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416. Relationships: Not about the Taste, but the Nutrients

 

There are times when the most obvious still manages to become part of my moment to moment living, and this has been mostly ghosts of the past meaning people, places, past relationships with specific individuals that I also developed highly obsessed type of relationships too. And so what I heard in an interview on Paranoia is about this “positive” type of paranoia wherein I realize that I had missed one single key point: the moment that we allow one memory to occupy our minds and we reactivate the experience of that particular memory in the past, we allow ourselves to re-activate that whole ‘me’ of the past in that single fleeting moment where one gives-up/ gives into any form of energy based on memory. Lol, really it is as if we decide to possess or poison ourselves for a moment just to give ourselves our energy-shot while imagining/seeing pictures in our mind, where we use illusions to kick off an experience within ourselves that we have defined as “pleasant” – either nostalgia, yearning, excitement, excitation, curiosity or merely believing that I miss the person or situation.

 

But then again of course when realizing this – after listening to this interview – it became very obvious how even almost like at a quantum level, even before translating this interview I was having an itching desire to just leave that one for later and go out for the walk. But, I didn’t, I made sure I got it all recorded before leaving and I was glad I did as I was then able to then use my time through my walk on my way back to apply Self-Forgiveness out loud for all the bits and pieces of memories and seemingly ‘insignificant’ moments where I would allow myself to trigger the thought of a ‘ghost of the past’ – meaning a particular memory of a person, situation, event – and then engage within it in a pondering manner, which is mostly what I’ve seen and realized means I hadn’t entirely decided to give ‘good riddance’ to it, to fully and actually let-go.

 

And in this, what came up was the realization that I cannot really ‘miss’ anything or anyone as I am already here, one can only ‘miss’ something as an experience in our minds, as the bond created toward that something or someone.  So, missing implies only ‘craving’ the relationship formed at an energetic level toward another which means: a relationship formed through the mind, which are the only kind of relationships that can be missed, spoiled or desired as they had a starting point of energy and ended up being busted as energy – never real.

 

Within this, I see that the people with whom I have formed relationships based on co-operation, co-working, working through misunderstandings and genuine decision to support each other are rather the strongest and most constructive type of relationships that I would genuinely suggest all of us as humans to develop and invest our time and effort on, it is the kind of relationship that is not dependent on ‘preference’ toward another or a fleeting experience of desire or attraction or based on being ‘similar,’ but rather in the equal recognition of each other as human beings with our weaknesses to strengthen and our strengths to share and learn from each other.

 

I saw that I had associated the word relationship in a rather limited manner wherein I could mostly only see a partnership type of relationship and within that of course, believing that because ‘my point in process are relationships, then I am not doing that well’ and so even creating an experience of ‘leaving that point for later,’ instead of realizing that I would not be able to be doing what I’m doing if I wasn’t able to actually establish relationships with other individuals.

 

So yet again, seeing to what extent I/we have been brainwashed when it comes to words and our narrow view of these relationships wherein even only defining relationships to ‘people’ is still a limited perception, as life is a conglomerate of relationships, and so relationships are the key to being able to function as one organism and be able to live in harmony. For that, each one of us as a thread in the tapestry of our reality has to stand in principle and absolutely clear when it comes to being able to work with one another – what does being clear and standing in principle mean? It implies that there can’t be no past memories haunting one another based on past mistakes, judgments, preferences or merely suggesting ‘incompatibility of characters’ that trigger emotions of contempt and disdain to one another or ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ feelings to one another. In this, any energetic experiences toward another, no matter how subtle, no matter how positive or negative are always coming from the mind, and as such they become like a poison that prevents real supportive and constructive relationships from developing.

 

Why do I bring up the word poison? Because in my own experience, I’ve seen relationships come and go based on the energetic starting point I started and developed them with, wherein even my sole intent and desire to create a bond with a particular person backfired to the point where none of those relationships is standing at the moment, and it’s for the best. It is a tough lesson you see, more so when we have created a culture where all that you learn from TV and movies is to ‘fall in love’ and seek for that ‘spark of love’ or attraction with another, or that nice warm empathy felt to someone that becomes your friend or else – it’s all about ‘feelings’ as fuzzy warm energy sparks that we create in our body, believing that ‘this is normal’ and ‘this is what love is’ or what ‘relationships should FEEL like’ – when in fact Relationships is anything but a Feeling or a fleeting experience in our minds. They are actual processes of walking with another/others throughout a considerable amount of time to get to a particular outcome – to either develop an intimate relationship as partnership or to develop common tasks and projects to take on.

 

Why is there no-energy type of relationships? Because all that we’ve ever known and learned about relationships is to place the FEELING before anything else, and this is rather consequential and on the long run, only smoke that eventually fades out and what is left is mostly the result of our failed relationships: broken marriages/divorces, inability to communicate and eventually war too is a failed ability to cooperate with each other as equals, but instead keeping a particular experience toward the perceived ‘enemy’ that is always self-created: we decide who we hate and who we love, instead of always placing our equality as living beings above all other forms of segregation, which is mind created.  

 

I also spoke self forgiveness for having actually used and abused myself when it comes to using a memory, a ‘ghost’ essentially to trigger an unnatural experience in my ‘physical-moment’ of being just here and suddenly going into this shift as an alternate reality of a sudden yearning, a curiosity, a ‘cherishing the past’ attitude that I took as normal without realizing that in going to the past in those seemingly ‘fleeting moments,’ I have kept reactivating the whole ‘me’ of the past, as the one personality with all its various memories and networks within me linked toward that particular person/situation/event whenever I would allow this ‘ghost’ to emerge within me.

 

I realized that the reason why I wasn’t letting go is because it is those first relationships that you establish that have the most energy, the ones that we get the most obsessed about or give the most attention to, which is why we go endlessly seeking over and over again that ‘first high’ – this is what I suspect heroin addicts seek forevermore after their first shot and they cannot get it ever again,  because it is unlikely that the body can experience such dramatic change of state again. And so addicts try and increase the dose, but it won’t ever be ‘the same.’ It’s the perfect trap when it comes to enslaving ourselves to memories attached with such ‘high experience’ you see: we keep chasing energy, we keep chasing ghosts in our own minds that no one can see but still we allow those ghosts to come up and absolutely define ‘who we are’ in one moment.

So this is a point of awareness to truly be here as breath and not allow the same memory/matrix point to lock-me down into the same thinking patterns, which at times it’s as if they were ‘there’ in the air in a particular place and one would go ‘picking it up’ as one walks through such path – just as one walks the street for example.

 

To Forgive and Let go

 

All that is Here is myself, it’s who we are, and I could only ‘react’ to it if I had formed a special bond/relationship to it through energy. Energy – for all practical purposes – is a mental experience, it implies separation and as such it makes perfect sense to remind me about this aspect of the points of separation that I create through holding on to the specialness in those ghosts from the past, a perceived importance, added care and interest to a part of me that I developed a particular relationship to.

Here another reminder is that no matter how ‘subtle’ this is, whenever I perceive this ‘ghost of the past’ as something that ‘defined me’ and as such is special because ‘it changed my life’ etc. it indicates a speculative relationship toward that something/someone: it’s energy, it’s my mind, it’s memories, it’s invisible, it’s a ghost and I have to stop haunting myself with them.

How I’ve seen these emerge is as if in my mind there were  like these various hooks that containing some of the most ‘attached’ type of experiences and relationships formed in my past, so it is like a broken record seeking to be flipped for another play. It is also quite laughable to what extent we have given up our ability to remain focused here on reality because of having followed these ‘ghosts’ in our minds, giving up our attention to us being here, breathing and suddenly whoop! Going up there in the mind, following these flimsy little things that we already know where it lead us and that tend to constantly emerge in the moments where the actual opportunity to be fully here, physically exist. They come up, ‘innocently’ and the moment we get into the web we get caught – so it’s up to us to decide how far down the rabbit hole we go or if we can absolutely prevent even getting ‘curious’ to fall for the same hole that we already know leads us nowhere in fact.

 

If anything, it is great to observe these memories, to really look at the experience triggered and sometimes it is as if ‘revealing the name of the game’ as the name of the energy would already break part of the spell, because it is in our inability to discern the ‘hold’ that such memory has upon us that breaks the ‘spell’ so to speak.

So instead of going into an experience of being unable to identify the experience we’ve linked to the memory (of a person, of an event) and perceiving that one ‘can’t name it’ but we ‘like it’ so ‘we keep going and go for it’ – it is to realize that I/we have to stop playing naïve when it comes to what we dive into and/or indulge into in our minds. And yes, it’s mostly always about memories, memories, memories – the ‘reminders’ of who we are supposed to be, act like, fear, like, dislike, desire, etc. There is always a way to find out the energy in a memory as in defining what makes us feel good or terribly bad as the most extreme points of fear and desire, like or dislike, these relationships of separation through energy as positive or negative experiences that we create in order to define us, to continue limiting us – but never realizing that by de-fining/delimiting and identifying us with a ‘few aspects’ we’re already building up our personality cage from which we then seek to interact with ‘similar cages’ and avoid ‘different cages.’

This is how we come to create a caged world divided by words, experiences, misunderstandings, offenses and past broken relationships. It’s even funny how we’ve learned to ‘get over’ with some past love or relationship with an individual by then going to the opposite type of relationships such as going from ‘love’ to ‘hate’ and so proceeding to ditch them, taking them in our minds to the opposite side. In this we recreate the exact same relationship to them, it remains in place because all we did was changing the ‘charge’ or the definition ‘tag’ of the relationship build up – in this case moving it from love to hate, but our personalized relationship to that one person/event/thing is still the same: based on energetic experiences that only we can define because: they only exist in our mind.

I still very much ponder how come we haven’t declared mental insanity around the globe so that we can create a genuine ‘state of emergency’– along with our regular duties and responsibilities – make it mandatory for our common wellbeing to work on our mental stability, health and support ourselves to go through it, as that is the key to genuine peace and solidarity on Earth, to learn to ‘love our neighbor as ourselves.’

So the conclusion is that I cannot keep going fueling these mosquitos from the past, these buzzing little things that can become our sole point of attention if we get to be obsessed with ‘finding more’ into them, instead of seeing them for what they are: ghosts, reminiscences of what once was and it has in fact nothing to do with who the person or situation really is or was in fact, as all that we remember is OUR EXPERIENCE about the situation/person, and that’s always self-created, that’s our own ghost-factory creation, and in this we only continue dividing and conquering each other by illusions.

