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313: Good, Evil and Power

What is good and evil can be shaped according to the morals imposed by the governing power. We can’t trust knowledge to decide what’s best for all, and this is an example of how words can be twisted to justify wars in the name of ‘Saving People’s lives from Evil.’  This is a bit of context in order to get to understand where ‘Rights’ come from as a form of Righteousness that defines what is ‘good’ and ‘bad’ what is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ to pursue in one’s living condition.

 

Problem:                                                                      

 

Before we begin to disclose what ‘Rights’ are, let’s look at the basic mindset of ‘Good and Evil’ and the role it plays in our current political dispositions.

 

What is Good and What is Evil?

The difference resides in the morality from which both ‘good and evil’ stem from, wherein according to a particular faction or dominant ideology, the individuals will ‘make up their minds’ about what is good and what is evil wherein personal benefits at an individual level or state interests at a system level are guarded, secured and defended. This means that because it is knowledge, it is a mind creation that when it is lived out, it can cause either beneficial outcomes or harm and abuse, just as any word we live out.

Evil is the real Human Nature as the Reverse of Live, that’s the simplest way to describe it, and Good is that which should be Best for All, but Good is not lived as such holistic determination, but instead shaped according to morals of what benefits the individual’s interests without considering such ‘good’ being a common denominator for All participants, due to, once again, knowledge and information as ideologies, idiosyncrasies, religion, culture, etc. All of that which separates the individual from physical considerations of what best for all in fact means, for example an economic system where every person can be regarded with having such right to pursue happiness in Equality, where no one is left out of such unconditional support as part of our Self-Responsibility by virtue of existing Here.

An empirical example is how for Americans it can be a ‘good call’  to wage war on terror, to justify going after potential terrorists or anti-democratic regimes with the banner of installing democracy and universal human rights, which are only a consideration according to what’s good for them and openly disguising imperialistic tactics justified by the ‘Salvation of Foreigners’ which then sounds like a Good thing for people in America to support war and their troops abroad: the invasion is then seen as Benevolent, people will accept war as a means for GOOD and a Benevolent act to ‘Free people from Evil Regimes/dictators’ while using war to do so. This is how  knowledge and information is used to adapt and warp people’s interests to think and believe that it is in their best interest that their military force wages war against ‘regimes’ or potential terrorists that threaten their own security, which is why war is then seen as a ‘defense,’ without realizing that such wars happen to have more civilian casualties, destruction and abuse than any actual defense from an apparent malevolent sovereign or terrorist.

However if we see it from the side of people in Iraq and Afghanistan, what Americans are doing is Evil because they are simply killing their people in order to obtain their territory and resources for further accumulation of power on their side. This is thus how the same act becomes Evil when seen from ‘the others side’ of the coin. However it is the same coin.

The consequences are very real. People dying is the result of countries seeking to broaden their range of influence over other countries to ensure their ability to have power over the territory for economic reasons such as the extraction and siphoning of resources, territorial military purposes, strategic geographic for further military campaigns, etc. It is Imperialism and this is the same mechanism being used by Corporations in our current Capitalist system as well, in the name of progress or further ‘economic renewal’ wherein in the desire for ‘good sales’ and positive numbers in economy, the lives of people that have to work as slaves with a miserable income have to ‘pay the price’ that will make another smile when seeing such a ‘good quality product at such a low price.’ At the eyes of the consumer it is ‘good’ to have affordable items, at the eyes of the worker it is evil to get such an unfair pay for their work. Obviously common sense is that such ‘progress’ is in fact Evil as it is not taking into consideration the lives of Human Beings, but only numbers, sales, and maximizing profit.

Evil is then the manufacturing of actual harm and abuse justified by mind-created needs that seek to obtain ‘power’ through abusing, violating, killing, extorting. And Good has become a way to distort such actual reasons and justifications with labels like ‘liberty’ and ‘justice’ and ‘democracy,’ so that the same actions are justified in the name of the ‘greater well being’ of a country’s populace. However it must be understood as an actual Imperialistic tactic, which is how our system has been funded upon.

 

Solution                                                                            :

What matters is not what can be defined as Evil or Good within our current configuration wherein we’re trapped in loopholes of cultures, traditions, ideologies, religions, languages that are the representation of us seeing more differences within who we are as the mind than common grounds based on physical aspects of who we are as humans, as physical beings living in  a physical world with equal needs. Thus, what matters are the Actions –  how words are Lived-  and not to get caught in morals of ‘right and wrong’ and ‘good and evil’ since I’ve just explained how this can be twisted to suit personal interests. That’s what knowledge does, and that’s why it is an instrument of power that has been used  to abuse, extort and control rather than establishing any common sense, otherwise we would have already transcended such polarization that is existent in every single aspect of our current living reality.

 

Evil is the reverse of life, which is what we as human beings currently exist as since it’s the foundation of the mind that creates knowledge and information to justify its insulate means of requiring friction and conflict to exist. For that we require to dissolve morality on focus on prevention and consequence of what causes common well being and what will disrupt it.

 

 

Rewards:                                                                        

Focusing on the physicality, what is best for all is the way to ensure we stop being ridden by morals as knowledge and information to make up our mind about what is best for all, and instead, ensure we establish practical ways to always act, think and speak in the best interest of all life forms, that’s our responsibility as part of this society and ecosystem until good is what’s best for all – and I mean ALL as Equals in fact.

What’s Best for all can only create a single outcome, real living enjoyment in Equality.

 

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309. Equal Distribution of Power

So, why did Collectivism become a single evil word to be feared by every person in the crib of Capitalism? Because it means an Equal Distribution of Power.

 

Within Collectivism, the interests of the majority are guarded and defended from any attempt to monopolize them again – this way of thinking could have prevented a system like capitalism from blooming with such a force as it did in America. Really? Well, we have to actually remember and realize that the nature of the human was to always seek a way to win, to have power and justify it as the most noble means. Of course, no one would have been able to criticize the Pursuit of Happiness since it is such a positively charged experience, how could we? If we essentially learned to grow our individual desires, make of competition an incentive for excellence,  justify inequality with statements like ‘having to earn a living’ while being pushed to be absolutely self-determined to win, to achieve such happiness by becoming the greatest force of labor to honor such god given right to Be Happy- Really?

 

Continuing with CapitalismUS:

 

What was not considered is that within a single person’s ability to Have More than others or make money out of the ‘god given right to own property,’ there would always be someone made poor and left out of such equation, because you can’t  have wealth without poverty, and you can’t have power without abuse. So, this is how a set of words within our constitutional statements, charters and declarations created the necessary broth to cultivate self interest at its finest, perfectly manufactured to implement the most invasive form of an economic model that has transcended the influence of what a ‘governmental system’ should be like, that is what  Capitalism is disguised as lobbyist for Democracy of Liberty and Free Will.

 

This mindset is existent in our very hardwiring wherein we immediately learn that we have to win, and be the best and have the ability to inflict an influence over others, this can be seen in the human being at the very first years of development, becoming the BIOS system of survival and competition in order to ‘win the most.’

 
“In terms of morality, those who are the strongest will rule others and have the power to determine right and wrong. By this definition, the phrase manifests itself in a normative sense. This meaning is often used to define a proscriptive moral code for society to follow.”
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Might_makes_right

 

The Strongest, the Fittest, the Powerful ones set the rules of the game, it would be to their own detriment to determine what is genuinely best for all as part of each individual’s guarantees, that’s why we have learned to ‘Defend our Rights’ and call that a righteous act, not questioning why we have to ‘defend them’ instead of granting each other access to it as a living guarantee.

 

It is inevitable to come back to this word when looking at systems that govern ourselves, beginning by the acceptance and allowance of the word ‘Power’ as:

 

Power                                                                          
n    noun
1    the ability to do something or act in a particular way.
2    the capacity to influence the behaviour of others, the emotions, or the course of events.
3    a right or authority given or delegated to a person or body. Øpolitical authority or control.
4    a country viewed in terms of its international influence and military strength: a world power.
5    physical strength or force.
Capacity or performance of an engine or other device. The magnifying capacity of a lens.
6    energy that is produced by mechanical, electrical, or other means. Ø[as modifier] driven by such energy: a power drill.
7    Physics the rate of doing work, measured in watts or horse power.
8    Mathematics the product obtained when a number is multiplied by itself a certain number of times.

PHRASES
    do someone a power of good informal be very beneficial to someone.
    the powers that be the authorities. [with biblical allusion to Rom. 13:1.]

ORIGIN
    Middle English: from Anglo-Norman French poeir, from an alteration of Latin posse ‘be able’.

 

We have given ourselves the ‘ability’ to direct, influence, control and determine other’s lives, this can only exist if we don’t regard each other as equals. This means that power is a mind generated concept that propitiates an energetic experience of having control/ power over others and as such, base our entire world system on the premise of Inequality and the acceptance and allowance of the word Power imposed to one another, we became ‘Powerless.’

 

Our entire history has been the result of an ongoing ‘battle for power,’ this is why all the great changes took place with wars, this is what causes political division, nationalization, independence, colonization, creation of new government systems, new economic models, new education systems, all about maintaining a hegemonic quality from those that Win. Please watch:

 

Those that win make the History, those that Win set the Rules, those that Win, set the perfect speech to justify the power endowed to an entity called Money wherein power as money and control over the population has become an end, not a means.  The Distribution of Power is the most important variable to consider at a political level for some theorists, I agree as well since ‘Might makes Right’ and determines the lives of everyone influenced by such system level. This is a Realistic perspective on politics, however we have to indulge further to become aware of the Experience held behind power.

 

Being the Hegemon in the system means: you set the rules at your convenience to perpetuate your own establishment of power. How can there be any form of Freedom when the system in itself requires subordinates/slaves to function properly? How can there be any Democracy as in ‘Power of the People’ if People’s power is subdued to a ‘greater order’ such as the government and authorities that we have accepted and allowed to exist with such self determined power, which should not even be a necessary organism if every man could be in fact self regulated in the first place. But,we created the necessity for an all seeing eye because we were incapable of living among each other as equals, we have always looked only after ourselves and for that, Capitalism only became the ‘consequential outflow’ of what is and has always been the Real Human Nature . Evil.

 

Power is associated with Energy, Energy/ Might/ Control/Influence over others can only exist through concepts that we have made real through the mind, such as the Power that Money has been endowed with: it is an imaginary entity to which contains our living rights and responsibilities to, it rules our lives, it decides who lives and who dies. The same as the power given to any authority in any level of governmental position throughout history: the sovereign represents the accumulation of individual inability/incapability to decide what’s best for oneself and for all as equals. That is the reverse of power: not being able to decide what’s best for all, hence we created our hegemons, because we could just not decide how to direct ourselves.

 

The desire for power determines a type of regime, economic orientations, ideological commitments and the psychology of the policy makers which explains why the individual pursuit of power/happiness/’moreness’ is guarded at all cost, and yes that means obtained and pursued through Wars.  This is why America will be willing to wage a war that costs Trillions of dollars if they consider that the Benefits outweigh the Cost of such intervention/ invasion.

 

The origin of all nations at the moment stem from the result of winning a battle for independence or the establishment of a definitive colony. Either way, a conflict and friction is implied. Sounds familiar? Yes, this is how the Mind obtains its Power as Energy to keep existing: the Mind is founded upon the individualistic pursue of Experience above Common Sense. This is the real evil that has been the foundation of the word Power to exist as it does, as a metaphysical imposition over the physical, a concept made reality through deliberate abuse, violence and neglect, quieting down and eradicating anyone that dares to Speak in the name of Life in Equality

This has been the story of our human see-evil-I-zation, are you willing to be part of the revolutionary change in the way Power is conceived?

 

Real Power can only exist in one breath, I learned this from Bernard Poolman and in that moment I realized to what extent the entire meaning of ‘Power’ had become a terrible lie that we would use to kill, extort, abuse and ponder ourselves as superior or inferior than others, nothing else but a  confabulation that generates an experience at a mind level that most humans have become addicted to: power, control, authority, the ability to influence others at will, this is the foundation of our mind stemming from our creator, this is the Real Nature we’re dealing with.

 

By Accepting Power in its current meaning within our vocabulary, we have accepted and allowed wars, poverty, abuse, extortion, extinction and all forms of violation toward the Physical world in which we exist in and a, this is how each one of us is equally responsible, by mere virtue of accepting ‘Power’ as a definition in separation of ourselves as Equals.  We have to always consider that all concepts and all systems stem from the way in which we have Lived a word, and so far, power has dictated the way we have lived within and without for Energy/Money/the System instead of considering the most basic foundation upon which such ‘power’ is built upon: The Physical Equality that we exist as.

 

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306. Price Tagging Life– Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value things more or less according to the amount of money they cost/ the number in a price tag, which already implies that we have become so used to valuing things/ people according to the amount of money they ‘are’ or ‘cost’ that we’ve forgotten that we all come from the same Earth and place and there is no Mother Earth charging us for the stuff that we use on a daily basis, that we pollute on a daily basis and absolutely scavenge with no consideration of it all being ourselves as well.

