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306. Price Tagging Life– Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value things more or less according to the amount of money they cost/ the number in a price tag, which already implies that we have become so used to valuing things/ people according to the amount of money they ‘are’ or ‘cost’ that we’ve forgotten that we all come from the same Earth and place and there is no Mother Earth charging us for the stuff that we use on a daily basis, that we pollute on a daily basis and absolutely scavenge with no consideration of it all being ourselves as well.

 

Continuing from :

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce life to someone’s property in the name of control over the resources, the people, the environment so that a few could give it back to the people with a price tag on, this means that our life became a product and asset within the context of how selling goods and services to live became a relentless business wherein only a minority that got to adjudicate to themselves this ‘right of property,’ became the wealthy ones that decide the amount of money a piece of land, a piece of nature is worth, including animals, plants, soil, even air nowadays that’s being canned and sold.

I realize that I have complied to this system of ‘how things are bought and sold’ without a question, without asking how it is that some people are able to freely use the resources and turn them into products and sell them a an arbitrary price and consider that a fair trade?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within placing a price tag upon life, I created the greatest barrier that exists between the human and the environment, wherein such numbers mean money that is created by a minority in this world, extended as a form of debt and interest in itself, a form of control as money that we then use to pay our ‘goods and services’ with, which implies that our life is not our own since we don’t have any assured living condition if we have no money to pay for it.

 

I realize that this discrimination has become the best human-mining process wherein we have 25 000 children die each day of starvation and billions live in negligible conditions as an outflow of ‘them’ being out of the game wherein life can only be obtained if you have enough money that covers the price to pay for your life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how biased it is to become enraged when people sell themselves because of not having money and not realizing that what we require to live is also bought and sold  and that the prices will determine whether I can afford it or not and that I have directly and indirectly contributed to maintain the system ‘as is,’  this becoming the ‘great divide’ between life and death, between being able to live, have a house/shelter, clothing, education, sanitation, food, water which has been virtually a lack for a great amount of people in this world, just because we haven’t agreed to support all beings equally.

 

I realize that the consequences of our ignorance and denial of the controls we have accepted and allowed in our reality are here to be faced by all, and that the solution won’t come from overnight to cover everyone’s expenses, this is a process that will take as long as required to understand to what extent we bought a lie and have become the lie to such an extent, that we cannot see a distinction between reality or imagination, since money currently works at an imagination level, hence so do prices.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to collectively agree to keep quiet and not talk about these ‘economic laws’ and the obvious disparity in our wage income wherein there are people having No money to cover their most basic expenses and instead, each one focuses on a pursuit of happiness and earning More money/ increasing one’s wealth just because we can and the entire system promotes it and supports it, leaving the ‘unfortunate ones’ at the mercy of an equally egotistical and unacceptable charity system that does not resolve the problem from its root.

I realize that in order to redeem ourselves and to correct our lifetime negligence toward those that cannot afford to have a dignified living condition will have to imply everyone’s participation to create a sustainable system wherein a price tag does not define whether one being lives or dies, but instead, we focus on enabling people to have self-supportive means of income so that prices only become a number that will be existent as the equal remuneration to people that also belong to the same self-supportive system, wherein money will exist by virtue of mutual interdependence and collective agreements to administrate what we have as part of the Earth and grant equal access to it by working to contribute to a self sustainable system.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not the price tag that is the problem, but How we have ensured that not many people can afford the money as the number in such price tags.

I realize that the damage done, the lives lost, the lives maimed and the extinction of species and depletion of our resources has got to do with our constant thirst for money and power and having a ‘great lifestyle’ without looking at what it is that we have been ‘trading’ with, which is life in itself and as such, we’ll have to walk the process of understanding to what extent we have been absolutely deluded to not see and realize the extent of the damage done and the irreversible consequences that we’ve created wherein it is not only placing a price tag on life, but ensuring that such number is not affordable by the majority, which is in itself an elitist measure to discriminate fellow living beings from having access to it.

 

I commit myself to stop valuing life according to numbers as either more or less. I realize that the brainwashing begins and ends at a mind level, and that it is our responsibility to ensure that we educate people, that we share this basic common sense in order to realize to what extent we have imposed our imagination upon other human beings. This is unacceptable.

 

I commit myself to support the creation and implement a New Economic System based on Life in Equality which is the Equal Money Capitalism System  wherein Life is no longer sold at a number that implies that only some can afford it and some others not- instead, we ensure that everyone has a dignified living condition, proper jobs and professional activities that can ensure that we support every person that requires to be supported in order to live.

 

This is what Equality implies and the only way to implement a just and self-honest system wherein prices become a number that signifies the support we give back to those that supported in working/ creating a product we benefit from.

 

This is the culmination of the basics on  a ‘Capitalism’ definition. This is certainly only the beginning of everything that we’ll go exploring as the building blocks of this great jail that we have all helped to build and maintain without further questions.

 

From here on, it is clear that being aware of what each word implies as a collective agreement is a must do in our day to day living since we can see how much we take for granted when we define our economic system and assume that each concept is standing as ‘what’s best for all,’ which we all know it is not, but we also know that the supposed benefits from it have not been ‘tasted’ by everyone equally – this is is how we are walking capitalism through rehab, it is a full change of DNA at a money-system level, and to understand the extent of the hardwiring we have to understand our mind, the relationship between the mind and the physical reality. This you can hear in the Great interview series: The Soul of Money 

 

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305. Price System in Equal Money Capitalism

Prices will be a numeric value of the perfect equation that embodies the  equal-remuneration  to all involved in the creation of a means to make life possible in our social organism.

 

Continuing from :

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

 

 

Redefining CAPITALISM

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

 

 

Pricing System

  You can buy anything with a price, the big mistake was putting a price upon life – now we’re all paying the consequences. (pain-in we all are.)

 

 

Problems                                                            

  • Pricing is the mechanism that sustains the fallacy of a system that revolves around makeshift values that generate and equally speculative concept such as ‘debt’ that everyone uses in order to buy or sell means and products, which is our living resources and work force turned into merchandise. This implies that the price we pay for things doesn’t go in an integral way toward the suppliers, but they pay their own debts as well, this means that the money always goes back to the place where it came from: the banking system/ owners of money, it is thus a usurious system and price the quantity representing a relationship of separation in itself.

 

  •  Elitist Tool: Not every single person has access to buy that which they require to live. By fixing prices an entire being’s life is defined according to what he/she can afford, and by setting a price system, the distribution of goods and services are settled, aiming at certain markets that also determine everyone’s lifestyle: you buy cheap products because your income is low, and you buy luxury items/expensive products because you’ve got more than enough money. We have accepted this as ‘how things are,’ accepting such limitation in a normal manner equal to realizing ‘the sky is blue’ and never questioning about it.

 

  • Prices determine the quality of products: if you buy cheap products, the chances are that you will be using/consuming a product that is the spawn of planned obsolescence and built/ elaborated/manufactured using slave labor, which means that t might seem like you got a ‘great deal,’ but never really trace back the process to realize how such product came to be so cheap when compared to others, and bargains always contain a higher level of exploitation, not that t is not existent in ‘expensive items,’ but mass production means mass-workers to be able to handle the demand.
    • On the other hand, people believe that paying more for something means paying for quality, while this has been mostly also abused in order to generate the most profit, since there is no real consideration left when it comes to making the most money.

 

  • Scarcity: this is a great tool used to elevate prices and justify it with the belief that there is not enough to cover the demand. However there have been many examples of how this so-called scarcity is deliberately created to earn the most profit. Sometimes people buy an entire production of let’s say cacao to produce chocolate, they stack it/ hold t/keep it out of the market and create the belief that there is not enough, and as such, the chocolate industry suddenly has no more cacao for its production. Cacao becomes a scarce resource, this then forces the production costs to be elevated and then reflect such speculation on the pricing of chocolate. Now, chocolate is a fancy example, however when this happens with prime-products of first necessity, such as wheat or corn, you get hunger, and that is really a big problem since such scarcity is another ‘rule of the game,’ to speculate even further.  There are various other ways or environmental conditions that may cause this problem, however this is just an example.

 

  • Abundance is for those that can afford it, obviously. Prices don’t matter if you’ve got a lot of money, prices become a bitter number to look at when one can barely make it through the day and each cent counts. This disparity implies that our minimum wages are not in correspondence to cover the basic needs on a daily basis everywhere in the world, on the contrary, we all know that it is impossible to live with 2 dollars a day, yet we’ve kept billions of human beings living with that amount of money, not being able to afford anything to live properly, many opting  to then do slave labor, sex services, selling organs, buying drugs to mitigate hunger and the list goes on, Poverty is thus a direct result of this Pricing system that decides who can Afford life and who Can’t 
  • Price convenience comes at the expense of diminishing fair pay for others, this is as the name says convenient for the buyer but a crime against fair pay for the laborer that sees no diminishment in their working hours.

 

  • Price is set up by ‘market forces’ in global financial systems that fluctuate and vary according to an unsettled behavior that maintains everyone within a constant level of uncertainty about the cost of things based on these speculative forces that obviously, only benefit a few that make the rules in the first place.

 

Inflation is the general increase in prices on a nationwide scale — and can only be caused by an agency that has the power to act on a national scale.

That agency is the government. Inflation is the increase in prices caused by the government ‘inflating’ the money supply with fiat dollars.

 

Doesn’t capitalism cause the inflation of prices?

No. Under Capitalism, the prices of particular goods can “fluctuate” over time, but the general price level of most goods decrease over time due to capitalism’s limitless progress.

source: capitalism.or/inflation

 

  • Price inflation without Wage inflation as the source of polarization. Prices then become the most basic way to restrict/ limit the ability to buy what is required by the majority to live.

 

 

  Solutions                                                                   

  • The prices we will pay will actually embody a sound distribution of money  for people’s work and taxes in order to maintain the system with political intervention as the necessary regulation to monitor proper functionality and stop any form of speculation or fluctuation without cause. This means that the final price will be the amount that will be equally remunerated to people as their wage, which is what Equal Profit Share implies.

 

  • Since there is no actual ownership of the resources, the pricing system will not imply ‘paying for the resources,’ but simply for the work that will imply paying for the people that will take care of maintaining or restoring the balance and sustainability necessary within a certain environmental location from where the raw materials are taken. This implies that the price will not reflect paying for any point of assumed ownership upon the Earth’s resources, but instead t will go directly to support people doing the actual work.

 

  • Pricing system will hold the mathematical equations of equal support to all bodies participating in a certain organism.  This means that a number won’t subsume the Value of Life, but instead it means the Value of the work that enables a fair use, transformation and consumption of the necessary resources to live. Markets will reflect then the stability of such equal distribution of profit/support/gain to all bodies equally.

 

  • Prices entail Equal-Share which means that we can all have the certainty that the amount that we are paying for our goods and services is the necessary to equally support everyone involved in the extraction/ production/ manufacturing/ engineering/ distribution processes, along with any other administrative and corporate activity that will be implied as part of the social responsibility endowed to everyone involved in production and industry sectors.
Supply and Demand

Pricing will not resemble a free market paradigm, so the interaction between supply and demand as it exists now will not determine anything.

Supply will be according to your demand, that means your demand will not be based on price, your demand will be based on supplying yourself with a lifestyle that is worth living – so the demand will change.
Because the demand will no longer be controlled by price, it will now more be controlled by the fact that you want to live an excellent lifestyle, that you want to change products – it is going to change what goods and services will be available.
You’re not going to buy ‘inferior products’ that you buy because it’s cheap and made in China – but it’s not what you would have bought if you had more money.

Day 173: Supply, Demand, Business and Scarcity in Equal Money Capitalism
http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/01/day-173-supply-demand-business-and.html

 

 

Scarcity and Pricing
There’s not going to be pricing control in terms of scarce resources, things are going to be available or they are not. It is controlled by its availability. If certain resources become unavailable, which is going to affect the products that are going to be available – then we will just have to take that into consideration. So for instance, if there is not enough fish in the sea, we will simply have to withhold from catching fish — the supply / option of fish disappears off the menu until the fish supply is re-established.

 

  • A Price will no longer be a number to be feared,  but a compensation number that will signify the value in return for one’s work or contribution/ creation. Price will contain enough to pay everyone an equal fair share which will create a sustainable satisfied and prosperous living condition, since people will be doing what they want to contribute with, while being equally supported as an equal participant.

 

 

Rewards                                                                    

  • Equal support leads to understanding how we can only thrive as a team and in consideration of mutual support, which strengthens our relationships at a community level.

 

  • No more will a price feel like we’re ‘Selling out’ but will instead be an expression of the work invested upon such goods/ services and its integral reimbursement to everyone that helped within the production/ distribution/engineering process.

 

  • Giving and receiving will be regulated by the price in itself, this will ensure that compensation, gratitude and remuneration is recognized and acknowledged by everyone as a collective agreement upon which our system will be based on: Constitutional Equality.

 

  • A guaranteed ability to buy means no more fearing scarcity, uncertainty, loss, poverty and misery – the power of acquisition will be giving and received as an organic mechanism based on giving and receiving in Equality.

 

  • No more stuff that breaks, all products made with the best quality

 

  • No more competition to ‘make the most money’ since all corporations will stop competing against each other – equal profit equals equal life support.

 

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301. The Rules to Play the Game

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Redefining CAPITALISM

An economic system characterized by private or corporate ownership of capital goods, by investments that are determined by private decision, and by prices, production, and the distribution of goods that are determined mainly by competition in a free market

 

free market

noun. an economic system in which prices are determined by unrestricted competition between privately owned businesses.

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    For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

     

     

    Words Set the Tone

    Our current version of capitalism holds the intrinsic belief that individuals must determine themselves under the banner of laissez-faire, wherein any form of political economy that could in fact instigate a revision of our current disparity and financial polarization is relegated to an oppression to the self-imposed laws and policies that back up an ‘open rink’ such as what self determinism ‘should be,’ which is then externalized as a Free Market basis and call this political freedom, when it is in fact only a legal means to keep inequality in place and justify it with the belief of economic growth and progress.

     

    What is the key to the success of Capitalist competition?

