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583. Intimacy Starts Within

Or how to share oneself in an open and unconditional manner with others after living self-intimacy for oneself first.

I’ll share a about an experience that opened up while I was communicating with someone about a subject or topic that I had not particularly shared about with anyone else before, therefore already holding this ‘charge’ within myself of sharing something quite ‘intimate’ or ‘secret’ within me that I had not opened up before or shared about myself with others because of having existed in a relationship of shame, regret and therefore secrecy towards it.

Here I created a predisposition of perceiving that what I was sharing with the person was ‘more meaningful’ or more ‘intimate’ than other topics, like imposing an idea of specialness towards it instead of simply sharing it for what it is – though it’s understandable here in my case considering that it’s the kind of experience one initially has when ‘opening up’ a rather ‘sensitive’ topic or what one has defined as ‘sensitive’ or ‘intimate’ or ‘secret’ aspect of ourselves to another, which I have in a way identified as ‘being intimate’ with another, which I’d say cannot really exist as such within an aura of specialness, but a simple seeing within self first and then sharing it with another, which is what I was doing in that moment according to my starting point.

So when I was sharing about this aspect of myself that I had already defined as  ‘I am sharing this for the first time with another’ there I was kind of already making it something ‘more’ than what it is in in fact in my head, which is also the reason why I had not shared about it before – and I noticed how the other person was looking away or dealing with something else in that moment,  which I communicated to see if there was something to be attended on in order to ‘get past it’ and kind of ‘get the focus back on myself’ but in that insta-moment what was triggered within me was a very old pattern in my life where I’ve believed, perceived or assumed that others don’t really want to hear me/my story/my ‘depth’ or what I have to open up or share, in all the detail that I share it with and what I activate is a perception of ‘others not being interested in what I have to share about me/myself/some deep stuff’ and have used that before to then react in ‘shutting down’, meaning refraining or stopping myself from sharing, so tending to suppress more– which I’ve also defined as ‘moments of intimacy’ that become thwarted according to this idea belief, perception or interpretation of ‘not being interested, don’t pay attention, so rather not do it at all’, or ‘not relevant for them,’ or they seem bored by it, etc.

The solution is to rather ask, be direct and share what is being experience in the moment, communicate about it if it’s a point of communication being built with someone that is at a more personal and yes in depth level. Otherwise within assumptions and suppressions one can build up large chunks of ‘unprocessed’ stuff that becomes a source of further emotions if not opened up and dealt with within oneself and shared with the other person as a point of shared awareness.

 

Due to how I’ve perceived this to be a ‘common thing’ in various relationships-partners and friendships before, I triggered it again which causes an experience of being ‘irrelevant, not important, not interesting, worthless to give attention to’ which at the same time holds underlying points of seeking some kind of ‘full attention/consideration’ that I had not given to myself either, which played out in the way I focused more on ‘supporting people’ or making myself ‘needed’ by another in a relationship or ‘finding ways out there to sort out the world’ but missing out these key self-aspects: giving, doing, being these points for myself first!

 

Also here it’s relevant to clarify this point of intimacy and being ‘intimate’ with another and how upon reacting to something I see on the other I went into a ‘shut down’ or assumption of ‘they don’t really want to hear’ which would be a source of self-pity and ‘no one understands me’ type of experience that is experienced as a remnant of the past, even though I actually have quite some enjoyment in opening and disclosing all of these points to myself as well, which proves that yes even one single thought invested into the ‘pop-up’ of the pattern, can trigger these old patterns which I’ve been seeing now are linked to various memories and what I’ve defined as ‘bitter situations’ in the past.

And due to that insta-reaction, the usual ‘next step’ was to – in the past – consider ‘ah they’re not interested in getting to know me or ‘be intimate” which is an externalization of what I had not lived for myself/given myself as full attention, self-appreciation and self-worth. Here’s then how intimacy is in fact into-me-I-see as learned through the Desteni material, where we can in fact first focus on getting to know ourselves, seeing within me, getting to understand me, appreciate me, honor me, enjoy me rather than expecting another person to do and be this for me, to ‘see me’ in the exact same way and ‘depth’ that I would like them to see me, but it’s practically not possible to do this in the reality we are in, where yes as much as we can share ourselves through words and actions, no other person will ever be in our exact same body/life experience all the way with ourselves as we have been for ourselves, and that’s merely a fact of life that leads me to remember to be ok with seeing within me, getting to know me, getting to appreciate me in all the things that I see, realize, get to understand and surely, share as much as I can through words and interactions with others, but without creating an expectation of a certain regard or experience from another towards it, and that’s where ‘sharing unconditionally’ is also the solution.

