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267. The Greatest Addiction Ever: The Mind

 

“Energy is a by-product of life, it is not alive – we became addicted to our creation as energy and in this way we abdicated life ending up as just the light produced by energy – like a shadow of what we really are. At Desteni I Process this self deception is corrected through a self help process. Do it – before the lights go out for the final time.” – Bernard Poolman

 

Here I share some feedback in relation to my own process and how I have walked this point so far. Since I began my process of Self-Forgiveness, Self Honesty through writing, developing Common Sense and essentially taking the decision to support myself to actually Live for the very first time, I have dedicated myself to work with every single point that has occupied my mind in quite an astounding manner. I mean, this goes from memories, pictures, sounds, wants, needs, desires.. the way I can describe it is like when you are constantly hungry and no matter how much you eat, you are always wanting ‘something more,’ that’s how I have seen the parasitical nature that the mind exists as.  As Humans we have never learned ‘what to do’ with these experiences, we only learn/ are told to ‘cope with them’ or seek the opposite experience in order to be ‘happy/ well/ good’ again – this is quite a problem and a general result of the ignorance we had toward the actual functioning of the mind and its grip on the physical body, wherein no matter How  you define experiences to be as either ‘positive or negative,’ energy is energy and the effects on the physical body that is consumed in order to power up this mind-system does not care how you define such experiences as long as one Remains in such constant self-experiences.

Continuing from:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

Throughout these blogs we have also realized that there is more to addictions than just getting a positive experience due to the inherent instability that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as from the moment that we allow the integration of the mind as ‘who we are’ and start defining our beingness according to mood, ‘states of being,’ emotions, feelings and allow the thoughts to direct who we are.

 

I was talking to my mother this morning and explained how this process has been for me like placing myself into rehab and going through actual withdrawal symptoms that are in fact experienced at a physical level the moment that we no longer feed our usual ‘inner turmoil’ that would ensure we remain locked within predefined patterns of existence that we had believed were ‘unchangeable,’ unable to let go of, unable to correct, unable to stop. This Process in essence means the most intensive mind-rehab program you’ll ever walk, because it is not only about stopping participation in your regular drug-addictions or self destructive behaviors, but it is in fact placing ourselves in a total rehabilitation program to finally align the absolute nature of who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind.

 

Okay, but What or who am I as the mind? – you might wonder  – well, it is in essence every single self-definition that we have participated in that gives us either a negative experience or a positive experience as emotions and feelings respectively – every single memory, thought, physical movement, experiences as feelings, emotions, sounds, words that defines ‘who we are,’ what we like, what is ‘in character’ and what is ‘out of character,’ it is everything that we have accepted as our ‘true nature’ that is constantly wanting, needing, desiring, hoping, yearning, dreaming, seeking to escape from itself, seeking to get more, be greater, faster, be ‘whole and complete’ and all of this obtained through doing/ consuming anything or anyone that we can get an experience from.

 

“I commit myself to show that the MIND has NO Power and that MIND Power only developed as another CONSUMER PRODUCT where the Human feeds off the Program of Self-Interest without ANY AWARENESS that Life as the LIVING FLESH is being Abused just for Producing Feelings that act like a DRUG to which the Personality and the Flesh is ADDICTED.”  – Bernard Poolman

 

When one deliberately stops this point of ‘getting an experience in life,’ one becomes essentially more stable, there is no longer this constant ‘hunger’ for more, there is no constant inadequacy experienced, there is no longer this constant self-loathing/ hatred toward oneself and the world which leads to a constant desire to just ‘make it all stop,’ there is no longer the being uncomfortable in one’s own skin, there is no longer the constant judgmental thinking toward everything and everyone outside of ourselves – which by the way, it’s never about ‘them’ but always about ourselves –  there is no feeling of being ‘less’ become you expect to become more and more each day – but at the same time it is not a blissful experience either, as that would be self deception again: using our physical body to get a Mind-experience of apparent ‘well-being’ which cannot be defined as an energetic high, but must be rather considered as a constant stability that must be granted from one to another as an equality system wherein we can all get the necessary support to Live and genuinely enjoy life.

 

As one goes stopping the constant gnawing regular thoughts, what comes up is the ingrained physical patterns that represent the actual nature of ourselves – meaning, once we stop victimizing ourselves in our constant complains, judgments, self pity, self loathing thinking, what emerges is becoming more aware of the actual factors that make us decide ‘who we are’ and why we do what we do and what governs our every single move – this is where I see that Self Will is of utmost importance, to actually let go of wanting to ‘dive into’ the mind and any form of energetic experience and instead, will oneself to act/do/be and become a stable breathing living being that does not require to think, get emotional or experience feelings to live, but simply Is and exists here as the physical body.