 

Continuing from :

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce life to someone’s property in the name of control over the resources, the people, the environment so that a few could give it back to the people with a price tag on, this means that our life became a product and asset within the context of how selling goods and services to live became a relentless business wherein only a minority that got to adjudicate to themselves this ‘right of property,’ became the wealthy ones that decide the amount of money a piece of land, a piece of nature is worth, including animals, plants, soil, even air nowadays that’s being canned and sold.

I realize that I have complied to this system of ‘how things are bought and sold’ without a question, without asking how it is that some people are able to freely use the resources and turn them into products and sell them a an arbitrary price and consider that a fair trade?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within placing a price tag upon life, I created the greatest barrier that exists between the human and the environment, wherein such numbers mean money that is created by a minority in this world, extended as a form of debt and interest in itself, a form of control as money that we then use to pay our ‘goods and services’ with, which implies that our life is not our own since we don’t have any assured living condition if we have no money to pay for it.

 

I realize that this discrimination has become the best human-mining process wherein we have 25 000 children die each day of starvation and billions live in negligible conditions as an outflow of ‘them’ being out of the game wherein life can only be obtained if you have enough money that covers the price to pay for your life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see how biased it is to become enraged when people sell themselves because of not having money and not realizing that what we require to live is also bought and sold  and that the prices will determine whether I can afford it or not and that I have directly and indirectly contributed to maintain the system ‘as is,’  this becoming the ‘great divide’ between life and death, between being able to live, have a house/shelter, clothing, education, sanitation, food, water which has been virtually a lack for a great amount of people in this world, just because we haven’t agreed to support all beings equally.

 

I realize that the consequences of our ignorance and denial of the controls we have accepted and allowed in our reality are here to be faced by all, and that the solution won’t come from overnight to cover everyone’s expenses, this is a process that will take as long as required to understand to what extent we bought a lie and have become the lie to such an extent, that we cannot see a distinction between reality or imagination, since money currently works at an imagination level, hence so do prices.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to collectively agree to keep quiet and not talk about these ‘economic laws’ and the obvious disparity in our wage income wherein there are people having No money to cover their most basic expenses and instead, each one focuses on a pursuit of happiness and earning More money/ increasing one’s wealth just because we can and the entire system promotes it and supports it, leaving the ‘unfortunate ones’ at the mercy of an equally egotistical and unacceptable charity system that does not resolve the problem from its root.

I realize that in order to redeem ourselves and to correct our lifetime negligence toward those that cannot afford to have a dignified living condition will have to imply everyone’s participation to create a sustainable system wherein a price tag does not define whether one being lives or dies, but instead, we focus on enabling people to have self-supportive means of income so that prices only become a number that will be existent as the equal remuneration to people that also belong to the same self-supportive system, wherein money will exist by virtue of mutual interdependence and collective agreements to administrate what we have as part of the Earth and grant equal access to it by working to contribute to a self sustainable system.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not the price tag that is the problem, but How we have ensured that not many people can afford the money as the number in such price tags.

I realize that the damage done, the lives lost, the lives maimed and the extinction of species and depletion of our resources has got to do with our constant thirst for money and power and having a ‘great lifestyle’ without looking at what it is that we have been ‘trading’ with, which is life in itself and as such, we’ll have to walk the process of understanding to what extent we have been absolutely deluded to not see and realize the extent of the damage done and the irreversible consequences that we’ve created wherein it is not only placing a price tag on life, but ensuring that such number is not affordable by the majority, which is in itself an elitist measure to discriminate fellow living beings from having access to it.

 

I commit myself to stop valuing life according to numbers as either more or less. I realize that the brainwashing begins and ends at a mind level, and that it is our responsibility to ensure that we educate people, that we share this basic common sense in order to realize to what extent we have imposed our imagination upon other human beings. This is unacceptable.

 

I commit myself to support the creation and implement a New Economic System based on Life in Equality which is the Equal Money Capitalism System  wherein Life is no longer sold at a number that implies that only some can afford it and some others not- instead, we ensure that everyone has a dignified living condition, proper jobs and professional activities that can ensure that we support every person that requires to be supported in order to live.

 

This is what Equality implies and the only way to implement a just and self-honest system wherein prices become a number that signifies the support we give back to those that supported in working/ creating a product we benefit from.

 

This is the culmination of the basics on  a ‘Capitalism’ definition. This is certainly only the beginning of everything that we’ll go exploring as the building blocks of this great jail that we have all helped to build and maintain without further questions.

 

From here on, it is clear that being aware of what each word implies as a collective agreement is a must do in our day to day living since we can see how much we take for granted when we define our economic system and assume that each concept is standing as ‘what’s best for all,’ which we all know it is not, but we also know that the supposed benefits from it have not been ‘tasted’ by everyone equally – this is is how we are walking capitalism through rehab, it is a full change of DNA at a money-system level, and to understand the extent of the hardwiring we have to understand our mind, the relationship between the mind and the physical reality. This you can hear in the Great interview series: The Soul of Money 

 

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305. Price System in Equal Money Capitalism

Prices will be a numeric value of the perfect equation that embodies the  equal-remuneration  to all involved in the creation of a means to make life possible in our social organism.

 

Continuing from :

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

 

 

Redefining CAPITALISM

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

 

 

Pricing System

  You can buy anything with a price, the big mistake was putting a price upon life – now we’re all paying the consequences. (pain-in we all are.)

 

 

Problems                                                            

  • Pricing is the mechanism that sustains the fallacy of a system that revolves around makeshift values that generate and equally speculative concept such as ‘debt’ that everyone uses in order to buy or sell means and products, which is our living resources and work force turned into merchandise. This implies that the price we pay for things doesn’t go in an integral way toward the suppliers, but they pay their own debts as well, this means that the money always goes back to the place where it came from: the banking system/ owners of money, it is thus a usurious system and price the quantity representing a relationship of separation in itself.

 

  •  Elitist Tool: Not every single person has access to buy that which they require to live. By fixing prices an entire being’s life is defined according to what he/she can afford, and by setting a price system, the distribution of goods and services are settled, aiming at certain markets that also determine everyone’s lifestyle: you buy cheap products because your income is low, and you buy luxury items/expensive products because you’ve got more than enough money. We have accepted this as ‘how things are,’ accepting such limitation in a normal manner equal to realizing ‘the sky is blue’ and never questioning about it.

 

  • Prices determine the quality of products: if you buy cheap products, the chances are that you will be using/consuming a product that is the spawn of planned obsolescence and built/ elaborated/manufactured using slave labor, which means that t might seem like you got a ‘great deal,’ but never really trace back the process to realize how such product came to be so cheap when compared to others, and bargains always contain a higher level of exploitation, not that t is not existent in ‘expensive items,’ but mass production means mass-workers to be able to handle the demand.
    • On the other hand, people believe that paying more for something means paying for quality, while this has been mostly also abused in order to generate the most profit, since there is no real consideration left when it comes to making the most money.

 

  • Scarcity: this is a great tool used to elevate prices and justify it with the belief that there is not enough to cover the demand. However there have been many examples of how this so-called scarcity is deliberately created to earn the most profit. Sometimes people buy an entire production of let’s say cacao to produce chocolate, they stack it/ hold t/keep it out of the market and create the belief that there is not enough, and as such, the chocolate industry suddenly has no more cacao for its production. Cacao becomes a scarce resource, this then forces the production costs to be elevated and then reflect such speculation on the pricing of chocolate. Now, chocolate is a fancy example, however when this happens with prime-products of first necessity, such as wheat or corn, you get hunger, and that is really a big problem since such scarcity is another ‘rule of the game,’ to speculate even further.  There are various other ways or environmental conditions that may cause this problem, however this is just an example.

 

  • Abundance is for those that can afford it, obviously. Prices don’t matter if you’ve got a lot of money, prices become a bitter number to look at when one can barely make it through the day and each cent counts. This disparity implies that our minimum wages are not in correspondence to cover the basic needs on a daily basis everywhere in the world, on the contrary, we all know that it is impossible to live with 2 dollars a day, yet we’ve kept billions of human beings living with that amount of money, not being able to afford anything to live properly, many opting  to then do slave labor, sex services, selling organs, buying drugs to mitigate hunger and the list goes on, Poverty is thus a direct result of this Pricing system that decides who can Afford life and who Can’t 
  • Price convenience comes at the expense of diminishing fair pay for others, this is as the name says convenient for the buyer but a crime against fair pay for the laborer that sees no diminishment in their working hours.

 

  • Price is set up by ‘market forces’ in global financial systems that fluctuate and vary according to an unsettled behavior that maintains everyone within a constant level of uncertainty about the cost of things based on these speculative forces that obviously, only benefit a few that make the rules in the first place.

 

Inflation is the general increase in prices on a nationwide scale — and can only be caused by an agency that has the power to act on a national scale.

That agency is the government. Inflation is the increase in prices caused by the government ‘inflating’ the money supply with fiat dollars.

 

Doesn’t capitalism cause the inflation of prices?

No. Under Capitalism, the prices of particular goods can “fluctuate” over time, but the general price level of most goods decrease over time due to capitalism’s limitless progress.

source: capitalism.or/inflation

 

  • Price inflation without Wage inflation as the source of polarization. Prices then become the most basic way to restrict/ limit the ability to buy what is required by the majority to live.

 

 

  Solutions                                                                   

  • The prices we will pay will actually embody a sound distribution of money  for people’s work and taxes in order to maintain the system with political intervention as the necessary regulation to monitor proper functionality and stop any form of speculation or fluctuation without cause. This means that the final price will be the amount that will be equally remunerated to people as their wage, which is what Equal Profit Share implies.

 

  • Since there is no actual ownership of the resources, the pricing system will not imply ‘paying for the resources,’ but simply for the work that will imply paying for the people that will take care of maintaining or restoring the balance and sustainability necessary within a certain environmental location from where the raw materials are taken. This implies that the price will not reflect paying for any point of assumed ownership upon the Earth’s resources, but instead t will go directly to support people doing the actual work.

 

  • Pricing system will hold the mathematical equations of equal support to all bodies participating in a certain organism.  This means that a number won’t subsume the Value of Life, but instead it means the Value of the work that enables a fair use, transformation and consumption of the necessary resources to live. Markets will reflect then the stability of such equal distribution of profit/support/gain to all bodies equally.

 

  • Prices entail Equal-Share which means that we can all have the certainty that the amount that we are paying for our goods and services is the necessary to equally support everyone involved in the extraction/ production/ manufacturing/ engineering/ distribution processes, along with any other administrative and corporate activity that will be implied as part of the social responsibility endowed to everyone involved in production and industry sectors.
Supply and Demand

Pricing will not resemble a free market paradigm, so the interaction between supply and demand as it exists now will not determine anything.

Supply will be according to your demand, that means your demand will not be based on price, your demand will be based on supplying yourself with a lifestyle that is worth living – so the demand will change.
Because the demand will no longer be controlled by price, it will now more be controlled by the fact that you want to live an excellent lifestyle, that you want to change products – it is going to change what goods and services will be available.
You’re not going to buy ‘inferior products’ that you buy because it’s cheap and made in China – but it’s not what you would have bought if you had more money.

Day 173: Supply, Demand, Business and Scarcity in Equal Money Capitalism
http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/01/day-173-supply-demand-business-and.html

 

 

Scarcity and Pricing
There’s not going to be pricing control in terms of scarce resources, things are going to be available or they are not. It is controlled by its availability. If certain resources become unavailable, which is going to affect the products that are going to be available – then we will just have to take that into consideration. So for instance, if there is not enough fish in the sea, we will simply have to withhold from catching fish — the supply / option of fish disappears off the menu until the fish supply is re-established.

 

  • A Price will no longer be a number to be feared,  but a compensation number that will signify the value in return for one’s work or contribution/ creation. Price will contain enough to pay everyone an equal fair share which will create a sustainable satisfied and prosperous living condition, since people will be doing what they want to contribute with, while being equally supported as an equal participant.

 

 

Rewards                                                                    

  • Equal support leads to understanding how we can only thrive as a team and in consideration of mutual support, which strengthens our relationships at a community level.

 

  • No more will a price feel like we’re ‘Selling out’ but will instead be an expression of the work invested upon such goods/ services and its integral reimbursement to everyone that helped within the production/ distribution/engineering process.

 

  • Giving and receiving will be regulated by the price in itself, this will ensure that compensation, gratitude and remuneration is recognized and acknowledged by everyone as a collective agreement upon which our system will be based on: Constitutional Equality.

 

  • A guaranteed ability to buy means no more fearing scarcity, uncertainty, loss, poverty and misery – the power of acquisition will be giving and received as an organic mechanism based on giving and receiving in Equality.

 

  • No more stuff that breaks, all products made with the best quality

 

  • No more competition to ‘make the most money’ since all corporations will stop competing against each other – equal profit equals equal life support.