So yep, it all starts with an assumption, perception, idea of what the other is experiencing to which then I react in shutting down / keeping things to myself.  I’ve also been in the position of being directly told ‘I don’t care to hear that/ don’t want to hear about that’ which I would have a hard time with as in sadness emerging, like ‘shutting up a kid’ type of experience, which is as far as it goes in my case having been  a very talkative person since I was very young, lol, not really understanding that yes it might have gotten to be annoying for some at the time, but it’s definitely the kind of ‘deeply rooted’ reactions that led me to see myself as insignificant, worthless, not important, ‘I’d rather die/go away because I’m only a bother here’ type of thoughts. This goes back to childhood times – so, it all resulted in me generally ‘being there’ for others in relationships, only ‘hearing them’ because of perceiving that my stuff was not relevant, was boring, uninterested by perceiving any physical movement in the other as a reaction to what I was saying- while at the same time yearning to open myself up and having someone ‘be interested in me’ in the same way I may find myself and others fascinating to get to know or understand.

However here it’s not about now seeking another to say ‘yes you are interesting’ or ‘I am interested in what you have to say’ because then the point is missed. The point is not really about ‘another’ but about self and realizing how one creates ideas, experiences and expectations towards things that only we, individually, within ourselves can get to see in full scope. It is yes, kind of unfortunate in a way that we cannot yet see ourselves in ‘all dimensions’ and get to see the core of each other and in all transparency, because in essence we cannot do that for or towards others because we haven’t in fact done and walked that for ourselves first, and that’s then the principle of self-intimacy first.

 

So even if there were times when another person in fact wasn’t interested, or was in fact genuinely wanting to ‘slip away’ from the conversation – it’s not about judging them or judging ourselves for having had these reactions from others. I’ve learned to instead go into considering, understanding ‘who they are’ and what they were ‘into’ at the time and how for some individuals this kind of things might be too personal or too ‘intimate’ to discuss or ‘only pertaining me’ – which are all individual points to walk for each person, though I cannot ever change or control that, therefore it all goes back to what I can do and live for and as myself, which relates back to living self-intimacy first and then sharing myself with another unconditionally, no strings attached, no expectations, no preconceived ideas of what the other will say or how they will react back at it.

This is common sense in realizing that I cannot ask another to be in my head and be in that moment seeing all the ‘meaning’ or ‘depth’ that I’m seeing something within me that leads me to share it and expect the other person to receive it in that ‘equal meaningfulness’ or ‘depth’ that I am creating towards it. It’s kind of like the idea of ‘I’m bearing my soul here for you and you’re not interested in it’ type of experience and assumption  – and so learning that this is part of where I have to let go of any expectations and realize I can only share myself unconditionally.

 

I share it because I’ve definitely made that mistake of keeping things to myself before and not communicating about it, and what emerged in that moment was a distinctive experience, familiar if anything, from past situations that I simply have to practice walking through more and communicate about this situation so that next time I can open it up in the moment with the other person if they are also up for doing this kind of ‘alignments’ within themselves as well or in a relationship.

In doing so, sharing becomes also a one direction movement, where I share me without indirectly expecting the other to change or do anything about it, because that is entirely up to each one to do or act upon or not. Here it’s making sure that I am no longer expecting someone else to ‘fully understand me’ because that’s also still a point of ‘desiring to be appreciated, understood and known’ by someone else, instead of doing, giving and living that for myself first. So in essence being quite unconditional in what I share and continue cultivating openness because that’s what I enjoy and like to be, regardless of anything else I see in another. Of course if there are noticeable reactions I rather from now on ask and cross-reference rather than assuming, which is the key to stop making an ass-of-myself in assumptions.