 

Being in the physical: this is an important consideration for anyone that is willing to work and walk through any form of addiction, doesn’t necessarily have to be giving up drugs or alcohol or any other chemical stimulant, but also the addiction to our personality, our habits, our manias that We Already Know are Not Self Supportive, but keep on doing it just because ‘that’s all we know ourselves to be capable and able of being/ doing’/ ‘we don’t know anything better,’ which is the most common form of self mind-control that we have realized exists within each one of us: we fear giving up our self religion/ personality/ ego/ mind even if we are aware that it has never supported ourselves to actually Live.

 

I could write about how there is a definitive grounding experience that one is able to become and integrate as oneself when an actual dedication to this process, to get to know ourselves as our minds and living/applying the corrective process is self-directed in every moment – however I would mostly suggest you take this opportunity and suggestion to do this for yourself. The addictions/ cravings have mostly been reduced to physical movements that indicate a form of suppression that I am trying to ‘cope with’ and it becomes so in my face that pushing it aside only compounds it until I have to sit down and write the hell out of it.  So what I have also realized is how I obviously have used anything, any activity to not face the actual ‘problem’ which is mostly having to do with something wherein I am not directing myself effectively. One can only continue fooling oneself for so long, and once self honesty is being integrated as the main platform in which we decide to run ourselves on, it becomes quite unbearable to keep up with lies/ self deception, the shit eventually catches up on you – so to speak.

 

What is an addiction but a desire to live a lie, a temporary fix to escape the made-up self-belief of who we are as the mind, because I am here to say that the physical body is Not the one seeking to ‘get a high,’ it is only the mind that does and who we have become as an integral compound of the body and mind, the mind has run its course on the physical and this is why we are on so many drugs and self-destructive behaviors, because we are Not considering the physical body at all.

 

It is much easier to breathe and be here, stable and constant instead of continuing endless battles within ourselves toward the invisible forces that we have accepted as ‘who we are.’ I mean, we are talking about the addiction toward the mind, and how that is and will be the most ingrained addiction Every single human being has participated in, we cannot judge or claim that drug-addicts only exist in shooting up crack and heroin or smoking weed and taking prescription pills – the moment we accepted and allowed our well-being and stability to be defined through a positive experience, such as love, vitality, a sense of bliss, belonging and any other self-experience that we believe is ‘who we are,’ we agreed to separate ourselves from the constancy and consistency of who we are as the physical, breath, here, stable and give the wheel of our lives to the mind that runs on preprogrammed patterns of energy that will generate any form of mind-activity as a way to engage ourselves into thinking, feeling, becoming emotional and give our focus, attention to such mind-activity without realizing we are in such moments already feeding the addiction to the mind.

 

There is no need for the mind to do what should be actual vital functions as they currently exist in this world: breathing, eating, directing yourself in your regular responsibilities to make money to live in this world, relating yourself to all other living beings and dedicating oneself to become part of the examples that demonstrate that it IS possible to stop being directed by a mind that constantly seeks experiences and it IS possible to become a more stable, self directive, grounded, common sensical and in the process of becoming self honest human being. This is the most difficult task ever, I agree, because we have become so addicted to thinking, feeling, seeking for emotions, conflict, turmoil, defining everything we do and have become according to emotions and feelings to such an extent that we believe that: not participating in our mind is equal to being Dead/ Inert, lifeless – that’s a BIG misconception that must be debunked here if one is willing to walk this process wherein you will certainly not get any energetic churnings, on the contrary, I can say that such stability is we all have been seeking/ looking for and it only takes a sound and constant every moment decision to Not Give Into the constant ‘high’ that disables us from seeing who we have become in this constant seeking/ wanting/ needing/ desiring of who we have become as the mind.

 

I can remember when I was a child and I would get too much sugar with chocolates at times, and I would be like a rat in an enclosed space, literally walking around the kitchen table endless times and driving myself to believing that I was ‘going crazy’ when in fact it was me beginning to define such experiences as ‘who I am’ as this ‘uncontrollable rush’ induced through sugar in this case, and accept it as ‘normal’ because that’s what everybody else does, apparently.