    The key to the success of capitalist competition is that it limits competition to the economic sphere of production, and removes it completely from the political arena of compulsion. Where capitalist competition leads to a free market; political competition leads to a mixed economy of warring pressure groups and if continued for long — a dictatorship.

    source: capitalism.org on ‘Competition’

     

    Who benefits? If everyone was equally supported and the system was showing real results of people being considered to live in dignity and be in absolute well being, I would not be here writing these words. The problem is far more simple than any belief we’ve collectively accepted and allowed in relation to economics, which is simply a rigged worded system – as our own self-creation –  that supports rules that are determined to support those that are willing to play according to the rules of the game  that benefits them– anyone that dares to consider another as an equal participant and requiring equal opportunity is seen as a threat and real evil to this personal drive and self interest that, apparently,constitutes ‘real freedom’ in our society. 

     

    “Rational self interest is the profit motive that is the basis of competition.”

    capitalism.org

     

    The key problem is in the words: Rational Self Interest is not the realization of who we are as one single organism consisting of multiple parts that are required to be made functional upon the very basic physical laws of nature that our own physical bodies exist as. It is fascinating how just as any religion, philosophy or knowledge for that matter, words within Economy embody the forked tongue that is willing to abuse another for the sake of praising self’s own interest and call that ‘economic efficiency and a freedom and right.’ Of course, we hear ‘efficiency’ and link it to people knowing what they do and doing it the best way they can in the benefit of most, yet we don’t realize such words are being spoken from a definitive platform that was deliberately created to sustain a fictional system of made up ‘powers’ to enslave the majority, which means self interest is vehemently guarded, it is pondered as the best way to follow through and it’s the best self-destructive weapon to ever exist in our human civilization.

    Read  about the ‘Profit Motive’ for further understanding.

     

    Here’s a point to begin with:

    Are not competition and cooperation opposites?

    Contrary to those who prattle about “competition versus cooperation”, capitalism is the only system where voluntary cooperation can actually exist, as it banishes force from all relationships, making all exchanges voluntary. Contrast this with the “cooperation” of collectivist societies, where one man must “cooperate” with another, lest he desires to be fined, thrown in prison, or have a lead bullet pumped into his skull.

    Capitalist competition is the one of the most economically practical forms of social cooperation, where every producer competes to see who can best cooperate with each other, and with the consumer. Such is the nature of capitalist competition.

    source: capitalism.org on ‘Competition’

     

    This is a usual point of criticism we encounter, wherein men are apparently Forced to cooperate to work and be supported through earning money. Cooperation is then warped into a self-improvement incentive however there is no clarification as to How such cooperation will be rewarded.

     

    Capitalism: Would you agree that capitalism despite its problems ‘”Is the best way forward” ?

    Capitalism founded upon common well being can function to the best interest of all. It is the individual conception of benefit that must be redefined within a collective understanding of life as a social organism. Capitalism at the moment is not an ideal capitalism where the well being of all individuals is taken care of, we got stuck in the middle when greed and corruption became an easier way to manifest the individual desires at the expense of the majority.

    Collectivism must stop being treated as a disease to capitalism since real wealth can only exist if there’s a group force working to create it, this must be equally distributed through equal-profit share, capping the creation of unnecessary goods, re-educating ourselves to value life and not material possessions as a symbol of one’s wealth. Stopping the capitalization upon private property and instead use capital to sponsor organizations that support cleaning up, reforesting, caring for all the living species as we have to get back to basis to recognize the real value that life is as this Earth and physical resources, and without our Ecosystem being in a sound manner, any bright proposal for a change will be futile.

    So, we can redefine capitalism of course, we got the system, we keep that which functions and adjust/re-align that which only serves a few people’s interests. This is the way forward: Equal Money Capitalism Equal Money System

    Equal Money for ALL as LIFE

     

    “What’s Good/Right and Bad/Wrong, for many in their Lives becomes irrelevant when it comes to Money and Survival, and so Morals won’t Stand – Money/Survival will Stand. In this, Life Regulation will be thus a Process of Internal and External Life/Living Regulation, in as one prepare the Internal World of a Child, to Prepare the External World for Children of the Future as also Proposed by/through the Equal Money System.” – Sunette Spies*

     

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    300. Redefining Accumulation of Capital in Equal Money Capitalism

    “I commit myself to the establishment of a new Value System, as the Equal Money Capitalistic System, where we value Life over wants and desires and self-interest — and thus create a world of co-operation where all work together towards One interest as What’s Best for All Life, where all can in fact have enough and where no-one has to suffer because some decided they want more than what they need just because “they can” –  Day 45: Homo Economicus & The Invisible Hand – Part 3

    Redefining Capitalism:

    We’re going word by word in a very basic definition of Capitalism to redefine it, explore it and see what each word means and how we are able to re-direct every aspect of this collective agreement into a Best for All system.

    Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

    source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

     

    Continuing from :

     

    For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

     

    Capital Accumulation

    Before we list out the problems, please read the previous blogs where these aspects have been opened up further to understand to what level accumulation is in itself ingrained at a psychological level that we haven’t ‘sorted out’ yet and that must be walked as an individual process to remove the conditions that have enabled fear, the desire for security, protection and accumulation as a ‘safe net’ which indicates that we have been living as fearful beings with no sense of self-direction, because it is now quite clear we can all contribute to stop that which we have identified as nerve-wracking, stress producing and anxiety causing aspects in our reality that can be traced back to Lacking Money and fearing for survival. Capital Accumulation is definitely something that you won’t find addressed in

     

     

     

    Problems                                                            

    • Due to fear of survival we learned how to hoard/ accumulate money/resources/property for our own safety, which is against natural laws of physics wherein the relationship toward our environment is determined by our ability to exist within an equal relationship of constant flow, in and out and throughout,  just like breathing and blood flowing through our veins – instead, we’ve denied the basic sustenance to large sections of our own body, causing the massive disruption at a social and ecological level, which is what is currently driven by a compulsive desire to ‘grow the economy’ at the expense of anything and anyone.

     

    • Fear of scarcity, anxiety, driving oneself to excel/compete to get the most of the cake, which leads us to act by impulse and energetic drive rather than a common sensical behavior that leads to common weal.  This has obviously been an outflow of the previous point which has not been a ‘natural thing’ to man but a preprogrammed aspect of the intrinsic separation that we’ve created within and as ourselves toward each other, failing to see and recognize our equality – hence losing perspective of how we began competing against each other, missing out the realization that such aggressive competitiveness and rivalry to ‘get the most’ has been against ourselves. Also read: 115. Following our Dreams is Plain Delusional

     

    • Cultural value given to a luxurious life linked with happiness and fulfillment – this can be also linked with traits like freedom and liberty that were implanted during the 20th century in America by Edward Bernays whom we have quoted in this blog before with regards to his PR self created profession that is nothing else but propaganda to tame people’s irrational desires and link them to a means that can maintain a system of polarization kept by emotions of hope, faith and belief that somehow everyone could aspire to become ‘the greatest’ which means having the most money in the world and being fulfilled/ happy about it.  Also Read: 217. You Fear Communism? Why would That Be?

     

    • Greed is promoted as a ‘natural trait of seeking success’ and success is not seeing as the willingness to abuse another to make your own heaven on Earth, but instead it is considered as a clever move that is part of our regular indoctrination at home and school, which already reveals to what extent we have ingrained and accepted these beliefs and call it Education.

     

    • The more wealthy I am, the most value to mate: yes, considering that our drive is mostly sexual and/or for money, the linkage of a successful person with being sexually attractive and getting the ‘best display’ linked to showing/demonstrating one has a lot of power of acquisition/money/dominance, has become the most common drive nowadays that we call ‘social status’ which means props for seeking out partners and pursuing happiness, which is sponsored by a constant impulse by the media, ads and our general presentation around others, which is mostly motivated by these two factors: sex and money and both are linked to accumulation of wealth.

     

    • Self Aggrandizement:   even if this ties in with term ‘sex appeal’ described above, this also relates to a general status wherein family lineages endorse the same mentality onto children to perpetuate power and maintain a certain reputation at a social and political level – all based on maintaining/sustaining the same amount of dominance, power and control. Others simply seek a general approval to ‘be someone’ because we are taught that we are ‘no one’ unless you earn a good amount of money, enough to trump everyone else, making you a winner.

     

    • Excessive Consumerism leads to frivolity, vanity and self destructive behavior wherein ‘the self’ is exalted to a psychological entity deprived from any physical sense of living in a physical world along with  7 other billion people and an uncountable amount of animals, plants, insects and every single particle that is also here as life, most of whom are disregarded, abused, used and turned into a commodity for further support to the lives of a few that can afford a wealthy lifestyle.

     

    • The Soul of Money explains our current economic behavior as a disease to the body of existence that begins at a mind level and its relationship to the physical, this is the key to understanding why we have been so savage and inconsiderate to each other and why it is our duty to take responsibility to return our beingness to an equilibrium, because we have all collectively accepted and allowed this condition to exist.

     

    Solutions                                                                

    • Equal profit – this will go within the consideration to place a limit to the ability to produce and consider the actual ecosystem that is being turned into a commodity. This measure is a communal decision to grant to each other equal amount of wealth,which will relief the levels of competition, spite and deception that exist when some are well known for earning more than others. This also includes eliminating economic rents which are monies coming from the capitalization of wealth in itself due to the acceptance of ownership/private property, which will not exit as such.

     

    • The Equalization of Classes – This doesn’t mean that everyone will have the same living conditions or be ‘the same,’ no, this means equal recognition of each others needs and desires and make them equally available/ given support.  This is of course not against the wealthy people , nor  turning the tables to give ‘more’ to  the current have not’s, it is about giving to each other in equality that which will construct slowly but surely and throughout a transitional process,  a level of equality which will signify the end of the endless struggle of the classes that has served as spiteful motives to implement one-viewed ‘justice’ ideals. Equality means All are inclusive and non-opponent.

     

    • Don’t need it, don’t buy it: much of what we consume is done for several psychological fulfillments and fears other than an actual use and necessity toward it. I have many times bought more than what I required based on this principle of scarcity, sometimes I don’t end up using it. So if I bought it already then it means it is my duty to now pass it on to another that will use it or give it to someone else that does use it. This will create a new  culture of recycling and giving without expecting something in return to those that will in fact use it.

     

    • Diverting one’s focus to communal well being within the understanding of the basic maintenance to generate our own physical well being and mental stability, which is a definition of happiness.  This will come from the understanding that feeding our obsessions leads to disease, self destructive and self consuming behaviors are individual problems that will still require support at a psychological level to learn how to correct one’s patterns, behavior and acknowledge individual responsibility toward other beings, such as children’s education/ parental support.

     

    • The identification of the self not as an individual only, but as the whole body of existence and all its parts as who we are. This requires a self-honesty process in order to then learn how to always act in this consideration: being every single being in existence to develop a genuine care and consideration toward the whole as ourselves, as equal and one.

     

    Rewards                                                                

    • Eliminating spite, comparison, judgments, a general suspicion about one another fearing one’s neighbor/ family/ partners – this will enable genuine links with one another once that everyone is distributing wealth in an equitable manner.

     

    • Self-Honesty, Sincerity and Transparency are virtues that are almost impossible to keep in a world like today. This is why with the establishment of the Equal Money Capitalistic System, we can finally live these virtues and principles without having to jeopardize our own survival, because money will be a representation and a corrective tool for our cleared/ self-forgiven relationships of abuse.

     

    • Learning to genuinely ‘feel good’ at a physical level, which won’t be something bought with products or diversion, but rather a realization that we are giving and receiving in equality to support each other.

     

    • Secured future, secured living means actual Freedom: never again hoarding or accumulating because we will be able to rely on each other supporting each other’s well being, that’s what we all want and still wonder why we haven’t done this just yet!

     

    • Mutual trust and interdependency – this is the key to a functional and healthy society which is then representing the physical distribution of wealth generating a natural realization of all parts as all bodies of existence requiring equal support to generate an undeniable equal well being, that’s our dream come true essentially.

     

    • Rediscovering the ability to create and imagine as a projection of all that we can actually build/ construct/ realize  when working together – this is certainly not a positive thinking pipe dream, this is a certainty that comes when we understand the capacity we hold to direct our physical force as a drive to create and maintain common good. Self Expression will at last, be born from this physical understanding of self-support.

     

    • As we do unto others, so we do unto ourselves: this is the basic principle of Equality that is the foundation of Equal Money in its maximum expression, this is the kind of human virtue we can all finally cultivate once that our lives don’t depend on cheating and deceiving each other, self honesty at last: Accumulating what is Best for All.

     

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    63. The Perfect Drug

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is absurd to be addicted to conflict,  yet all actions and deeds are now revealing that I had in fact used stories and pictures as people and relationships to cover up the actual truth of myself: an energetic junky that thrived upon conflict, pain and distress used to continue existing as a mind that thrives upon energy.

     

    I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was ‘okay’ with people that have been addicted to drugs, and even believing that I was ‘attracted to people that had been into drugs’ which was only mind mind speaking as I now realize that these relationships have been the point of most conflict in my world that I made myself ‘keen to’ that deliberately, as that is the only way that my mind could continue functioning: through delving into conflictive relationships and situations just for the sake of keeping myself occupied in my mind and never ever seeing the truth of what I was in fact doing to myself, because I blinded it off with the idea of ‘love’/ attraction/ care or else toward others.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could become addicted to people which was never about ‘someone’ specific, but what the person represented as a point of conflict that I became addicted to as a mind to be constantly generating feelings and emotions as  a way to keep myself/ my mind alive through constantly having to charge thoughts up with either a positive or negative experience about something and someone, so that my mind could get its fix. Therefore it was never about people being ‘addicted’ the point of attraction but me being addicted to the conflict such pattern represented within me, so that I could generate an inner-experience of mixed emotions with feelings that lead me to become a wreck within actual dependency to fear of losing relationships in my world, which was never about ‘the person’ but the pattern that I had become addicted to: conflict, troubles, self-abuse.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I could never be addicted to something that I had deemed as ‘negative,’ yet my actions spoke more than my words and now I see and realize that myself as my mind feeds off of positive and negative energy alike, because it is in the actual conflict and friction that the mind gets its fix from, no matter what pole it is generated in -which is what I’ve only now been able to realize about myself and my relationships thanks to the Desteni I Process, the interviews on money energy at eqafe, on sex and relationships and the Heaven’s Journey to Life blog that has become the ‘lantern’ in a space that was completely dark and even hidden within our understanding as humanity and existence as a whole. 