There’s many times a fine line of whether ‘I should share this’ with the other person or not, but due to my tendency to rather ‘keep it to myself’ – which reads into self-pity, victimization and all of that pattern of suppression –  I for now decide do the opposite.

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446.Facing our Dark Self: For the New to Grow, the Old Must Go

 

Self honesty is not nice or beautiful – Bernard Poolman

 

Facing the dark self or the ‘real nature of ourselves’ that we keep hidden and well wrapped behind a usual seemingly ‘good’ portrayal of ourselves is something that can be a bit tough to do or even understand for some that are not yet in a process of walking and understanding the process of self-honesty, yet at the same time I’m sure there are people in this world that are quite in contact with themselves and through investigating their within and without behind layers of self-deception, might have found that there is no connection between the idea that we like to keep of ourselves as ‘good people’ and our creations, which are our lives, our relationships and the state of this world.

 

The consequences we are facing overall in our lives personally and collectively show us that ‘the image of goodness’ we like to keep of ourselves is merely that, an image, a façade for the most part because in reality, the proof is in the pudding: we have not really created a world any of us can be genuinely and entirely proud of.

 

If we were genuinely ‘good’ we would not be currently waking up to the need for change and better ourselves in a plethora of aspects, and this is yes maybe still a fraction of the population that is looking at it in a direct manner, but over the years it has now become a normal thing to talk about change and bettering our world, self-improvement, changing our ‘ways’ in our lives. There is this general awareness that ‘we must do something’ because the very life in our bodies and so on Earth is in danger due to our skewed ways of ‘living’ in this world.

 

Why do I write ‘living’? because we actually haven’t learned to live in a way that assists our lives and life in general, we have only existed as an existential consequential outflow that has become our current reality, where we mostly complain, blame and see the problem ‘outside of ourselves’ but rarely do we ever dare to see where the nature of the problem resides: within oneself first of all.

 

Recently a new phase in this process has opened up where there will be more openings and explanations on this ‘dark self’ nature, to start seeing and rather un-covering up all of those aspects of ourselves that we have suppressed, neglected, denied, hid, judged and dissociated ourselves from, not wanting to look at and investigate all the seemingly ‘negative’ or ‘bad’ or ‘plain awful’ in ourselves. However, we haven’t really noticed how this ‘opening of eyes’ – perhaps the actual ‘apocalypse’ as in removing of the veil’ of our eyes to really see ourselves – that is taking place individually and collectively is a very necessary yes, ‘bitter truth’ or ‘uncomfortable truth’ phase that we have to wake up to and step into in order to from there, in firm ground and after facing one’s own ‘personal demons’ start taking the necessary steps to change and reverse the self-destructive trend we have been living up to in our lives, within and without.

It’s a actually a mindfully smart trap of self-sabotage, where we don’t realize that through digging out these points and ‘placing them on the table’ for us to see and become aware of, it is not merely doing so for shock value or to add on more judgment in the form of seeing how ‘bad we really are’ and create a drama about it, nope. We bring these points to the surface to understand them.

This is such a pivotal word: understanding, a key one I’d say when it comes to everything that we are facing in our lives and in our process – individually and globally – where we get terrified at the ‘horrors’ that are taking place in our day to day lives, but we keep it at that ‘shock value’ and squirm about it, become sad about it, become angry at others for it, but… do we actually take a moment to reflect on the nature of what’s going on ‘outside’ of ourselves and see how it is a reflection of all of the stuff we have left to ‘rot’ in the back of our minds, with no awareness, no direction and no solution given to it all, but only creating consequences that affect us all? Well, now that most of us have done it for lifetimes on, it is about time that we all get to know that it is through self-investigation as in writing it out, self-forgiving it and in doing so developing self-honesty to realize the responsibility we have toward ourselves and everything/everyone that is equally here, that we in fact take the reins of our lives because we will understand ‘why’ we did what we did, why we became what we became, why we are walking this process right now and at the same time apply all the necessary tools of self-support that we can use to lay out a plan, what to do from here, ‘where to go from here’ too, which is to create ourselves in a way that we are of course willing to live with for the rest of our existence.