 

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304. You Are What You Can Afford

 

Who decided to put a number in front of Life? Is that the real mark of the Beast? the Fruit of our Evil? The price to pay for our sins? A lesson to be learned?

Continuing from :

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

Redefining CAPITALISM

Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

 

 

Pricing System

You might remember your first acknowledgement of what money is through looking at prices as a child and this being the decisive factor to know how much money your parents had, what you were able to afford and what type of living ‘lifestyle’ you had access to.  This is the closest encounter with the ‘money system,’ probably the easiest one to understand and the easiest one to accept ‘as is’ without further questions.

I remember being given money on a weekly basis as a means to create the habit of saving, and I was pretty good at it because I simply didn’t require to spend it. Money in such a way was no different to the loads of fake bills that I had to play with as a child, it was only when going to the grocery store that you confront the ‘pricing system’ for the first time. The money  I had was really not that much to buy all that I would want to, and so I became aware of what it was like to have a ‘lot of money’ which meant having the ability to buy Lots of things, instead of having to choose and be limited by getting only one thing or two.

Then comes the supermarket experiences wherein you want to get something that is not precisely a need – like your cereal, milk and fruit – but a Want: I wanted this toy and learned to see these ‘exorbitant numbers’ as ‘unable to be afforded/ too expensive/ don’t even think about it.’ And so, I learned to stop asking to buy such products from the get go, I would see more than 3 digits on the price and I knew t was simply unthinkable for me to have it.

Desires began forming about money: All that I could buy if I had all the amount of money I wanted, I could buy looots of things and enjoy myself with it. But, unfortunately, I learned that I could Not have access to that as easy as I could dream of: one had to study, become a worker, escalate in social status to be able to earn more and more to then become part of the elite that I saw could afford just the amount of things I thought was my ‘aim’ to obtain as well – this was the pursuit of happiness linked to money here, which would allow me to be ‘free’ and ‘enjoy life’ without limits. Smell the conditioning here?

 

Comparison began taking place: why can’t we afford that other family’s lifestyle? What do they have that we don’t have? And then even worse things became part of my awareness: there were children begging for money on the streets and often pondered what would they be able to afford with such amount of money? – not much, that’s for sure. That’s where I learned that I had a ‘better life’ than those begging on the streets and I have a ‘lesser of a lifestyle’ when comparing my life and my family’s economic station to that of the super rich with gigantic houses and multiple toys – of course since that was my item of comparison at the time.

Inequality was tattooed as an inherent condition to everything. Life was then not seen as Life but as something with a price tag, without ever having seen Mother Earth precisely doing the price-tagging or the bar-coding and charging interest rates for that or scheming how she could ‘get the most’ by setting the higher prices… no, none of that was able to be seen around me.

 

I learned that my education was ‘big numbers’ in price as well, I learned that my books were expensive, that renewing my uniform as I went growing up would take money, that food prices would constantly go up every year, that I had to ‘always seek for the cheapest price’ when being at the store and call it a convenience and refrain from even looking at some other ‘treats’ just because they were mostly expensive and not really nutritional. I got scarcity and lack imprinted within me as ‘who I am toward money.’ And prices became a compulsive manner to measure myself according to the cheap and the expensive, the poor and the rich and being always in the limbo that seeks for cheap deals while walking a life aiming at being able to ‘afford it all’ as an ultimate dream. Life became a series of dreams to attain such high power of acquisition later on in my life, and this reveals to what extent ‘consumerism as life’ became the ‘measuring point’ for ‘who we are’ within our social system.

 

In essence, I’ve lived a life wherein I got used to being ‘price-conscious’ according to what I am able to afford and what I would like to be able to afford. Every decision moved by fear of not having enough money later on, every choice made based on the eternal dilemma of price vs. quality, the kingdom of god was simply never on sale, and we certainly were not equal at all. Even if I tried to pretend that I didn’t care as much for what I was able to afford , it did shape ‘who I am’ according to others and this sense of injustice became an unspoken anger to see people begging for scraps of food because of them not even having access to a proper job to afford basic needs while I could see others spending obnoxious quantities in clothes, cars and useless things that could pay an entire month of someone’s school.

 

My first great shock with the ‘pricing system’ was when I was 9 years old in what was then a ‘big city,’ we went to ‘check out’ a luxurious clothing store, I remember randomly grabbing the price tag of a shirt and discovering it was as expensive as my monthly school fee at the time, or even more. I could not believe my eyes, in that moment I realized that there was something absolutely Wrong in this world: how could a single shirt be worth an entire family’s sustenance for an entire week or a month, who knows! This event allowed me to see and realize one thing: I was not part of the rich that would regularly buy at this store, and their wealth – I got told – was the ‘product of their hard labor.’ But is it? Not really.

 

This is an introduction to the pricing system, the confrontation of one’s power of acquisition in a world wherein one gets a direct realization of our social position according to the amount of money that we have, we are either rich, poor or middle class, you live in abundance, you starve or struggle to always make it through with the amount you have. You can either feel free and relaxed or oppressed and worried in the shopping experience according to the numbers in the items you require to buy, either for need or pleasure, it is all determined by our pricing system, essentially who can afford to live and who can’t. Is this the way we want to continue existing as? No, of course this is an absolute demarcation of individuals and their ability to live, a full-view of discrimination and speculation everywhere and every time that we require money to buy, to live.

 

Our life within this system can have a price, and we’ve believed this to be ‘true’ since money has become the decisive factor to enable or limit one’s ability to live. But life is certainly priceless and money is a social imaginary convention that should not exist as a means to measure your ‘economic status’ as more or less than, but as a collective agreement to support each other as Life, as Equals – and this is what will certainly give an end to everyone’s lives of scarcity, fear of losing money, fear of not having enough to live, fear of having to resort to getting loans and ending up enrolled in endless debts, fear of missing out on ‘the great life’ just because we can’t afford to miss a day’s salary, fear of not ever having the life of your dreams because somehow t is not affordable to all.

This must end, this whole social conditioning must stop here: Equal Money Capitalism 

to be continued…

 

 

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301. The Rules to Play the Game

Continuing with

Redefining CAPITALISM

An economic system characterized by private or corporate ownership of capital goods, by investments that are determined by private decision, and by prices, production, and the distribution of goods that are determined mainly by competition in a free market

 

free market

noun. an economic system in which prices are determined by unrestricted competition between privately owned businesses.

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    For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

     

     

    Words Set the Tone

    Our current version of capitalism holds the intrinsic belief that individuals must determine themselves under the banner of laissez-faire, wherein any form of political economy that could in fact instigate a revision of our current disparity and financial polarization is relegated to an oppression to the self-imposed laws and policies that back up an ‘open rink’ such as what self determinism ‘should be,’ which is then externalized as a Free Market basis and call this political freedom, when it is in fact only a legal means to keep inequality in place and justify it with the belief of economic growth and progress.

     

    What is the key to the success of Capitalist competition?

    The key to the success of capitalist competition is that it limits competition to the economic sphere of production, and removes it completely from the political arena of compulsion. Where capitalist competition leads to a free market; political competition leads to a mixed economy of warring pressure groups and if continued for long — a dictatorship.

    source: capitalism.org on ‘Competition’

     

    Who benefits? If everyone was equally supported and the system was showing real results of people being considered to live in dignity and be in absolute well being, I would not be here writing these words. The problem is far more simple than any belief we’ve collectively accepted and allowed in relation to economics, which is simply a rigged worded system – as our own self-creation –  that supports rules that are determined to support those that are willing to play according to the rules of the game  that benefits them– anyone that dares to consider another as an equal participant and requiring equal opportunity is seen as a threat and real evil to this personal drive and self interest that, apparently,constitutes ‘real freedom’ in our society. 

     

    “Rational self interest is the profit motive that is the basis of competition.”

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    The key problem is in the words: Rational Self Interest is not the realization of who we are as one single organism consisting of multiple parts that are required to be made functional upon the very basic physical laws of nature that our own physical bodies exist as. It is fascinating how just as any religion, philosophy or knowledge for that matter, words within Economy embody the forked tongue that is willing to abuse another for the sake of praising self’s own interest and call that ‘economic efficiency and a freedom and right.’ Of course, we hear ‘efficiency’ and link it to people knowing what they do and doing it the best way they can in the benefit of most, yet we don’t realize such words are being spoken from a definitive platform that was deliberately created to sustain a fictional system of made up ‘powers’ to enslave the majority, which means self interest is vehemently guarded, it is pondered as the best way to follow through and it’s the best self-destructive weapon to ever exist in our human civilization.

    Read  about the ‘Profit Motive’ for further understanding.

     

    Here’s a point to begin with:

    Are not competition and cooperation opposites?

    Contrary to those who prattle about “competition versus cooperation”, capitalism is the only system where voluntary cooperation can actually exist, as it banishes force from all relationships, making all exchanges voluntary. Contrast this with the “cooperation” of collectivist societies, where one man must “cooperate” with another, lest he desires to be fined, thrown in prison, or have a lead bullet pumped into his skull.

    Capitalist competition is the one of the most economically practical forms of social cooperation, where every producer competes to see who can best cooperate with each other, and with the consumer. Such is the nature of capitalist competition.

    source: capitalism.org on ‘Competition’

     

    This is a usual point of criticism we encounter, wherein men are apparently Forced to cooperate to work and be supported through earning money. Cooperation is then warped into a self-improvement incentive however there is no clarification as to How such cooperation will be rewarded.

     

    Capitalism: Would you agree that capitalism despite its problems ‘”Is the best way forward” ?

    Capitalism founded upon common well being can function to the best interest of all. It is the individual conception of benefit that must be redefined within a collective understanding of life as a social organism. Capitalism at the moment is not an ideal capitalism where the well being of all individuals is taken care of, we got stuck in the middle when greed and corruption became an easier way to manifest the individual desires at the expense of the majority.

    Collectivism must stop being treated as a disease to capitalism since real wealth can only exist if there’s a group force working to create it, this must be equally distributed through equal-profit share, capping the creation of unnecessary goods, re-educating ourselves to value life and not material possessions as a symbol of one’s wealth. Stopping the capitalization upon private property and instead use capital to sponsor organizations that support cleaning up, reforesting, caring for all the living species as we have to get back to basis to recognize the real value that life is as this Earth and physical resources, and without our Ecosystem being in a sound manner, any bright proposal for a change will be futile.

    So, we can redefine capitalism of course, we got the system, we keep that which functions and adjust/re-align that which only serves a few people’s interests. This is the way forward: Equal Money Capitalism Equal Money System

    Equal Money for ALL as LIFE

     

    “What’s Good/Right and Bad/Wrong, for many in their Lives becomes irrelevant when it comes to Money and Survival, and so Morals won’t Stand – Money/Survival will Stand. In this, Life Regulation will be thus a Process of Internal and External Life/Living Regulation, in as one prepare the Internal World of a Child, to Prepare the External World for Children of the Future as also Proposed by/through the Equal Money System.” – Sunette Spies*

     

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    300. Redefining Accumulation of Capital in Equal Money Capitalism

    “I commit myself to the establishment of a new Value System, as the Equal Money Capitalistic System, where we value Life over wants and desires and self-interest — and thus create a world of co-operation where all work together towards One interest as What’s Best for All Life, where all can in fact have enough and where no-one has to suffer because some decided they want more than what they need just because “they can” –  Day 45: Homo Economicus & The Invisible Hand – Part 3

    Redefining Capitalism:

    We’re going word by word in a very basic definition of Capitalism to redefine it, explore it and see what each word means and how we are able to re-direct every aspect of this collective agreement into a Best for All system.

    Capitalism is an economic system that is based on private ownership of capital goods and the means of production, and the creation of goods and services for profit.[1][2] Elements central to capitalism include capital accumulation, competitive markets, and a price system.[3]

    source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capitalism

     

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    For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

     

    Capital Accumulation

    Before we list out the problems, please read the previous blogs where these aspects have been opened up further to understand to what level accumulation is in itself ingrained at a psychological level that we haven’t ‘sorted out’ yet and that must be walked as an individual process to remove the conditions that have enabled fear, the desire for security, protection and accumulation as a ‘safe net’ which indicates that we have been living as fearful beings with no sense of self-direction, because it is now quite clear we can all contribute to stop that which we have identified as nerve-wracking, stress producing and anxiety causing aspects in our reality that can be traced back to Lacking Money and fearing for survival. Capital Accumulation is definitely something that you won’t find addressed in

     

     

     

    Problems                                                            

    • Due to fear of survival we learned how to hoard/ accumulate money/resources/property for our own safety, which is against natural laws of physics wherein the relationship toward our environment is determined by our ability to exist within an equal relationship of constant flow, in and out and throughout,  just like breathing and blood flowing through our veins – instead, we’ve denied the basic sustenance to large sections of our own body, causing the massive disruption at a social and ecological level, which is what is currently driven by a compulsive desire to ‘grow the economy’ at the expense of anything and anyone.