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to conflict, as this is what I would base my apparent attraction to troubled people, it was only my mind luring myself into that which would generate the most friction within me, in order to continue generating energy within me being preoccupied and in constant fear, anxiety and mixed feelings that would cover up such basic conflict, which is how we pair ourselves up in a way wherein we actually remain within the most conflictive relationships to keep the mind ‘in place’ and where it was ‘meant to be’ for the mind to always get its fix.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not hear common sense but go with ‘what my heart dictated’ which was not my heart, but my mind as the required energy to continue existing as a mind that thrives upon self-abuse in a literal manner wherein we drain the physical, the substance that we are and convert it into energy which is a reduced form of life that has a positive or a negative charge with a beginning and an end– I realize that I got myself into the relationships wherein I would get the most friction and conflict as the ‘negative,’ wherein within me trying to ‘change it into positive’ there was a massive collision of poles that the minds would rejoice in. Thus, I realize now how relationships operate when based on energetic ‘attractions’ which is opposite poles attract because that’s the only way that enough friction is generated to continue feeding the mind as energy.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be also brainwashed by songs like ‘The Perfect Drug’ wherein I foolishly equated people to drugs as way to explain how even if we realize that this is harmful, we continue doing it, which is what makes self-abuse the basic ingredient in relationships: self compromise, fear of loss, fear of ending up alone, fear of not getting the necessary fix: fear of the mind dying which is precisely what this entire process is about, overcoming this fear of ‘losing ourselves’ and losing our mind without realizing that the physical body can exist without the mind dictating its every move and relationship, as I realize that the mind exists as relationships and that we currently exist as relationships that have to be equalized in order to stop generating conflict and constant turmoil which is what the mind requires to continue existing feeding of our physical bodies.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that statements in lyrics like ‘without you everything falls apart’ and ‘without you I’m nothing’ were perfect depictions of relationships between two beings, without realizing that it was actually me talking to myself as my mind believing that without such conflict, without such turmoil I’d be dead (as the mind)– yet I had not realized that I was in fact addicted to conflict, to turmoil and it is thus the reason why I sought conflict in my world without being aware of it, I created it for myself when being directed by these energies that could have either gone positive or negative, yet found the most ‘thrill’ in the negative due to my self-belief of being a ‘positive person.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know beforehand that I was in the ‘wrong spot’ yet, I went along for the ride because of the experience this would create within me, an energetic thrill that eventually faded away and that’s when relationships stop, and then you go out seeking for another prey. Just like vampires.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that saying ‘the more I give to you the more I die’ is a literal meaning: the more I experience emotions and feelings, the more I consumed myself inadvertently at a physical level – yet knowing deep inside myself what I was doing, neglecting it because what was ‘stronger’ was the addiction to the energy and became oblivious to the physical experience that went with it, because what I gave permission to direct me was the mind, separating myself further and further from being Here as my physical body.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to delve even further into the experience even though I knew it was ‘no good’-  and in this, I forgive myself for having ever accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘self abusive people’ without realizing that I was only judging myself for what I have become, driven entirely by this not-knowing-how-to-direct my energy to – hence landing anyhow on a spot wherein I could get my fix and keep it for as long as it ‘fed me,’ just like oil  wells and fracking methods to suck the life out of the Earth.

     

    Thus, I realize that our self-abusive nature is just like being an addict –just like we have said many times before – because even though we know we are harming ourselves, we continue doing it and the only way that we can get to a realization about this is if we reach the bottom – the question is: do we have to? We have proven to ourselves that we only learn through experiences, and so far we are driving ourselves to face the consequences even more so ‘in our face’ to open our eyes. Unfortunately so, self-abuse seems to now be affecting more and more people yet there are still no clear questions being asked as to WHY this is happening? All the answers can be walked within self through the Desteni support available for all.

    And this is another moment of absurdity for what  I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become: a sucker for abuse.

     

    “one go into absurdity when one face something that you see the reality of – but fear it at the same time, cause it’s not a knowledge and information seeing, its a self realisation – thus, individual react in absurdity “No it can’t be real” – lol; but also at the same time do within their existential existence here see it is” – Sunette Spies

     

    I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to see people as separate from me in relationships wherein I blamed ‘them’ for what I would experience, not realizing that as long as the mind held the wheel of my reality, I would simply create relationships, form nice stories, ‘paint it’ in a personalized way and get myself imbued into it for the mind-experience that I imposed onto people in my world that only serve as linchpins to keep my wheel going – this means that I never really established a relationship with them, but only with my own mind and this energetic fixes that were perfectly orchestrated to make it look just like another fantabulous experience, when it was really not so.

     

    I realize that in our minds, we are able to kid ourselves and make it all seem quite ‘nice’ but in reality, the actual experience is only that of being leeches of one another, eating ourselves up not metaphorically speaking and this is the truth of our reality. Hence the importance of stopping all energy-relationships as within stopping our energetic fixes, we stop the continued self-abuse we have thrived upon as the mind.

     

    I commit myself to take Self-Responsibility for every single point that I blamed others for in my reality as being the cause of my experiences, because I see, realize and understand it was always only me and my own mind, my own energetic drive that I sought to satisfy as the saturation of myself as energy, wherein the rest were just part of the necessary players in the game to build a nice story around it. That’s how when stopping our mind, when realizing what we have done, relationships fall because we cannot continue deceiving ourselves as in getting our fix from people –

     

    The only way that I can redefine relationship is  to realize the basic point of separation from self that each relationship entails – and that means that this process is walking through all our relationships as all the points we have separated ourselves from in the name of experience – either positive or negative – wherein through walking each point of separation, we stop feeding the mind and earth ourselves back as substance – this is explained in the blog  Wave-Theory of Creation: DAY 62 which has become a pivotal point to understand what we have done to ourselves in existence in an absurd manner – again – yet I realize that all reactions covered up within ‘absurdity’ are in fact a frightening realization of our nature and to what extent we took ourselves as life – in the name of energy as experience-  for granted

     

    I realize that every moment that I give myself into the mind, I continue feeding this absurdity that must be stopped by myself in every moment that I can earth that surge of energy back to Earth as myself as Breath, b-heart – I instead breathe and hear the heart rate wherein I make sure that I re-mind myself the physicality that I abuse every time I allow myself to go into conflict, friction, desires and yearnings for relationships which are clearly based on self-abuse according to what I have realized throughout this process, but only now can see clearly and name if for what it is.

     

    I realize that within me accepting others as ‘addicts’ I was simply speaking from the mind that justified and validated itself as ‘an addict’ because that’s the only way it can continue existing as ‘the driving force’ within our bodies – thus, I stop any self-definitions as having this ‘fascination’ for addicts/ addictions and experiences of any kind that are in fact the building blocks of self-abuse that mind exists as.

     

    I commit myself to continue walking my own mind as my process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application to give myself direction to live words, to establish myself as words that can be applied by all in equality wherein relationships can only stand as symbiotic and never more parasitical in nature.

     

    I commit myself to expose how relationships are simply an addiction of the mind and that it is in stopping such mind-relationships toward anything/ anyone that we can start standing equal and one to such points/ people in our world, wherein people no longer represent ‘patterns’ in separation of ourselves, but we instead walk those relationships through this process of Self-Forgiveness until what remains is self, here,  equal to everything and everyone that are also here, and support others to do the same for themselves.

     

    I commit myself to continue investigating any bit and memory that comes up in my head as every point of backchat, memory, as these are indications of a point we are reacting to and existing in separation from, which is how the mind is the greatest tool to walk this process.

     

    I realize that I must first walk my ‘rehab’ as self-agreement wherein I make sure that I never again use people as patterns to thrive upon as energy but instead, learn how to practically coexist with others as equals wherein self-is self-directive as the physical and never again as an energy-driven mind.

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    Day 13: The Mind as Self-Creation Buddy

    When removing this entire attachment/ hold toward my personality, what remains is aspects that I can live as who I am without keeping it as something that I manifest through an energetic relationship toward. An example can be how most – if not all – have something that we want to ‘hide’ because of all the memories and past experiences that lead us to shape and create ‘who I am’ as a personality that has a particular set of preferences, habits, behavior and experience toward the world. So, instead of continuing defining me as such differences and categorization as an individual in contrast to others, I can potentiate the words/ aspects that I see and realize I am able to expand and implement as ‘who I am’ by correcting the starting point of such relationships in a self-supportive manner.

     

    “I commit myself to – practically utilize my Mind Consciousness System  in/as my processes of/as writing/self-forgiveness and self corrective application, to assist/support me with identifying/exposing/revealing my accepted and allowed self-separation from/of all as me, as I see/realise/understand that the Mind has become the embodiment of/as all the relationships I had created/manifested in/as separation of/as me.” [1] Sunette Spies

     

    This is a key-point here as the Mind is our direct and explicit in-detail map to see where and how we have directly separated ourselves from within this physical reality, it’s like your Google Earth wherein we can actually use it to become really specific in our creation process as an equalized being.

     

    Each one of us walks a different ‘path of separation,’ and in that, we are all equally and one walking the process of correcting the relationships of separation toward ‘the whole,’ which means that each one is walking different aspects of self that we have separated ourselves from, according to the energetic experiences a definitions we have imprinted to everything and everyone that we have deemed as separated from self.

     

    A quick example when I realized this in the past – yet in a very rudimentary mode – is how when we established words to ‘name’ everything and everyone in separation of ourselves, we immediately differentiate ourselves ‘from that which we name.’ The moment we have a tag/ label/ name toward something/ someone it became a relationship that creates an experience that is different/ unique to each person, as each person has only ever really experienced ‘themselves’/ ourselves as our mind, never really ever ‘felt another,’ or ‘experienced’ the same as others do, because we all have lived words through different experiences and moments that builds up ‘who we are.’

    We can’t possibly experience the same or associate words toward the same energetic experiences – it is because of this that we have all in fact been ‘lost in translation,’ trying to establish ‘connection’ as relationships toward people/ things/ places because that’s all we have ever known ourselves to be: an individual that is separate from the whole = seeks to connect/ create relationships all the time, which can only exist at a mind level. So it doesn’t even matter if you are with another or not, as long as we had our mind as the faithful companion, we agreed to remain subservient to any physical reality that was obviously of separation and energy-sucking from one another, as well as the entire Earth and its resources.

     

    So – what the hell are we doing here? Healing/ repairing/ correcting/ mending the primordial separation from each other as the whole. That is by each one taking on their mind as their ‘set of separations’ that is ‘unique’ as a configuration within each one – yet equal to all within the mechanisms that generated such relationships, which are energy-based and generators at all times. Hence, what each one of us in this process is walking is the manifested separation through our accepted and allowed ‘living’ of words in separation of who we have become As such words in separation of self as one and equal. This is all of what we gave-a-name to as something ‘outside’ of ourselves.

    There might have even been a moment in your life that you saw yourself thinking ‘what if this is all that I am? What if I am only thinking this reality’? Well, we were and still are only thinking the reality that is simply here, manifested and doesn’t require us to think about it to exist. This means that the only way to equalize ourselves is to stop thinking and creating further relationships as experiences ‘toward’ this reality, but instead live and experience the actual physicality that is here as myself, as my body, as the environment that I can simply direct myself within and without, minus the constant generation of experiences about it.

     

    I represent a set of points of separation – you represent another set of points of separation – we all together walk our sets of points of separation and in that, our part is contributing to the whole correction that is required within this world to establish best for all living-relationships that will enable each other to finally enjoy, express, be boundless yet living by equal and one principles – that’s the point here. And through correcting such relationships – because the only correction possible is equality and oneness as life – we will have as an inevitable outflow from such application, an physical change in the way that we interact, communicate, establish relationships as the new way to live/ exist in this world. The way that we see each other is changing already – if you have been duly aware of this – we are becoming aware of, for example, to what extent we would dare to project our own self-created mind-maze of relationships and self-depreciation onto others – unacceptable, yet we thank ourselves for being able to walk Self Forgiveness for all that which we have used and abused in the name of a personal delusional – and abusive – self-glorification.

     

    So this is self-support for me to see how the points I had realized in a rather vague way did make sense and that I wasn’t only divagating. And this comes from the direct experience that I would get when becoming a bit ecstatic about these realizations during school mostly, and would share them with others and people would mostly stare back with what I judged being a ‘yeah-right’ type of attitude, not really caring or probably understanding what I was trying to say – such as the cookie theory and this point of primordial separation of who we are as words. Again, I’m not going into the elusive ‘god’ creation that is believed to be superior, this is about self-realization of who we are as god, an equal and one meaning as the only definition/word/value/experience that can exist: Life in Equality.

     

    Equality is the main correction to implement within the definition of Life as what’s always been here, equal and one – yet our experiences toward life and everything had not been of equality, which is why we are now walking this process to equalize ourselves as life.

     

    So, what does this all mean then? That I have to walk each tidbit of association that I created an energetic experience toward, beginning with how engaged and/or compromised I became toward the experience of myself ‘as myself,’ as a personality/ego and ‘my precious’ creation that I was directing to fulfill my personal wishes and desires that could only stand in separation of the common sensical realization that: I can only be fully happy, living in absolute self-realized self-expression IF standing one and equal as everything and everyone that is equally here as myself- there is no other way.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to live a life wherein I sought to create relationships toward others in separation of myself, in the name of creating me an experience that I could call ‘life/living.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having lived a life of self-interest wherein I didn’t realize that the only driving-factor for everything that I did, was always seeking an energetic experience that I could keep as ‘memories’ that I could later on utilize to satisfy my memory-needs of identifying myself a my past, as my friends/ family/ partners/ living places that I have defined as ‘pieces of me,’ that I have kept for the sake of the usual memorabilia that I was looking forward to keep until I was very old and I could use such memories to generate the same experiences that would have led me to ensure I ‘keep this moment as a memory’ in order to satisfy my mind’s desire to remain ‘alive,’ within myself, missing the obvious common sense wherein: who I am cannot be only a memory kept throughout the years, that is gone in one moment and can be distorted to suit my personal needs, wants, desires. Who I am cannot possibly be a memory or an experience.