 

Being unconditional throughout this ‘self-discovery’ process is also important which is to not expect a result or ‘something’ out of this exercise, but only doing so as a way to see oneself with a pair of eyes of self-understanding to then create self-awareness and so then see where we need to ‘work on ourselves’ in order to do the next steps to truly create a change within that lasts, that is real and genuine.

 

I’ve also seen how in our minds, we just don’t really want to ‘face the music’ meaning, diving into and uncovering these usually hidden, closed up, buried aspects of ourselves because: of how we judge them! What I’ve seen is that we don’t realize that stepping into this momentarily ‘uncomfortable’ spot of ‘facing the music’ is in fact a phase, a momentary yet necessary step to start seeing the reality of ourselves in order to create anything new as an improved version of ourselves within and so without.

 

As the saying goes: ‘In order to build the new, the old must go’ and sometimes we believe that we can start a process of change by only ‘tip-toeing’ around it, only doing bits here and there on the surface, stuff that is not really ‘too revealing’ or too seemingly ‘compromising’ to one’s idea of self, which is usually that of being a ‘good person’… instead of realizing that such stance toward one’s self-investigation and self-change process will only prolong everything, because if one really wants to plant a ‘new seed,’ one has to completely uproot the old/dying plants/trees and make space to grow the new. So, the same way one goes uprooting the old trees, removing the weeds, sometimes finding rotting stuff around and essentially just like with any cleaning process of an ‘old storage place’ or even one’s closet at times – lol –  it can be a bit of a nightmare. One looks at the ‘whole of the work to be done’ and it’s like we immediately want to cover our eyes, pretend it’s not there, procrastinate or postpone getting to clean it up, create a resistance to ‘get on with the cleaning process’… and I see this whole process of facing the ‘deep dark corridors’ of ourselves and directing ourselves to look more in the face of our real truth as that process where we start ‘the clean up’ and sure, it’s not nice at the beginning, even more so if one has just used one space up as a form of mental dumpster, but for now imagine it as a physical storage space where everything seems to be clogged around with trash and things to dispose, things to clean up and re-use, going through a selective process of what stays, what needs to go, what needs to be fixed…. I actually did that some months ago in one storage area and yes, it wasn’t fun at first, it didn’t take ‘5 minutes’ either, but it was worth it, because now the space is more in order and usable as well.

The same then applies to facing this ‘dark self:’ opening up ourselves to see our ‘real nature’ that we might not even be aware of yet – in certain cases –  might not be such a pleasant thing to do, might not be a ‘ride in the park’ either but it is also a momentary phase, a needed phase if one truly wants to ‘let go of the old in order to allow the new to flourish.’ I mean it’s common sense really, one doesn’t really want to start cooking in dirty pots, one would not want to have one’s body full of viruses in the moment of deciding to get pregnant and have a baby in, one would not want one’s room to be having dirty clothes lying around and pests forming from food residues while one tries to place on a new carpet and bed on top of it…. Same goes for our minds.

 

And this is not something that will only take the ‘personal clean-up’ either and be done with it, no, this goes hand in hand with at the same time and as we face our deep fears, secrets, grudges, personal traits, envies, guilt, sadness, depression, anger, hatred, cheatings, betrayals etc. at the same time we also hold those points now in our hands, in front of our face in the form of writing and self-forgiveness in order to become aware of it: we no longer create a relationship of avoidance, of fear and judgment toward it, but instead we learn to embrace it entirely because, it is in fear and judgment that we in fact separate ourselves from all of the ‘dark self’ and keep it locked in a seemingly nice suitcase that we drag along throughout our lives, like a heavy load of ‘dirty laundry’ that one carries as the ‘who I am in my secret mind’ without actually going and doing the laundry.

