as a deliberate form of abuse toward all life/ all living forms in the name of personal power and self-gratification.

 

I commit myself to expose how there can be no ‘personal power’ unless it is based upon abuse, and how the only power that exists is here as ourselves as the physical breathing moment wherein I can stand still in my mind, not participating in desires, wants, needs, dreams and the opposite as lack, self rejection, blame, excuses, justifications and self-deprecation that are equally energetic experiences that I have defined as part of ‘who I am’ and in this, expose what is it that we have been In Fact abusing while keeping our personal states of mind ‘alive’ which is ourselves.

 

I commit myself to reveal, show and demonstrate how it is only through Self-Forgiveness in Self-Honesty that we can in fact stop fighting for our own survival and stopping the desire for ‘power’ and ‘moreness’ of ourselves – and reveal this process of Self Honesty as the only way that we can make us trust-worthy again with Life, that Life can stand in and as a system that benefits all, that is regarded as one and equal within and for everyone, wherein Who I am is no longer defined by a point of separation of my self equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to be part of the group of people that have committed themselves to ensure that the rules of the game within this ecosystem function according to that which is best for all, at all times, wherein we can finally stop being hypocrites toward one another and discover what it is in fact the genuine expression of human beings and life, once that the bonds of dependency through the current monetary system as survivalism and abuse, stop and reveal the actual nature of ourselves to be worked with once that the threat toward life is removed as an actual self-willed action within the understanding that: we were the only ones that generated, stimulated an perpetuated such separation from substance/ life in an attempt to make of life an experience as a ‘feeling of being more’ than ourselves here, in the physical.

 

I commit myself to use the word hypocrisy as a way to rattle the cages of all that are caged in a comfort zone of self-dishonesty as I stand and dare to call out the abuse that we have all accepted in the name of personal glory, and in that, reveal our ‘true nature’ as well as showing/ revealing how we can only redeem ourselves once that we dare to care to create a world system of money that can be equally distributed for all, as a self-forgiveness act to clear the sins of our past wherein we only sought our individual satisfaction – we can only become self-honest and trustworthy with life/ as life if we dare to give and receive life unconditionally to all parts equally, within the realization that we are one organism that must function in equality at all times and that any form of abuse will only cause the re-load of the same abusive patterns of the past.

 

I commit myself to breathe here, to walk my own secret mind toward others beings throughout my life until I make sure that I have cleared my standing here as every moment of consistently existing as breath only, so that I can in fact be trusted again with life. And extend this point of self-support toward others as I see and realize that we can only stop if we All collectively stop and take responsibility for the spider web spun in separation of life as ourselves.

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Seeking God is a money-driven scam

Religion promotes self interest, focusing on a set of beliefs that are directed to fulfill those  ‘spiritual needs’ that a human being is seemingly bound to experience on Earth.  Such ‘fulfillment’ is linked to obtaining that which we’ve equated our ‘happiness’ to, which can only be real if you have the money to give it to yourself. Eh, so where was ‘god’ in the entire equation anyways?

This is a special extra-lengthy sunny god Sunday edition partly influenced by a chat we had earlier and because of having at  least some 3 to 4 churches in a peripheral area of less than a kilometer – one around the corner by the way– where after coming home from a walk I imagined having to go to one of those rites and sit flat listening some man perorate on how ‘god’ will save you and you must repent and feel shitty for your sins. Glad that this was never my type of Sundays, though I did go through the entire god-seeking experience.

The fact that religions are popular is because they are seemingly promoting the ‘good will of man’ through being ‘benevolent’ toward fellow human beings and kind of earning good-karma – o sorry that’s the wrong religion – earning sufficient patting from god that will eventually draw you closer to the golden gates of paradise a.k.a.  salvation, which in the eyes of regular mortals like you and me that’s equated to being eternally blissful and existing in a happy ending that’s being promoted by both the Vatican and Disney alike.