     

    • Fear of scarcity, anxiety, driving oneself to excel/compete to get the most of the cake, which leads us to act by impulse and energetic drive rather than a common sensical behavior that leads to common weal.  This has obviously been an outflow of the previous point which has not been a ‘natural thing’ to man but a preprogrammed aspect of the intrinsic separation that we’ve created within and as ourselves toward each other, failing to see and recognize our equality – hence losing perspective of how we began competing against each other, missing out the realization that such aggressive competitiveness and rivalry to ‘get the most’ has been against ourselves. Also read: 115. Following our Dreams is Plain Delusional

     

    • Cultural value given to a luxurious life linked with happiness and fulfillment – this can be also linked with traits like freedom and liberty that were implanted during the 20th century in America by Edward Bernays whom we have quoted in this blog before with regards to his PR self created profession that is nothing else but propaganda to tame people’s irrational desires and link them to a means that can maintain a system of polarization kept by emotions of hope, faith and belief that somehow everyone could aspire to become ‘the greatest’ which means having the most money in the world and being fulfilled/ happy about it.  Also Read: 217. You Fear Communism? Why would That Be?

     

    • Greed is promoted as a ‘natural trait of seeking success’ and success is not seeing as the willingness to abuse another to make your own heaven on Earth, but instead it is considered as a clever move that is part of our regular indoctrination at home and school, which already reveals to what extent we have ingrained and accepted these beliefs and call it Education.

     

    • The more wealthy I am, the most value to mate: yes, considering that our drive is mostly sexual and/or for money, the linkage of a successful person with being sexually attractive and getting the ‘best display’ linked to showing/demonstrating one has a lot of power of acquisition/money/dominance, has become the most common drive nowadays that we call ‘social status’ which means props for seeking out partners and pursuing happiness, which is sponsored by a constant impulse by the media, ads and our general presentation around others, which is mostly motivated by these two factors: sex and money and both are linked to accumulation of wealth.

     

    • Self Aggrandizement:   even if this ties in with term ‘sex appeal’ described above, this also relates to a general status wherein family lineages endorse the same mentality onto children to perpetuate power and maintain a certain reputation at a social and political level – all based on maintaining/sustaining the same amount of dominance, power and control. Others simply seek a general approval to ‘be someone’ because we are taught that we are ‘no one’ unless you earn a good amount of money, enough to trump everyone else, making you a winner.

     

    • Excessive Consumerism leads to frivolity, vanity and self destructive behavior wherein ‘the self’ is exalted to a psychological entity deprived from any physical sense of living in a physical world along with  7 other billion people and an uncountable amount of animals, plants, insects and every single particle that is also here as life, most of whom are disregarded, abused, used and turned into a commodity for further support to the lives of a few that can afford a wealthy lifestyle.

     

    • The Soul of Money explains our current economic behavior as a disease to the body of existence that begins at a mind level and its relationship to the physical, this is the key to understanding why we have been so savage and inconsiderate to each other and why it is our duty to take responsibility to return our beingness to an equilibrium, because we have all collectively accepted and allowed this condition to exist.

     

    Solutions                                                                

    • Equal profit – this will go within the consideration to place a limit to the ability to produce and consider the actual ecosystem that is being turned into a commodity. This measure is a communal decision to grant to each other equal amount of wealth,which will relief the levels of competition, spite and deception that exist when some are well known for earning more than others. This also includes eliminating economic rents which are monies coming from the capitalization of wealth in itself due to the acceptance of ownership/private property, which will not exit as such.

     

    • The Equalization of Classes – This doesn’t mean that everyone will have the same living conditions or be ‘the same,’ no, this means equal recognition of each others needs and desires and make them equally available/ given support.  This is of course not against the wealthy people , nor  turning the tables to give ‘more’ to  the current have not’s, it is about giving to each other in equality that which will construct slowly but surely and throughout a transitional process,  a level of equality which will signify the end of the endless struggle of the classes that has served as spiteful motives to implement one-viewed ‘justice’ ideals. Equality means All are inclusive and non-opponent.

     

    • Don’t need it, don’t buy it: much of what we consume is done for several psychological fulfillments and fears other than an actual use and necessity toward it. I have many times bought more than what I required based on this principle of scarcity, sometimes I don’t end up using it. So if I bought it already then it means it is my duty to now pass it on to another that will use it or give it to someone else that does use it. This will create a new  culture of recycling and giving without expecting something in return to those that will in fact use it.

     

    • Diverting one’s focus to communal well being within the understanding of the basic maintenance to generate our own physical well being and mental stability, which is a definition of happiness.  This will come from the understanding that feeding our obsessions leads to disease, self destructive and self consuming behaviors are individual problems that will still require support at a psychological level to learn how to correct one’s patterns, behavior and acknowledge individual responsibility toward other beings, such as children’s education/ parental support.

     

    • The identification of the self not as an individual only, but as the whole body of existence and all its parts as who we are. This requires a self-honesty process in order to then learn how to always act in this consideration: being every single being in existence to develop a genuine care and consideration toward the whole as ourselves, as equal and one.

     

    Rewards                                                                

    • Eliminating spite, comparison, judgments, a general suspicion about one another fearing one’s neighbor/ family/ partners – this will enable genuine links with one another once that everyone is distributing wealth in an equitable manner.

     

    • Self-Honesty, Sincerity and Transparency are virtues that are almost impossible to keep in a world like today. This is why with the establishment of the Equal Money Capitalistic System, we can finally live these virtues and principles without having to jeopardize our own survival, because money will be a representation and a corrective tool for our cleared/ self-forgiven relationships of abuse.

     

    • Learning to genuinely ‘feel good’ at a physical level, which won’t be something bought with products or diversion, but rather a realization that we are giving and receiving in equality to support each other.

     

    • Secured future, secured living means actual Freedom: never again hoarding or accumulating because we will be able to rely on each other supporting each other’s well being, that’s what we all want and still wonder why we haven’t done this just yet!

     

    • Mutual trust and interdependency – this is the key to a functional and healthy society which is then representing the physical distribution of wealth generating a natural realization of all parts as all bodies of existence requiring equal support to generate an undeniable equal well being, that’s our dream come true essentially.

     

    • Rediscovering the ability to create and imagine as a projection of all that we can actually build/ construct/ realize  when working together – this is certainly not a positive thinking pipe dream, this is a certainty that comes when we understand the capacity we hold to direct our physical force as a drive to create and maintain common good. Self Expression will at last, be born from this physical understanding of self-support.

     

    • As we do unto others, so we do unto ourselves: this is the basic principle of Equality that is the foundation of Equal Money in its maximum expression, this is the kind of human virtue we can all finally cultivate once that our lives don’t depend on cheating and deceiving each other, self honesty at last: Accumulating what is Best for All.

     

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    Inter-net

    The internet has created bridges that we probably never really imagined in our past as humanity would have been able to be built. For this, it’s cool to be living in this moment wherein I am able to share, communicate, express and be part of a global movement that is moving through/ as the internet, wherein I have now become used to being constantly participating as a daily point of communicating, sharing and supporting myself to get to know ‘how the world works,’ which is what this ‘information era’ has allowed us to reach at the click of a mouse.

    I am Here and this is what I realize, I share myself because I have been equally supported by a group of people that also realized that the internet was the way to reach people around the world and create a total revolution within humanity, it’s been a ‘silent’ one for many – however the effects of people understanding what’s common sense and considering Equality as a starting point in everything we do, remains as a ‘nagging thought’ even for those that initially or deliberately judge and criticize the Desteni message with all types of prejudices – mostly out of that initial fear everyone has to change

     

    Through us Destonians being sharing ourselves through writing, sharing videos, information, participating in forums – we  are literally creating a ‘new cyberspace’ to be and become self-honest people that care enough to share themselves and walk a process of Self Honesty to stand as equal points of responsibility within our own lives, and eventually toward the whole world as well.

     

    Me and Self-Exposure within the Internet

    See, I had a tendency to fear conflict, fear of having to ‘expose’ myself within the internet, I saw it as the equivalent of going out in the night through dark alleys wherein you never know who’s going to attack you next, I feared criticism and judgment from others toward myself. My initial desire to have internet had to do with fulfilling preferences of downloading music only.

     

    I nagged my father a lot to have internet – essentially buying me a modem at that time. Lol, my cousins would make fun of me because of being ‘building my own websites’ without having internet and within that, imagining that I was surfing the internet. When I did get it, I was just happy to be able to research on what I liked, reading artists biographies and everything else that had to do with music. I formed some relationships for several years at forums, people that I got to meet because of music mostly and these were people that definitely influenced myself to the extent of being one of the ‘bridges’ that I had to eventually get to Desteni at some point – even if they didn’t get to it themselves.

    So – within forming all of these relationships through the internet, I became used to ‘being connected to the world’ and essentially creating a dependency to it – see the words: relationship-dependency. So – the process now is to remove all tags of ‘dependency’ toward the internet, and using it for what it is, a way we have to communicate with others, the world, to educate ourselves, to share and be part of an actual process of self-realization and self-correction required in order to understand how we have created this system as it is – it is essentially an ideal tool to do so.

     

    I know that If I didn’t have internet, I would not be doing what I’m doing right now with/ as my life, as Desteni, as this process of Self-Responsibility. I would have kept myself in a very comfortable bubble of entertainment and following my dreams and desires with no further consequence to see ‘what’s going on in the world’ – this is hypothetical really, who knows what could have happened in reality so let’s just say that I wouldn’t be doing what I am now doing.

     

    So the point is, I’ve had intermittent internet or no-internet at all for the past days which is somehow breaking a routine within my every day living. Though, what’s interested is that I noticed a point of ‘temptation’ coming-through wherein my mind then feels ‘too comfortable’ for not having to ‘be there’ all the time (be there = internet, communicating, participating) and within this, I acknowledge that my participation within the world at the moment happens through the internet mostly. So, not having internet is a way for me to ‘get too comfortable’ within this disconnection because it means ‘I have an excuse to not participate’ or not share and communicate with the world, which is how I used to exist: only being with myself, not talking to all people, but only to those that I thought could ‘understand me,’ I spent living a life through other’s eyes within reading books, listening to music, painting and all of that which satisfied my personal desires and ideals.

     

    At that time I had already withdrawn from being constantly watching news and/or being ‘politically informed,’ because I had given up within the idea of realizing that wanting to be a ‘powerful person in this world’ involved getting down-and-dirty within a ‘corrupt world.’ I obviously didn’t go further into researching the system and how it all works for real – I just took the easy way out, deciding to study something that could at least get me closer to ‘feeling like a human’ than a money-making machine. Oh yes, I screwed up myself within that I had to walk through the entire decision until this day.

     

    So, it’s a cool thing to be able to look back and see that I have come quite a long way from that initial resistance I had toward sharing myself, it was a deliberate push but also a process I understood from the group perspective = moving as a single ‘force’ within the system, within social media. Without having the understanding of what ‘walking as a group’ implies, I would have probably recoiled back to my old patterns of seclusion and just keeping my little depressive bubble in place, because even in such misery I was comfortable – nothing was disturbing me other than my own thoughts and personal relationships, it was all I had to ‘take care of’ at that time.

     

    No Internet

    So, obviously when seeing myself ‘out of the internet’ for a longer time, I get these memories of ‘who I was’ before I was into Desteni or the internet and believe that I could get ‘too comfortable’ by not being active in the internet again, which is literally a mindfuck only, but cool to see that it comes up as it is an indication that such ‘back door’ is still existent yet dormant somewhere ‘up there.’

     

    I also see how ‘not having access to the internet’ becomes like a ‘time off’ of my responsibilities within it – which is then what I have defined as ‘too comfortable,’ because we all know that by human design, we would ‘feel better’ if there was nothing to worry about or be in charge of. However, I am now in charge of several points and this means that I must have access to the internet in a constant basis.

     

    When coming back from SA, I spent two weeks without having internet – at least not being there the whole time and/ or having very limited time and access to it. But, because I was in another country, I would see it as a way to get some ‘time off’ as actual vacations for it, but the truth is that the point of daily participation in the internet was existent as a thought in the back of my head the whole time.

     

    So it is to remove any ‘dependency’ toward it or idea of ‘having to be somewhere else’ and simply direct myself in every moment that I can or can’t be in the internet. This should not mean in any way ‘separating myself from process’ or the actual walking we do here – it is about using what’s here when and if available – otherwise I don’t have to nag myself with that constant worry or preoccupation that doesn’t allow me to simply direct myself in every moment.

    It’s very simple –though the mind ‘loves’ to make it a lot more than what it actually is.

     

    The reality is that I have made the decision for myself to get myself ‘out there’ and it’s been a very lengthy process. I mean, I had all forms of resistances to open up a blog to share myself, to record vlogs, to open up accounts in all the usual ‘social media’ – I avoided Facebook for like the first two years I had an account there, and I would have probably never broadcasted myself on YouTube or even have Facebook if it wasn’t because I got to understand that If I want to create a change in this world, I must use the tools that are here in order for us to do so. So, slowly but surely – and with Bernard’s support/ push when seeing and realizing what the fuck I was actually fearing in terms of ‘adding too many friends’ on Facebook and sharing my writings there, etc.- I got myself to create an actual platform of me sharing myself there: it was not-existent and it didn’t came out ‘naturally.’ 