This is an analogy to explain how we need to start ‘doing our laundry’ for once and for all, take the ‘bull by the horns’, step out of our comfort ‘good person’ zone and be willing to see this truth of ourselves that not only will show all the seemingly ‘bad stuff’ or ‘evil’ within, but at the same time we will get the actual cues or points to then work on and so align/reverse to living principles, to beneficial traits and habits, to supportive outcomes for ourselves and so for others. That is the gift that comes with ‘uprooting the old’, cleaning up the space, preparing the soil/ground in order to grow the new seeds that will give birth to the new trees, that, of course! Won’t be fully grown in a 1,2,3! It will take lots of time and care/support as in nutrients, attention, adaptation for it to grow well; that’s what our whole process is about as well, but this growth and expansion from a seed can only happen if we first make sure that we walk through ‘the old’, the ‘baggage of the past’ that we are unreasonably keeping within us as this form of mental masochism really, because we have the tools of self-forgiveness, self honesty and living words to precisely be able to forgive ourselves for all of that, no matter how ‘bad’ it may seem, no matter how painful it might be to realize what one has been and become: let’s realize it’s only a memory now, it’s only an emotional experience, we can’t remediate what’s done, but we surely can focus on who we are and what we want to ‘grow’ ourselves to be.We only have ourselves to do this work for us.

 

A suggestion – that goes for me and everyone that reads this – is: not to fear diving into the core of oneself, not to fight or resist questioning one’s ‘absolute benevolence’ in a pious act of ‘awareness’, not to be reluctant or resist doing the actual ‘clean up’ that is necessary to continue growing and expanding as a real living being. I know for a fact our hold to the past only diminishes our capacity and potential if we don’t entirely let it go/self-forgive and correct it, so that no matter how ‘awful’ this might seem, I’d rather choose to walk through this ‘uncomfortable’ spot for a moment and then be actually free/liberated from all of that stuff, than holding onto it and continuing limiting myself, my potential and so others’ as well.

It’s only our judgments, our fears, our personal idea of keeping oneself only in a ‘good light’ as being only a ‘good person’ that truly prevent us from actually developing self-honesty, to face the ‘not nice and not pretty’ side of ourselves. This benevolent idea of oneself is what has kept the same problems intact, because of fearing opening ourselves up, to access our truth, to dare and say for once and for all “ok what is existent within me, how did I get to create this?” And so realize that we actually got all we need to correct it, to align it, to change ourselves.

This is actually a phase in our lives that I am grateful to be living in, because now I understand what ‘real change’ implies.  I cannot fathom what my life would be without being aware of all the history of ourselves, the actual explanation of who we are, what we are we doing here, why this process exists, how our minds/bodies and beingness functions, all the life hacks and keys to walk this process that is shared/published on a biweekly basis on Eqafe.com, I seriously would not be here and writing all of this if I didn’t have access to all of that support and information that I essentially nurture myself with on a constant basis to continue learning every time how to live and be the best version of myself I can be.

This process is truly a gift to oneself, I know it may sound much of a prefabricated note but I can truly say it from having been ‘at it’ for some time and seeing the benefits of it every single day. Walking the Desteni I Process is a genuine life investment that won’t ‘go down’ with the dollar, or devaluate as your real state or your latest car – lol – but this is an investment for a lifetime and dare I say, even beyond that.

So! Buckle up your seat belt, gather some courage to discover one’s self-honesty and not be ashamed, fearful or judgmental about what one may find within oneself, it’s been said throughout time to ‘know thyself’ and that means ‘go deep, my friend’ because the benefit from doing so is actual self-empowerment

 

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Desteni and Equal Money–WTF?

This is a supportive read for anyone that may have second thoughts or still guessing what we’re all about.  It’s also meant to debunk some of the ubiquitous misinformation about us around the web. So here it is, coming from someone that has walked this process for almost 4 years and enjoying every single day that we walk together as this.

How can Desteni be linked to the Illuminati if we promote world Equality – which is the total opposite of what the so-called ‘elite’ stand for – how can a message of Self Honesty and Self Responsibility can be tweaked to then be something evil and detrimental to humanity? How is it that the current reality we live in which doesn’t make sense at all is still not even questioned by the majority?

What must exist in a human being to ignore common sense? To ignore the actual truth not as some fancy words but as the reality we live in which is able to be seen by everyone.