 

So, hereby I commit myself to stop fueling any tiny thought or memory that leads to an experience about the person/event/ghost of the past and realize and so in those moments realize I can instead fully breathe and realize, I am here and I continue walking and enjoying the moment for what it is.

I realize that we only want to ‘make more’ of our moments as an experience in our minds, and it is the simplicity of breathing here what we perceive ‘lacks’ something, like insipid food that lacks salt and the salt being the energy. We don’t need those ‘extra flavors’ as the flavor comes and goes, it’s only perceived for a few moments on our taste buds and then what really matters is the actual nutrients that we are ingesting and how it will support proper development of our physical bodies – that’s the real type of nutrition then we also have to seek in personal relationships too: not going for ‘taste,’ but rather working on the actual nutrients that we all have and can develop further in each other as we work and live together.

 

My declaration of Living Principles:

22.    The realization that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all

 

breathing being

Suggested Supportive Interview:

When Words are the Looking Glass to Ourselves – Reptilians – Part 203

 

The Free Desteni I Process Lite course is a first platform of self-support to learn more about ourselves, our mind and understand how we can practically improve our potentials and skills.

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80. Seeking for a Meaningful Li(e)fe

“This is even better!” Is a constant way to talk ourselves into thinking that whatever we had perceived as a failure/ fall is now ‘overcome’ and the ‘new me’ is even better, so as to always remain like the ‘winner in the story’ wherein the character that suffered some great fall/ disillusionment finds something ‘greater’ than before, something that is ‘the real shit,’ the ‘real deal’ and absolutely ‘truthful to oneself.’ Can you recognize the gibberish? Yes, it is sponsored by the most common spiritual positive type of self-talk to always remain like a ‘winner’ in your mind, no matter what.

 

This is a continuation of:

Pattern:

  1. “I did not get what I wanted; I seek for something else to ‘truly’ fulfill me”
  2. Wanting to escape from the ‘capitalist world’ and rebel by boing to an ‘unexpected extreme’

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Anything taken Personally is Just a Defense Mechanism to Protect a Character from being Diminished in its Role of Competing for Validation, and Influence and Happiness in the World of Illusion as Character to keep the Illusion going, because in the Illusion the Character makes all the Rules and is a Law unto itself, Regardless of what Harm it Bring to the Natural Living World” – Bernard Poolman*

 

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whenever I do not get what I want, I drop it, diss it and ‘move on’ by spitefulness to seek something – once again – that will ‘fulfill me’ in a more ‘truthful manner,’ which is what is usually linked to escaping the world of money that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge extensively.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to throw psychological tantrums wherein through allowing myself to remain in a particular ‘emotional mode,’ I make decisions based on that emotional-spitefulness, without considering at all what is it that I initially reacted to and how I was absolutely self-responsible for that which I deemed was ‘done onto me,’ which I allowed myself to use to become ‘the victim,’ instead of taking responsibility for all the stages of the event/ moment/ situations that took place before I go into an emotional-breakdown wherein I ‘revamp’ myself by doing something ‘radical’ for a change.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be against something/ someone that I had initially sought to attain and that, because I didn’t get my satisfaction from it, I then turn against it, diss it/ criticize it and judge everyone involved wherein I turn into a spiteful person that ‘does not want anything to do with that/ them’ in an emotional state, without being able to consider a solution simply because of allowing me to be self-righteous about my emotional experience, believing that ‘I had the right to be pissed off/ sad/ disillusioned.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when and I would go into disillusionment, an ‘emotional breakdown’ and seeing my entire ‘world’ falling apart, I would do the next most radical thing that I could pursue in my own value and moral schemes, wherein I would then take me to the opposite extreme just to spite the previous situation, to not have to face my responsibility toward everything that I judged, but instead, become self-righteous about it and believe that ‘it is my right to do whatever I want and say whatever I want to say, I don’t give a fuck about anything’

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to make decisions in my life while being possessed by anger and spitefulness, believing myself to be ‘right’ about being angry and this being backed up by friends that would agree with me, just because of how I would tell the story which was obviously to my benefit, to make me look like ‘the victim’ so that I could get their commiseration and have them backing up my ‘new plans’ for life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create ‘friendships’ based on how much they could agree with the character I was aiming at being/ becoming.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately become spiteful toward the people involved in an event that I projected blame toward, without ever realizing how I had accepted and allowed myself to just ‘trust’ without any form of actual communication and understanding of what I was in fact participating in and cooperating with.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use people to validate my perspectives, points of view upon the entire event so that I could feel like I was ‘cheated’ and remain as a ‘victim’ that had all the right to simply cut all ties with them and ‘do things my way,’ which is a recurrent pattern whenever I experience myself as ‘the victim’ in the world, gathering enough ‘votes to my favor’ so that I could feel good in my misery.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use ‘disillusionment’ from ‘the artworld’ as an excuse for me to seek new ways to create wherein I use people to validate my ‘new aims’ based on wanting to create a more ‘meaningful’ art that would not be sold in art galleries.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start a project based on spitefulness, a desire for revenge and an apparent ‘healing process’ to what I perceived was ‘done onto me,’ which was nothing else but 100% pure drama that I created in order to validate my own way out of having to face my responsibility, not realizing that any anger that I allowed myself to exist as was in fact anger toward myself for not getting my dream and instead facing reality, which was then me thinking that ‘I had made the wrong choice,’ which all boils down to me realizing that I simply was not alright toward myself at all and that my discomfort, anger and frustration was not even about the entire art event, but a general dissatisfaction with myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek to now turn into spirituality even further as a way to finally declare my dissociation from ‘mainstream arts,’ and seeking to ‘find the truth’ in that which I had been reading/ investigating which was in the vein of entheogens and spiritual awakenings through the use of acid.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to turn further into spirituality as a way to escape what I judged as the evil capitalist world that would ‘suck artists dry of their pure inspiration,’ which was nothing but blatant self manipulation to get things my way and remain as a ‘winner’ in my world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I used spirituality as way to spite the world as in spite-you-all that is also existent in the word spiritual. I realize that my search for ‘god’ or a transcendental experience was based on knowledge and information that I sought to ‘make real’ in my world through following a ‘divine path’ that I was creating for myself, wherein all signs and symbols and events that I started connecting would ‘match’ a pattern of me having to apparently become this enlightened being that could create a new form of art that could heal the masses.

 

This was the moment in my life when I was rapidly hitting rock bottom – this was December and I found Desteni the last day of the last month, where everything that went on for these two months was nothing but me drowning myself into my own ‘tormented soul’ and not getting any other satisfaction but the one that I was busy building as the ‘spiritual search,’ dedicating my entire days to research more and learn about conspiracy theories and everything that I could use to redefine my career.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to seek the truth behind the veil of money and success’ wherein I was aiming at becoming some type of ascetic that is only seeking for a ‘divine truth’ by detaching from all worldly things and pursuing my ‘spiritual awakening’ even further – never realizing or considering at all what I was in fact doing and proclaiming as an overall desire to ‘detach from the system,’ which was plain ignorant as I had no idea nor did I consider how no one is able to really in fact be ‘out of the system,’ yet I proclaimed I would do it in the name of ‘the truth’ and ‘my mission in life,’ which started blending more with my artistic-endeavors and I was busy shaping my ‘new religion’ based on spirituality, art and a guru-like personality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to seek ‘the truth’ through the use of drugs as a means to ‘speed up my awakening’ which proves to what extent I manipulated myself to ‘spite the system’ in what I deemed was ‘the key’ out of the system, seeking spiritual enlightenment so that I would not have to be ‘bound by the claws of the system,’ which was very naïve of myself and plain ignorant, because I never considered how everything that I consume had to be paid for, including the drugs.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to ‘seek for something to give me the answer to my life’ and ‘seeking to create meaningful art’ as a point of self-definition based on spitefulness due to/ because of the previous event wherein my dreams of fame/ success we’re not fulfilled as I wanted them to be, throwing a tantrum and seeing everything as being ‘not good enough for me,’ believing myself to be ‘more special than that,’ which is how I lead myself to pursue an spiritual awakening and being predicating overzealously about it, which was me driving myself into my own religion wherein I could finally ‘do things my way’ and apparently ‘free myself from the system.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself at the moment of writing this because of seeing it as absolutely tantrum-based, typical emotional breakdown wherein overcoming the situation implies doing something ‘more rebellious’ than what was done in the past, wherein I simply would have continued trying something out and when being dissatisfied by it, dumping it and going for the next big hit in my life – over and over and over again moving from one spot to another seeking for a ‘truth’ outside of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as plain stupid for having done what I’ve done, and regret having existed with such self-righteousness in the past wherein I could not see anything else but what I deemed was ‘right’ and believing that what I was doing was ‘my right to do so,’ in absolute spitefulness and vengeful ways that I covered up in a positive manner through and by spirituality, believing that I had to go through such ‘tormented situations’ to give up my ‘earthly desires’ and pursuit a more ‘divine-relationship with god.’

 