    When I saw the fear for what it is, I began being more ‘open’ about sharing myself there – this was mostly because of being connected to ‘friends and family’ there and fearing having them asking me questions about Desteni or the portal or what I am doing, as if there was something ‘secret’ to keep – which is how I had dealt with my previous beliefs in the afterlife and spiritual-realms that I used to believe in. So I realized how I had to stop keeping this as my ‘belief-system’ that I would only ‘keep to myself’ and took the information as what it is, self-supportive material that is able to be used and practically applied by anyone that is able to see beyond the images and ‘surface’ of what it ‘appears to be,’ and focuses on listening to the message.

     

     

    Self-Broadcasting and sharing with the world as myself

    So now that I share and participate and have deliberately made the decision to be a constant presence in cyber-space within everything we do at Desteni, I can see that there would be no other way of doing it other than through the Internet, at least not to reach as many people in such a wide area like the entire world, lol. All the fears about questions that I feared people in my world would ask were never real. It is fascinating to see how the mind keeps lingering to creating all of these seemingly frightening scenarios of ‘what Ifs’ and within that, we keep ourselves just bound by such fears instead of taking them for what they are ‘mind fears.’

     

    Getting to the internet and Desteni specifically, became this huge window toward the world that has allowed me to not only get to know myself, but get to know other human beings’ life experiences and within that, understanding how we function and how we can develop ways to see where and how we can practically become agents of change and transformation within this world. Because after all, I was not really ‘happy’ with how I saw the world, even if I tried to ‘shove it off’ for some time, I can see that any experience of self-doom was created out of how I would witness my reality as the city that I live in, my observations toward politics, the government, ‘the system’ and all of that. It wasn’t then such a ‘struck of luck’ that I got to Desteni, because there was always this ‘nagging spine’ within me trying to get an actual answer as to why the hell are we here on earth.

     

    Now that I see and realize what a great tool it’s been, I stop thinking that I could ‘get myself back to my old patterns’ with such a thoughtful-ease  – there is really no turning back and as much as this process might seem like too much, or ‘a drag,’ it is just part of the judgments we create at a mind level toward it, to make it seem ‘difficult’ because in essence, it’s been a perfect tool for ‘mind control’ which as Bella mentions, begins within ourselves.

    There is no need to make it ‘more’ or ‘less’ than ourselves being ‘here,’ walking process in every moment of breath within the understanding that: there is Actual work, research, reading, participation, writing, sharing and education to be walked if we really want to create and establish a platform of self-support and education for more beings. It takes an actual walking-the-talk and doing, which is what I am grateful for I am now involved-with, because these ‘dormant’ resistances still come up, and it takes an actual ‘pushing’ for me to say: ‘I am in, I participate, I take this point on.’

     

    I see and realize that any iota of desiring to ‘get back to my old self’ or ‘wanting to just leave it all’ is stemming from fear, fear of confronting myself and the reality I live in on a daily basis. And it might seem like entering this ever-lasting stream of information that we participate in on a daily basis – but once you get used to it, you realize that you are actually becoming part of the key points of support that are ‘here’ to share, direct news with common sense, sharing our own self support which is creating actual cool information that anyone can access to, and eventually support themselves equally if they have an intention and/or have made a decision to be serious about being part of the transformation required in this world to establish a world in Equality. 

    It doesn’t matter if we are physically near or not, which is the cool point about the internet and Desteni, we are connected by common interests that are not ‘separate bubbles’ equating the CULTtures and values we are witnessing define everyone within ‘little realms’ of preferences and affiliations within this world. We take on common-sensical aspects that apply and pertain to all beings in this world, that’s our starting point and that’s how it is an all inclusive group: you are serious to be the change that this world requires = you begin  with supporting yourself and join a group/ a force that is already doing so.

     

    I’ve finally found people around the world that are willing to live the same way that I once dreamed we could live as: supporting each other, reading each other, sharing ourselves – instead of having to discuss someone else’s books and fictional stories. This is the real deal and for that, I’m grateful to be walking here – I take all these minute fears and resistances through Self Forgiveness in order to see and expose them for what they are, nothing but habits and patterns that I realize must be stopped and directed on a constant/ daily basis.

     

    This world works in patterns and habits – so I create a pattern and a habit of sharing myself, participating, deliberately wording myself and pressing ‘submit’ wherein I make sure that no fear stands in the way of me expressing/sharing and supporting the way to stand as the living expression of what Life should be lived as by all of us in this world.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the word ‘obligation’ to ‘being in the internet’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependence toward internet for the past 14 years of my life wherein I get into an idea of ‘being disconnected from the world’ if not being in the internet

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ‘too comfortable’ with having no internet because this means I am not aware of what is ‘going on’ in the world, apparently, and I can just remain in my own bubble wherein I don’t have any responsibilities toward the world –

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the ‘internet’ to ‘responsibility’ because it is through there that I participate with others, I inform myself, I communicate and interact with others.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a ‘negative value’ to the word responsibility instead of realizing that it is a word that I am here to live as myself as the realization of what must be done in order to understand how the world works and how I can practically assist to create a new-system that will enable us to coexist in an effective-living way.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could remain in this state of ‘disconnectedness’ toward the world because it is ‘very comfortable’ to not have to do daily tasks and constant participation in the world within the internet.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relate the word ‘comfortable’ as in being devoid of responsibilities, wherein I then see that it is actually abdicating self-responsibility and a mind-comfort created within this association, it’s not an actual physical comfort because I realize that I could ‘feel alright’ within my mind – but the nagging thoughts about myself and reality would continue if I didn’t have the will to support myself to stop and correct myself.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deeply wish or desire that I had never gotten myself into the internet which means

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the internet as a a ’blessing’ but also as a ‘torture’ in terms of who I am and what I have become now as an active participant within the internet as a way to communicate, interact, share, write, inform myself and co-operate within a group that is constantly working and creating information in order to support ourselves.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet as a torture toward myself but also a great tool.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as a ‘torture’ because I would have essentially kept myself in a very comfortable bubble wherein ‘everything is fine’ and there’s nothing to do but ‘seek my personal fulfillment.’

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at times create a slight resistance to go through my email, through Facebook, through forums, in fear of it being all just ‘too much’ to go through and in essence not wanting to participate because of the actual work and dedication it entails, without realizing that it is the best way I can direct myself: supporting myself/ supporting others which is essentially what we all should be doing as humanity in order to really create a world that’s best for all.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am ‘not there’ for a day, everything will just compound and become unbearable. Without realizing that it is just an idea of myself toward the points that must be taken one by one without ‘rushing’ or creating and expectation of it all being ‘done’ within a particular time-frame.

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself in a constant ‘battle against time’ wherein I set up my own ‘scores’ and act from the vantage point of ‘who I am’ within a self-definition as being ‘fast and accurate’ which I have realized is an energetic ego-driven persona that I have developed throughout the years as a point of self-definition, making it a ‘positive aspect’ within myself, without realizing that I have only been ‘fighting against time’ and ‘beating my own records’ as a synonym of ‘self improvement.’ Lol which is actually bullshit really, I move and direct myself at a physical pace, as breathe here in every moment, without having to create the delusion of ‘I must go there’ and rush all the time.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the current awareness that I have toward this world as myself, and everything being part of ‘who I am’ and having to take responsibility for it, because within this, there is actual work to be done as in walking a process of self-correction to actually do something to create a world that is best for all.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that I had never gotten to know about the actual reality in this world – because that would have meant me just continuing living my ‘little bubble’ wherein I was unaware of the actual state of the world- and within this,

    I forgive myself that I am actually allowing thoughts of ‘not wanting to actually do the necessary work’ to create a world that is and will be best for all.’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create any form of laziness which is actually fear of change, fear of exposing myself, fear of taking actual ‘actions’ that I have to conduct and will challenge who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, not only on a ‘personal basis’ but as humanity, as a whole.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a polarity relationship toward the internet as a ‘great need’ but also as a point of ‘rejection’ toward it in the back of my head if I get too overwhelmed by it – hence creating an opposite of feeling ‘comfortable’ with not having Internet/ not having to ‘be there’ all the time, and in that allowing me to get used to not participate, not voice myself, not write and share because that’s quite a comfortable way of existing wherein, we would only focus ‘toward ourselves’ and not the world and the current reality we’re living in.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep thoughts in the back of my head of an apparent ‘nice past time’ wherein I didn’t have to confront myself as in facing myself through this process and the world as myself, because it was seemingly ‘better’ to exist that way according to the memories that I have decided to keep of myself as the past, without actually remembering how ‘lost’ I felt when I was oblivious to this reality, which is how I resorted to  ‘seek myself’ through my own mindfucks in writings, books, music and relationships in an inherent attempt to ‘connect with the world,’ which is essentially how I have now decided to direct myself and my life through using the internet as a main tool of self-support.

     

    I stop judging the internet as an ‘addiction’ or as a ‘first necessity’ point within my life, I stop seeing myself with bad eyes for being in it all the time, without realizing that this has become the way for me to educate myself, to direct myself to participate in matters that matter within this world, wherein I have finally found ‘the way’ to connect/ support and realize myself as others as well.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet, Facebook, mails, forums, news, videos as something that I could ‘resist’ in order to keep myself in a very comfortable position of ‘not having to do anything about it’ and in that way keeping myself in a very comfortable position wherein ‘nothing disturbs me.’

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the awareness of the reality of this world as something that ‘disturbs me,’ instead of realizing that this is just the way to start seeing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become, which should not create any ‘experience’ within me, but simply acting according to how I can stand as the solution, as the point of self-responsibility and self-direction in relation to what I am now aware of requires direction and correction within this world.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could have remained in  a ‘comfortable bubble’ within my world if I hadn’t gotten to the internet – without realizing that the truth of this world cannot be denied or ‘hidden’ within our every-day living reality to not see it. I have simply ‘chosen’ to become aware of it and direct myself accordingly.

     

    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge myself for my participation within the internet which can only come from a starting point of ego and not an actual realization of having assessed the publishing, sharing and distribution of information in relation to making a point of self-support available for myself/others in my world and through the internet.

     

    If we all participate in common sense within the internet, being self-honest about who we are, sharing how we support ourselves to stop our personal interest and get involved in collective-interests, sharing how we can becoming effective at what we do,  sharing information that is practical and ‘valuable’ within the context of education,  the internet would be an awesome place to be in.

    Unfortunately that’s not the case at the moment – and the same you can access a page full of pornography or ‘101 ways on how to commit suicide’ than you can open up a website on Self Forgiveness and how to become a Self-Responsible being. Therefore, at the moment it’s like a ‘free-range arena’ wherein you can decide what you want to browse for, what you want to participate in – this is how participating in Desteni is a fully self-directive point, wherein beings decide for themselves to either be a part of it or not – no one is pushing it down your throat as part of some squared educational system. It is a truly open-source platform of information and self-support that anyone can walk and have access-to if they have access to the internet.

    For those that don’t have internet yet – we hear you, and we will make sure that in the future, internet is free and accessible for all because we have realized what a useful tool it is for purposes of education and, currently, establishing democratic procedures to become involved in the necessary actions and decision-making in the world.

    Fascinating, this is how we can actually see who and what we decide to do and direct ourselves as in this world. I have decided that I want to live and support myself and others along, therefore here I stand.

     


    2012 Self Forgiveness: How-To, Why, What, Where, When?

    So, I’m watching Desteni videos – I am going one after the other looking for the ‘magic code’ that I can use to essentially deprogram myself now that I’ve understood that we have been preprogrammed Mind Consciousness Systems and we require to do something about it! I definitely don’t want to remain just as another ‘consciousness robot’ that’s not living, but only killing time – What do I have to do? – Where do I find the way out? – What’s the secret?’  these were my thoughts 4 years ago.

    Initially I got so freaked out by watching the videos and hearing the words ‘STOP THE MIND’ so many times, that I feared ending up in like a vegetative state. I thought that this process was simply impossible and wondered how on Earth will I go on through my life with ‘No Mind’! I admit here that I was very gullible, that’s probably one of the reasons why I indulged into so much bullshit (spirituality and conspiracy theories) that I researched right before getting to Desteni. With having this ‘background,’  I didn’t take into consideration what was actually meant by ‘stopping the mind,’ and only allowed myself to get into what I now call ‘the whiner experience’ wherein I created a turmoil of thoughts, giving up on myself even before I started. This was due to this process being seemingly  impossible at first glance: ‘too much’, ‘unbearable’, ‘How will I do this?’ – It worried me for a while, lol, all part of the same mind-experience created within myself.