Forgiveness is promoted as something that you ask for – as if you weren’t able to give it to yourself and require your master’s permission for that or something along the lines; then told by your pastor / herd manager to do the pertinent retribution after which you’ll feel ‘so good’ that you’ll drop some of your coins around as a gesture of gratefulness for experiencing such an easy brainwash and go back to ‘feeling good’ or at least less guilty. Sounds ludicrous now in terms of ‘asking’ for forgiveness, though this is it all works  in the world of mastering-manipulation through religious ‘principles.’

Within that, another type of indirect way of clearing your aura from past sins is paying your Sunday tithing where your benevolence is measured (me-assured) according to the number of zeros your bill has – yes, there we already have  a commercial per-chasing situation of paying-buying that involves money. You pay according to the amount of pain you’ve caused  for your sins with a set of prayers where words lose all possible meaning, where you talk yourself to ‘feel better’ without ever even daring to see/ acknowledge  the cause of committing such actions in the first place.  Then there’s the ultimate blissful moment on Sundays where a specific song is sang and the basket comes along your way:  you have to ‘pay’  for such absolved sins with actual money which will ensure you a seat in the front row on your way to heaven. Now you’re saved, forgiven and smiled at  by some man that heard your atrocities while, I’m sure, he’s done that and sometimes even more than that. This is based on real experiences and facts that I won’t discuss here, though I’ve had my trail on ‘religion’ and the power that they hold in fact – by power meaning money obviously which allows them to be so popular in conditioning the minds that seek for salvation and forgiveness instead of giving it to themselves.

How else would religion become the greatest corporation or monopoly around the world if it wasn’t through tackling on human’s feeble minds that seek a god to take responsibility for them while being willing to pay for a quick mind fix and feel ‘good’ about it all?  Imperialism. Oppression of those ‘weak minded pagan people’ that they eventually turned into the most fervent Catholics on Earth. It’s was only through a constant and consistent indoctrination – which also involved actual physical and verbal abuse – that religion was able to be accepted as equal to the executive and judicial powers of a nation.

Even if the catholic church/ Christianity promote ‘asking for forgiveness’, the saint inquisition as a subdivision of the Catholic Roman Church was one of the first institutions that promoted a form of capital punishment through the inquisition directed to those that refused to accept ‘god as their savior’ – might be confusing the motto with Islam, but it’s all the same anyways. There you would have heretics punished with the most vile artifacts I’ve ever seen in my life, all of them forming an exhibition that even after it is promoted as the actuality that it was – meaning coming in the combo of Christianity’s imperialism tactics to ‘reform’ those that failed to comply to the ‘one and only true god’ – people are still following such institution with a literal blind faith.

Why does religion doesn’t speak about self responsibility? Self Honesty? Well, because in the very depths of their agenda they must keep you bound to the idea that ‘you need them’, that ‘you need your god’, that you require to go there every Sunday to check out your neighbor’s wife – I mean, to check how bad/good you’ve been in that week, feel sad and miserable about it for the hour or so that the entire charade lasts and then leave  after having accepted that it was your fault and apparently repenting which will leave you with  a ‘clear conscience’. All of this after having left your juicy tithing which gives you the sensation of being now ‘freed from all your criminal activity’ during the week and so, you’re ready to do it all over again!

See, in any of those moments do we actually take  a look at the world outside of ourselves? One is only seeking for salvation, feeling better about oneself = not so miserable and creating a false sense of comfort through asking for world peace or hungry kids to be fed yet doing nothing in fact to promote solutions or expose the reality as it is. Why? Because the almighty belief in a god is more powerful than any common sense that won’t ever be shared in churches as that would be like setting their own boycott to have empty seat from the following Sunday on.