So this is the moment that I was ready to go fully into the rabbit hole of spirituality and religions and, if it had not been because of finding Desteni and finally supporting myself to stop all my mindfucks, I would have probably continued that way for the remainder of my life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had to seek ‘beyond myself’ and my ‘limited mind’ to create some type of transcendental art, wanting to ‘establish awareness with the divine in this world,’ which is how I justified all my endeavors in separation of myself, seeking for a ‘truth’ that I could defend zealously, because of thinking that ‘this time, what I was pursuing was ‘above it all’ as it had to do with the idea of god and the ‘whole’ as myself. I realize that this is the ‘oneness’ preached in spirituality, wherein I would only seek to fulfill myself and my dreams/ ideals based on ‘the positive’ while being absolutely oblivious to the entire world and Reality, where no bliss or happiness exists if you have no money to eat.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to ‘change the world’ through art mixing it with spiritual practices, so that I could fulfill my spiritual ego and endeavors of something ‘greater than myself,’ which is the basic and primordial fuck that lead us to the point that we are now facing in our reality, wherein everything that we have ever sought is this ‘moreness’ of ourselves outside of ourselves, in separation of who we are as one and equal.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to validate my ‘pursuit’ by taking other artistic characters as examples, wherein I ‘knew’ that by creating this specialness about my life and turning into this ‘misunderstood misfit’ I could justify my work as even more ‘meaningful’ within the art world, due to how ‘drama’ was accepted as a key ingredient to ‘make any real art.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my abdication of responsibility toward myself, my word and reality by pursuing ‘spiritual realms’ wherein I could apparently only establish a relationship with something divine and somehow be magically ‘saved from this evil world,’ without even taking a moment to look at reality and see how I was the very +1 point added to the entire mess wherein we only care about ourselves, our own pursuit of happiness which I translated to an apparent ‘superior’ stage such as spirituality, never realizing it is no different to pursuing being a millionaire and having ‘all the power in the world,’ as I translated such power to light, bliss and ultimate wholeness that spiritual teachings claimed.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think ‘I don’t want anything to do with this reality any longer’ which was just another character script line so that I could justify my ‘eccentricity’ as a special being in this ‘fucked up world’ that seeks for something ‘greater’ that not everyone pursues, fueling my own mindfuck by the perspectives and opinions given by people around me which were all relationships backing up my character, my self-belief and within this thinking that I was ‘on the right path’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become the thought ‘I just want to be at peace with myself’ wherein I implied that all that I cared was me-myself-and-I and the rest could go down the drain, because of believing that I was not my body, that this world was an illusion and that I had nothing to do with this ‘realm’ of earthly desires. Within this manipulating myself to be and become this spiritual-artist character that is ‘more special’ than everyone else in my own mind only.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge, criticize, diss and diminish the ‘glamorous art realms’ due to and because of me believing and perceiving that I had been ‘cheated’ within it, and that I was ‘too noble’ for such businesses, which became my excuse to not pursue anything ‘real’ within my career but only follow through my spiritual endeavors and beginning to start thinking again that I had made the wrong career choice, and that I should dedicate myself fully to spirituality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make an ‘oath’ with myself to only make art that ‘matters’ and not just take nice pictures, which was me making myself ‘more’ than before just so that I could not feel like I had failed in my dreams and endeavors to become famous and ‘well known’ in the artworld.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think that ‘I don’t want to sell myself out this time,’ which is when I started judging money even more as something evil and corrupt that would ‘taint noble young souls’ and ruining the ‘true artist’ which I deemed myself to be, based on all the stories I had read of other artistic characters that I took as a bible to follow

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that this time, I was going to create something ‘real’ and ‘meaningful’ which was just creating my self-religion based on past experiences wherein I was still trying to spite everything that could point out to earning lots of money/ being famous just because I had not achieved my satisfaction within that point, not realizing that if it had in fact ‘satisfied me,’ I would have continued walking my endeavors to escalate more and more in the artworld and continue defending ‘art’ the way that I did before.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive myself to being establishing a relationship with ‘the divine’ and wanting to express ‘god’ through my work, getting lost in meanings, symbols, knowledge and information that I consumed in order to create this ‘unique’ self-religion so that I could make of art and spirituality ‘my life,’ all in separation of myself, not even regarding how everything that allowed me to continue living was money to buy food and pay my rent and continue existing in this world, which is how I deliberately shun away the actual planning and the practical steps to be taken in order to establish myself as being able to earn money from art.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think ‘god is not money and fame, and it is here for everyone,’ wherein I deluded myself into thinking that I could escape from reality somehow if I established a real devotion toward ‘the divine,’ which is nothing more but pure fanaticism that I was busy building and feeding through knowledge and information that I would quickly embrace because ‘it sounded good to my eyes,’ which proves how anything that eventually shattered my world was seen as something ‘of doubtful precedence’ and ‘not trust worthy’ just because of how I had become so used to thinking that life was about beauty, art and ‘the divine’ that I had to somehow embrace as a constant ‘state of being, ‘ as eternally blissful even if I was in this world – which is the ultimate declaration of separation, as I was willing to pursue this eternal satisfaction, feeling untouchable by the world while the world could fall apart in pieces because I would be protected, because of being a ‘good divine follower’ to some god/ energy/ superior being that I was busy trying to create a relationship to- never ever taking the point back to myself to see how I was only seeking me in separation of myself here.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I would not sell my artwork to ‘stay true to myself, ‘ which was nothing else but a tantrum-based declaration due to the past events of which I remain a victim of for a long time, due to me deliberately seeing how I was absolutely responsible for it all.

 

spiritual mindfuck

 

 

Self-Corrective Statements

When and as I see myself wanting to get rid of something/ someone based on a past event wherein I see myself as the victim – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this point will not have to even be existent if I stop the victimization process from the get go every time that I believe and perceive that ‘something is being done onto me.’ Thus I take the point back to myself, take responsibility for what I have created, said/done and within that, stop the cycles of spitefulness, revenge and retaliation toward anything or anyone that I have blamed for my experience.

 

When and as I see myself going into a tantrum of feeling misunderstood and building up emotions and feelings with it, I stop and I breathe. I realize that every time that I see myself going into a ‘down’ experience is linked to me not fulfilling an expectation that I envisioned in separation of myself. Thus I take responsibility to ensure that whatever I do is based on the benefit of all and not just pursuing my personal-life of seeking any form of desire as something/ someone in separation of myself. I realize I am here, breathing, and complete. I do not require anyone or anything to make me ‘more’ than who and what I already am here.

 

When and as I see myself seeking for a ‘radical change’ in my life, I stop and I breathe. I realize that such ‘radical’ and ‘extreme’ moves are based on wanting to spite something/ someone, wanting to make myself ‘more’ again based on a previous perceived fall leading to the belief of me ‘lacking’ something to make myself feel better again, which is all mind-state based/ experience based which is not who and what I really am. Who and what I exist as is the simplicity of breath here that is self directive and does not require to experience something ‘more’ based on a previous memory of a perceived fall. All I require is to stop participating in thoughts leading to a ‘more’ or ‘less’ experience of myself and continue breathing, doing and directing myself to be an do that which is best for all.

 

When and as I see myself believing that I am right at being/ becoming angry at someone/ the world and people agree about this experience within me. I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is not a point to trust as I am manipulating myself to become the victimized character that seeks company and commiseration in order to justify my own experience as ‘real,’ which is not. I direct myself to take responsibility for any thought implying that I am being done something ‘onto me,’ instead I take responsibility for my thoughts, stop, breathe and continue directing myself within the practicality required in the moment.

 

When and as I see myself projecting blame onto others, thinking or believing that ‘they are doing something onto me deliberately,’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is the victimized character mechanism to ensure that I continue seeking ways to ‘make myself feel better’ by opposing, creating further conflict to regain my ‘positive experience.’ I realize that who I am here as breath does not require to exist as a constant experience.

 

When and as I see myself using spitefulness and a deliberate self-deprecated sate of being as a ‘healing process’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that I used this ‘state of being’ to manipulate people around me, to ‘have mercy on me’ and continue fueling my character of the ‘suffered and misunderstood one’ which is unacceptable, as it is nothing else but emotional blackmail that I am able to stop the very moment that I see myself feeling ‘down’ and ‘low’ as a deliberate expression presented onto and toward others.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to ‘spite the system’ by doing something that is ‘against the law’ and against ‘morals’ I stop and I breathe – I realize the little game for what it is as a means to make myself be ‘more’ than/ more clever/ more ‘cunning’ in the system based on doing that which is ‘forbidden,’ which is just a tantrum and mind-game of self-importance that I ensure I don’t ever participate in by establishing myself here as breath wherein I take responsibility for everything I do, say and think.

 

When and as I see myself seeking for something to give me the answer to life, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am the answer to life by directing myself in common sense, stopping all useless participation in thoughts, emotions and feelings and realize that there is actual work to be done within myself and in my reality to be the solution required in this world. This implies nothing else but common sensical living, moment by moment, breath by breath, taking responsibility for all the mind-games that I’ve placed and ensuring I stop them here as myself in every moment that I breathe and stop participating in the mind.

 

When and as I see myself whining about wanting to experience something, I stop and I breathe – I realize I am creating an unnecessary friction in my mind to eventually become possessed by that whining and get it by all means possible, which is unacceptable. I remain the directive principle of myself here in every moment that I breathe and direct myself in common sense.

 

When and as I see myself accessing the pattern of ‘I don’t want to do this any longer’ I stop and I breathe. I check the point wherein I have missed the point of myself and how I am creating a ‘better experience’ in mind. I apply self forgiveness for the desire of a ‘moreness of myself’ in separation of who I am here as simplicity of breath. Within this I ensure that I remain in the simplicity, stability and consistency of myself in breath day by day, moment by moment without defining myself according to the past or any other desire, want and need that may emerge in the mind.

 

When and as I see myself seeking to create, be and become something ‘meaningful’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am separating myself in the desire of ‘meaningfulness’ as something more than myself here in simplicity as breath.

 

When and as I see myself judging selling my work, I stop and I breathe. I realize that such judgment comes from the self-righteous spitefulness toward the perceived ‘evil world system,’ which means that it is all judgment based on making myself feel ‘less corrupt’ than everyone else, which is a lie to see myself as ‘better than.’ Thus, I direct myself to if and the opportunity is here to do so, go for it and use the money to support myself in what I require to consume to continue living. Simple.

 

When and as I see myself thinking that I have to ‘stay true to myself,’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that this ‘truth’ as myself has been a personality that has believed itself to always be right as a character/ personality based on always seeing myself as the winner, the one that is right and always ‘on the right path.’ Thus I direct myself to simply stay here as breath wherein I see, realize and understand that I do not require to make myself as a ‘truth’ and ‘honest’ person based on a self-belief of ‘being right’ about my decisions and actions – instead I continue breathing and moving myself moment by moment without holding an ‘idea’ or belief of ‘who I am’ moment by moment.