Later on, I began participating in a constant self experience of anxiety, worry, concern, nervousness, inadequacy, feeling like I just want to ‘shut myself up’ due to the anxiety and exaltation that I copied/integrated from my environment – what did I seek for later on in life? Yes, getting out of myself and my mind, smoking weed is one single example as the outcome of that, without understanding that my ‘seeking’ for a way to relax has always been here as myself, breathing – no need for any drug to do that, and this is one key aspect in our society that runs on stress and self abuse.  According to what I wrote yesterday, we can see how stressful parents would imprint this same stress on their children, which is why later on children would seek drugs to generate the sense of ‘stress control’ and ‘impulse control’ which is what I can spot was my case, since I accepted and allowed myself to adopt a nervous/ anxious/ stressful manner of being, linked to patterns of desiring to be in absolute control and perfectionism adopted from parental patterns, which is also what we are understanding in relation to the influence of parents on children on the first seven years of age – I specifically recommend listening to Reptilians – The Reptilian’s Master Mind behind Memory Control (Part 1) – Part 117 to get a clear perspective on this.

 

Now there are multiple factors that lead to addictions and I’ll continue to walk them in order for us to be able to see and spot where and how we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be influenced/ directed by such factors without giving it a proper self-aware direction to ensure we are not continuing a point of abuse. Again, this is not only in relation to drugs, drugs are only the externalization and most common way to live out this constant desire to get a ‘fix’ – but we can become addicted to anything or anyone and that includes our own thoughts, without having ever been aware of WHAT is it that Powers such thoughts, which is what must be broadly understood and known: it is the physical substance, the tissue/ the fabric of the physical body that which powers up the mind, and that is the basic form of self-abuse that all of us human beings are subject to, and this is why it is so important to become aware of these ‘forces’ in order to become self directive as them, because they are who we have become, we gave them lodging and constant nurturing, the mind is our creation and who we have become as such creation can also be remodeled/ re-sculpted by ourselves and the extent of such remodeling depends on our dedication to actually will ourselves to live without the mind as our boss and decision-maker and instead install ourselves as the directive principle that considers what’s best for ourselves as all and live the principle of life in Equality.

 

The tools that I am assisting and supporting myself with are walked within the Desteni I Process , the Desteni Material, all the blogs and vlogs that all of us walking this process share at our current Journey to Life self-writing process, the Desteni Forum where interaction takes place with regards to How to walk this process or particular points one is working with in our writings, there’s also all the various groups at Facebook such as Capitalism vs. Equal Money wherein we get to know how it is that his humind-nature is affecting our reality at a world-system level and as such, become aware of our responsibility we hold individually to ensure that we all become aware of what we are collectively generating due to deciding to only ‘live’ through the mind, instead of practically considering the actual corrective processes and solutions that must be implemented and walked within the consideration of ourselves being the creators of the mess we try and ‘escape from’ through drugs/ habits/ and any other mind-experience – see the conundrum?

This is the actual mind control that we all exist as and we are here to ensure that humanity is aware of the practical self-applicable solutions that we are being the proof of, Do work when one commits oneself to no longer feed the mind but begin learning how to honor ourselves as physical living beings.  It is the most important process you’ll ever commit yourself to, it is the self-relationship that we have never established and it is here, the moment where we have all the support necessary to do so, to walk this process and ensure that no form of self abuse remains standing in this world.

Study the principles of Self-Creation and Self-Equality and Oneness within every single investigation published at Eqafe, as well as the blogs that are daily published here such as Creation’s Journey to Life, Heaven’s Journey to Life and an Economist’s Journey to Life.

 

“Actual Prosperity is where Every Living Being in this World Prosper and Live to their Full Potential. Full Potential Being: Living in an Environment that Support All Life Equally, that Ensures Happiness, that Prevents Fear and Addiction to the Mind, that Ensures that Each Child Born Understand EXACTLY where every Thought come from so that they can Prevent Mind Control and Abuse from all kinds of Faith-based Ideologies – whether it be Religious, Political, Educational, Psychological, Economical. Whenever Faith Exist: the Ideology will Promote Ideals of Inequality, because – What’s Best for All do Not Exist in Faith, it Exist as the Action each one Must Take to Ensure that there is Never Anything Unknown that could Cause harm to Another and All basic Essentials must be Available as a basic Human Right.
The Very Moment you have Basic Essentials and Claim that Others can’t have it, because it is the Will of some ‘Greater Power’ – you are
Abusing your Greater Power which is based in Money, Wealth and Greed.” – Bernard Poolman*

 

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226. Seeking for a Posi+ive Fix All the Time?

Why are we always wanting to ‘feel good’ without seeing how we are pinning ourselves up in the cross we all bear as the desire for posi+ivi+y?

 

Elitist Character: Drug Culture – Energy Addiction as our Self-Consuming Demise

 

 

Ok, here’s the deal. I realized that in order to walk this process to the fullest it is to take a similar decision to when you decide to quit taking drugs or stop any other habit that has been life/time/money and self-integrity consuming. The decision is made in one moment – Living it, becomes our entire lifetime.