Self empowerment is then promoted by the seemingly counter-act to the orthodox religions which is spirituality. There you got the universe – not a single god – giving you all that you want while enhancing your ability to be ‘at ease’ and ‘in silence’ while the world is apparently just fine. In spirituality you’re also seeking to save your ass and sit on it for a while trying to ‘connect the source’; you also want to get to be with that godhead that some love to define as an ‘energy’ or an omniscient being that, ‘at least,’ is not defined by having long hair, blue eyes and a prominent beard – yet in essence the same stories and roles  as hierarchical systems are  lived and applied. Any real self empowerment and self realization would pose a threat to any religion/spiritual congregation because it would  free people from having to ‘follow spirituality/ being spiritual’ and consuming all of that which promotes ‘being at peace with yourself’ through blindfolding techniques where it’s definitely easier to sit on your ass and meditate yourself ‘till you’re feeling something fuzzy inside, than facing your own thoughts and the exact nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, which is not ‘good’ or benevolent, otherwise religions wouldn’t exist in the first place as they are the result of fear and abdication of self responsibility to a ‘higher being’.

When I was a child I would pray everyday on the way to school from day one up to when I finished elementary school. Looking back it’s fascinating  how in that moment I would get a feeling that I was doing something ‘good’ while praying for starving kids to be fed, yet at the same time asking for us (family) to win the lottery and get that huge house that meant the equivalent to ‘happiness’ on Earth at the time. So in essence asking ‘god’ for things in the same manner I would when blowing the candles on each Birthday cake.

My family wasn’t that religious, though this ‘our holy father’ prayer was something usually prayed as it seemed somewhat ‘real’. It would feel like something ‘solemn’ to do everyday – what a load of crap because the entire thing is about someone/ god doing stuff for us and preventing us from doing shit and giving us all – I mean, there is no actual sense of supporting each other as equals in it, or considering life as the only value, speaking, writing and communicating that which is of support to others and ourselves; I see no sentence that includes plants, animals and the environment as part of the equation in such prayer. It’s never worked obviously, I never won the lottery and starvation hasn’t been eradicated either.

I was taught to do this – I followed, that’s all I knew. I got to know of other ‘god’ ideas which I then felt fortunate for, almost like a chosen one for having this ‘direct link’ with the ‘realm of the death ones’ due to being familiar with channelings and spirituality. The fact that I kept that as secret and that we as a family would keep it as a secret reveals what type of cult it really was, really only a few knew about it yet it all seemed so real. Being familiar with the ideas/ beliefs of having these type of ‘privileges’ such as having people apparently ‘watching over me all the time’ created a sense of ‘god is watching me, I must be a good person or else I’ll be damned’ – the fear of god developed and within that, I got to know this world and the system for what it is.

Ludicrous that god as the policeman in the head is taught in religions. Some can even use the idea of god to educate their kids like ‘don’t swear or you’ll make baby Jesus cry!’

I never had crosses in my house – because of this entire spiritual thing that we were into which now I see it was no different with its own set of rules and secrets around it – but anyways, seeing them in my friends’ houses made me ponder how people liked seeing gory representations of a man with nails on hands and feet while agonizing in what evidently seems like a very painful death; then daring to carry them  around their necks and shaping them with all sorts of materials and motives – ludicrous. Yet at the same time I was mostly living with the fear of others’ negative vibes and ‘jealousy’ and essentially being aware of not doing anything that these ‘beings’ could see and later on recriminate myself with. It was ludicrous, they ‘knew it all’ and because it would be ventilated in front of everyone in my family, I’d rather focus on keeping my reputation somewhat clean.

That’s how I grew up with the fear of a ‘god’ as the punisher and the beliefs of asking for whatever you want that will make you happy while not forgetting to ‘drop a line’ to bless the people in Biafra so that they can  have something to eat.

From there my delusions on spirituality only escalated even beyond the spiritualism and channelings that I had grown up with. They became more elusive which was in direct consonance to my lifestyle of escapism while trying to make sense of this world, wanting to make my life have a certain ‘purpose’ or ‘meaning’ which was linked to me feeling like a chosen one to create my own religion. Lol. I became quite a nutjob for a while when seeking the truths and the ‘real salvation’ from this world. Nothing made sense yet there were patterns repeating all the way. That’s how when getting to Desteni everything fit, like the that  puzzle that I wouldn’t have ever been able to put together alone. I would sometimes feel like the hermit looking for some answer that only a fool could dare to embrace.