 

“I commit myself to show that as Long as One Create Self as a Character in the Mind, one is a Criminal that Abuses Life for Self-Interest of the Self Created as Character.” – Bernard Poolman

 

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“I commit myself to show that Self-Honesty will be Tough, as the Characters of the Life of Self have Multiple Diversions and know all the Lies – and thus will Do Everything in thought Backchat to Invalidate Self-Honesty. Discipline Self, Breath by Breath, in Self-Honesty to Return to the Physical Body and to Stop all thought, as Thought Only Creates Characters of Illusion that Lie.” – Bernard Poolman

 

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27. It’s always only been me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify everything and everyone I see with my eyes with a particular judgment that will allow me to believe that ‘I know it/ know them’ when in fact, all that I have been always been looking at is only a picture that I define and categorize within my mind according to the value schemes that I have created toward everything/ everyone at a face value, not realizing that everything I see is the reflection of my own mind as judgments, ideas, beliefs or perceptions wherein the moment that I impose this idea/ belief/ judgment onto others, I am becoming my own dictator over reality as I have not even allowed myself to get to know me as my own mind, and I have dared to judge and pretend that I know others just by a single glance at them.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to cultivate this idea within me as a child of being apparently able to ‘know what a person is all about’ just by looking at them, when in fact it was just me creating the idea/ belief and perception of such person through my own eyes

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was always ‘right’ when it came to the visual judgments that I would create onto others in order to identify ‘what they’re all about,’ wherein I never realized how I was becoming the very judge, dictator and boundary to actually get to know another, simply because of becoming my own selective-color function, wherein all colors as people/ personalities that I ‘didn’t like,’ I would not bother to talk to/ get to know simply because of deeming them as ‘not compatible’ with myself, which was only following the judgment at a face value of ‘who another is’ which is always only me reflecting my own value-scheme toward everything and everyone as separate from me.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become an elitist in my own mind wherein I would only be open and friendly toward people that at face value I would deem would be ‘similar to me’ or that I would be able to get along with, simply because of the image that I would perceive them to be, be recorded/ assessed as part of the people that are ‘cool’ and that I would like to communicate with/ get to know, while doing the exact opposite toward people that at face value I would judge as incompatible with myself, not being ‘in the same realm,’ and in that becoming the very separator that fuels the current existence wherein while standing divided in our personal-religions as self-image and constantly projecting judgments onto each other, we become absentees of the physical reality, wherein all that we have cared for is how we look/ how we present ourselves to then try and manipulate ‘how others will see us,’ which is all based in keeping track of my own ego as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, a simply and image.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be perceived as simplistic by how I look, without realizing that in this I am still wanting and expecting to be ‘judged by others,’ instead of simply becoming the point that stops judging myself, creating judgments in my mind and projecting them to everything/ everyone wherein I have been constantly expecting to be judge because  have become the very perpetual judge myself toward me and all that I have deemed is separate from myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imprint an energetic experience of superiority every time that I could have the ability to judge another for ‘who they are’ and assessing whether I see myself as superior or inferior toward the judgment that I create of the, wherein I would then act accordingly toward them. This implies an automated experience hen being with people, regardless of them being close acquaintances or simply people in public places, which implies that I have become the very judge of my reality in separation of myself for the sake of constantly being assessing me as a certain ‘value’ in comparison to others.

When and as as I see myself assessing others to ponder whether I am ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others according to the judgments I project onto them that actually stem from myself and my mind only – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am able to stop the judgments in the moment and focus on the physical reality to simply breathe and continue moving/ walking and directing myself in the physical reality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to become angry at people that I would deem as ‘judgmental,’ without realizing that I had become the very epitome of judgment in its full splendor simply because of being able to judge another with the very same application that I was existing as in that very moment, which is the proof that when I am in my mind, I am always justifying my judgments and assessments as ‘acceptable,’ without ever really seeing that I was only playing out the secret judge in order to ‘be in control’ of my environment, seeking to be always ‘guarding’ myself toward potential beings that could be ‘judging myself, which indicates the level of my self-created paranoia toward others beings being constantly judging me, which was always only me judging myself at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever become absolutely freaked out by people staring at me, because of me believing that they were judging me/ lusting at my image when in fact, it was all self-created as an idea that I have created of myself as a picture that can be infinitely judged and lusted upon, which has become an ingrained aspect of constantly ‘guarding myself’ from ‘potential judges’ which are mostly men that I have created a pattern of rejection and arrogance toward whenever I have believed that they are only judging me and lusting over my body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become deliberately hostile, rude, laconic toward beings that I would perceive and believe to be judging me, when in fact I was only hearing to the backchat in my head that eventually would become my experience toward such beings, believing that ‘I was always right’ in thinking that they were judging me, when in fact several times I got to prove myself wrong, giving myself a slap on the face with a white glove, simply because I would then be faced with the remorse and regret of having judged someone based on my own value-schemes, which had prevented me from communicating with the beings. And when I was actually able to communicate with them, I would realize that I had simply been ‘wrong’ and ‘mean’ toward them for no reason, really.

 

So, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I always had to ‘assess a being’ to see  how I would behave toward them, which would be a usual ‘application-mode’ when meeting people such as ‘assessing them in my mind, ‘ to then see ‘what they’re all about,’ and then deciding who I am going to be toward them, wherein I would deliberately camouflage myself to fit the moment/ event/ person/ situation to mirror my own judgments toward such people, which meant that I would be limiting ‘who I am’ to a single judgment/ definition of how I perceive others to be, never realizing that it was Never about ‘them’ but always about me and how I would become the very judgments that I projected onto others, simply because of believing that ‘like attracts like, ‘ and in that manipulate the situation according to a desired outcome of being ‘attractive’ for others or existing as the exact opposite, all in the name of taking my ego for a ride of self-gratification by either adulation or rejection, reducing my life experience to being a constant on and off, in and out, good and bad, happy or dismal, fulfilled or unfulfilled, while always having missed the constancy and consistency that my physical body would grant myself with in every moment that it would endure my constant existence of self-judgment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game in society wherein according to what you wear, you become a character that is able to get along with similar characters, even when perceiving that I could have a no-image/ no –character simply because of within my mind, existing within this idea that I am the clothes that I wear and that I still want to portray myself in a certain image that can be identified as a particular definition that can suit in other’s minds as someone that looks always the same.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what I wear as a projection of the image-based idea of simplicity, when in fact I am simply caging myself yet into another idea of ‘me being the clothes that I wear,’ because this would apparently allow me to be judged by others as ‘simple/ always looking the same’ according to the clothes that I wear.

 

I realize that the fact that I wear similar clothes simplifies my every day living wherein the focus is on how I experience myself within the clothes that I wear  – if they are physically supportive or not – instead of seeing them as part of the image that I define myself as and how I want to be seen by others, which is still existing as a point of expected judgment according to how others see me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever discriminate/ judge/ diminish people for what I would deem as a hideous attitude when in fact, all that I was judging was myself as a hideous attitude that I would actually become myself the very moment that I would dare to judge another as a ‘hideous person.’

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become a self-righteous person when it came to judging people/ assessing/ profiling others wherein I believed that ‘I as always right,’ which comes from the ingrained belief that I could in fact have some type of ‘gift’ that n no one else had when it came to being able to assess other beings’ life according to being 15 minutes in their house, hearing them speak, move, seeing what they wear, what they own, how they interact with others, wherein I would then create a definitive assessment of ‘who they are/ what they are all about,’ which now that I see, would usually end with perceiving most of the people to be just ‘fake’ and ‘hypocritical’ without realizing that I was the only critic and judge in that moment.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to sugar coat this automated judgment as ‘constructive criticism’ wherein I believed that through identifying someone’s flaws and strengths I was actually doing something ‘constructive’ in any way whatsoever, without realizing that such judgments can only exist within my own mind according to how I value and asses something/ someone according to my own mind-schemes of values acquired through a particular lifetime experience.

This means that any process of deliberating what is more valuable/ worthy within this reality and what is not, is essentially creating a world of further separation wherein we’ve got lost in categories, values, worth, seeking to be accepted and valuable at the eyes of others, never realizing that any ‘opinion’ or judgment created by another was only stemming from themselves as a reflection of their own mind – which implies that I have only been staring back at me every time that I tried to make a judgment about anything/ anyone.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that by seeing everything in a beautiful manner = I would create beauty and happiness in my world, without realizing that I actually did create such experience not as an actuality, as an inherent property of the world being that of positivity/ beauty/ magnificence – but it only became a self-created projection as a mind-possession wherein in this desperate desire to seek for beauty/ and the experience of being ‘alive,’ I became my own positive-seeking demon, wherein I believed that things would happen to me ‘for a reason’ and that I was being rewarded by some ulterior forces because of being constantly seeking to see the bright side of the world, without ever pondering if I had only simply been the creator of such experiences within my own mind, without any actual manifestation of ‘beauty’ or ‘aliveness’ existing as an actual property of the beingness of  beings/ things in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that every time that I judged someone as hypocrite, it was me existing as hypocrisy staring back at me, as a judgment of my own mind that I created and used to project onto others in a form of superiority as in ‘knowing better’ and believing myself to be ‘not hypocrite’ because ‘I’ was the one that was able to ‘spot’ hypocrisy on others.

I realize that this unnecessary cycle of self judgment can be stopped when and as I see myself looking at another and perceiving them as ‘hypocrite’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am only reflecting my own mind at another and that obstructs my ability to communicate and interact with another without any preconceived idea of ‘who they are’ based on ‘what they look like.’

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that every time that I perceived and judged another as ‘hostile,’ I was in fact simply reflecting my own hostility toward others, wherein I would reflect back that hostility as my own judgment staring back at me – this means that I would become the very judgment that I would project onto others/ or act out the exact opposite, such as deliberately being more friendly/ warm as per personality definition according to the situation I was in.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always become the judgment that I would project onto others in my mind, wherein I would be the actual cause of the perceived ‘communication gone wrong,’ wherein I would create an entire inner experience of being ‘misunderstood,’ without realizing that I had secretly projected a judgment toward another such as being ‘hostile,’ and as a response, I would become hostile myself and ‘shaping it’ into ‘my own personality’ which was that of self-victimization as in ‘being misunderstood’ when communicating with another.

 

When and as I see myself judging another as being hostile toward me – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am simply reflecting back that which I am existing as in the moment of judging another, regardless of the ‘shade of judgment,’ I see, realize and understand that in order to stand one and equal to all and everything, I have to stop any automated judgment to exist within my own mind. I direct myself to continue participating in the physical moment without assessing the event further in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that whenever I judged another as being probably ‘bored’ with me, it was me reflecting back what I was judging myself as in the moment, wherein through projecting my own judgment in my secret mind and not communicating about it, I would become that boredom and fedupness myself, wherein I would then be existing in an energetic possession of ‘boredom’ and ‘dullness’ that would set the tone for the moment when and while being with another, which would cause the entire point of communication to be non existent and into what I had perceived as an uncomfortable silence, while resorting to distract myself with any other picture/ image in my environment to shove away the experience.