Fear of commitment? Well, let’s see it as easy as: the moment I fear committing myself to something is because I am already wanting/ needing/ desiring to leave an open back door to be able to ‘escape for more,’ which then not a decision made by Self Here in stability as the physical, but still wanting to remain satisfying ourselves as the mind.

Then I ask myself: am I willing to continue deceiving myself for a longer time here? The answer is No, I can’t. And even if I am aware that there will be ‘withdrawal symptoms’ of whatever I am willing to stop, it is a certainty of what must be done in order to walk this Process to the T and focus on breathing, living and not continuing supporting the who I am as the mind of energy that comes through all these wants/ needs/ desires like:

  • I want to
  • I need to
  • I desire to
  • I look forward to
  • I am living up for
  • I crave for
  • I could die for
  • I would kill for – see how these idioms are part of our lexicon lol
  • I hope for
  • I pray for – yes the religious infection here
  • I dream of
  • I fight for
  • I wait for
  • I wish
  • I live up to

 

Have a look for yourself, how many times a day you think or speak these words and anything that comes afterward is a point that will most certainly cause you a certain good experience, something you want/ need/ desire to fulfill as an experience that you’ve defined as ‘more’ than what you already are here.

 

 

Yes, that constant inner-experience of: wanting, needing, desiring, hoping, yearning, wishing, craving, looking forward to, being dreaming of, living up for and essentially, everything that I used as a point to eventually ‘get’ in separation of myself, that something that became a single abstraction that I would be bound to in a masochistic manner. I say masochistic because it is so, every time we bind ourselves to the idea of wanting, needing and desiring something or someone = red flag, the mind’s got us by the balls. And that is a certainty  really, to be unaware of what the hell goes IN FACT inside our bodies when we access the single slightest level of excitement which can only stem from fear, the single slightest level of love that can only stem from fear, the single slightest experience of happiness that can only stem from fear – how? why? simple mathematics that we’ve learned, isn’t it?  (-) (-) = +

Interesting that even the ‘Positive Sign’ is a Cross, did Jesus get crucified on a cross to point out the suffering of what seeking the Positive does?

 

Did Jesus die to get us all unhooked on drugs? That would be a contemporary explanation of the crucifixion = +fixion, the fixation on the positive, the happiness, the bliss, the drugs, the high of the mind as emotions and feelings. Isn’t that our demise currently? It is, all this world is being consumed by us, human beings, due to having followed our ‘dreams’ as desires in our minds while disregarding basic physical considerations within reality that must be extracted, abused and consumed to create a certain experience within us. Whenever I write about ‘consideration of the physical’ the reproductive cycle of fish comes to mind. That’s where I learned that people should not fish every single day during the whole damn year, because the species had to reproduce and then grow to eventually be fished. Did we respect such reproductive cycles? No we didn’t, because we had to satisfy our mind urges to have quantum fish here, in the ‘Now’ of our fantabulous consciousness. You see the CON now?

 

Got your Fix?

This is about the reduction of reality, of life, of who we are to mere stimulation things. Everything became a point separated from ourselves due to the relationship formation processes we created toward everything and everyone in existence. The nature of such separation is inevitable suffering, separation, abuse of any form – all because of missing out one primary aspects as existence: we are all one and equal.

Now, this context is necessary to understand then why being addicted to Energy is the same as being willing to lick Satan’s boots if you are a Christian for example. Meaning, how could we in any way pretend to be ‘good doers’ if our very mechanism in which our mind operates at all times is based on the consumption of our very physicality to transform it into Energy, Energy that we have glorified, deified and crucified ourselves to be able to constantly get our energy fix through which ever mean one would program oneself to: money, sex/ love, sports, drugs, food, buying, jumping off cliffs, food, TV, books, magazines, gardening, cleaning, exercising, traveling, learning, working… yes, the point here to realize is how we have essentially equated everything into a drug, Anything can be a point of stimulation in our minds and that means that we have been preponderant to be able to abuse and turn into an energetic satisfaction of sorts.

Is there any form of integrity within these relationship formation processes? No, the word says it itself: integral = whole/ complete – whereas a self-corruption within conformity – as our entire system is currently functioning – leads to a massive acceptance of self destruction upon warning or missing out all the warnings along the way. It is done, we can’t create more specialness to everything and everyone to what is already here, fake characters interacting with each other consuming self-defined relationships of abuse as an energetic fix that would

And so, I will walk the self forgiveness for having reduced life as this physical reality and people to equivalents of drugs, because: to understand drugs, one must understand the mind and the energetic requirements that are the actual driving forces in our reality – are we in control? Have we been the directive principle of ourselves? Never, we’ve always succumbed to the nice fluffy experiences even if it is obvious that such experience is based and founded upon abuse.