How could ‘shaving heads’ shock anyone more than having people using chemicals upon their heads to make their hair look in different colors? How can one or the other be any different as to any other style or modification – how come gathering around a table to eat and give each other products bought with overloaded credit cards isn’t viewed as cultish human behavior? How come praying to a god isn’t seen as potential delirium that may end up in absolute insanity? How is ‘believing in something greater’ that hasn’t ever shown up on Earth still held as something valuable in someone’s mind, while the world reveals that the current detrimental experience is the consequence of all human actions that haven’t been stopped, thus leading to an imminent destruction if not stopped and corrected right now.

How is talking to people from a dimensional existence talking through the portal, communicating absolute and irrefutable common sense seen as absolutely fantastic while we tend to hear and do what our own ‘voices in the head’ say which is often detrimental to ourselves and others and! No one else can see it/ them? How come that’s accepted and allowed as ‘who we are’ – how come we cannot expand our ability to conceive something beyond everything we’ve ever thought possible just because ‘it wasn’t taught in school’.

We’d like to have many people listening to the message of Equality as Life yes, loving thy neighbor as thyself not in the rosy type of way wherein you actually utter such words in some form of lightworking calamity, but actually work to create a world that’s best for all. Though it’s futile to have millions ‘following’ without grasping that such change won’t only come from voting for it, but it actually means vowing oneself to become a Self Responsible being, someone that cares for life, for each other, that cares to create a suitable environment for all involved in the same biosphere – that’s being one vote for world equality, less than that would only be following the herd of which the current political parties and churches are full of.

People seek to ‘believe in something’ or ‘someone’ to make a change for them = still delegating power. Some others do not want to ‘jump in the boat’ unless it’s got a well established foundation which in this current system translates to proper funds to ‘settle’ something, which proves that we are no illuminati or elite or any other super-power, otherwise we would already be making mind blowing movies and hiring artists to promote our solution.

We actually don’t have to convince anyone either. What we present is common sense and should be embraced as such, as part of Self-Realization and not just a nice-sounding proposal that may only bail us out of the current turmoil –No. Equal Money represents the way things should have always been but never was due to the inherent human nature that we’ve accepted as a ‘factor’ that determined the entire outcome and structure of the system we accepted and allowed and perceived as ‘unchangeable’, which is certainly Not in Equality and it’s NOT supporting any point of actual Self Realization.

We’re the average ‘Joes’ that have opened their eyes to common sense. We’ll require funds, a lot of funds to make this work and by publishing this as part of the realization of what it’ll take to change the world, we can see it is part of the points that have to be walked as a group. There is no hidden agenda as it’s simply realizing that everything moves in this world if there’s money in it and currently, we have to be in the system, work from within it to eventually create the solution so that all can step out of it equally.

We cannot use ‘world leaders’ for this as Equal Money may stand in their personal interests rooted in power and their pursue of greedy happiness.

The only point that we’re living right now as simile process to the one lived in the dimensions is linked to demons and how demons became the point of change in the dimensions. As above, so below and that’s how it should be done. We cannot magically make Equality be the living principle as it must be a self-realized ‘move’ so to speak, not only a program that is now implanted without any actual self realization of why we must walk through a process of self correction wherein we see and fully understand why Equality is the way to go in this world. Otherwise, we’d be prone to repeat this nonsense yet once again – we cannot afford doing this all over again.

The systems in this world run quite deep and are ingrained as the entirety of ourselves in all aspects, yet it is possible to stand as the point of change that we now see must be lived and conducted if we are up for creating a world that’s best for all. It would be deliberate spitefulness to not stand up for this solution once that we see the common sense in it, it would be like a double fuck up as it wouldn’t be coming from a point of being ignorant about the entire situation, but as something that is ‘already known’ yet not acted upon because of how ‘impossible’ it may seem like. In fact the way Equal Money is usually received is a cool indicator that we are on the right track as all revolutionary ideas are first ridiculed, then opposed only to be embraced at the end. So we’re in between the first two wherein more and more people are getting to expand the current narrow and limited ways of perceiving this reality wherein we can only create a change in the moment that we take on the challenge as ourselves. That way ‘change’ is who I am, self-correction, self responsibility, it is then not dependent on some pollutitian to expel an order to ‘change the world’, but I begin and walk it as myself.