 

When and as I see myself projecting the judgment toward others as ‘them being bored with me,’  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am in fact only projecting that which I am judging myself for, wherein through a process of becoming such judgment, I have in fact been the creator of my experience toward others, without having ever taken responsibility for it and instead, remain in the usual self-victimized state wherein I could remain secretly blaming another for what I would experience within me as a result of my own mind projection.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use what I see as a vice of self-judgment, wherein I believed that I had the ability to judge what is good/ bad, beautiful/ ugly, magnificent/ hideous and in that, becoming my own dictator that would create my experience toward everything/ everyone according to How I have judged others/ everything ‘outside of myself,’ instead of realizing that I am able to stand one and equal toward everything/ everyone by stopping all judgments and focusing on the physical reality that I am participating in the moment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the image I see of myself in the mirror, which is only a reflection at a mind level of who I really am

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the image that I see on the mirror believing that an image is all that I exist as, when in fact this is what I have accepted and allowed everyone and everything else to be diminished to within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself as a set of preferences according to the pictures I see in reality, diminishing my beingness here in the moment of breath to become a single definition of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, now that I see and realize that everything that I have always perceived/ judged and defined ‘others/everything’ outside of myself has only been me defining myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that my believed ability to see another being’s nature by looking at them in one glance was only me looking at myself as my own mind.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that by me ‘judging people first’ before ‘them,’ I would take a certain advantage toward others wherein ‘I’ could be ahead of them/ superior to them/ faster than them in being able to judge myself – within this I forgive myself that I always accepted and allowed myself to believe me to be faster/ more ‘aware’ of people and the environment wherein I would be immediately assessing ‘who I would be’ according to how I had judged the person, the place, the environment, the situation in order for me to achieve the expected outcome, wherein ‘I’ could always win and get things done the way that I wanted.

 

I realize that I have only been always looking back at me, which implies that for me to be able to stand one and equal as my mind, as everyone and everything else, I must stop existing as a constant judge within my mind, wherein I make sure that I become the point that stops all values, assessments, perceptions that create further separation from myself being able to exist here as the constancy and consistency of the physical which doesn’t require to be judged in order to exist.

 

I commit myself to continue stopping any automated judgments onto people in order to be able to walk here in the world wherein no judgment as thought, energetic experience toward anything/ anyone is created which would indicate that I simply shifted into my mind to ‘think’ about reality/ the situation instead of simply living it.

 

I commit myself to stop believing that I have any special ability to assess people and ‘know them’ without even talking to them, just by face value, which I deemed as a ‘positive trait’ within me, without realizing that such characteristic is as flimsy as any other belief that I know and realize are not real, and that I have only been the creator of myself as this secret judge at all times, wherein I believe that ‘how I see people,’ is ‘who the are,’ in that in fact only becoming someone that fears being judged because of  me having existed as this constant judge myself toward me and everyone, now realizing that it’s always been me.

 

I commit myself to take back to self any judgment that I do see emerges in the moment to get to see how I created it and  practically walk it through writing, applying self-forgiveness for accepting and allowing such point of separation to exist within me and walk the necessary correction according to the realization that in order for me to stand here as one and equal, no point of judgment as separation can exist, for I don’t require to judge to breathe.

 

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Pole-ticks: the uncomfortable truth

If we all know that politicians are only chasing the throne of power for the sake of their own personal benefit and have no intention whatsoever to care for people’s general well being, then why are we still accepting and allowing ourselves to believe that any person that is currently ‘running for president’ could actually make a difference in this world if throughout history none of this has been actually done?

It is quite lame to find out how politicians behave in their positions, becoming nothing else but a ‘good show’ for people to watch, criticize and talk about and in that, becoming even more popular even if it means being so for all the wrong reasons.

Unfortunately, one of the points we’ve had to realize is that: politicians are us as well and we are the ones that have create such group of people to delegate all our responsibilities to while they, of course, make good use of it following their greatest excitement which is certainly Not related at all with being an example of what being a living honorable being. Yet, isn’t this the very same desire that we are all chasing after as well?

I often see myself reacting to politicians – I have written about this before – without realizing that I am criticizing in another what I haven’t yet corrected as myself, when I haven’t yet directed me to be living here as breath with the utmost discipline to make sure that I can stand by every single word I say. This is written here to become aware of my own judgments that can become quite harsh toward the general fuckups in our world, which is me as well and any fuckup has to do with my own participation in the negligence toward this reality that we’ve created with such spiteful and abusive nature.

This is how we’re all responsible for everything that is here, this is how Self Honesty is not nice or beautiful as it implies realizing that we’ve become our worst nightmare and there is nothing or no one to blame for it but ourselves. Then we realize blame can only create further victimization, so all that’s left is standing up, taking self responsibility from here on and ensuring I don’t play out the same actions and deception that anyone in this world is currently living by, including myself of course.

Politicians are the incarnation of our constant desires transformed in a convincing image that can be voted on to get into office. That is us achieving our ‘goals’ and ‘dreams’ regardless of who or what we have to step upon, regardless of how much we have to lie and neglect our own self dishonesty as long as we have our ‘success’ guaranteed, as long as ‘we are fine’ and the rest of the world is just not ‘here’ for us to face.  It is because of these thinking processes that we’re currently facing the ultimate madness of the human as we become a savage demon seeking its ultimate fix in any single possible way.

Keeping ourselves sane in this world requires a constant grounding point: writing – sharing – discussing – breathing to realize I am here and we can’t trust anything of this world as this has become the last play of the ego of the human seeking its last drop of blood to drink and quench the interminable desire for such glory, fame and power regardless of the amount of beings that must be sacrificed in order to attain so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge politicians in separation of myself as inept people that are obviously pouring out deception and becoming the greatest liars on Earth, while disregarding the fact that they are the very manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the ultimate abdication of self responsibility while seeking the fulfillment of  hopes and dreams through the power that we’ve endowed on to money itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to criticize politicians for their quest to the ‘power’ without realizing that we all live by that same quest to make our dreams come true, to have the best and most wonderful life where everything is fine and taken care of, which is how we’ve delegated our self responsibility to others to do everything for us, to not have to become self responsible and do the things ourselves because that would imply that we actually have to become the solution and stop complaining and judging the system, which is us as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be judging another for the way that they speak, act and behave as it is clearly ‘deceptive’ and only seeking to get to power without realizing how such person is only playing out that which is existent in myself and everyone else wherein we present a ‘face’ to the world that is only seeking approval from others, seeking ‘your vote’ to become that which can have ‘all the power’ later on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge in another that which I haven’t yet acknowledged and accepted exists within me as well  – therefore I stop judging and having endless backchat when seeing ‘politicians’  as the ultimate scavengers on Earth, without realizing: they are me as well.

Time to stop – this is a reminder: whatever I am judging outside of myself must be brought back to self to see how I have created this manifestation as an outflow of my very own abdication of self responsibility, of my very own self dishonesty and my very own dreams and desires that have driven my entire existence never questioning who or what had to be stepped upon to fulfill them.

In an Equal Money System we won’t be having politicians that are keeping up a good show only for the sake of ‘gaining power and control’- no. Each one will be equally responsible and in that, we’ll all learn how to take care of this reality as ourselves, ‘loving our neighbor’ which is giving to each other what we want for ourselves and stopping any delusions of grandeur that perpetuate the ideals of ‘who’ and ‘what’ we must become in order to be ‘fool-filled’ in this world.

We stop buying into lies and create the actual freedom that can only come if we stand equal and one as that which is best for all – process of realizing that we are able to create better ways to coexist than what we’ve ever could’ve thought possible before.

This is it.

 

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Stopping being self-whacking bubbles

The one thought that you give attention to, the thought that will become your driver.

It may seem impossible to ‘snap out of it’ while being driven at 200 km/h by a thought within an entire plethora of memories as pictures, sounds, smells, words, colors, people – it really did seem difficult to realize that I am actually able and capable of stopping that in one single breath as a constant and continues living-application of simply not allowing myself to ‘go inflate the bubble’ but rather burst it and remain here, grounded, breathing.

 

Imagine enraged people fighting against each other suddenly realizing that: they can stop the thoughts of hatred towards each other, remove the accumulated grudge and scorn, drop the guns and simply breathe. That’d be a cool movie to create and Holy-wood would simply go bankrupt.

 

Yes, thoughts have become our most-vivid and personalized enter.tamement – forget about personal gadgets and whackgets, this is the real deal man, how else would you then be able to create an entire puffing-up experience of yourself but through thinking, feeling and experiencing yourself as your mind – that addiction, that sole self projection as Ego that we create and go whacking the bubble as our minds that have become the coins in the piggy savings container that is ready to burst – we’ve all contributed to this  bomb that is ready to explode as this time-ticking world is revealing to be standing up. It is us, humans, that must become walking-physical beings, not airy fluffy walls of soap that are easily moved and burst out with a single blow. Let that blow be your breath, here, in every moment. 

 

Now it’s not about the human as the physical being that could actually reduce their current life-style in an 80% and live in simple ways wherein we could essentially become environment-friendly as physical beings instead of creating environment-friendly products and further organic waste– which we produce anyways. There is a solution to that (Equal Money System)

 

What we’ve got to work with is stopping that thought/thinking experience as ‘who we are’ – Literally ponder that, how would the world be if no more history was held at the memory level – there’d be no nations, no hierarchies, no values on ‘more’ or ‘less’ as there’d be no reference points for that, no distinction between one another as there would be no names to honor or hate, there’d be no interest as money would not serve a purpose of keeping accounts in red numbers depicting the fallacy of the current monetary system for the fictional story of the apparent lack that has represented up until now – Money would become an actual living-organism, a functional part of the system that supports life and not drains and sucks everyone dry on endless payrolls.

 

Who has allowed all of this? We have.  And who has deliberately by actual choice  neglected the consequences that we’ve created not only for ourselves at the moment, but for every single living being in this world that we believe don’t have the ability to ‘think’ or ‘speak’, what about the generations to come if we don’t stop the current machinery and create a system that’s literally part of the living process as the physical, that’s best for all – We have done this, now, there’s no time to wallow in pity. Self Forgive and face the music.

 

Our money-mind master must cease to exist as it currently works– within this, all value placed on thoughts, memories, pictures, people, ideas, projections, mind networks of relationships must be annihilated along with the current monetary system that keeps such bubbles in place – take a look at it, what we believe ourselves to be has been made-possible due to the money we have/ we don’t have.

 

Easy example: do you ‘think’ that a person that’s currently “living” in a survival-mode has time to dwell upon emotional turmoil or failed relationships or lost dreams – furthermore, seeking to gain ‘more power’? No, they’re most likely focusing their every moment on continuing breathing and getting any means possible to live such as food, some clean water and a place to spend the night in.

 

A single example on how ludicrous it is to pay-off our apparent  ‘madness’ is giving names to our own accepted and allowed mind-delusion with such nicely placed psychiatric-savvy tags such as ‘social anxiety’, ‘bipolar disorder’ and a long list of so-called mental/personality disorders that are then obviously treated with drugs so that everybody wins and ends up with a happy smile on their fake-face. It can’t obviously be a real solution, yet people see no ‘solution’ other than indulging in chemicals to apparently ‘do the fixing’ that we’re more than able and capable of doing through an actual self-willed process that requires no pills to place into action, but single words as Self to be Lived:

Self Forgiveness.