     

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek creating, forming and establishing relationships to people, places according to my self-created configuration that determined how I viewed/ saw ‘my life’ as an accumulation of memories, data, knowledge that I could later on use to enhance my value, my worth and my own experiences b keeping/ freezing such moments as ‘who I am.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself to being a single memory rolling and repeating itself aimlessly, I realize that I had become a memory-collector in order to continue ‘identifying’ and building myself as a personality that I wanted to eventually be able to be proud of.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a life of self interest wherein every person I sought to ‘connect with,’ every place that I created an attachment toward and every thought as an experience that I believed was ‘me,’ were in fact only in the name of creating me a nice and apparently fulfilling experience as a record-keeping that I could be satisfied with at the end of my days.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my lifetime to a single memory-collector, specifically being aware of imprinting/ keeping/ saving the moments that I had decided was the way that I want to ‘remember myself,’ and in that I developed such an emotional attachment to it, with a definitive conscious participation to deliberately do so, that It’s taken me a while to go actually disengaging from the memories as the experiences that I created toward others, which is revealing in itself how much effort, time and consistency I lived toward the idea of myself as my personality, of others, of places, or events in my life that I had deemed as ‘valuable.’

     

    I realize that it is only through me stopping valuing things, people, places in separation of myself can be actually begin to understand what living a principle of equality would actually mean.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even become proud of myself as my creation, as my personality because of the amount of time I had ‘invested upon myself’ which lead me to then fear losing it, which would have meant the obvious: I have brainwashed myself all this time. I see how we all have this ‘voice in the head’ that comes and allows you to know and realize what is it that we are in fact existing as, believing ourselves to be, and that it is such voice that I must bring here as words, to assist and support me to get to know myself, to learn how I created, built and connected such dots as words that have defined my individual experience here toward myself and others – and through applying self forgiveness on it, walking the self corrective application, we can actually make of this process something that is simply what it is, having to withdraw from the main platonic relationship we have created which is: the relationship with our own mind.

     

    Once that is walked, debunked, Self-Forgiven, Self-corrected, we will be able to understand what such separation actually revealed of ourselves.

     

    All in all, what I suggest is to make of this process not a tortuous process wherein we see the point of letting go of ‘who we are’ as our mind as standing underneath the scaffold all the time, which is and can only be painful if we are always at the expectancy of the blade running down all of a sudden, when in fact, such egocide can be as painless, as simple and as gentle as we make decide it to be. In the end, this is about Self-Creation, isn’t it? What type of God would want to continue self-flagellation in the name of purification? None.

     

    So – we walk, here as breath, unconditionally letting go and re-establishing that primordial separation is the only answer to Life Here: Ourselves. We require to create a new system that can enable the possibility for all beings to walk this process, as that is what we would like others to do for ourselves in such positions. That’s how we require to establish the Equal Money System to ensure that all Life’s needs are guaranteed for all human beings and in that, take the first move to deconstruct the system of illusion and delusional values that we have created in the name of keeping our mind-bubbles alive. We are here to burst our bubbles.

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    Inter-net

    The internet has created bridges that we probably never really imagined in our past as humanity would have been able to be built. For this, it’s cool to be living in this moment wherein I am able to share, communicate, express and be part of a global movement that is moving through/ as the internet, wherein I have now become used to being constantly participating as a daily point of communicating, sharing and supporting myself to get to know ‘how the world works,’ which is what this ‘information era’ has allowed us to reach at the click of a mouse.

    I am Here and this is what I realize, I share myself because I have been equally supported by a group of people that also realized that the internet was the way to reach people around the world and create a total revolution within humanity, it’s been a ‘silent’ one for many – however the effects of people understanding what’s common sense and considering Equality as a starting point in everything we do, remains as a ‘nagging thought’ even for those that initially or deliberately judge and criticize the Desteni message with all types of prejudices – mostly out of that initial fear everyone has to change

     

    Through us Destonians being sharing ourselves through writing, sharing videos, information, participating in forums – we  are literally creating a ‘new cyberspace’ to be and become self-honest people that care enough to share themselves and walk a process of Self Honesty to stand as equal points of responsibility within our own lives, and eventually toward the whole world as well.

     

    Me and Self-Exposure within the Internet

    See, I had a tendency to fear conflict, fear of having to ‘expose’ myself within the internet, I saw it as the equivalent of going out in the night through dark alleys wherein you never know who’s going to attack you next, I feared criticism and judgment from others toward myself. My initial desire to have internet had to do with fulfilling preferences of downloading music only.

     

    I nagged my father a lot to have internet – essentially buying me a modem at that time. Lol, my cousins would make fun of me because of being ‘building my own websites’ without having internet and within that, imagining that I was surfing the internet. When I did get it, I was just happy to be able to research on what I liked, reading artists biographies and everything else that had to do with music. I formed some relationships for several years at forums, people that I got to meet because of music mostly and these were people that definitely influenced myself to the extent of being one of the ‘bridges’ that I had to eventually get to Desteni at some point – even if they didn’t get to it themselves.

    So – within forming all of these relationships through the internet, I became used to ‘being connected to the world’ and essentially creating a dependency to it – see the words: relationship-dependency. So – the process now is to remove all tags of ‘dependency’ toward the internet, and using it for what it is, a way we have to communicate with others, the world, to educate ourselves, to share and be part of an actual process of self-realization and self-correction required in order to understand how we have created this system as it is – it is essentially an ideal tool to do so.

     

    I know that If I didn’t have internet, I would not be doing what I’m doing right now with/ as my life, as Desteni, as this process of Self-Responsibility. I would have kept myself in a very comfortable bubble of entertainment and following my dreams and desires with no further consequence to see ‘what’s going on in the world’ – this is hypothetical really, who knows what could have happened in reality so let’s just say that I wouldn’t be doing what I am now doing.

     

    So the point is, I’ve had intermittent internet or no-internet at all for the past days which is somehow breaking a routine within my every day living. Though, what’s interested is that I noticed a point of ‘temptation’ coming-through wherein my mind then feels ‘too comfortable’ for not having to ‘be there’ all the time (be there = internet, communicating, participating) and within this, I acknowledge that my participation within the world at the moment happens through the internet mostly. So, not having internet is a way for me to ‘get too comfortable’ within this disconnection because it means ‘I have an excuse to not participate’ or not share and communicate with the world, which is how I used to exist: only being with myself, not talking to all people, but only to those that I thought could ‘understand me,’ I spent living a life through other’s eyes within reading books, listening to music, painting and all of that which satisfied my personal desires and ideals.

     

    At that time I had already withdrawn from being constantly watching news and/or being ‘politically informed,’ because I had given up within the idea of realizing that wanting to be a ‘powerful person in this world’ involved getting down-and-dirty within a ‘corrupt world.’ I obviously didn’t go further into researching the system and how it all works for real – I just took the easy way out, deciding to study something that could at least get me closer to ‘feeling like a human’ than a money-making machine. Oh yes, I screwed up myself within that I had to walk through the entire decision until this day.

     

    So, it’s a cool thing to be able to look back and see that I have come quite a long way from that initial resistance I had toward sharing myself, it was a deliberate push but also a process I understood from the group perspective = moving as a single ‘force’ within the system, within social media. Without having the understanding of what ‘walking as a group’ implies, I would have probably recoiled back to my old patterns of seclusion and just keeping my little depressive bubble in place, because even in such misery I was comfortable – nothing was disturbing me other than my own thoughts and personal relationships, it was all I had to ‘take care of’ at that time.

     

    No Internet

    So, obviously when seeing myself ‘out of the internet’ for a longer time, I get these memories of ‘who I was’ before I was into Desteni or the internet and believe that I could get ‘too comfortable’ by not being active in the internet again, which is literally a mindfuck only, but cool to see that it comes up as it is an indication that such ‘back door’ is still existent yet dormant somewhere ‘up there.’

     

    I also see how ‘not having access to the internet’ becomes like a ‘time off’ of my responsibilities within it – which is then what I have defined as ‘too comfortable,’ because we all know that by human design, we would ‘feel better’ if there was nothing to worry about or be in charge of. However, I am now in charge of several points and this means that I must have access to the internet in a constant basis.

     

    When coming back from SA, I spent two weeks without having internet – at least not being there the whole time and/ or having very limited time and access to it. But, because I was in another country, I would see it as a way to get some ‘time off’ as actual vacations for it, but the truth is that the point of daily participation in the internet was existent as a thought in the back of my head the whole time.

     

    So it is to remove any ‘dependency’ toward it or idea of ‘having to be somewhere else’ and simply direct myself in every moment that I can or can’t be in the internet. This should not mean in any way ‘separating myself from process’ or the actual walking we do here – it is about using what’s here when and if available – otherwise I don’t have to nag myself with that constant worry or preoccupation that doesn’t allow me to simply direct myself in every moment.

    It’s very simple –though the mind ‘loves’ to make it a lot more than what it actually is.

     

    The reality is that I have made the decision for myself to get myself ‘out there’ and it’s been a very lengthy process. I mean, I had all forms of resistances to open up a blog to share myself, to record vlogs, to open up accounts in all the usual ‘social media’ – I avoided Facebook for like the first two years I had an account there, and I would have probably never broadcasted myself on YouTube or even have Facebook if it wasn’t because I got to understand that If I want to create a change in this world, I must use the tools that are here in order for us to do so. So, slowly but surely – and with Bernard’s support/ push when seeing and realizing what the fuck I was actually fearing in terms of ‘adding too many friends’ on Facebook and sharing my writings there, etc.- I got myself to create an actual platform of me sharing myself there: it was not-existent and it didn’t came out ‘naturally.’ 

    When I saw the fear for what it is, I began being more ‘open’ about sharing myself there – this was mostly because of being connected to ‘friends and family’ there and fearing having them asking me questions about Desteni or the portal or what I am doing, as if there was something ‘secret’ to keep – which is how I had dealt with my previous beliefs in the afterlife and spiritual-realms that I used to believe in. So I realized how I had to stop keeping this as my ‘belief-system’ that I would only ‘keep to myself’ and took the information as what it is, self-supportive material that is able to be used and practically applied by anyone that is able to see beyond the images and ‘surface’ of what it ‘appears to be,’ and focuses on listening to the message.

     

     

    Self-Broadcasting and sharing with the world as myself

    So now that I share and participate and have deliberately made the decision to be a constant presence in cyber-space within everything we do at Desteni, I can see that there would be no other way of doing it other than through the Internet, at least not to reach as many people in such a wide area like the entire world, lol. All the fears about questions that I feared people in my world would ask were never real. It is fascinating to see how the mind keeps lingering to creating all of these seemingly frightening scenarios of ‘what Ifs’ and within that, we keep ourselves just bound by such fears instead of taking them for what they are ‘mind fears.’

     

    Getting to the internet and Desteni specifically, became this huge window toward the world that has allowed me to not only get to know myself, but get to know other human beings’ life experiences and within that, understanding how we function and how we can develop ways to see where and how we can practically become agents of change and transformation within this world. Because after all, I was not really ‘happy’ with how I saw the world, even if I tried to ‘shove it off’ for some time, I can see that any experience of self-doom was created out of how I would witness my reality as the city that I live in, my observations toward politics, the government, ‘the system’ and all of that. It wasn’t then such a ‘struck of luck’ that I got to Desteni, because there was always this ‘nagging spine’ within me trying to get an actual answer as to why the hell are we here on earth.

     

    Now that I see and realize what a great tool it’s been, I stop thinking that I could ‘get myself back to my old patterns’ with such a thoughtful-ease  – there is really no turning back and as much as this process might seem like too much, or ‘a drag,’ it is just part of the judgments we create at a mind level toward it, to make it seem ‘difficult’ because in essence, it’s been a perfect tool for ‘mind control’ which as Bella mentions, begins within ourselves.

    There is no need to make it ‘more’ or ‘less’ than ourselves being ‘here,’ walking process in every moment of breath within the understanding that: there is Actual work, research, reading, participation, writing, sharing and education to be walked if we really want to create and establish a platform of self-support and education for more beings. It takes an actual walking-the-talk and doing, which is what I am grateful for I am now involved-with, because these ‘dormant’ resistances still come up, and it takes an actual ‘pushing’ for me to say: ‘I am in, I participate, I take this point on.’

     

    I see and realize that any iota of desiring to ‘get back to my old self’ or ‘wanting to just leave it all’ is stemming from fear, fear of confronting myself and the reality I live in on a daily basis. And it might seem like entering this ever-lasting stream of information that we participate in on a daily basis – but once you get used to it, you realize that you are actually becoming part of the key points of support that are ‘here’ to share, direct news with common sense, sharing our own self support which is creating actual cool information that anyone can access to, and eventually support themselves equally if they have an intention and/or have made a decision to be serious about being part of the transformation required in this world to establish a world in Equality. 

    It doesn’t matter if we are physically near or not, which is the cool point about the internet and Desteni, we are connected by common interests that are not ‘separate bubbles’ equating the CULTtures and values we are witnessing define everyone within ‘little realms’ of preferences and affiliations within this world. We take on common-sensical aspects that apply and pertain to all beings in this world, that’s our starting point and that’s how it is an all inclusive group: you are serious to be the change that this world requires = you begin  with supporting yourself and join a group/ a force that is already doing so.

     

    I’ve finally found people around the world that are willing to live the same way that I once dreamed we could live as: supporting each other, reading each other, sharing ourselves – instead of having to discuss someone else’s books and fictional stories. This is the real deal and for that, I’m grateful to be walking here – I take all these minute fears and resistances through Self Forgiveness in order to see and expose them for what they are, nothing but habits and patterns that I realize must be stopped and directed on a constant/ daily basis.