The point that I originally wanted to share here is how religious indoctrination should be regarded as mind control and harmful brainwashing as it enables children to believe in fantasy-like stories as their source of existing here; beliefs on ethereal beings that are apparently caring for you becomes quite the hair in the soup when we grow up and see that there are other people that are not exactly being ‘cared for’ and have to actually strive for a living. This creates a rift between the reality that is here and the stories that are told ‘as real’ within religion – and by religion I should ratify and clarify that I’m referring to the one that I was familiar with which is the catholic one. We are taught to be thankful because ‘we’ have what we need and for that, we’re taught to feel grateful and special because  the good old god ‘cares for us’ –  but what about the rest of the world?

Through such blessings and prayers we’re taught to ask for that which will ‘make us happy’, for that which will ensure that we are ‘safe’ and even healthy while still aiming to sit next to the holy father of god. Lol what a fuckup really. I can only say that promoting the idea of a benevolent god and indoctrinating that onto a child can only make you complicit of an atrocity that leads to the creation of irresponsible and airy-fairy human beings that believe that someone will do the job for them, and that anything ‘good’ that happens has been an act of the ‘divine forces’ that are now giving results after years of prayers to ‘get it’ – never actually questioning why isn’t the same ‘fortunate position’ not available for everyone equally?

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to place my life at the ‘hands of god’ and creating a massive delusion within me as my life thinking that someone is always ‘taking care of me’ – within this developing a sense of being ‘special’ as well as being observed which unfolded in an irrational fear of god that then became the reason to ‘be good’, which stems from such initial fear.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create myself as the idea of a ‘benevolent person’ only out of ‘fear of god’, fear of being exposed for the ‘real intentions I had’ and exposing the nature of the deeds that I would hold in my mind in secret because of the threat they posed to my falsely created integrity.

It’s such a fuckup that we indoctrinate kids with morality, it is ludicrous for all the shit that it develops which is primarily fear of being punished or exposed or ‘falling from the grace of god’ if one is a bad bad kid. There must only be one single morality point: what’s best for all to end all poles of good/evil.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to motivate my life and ‘good actions’ as points and ‘credits’ that I would be seemingly saving and keeping a record of by this apparent god so that I could get to be eventually saved and having a great afterlife in this elusive paradise where I could finally get my ‘reward’ for being a ‘good girl in this world’.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to motivate me to move, to only do things and act in ways that were ‘good’ or seemingly ‘benevolent’ out of self interest only, out of accumulating my good-god points and later on ‘good karma’ wherein the underlying expectation of getting the same in return existed as a secret desire within me.

If we could’ve actually realized that it is possible to give and take openly as an equal and one relationship, there would be no need to expect rewards for ‘doing something good’ as it wouldn’t be labeled as ‘doing good’ or not, it would just be the way that things are conducted and lived in an Equality world – there no morality would be required, no expectation to get things in return but simply giving and taking within the same principle of equality as life – as what’s here.

We’ve compromised ourselves so much with creating certain attitudes that are seen as ‘goodwill’, developing quirks and mannerisms, words and appearances that will follow the norm of how ‘good people’ look and act like. It is not true, ‘good people’ are as equal as the most experienced scavenger like person that is seeking to get something out of something/ someone else – they only have different masks and accepted roles, but the essence of the final motivator to do so is the same in nature.

Daring to see this single aspect of ourselves might be tough for some, simply because we realize that we’ve never actually moved ourselves as an actual act of self-realization meaning self movement, but it was always motivated to obtain or become something/ someone of perceived ‘well-beingness’ and more often than not, of power and success = rich people = money.