 

A single process of daring ourselves to be intimate with ourselves for the first time, nurturing ourselves and caring for ourselves to stand up from the pit of self-pity, suffering, hatred, anger, frustration, belittlement, impotence, weakness, ugliness, shyness, self-loathing and self-suffocating experience that is ALL created at the mind level. It is this experience that is mostly existent in all human beings that has been projected as our spiteful, vengeful and absolutely self-abusive monetary system as the world system we’re currently accepting and allowing ourselves to live in.

 

It can only be an act of cynicism to claim we’re NOT responsible for how we are currently existing in this world, not actually realizing that we are the creators of each and every single outcome that has taken place Here and the consequences that go beyond what our eyes can see.

 

When realizing the extent of this, we can only simply STOP from being such whacking bubbles of self-deception and self-infatuated importance and forgive ourselves– because we can’t possibly create a new world upon layers of decadence lived as mind-drones. We can’t possibly go on as we currently are.

 

Stopping that masochism that we exist as in our heads can stop wars in our reality – yes, this is revealing how we are all responsible for what we’ve accepted and allowed within/out of ourselves as this world/ reality.

 

That second chance, that bringing-yourself-back-here is Here for everyone. This is not glorious, this is a Fact. This is the simplicity of stopping our thoughts, emotions, feelings and Pandora’s box will simply be sealed off forevermore.

It is only the rush, the energy, the mind-craving addiction that can keep us wanting more & more from it without realizing the obvious self-abuse that it brings and entails for all – equal and one.

We begin by giving ourselves time to breathe, to stop thinking and dare to walk mind-bare here, breathing ourselves through time and space.  That’s the real deal – suggest you try it out and you’ll see how one by one we can set us free.

This is 100% doable, we’re walking it – Are You?

 

 

 

Desteni


No Doubts: we’re Not Knowledge

 

Being called ‘skeptical’ while realizing that going through our lives ‘believing’ is an act of faith itself – can’t really define ‘who I am’ either regardless  of the feedback that we may get from fellow human beings that get off-ended when exposing the lies we’ve bought as our soul. I’m certainly done going around the entire methodic doubt to confirm one’s own beliefs to be true which is certainly Not the way to go around in this world – why would I want to assert myself as ‘being right’ about ‘my beliefs’ to be ‘true’?

I cannot trust my mind with further air-castle creations that are perceived or believed to be real unless I can correlate and verify it is actually so, and that is through actually living/walking in this reality.

To place this into context, the following comes from the realization upon comments received in a video in spanish about ‘Life after death’ wherein I’ve gotten several enraged comments claiming that I am skeptical and that anyone has the right to believe what they want within this life.

So, we’ll not engage into discussing how it is that we as human beings have defended the ‘right to believe whatever I want’ as a form of self righteousness that stems from our delusion of apparently having ‘free choice’ and ‘free will’ in this reality, which are only but a pair of aspects that we’ve debunked within this process of Self Honesty. While walking it, we see and realize that we are subjects of a preprogrammed reality, endowed with preprogrammed features to create the faux perception that we are ‘free to think’ whatever the hell we want – we can! yes, though from thinking to reality there’s a huge step missed: the physical-living and tangible reality we are realizing ourselves as.

 

Within this, the mind conjectures become invisible ‘food for thought’ that serves no purpose in the physical reality, but allowing each being to remain as an enclosed bubble of thinking processes justifying and excusing itself of how thinking is ‘at least’ the self-righteous act wherein we ‘make the rules’. Hmm.

 

Doubt as a first stage to question the world is quite a cool point to engage into – it is through doubting everything we’ve been taught that one develops that ‘curiosity’ to ‘know the truth’ which is what I recognize I did in my life.
I had to laugh at myself later on when realizing that ‘the truth’ of myself had always been Here as myself, as my body, as the brain, muscles and veins with flowing blood that I had completely ‘forgotten’ about while engaging into knowledge that could ‘let me Know Who I Am’ – we’ve all bitten the apple of knowledge and within that we’ve wanted to get an experience/ knowledge out of chewing the apple instead of simply realizing the actual fruit for what it is: something that will nurture and support ourselves as the physical.

 

When we make ‘of knowledge’ our ‘truth’, we’re then damned and bound to/by it as the set of our own conjectures and aphorisms. This is what I’ve encountered as the reasons why people complain about having ‘no belief’, it’s almost as if the entire ‘human nature’ is being offended by saying that there is no afterlife and that all beliefs are useless to live in this physical reality. The majority has taken knowledge coming from ‘the bible’ or any other rusty document, philosophy or food-for-thought as ‘truth’ and within that, completely forgetting or not even questioning the validity of such words within the veritable context of this world/ reality.

 

When one poses such a ‘threat’ to one’s knowledge/beliefs, doubt is implanted within beings. This causes one to Fear losing one’s definitions of whatever they’ve believed themselves/ this world/ reality to be which is why we’re usually vehemently attacked – my mother till this day repeats the same thing over and over again: “you all are hated because you’re messing with peoples’ beliefs” and within that, I can always only laugh afterwards realizing  how humanity is able to fight wars for the sake of defending a belief, which is then how we have seen throughout history the crusades and any other enterprise that had an aim related to defending/imposing a belief – religious, monetary, social-system wise – that could then impose dominion over certain human groups/ population. I could go deeper into the mental conquest/mind control that this represents but, we’re not going in there at the moment.

 

Now, coming back at ourselves at an individual level, we can only ‘doubt’ ourselves the moment that we hold any type of knowledge as the Idea of what we are/ can be. This mostly stands as a limitation wherein the mind arranges a possible outcome that we then ‘fear’ going into instead of simply stopping all self-doubt and walking through the point in reality to see if such future projection as the idea of ourselves was actually ‘real’ or not – we’ll find that it was never real and that it is simply much-simpler to stop all beliefs, to stop all knowledge about ourselves which is pre-defined according to ‘who we’ve been’ as past-experiences/patterns repeating themselves ad nauseam, and instead embrace the actual realization of ourselves at the physical level wherein we can only ‘doubt’ ourselves if we go into knowledge.  We can only trust ourselves here as every breath, as the physical pumping of blood through the veins that enables us to continue actually-living here.

 

This is very simplistic stuff, this is about stopping thinking and actually Living in this physical reality wherein there is No need to ‘think about death’ to exist here, there is no need to believe in a ‘god’ to take self responsibility for ourselves here, there is no need to have ‘faith’ in something if we realize our full ability to create within this world and actually accepting and embracing ourselves as the directive principle to act, live and speak in terms of considering what’s Best for All as the principle of Equality = that’s about all we require to ‘know’ and it’s not a knowledge but a realization that comes when we start seeing/realizing who we really are in this world, which cannot be trapped or defined by nice words, ‘beautifully’ arranged such as the ones that many people have tagged as ‘wisdom’ that has mostly served for the mental masturbation overlooking the physical reality, presenting no practical solutions to live and coexist as Equals while seeking ‘greatness’ as the mind = that’s not who we are.

 

Somehow Equality has only been made into a vacuous concept that is existent in constitutions and other ‘human rights’, never realized as Life as who/what we really are.

 

 

So – back to the point here: how can we then stop doubting ourselves?

We simply stop existing as knowledge and embrace ourselves as the walking, physical-breathing living beings that we are wherein no knowledge is required, only a principle to live by which is Equality and Oneness as Life.

Self Trust – trusting our words can only come as we go Living the Words we speak. And that is certainly a process we’ve never lived before, hence we are all here to walk, live and share as we go along.

 

Whenever we ‘feel’ uncertain we simply stop and realize we’re going into knowledge as who I am is here as constant as constative in-out breath  that I am here.

 

Whenever we ‘lack conviction’ – we realize that we’ve con.victed ourselves through the self-diminishing act of’ ‘thinking/believing we are our thoughts’ and that we require some ‘external force’ to direct ourselves to do/be what’s best for all.

The certainty that I am here is as breath, as physical reality – I can only trust myself as that physicality that I am – the rest can be movable hence not constant, hence not life itself.

This is how we then move according to common-sense which can be lived, applied by all without having to spice it up with personal additives that segregate and divert ourselves from realizing our Equality as who/what we really are here.

So – we’re not skeptical, we are simply self-realizing as what’s here, no need to believe or doubt or exist as knowledge – we simply stick to the physical reality.


Motive-Action: No reason behind it but Self as Life

Through writing myself I discovered how throughout my life I had motivated myself day by day through relying on outside-points to keep going, I would hang on dreams and events that would ‘make my day’ – and I can’t deny about that being supportive in a way – yet it became obvious how depending on external factors lead to an experience of uncertainty within myself.

Motivation – self motivation – that was quite a point to walk through and still walking as I’ve had to let go of the dreams that became my motivation, I had to let go of expecting something of myself or someone that would ‘make my day’ – and by this I mean from seeing someone, from achieving something, from going somewhere – all about experiences, little flickering lights that would light my way so to speak.

Though once I realized that I couldn’t keep up to this, I had to become my own motivation, self-motivation yet I realized that I hadn’t actually cared for myself, I had built myself around an idea that was built in terms of how I wanted to be seen by others, in terms of ‘making a statement’ of how I viewed the world so in essence creating and molding myself as an apparent eccentric person that would still be defined according to the ‘center’ of society – this works in similar way as to how an atheist defines themselves according to the non existence of god – I did the same in terms of being the opposite of the ‘mainstream’ and within that, creating a ‘space’ for myself here in terms of being an outcast of sorts.

This indicated to me that I had created a limited space within reality where I could fit in, it’s fascinating because we’re the only ones that go creating such categories and ‘spaces’ like that, it’s not really something that is already-existent, we merely exist as this program that seeks for its ‘space’ and defines itself accordingly. So my ‘space’ was that of having never actually supported myself, never actually having embraced and accepted myself which made that motivation something quite difficult to walk through, because I hadn’t done something for myself, it all had been for the sake of something/someone else – and within that, I had to face the reality of the situation: I had never actually cared for myself to the extent of doing things as me for me –

Through writing myself I realized that such care wasn’t coming ‘naturally’, I discovered how anything I did was in relation to ‘the rest of the world’ and not really me being the starting point of it all – I didn’t care for myself and till this day I can say that such ‘carelessness’ lead me to self-abuse in certain ways that I’m still facing today.  This inherent desire to have another point to validate my existence – a.k.a. relationship – and seeking my worth and value within that became the modus vivendi for myself for quite sometime wherein I could only exist and define myself according to ‘who I was for such person’ – I couldn’t stand or bare to be alone and so within walking this process I’ve learned how to embrace myself, be by myself and get to enjoy myself again – such a self-given gift really, I realized how much I had forgotten about me within that, and I see that I still tend to do that which I am simply placing a ‘flag’ upon because, I can’t be focusing on ‘the outside’ more than I do on the ‘inside’.