     

    This world works in patterns and habits – so I create a pattern and a habit of sharing myself, participating, deliberately wording myself and pressing ‘submit’ wherein I make sure that no fear stands in the way of me expressing/sharing and supporting the way to stand as the living expression of what Life should be lived as by all of us in this world.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the word ‘obligation’ to ‘being in the internet’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependence toward internet for the past 14 years of my life wherein I get into an idea of ‘being disconnected from the world’ if not being in the internet

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ‘too comfortable’ with having no internet because this means I am not aware of what is ‘going on’ in the world, apparently, and I can just remain in my own bubble wherein I don’t have any responsibilities toward the world –

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the ‘internet’ to ‘responsibility’ because it is through there that I participate with others, I inform myself, I communicate and interact with others.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a ‘negative value’ to the word responsibility instead of realizing that it is a word that I am here to live as myself as the realization of what must be done in order to understand how the world works and how I can practically assist to create a new-system that will enable us to coexist in an effective-living way.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could remain in this state of ‘disconnectedness’ toward the world because it is ‘very comfortable’ to not have to do daily tasks and constant participation in the world within the internet.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relate the word ‘comfortable’ as in being devoid of responsibilities, wherein I then see that it is actually abdicating self-responsibility and a mind-comfort created within this association, it’s not an actual physical comfort because I realize that I could ‘feel alright’ within my mind – but the nagging thoughts about myself and reality would continue if I didn’t have the will to support myself to stop and correct myself.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deeply wish or desire that I had never gotten myself into the internet which means

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the internet as a a ’blessing’ but also as a ‘torture’ in terms of who I am and what I have become now as an active participant within the internet as a way to communicate, interact, share, write, inform myself and co-operate within a group that is constantly working and creating information in order to support ourselves.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet as a torture toward myself but also a great tool.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as a ‘torture’ because I would have essentially kept myself in a very comfortable bubble wherein ‘everything is fine’ and there’s nothing to do but ‘seek my personal fulfillment.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at times create a slight resistance to go through my email, through Facebook, through forums, in fear of it being all just ‘too much’ to go through and in essence not wanting to participate because of the actual work and dedication it entails, without realizing that it is the best way I can direct myself: supporting myself/ supporting others which is essentially what we all should be doing as humanity in order to really create a world that’s best for all.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am ‘not there’ for a day, everything will just compound and become unbearable. Without realizing that it is just an idea of myself toward the points that must be taken one by one without ‘rushing’ or creating and expectation of it all being ‘done’ within a particular time-frame.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself in a constant ‘battle against time’ wherein I set up my own ‘scores’ and act from the vantage point of ‘who I am’ within a self-definition as being ‘fast and accurate’ which I have realized is an energetic ego-driven persona that I have developed throughout the years as a point of self-definition, making it a ‘positive aspect’ within myself, without realizing that I have only been ‘fighting against time’ and ‘beating my own records’ as a synonym of ‘self improvement.’ Lol which is actually bullshit really, I move and direct myself at a physical pace, as breathe here in every moment, without having to create the delusion of ‘I must go there’ and rush all the time.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the current awareness that I have toward this world as myself, and everything being part of ‘who I am’ and having to take responsibility for it, because within this, there is actual work to be done as in walking a process of self-correction to actually do something to create a world that is best for all.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that I had never gotten to know about the actual reality in this world – because that would have meant me just continuing living my ‘little bubble’ wherein I was unaware of the actual state of the world- and within this,

    I forgive myself that I am actually allowing thoughts of ‘not wanting to actually do the necessary work’ to create a world that is and will be best for all.’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create any form of laziness which is actually fear of change, fear of exposing myself, fear of taking actual ‘actions’ that I have to conduct and will challenge who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, not only on a ‘personal basis’ but as humanity, as a whole.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a polarity relationship toward the internet as a ‘great need’ but also as a point of ‘rejection’ toward it in the back of my head if I get too overwhelmed by it – hence creating an opposite of feeling ‘comfortable’ with not having Internet/ not having to ‘be there’ all the time, and in that allowing me to get used to not participate, not voice myself, not write and share because that’s quite a comfortable way of existing wherein, we would only focus ‘toward ourselves’ and not the world and the current reality we’re living in.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep thoughts in the back of my head of an apparent ‘nice past time’ wherein I didn’t have to confront myself as in facing myself through this process and the world as myself, because it was seemingly ‘better’ to exist that way according to the memories that I have decided to keep of myself as the past, without actually remembering how ‘lost’ I felt when I was oblivious to this reality, which is how I resorted to  ‘seek myself’ through my own mindfucks in writings, books, music and relationships in an inherent attempt to ‘connect with the world,’ which is essentially how I have now decided to direct myself and my life through using the internet as a main tool of self-support.

     

    I stop judging the internet as an ‘addiction’ or as a ‘first necessity’ point within my life, I stop seeing myself with bad eyes for being in it all the time, without realizing that this has become the way for me to educate myself, to direct myself to participate in matters that matter within this world, wherein I have finally found ‘the way’ to connect/ support and realize myself as others as well.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet, Facebook, mails, forums, news, videos as something that I could ‘resist’ in order to keep myself in a very comfortable position of ‘not having to do anything about it’ and in that way keeping myself in a very comfortable position wherein ‘nothing disturbs me.’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the awareness of the reality of this world as something that ‘disturbs me,’ instead of realizing that this is just the way to start seeing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become, which should not create any ‘experience’ within me, but simply acting according to how I can stand as the solution, as the point of self-responsibility and self-direction in relation to what I am now aware of requires direction and correction within this world.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could have remained in  a ‘comfortable bubble’ within my world if I hadn’t gotten to the internet – without realizing that the truth of this world cannot be denied or ‘hidden’ within our every-day living reality to not see it. I have simply ‘chosen’ to become aware of it and direct myself accordingly.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge myself for my participation within the internet which can only come from a starting point of ego and not an actual realization of having assessed the publishing, sharing and distribution of information in relation to making a point of self-support available for myself/others in my world and through the internet.

     

    If we all participate in common sense within the internet, being self-honest about who we are, sharing how we support ourselves to stop our personal interest and get involved in collective-interests, sharing how we can becoming effective at what we do,  sharing information that is practical and ‘valuable’ within the context of education,  the internet would be an awesome place to be in.

    Unfortunately that’s not the case at the moment – and the same you can access a page full of pornography or ‘101 ways on how to commit suicide’ than you can open up a website on Self Forgiveness and how to become a Self-Responsible being. Therefore, at the moment it’s like a ‘free-range arena’ wherein you can decide what you want to browse for, what you want to participate in – this is how participating in Desteni is a fully self-directive point, wherein beings decide for themselves to either be a part of it or not – no one is pushing it down your throat as part of some squared educational system. It is a truly open-source platform of information and self-support that anyone can walk and have access-to if they have access to the internet.

    For those that don’t have internet yet – we hear you, and we will make sure that in the future, internet is free and accessible for all because we have realized what a useful tool it is for purposes of education and, currently, establishing democratic procedures to become involved in the necessary actions and decision-making in the world.

    Fascinating, this is how we can actually see who and what we decide to do and direct ourselves as in this world. I have decided that I want to live and support myself and others along, therefore here I stand.

     


    2012 Self Forgiveness: How-To, Why, What, Where, When?

    So, I’m watching Desteni videos – I am going one after the other looking for the ‘magic code’ that I can use to essentially deprogram myself now that I’ve understood that we have been preprogrammed Mind Consciousness Systems and we require to do something about it! I definitely don’t want to remain just as another ‘consciousness robot’ that’s not living, but only killing time – What do I have to do? – Where do I find the way out? – What’s the secret?’  these were my thoughts 4 years ago.

    Initially I got so freaked out by watching the videos and hearing the words ‘STOP THE MIND’ so many times, that I feared ending up in like a vegetative state. I thought that this process was simply impossible and wondered how on Earth will I go on through my life with ‘No Mind’! I admit here that I was very gullible, that’s probably one of the reasons why I indulged into so much bullshit (spirituality and conspiracy theories) that I researched right before getting to Desteni. With having this ‘background,’  I didn’t take into consideration what was actually meant by ‘stopping the mind,’ and only allowed myself to get into what I now call ‘the whiner experience’ wherein I created a turmoil of thoughts, giving up on myself even before I started. This was due to this process being seemingly  impossible at first glance: ‘too much’, ‘unbearable’, ‘How will I do this?’ – It worried me for a while, lol, all part of the same mind-experience created within myself.

    Within this state of enraged-pity, I sent a message to the guys at Desteni explaining my situation, how I was literally ‘losing my mind’ by realizing that I had to stop my mind – and wondered how will I live, what will I be? Etc. The reply that I got from them was, to my surprise, of such simplicity and obviousness that I literally laughed out loud while reading it, as I realized how usual this experience had been throughout my life: it was my mind throwing a tantrum, the mind’s defense mechanism to not have to go through this process = it’s not who I really am as life the one that’s complaining! So, this point became an initial realization: stopping myself from being the whiner. Ever since then I have shared that video with anyone that experiences the same point of it all being seemingly ‘impossible’ to walk through, only to realize that it’s the mind’s survival mechanism kicking-in and literally crying out for help when realizing: we’re about to debunk its kingdom.

    Once I got over my initial reactions, I simply continued watching the material.

    Self Forgiveness ?

    I constantly heard the words Self-Honesty, Self-Forgiveness, Writing, Breathing, Self Corrective Application in the videos, which I inferred was ‘the way to go.’ I began assessing my then ‘values’ and ‘stance’ toward such words.

    I was a ‘pro-Honesty’ person within the understanding of what ‘being Honest’ is/means in the system, which could have been like declaring war toward another being or country in a ‘rational and logical’ manner, and be considered as ‘being honest’ by ‘speaking the truth of their intentions’ without ever considering what’s best for all in such words/ decisions. I had considered myself to be a ‘frank person’ within those parameters, not really considered ‘what’s best for all’ in such a honest self-created idea of myself.  So, this is how I began opening eyes to what SELF-Honesty was, which made sense to me in every bit of it.

    Writing was something I had been doing at the time – yet definitely using it as a reinforcement of my own personalities wherein poems or lyrics to songs I never sang would come through, lol – in essence, I wrote to form and shape my personality, just like a sculpture that I was busy creating of myself as a nice idea that I could wear. Those writings became the ‘code’ so to speak, wherein I would reassure to myself ‘who I was’ and why I thought in a particular way, why I liked or disliked the world.  I didn’t really write to get me out of my self-created‘hole,’ but rather reinforced it and justified it as ‘a way of living.’ This was all I would write about at that time.

    When realizing what the process consisted of, I understood that this had to be developed in order to ‘change the world.’ I had no problem in directing such points into a ‘one and equal’ understanding, but… Self Forgiveness? All types of judgments went on inside me along with the usual questions like: ‘Why do I have to forgive myself?’ ‘Why can’t I just ‘let it go/ stop it?’ – ‘Isn’t that a religious thing?’ – ‘Isn’t there just another way to do this (process) instead of having to write out this format-like sentences to correct myself?’ I was very skeptical and even went to the extent of fearing ‘deprogramming myself,’ fearing getting to a point of having ‘no control’ over myself = essentially fearing becoming a ‘self forgiven drone’ lol, without actually realizing at the time that I was already Not ‘in control’ of myself and that I was a mind-driven being that had never actually lived.

    We tend to get overwhelmed by the sole idea of having to forgive ourselves for everything that we’ve lived-as thus far and forgive ourselves as the entire world for that matter. This was only an initial mind-experience that we then fear ‘getting ourselves into,’ because it just seems ‘too much’ and we go into self-pity experiences of ‘I can’t possibly do this’, I went through a breakdown due to having to let go of my ideas of there being a ‘quick fix’ to this reality, or even some type of God existing to which I could ‘connect to’ and get to a ‘greater self-experience.’ This was all part of the mindfuck that was required to be stopped in the first place.

    So I said to myself, I can’t go on as I am we’ve got to stop the world and for that we begin with ourselves. At first it seemed really petty to have this as a reason to do so, I still held secret desires on a magic wand doing the job for me wherein I would only have to ‘apply self forgiveness’ as in writing it out and the problem would be solved – later on I found out what it really was all about.

    I got my shoes on, let’s walk this!

    I went on to the forum just to see what Self Forgiveness was after spending the first weeks just trying to get used to the idea of me applying Self Forgiveness – initially it seemed like a repetitive drone of words wherein I would have to go through every bit of my memories, my ‘life’ and apply Self Forgiveness for it. It seemed extensive, in my mind there was like an immediate ‘No way! That is impossible’ within forming ideas of having to then spend the rest of my days applying Self Forgiveness non-stop, lol. That’s the ‘extremist’ aspect of the personality I continue exploring through writing and stopping within this process.

    After reading the very first examples on Self Forgiveness by Jack, I sat on my bed in the afternoon and began reading. I saw myself in the awkward position of reading along those statements aloud for the very first time in my life. . I probably even blushed to myself, even if I was absolutely alone, it was just so ‘not me’ to be forgiving myself considering that I had lived as a self-righteous person that thinks, believes everything I do is ‘word’ and cannot be wrong. The single act of sitting down and reading self forgiveness was an immediate humbling moment, it was already being like a hand grenade blown toward my ego: it was about to be blown up for life.

    One of the first points that I walked through self forgiveness was exposing the mind’s limitations and fears and any other emotion/feeling attached to beginning this process in itself. I literally had created this surreal scenario of ‘me walking process’ wherein I saw myself as a zombie passing by ‘regular people’ on the streets and simply having to remain ‘blank’ the whole time. Nope, that was my own misconception that was later on part of my own fears blowing Process out of proportion – laughing at it was a cool way to shed the point off and simply get myself to start writing,  committing myself to myself to life no matter what.

    WHAT?

    Okay, so… what is this supposed to do now? I’m now free from god? from the female ego? and I’m now Self Honest?” Lol, my first ideas on Self Forgiveness were linked to this being a process wherein I would be doing some type of magic spell by simply stating the words/ writing myself out and having it all ‘cleared up’– let’s say that the entire aspect of having to Live Self Forgiveness wasn’t really understood at that time. So, I decided to apply the point of being unconditional about it, I had nothing to lose.

    I proceeded to first start writing a point out to see ‘how it worked’ which was working with the most prominent experiences I had in that moment. I wasn’t even participating that much at the time in the forums, I just focused on setting this foundation for myself, because I knew this was the way to walk the process, to stand up for life and finally stop my mind – I ‘knew’ it, yet it had to be walked and self-realized.

    I noticed how at first it all seemed so repetitive – ‘Why can’t I just say ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself’ once and then just name the whole list and ‘get over with it’?’ – I was still looking for the ‘fast and accurate’ way out of it, took some time to grasp what I was actually doing as ‘Forgiving myself’ after applying the usual ‘fake it till you make it’ wherein words don’t seem to mean anything – and in fact, they won’t! Unless you Live them. This was the ‘aha-moment’ that I had to walk and discover for myself through the actual application of it in time.

    I must say that the judgment toward the word forgiveness remained even after a while into writing and process. To me it was like a silent-cringe inside me whenever I would hear myself forgiving myself, because of having these concepts of religion and priests and the entire religious-construct along with the word ‘forgiveness.’ It was just plain icky at the beginning.