What drove me to become part of Desteni and now the Equal Money System action team – lol – is because it makes complete sense. I didn’t have to think twice about it, it was immediate, it resonated with the entirety of what I had already seen and realized about this world. The money aspect was certainly something that I got to educate myself about as I was pretty much a money-detractor in terms of not wanting to do much with it, yet criticizing the system and everyone else within it. Ludicrous that I didn’t see myself as a part of it as well, but it doesn’t matter here, I’m already aware, directing and standing up for a solution so all past negligence has been self forgiven.

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This will take time, yes – as the saying goes ‘Rome wasn’t built in one day’ and not that we want to build any mighty ego-driven cities, but it’ll take time to educate people about the principle – from parents to children – and then create the external change as a structure that will enable people to have more time to spend on education. It is definitely true that not many have a lot of spare time in their hands to research this as everyone is living in a fast-food mode, trying to make the most money to live in a decent way. Though to understand the basic principle we don’t require much time – it’s very clear and simple how all the Desteni material can be considered as various specific and detailed ways of explaining how giving to each other what we want for ourselves as the recognition of everyone and everything being equal as Life is the solution for this world. So we take self responsibility and create ourselves and the system as something that works for all equally.

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o See, I don’t have a problem spending my lifetime dedicating myself to Desteni and the Equal Money System solution because it’s the only thing that makes sense in this world, it’s the only group of people that I’ve found on Earth that see things in a holistic and common sense way. We realize how fucked up this reality is and how it cannot possibly continue the same way. Any idea of us ‘doing something futile’ or running for an elusive ideal is simply part of the limitations and brainwashing we’ve accepted as humans to think ‘no change can be done, it’s impossible to do something about it’ which is reinforced by and within the current system to maintain people in the beloved submissive status quo. This is for the sake of keeping everyone fully subdued to a system that benefits from those that aspire to ‘someday’ obtain such powerful position that will lead them to the ever elusive ‘ultimate happiness and freedom’, while those in power have arranged the entire system so that there is never an actual possibility to get a hold of such pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Yes, it was never real.

Even if my mind goes haywire at times thinking about ‘changing the world’ I stop and realize that this is not about ‘changing the world’ as that would be a literal crazy idea, it’s about being the change I want to see in this world in common sense, becoming the living proof that it is possible to do so. For this I cannot say I’m ‘done’ at all, no way – we’re all walking this and day by day we realize and see for ourselves what is possible to do once we stand as a group that promotes what’s best for all through our own lives.

o Ultimately, this is not only for the sake of ‘Desteni’ or ‘Equal Money’ which are only but synonyms to living life in dignity for all, for actual freedom of expression and freedom to choose what we want to be and do once that we are part of a world where everyone will be having the same ability to choose. I have no problem if I spend my lifetime walking the implementation of it and only get to see one single stone placed as an ‘Equal World’ – there is nothing else I would rather be doing in my life, this process has become my life, it is my life, my everyday breathing as there is nothing that requires more attention than caring for the very world we live in, caring for the way other fellow living beings are going through their days in this same Earth. Stepping out of my bubble has been the healthiest thing I could’ve ever done and that’s how I am such a militant for life in Equality and this process of Self Honesty, because I’ve seen and realized how supportive life can be when you live, share, co-work and stand with beings that are in equal understanding of what’s best for all and join forces to make it a living reality.

o At last but not at least, I wouldn’t be able to be doing this alone, no way. I often speak as ‘we’ because I consider everyone standing as Desteni as part of myself that is opening eyes, as one voice that shares about what is required to do and conduct in this world, ‘what we do’ is who we are and I’m always grateful for having found Desteni, having found people that are daring to be real and it’s quite an honor to stand along with every one of them around the globe – even if it’s not in a ‘physical way’, we’re always here and working together.

o Being a Destonian, standing up for Life, supporting an Equal Money System – all are but tags and ways to proclaim: I am a human being that has opened eyes to the reality we’ve created in absolute negligence of life, now we see and take self responsibility doing what is required to be done to create a world that’s best for all.

o We have a single goal and we’re already walking the way to get there – protesting and rioting the streets creating more violence won’t do a thing. Therefore we simply continue focusing on a single life principle which is and will be the only outcome that can prevail in this world.


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