Within this, self-motivation which is moving you for you, as you for the sake of supporting yourself entails first getting to stand within self respect, self-forgiveness is definitely a requirement to get to a point of dignity as ourselves, to finally allow ourselves to care for ourselves if we’ve never actually done that. When we realize all that we’ve done and how we disregarded our physical body, ourselves as life it comes as a bucket of cold water, yet it’s necessary for the sake of realizing that we’ve got to create that care, that acceptance and that self-support that’s never ever been promoted as part of what being a human being is, we’ve always been only taught to ‘work hard’ and ‘have great expectations of ourselves’ yet never actually learning how to motivate ourselves for ourselves within the understanding and acceptance of who we are as life – never has that been explained or even considered as part of being a human being.

The motivation that I’ve created for myself as myself doesn’t rely on hopes or wishful thinking of a better world, the motivation that I have is realizing that I’m part of a group of human beings that are standing up for life – I seriously doubt that I could’ve done this alone, by myself and within this it’s obvious that I realize that Desteni is that point available for everyone, all of us that are actually willing to support ourselves as life. The motivation that I’ve created as myself is seeing that I am no longer only supporting these systematic experiences wherein I would go seeking some feeling or emotion to ‘be alive’ but instead realize that it’s up to me to create myself as someone that is stable, self-directive and considering what’s best for all – in essence walking through the steps to be and stand as an actual dignified living being so that I can support in the implementation of a new way of existing – a new way of living in this world wherein we’re no longer motivated by money, by fame, glory or sex – but actually moving ourselves as the will of life we are to stand as equals and create a world that will be simply best for all – a reality that we’ll all be enjoying ourselves to live in.

At the moment I realize this is rather a point that seems too difficult to grasp, I get you – though, I am definitely here to stand as this point of self-support because I see and realize that my ‘life’ being miserably depressed lead me nowhere but to ensure I remained in a state of confusion, self abuse, eternal wonderings and most prominently seeking answers that would’ve made no difference to this reality whatsoever.

Here I place the importance of walking as a group – here I call on Desteni but we also place it within the context of humanity in its entirety. Finding people that are actually willing to care in equal terms has been definitely supportive from the very beginning. At moments where I can’t find that self-motivation, I take it back to the point of doing it for the sake of who I am as part of the group as equals – within that I can support myself in leading myself back to that self respect and self-support that I had realized is perfectly possible before. We’ve gotta ground ourselves from swaying back and forth within this –
If I move myself then it must be constant and consistence – this doesn’t imply ever only existing moving myself– this means within the terms of actually supporting myself in continuing this process as myself, supporting myself to remind myself what is it that I am doing here and how I am walking this as we certainly tend to lose that ‘grasp’ of reality at times. This is only a temporary bridge until we realize ourselves as self movement and within that not basing our application within a separate outcome or for a certain purpose/goal in separation of ourselves.
Equality is a point of motivation – finally dignifying LIFE as it always should’ve been – Self Honesty is  a point of motivation as it is within this way of existing that people will learn to consider all participants within all actions – this is the most excruciating part at the moment considering the state of possession we’re living as humanity – yet not impossible.
See, there is no ‘hope’ as I rather move myself to create a better future, there is no ‘faith’ required but on myself as that ability to reassure to myself that I can walk and breathe and do whatever is required to be done for the ultimate goal which is Equality as the certainty of who we are as life – this sounds ‘cool’ but in essence it is only within this that we can actually realize our full potential devoid of a personal interest that usually separates the outcomes into personalized ideas which is where people tend to go into ego.
Moving as one has a single outcome and motive-for-action: equality as life –within this it is the one point we can all agree is required to create and where we can all agree that our fullest potential exists. Therefore I have decided to live my life through this principle, to make myself the motivation for my own walking due to Equality being the single most prominent and important outcome that we require to realize as ourselves first.

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Self motivation:

Self is the motive to act and live to create a dignified living for all as what’s best for all which is best for myself wherein I am the beginning and end of my day to day living – there is no separate reason to it as I live by principle which is applicable to all equally and I move and create this as myself breath by breath through time and space till it’s done.

There is no ‘reason’ required to move, but only realizing myself as self will and within that the movement of it becomes self-motivation – always back to self without creating a separate point for me to move, act and direct.


Newborn in Equality–No More Crimes Against Life

Equality seems  an empty word when not related directly to ourselves  as who we are – it seems like simply one of those words that have no direct ‘image’ related to it  and thus the entire meaning is lost because we then only create Equality at an ‘image’ level  as ‘sameness’ – not at an actual-essence of who we are. We’ve only fairly recently – amazingly late I’d say -  how we exist as One and Equals – and this considering not only the physical level as living breathing tissue  but the essential level of ourselves existing here as the entirety of existence – same Earth, same place, same resources, we breathe the same air – though we’ve separated ourselves completely from ourselves through money that is actually innocent in itself, but it’s the way that we use it the one that creates the entire fuckup.

Humans and addictions are one intricate relationship that is seldom question to its core –

We can’t possibly continue existing in such separation from everything we eat, from losing awareness of all that which we use every single day which is here as ourselves, as life, as that unconditional point of Support that is Here for us at the moment to support our lives so that we can dignify this life that we are using – and currently mostly abusing – to finally agree that we have to Support All Life Equally and thus Stop the Enslavement of ourselves as the entirety of this system within its mechanics of abuse, of superiority, of delusions of grandeur  that create by default suffering, abuse and ultimately, the inability to ever know what actually Living means!

It’s INSANE to see to what extent we’re separated ourselves, to even realize that Consciousness that is a finite automated system is far greater than us might raise some questions towards anyone that defends any type of human evolution, any type of idea of human as superior species – no way, host is it possible that we are even currently less than a system that stores information to simply use it when proper stimuli is in the environment ? is that actual existence? is that’ really living? Is that even real communication or is it simply programs re-creating the same programming to relate one’s own existence amongst others? That’s not really being HERE, that’s Thinking that we are here, we are essentially self-centered mind-machines that are used to relating to the world at a single Thought level, never at an actual Physical integration with everything that is HERE as Self – one and equal.

Insane it is that we’ve never actually realized the simplicity of that until now – and even ‘realizing’ it at a thought level doesn’t imply that we can immediately LIVE as LIFE because we have to yet disengage from all the relationships we’ve created as our own ‘social network’ that we exist as within our own mind and not even towards ‘other beings’ but existent as our own words, as our own images, experiences, preferences, opinions, beliefs that we’ve acquired and identified as ‘who we are’ – Really?

Getting to actually Live, getting to THAT requires major changes and transformation from the very moment a mother bears a new life in the womb.

VItal immediate changes have to exist in parents that are going to be bringing forth new life into this world – this is paramount to understand as a great part of a human’s inherent conditioning comes from the very first years of how they live, the childhood they have and thus it’s obvious how bringing a child into this world, having to livie within a broken home and with parents that can’t even deal with their own mind/emotional problems is really a crime against life – I cannot fathom how people that barely have anything to eat get pregnant and thus, bring an equally starving child to this world – this is something that breaks my heart if that can figuratively explain how much we disregard the actual solutions that have to exist – and all because we’ve never considered how important it is to Educate people, to explain how it is possible to prevent unnecessary births into this world!   Bringing a new life to an environment where no food, no water, no proper hygiene is in place, no proper housing, no proper clothing, no proper mental sanity is in place is a crime against life –

I am basically getting to this topic due to seeing my sister being pregnant and seeing how her baby will be born into a golden crib wherein she’ll have more than what she actually needs and how she’ll be living in a bubble where all protection is given, where all food, all entertainment, all best education is available – a ‘fortunate one’ that might get to be yet another one that disregards the reality of this world – I will make sure that she gets to have a reality check out of the bubble that is already existent as the entire home and environment she’ll be born into. Pff!! and thinking that she is one in thousands that will be coming into this world this year – probably millions -  one of the very few ones to have it all – and all just because of money.

It is OBVIOUS there should be no difference in the conditions that babies are born into – how delusional is to see that we accept to see inequality as one baby being born into a golden crib and another being born into mud and tears? How is this possible? How is it that we see ‘how things are’ and never ever ponder what happened to our Equality?

And yes that’s a line from the Equality Song because we are HERE to make sure that no baby has to see themselves being born into a world where crimes against life are created every single second, where violence is the daily bread fed on the media, where life conditions are decided by paper and coins that are made available only for some, wherein their entire lives are doomed to pay debt, to work as a slave with no ability to overcome their position.

This Must Stop and we are Here as the Key that Changes this Reality into an actual Living Equality as Life For All – because I am not willing to continue living in a world wherein children are born into mud and tears just because we are doing nothing about it and accept inequality as how things are.

Unacceptable.

All Beings are Equal – All Life is Equal – Support the Equal Money System to finally STOP the crimes and abuse against LIFE.

We seriously have to get down to the very basics of understanding 1+1=2

 


‘Oh, but I’m only a Human (Failure)’

One of the points that I struggled with to actually accept as a point to stand equal and one with was the word ‘Perfection’ wherein when that point of Self-Perfection came out I first saw it as a point wherein we allow that ‘flawed nature’ as humans within a ‘flawed system’ wherein the best justification available for all fuckups when not taking self responsibility is ‘oh but we’re only human’ or ‘I’m not perfect, I am a human’ and within that allowing ourselves to diminish ourselves as our the potential that we are actually capable and able to stand equal and one with.

We can see within that ‘flawed nature’ we diminish ourselves, it is that single back door existent in all of us when we tend to say ‘oh fuck it I don’t see myself getting to this/that point’ and it’s like a form of giving up before even starting and seeing it as ‘normal’ within is when it is not, it’s part of that which we’ve allowed ourselves to become through our participation in society, in the education system.

So when understanding Self-Perfection I realized that we’ve simply accepted perfection as something that is apparently ‘more than us’ because we’ve been used to believe that ‘perfection doesn’t exist’ which is what I told Bernard at the farm when this point was opened up and then he replied ‘Yes, perfection doesn’t exist, we create it’ and that made complete and full sense as that ‘click’ in the moment on how I was by-default giving up to actually realize that it is possible to create ourselves as self-perfection as life – obviously throughout a process that we begin with ourselves, point by point yet aligning ourselves within this very point of self perfection as what’s best for all – cool isn’t it? Being able to re-design ourselves as human beings simply because we are able to do so, it’s a matter of understanding why it’s best for all, why we require to live as equals to the fullest potential and then simply being the actual steps into applying this as ourselves.