    Key-point here: I hadn’t applied Self Forgiveness for judging the word Self-Forgiveness in itself and clearing out the associations toward it. I had to see how the ‘awkwardness’ was linked to this memory of that one and only time that I ever ‘confessed myself’ to a priest, which remained like a very bitter experience in my life, almost like having to swallow a medicine that leaves a very bad taste in your mouth for a while. The priest spoke the word ‘forgiveness’ and so to me that had just left a stigma toward that word. I never went to confess myself again and in my mind, applying self forgiveness was like confessing my ‘dark deeds’ to myself, which I saw as a cool point in terms of not having to resort to telling my stuff to someone in order to be ‘absolved from my sins.’ Then I realized what a nice trick religion had created in order to be the ‘only ones’ that can endow you with such ‘god-given right to forgive you,’ whereas Self-Forgiveness implied: I can do it myself –  awesome, way to go to debunk faith and beliefs.

    I applied self forgiveness on feeling ‘icky’ and weird and judging the word forgiveness and self forgiveness in itself – the whole lot of points that went opening up as I went writing out the sentences around thoughts like ‘why do I have to forgive myself,’ ‘why forgiveness sounds like something priests do to others,’ forgiveness related to god, forgiveness related to me having done something ‘wrong’, forgiveness as in ‘asking someone forgiveness’ and even ideas on this being a humiliating process and embarrassing even for myself alone.

    When beginning process I also  noticed how I also wanted to ‘get over with my past shit and move on’ which I did through writing it all out and sharing it as a form of also demonstrating something to someone of my own application – in a way following an ‘ideal’ of clearing myself fro such ‘sins’ as soon as possible. This is not something that was ‘wrong’ or anything. simply I found out in that process how we find our own way to establish ourselves through process in a ‘trial and error’ manner.

    In my case it was mostly through writing that I opened up points to apply Self Forgiveness for,  having that ‘freedom to write’ wherein I’d share all the apparent trivial points of my days. I would experience certain blockages while writing out self forgiveness whenever I would jump in my mind into an idea of ‘myself within process’ wherein we believe that we are doing something that will make us ‘better,’ make us ‘more’ in any way – Nope, not at all. I quote a sentence that came through a chat  once“The Self as life has no language or Skill yet.” Realizing the humbleness required to walk this process was quite a cool point within it all,  as it allowed me to stop having to ‘uphold’ a particular idea of myself I had been bound myself for my entire life as living up to the ‘highest standard’ possible at an intellectual level.

    I had to let go of this ego-formed around been specific and effective within my application – it is still being stopped whenever it rears its head. I realized that it could only feed yet another ‘ideal’ of myself becoming something/ someone ‘better’ instead of simply realizing that self-honest application here will not enhance any egos, but only reveal/ expose and function as support to direct ourselves into an actual practical physical living realization of who we really are, supporting us to take off the blindfold to see what we all really are.

    WHY ?

    The simplest reason I can name of why I came to apply Self Forgiveness was to simply get to actually Live. I understood we can’t possibly go on as we have in this world,  we have to stop what we’ve accepted and allowed within ourselves and actually get to the realization that it is in fact possible to create a new world if each individual that is willing to stand up for life, dedicates themselves to themselves, to live a process wherein Life is considered in all aspects as one and equal – always.

    I wanted to stop being the same self-deprecating system with all these habits and obsessions and desires to know and obtain any form of ‘truth’ to create a ‘meaning to life.’ When I heard that Self Forgiveness was the way to first of all STOP all of those delusions to then live, I realized that I had to ‘test this out for myself’, I couldn’t just continue watching the material and absorbing all the knowledge and information for the delight of my own witty-ego satisfaction, no.

    I initially went ‘full-on’ applying Self Forgiveness and had a heavy-duty time with it with writing out a lot. I was still having this ‘urge’ to get something done, to ‘get it done’ and be finally ‘here’ with “no-mind” and being finally free, I was still applying Self Forgiveness from that starting point of achieving something, not really realizing what I was doing was part of the process of first getting to establish Self Honesty within myself.

    I realized how this process is not about ‘bettering ourselves’ or ‘personal growth’ but simply the realization of what we are actually able and capable of living-as, directing ourselves toward our optimum-state and living in our fullest potential. This all made sense to me as the way this world and reality ‘should have always been’ – I saw how the point that was in between us from realizing our actual ability to stop and correct ourselves had only been ourselves as the mind. We are the only ones standing on our way– this is paraphrasing Bernard. All the ‘lostness’ thoughts began to diminish, because I saw that I had only ‘gotten lost’ according to the thoughts that I had given space and many breaths away to exist as ‘who I am,’ I then realized to what extent this had been my own creation and how I had to take self responsibility for it.

    I suggest reading the blog ‘How I was able to Hear Desteni’ for further details about these first days of encountering it. Even though it all sounded extremely weird to me, I decided to ‘give it a try’ simply because I had already gone through other processes in trying to ‘make myself feel better’ which had not really been effective or with ‘long lasting effects’ just like the temporary bridge they were. I decided to apply Self Forgiveness in part also to see ‘what it was all about’ and not allow me to only formulate ideas/ beliefs about it without testing it for myself.

    HOW ?

    The initial experience within applying Self Forgiveness was fueled  with regret, shame and guilt when realizing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist-as in this world, and how we had – within such possession-  created a world of hatred and separation. Myself being the +1 point that supported such depression,  anxiety, walking with this constant judgmental view on the world  that I allowed myself to be and become.  I walked through my reality seeking for experiences, people, drugs or anything that could allow me to ‘grasp’ this reality, to not feel ‘lost’ and apparently gaining some type of ‘higher status’ to be special, to at least ‘know’ any form of ‘truth’ within this reality that would make me feel like there was a ‘point’ in this existence –  though I could only continue seeing  that nothing made sense.

    This is almost a ‘normal thing’ to go-through when realizing all the moments that we’ve spent in our little bubbles secluded from the rest of the world. Thus I initially rushed in means of ‘clearing my name/image’ as soon as possible. I had the idea that it was all about writing the self forgiveness out in one go, and then being ‘clear/ absolved’ of it forevermore. No, that was only my ego once again wanting to ‘shove it all away’ as fast as I could to regain a certain ‘peace of mind’ and be done with it –  it was just another attempt to regain the experience of ‘everything is fine,’ without really grasping how this was a process to be lived for a lifetime.

    Self Forgiveness can only support us in identifying the points that we have to correct ourselves,  yet as we know, this takes the actual physical integration of that which I vow to stand for, Self as the starting point in all ways = walking the talk.

    It was through the support through forums, Bernard, Sunette and everyone else participating at Desteni that I realized that Desteni was no quick fix, that it would take the actual living-application of it, that I had to actually walk-it, live-it, fall and rise again, make mistakes as many as I had to in order to get to know which road Not to follow – I realized that I actually required to DO THIS, that this was no prayer or magic wand wherein I could just simply spell nice words and pretend all is well – no.

    I also had to see how I had never ever done this as it’s not a preprogrammed thing to do. I realized that it wouldn’t come as a single easy decision wherein you chose from one color to another, but that it would take an actual self-commitment and self-will to prove if what was being shared with regards to Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty and writing ourselves to freedom was actually supportive. Till this day I can say: yes it is, absolutely.

    At times I would be quite overwhelmed with all the points I would go opening up through Self Forgiveness. It was a process wherein through writing and making it a consistent point within my every day living, it became a habit, a cool habit to start getting to know myself, to see where and how it is required to apply self forgiveness, how to apply self forgiveness for the experiences of the day. I mean, to me writing became like the most enjoyable part of the day and till this day, If I don’t write a day it would be because I’m absolutely sick or something – even if I don’t write blogs on a daily basis, I am continually writing somewhere in the internet or for myself in a notebook. It’s become part of myself – and it’s a very coo habit to develop a point of self-communication wherein we are able to ground ourselves as self-support and share it whenever we can with others as well. Writing and words are the key to this reality – and this is a Destonian realization, we are proving it for ourselves as we walk.

    All in all, Self Forgiveness was a trial and error process initially, wherein I virtually began applying Self Forgiveness for everything and all that I noticed in my environment, in my thoughts, in the world – it’s cool though because that’s how I got to discern what is common sense, what is Self Honesty, what are points that I have to open up further and how eventually applying/ living Self Forgiveness would imply the ‘actual doing’/ walking of all of these statements.

    This was finally something that I had to ‘make it work’ = it was no quick fix or magical wand as I had desired it initially to be – that’s when I began ‘meeting my maker’ for real, because Self Forgiveness became ‘the way’ to start seeing what the hell on Earth I was thinking and going through at all times as the inner chatter that I had dared to call ‘my best friend.’

    WHEN ?

    Once I started grasping Self Honesty, I saw that I could no longer be fooling myself with playing the same old ‘me’ when I had clearly set out the reasons, excuses and justifications for me being/ becoming a particular way – the self-interest, the narcissism, the arrogance, the self-inflated ego, the obsessions, the self-created delusions were out and in the open now, I could not fool myself nor did I want to continue deceiving myself. I can openly say now that it is through applying and living Self Forgiveness that I found what Self-Respect is, what actually establishing Self-Trust is based on one’s own writings and realizations and practical-living application of such realizations as well.

    The moment that I saw that even after leaving behind all the idea of myself I was still ‘Here,’ fears started vanishing – and I continued walking no matter what. Self Forgiveness became ‘the way of living’ from the perspective of being able to correct myself when seeing ‘the point’ that was missed in a moment wherein – yes – a breath was missed.

    Breathing through resistances to bring-through a point within Self Forgiveness, breathing through the initial judgment that may come whenever we expose to ourselves a point that we had suppressed and not looked at out of embarrassment, shame, guilt or fear – breathing through reactions is the way to go once you see the same points emerging after having applied self forgiveness for the point, such as my initial judgment toward Self-Forgiveness in itself.

    I remember once buying myself an only-self-forgiveness bloc of notes and the day that I had finished writing on the very last page, I felt ‘so cool’ about it, I planned to save it for the posterity lol – I lost it that same day at the bus station, I realized that such process was not to be ‘cherished’ and that it wasn’t about creating a collection of self-forgiveness, but actually walking through the process of living it, living the correction that I had seen through my writings that I had to stop, correct, align within the principle of what’s best for all. Eventually I understood that I could write heaps – yet if it wasn’t applied, then it was absolutely useless.

    I also saw how any ‘good feeling’ I could get out of applying Self Forgiveness, was a mind generated experience and had to be stopped.

    When getting specific support on the point through the Tree of Life I realized how ‘my past was still haunting me’ literally and how I was creating an actual experience of rushing or even anxiety in wanting to ‘get rid of the fucker as soon as possible and be at peace,’ without actually realizing that I had to first let go of wanting to ‘overcome myself’ but simply face the points for what they are, self forgive and walk the process at the physical pace of breathing – moment by moment.

    This ‘rush’ had to be stopped by first realizing that I had to clear myself from such thoughts of guilt, regret and shame that had emerged when writing myself to freedom, I wanted to ‘get over with it’ as soon as possible. I then realized that ‘there is nothing to attain’, there is nothing to ‘get to’ or ‘become’ – It is about realizing who/ what I really am,  that I am Here and I can’t define and limit myself within a perceived amount of time that I require to do this. So, rushing is linked to a self-competition through time against myself, against the personality I had become. So, forgiving myself for that became the pillar to walk in humbleness, to realize there is nothing to ‘attain’ or get, but is an actual walking-living self-realization that will be proven through our own participation in space and time in our reality.

    This also included stopping the expectations or ideals of ‘who I will become once I have applied Self Forgiveness’ – making sure I didn’t form any self-grandeur within it, any ego enhancement as being then ‘more’ than others or now being ‘done’ with myself and not requiring to continue, that’d be rather another mindfuck to debunk indeed – and I remind myself of this every time that it is required. It is a constant living application. 

    Living Self Forgiveness

    I never knew how layered my personality was until I started applying Self Forgiveness

    It was shocking to start seeing how I was essentially avoiding ‘mingling’ with people around me based on this idea/ personality I had of myself. I started realizing how I had become that which I had vehemently judged others for: I had become my own worst nightmare without ever noticing it. By this I mean a rather picky, elitist, judgmental, arrogant being that would only care to ‘spend time’ with those people that would ‘care’ about me as I did for them – conveniently so – I would not give a reverend fuck about the rest, I only cared about my little bubble. So, when applying self forgiveness and going understanding that this process was to expose myself for everything I had become, it initially was something I resisted, just because of fearing to face the reality that I had become, the actual  ‘true nature’ of myself while I had though of myself as being a nice and delightful person. This was then obviously out of still playing out my core-personality, instead of being fully unconditional within the application.

    See, the cool thing about Self Forgiveness is that we realize that we’ve existed as patterns, patterns repeat by ‘nature/design’, we realize that due to the extent that we’ve lived as the mind, we will be facing layers upon layers of the same pattern in various different aspects of our reality. Thus, we know we can’t be ‘done with it’ in one go – we’ll in fact amalgamate ourselves to the physical as breath, moment by moment, walking with the necessary patience to go stopping and correcting ourselves. That is translated to simply being able to stop the mind, stop all unnecessary time-loops of repeating the same experiences over and over again, until we realize that we simply require to Stop, Self Forgive and let go of it. Sounds simple, yes, though it takes a constant application that becomes ‘who we are’ every time we stop ourselves from participating in the mind, in every moment that we do not participate in that which seems enticing and alluring to go into – that moment that we don’t ‘go there’ actually supports ourselves to ground ourselves in/as the physical, we prove to ourselves that we can actually do this, that it just takes one breath at the time and sufficient self-will to do it.

    I never even thought that I would get to enjoy this process until I simply started living it. I would spend hours writing out self forgiveness because I saw it as a very effective way to go opening up points and almost ‘challenging’ me to transcend my fears of ‘oh no no don’t go in there!’ within my mind wherein I would have to kind of give myself an internal kick in the ass to write the point out. Embarrassment, shame, guilt, heaps of self judgment, self-hatred, a lot of judgments toward other people, the world – I was overwhelmed!  However, it was the most liberating point once it was ‘out’ like a physical relief from having now exposed this rotting corpse to myself, it no longer was this ‘dead talk’ inside my head lingering around, provoking me to go into certain moods or experiences that I would then dare to participate in and define as ‘who I am.’ These experiences began diminishing, simply because I could not kid myself into such thoughts after having extensively exposed them for what they are. Once the can of worms was opened, the can was empty and I filled it up with soil to grow something rather supportive for myself to live in common sense.