So religion and its indoctrination is brewing hypocrisy in the world from head to toe. It is teaching that imaginary people are seemingly watching over you while fulfilling your dreams and making you all pampered and cared for, which  generates an inner conflict when realizing that there are billions of people that don’t ’ know ‘god’ because they’re not being pampered or cared for. This is how we discover the fact that we’ve been taught lies wherein parents are the ones that are responsible for, because the child knows nothing and has no idea of how to walk in the world – it is only through parents that they accept what they say as ‘fact’ and ‘truth’. As the child grows up we can expect him/her to not trust their parents ever again and do their own exploration and realizations to see what makes sense once they step into reality and see how it actually functions – this is though the most preferable way it goes, sometimes it turns out in further self abuse and confusion of what this world is and what living must be about. This is then linked to money of course and once that money is seen as the main driving force for religions and the idea of such god to exist, the idea of any altruism or benevolence is debunked.

That’s how at Desteni we are presenting common sense solutions that don’t require a single point of belief to be understood. The practical points of understanding how we exist and function in our reality can be cross referenced by anyone by directly investigating our reality, being our own reality-checker with regards to how relationships operate, how things ‘move’ within ourselves as experiences wherein we’ll always get down to seeing the accepted and allowed ‘nature of man’ in the current system as the source of such convenient belief or idea that motivates seeking one’s ‘heavenly experience’ in one way or another.

“All I want in life is to be happy” is what guides our actions, this is the real fucker that must be seen from all angles; even in walking this process if there’s but a single expectation of ‘making it,’ we expose it to ourselves for what it is as that would indicate we’re still playing the religion game, expecting something/ someone super natural to do things for us.

Exposing this is the least we can do to make sure more people are able to step out of the self-created see-through crystal box wherein we cage ourselves while believing we are free, because ‘the barrier’ is just so thin and clear. In fact the entire monetary system can be viewed as that single crystal clear barrier between ourselves and others. We believe we have free choice, we believe we have free will but in essence we’re just like rats in a cage as well, not even questioning the in or out as such comfortable status quo of never questioning reality is more enjoyable than having to go through the rather ‘uncomfortable’ realization of it all being a blatant lie. This is how I’m sure that many, many people would rather spend their days lying to themselves – even if being fully aware of doing so – than having to give up the illusion of happiness and fool-fill.ment that the single idea of god or someone watching over your head might provide –  yes, in some sick sense of our ‘spiritual requirements’ to not feel alone.

This has turned into another buybill as part of my white past seeking the holy-lies that would make me have such connection that I sought with all my might for something ‘divine’, something ‘out of this world’ that could give me a reason to exist and be. This is how I got to disregard all human aspects of reality, I deliberately neglected them to ensure I remained focused in this elusive spiritual realm that I thought I’d reach by being a ‘good god servant’ in a meek and positive way.

I perorate this religious rant with the following:

Self Respect is Not promoted through religion as you have to turn the other cheek before you realize you have to stand up for yourself and prevent any form of abuse in the first place.

Self Responsibility is not promoted through religion because you can ‘ask’ someone for forgiveness, but never give it to yourself as a way of realizing your own fuck up and being the real ‘master creator’ behind your experience.

Self-Trust is never promoted in religion as that would imply you wouldn’t require to pray and go to church to have your ‘god’ giving you all the strength and might that you can’t apparently give to yourself. You are encouraged to ‘trust your feelings/ heart’ which is only but a physical organ that doesn’t think, another delusion promoted by religion/lightworking malarkey.

Self Honesty is never part of your religious curriculum because realizing yourself as one and equal would debunk the imposition of hierarchy that keeps the chains of religion tied to each one’s feet.

Self Will is not promoted as you have to ask for courage and a certain reward in the way to move yourself to do anything in this world, otherwise ‘what would be the point of it all?’

Self Forgiveness is NOT promoted by religion of course, otherwise the priest would be prescinded and lose his job as the special pastor in the church of your preference, he wouldn’t be able to rejoice with the money that comes ‘indirectly’ as part of ‘paying for your sins’ besides existing in a personal inflated state of having some type of powers conferred on to him to hear other people’s dark deeds and be able to ‘absolve’ someone’s fuckups. Forgiveness is then ‘asked’ and not realized as part of taking Self Responsibility for our actions and consequences.