See, before in my life when looking at solutions to this world, I would always end up saying that this world would have to be changed from its root/starting from scratch and applying that as ourselves in this moment is us re-educating ourselves at this stage paving the way for future generations – This begins with for example re-educating the now to be parents so that the same patterns and cycles of ignorance and disregard of life are able to be stopped with everyone realizing ourselves as Self-Perfection. And, when we talk about re-education it means the entire education system has to be modified within the starting point of supporting an Equality System and not a Capitalist ruthless competitive system which in itself will change the way ‘buildings are built’ so to speak – thus if we see ourselves as capable of building and creating in this world already at the level that we are doing now, we simply veer all of that to an equality starting point wherein Self-Perfection as the ability to give the best of ourselves for everyone equally is actually created, to realize that optimum level of existence as an individual and collectively is actually possible –

And this point of ‘Perfection not existing’ is something that I saw in this movie called ‘Tron’ wherein they imply how people end up going all nuts and sick of power when seeking perfection – so at the end they state that clearly on how they cannot go looking for perfection, creating a perfect system which they equate to almost a fantastic-like equivalent to fascism. So we can see how within your movies nowadays – which is a Disney movie btw for kids and all general public – we get the idea of people giving up to be able to live in an actual Perfect world – heaven on earth – wherein from a young age they are then indoctrinated to thin ‘Seeking perfection will make us mad, we can’t be perfect, perfection doesn’t exist’ and within that accepting the flawed ‘nature’ of ourselves as humans and the reflection of ourselves as the current system as ‘how things are’ not being able to be changed apparently – so that’s quite a fucked up point that is being imprinted in kids through that movie.

So, we do have to clarify the point of how when standing as Equals as Life, we we will be then actually living as Self Perfection as that which should’ve always been the actual ‘nature’ of ourselves within this world which never has been in fact due to us accepting the single fact of ‘human error/nature’ as ‘how we are’ and thus giving into failure by default – within that we can see how we are used to seeing things breaking apart – lol from agreements/relationships/marriages/families/associates/partners etc to electric appliances and all other technology designed to not last on purpose to have clients buying every year yet deliberately using this tactic because of the pre-existent belief in people that ‘nothing is perfect = things are able to break down’ or ‘ it is actually how things are and can’t be changed’ – and within that single acceptance and the proliferation of it as ‘who we are’ we have our own creation as this world wherein self perfection is placed as a crazy person’s unattainable dream.

Hear us well, we are here to get ourselves to realize ourselves as that Self Perfection that we’ve never known due to our own limitations towards this point – we are here to remove all threads of self-imposed limitation, capping ourselves, placing a lampshade to not allow ourselves to give the totality of our potential – and thus because seeing everyone else accepting that point of ‘failure’, we accept that as ourselves, as the world and entire system with everyone participating within an ingrained acceptance of ‘we are able to fail and fuck it all up, it’s our nature’ which is what must stop in all ways. Thus the importance of having to remove that inherent flawed idea of ourselves to no longer re-create that at the greater-picture level which is the current world system wherein the greatest atrocities and crimes against life are then justified and covered up with the excuse ‘Oh but I’m only human, we are not perfect’

No more excuses to be One and Equal as Life –


Children are Here as Life

I had a cool meeting with some family-friends from the states that arrived today and beyond talking to the mother and daughter, I enjoyed talking with the son of ‘the daughter’ who is a 7 year old boy that people simply deem as a ‘menace’ kid – I see whenever I am in ‘grown ups’ reunions like that, If I see kids, I’ll go and just hang around with them, I definitely enjoy kids whom I can speak to, specially around that age 7-10-12 – I did the same in that wedding in germany, lol trying to catch some stuff in german and then in english and even if the communication as such within words wasn’t coming completely ‘through’ I enjoyed being with them.

Anyways, so I simply went upstairs at my aunt’s house to see what the kids were doing, as usual – a tv was on disney channel, my cousin that is around 14 years old plugged to her ipod or whatever it was, lol – and the ‘son’, the 7 year old kid ‘K’ was watching tv along with my other two cousins, 6 and 12 years old – I grabbed a small guitar they were messing around with and started playing some notes, I noticed that K immediately stopped looking at the tv screen and started following the rythym with his hands on the armchair, and he was just immediately ‘tuned in’ to the rythym and so I increased the speed and he increased his ‘armchair drumming’ and I was simply playing the same notes over and over and he just was into it, lol – so cool until the ultimate rush of notes and finally stopping the sound – then I started talking to him, getting the usual ‘what are your hobbies’ or ‘what music do you like’ – lol and after getting thumbs down for people like justin bieber and lady gaga amongst others lolol, these kids – he started talking on how he’d found really disgusting how people would show themselves puking a lot of meals on tv so people would find that ‘funny’ –  he started communicating on similar points that he’d seen on tv shows how people do harm to themselves to entertain another and how people would find that funny – It was very interesting to see that he was able to eloquently express himself and stand within a complete basic common sense point in relation to ‘what is best for all’ within seeing this self-inflicted harm portrayed on shows as ‘entertainment’ or ‘funny’-things that people are supossed to laugh or like – he was dead serious he didn’t like that at all –  And so I simply started communicating, wow, it is the first time in a long time I am able to communicate this easily with someone – I would simply share the common sense perspective on things and he would share other experiences where he’d seen ‘people littering on the earth’, he even spoke on how people get paid to pick up other’s trash (meaning cleanign the streets from littering) and how people that litter on the streets only care about themselves – and don’t care about others –

He kept explaining how he’d seen some animal abuse images on a dog and how the person that inflicted harm on the dog should be punished to jail for ‘infinity’ because he harmed another being that is life – yes I have to say I thoughoughly enjoyed the views K had upon what he’d seen on tv, what he’d seen others do within his life – an example is seeing how one cheated to win a game and how that was Not Fair at all because they were already showing themselves as ‘wanting to win’ and thus the rest of the people playing the game had no-chance anymore to ‘win’ because, he had already cheated to win for himself, because he only cared about himself!

I mean, really cool just look at all the concepts that he pointed out in common sense in a less than half an hour intense exchange of views where we could Easily agree upon what’s best for all! I also saw how by exprsesing myself with him with basic common sense, he was able to immediately grasp it – the moment I mentioned ‘that’s why we are supporting an Equal Money System’ so that everyone can have a fair life to live here on Earth – he immediately agreed that it was ‘fair’ because we all live here on Earth – lol I even played with ‘Earth’ and ‘BEarth’ to see how life is born in the physical, earth! I wanted to sing ‘A cup is just a cup’ – lol I could only get the first lines ‘A cup is just a cup, it’s made from the Earth’ – lol this actually I just began singing to him after meeting him, to which he started questioning how that was possible? a cup made from the earth? eh? lol! and so I explained and he immediately got it – pff, these kids got dual core processors, they simply see it when having the basic foundation to see where abuse exists, what personal interest is, what harm is, what killing another is, what death is, what ‘pricdes’ are (which is how he called a ‘salary’ or ‘wage’ for a person’s job), animal life, respecting life, etc

A great point is that he said – I dislike cheaters, (I explained what greed implies in wanting to win the game all the time and thus being dishonest in cheating to make their ‘winning’ certain to which he added that it thus limits the others to have any chance to ‘win the game’ because it’s already been ‘fixed’ fascinating) – he continued on the equal money point: people that are working for a job to live should get money and people that don’t care about themselves and that don’t care about anyone else because if they don’t care about themselves = they won’t care about anything or anyone else, shouldn’t get money. As simple as that!! just how it should be.  He’s completely aware of how people are paid by others that are in a master’s position of having a lot of money and that the ability to do so – meaning having people ‘beneath’ them – make them even richer.

Yes, a 7 year old kid – fascinating – I could speak words and he would immediately ‘grasp’ it to his understanding in very simple terms and then come up with his own experiences on the specific topic – I mean while he was explaining all of this things he was just sitting on a basketball ‘ball’ and moving a bit around until he finally sat in the couch completely into the conversation – he was simply expressing himself with what he’d seen and how we have to ‘not litter on the streets’ and not beign able to understand what a person has to ‘be’ or ‘think like’ to say ‘I will litter on the earth’ and so then someone else having to do them for themselves – He even explained how he cleans his room and helps his mom to do so.

I would’ve probably spent more time talking to him, lol it was funny that I said ‘okay, I have to go now’ he simply followed me downstairs and kept explaining the points and then up again until he finished explaining the points he wanted to address with regards to this kid complaining about not winning a game after he’d seen him cheating to actually win but then not doing so and thus complaining about something that he’d created for himself wherein he obviously saw that the kid ‘revealed’ the ‘nature’ of himself as a cheater and already not allowing others to have the opportunity to win not even by ‘stroke of luck’ – fascinating.

So, would be cool if the communication opens up again, he’s a really cool kid that exprsses himself perfectly well and has got more than the basic common sense we would require in any given human being to see what is best for all as life.

I enjoyed this  point thoroughy and pff, it is cool to encounter kids like this really – I experienced the same common-sensical way of living from my aunt’s son in germany who is the same age as K and really just talking with them about these everyday events they see in their lives, with their friends or classmates or whatever goes around in their environment and being able to clearly see ‘what’s best for all’ and just being kids that express themselves, that are considered playful yet when establishing communication with them, it’s fascinating to see how they think, how they live what they speak of – I mean they can only speak from experience, they can’t speak of any other given thing, lol another basic point on communicating as self- kids get it faster than ‘adults’ of course.

Enjoyable – very cool, let’s see what opens up in another moment.

With regards to my experience and everything on the past two days, I see the points, I can see that I will have to deal with this whenever the points emerge again and yes, it is my ‘testing’ the standing of self honesty in my world, I was just reminded by this within the uploading of the third part of my resonance interview

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9rp5GfZD4c

it is great support for everyone as equals –

So, kids as the future – education, development of vocabulary, practical reference points within their reality – living as an example as a father/mother – fascinating, talking with this kid is ‘refreshing’ from all the bullshit going around in the internet with adutts fighting against each other – if the world could only exist with kids like him, the laws would be on not exceeding sugar ingestion or hours in front of tv lol – just ‘dreaming’ on a bit here but, I can see that it is defintely worthwhile to do this for kids, to pave the way for kids like him – it makes complete common sense –

thanks for reading


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