    The specificity implied in the writing itself of Self Forgiveness has been a key point of support in order to learn how the mind works as a perfect-system for excuses and justifications to not take Self-Responsibility. Hence the only way to ‘tackle’ this problem is through walking an equally specific and perfected system of self correction, which is why Self Forgiveness is such a specific way to correct ourselves. Each word in the basic sentence as ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself…’ is an absolute statement of taking Self Responsibility for having given our lives up to a mind-driven action that was done in inconsideration of who we are as one and equal.

    Throughout the process of getting to know how Self Forgiveness works, participating in the forum, reading others’ posts became a pillar and vital point of feedback. I was pretty much amazed how any single action/ event was able to be directed by using the same tools – indistinctly – and how common sense is always able to be established in any given situation, by the fact that every action is exerted through a process wherein a process of decision making is involved: to act or not act – it is self-created and as such, it can be corrected.

    How come we had missed this throughout time?

    No Excuses: Life Cannot be Denied

    I see Self Forgiveness as giving ourselves a second chance to live – to finally create ourselves as that which we see is and will be best for all as one and equal. This sounds ‘cool’ but living the words implies a life-dedication, a commitment toward ourselves that we support ourselves with and share with others. It is a way to expand our ability to see/ realize that who we really are had been caged in our own mind-traps and we are ready to take them all down for we have been the very creators of it all.

    There is no ‘mystery ’in Self Forgiveness, it’s not a self-god-given right, it is about understanding that we stop ourselves from existing within a single point of definition or idea of ourselves that limits/ defines who we are, and living it out through first removing/ detaching ourselves from such memory, idea, thought, belief, picture and standing up from having accepted and allowed ourselves to remain limited within such conception of ourselves.

    It’s about getting to know ourselves, to learn ‘how’ we function and  take Self-Responsibility for it, which is realizing and understanding  how there will be no miracles happening in order for us to correct what we have accepted and allowed to exist in this world.  We have this one life, one opportunity for us to be the creators of a reality that we are willing to exist as from now on, within common sense, within the principle of what is best for all as equals. This is the single starting point for creation we have missed throughout time – it is only now that we have the opportunity to stand as the living example of what is possible for us human beings to be and become when we become the change that we want to see in this world.

    Enjoy living this out for yourself.

    Supportive Articles I read to walk Self Forgiveness:

    And many more at: http://desteni.org/articles

    Self-Forgiveness Blog


    2012 Words Are Us

    “Words are here as a tool, as support as assistance for each one of us to communicate with each other, to converse, to express and live through our words, to show each other who we are as I am communicating, expressing, sharing and showing who I am through words. I am the words I speak as each are the words you speak. Words – through words we communicate, we share, we express – have anyone forgotten the importance of words, of realizing the simplicity of the living word?”
    ~ Osho through the interdimensio­nal portal [1]

    Within studying the basics of linguistics I realized how everything that we can define in this world, all that we are able to communicate, identify and depict in this reality can be expressed through words. Some  years ago when I went through one year in linguistics school, I would hear teachers saying how we had chosen to study the most important subject within humanity, which is words – though I judged this as part of their necessary self-glorification because of having dedicated their lives to this science. I was wrong.

    One of the core definitions we had to learn by heart is that language is a group of conventional signs arbitrarily created and agreed upon by people. When understanding how the sign was created as the arbitrary placement of one piece of reality= a group of letters called ‘word,’ I thought that this was almost like ‘violating’ the reality that is here – it was like becoming God within being able to name things and give it a certain space and value within what would become the realm of knowledge, our first bite of the apple.

    Within this realization, I came to a precipitated conclusion that we had just created a world out of ‘made-up words’ – we had simply taken the entire language system‘as it is’ because that’s what we learn and acquire from our parents, that’s what we use to define what’s here and communicate with others, never really questioning to the core how is it that we have words for everything that is here in both physical and ‘abstract’ reality.  At the time it felt like being studying the origin of the corruption of what is here as the primordial human imposition onto life,  it was like separating a piece of reality, placing it under a certain category wherein we become the point that categorizes and ‘controls’ reality through words, this is where human’s ‘reason comes out as the self-belief – or dare I call it self-talk – that ‘we now know better’ because we are able to define it.

    This mindfuck  that I created for myself  became an excuse for me to degrade this reality to being ‘an illusion’ and a ‘fallacy,’  because we have based our reality essentially out of words that – literally – god knows how we got to create. The origin of languages has been placed within the Indo-European civilizations according to the academy; however this only seems like placing a starting point for the sake of having that first methodic doubt solved and not have to linger around ‘filling the gaps’ within our history – which is still being sought/ studied in various fields of our human civilization (see.evil-I-zation)

    That’s where I began seeing how there were words that are used to name what is here, what’s physically here – and that makes perfect sense – and words that were then pointing out to an almost ‘metaphysical existence’ that is not-tangible. We are human beings that require to interact with each other in relation to ‘What’s Here’ and whenever we say ‘what’s here’ it means: the world with everything that is existing as the entire ecosystem, the physical reality that we eat from, that we breathe and live and interact within. But then, the word ‘concept’ came into being, it was this ‘abstraction’ that the word becomes out of a piece of reality .

    I’ll explain again the cookie-dough theory simply because that’s the way I was able to grasp it that day in school. We have the ‘nebulae of thought’ as they describe it – yet I would rather place it as we have the reality that is here as raw cookie dough. What we did as humanity, was creating a set of cookie cutters that are in, this case, a specific configuration of letters as words to take a piece of that entire mass of cookie dough and give it a shape, give it a form. Within the identification of such mass within a particular form, we are then able to give it a name, to call it in a way that we are able to identify it from the other pieces of reality that have been created with other different shapes from the same cookie-dough.  Just as the first molecule explained, what happened as we went on creating words to name what is here is that the primordial separation of ourselves as one and equal began. Words became these capsules that enclosed a particular meaning/ piece of reality which was absolutely arbitrarily placed.

    An example we had was in terms of different languages – in Spanish it is ‘tongues’ as languages is the system of signs, where as ‘tongues’ is different idioms as languages such as English, Spanish, German, Gaelic etc. So, let’s say we have a particular range of colors that go from green to grey. In English there can be a particular word that indicate a particular tonality of green that is predominantly green, whereas in another language such as Gaelic for example, there is a word that would comprise the meaning of a color that was considered ‘green’ yet it was predominantly grey in nature (nature seen here as the color spectrum.) And probably another language could have comprised the meaning of the exact equal combination of both colors in one single name of the color – this is how words that comprise a certain range of meaning in one language, would not exist in another, while – even worse, there was even a gap left for a particular color range that didn’t even have a name. When I realized this, the biblical myth of the Tower of Babel came to mind as our reality: separated by words, by different language systems wherein we all eventually got lost in translation and were simply cursed with having the ability to communicate only with those that used the same code, which eventually became our different cultures/ nations as the blocks of separation. In our attempt to ‘reach god’ we were instead separated through and by words.

    “When the languages were confused at the tower of Babel – the outcome you are living now was already foresaw and programmed; and every thought you have was programmed through fuzzy-logic to give you the idea that it is ‘you’

    […]

    So the tower of BABEL; it was the attempt of man to build the road/ladder to heaven on earth which was within the DNA/MEMORY of the beings confused to prevent them from doing this by creating multiple-languages so that the humans could not co-operate and never create heaven on earth as it is part of human nature that makes it impossible. Meanwhile it is part of pre-programming. Languages so became the sins of the fathers / the principle of divide and conquer. Now it’s taken forms as personalities as well  that cannot see eye to eye.

                                                                              ~Bernard Poolman (25/11/2011)

    A contemporary example of how this separation is now made into profit – and as our entire money system – is the eternal battle of Microsoft vs. Mac – you can’t simply make them function/ work along because of their different OS System, specifically designed to be incompatible and within this, polarize the computer industry/ market. That’s how we have existed as humanity essentially – and this is not only in relation to speaking different languages which define/ identify the entire culture of a civilization/ group of speakers – but also as the creation of words that became the ultimate tool – and even weapons – created and used to conquer reality, which means ‘gaining power = $’ as a means of control upon life.

    Not being able to communicate effectively is also a big problem in our reality. We see this every single day when not being able to communicate within common sense with other beings, simply because knowledge and information as concepts, theories and further mindfucks clog the ways in which we could understand the simplicity of what being living the words imply. This is also because common sense as a living-realization of doing/being what’s best for all has not been lived/ applied either,  and we are barely placing our feet on the ground to get to live that at the moment here. This is how and why the purification of vocabulary has been constantly reinforced within the Desteni material, to realize to what extent words are the key to Self Honesty, to Live as one and equal = because we create this reality as the words we accept and allow ourselves to live/ exist-as.

    “Wanting/desiring to become God – is the most profound trap of enslavement in this world – that have raptured the very core of beings into separation. Seeking God as themselves or within others through utilizing methodologies of this world.”
                       ~ Swami Muktananda through the interdimensio­nal portal[2]

    I underestimated and degraded myself as words at that time while deeming them as cages of this reality – fascinating self-revelation: me judging words with words that could only depict the nature of what I had accepted and allowed myself to be and become. That was the time when I decided that ‘words weren’t my thing,’ I dropped out of linguistics deeming ‘the systematic nature of words’ as something ‘too constrictive for my liberal mind.’  I opted to create images, entered art school and declared war against words.

    It was rather foolish to do this because it’s definitely clear how we cannot separate ourselves from our creation – yes, this was my attempt to ‘escape the system’ as well. I also indulged in literature that would be vicious in nature, depicting the misery that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become in our desire to live within an equation of experiences = ‘being alive.’ It was only when I got to Desteni that I realized what a mindfuck I had created with my ‘rebellion against words,’ I had only created the ultimate separation and spitefulness toward myself, and the world as a whole.

    “No word is just a word in this world–it is our fucked- up nature that is in the words
    the deceptions exist as words–acceptances–kindness—allowances, etc.
    do not avoid words — direct words”

                                                                                                  ~ Bernard Poolman

    It is only now that I am able to see and realize who I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the words that I think, as the words that I speak and place into action by myself – that is and has become our ‘free choice’ wherein we have an array of words that we can choose to speak and embody without any insight or realization of what is it that we are in-fact saying/ speaking and communicating with others. When we do get to this point of seeing what-on-Earth we have become, the only way to stop it is through Self Forgiveness.

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to declare war against myself as words, to become disgusted by our creation as words and in that, spite my reality through indulging in the use of words to degrade myself through judging and criticizing myself/others,  disregarding at all times who I was within and as such acceptance and allowance of uttering such words toward myself, others and the world that is here, that I separated myself from.

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deem words as jails for our reality, and within this remaining as a victim of a system that I saw myself as ‘not being the creator of’ while neglecting the fact that I have accepted and allowed such words to exist as part of myself and this world, without seeing that it is only through and as myself that such ‘atrocities’ can stop, instead of blaming/ judging words for themselves. Words are innocent, it is only us that have given such ‘free reign’ of the having tried to avoid, suppress and escape from them through separating myself from the words I speak, never minding the consequence that I created and manifested through perpetuating the separation of everything that I name and speak as ‘separate’ from me.

    “Words are innocent – it is us as who we are that place value and worth and definition to words. We have separated ourselves from words – where words had become separate from us – with separate definition, with separate energetic experience connotations to words which we have used to define who we are separate from ourselves – which has manifested in the form of mind consciousness systems.”     ~ Sunette Spies

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge into speaking words without ever questioning the consequences that I would be creating when uttering them, never questioning what words could create within this reality that is me.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words to control, manipulate, denigrate, judge, criticize and vandalize a reality that I defined through words as the actual reflection of what is existent here as myself, as the depiction of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be and what we have become, never realizing that who I was in fact judging, criticizing, denigrating, manipulating and controlling is/was myself only through accepting and allowing such words to exist within and as me.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and use words that would enable the continuation of abuse toward anything/ anyone in this reality that is also myself.

    I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to not question the meaning of words and the potential harm/ abuse and separation that they implied. Within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words inadvertently, repeating the words I would hear around and see others speak without ever daring to stop myself to see what I was actually implying and meaning within such words.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words out of spitefulness toward words themselves wherein I then placed myself as a victim of ‘language’ as a form of separation, instead of realizing that words are me, words are my creation and within this I take Self Responsibility for each and every single word I’ve uttered in disregard of this point of self-creation.

    I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear using words such as hate, in fear of realizing that I was actually fearing realizing what was existent within me as ‘hate’ as part of this reality/ as myself.

    See, this is the shocking point that I realized – how anything that can be named and defined is because: it exists. When reading words about our psychological terms, when finding out the meaning of certain words that imply actions such as forms of torture, diseases, social-negligence such as ‘starvation’ and ‘murder’ – these words exist because we have created them through our own actions. These words have been ‘lived’ – perpetrated –  as what we have accepted and allowed as ‘human nature.’ Words are the mirror of what we exist as – and it’s definitely clear now that we must take Self Responsibility for each word that we have uttered in separation of ourselves. This world is the result from us speaking and acting without awareness of our thoughts and words, without considering what we were actually manifesting as ‘gods’ of this reality.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself with words that I used in order to ‘spite humanity’ as an attempt to become ‘god’ and stand in a ‘superiority’ point wherein I deemed myself to be ‘right’ and the rest of the world was ‘wrong,’  never realizing that this entire reality and words are who I am, and within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words in means of creating and building up an image of myself, an idea that has no relation to who and what I really am, here as the physical reality that I breathe in.

    We have created words that are able to rise us up to a non-existent heaven, and words that can depict ourselves as the scum of the Earth. Last night I came to the realization that: we are one and equal as the scum of the Earth – why have we created such value systems as words that can categorize something that is here that may cause us repulsion or disgust – yet it’s part of the Earth itself, is our reflection, it is part of what’s also here as ourselves.

    In an attempt to become God, we became our own holy talking ghosts with enough words to fuel our ‘idea of self’ with either delusions of grandeur or misery – both equally fucked – yet only existent in our minds in an invisible form, missing out the physical reality that is simply HERE as ourselves, as the flesh and bones, as the monads of life – if I can call it that –  that we have simply disregarded while being too busy ‘thinking words,’ never seeing and realizing what we were caging and defining ourselves-as and the consequences of how we ‘shape’ ourselves as the words we say/think and act upon.