    Within this state of enraged-pity, I sent a message to the guys at Desteni explaining my situation, how I was literally ‘losing my mind’ by realizing that I had to stop my mind – and wondered how will I live, what will I be? Etc. The reply that I got from them was, to my surprise, of such simplicity and obviousness that I literally laughed out loud while reading it, as I realized how usual this experience had been throughout my life: it was my mind throwing a tantrum, the mind’s defense mechanism to not have to go through this process = it’s not who I really am as life the one that’s complaining! So, this point became an initial realization: stopping myself from being the whiner. Ever since then I have shared that video with anyone that experiences the same point of it all being seemingly ‘impossible’ to walk through, only to realize that it’s the mind’s survival mechanism kicking-in and literally crying out for help when realizing: we’re about to debunk its kingdom.

    Once I got over my initial reactions, I simply continued watching the material.

    Self Forgiveness ?

    I constantly heard the words Self-Honesty, Self-Forgiveness, Writing, Breathing, Self Corrective Application in the videos, which I inferred was ‘the way to go.’ I began assessing my then ‘values’ and ‘stance’ toward such words.

    I was a ‘pro-Honesty’ person within the understanding of what ‘being Honest’ is/means in the system, which could have been like declaring war toward another being or country in a ‘rational and logical’ manner, and be considered as ‘being honest’ by ‘speaking the truth of their intentions’ without ever considering what’s best for all in such words/ decisions. I had considered myself to be a ‘frank person’ within those parameters, not really considered ‘what’s best for all’ in such a honest self-created idea of myself.  So, this is how I began opening eyes to what SELF-Honesty was, which made sense to me in every bit of it.

    Writing was something I had been doing at the time – yet definitely using it as a reinforcement of my own personalities wherein poems or lyrics to songs I never sang would come through, lol – in essence, I wrote to form and shape my personality, just like a sculpture that I was busy creating of myself as a nice idea that I could wear. Those writings became the ‘code’ so to speak, wherein I would reassure to myself ‘who I was’ and why I thought in a particular way, why I liked or disliked the world.  I didn’t really write to get me out of my self-created‘hole,’ but rather reinforced it and justified it as ‘a way of living.’ This was all I would write about at that time.

    When realizing what the process consisted of, I understood that this had to be developed in order to ‘change the world.’ I had no problem in directing such points into a ‘one and equal’ understanding, but… Self Forgiveness? All types of judgments went on inside me along with the usual questions like: ‘Why do I have to forgive myself?’ ‘Why can’t I just ‘let it go/ stop it?’ – ‘Isn’t that a religious thing?’ – ‘Isn’t there just another way to do this (process) instead of having to write out this format-like sentences to correct myself?’ I was very skeptical and even went to the extent of fearing ‘deprogramming myself,’ fearing getting to a point of having ‘no control’ over myself = essentially fearing becoming a ‘self forgiven drone’ lol, without actually realizing at the time that I was already Not ‘in control’ of myself and that I was a mind-driven being that had never actually lived.

    We tend to get overwhelmed by the sole idea of having to forgive ourselves for everything that we’ve lived-as thus far and forgive ourselves as the entire world for that matter. This was only an initial mind-experience that we then fear ‘getting ourselves into,’ because it just seems ‘too much’ and we go into self-pity experiences of ‘I can’t possibly do this’, I went through a breakdown due to having to let go of my ideas of there being a ‘quick fix’ to this reality, or even some type of God existing to which I could ‘connect to’ and get to a ‘greater self-experience.’ This was all part of the mindfuck that was required to be stopped in the first place.

    So I said to myself, I can’t go on as I am we’ve got to stop the world and for that we begin with ourselves. At first it seemed really petty to have this as a reason to do so, I still held secret desires on a magic wand doing the job for me wherein I would only have to ‘apply self forgiveness’ as in writing it out and the problem would be solved – later on I found out what it really was all about.

    I got my shoes on, let’s walk this!

    I went on to the forum just to see what Self Forgiveness was after spending the first weeks just trying to get used to the idea of me applying Self Forgiveness – initially it seemed like a repetitive drone of words wherein I would have to go through every bit of my memories, my ‘life’ and apply Self Forgiveness for it. It seemed extensive, in my mind there was like an immediate ‘No way! That is impossible’ within forming ideas of having to then spend the rest of my days applying Self Forgiveness non-stop, lol. That’s the ‘extremist’ aspect of the personality I continue exploring through writing and stopping within this process.

    After reading the very first examples on Self Forgiveness by Jack, I sat on my bed in the afternoon and began reading. I saw myself in the awkward position of reading along those statements aloud for the very first time in my life. . I probably even blushed to myself, even if I was absolutely alone, it was just so ‘not me’ to be forgiving myself considering that I had lived as a self-righteous person that thinks, believes everything I do is ‘word’ and cannot be wrong. The single act of sitting down and reading self forgiveness was an immediate humbling moment, it was already being like a hand grenade blown toward my ego: it was about to be blown up for life.

    One of the first points that I walked through self forgiveness was exposing the mind’s limitations and fears and any other emotion/feeling attached to beginning this process in itself. I literally had created this surreal scenario of ‘me walking process’ wherein I saw myself as a zombie passing by ‘regular people’ on the streets and simply having to remain ‘blank’ the whole time. Nope, that was my own misconception that was later on part of my own fears blowing Process out of proportion – laughing at it was a cool way to shed the point off and simply get myself to start writing,  committing myself to myself to life no matter what.

    WHAT?

    Okay, so… what is this supposed to do now? I’m now free from god? from the female ego? and I’m now Self Honest?” Lol, my first ideas on Self Forgiveness were linked to this being a process wherein I would be doing some type of magic spell by simply stating the words/ writing myself out and having it all ‘cleared up’– let’s say that the entire aspect of having to Live Self Forgiveness wasn’t really understood at that time. So, I decided to apply the point of being unconditional about it, I had nothing to lose.

    I proceeded to first start writing a point out to see ‘how it worked’ which was working with the most prominent experiences I had in that moment. I wasn’t even participating that much at the time in the forums, I just focused on setting this foundation for myself, because I knew this was the way to walk the process, to stand up for life and finally stop my mind – I ‘knew’ it, yet it had to be walked and self-realized.

    I noticed how at first it all seemed so repetitive – ‘Why can’t I just say ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself’ once and then just name the whole list and ‘get over with it’?’ – I was still looking for the ‘fast and accurate’ way out of it, took some time to grasp what I was actually doing as ‘Forgiving myself’ after applying the usual ‘fake it till you make it’ wherein words don’t seem to mean anything – and in fact, they won’t! Unless you Live them. This was the ‘aha-moment’ that I had to walk and discover for myself through the actual application of it in time.

    I must say that the judgment toward the word forgiveness remained even after a while into writing and process. To me it was like a silent-cringe inside me whenever I would hear myself forgiving myself, because of having these concepts of religion and priests and the entire religious-construct along with the word ‘forgiveness.’ It was just plain icky at the beginning.

    Key-point here: I hadn’t applied Self Forgiveness for judging the word Self-Forgiveness in itself and clearing out the associations toward it. I had to see how the ‘awkwardness’ was linked to this memory of that one and only time that I ever ‘confessed myself’ to a priest, which remained like a very bitter experience in my life, almost like having to swallow a medicine that leaves a very bad taste in your mouth for a while. The priest spoke the word ‘forgiveness’ and so to me that had just left a stigma toward that word. I never went to confess myself again and in my mind, applying self forgiveness was like confessing my ‘dark deeds’ to myself, which I saw as a cool point in terms of not having to resort to telling my stuff to someone in order to be ‘absolved from my sins.’ Then I realized what a nice trick religion had created in order to be the ‘only ones’ that can endow you with such ‘god-given right to forgive you,’ whereas Self-Forgiveness implied: I can do it myself –  awesome, way to go to debunk faith and beliefs.

    I applied self forgiveness on feeling ‘icky’ and weird and judging the word forgiveness and self forgiveness in itself – the whole lot of points that went opening up as I went writing out the sentences around thoughts like ‘why do I have to forgive myself,’ ‘why forgiveness sounds like something priests do to others,’ forgiveness related to god, forgiveness related to me having done something ‘wrong’, forgiveness as in ‘asking someone forgiveness’ and even ideas on this being a humiliating process and embarrassing even for myself alone.

    When beginning process I also  noticed how I also wanted to ‘get over with my past shit and move on’ which I did through writing it all out and sharing it as a form of also demonstrating something to someone of my own application – in a way following an ‘ideal’ of clearing myself fro such ‘sins’ as soon as possible. This is not something that was ‘wrong’ or anything. simply I found out in that process how we find our own way to establish ourselves through process in a ‘trial and error’ manner.

    In my case it was mostly through writing that I opened up points to apply Self Forgiveness for,  having that ‘freedom to write’ wherein I’d share all the apparent trivial points of my days. I would experience certain blockages while writing out self forgiveness whenever I would jump in my mind into an idea of ‘myself within process’ wherein we believe that we are doing something that will make us ‘better,’ make us ‘more’ in any way – Nope, not at all. I quote a sentence that came through a chat  once“The Self as life has no language or Skill yet.” Realizing the humbleness required to walk this process was quite a cool point within it all,  as it allowed me to stop having to ‘uphold’ a particular idea of myself I had been bound myself for my entire life as living up to the ‘highest standard’ possible at an intellectual level.

    I had to let go of this ego-formed around been specific and effective within my application – it is still being stopped whenever it rears its head. I realized that it could only feed yet another ‘ideal’ of myself becoming something/ someone ‘better’ instead of simply realizing that self-honest application here will not enhance any egos, but only reveal/ expose and function as support to direct ourselves into an actual practical physical living realization of who we really are, supporting us to take off the blindfold to see what we all really are.

    WHY ?

    The simplest reason I can name of why I came to apply Self Forgiveness was to simply get to actually Live. I understood we can’t possibly go on as we have in this world,  we have to stop what we’ve accepted and allowed within ourselves and actually get to the realization that it is in fact possible to create a new world if each individual that is willing to stand up for life, dedicates themselves to themselves, to live a process wherein Life is considered in all aspects as one and equal – always.

    I wanted to stop being the same self-deprecating system with all these habits and obsessions and desires to know and obtain any form of ‘truth’ to create a ‘meaning to life.’ When I heard that Self Forgiveness was the way to first of all STOP all of those delusions to then live, I realized that I had to ‘test this out for myself’, I couldn’t just continue watching the material and absorbing all the knowledge and information for the delight of my own witty-ego satisfaction, no.

    I initially went ‘full-on’ applying Self Forgiveness and had a heavy-duty time with it with writing out a lot. I was still having this ‘urge’ to get something done, to ‘get it done’ and be finally ‘here’ with “no-mind” and being finally free, I was still applying Self Forgiveness from that starting point of achieving something, not really realizing what I was doing was part of the process of first getting to establish Self Honesty within myself.

    I realized how this process is not about ‘bettering ourselves’ or ‘personal growth’ but simply the realization of what we are actually able and capable of living-as, directing ourselves toward our optimum-state and living in our fullest potential. This all made sense to me as the way this world and reality ‘should have always been’ – I saw how the point that was in between us from realizing our actual ability to stop and correct ourselves had only been ourselves as the mind. We are the only ones standing on our way– this is paraphrasing Bernard. All the ‘lostness’ thoughts began to diminish, because I saw that I had only ‘gotten lost’ according to the thoughts that I had given space and many breaths away to exist as ‘who I am,’ I then realized to what extent this had been my own creation and how I had to take self responsibility for it.

    I suggest reading the blog ‘How I was able to Hear Desteni’ for further details about these first days of encountering it. Even though it all sounded extremely weird to me, I decided to ‘give it a try’ simply because I had already gone through other processes in trying to ‘make myself feel better’ which had not really been effective or with ‘long lasting effects’ just like the temporary bridge they were. I decided to apply Self Forgiveness in part also to see ‘what it was all about’ and not allow me to only formulate ideas/ beliefs about it without testing it for myself.

    HOW ?

    The initial experience within applying Self Forgiveness was fueled  with regret, shame and guilt when realizing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist-as in this world, and how we had – within such possession-  created a world of hatred and separation. Myself being the +1 point that supported such depression,  anxiety, walking with this constant judgmental view on the world  that I allowed myself to be and become.  I walked through my reality seeking for experiences, people, drugs or anything that could allow me to ‘grasp’ this reality, to not feel ‘lost’ and apparently gaining some type of ‘higher status’ to be special, to at least ‘know’ any form of ‘truth’ within this reality that would make me feel like there was a ‘point’ in this existence –  though I could only continue seeing  that nothing made sense.

    This is almost a ‘normal thing’ to go-through when realizing all the moments that we’ve spent in our little bubbles secluded from the rest of the world. Thus I initially rushed in means of ‘clearing my name/image’ as soon as possible. I had the idea that it was all about writing the self forgiveness out in one go, and then being ‘clear/ absolved’ of it forevermore. No, that was only my ego once again wanting to ‘shove it all away’ as fast as I could to regain a certain ‘peace of mind’ and be done with it –  it was just another attempt to regain the experience of ‘everything is fine,’ without really grasping how this was a process to be lived for a lifetime.