Self-Support is not promoted in religion as you are often led to and taught that you must ask God to give you the strength and you must follow an entire brainwashing session to make sense of this world while believing that an all-mighty invisible hand is guiding your actions and making you go through some nefarious experiences just to teach you a lesson, from which you’ll either come up to the surface again or die in the bottom of such situation. Yet apparently ‘god’ and his ‘mysterious ways’ have planned that specifically for you to realize one of those morals that will apparently change your life.

Self Investigation is not supported – knowing yourself is only ‘god’s task’ as he/she/it knows why things are placed on your way. It is taught that stuff ‘happens to you’ yet you  are apparently not the creator of them all, but only the victim that can then ask for forgiveness and keep going to church to renew their desire to ‘get to god’ and be eternally happy.

Self correction is certainly NOT promoted as that would imply that you could become a common sensical living being that would not require to go and self-flagellate each sunday, asking for forgiveness and paying money for your sins. You would eventually realize that all that you require is correcting your patterns and habits to start acting in ways that will  support you and others equally which would demerge your relationship with ‘god’ as a necessity in your life to act in ways that are best for all = you become your own god.

Self Realization is NOT supported as you’d see that if Oneness and Equality are the principles of this world,  you are then one and equal as any idea/concept of ‘God’ and as such, you see yourself as the responsible one for all that is here – the marvelous and the fuckups. Now the act must be cleaned up to create a tabula rasa for kids to step into a world where all past can be only remembered as a hell of a nightmare to never repeat it again. At last a god-police free land forevermore.

This can only be done through the Equal Money System where all religions are given and end as we simply realize: we can give it all to ourselves in Equality.

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And God created ‘His Creation’!

  • Got the following comment in one of my videos:

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    • Delusional. You can’t redeem yourself, you didn’t create yourself. You were created by God out of his good pleasure. He provided the perfect sacrifice, Jesus, the unspotted lamb. Satan comes as a spirit of light. Tickling your ears with a lie, anything to lead you to deny Christ and loose salvation that is full and free and not of yourself. Leading others weaker than you into falsehood. If the blind lead the blind they will both fall into a pit. It appears money becomes your god.

      imrnlil

This depicts the mind of a god follower in the following disturbing ways:

1. “Delusional. You can’t redeem yourself, you didn’t create yourself.” 
According to this, I must assume and/or imply that I am not to be blamed for anything that’s currently existent in this world because it is apparently ‘god’s creation’ which is then ‘god’s will’ which must be untouchable, undenied and not judged which is then indicating how people literally ‘turn a blind eye’ on reality because ‘we can’t redeem ourselves’ anyways. This also then points out that  God is the one to blame for this creation and us being but innocent puppets that didn’t have any common sense to not see god moving the strings – though I wonder how delusional such people have to be to not even question how this world is existing in such a fucked-up system without getting any straight answer from GOD, isn’t it?

2.”You were created by God out of his good pleasure.” Oh yes, totally!  A filthy nasty pleasure called ‘benevolence’ equated to cloning itself to have power over other entities which he then could call ‘their creation’ which is nothing else but denigrating anything/anyone to being inferior while building yourself a pedestal on top of them – ehm ehm yes God didn’t take his Equality 101 lesson before creating. Now we know how the ‘godly pleasures’ came to be – being a sybarite fucker that must deceive and cheat on anyone to make more of himself, being nothing but a hedonist that doesn’t give a fuck about creating eternally screwed up people with no opportunity to live in a ‘godly manner’.

Thank you, sir, now I know why I have been built as the ‘image and likeness’ as God’s filthy pleasures which gives me a clear view on how I was created the way I am and how this world is certainly ‘God’s creation’, what  a wonderful view of it. 