To me being able to understand this was also a like solving a mystery I could not fathom within myself: why do we always FALL for the same thing over and over again? Why do we Like self abuse? Why do we enroll ourselves in abusive situations and relationships even if there are options to not do so? The reality is that the physical as Life as who we really are would not make such decisions, it is the mind that is assessing how to maintain its constant energy fix through us participating in fixations in the mind. That’s it. Now, there is an entire mind-technology behind this all and you can for sure Educate yourself on how this all works within the Quantum Mind Self Awareness interviews, as well as understanding the real forces that we’ve been living as till today, which are the actual evil in this world due to all energetic relationships are the result of separation, friction and conflict. This is how there can be no love as a bunch of butterflies in your stomach, there can be no happiness when it is stemming from the actual fear that one exists in the first place to seek the Posi+tive .

 

What does Jesus have to do within all of this – all the story is told here: The Crucifixion of Jesus to understand the relationship between the physical body and the mind and what the pinning of Jesus to the cross actually meant, which is at simple view the sacrifice of the physical body for the mind/god which is nothing else but the energy requiring machine. That’s what we’ve satisfied only: the Body, the physical flesh does Not require to ‘feel good’ to exist, in fact, Living is not about Feeling but about remaining Here as Breath – breath provides the necessary oxygen for all the nutrients to be absorbed by the physical body. I remember reading in the back of a Radiohead cd: Oxygen should be regarded as a drug and realized we had gone too far already with the entire drug culture point to the extent of making the air we breath another high – well, it keeps us alive and that’s what matters. Do we require more than that? We don’t, but who we are as the mind does.

 

This is how the cross + our seeking of the positive is the sacrifice we’re always inflicting upon ourselves as the physical, it’s like a battle between the light and the dark but everything’s been in reverse and the darkness represents the physical body, the substance, the life from which we all come from – the light is the mind, the system, the energy that dazzles our sight and is presented in all these beautiful /positive forms while ignoring the actual processes that are existent behind any form of energetic experience – whether positive or negative – same point – because both positive and negative signify poles of the same thing which is Energy. Therefore, we can see that the real problem here is all that we’ve done to ourselves in the name of Energy, The Mind, Consciousness acting as a parasite on the physical. 

 

To learn more about this existential explanation of who we are as the mind as consciousness, read Heaven’s Journey To Life where the road to the physical is essentially stopping feeding our obsessions and abuse toward the physical and BE in and as the physical body, participating in our physical reality supporting each other to step out of the same fascinations and turn this world into a rehab center, if you will, an educational one where we are not seeing each other as sinners any longer seeking for bits of heaven, but as individuals that understand how this is a decision that must be made in absolute self awareness of what we are doing to ourselves and the actions that we have to correct within us at an individual level to stop existing as/ supporting only the energy consuming machine that we’ve become as our mind only.

 

 

This is a general background to understand why and how we have turned our reality into an energy source for ourselves as mind-machines being willing to do anything to get our fix: this entire reality as the world system is working the exact same way and based upon the exact same principles I’ve described above, and who’s benefitting from it? Only the system in itself, not even human beings in positions of power are being benefitted from this process wherein we have all ‘played our part’ and unless we stop role-playing, we’ll probably continue this game until there are no more roles to play, as there will be nothing else to buy/consume for our satisfaction.

.Now you understand a bit more of what the cruci-fix-ion is about within this context, fixating on energy in which ever form you wish, we are all addicts and certainly not proud of it as this world is the result of every single bit of want, need and desire that stemmed from our mind that only seeks to benefit itself, never life, never the physical: we are the ones that must change the way reality, our physical body and this entire world system functions. There is no Jesus coming to save us, that’s for sure.

I extended the ‘introduction’ but, it’s necessary to have context to understand addictions and all types of fixations before we commit ourselves to stop – Why would I want to stop that which makes me ‘feel great’? Because that which apparently makes me ‘feel great’ for a few hours, minutes becomes the most enslaving experience that one can be constantly existing as, which is only existing as a mind in tunnel vision fixating on wanting, needing and desiring to get this/that in order to apparently feel fine – but, as Marduk explained: once we get it, we realize something: we really didn’t want it anyways, it was just the experience of Wanting it that which kept us always hooked on the same thoughts, feelings in our mind.

That’s not living.

Next post: Self Forgiveness, Self Corrective Application on the basics to walk this self-commitment to stop participating in energy of the mind and what that entails.

 

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