    Self Forgiveness can only support us in identifying the points that we have to correct ourselves,  yet as we know, this takes the actual physical integration of that which I vow to stand for, Self as the starting point in all ways = walking the talk.

    It was through the support through forums, Bernard, Sunette and everyone else participating at Desteni that I realized that Desteni was no quick fix, that it would take the actual living-application of it, that I had to actually walk-it, live-it, fall and rise again, make mistakes as many as I had to in order to get to know which road Not to follow – I realized that I actually required to DO THIS, that this was no prayer or magic wand wherein I could just simply spell nice words and pretend all is well – no.

    I also had to see how I had never ever done this as it’s not a preprogrammed thing to do. I realized that it wouldn’t come as a single easy decision wherein you chose from one color to another, but that it would take an actual self-commitment and self-will to prove if what was being shared with regards to Self Forgiveness in Self Honesty and writing ourselves to freedom was actually supportive. Till this day I can say: yes it is, absolutely.

    At times I would be quite overwhelmed with all the points I would go opening up through Self Forgiveness. It was a process wherein through writing and making it a consistent point within my every day living, it became a habit, a cool habit to start getting to know myself, to see where and how it is required to apply self forgiveness, how to apply self forgiveness for the experiences of the day. I mean, to me writing became like the most enjoyable part of the day and till this day, If I don’t write a day it would be because I’m absolutely sick or something – even if I don’t write blogs on a daily basis, I am continually writing somewhere in the internet or for myself in a notebook. It’s become part of myself – and it’s a very coo habit to develop a point of self-communication wherein we are able to ground ourselves as self-support and share it whenever we can with others as well. Writing and words are the key to this reality – and this is a Destonian realization, we are proving it for ourselves as we walk.

    All in all, Self Forgiveness was a trial and error process initially, wherein I virtually began applying Self Forgiveness for everything and all that I noticed in my environment, in my thoughts, in the world – it’s cool though because that’s how I got to discern what is common sense, what is Self Honesty, what are points that I have to open up further and how eventually applying/ living Self Forgiveness would imply the ‘actual doing’/ walking of all of these statements.

    This was finally something that I had to ‘make it work’ = it was no quick fix or magical wand as I had desired it initially to be – that’s when I began ‘meeting my maker’ for real, because Self Forgiveness became ‘the way’ to start seeing what the hell on Earth I was thinking and going through at all times as the inner chatter that I had dared to call ‘my best friend.’

    WHEN ?

    Once I started grasping Self Honesty, I saw that I could no longer be fooling myself with playing the same old ‘me’ when I had clearly set out the reasons, excuses and justifications for me being/ becoming a particular way – the self-interest, the narcissism, the arrogance, the self-inflated ego, the obsessions, the self-created delusions were out and in the open now, I could not fool myself nor did I want to continue deceiving myself. I can openly say now that it is through applying and living Self Forgiveness that I found what Self-Respect is, what actually establishing Self-Trust is based on one’s own writings and realizations and practical-living application of such realizations as well.

    The moment that I saw that even after leaving behind all the idea of myself I was still ‘Here,’ fears started vanishing – and I continued walking no matter what. Self Forgiveness became ‘the way of living’ from the perspective of being able to correct myself when seeing ‘the point’ that was missed in a moment wherein – yes – a breath was missed.

    Breathing through resistances to bring-through a point within Self Forgiveness, breathing through the initial judgment that may come whenever we expose to ourselves a point that we had suppressed and not looked at out of embarrassment, shame, guilt or fear – breathing through reactions is the way to go once you see the same points emerging after having applied self forgiveness for the point, such as my initial judgment toward Self-Forgiveness in itself.

    I remember once buying myself an only-self-forgiveness bloc of notes and the day that I had finished writing on the very last page, I felt ‘so cool’ about it, I planned to save it for the posterity lol – I lost it that same day at the bus station, I realized that such process was not to be ‘cherished’ and that it wasn’t about creating a collection of self-forgiveness, but actually walking through the process of living it, living the correction that I had seen through my writings that I had to stop, correct, align within the principle of what’s best for all. Eventually I understood that I could write heaps – yet if it wasn’t applied, then it was absolutely useless.

    I also saw how any ‘good feeling’ I could get out of applying Self Forgiveness, was a mind generated experience and had to be stopped.

    When getting specific support on the point through the Tree of Life I realized how ‘my past was still haunting me’ literally and how I was creating an actual experience of rushing or even anxiety in wanting to ‘get rid of the fucker as soon as possible and be at peace,’ without actually realizing that I had to first let go of wanting to ‘overcome myself’ but simply face the points for what they are, self forgive and walk the process at the physical pace of breathing – moment by moment.

    This ‘rush’ had to be stopped by first realizing that I had to clear myself from such thoughts of guilt, regret and shame that had emerged when writing myself to freedom, I wanted to ‘get over with it’ as soon as possible. I then realized that ‘there is nothing to attain’, there is nothing to ‘get to’ or ‘become’ – It is about realizing who/ what I really am,  that I am Here and I can’t define and limit myself within a perceived amount of time that I require to do this. So, rushing is linked to a self-competition through time against myself, against the personality I had become. So, forgiving myself for that became the pillar to walk in humbleness, to realize there is nothing to ‘attain’ or get, but is an actual walking-living self-realization that will be proven through our own participation in space and time in our reality.

    This also included stopping the expectations or ideals of ‘who I will become once I have applied Self Forgiveness’ – making sure I didn’t form any self-grandeur within it, any ego enhancement as being then ‘more’ than others or now being ‘done’ with myself and not requiring to continue, that’d be rather another mindfuck to debunk indeed – and I remind myself of this every time that it is required. It is a constant living application. 

    Living Self Forgiveness

    I never knew how layered my personality was until I started applying Self Forgiveness

    It was shocking to start seeing how I was essentially avoiding ‘mingling’ with people around me based on this idea/ personality I had of myself. I started realizing how I had become that which I had vehemently judged others for: I had become my own worst nightmare without ever noticing it. By this I mean a rather picky, elitist, judgmental, arrogant being that would only care to ‘spend time’ with those people that would ‘care’ about me as I did for them – conveniently so – I would not give a reverend fuck about the rest, I only cared about my little bubble. So, when applying self forgiveness and going understanding that this process was to expose myself for everything I had become, it initially was something I resisted, just because of fearing to face the reality that I had become, the actual  ‘true nature’ of myself while I had though of myself as being a nice and delightful person. This was then obviously out of still playing out my core-personality, instead of being fully unconditional within the application.

    See, the cool thing about Self Forgiveness is that we realize that we’ve existed as patterns, patterns repeat by ‘nature/design’, we realize that due to the extent that we’ve lived as the mind, we will be facing layers upon layers of the same pattern in various different aspects of our reality. Thus, we know we can’t be ‘done with it’ in one go – we’ll in fact amalgamate ourselves to the physical as breath, moment by moment, walking with the necessary patience to go stopping and correcting ourselves. That is translated to simply being able to stop the mind, stop all unnecessary time-loops of repeating the same experiences over and over again, until we realize that we simply require to Stop, Self Forgive and let go of it. Sounds simple, yes, though it takes a constant application that becomes ‘who we are’ every time we stop ourselves from participating in the mind, in every moment that we do not participate in that which seems enticing and alluring to go into – that moment that we don’t ‘go there’ actually supports ourselves to ground ourselves in/as the physical, we prove to ourselves that we can actually do this, that it just takes one breath at the time and sufficient self-will to do it.

    I never even thought that I would get to enjoy this process until I simply started living it. I would spend hours writing out self forgiveness because I saw it as a very effective way to go opening up points and almost ‘challenging’ me to transcend my fears of ‘oh no no don’t go in there!’ within my mind wherein I would have to kind of give myself an internal kick in the ass to write the point out. Embarrassment, shame, guilt, heaps of self judgment, self-hatred, a lot of judgments toward other people, the world – I was overwhelmed!  However, it was the most liberating point once it was ‘out’ like a physical relief from having now exposed this rotting corpse to myself, it no longer was this ‘dead talk’ inside my head lingering around, provoking me to go into certain moods or experiences that I would then dare to participate in and define as ‘who I am.’ These experiences began diminishing, simply because I could not kid myself into such thoughts after having extensively exposed them for what they are. Once the can of worms was opened, the can was empty and I filled it up with soil to grow something rather supportive for myself to live in common sense.

    The specificity implied in the writing itself of Self Forgiveness has been a key point of support in order to learn how the mind works as a perfect-system for excuses and justifications to not take Self-Responsibility. Hence the only way to ‘tackle’ this problem is through walking an equally specific and perfected system of self correction, which is why Self Forgiveness is such a specific way to correct ourselves. Each word in the basic sentence as ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself…’ is an absolute statement of taking Self Responsibility for having given our lives up to a mind-driven action that was done in inconsideration of who we are as one and equal.

    Throughout the process of getting to know how Self Forgiveness works, participating in the forum, reading others’ posts became a pillar and vital point of feedback. I was pretty much amazed how any single action/ event was able to be directed by using the same tools – indistinctly – and how common sense is always able to be established in any given situation, by the fact that every action is exerted through a process wherein a process of decision making is involved: to act or not act – it is self-created and as such, it can be corrected.

    How come we had missed this throughout time?

    No Excuses: Life Cannot be Denied

    I see Self Forgiveness as giving ourselves a second chance to live – to finally create ourselves as that which we see is and will be best for all as one and equal. This sounds ‘cool’ but living the words implies a life-dedication, a commitment toward ourselves that we support ourselves with and share with others. It is a way to expand our ability to see/ realize that who we really are had been caged in our own mind-traps and we are ready to take them all down for we have been the very creators of it all.

    There is no ‘mystery ’in Self Forgiveness, it’s not a self-god-given right, it is about understanding that we stop ourselves from existing within a single point of definition or idea of ourselves that limits/ defines who we are, and living it out through first removing/ detaching ourselves from such memory, idea, thought, belief, picture and standing up from having accepted and allowed ourselves to remain limited within such conception of ourselves.

    It’s about getting to know ourselves, to learn ‘how’ we function and  take Self-Responsibility for it, which is realizing and understanding  how there will be no miracles happening in order for us to correct what we have accepted and allowed to exist in this world.  We have this one life, one opportunity for us to be the creators of a reality that we are willing to exist as from now on, within common sense, within the principle of what is best for all as equals. This is the single starting point for creation we have missed throughout time – it is only now that we have the opportunity to stand as the living example of what is possible for us human beings to be and become when we become the change that we want to see in this world.

    Enjoy living this out for yourself.

    Supportive Articles I read to walk Self Forgiveness:

    And many more at: http://desteni.org/articles

    Self-Forgiveness Blog


    Reality Check: Sharing Desteni

     

    I was listening to the video  2012: The Family Tree System vs. Tree of Life and I noticed how my current experience toward Family has changed throughout this process.

    Last December that I spent time with them, I saw how I was no longer playing the ‘antagonist’ or ‘the black sheep’ as I used to throughout my time with them before and at the beginning of this process. It’s been quite a walk to say the least from the times when I literally fed them all up with me only talking about ‘Desteni’ as all knowledge and information that I simply got very excited about, but wasn’t applying/ living it at all. The same can be applied to all ‘friends’ that I simply ‘left’ because they weren’t apparently able to ‘catch up’ with ‘where I was’ which was only watching and reading the material without having any substantial process to share as my own application. 

    A cool indication about this is when I was sharing about Desteni back in 2008 with an ex-partner and even though he had some background on stuff like Lovecraft and other dimensions, the entire ‘portal’ thing simply seemed as bizarre as it could get. Imagine, this is now the ‘apparently’ open people and within that I simply became quite fixated on the idea of having to explain Desteni from the perspective of ‘the portal’ and all of that aspect which is not what’s really relevant, but the message itself. I would stumble upon my own words and eventually ‘gave up’ in trying to explain it. I later on probably got to know that friends/ people that knew me were a bit ‘concerned’ about me because I had simply detached and talking only about Desteni, wanting to simply speak out the knowledge without any practical reference to it. These type of situations became prominent with my family as well, until I realized through the support given while walking this process that was about us applying the process and not trying to change the world with knowledge and information.

    From that moment I began slowing down and looking at the point of living-the-words instead of speaking the words and trying to make people understand from the starting point of this ‘being the truth’ or any other vantage point like that.

     

    I learned ‘the hard way’ how sharing Desteni is not to share only knowledge and information to friends/ family as I lead myself to then walk an entire phase wherein I created this extreme uncomfortable experience for myself, feeling once again like ‘I didn’t belong here’ and using this as an excuse to single myself-out within the entire structure, as if I had already ‘overcome’ it somehow.  I didn’t want to see that I was only creating myself as something/ someone ‘superior’ because of all of this ‘knowledge’ that I had, yet wasn’t living fully as myself which was quite obvious because the moment that we begin grasping what living as Equals implies, we see and understand how any form of stance/ consideration that we place onto others – family, friends or anyone else in this world – is only ‘speaking’ / reflecting what is existent within us.