3.”He provided the perfect sacrifice, Jesus, the unspotted lamb. “

So this is saying that we required a sacrifice in order to kind of say ‘oh man, there’s a God because Jesus died on the cross! he did it for us!’ and within that accepting roman torture as a form of sacrificing an ‘immaculate lamb’ which implies that someone innocent had to die as proof of God being existent? What the fuck? What kind of sense could that make –  The ‘immaculate lamb’ has to do with some weird symbolism that the buybill uses to keep people generating images that will haunt and taunt people until now. Who’s the real sadist here anyways?

Now, look at the ‘he provided’ point – so: God’s a criminal, a killer, a sniper shooter that wants his sadistic traits to be ennobled as ‘perfect’ acts of commiserating to an enslaved creation. Wow! he certainly had fun.

I mean, if someone can place these two words in one single sentence, you must know there is something perfectly deranged in that person: “perfect sacrifice”.

Need I say more? No – self-evident in all its angles.

 

4.”Satan comes as a spirit of light. Tickling your ears with a lie, anything to lead you to deny Christ and lose salvation that is full and free and not of yourself. “

Well, I wonder why am I to hear this because it seems that such process takes place with people that actually follow the light into believing that by ‘accepting Christ’ they’ve saved their asses and will ass-Send to Heaven when they die. If it is free then I ask thee, dear oh God, why is there money in this world if salvation is free!? Why do churches and all of the plethora of sacraments cost money, how come I am required to be a Christian to be ‘saved’, isn’t ALL in your creation equal, dear God?

Who’s the one menacing to deny me something? the christian god or Satan? Seems the christian god here is the one blackmailing people to keep his followers in place lol, what an absolute bastard yet it’s such a perfect trap that they can’t even see it. This is how they deny themselves the ability to forgive themselves because it is apparently ‘not of yourself’ so why god, oh why did he/she/it create a creation that is eternally flawed and depending on his rule of thumb to be saved or not – wow, who’s the prick here then? God? Satan? At least Satan in the nice fictional stories wanted to prove himself equal to God instead of following an obscene hierarchical system.

5. “Leading others weaker than you into falsehood. If the blind lead the blind they will both fall into a pit. It appears money becomes your god.”

Ok so there’s people that are apparently ‘weaker’ which implies that this God created inherently flawed weak people and inherently pumped-up ‘strong people’ to keep its perfect balance in creation, how cool of you God! Gee I wonder if the same applies to those that were born ‘Rich’ and those that were born ‘Poor’ – awesome God, thanks for sharing with us your fantastic fucked up creation that’s never ending!

I wonder then how this person can’t ask a pertinent question like: ‘Why would all-mighty-perfect-stud god create blind people? why would he create people with retardation, malformations, perpetual diseases that certainly can’t allow people to enjoy ‘god’s kingdoom’ as he apparently ‘intended’ to do, at some point or in some story, maybe –

I can’t deny his last sentence as that’s the most sense this person made in the entire comment: “It appears money becomes your god.” It isn’t an ‘appearance’ though, money has become our god, at least a god that isn’t vaingloriously praising his creation or is personified as a blue eyed guy that women then deny having a crush on – yet it mercilessly decides on who lives and who dies – but OH now I get it! God created money so in fact money is just the image and likeness of God which fool-fills everyone’s tummies and “souls” with God’s spirit, fantastic. This person then is missing a key point of his religion with judging others and not realizing it all has been made as the ‘image and likeness of god’, our beloved creator.

 

Oh dear god what have we done to deserve such brainless followers of yours?

To top and wrap up this christian burrito , I never asked for god’s perspective on my video, I never asked for being saved, I didn’t ask for a christian to come and show me the ‘good holy ways’ in life – so I ask: what is it within these christians and god suckers that leads them to try and convert anyone into a god-jesus groupie being that joins them in their mass rites that exalt the idea of a spiteful god that ‘must be right’ in all ways and must never be questioned?

This is in-fact the holy-grail which keeps the churches treasury nice and healthy. Keep it up god followers! You’re almost done paying for your first row ticket to heaven.

For those that can open their eyes about god being an ever elusive idea of superman, visit Desteni for further support in taking off the blindfold.

 

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