    We are here in fact to relinquish such accepted and allowed past through writing ourselves out, unconditionally placing before ourselves even the darkest pit of our regret through words within the understanding that: we are able to Forgive Ourselves. Whenever I have realized and applied this, it becomes a living-realization that I can now let-go of any attachment I had toward everything that I had blamed myself for/ felt ‘bad’ about, any despicable words projected onto myself/ others and the guilt/ remorse and shame that comes with it,  because there is nothing to keep lingering on to within that. It would only recreate the same patterns if I was unwilling to forgive myself. Blame is another way for us to keep that ‘trap’ in place, simply because in our minds it is a well-known place – whereas taking self-responsibility for our words to stop and correct such patterns is not yet. That’s how now we get to actually create ourselves from the vantage point of giving ourselves a second chance to actually live through applying and living Self Forgiveness.

    What does Being the Living Word mean?

    “We must, as I have, forgive ourselves for the allowance of separating ourselves from words, which caused knowledge and information only, alone, separately to try and understand and express itself through the creation of the mind/consciousness whilst us were unaware of who we are as knowledge and information in application: the living word. We have allowed ourselves to become slaves to knowledge, slaves to information and have forgotten how to live, forgotten how to breathe and have forgotten the moment as who we are in every moment with every breath.”
    ~  Osho [1]
    “Words are alive – they haunt you infinitely if you abuse words – they never go away – there’s a haunted story if you’ve ever seen one – we’re living it in this world
    what exist as this world which you touch – this is living words – this is the living word
    touch is a word which you live – because you touch – so, you live the word touch”
      ~beard hair through the interdimensional portal, 2008

    Be watchful when you speak – when you voice – be certain that when you speak the words are one with you as you as who you are of life – if they are not – you will surely create and experience what you speak and what you voice as who you are – you create and manifest and experience what you speak – if necessary – do not speak or voice at all – until you are clear and certain of you as who you are with every single word you utter.
                                                                            ~Muktananda [2]

    What a great lesson we had missed all the way in existence: we create reality according to the words we speak, according to the words we have created to name our acceptances and allowances. We have given a name to the atrocities that we have perpetuated as our ‘human nature,’ as words we still accept and allow to exist as ourselves in this reality. Imagine being in the moment wherein we have to give a name to the act of a man having sexual intercourse by forcing a woman against her will to do so – the word ‘rape’ was created as an accepted and allowed ‘natural instinct’ of the ape man with and extra ‘r’ to camouflage the act and place it along the large list of words that mean the human actions that name the various ways in which harm and abuse exist.

    We are the meaning of such words, it has been an accepted and allowed part of this existence – that is what we have become.

    “You have taken the very nature of yourself for granted – your words – your words are who you are – thus who you are is in your words…”[1]
    “Insight, wisdom, knowledge, understanding: No matter how beautiful or profound – is empty and worthless without self as presence as the words – without self as awareness as the words – without self living the words.” [2]

    Within this process, living the words means we first purify our words to stand one and equal as the words that imply/ mean what’s best for all, as that which we actually see the expression of life can be, the expression that we have tampered with words that have diminished (de-manished) or augmented (increasing ourselves as our mind) ourselves and this reality in absolute separation of the actual expression that can be lived.

    Words as Self-Creation

    “Be aware, be watchful, be considerate, be creative, be expressive with and through the words you use as an expression, sharing and communication as who you are in every moment with every breath. The moment, the breath, the words, who you are as the living word – this is the recipe for creation. Creating through becoming and living who you are in every moment with every breath. Create yourself, express your creativity through words as who you are as the living word, you are the creator and creation of your world and your existence. You have the opportunity to create in every moment as the living word as who you are.” ~ Osho [1]
    “What to do. Silence.
    I must silence my mind to see. I must return to birth – to stop all words, all worth, all definitions and start as if I am just born, one difference though – I am going to be my own teacher.
    I am going to birth myself.
    I am unconditionally going to look at any words I choose to allow within me, as me again and start again.
    It must be practical, not only in this world, but beyond.
    I must be able to live and experience the word as myself. I must understand honesty with myself.
    I must understand self discipline within the process of the movement of myself, as I create myself in this world.
    I must stop at nothing and no-one and thus I must be able to stand as all life – meaning, that the answer must prove itself, that when all of life apply it as one, we will be equal and one and live in harmony as God.
    I understand clearly that such a point of God/creator existed within each one of us.”
    Bernard Poolman [3]

    This is how it is explained that we must stop ourselves from recreating the past as words that we see in common sense – the realization of what’s best for all – are not supportive toward our expression, toward the consideration of living as equals/ regarding each other as one and equal.

    This is the process that each one lives to see where and how we have separated ourselves from this basic consideration that must become the first educational aspect we can share with children coming into this world. Sharing with them how important it is to be aware of the words spoken to honor themselves and honor life equally, to not accept anything less than who we really are.

    This is within common sense – not because words are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and entering the morality trap again, but just placing a cool question in front: ‘what is it that you really want to be/ become as part of this world? What is the ultimate ‘wish’ for all of us to be and exist-as here? Everyone wants to be able to Live and express and ‘be free,’  thus we share words and live actions that we want to implement as the new way of speaking, living and acting in this world wherein no harm or abuse is accepted again – but expression in self responsibility is understood as the new ‘code in life’ – this is where purifying words/ living words becomes the language we speak. Within this single point, we will be giving an actual huge step for humanity to never again step into the old fuckedup preprogrammed ways of existing in separation ever again.

    Self-Responsibility within Self-Creation

    “All must, as I have, take responsibility as creators for their creation through words as who you are as I am to set ourselves free from allowed and accepted enslavement self-definition conditionings as knowledge and information which have become God, instead of each one realizing; I am God as the living word and I create in every moment, with every breath with each word creating and forming sentences as a statement of who I am through communication, sharing and self-expression.”
                                                                                                 Osho [1]
    “Though we’ve entered a phase within process wherein we’ll be stopping ourselves – through the experience of ourselves in and as manifested consequence – this consequence is not a ‘payment for deeds done or words spoken in the past’ from the perspective of ‘deserved revenge’, but simply to realize, simply to see – that there has been and is consequences to what has been accepted and allowed within each one’s actions and words towards self and another as self and another as self as within the manifested expression as this world/reality as nature, the animal kingdom and water.”
    – Lao Tzu through the Interdimensional Portal [4]
    “Self forgiveness and self corrective action must stand as one and equal as you in and as you – it’s the point of establishing oneness and equality in self expression here as you. Because when self forgiveness is applied absolutely, self honesty will emerge and within self honesty – you will absolutely live the self correction of and as that which you’ve self realized in self forgiveness – as what and how you must change and transform you in and as how you live and speak in self expression here as and while you participate in and as this world.” [4]

    Self-Forgiveness is the application and I am the expression that lives it wherein I start taking Self-Responsibility for my creation as one and equal and within this, learning from scratch in humbleness how to become the living word as what I see and realize is what life in equality can be for all.

    Cites

    [1]Osho. “I am the living word in every moment.” Desteni. 22/03/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/osho-i-am-the-living-word-in-every-moment>.

    [2]Swami Muktananda. “In the beginning was the word and the word was God and the word was with God.”Desteni. 04/10/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/swami-muktananda-in-the-beginning-was-the-word-and-the-word-was-god-and-the-word-was-with-god>.

    [3]Poolman, Bernard. “I, the living word.” Desteni. 04/07/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/bernard-poolman-i-the-living-word>.

    [4]Tzu, Lao. “Manifested Consequence.” Desteni. N.p., 15/08/2008. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/manifested-consequence-lao-tzu>.

    Video Support:

    2012 – Words that Change the World

    2007: Osho – Words Are Innocent

    2012: History of Mankind – Part 138 – The Tower of Babel – The Tower of Evolution

    Suggested read:

    2012 Reasons for a Higher Purpose

    2011/01/24 – Liberty is Really Responsibility

    2012/2/20 – 2012, the Sovereign Individual and Equal Money


    2012 Life After Death–Interdimensional Portal

    It’s been some years since I’ve been writing and I can’t recall having written about meeting Sunette – the portal – at Desteni while being in South Africa.

    I had explained before how watching her in the videos wasn’t such a ‘new thing’ for me in terms of having beings talking from the ‘afterlife’ through a human being’s body – even though I later on got to know that channeling wasn’t precisely what she was doing. However being living with her and witnessing how it all works was something quite amazing, yet ‘normal’ as every being that is in the body simply does the same stuff that Sunette would do in any given moment. Whenever I was curious I would ask  ‘who’s in the body?’ this I would do whenever I could notice a particular voice tonality or ‘stance’ that I could recognize wasn’t Sunette – some other times it’s just imperceptible and you learn how to stop creating any idea of ‘who Sunette is’ in contrast to the rest of the beings. I see that’s part of the Equality and Oneness process wherein each being can only have these distinctive remarks as long as we try to find/ spot them – other than that, it’s just an equal and one expression, all equally part of ourselves which is quite fascinating nonetheless.

    I could write my personal stories of being a bit surprised in relation to particular beings that would come through and my reactions to it – however the point here is to simply declare that it becomes such a ‘usual thing’ that we even tend to forget what ‘the portal’ actually represents for humanity and existence as a whole.

    Hearing the Interview ‘History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 2’ reminded me that which is still fascinating about Desteni, that which I can answer almost on a daily basis in semi-automated answers in YouTube videos in relation to Sunette being an interdimensional portal, and how her body is the point of physical expression for beings coming through from the dimensional existence to share and communicate about the existential process we are currently walking. However, listening to stories like this made me realize the actual Process we are living, which is a once in an existential-lifetime opportunity for us to finally realize who and what we really are beyond the veils of our mind, as Life – as One and Equal.

    It is interesting that we have taken this point as a ‘regular thing’ within our reality, at least for myself after being so used to hearing, reading and chatting with dimensional beings – well, the latter while being at the farm with Sunette around – that I simply didn’t create any further ‘divide’ or separation of being talking with beings that are dimensional = don’t have a physical body/ are not alive any longer as in having a ‘life of their own’ on Earth – yet the words are and have been one of the key points within Desteni and our process as humanity.

    I understand that this is the part of Desteni that many people still react to in terms of not being able to ‘prove it’/ witness it for themselves, however we have given testimony of it even in situations wherein we have been scrutinized for traveling ‘all across the globe’ to be at the farm, which is the usual point of identifying it with ‘meeting the portal.’ I can only say that one can make a ‘big deal’ out of it if the message is not heard, because it was through all the words that have come through the portal from beings in existence that I actually got to realize what regarding each other as equals actually implies, which is something that then takes off the ‘weight’ of the portal being something ‘more’ than us, once that we understand what oneness and equality actually means. Within this, there is no need to ‘believe’ in it, but simply HEAR the words and live the message that is shared.

    Back to the interview…

    The story narrated by this 7 year old boy that died, describes his entire realization of being in a different dimension on Earth. It reminded me of that which is still here yet we have veiled ourselves off from because of being only existing as our mind and in that, missing out the entire existence that is HERE and has always been here. This places into perspective the fact that we have been only walking thought-feeling-emotion machines without any further idea of there being something else to this life.

    The fascination that I got from listening to this interview was similar to the one I got from listening to the Atlanteans interviews, which have been so far the history of existence coming from ancestors that we have never gotten to know of in this reality until now, narrated and explained with such detail that makes us really ‘wake up’ to see the bits of ourselves that we have missed within this reality, while being so occupied within our own mind and fighting against each other.

    I see for myself how I tend to ‘lose perspective’ at times of what it is that I am actually getting to hear within these interviews as something that I would have never gotten to know of if it wasn’t for the existence of the Portal itself. However, it is also cool that it doesn’t become something ‘more’ than myself, I simply see it as part of the realization of getting to equalize ourselves to as one and equal, which is the entire process we are walking here. The importance or relevance of hearing these stories from the afterlife, as well as the history of mankind, is simply to get a broader perspective about ourselves, about existence and life itself, to learn how to take all points into consideration in terms of the realization that everything we are and do is part of a whole, and within this take Self Responsibility accordingly.

    Listening to any material that has been created by the portal/ Sunette for the last 5 years now, has been a definitive turning point for humanity – whether people are aware of it or not – and this is what makes it such an important point to create a reference for as part of this process. With this I mean: we probably wouldn’t be here writing and sharing and applying ourselves within this process if Heaven had not ever been dismantled as the entire system of enslavement that it was.

    As fascinating as this may seem for anyone reading here that didn’t have any reference to what Desteni is, I suggest taking a moment to simply listen to that interview as well as any other interview in the Internet from Desteni, as each video-interview is a key point to get to know ourselves, to understand who and what we really are and, most importantly, HOW we can practically assist and support ourselves to become a living-part of the solution that is proposed as the Equalization of Life as who we really are. (See the Unification of Man as I am)

    We have never had such an opportunity in existence before. We have this one lifetime to stand up for Life and realize all the lies that we have perpetuated as this current mess of reality and stop them forevermore. Obviously within stopping = a new input must be created, and that’s in essence how we are walking our process to realize and understand what it practically means to stand as One and Equal as this reality – these are common words yet not properly understood within the actual implication at an existential level of what they imply.

    For that, I can only suggest visiting the Desteni website and forum for further support as it is definitely quite an extensive amount of material that has been unconditionally published since 2007, plus all of the thousands of blogs and vlogs by us Destonians. We are here and walking the material as our own process which is what makes of Desteni such a cool group of people that are daring to walk ourselves out of our mind and into the physical  – which is nothing else than realizing who we really are as Life and giving us proper support for that to establish a system in this reality that can make of Equality as Life a Reality, regardless of any current obstacle such as money. For that, read all about the Equal Money System

    To wrap this up, don’t be afraid to get to know what there is beyond the reality that we see with our current physical eyes, everything/ everyone is one and equal as ourselves and we are here to realize so that we can Birth-Ourselves as Life from the Physical, to finally and actually Be Here.

    Enjoy!

    Portal expanded interdimensionaly

    History of the Interdimensional Portal – Part 3

    Self-Extraction out of the body - Interdimensional Portal

    The Story of Sunette


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