    I can see that how most of the points that I have been able to ‘discover’ as ingrained treats and quirks have been mostly what I could point out in my parents for example, which came as a bucket of cold water in that moment because of how we as ‘the children’ (I’ve asked if there is a word in English that can explain sons/ daughters in one word to indicate the name for the people that have the same father and mother, if anyone knows leave a comment, children sounds too childish) tend to create this general conflict and opposition toward our parents. It’s clear to me how we have to walk through these family relationships first as it is in essence walking the core-relationships in our world that have shaped us in a literal way through the DNA, but also as the most immediate environment wherein our entire conception and general understanding of the world is created.

     

    In the beginning of this process, I neglected this point and went into an entire seclusion and shifted my entire participation with them.  I did have a ‘hard time’ walking through this for the most part, simply because I would exist in a constant observer-mode wherein I thought that because of being profiling them and ‘understanding how their mind worked’ gave me some sort of ability to now judge them or point out shit in them without ever first taking the point back to myself.

    I can also say that I have now asserted myself in my family in terms of everyone being aware of what I stand for, how and why I stand for life in Equality. It’s been a process of me stopping all reactions to the various words, judgments and general reactions that any other person could express and made sure that I simply establish myself as that point that supports myself before continuing trying to ‘change my family’ or anyone else. I mean, it was quite a drag when trying/ attempting to change them and preach all that I would learn from the Desteni videos back then and almost exhort them to ‘do as I said or they will be fucked for life’ – That was not the way and all that I got out of that was simply being almost ‘feared,’ wherein they would mostly not speak when I was around because of me immediately jumping into the conversation with judgments and pointing fingers at them or about the topic that was discussed, judging what they were watching on the TV (still walking that point that still comes at times.)  I’ve learned how to slow down and listen – and this is part of an ongoing process as I tend to round the points and create conclusions in a rather rushed manner, wanting to immediately reply to avoid what I’ve judged as the chit-chat, which is part of me having been a rather ‘anxious’ person that wants everything to be solved and directed immediately, without living/ applying that as myself in everything I do yet. So, it’s cool how every single bit is able to show/ reveal us where we have to equalize ourselves and our starting point of everything we do and share.

     

    It is also true that not living with my family for the past 5  and a half years seem like an appropriate thing to do in terms of being able to face myself alone. But visiting and talking to them from time to time is also cool as my own reality-check. I actually got to enjoy the time that I spent with them at home last December. I allowed myself to stop judging them, allow myself to sit on the table and talk, share, just spend time with them which is something that I hadn’t done before because I had regarded it as a waste of time, simply because my starting point was already that of opposing them/ disliking them which then became my entire experience around them. Took a while to get to this point of now being able to sit and talk and share openly without fearing to be judged or being in a defensive mode with my superiority stance of ‘I know better/ I know how it all really works’ which becomes quite a drag in general.

     

    What’s interesting is that for the most part they have communicated how they would not be able to ‘see themselves’ doing what I’m doing – they still consider that walking this process is something really hard and they still consider that walking this process is something ‘really hard’ and they have expressed how it is mostly something that they would not do. Yet they are supportive with their due ‘reserves’ in terms of me having a life that doesn’t follow the usual family patterns. They have gotten used to that for now or getting used to the idea of it and what it implies.

     

    What I see is that I am not currently having any constant ‘relationships’ other than bits of interaction with the people that I live with and coworkers in school which has been a cool point to test myself in terms of stopping profiling people and actually being open and willing to learn from them all. I mean, they’re all males in their late 20’s, 30’s and 40’s lol so I’ve been able to learn more about those different phases in their lives and see what they’re all about. That phase is about to be over as well and I’m also grateful that I was able to have that experience because I know they are people that I wouldn’t have deliberately placed myself to be around with everyday for 6 months. I guess this is what we can call ‘walking the matrix’ wherein we stand as what/ who we are no matter where we are, being in the system but not OF the system and in the meantime, share, communicate enough to be able to expand a bit on people’s perspective about reality/ this world. I definitely enjoyed any moment that I was able to support another to see some aspect in common sense not previously seen or understood. 

    I also had long discussions with them on how self responsibility is created by the single fact of living in this world and using money.  That became quite a big point point of discussion wherein they simply refused to open up about it, I saw that I couldn’t go further into it. So within these situations it’s not like a YouTube platform wherein you can just stop replying or decide to not approve their comments because of not getting it, it’s not like you can just walk out of the job because of not agreeing with the people there, that would be a rather foolish thing to do. So we learn how to walk in the system that way.

     

    Back to my family/ parents I discovered that I enjoy talking to them when it comes to sharing our human-experiences. Through this process and after quite a while, I can say that I’ve gotten to a point wherein I can talk to them about what we do at Desteni, what I’ve understood, what I’ve realized and they also ask me for perspectives on stuff they are facing or cases from their friends/ other family members experiences. My mother shared the other day that what I had shared with her in relation to being able to stop her preoccupation thoughts,  linked to fears and general absurd/ out of place ‘worrying’ thoughts was quite supportive. It’s been cool opening up and speaking about reality and topics that they are also able to see/ understand no matter how ‘harsh’ it may seem. I mean, as far as ‘god’ it’s been mostly like only a ghost they still like to still cling on to out of habit only, because they realize that there is no way that it can possibly exist in this world because in common sense they can now see that the extent of abuse and suffering cannot possibly be part a ‘divine plan’ for Earth. I’ve been quite ‘outspoken’ after I stopped silencing myself around them and only holding eternal judgments and resentment for past situations toward them.

    I am also aware that probably after a while of me speaking and sharing about some points, they might have heard something here and there and applied it for themselves.  I have stopped pushing them to apply Self Forgiveness or kill their god completely. I’ve learned how to measure myself in terms of sharing wherein I would go quite up in flames trying to prove my point and prove myself right without having actually walked the point myself, at least to be able to talk about it in a more relaxed manner and not out of anger, irritation and judgment. I am still ‘getting here’ in terms of not reacting immediately as a form of saying ‘I told you so!’ in terms of what they share and the experiences that could have been prevented if listening before. I also accept that each one is walking/ facing their process and me wanting to prevent their fuckups will still be coming from the ‘savior syndrome.’

    I’m just glad I’m able to speak and share about how things are and push the envelope every time wherein we can discuss about the life-long patterns they’ve lived wherein I am obviously also facing myself as well. I’ve shared here in terms of seeing patterns with my father and myself for example and being able to discuss the points directly with him which is cool. I cannot possibly deny I am both of them and when talking with them about their quirks, patterns, thoughts and experiences, it is undeniable to not see myself in that. So, it’s been supportive for me to communicate and get to know a bit more about them speaking not from the ‘daughter’ perspective, but as another human being.

     

    I mostly like breaking that initial ‘mirage’ that family roles-characters create wherein the ‘children’ are not supposed to talk about certain things or question their parents or ‘support them’ in anything in terms of facing themselves. One would usually think that because children are younger, they are not supposed to be ‘wise enough’ to support another – this is now the language used by them to define that ‘support’ as ‘being wise’ but it’s really just common sense that anyone can educate themselves to live and apply.

     

    As much as this process has also been ‘painful’ for them in terms of me having been quite a ‘rebel’ through my teens in terms of ‘not fitting in the family scheme,’ and then having this 180 degree shift within this process wherein they certainly thought that it was just ‘another phase’ in my life, it is now  ‘acceptable’ for them to support me because they are aware of what I stand for, how I live it and share it. They are aware and supporting me in my future plans even if it is ‘not so cool’ for them in terms of not seeing me that much, but they are aware that my plans in life will not follow the patterns walked so far  in terms of my sisters having a settled life with kids and forming their own families. It’s cool that I have been able to witness  how people get married and settle down, have kids and dedicate themselves to that. I cannot possibly see myself in that, I’ve got the whole world here as the opportunity to walk and support myself first and become a point of support for others. I told my parents last time that I saw them how this is what I will be doing for life and this is all I can see myself doing for life which in essence means: I’m dedicating myself to live, to realize what Life actually is and support others in such process as well. I’ve seen how they’ve walked the process of questioning me and my starting point to simply having to agree as they see/ realize and can witness that what I say, I actually do and walk as myself full-on.

     

    For now I am aware that I’m still here and willing to walk the process of equalizing myself as family members – this is definitely not done, but for the most part I can definitely say that after all these years there are considerable changes in our interactions wherein I have stopped antagonizing or holding a grudge toward my mother, that’s part of the points that have been walked with here also supporting herself within writing ‘in her own way’ as she never participated in Desteni, but what she learns and applies has supported her to let go of some points which has benefited our relationship/ interaction as well. It’s also cool because she ‘knows’ me very well from that mother-daughter perspective, hence all the ‘changes’ that she would have never expected are also a cool confirmation in terms of stepping out of the predictability – as well as her being able to point out any minor shift like irritation/ frustration/ me raising my voice as a result of this and being able to point it out right away. That’s also part of the points that not many people are able to do because we haven’t spent that much time with other beings in our reality other than our family – well, that’s been my case at least.

    Now, this is not saying ‘all is fine’ but simply sharing how I see/ realize that we’re able to communicate with our family in equality, seeing how anything   that I could be backchatting about them can be taken back to myself directly. Now I almost ‘freeze’ myself whenever I  go into immediate projection about ‘something’ that I could point out to them without having first pointed it out in myself.

    A clear example is how I can share with my father points of irrational anger and how I would sometimes want to go and exert that anger to someone or even being physically aggressive – he’s had the same throughout his life, so we’ve walked point by point how to breathe through it and stop the anger possession and the imagination of actually going and hitting the person because of any possible reason. We have also shared these extreme ways of having everything done ‘our way’ and if something doesn’t work out as we expected, we burst out in anger and get all desperate and wanting to just blame others/ the entire world for the consequences that we have created. These are points that have been part of his entire lifetime and that I can see I’m able to develop as ‘the information is there’ – yet as I am walking, I share with him how I can stop from going into the entire hissy-fit by breathing and applying self forgiveness.  It’s interesting that I can say  that I ‘know’ what he goes through because: I am his copy – hence I share what I’ve done to walk through these points in common sense and that’s it. It’s up to him to apply it or not, I won’t try to save him or ‘change him’ because I’ve understood how each one has to make the decision for themselves.

    Same point with my mother mostly in relation to a constant state or ‘preoccupation’ and ‘worry’ which also comes from my grandmother and mostly linked to that ‘idleness’ when not having something physically here to do, and it’s also linked to irrational fears that are automated – same points: sharing how to take the trigger point of the entire reaction as the thoughts, walking through each through, applying self forgiveness in the moment and then stopping participation. That’s the point wherein she shared how that was supportive and how she was applying it whenever the thoughts would come up again. That’s cool.

    In terms of my sisters now raising children, I can’t say much because I’m not interacting with them. For the most part it seems hard for parents to grasp the fact that kids must be regarded as equals and not making them ‘special’ as that creates further separation in this world. I don’t have an actual ‘say’ on that because both my niece and nephew are still babies, although I can say I am fond of the girl because I have been able to play with her a bit and I enjoy making her laugh and play along. My sisters often joke on how they will ‘send their kids to me’ so that they can learn about life, which I guess is a cool compliment at the moment, for the fact that a human being is able to recognize that the principle we’re living in is in fact beneficial for all and would be willing to allow you to share with them what can be regarded as an actual life-education.

    So, these past times that I spent with them I was able to enjoy the hours that I got to talk to them on a one-on-one basis. I am aware that I mostly don’t like going to events wherein there are no actual spaces/ moments to REALLY communicate with people, which is what I enjoy. I’ve learned to open up and not only be willing to listen to ‘some’ – of course not everyone is open for this, so I’ve mostly shared and spoken with those that are willing to share equally, that includes my cousins for the most part, which I also enjoyed.

     

    As a tentative final point to this is realizing how within one standing up and creating that equal stance toward everything/ everyone, family becomes part of that basic interaction wherein we are able to ‘test’ ourselves in the most casual ways. It is not necessary to create such resistance toward them as it is common sense that it will have to inevitably be walked-through within this process. Being able to share and spend time with people without having extensive backchat and generating an entire inner experience out of our own thoughts projected toward them, is quite a cool point worth placing oneself to walk through. I see that the key point is integrating this process as ‘who we are’ and not only taking ‘Desteni’ as some external entity that we try to make others see/ understand, but we rather allow the beings to get to know about it through ourselves, through our very ways in which we participate. Just as you and I have learned and copied ways of talking/ walking/ carrying oneself around from others, we are able to become the type of people that others can also see they’re able to live and apply equally as ourselves. Being living examples of what self is able to be and become once that we step out of our preprogrammed cocoon.

    Thanks for reading and here’s the vlog that I recorded about this topic as well:

    2012 Sharing Desteni with Family/ Friends: a Living Process

    And also suggest watching Marek’s video response to that video which is a cool practical walking and expansion on this point.

     

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