153. Life is Beautiful when You Got Money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an experience toward people walking in a mall wherein everyone seemed to be very busy and ‘happy’ in consumerism, wherein I realized that I was also becoming a character wanting to deliberately give a message with my physical movements and gestures of ‘you are all deluded,’ without realizing that such people and what they are doing is no different to what I used to do in the past, with my very own consumerist fixations while being high on the rush of ‘we have money, let’s buy the stuff that I want.’

When and as I see myself creating a deliberate stance of superiority based on diminishing all people in a mall as ‘brainless consumerist drones’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am becoming only a character that is judging and opposing beings based on ‘who I am’ in my  mind/ ego/ past in such moment instead of being here unconditionally as breath, not determining who I am according to a building/ people/ environment where things are bought and sold.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that ‘Life is beautiful when you got money’ as a way to create an experience of superiority upon others when seeing myself coexisting within an environment where the world seems to be reduced to endless rows of shops and people consuming/ buying as if that is what ‘having fun’ is supposed to be about. I realize that this is me judging a single building, with stores where people buy and sell stuff that they can afford with money or not. And that is just how we have created and fabricated our current reality and within this, there is no point to judge other than seeing how a point like a mall exists within the context of our entire current world system, wherein money defines who is able to have such type of entertainment/ fun through buying/ consuming along with others on a Friday afternoon. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pace myself around the mall, waiting for the rain to stop and wanting to present myself deliberately as someone that is Not there as ‘part of the whole consumerist/buying thing’ but out of going there for a sheer necessity in the moment, which is obviously linked to buying something as well – thus  I realize how I am only judging that which I obviously do in my every day living which is buying to consume and live, buying things that we eventually require as secondary points in our lives – and I see that I have judged this point of buying based on the amount of money that one has, wherein if I see myself having little to no money, the experience of separation toward people with lots of money is exacerbated as an inferiority that is transformed into contempt and general judgment toward ‘their lifestyles;’ and when I ever saw myself having sufficient money I could then create this experience of  ‘superiority’ based on me assessing being standing on an ‘equal-stance’ toward people that had money to buy and within this, creating this positive experience as well within me when going shopping/ buying as part of what I was taught should be our ‘fun time’ as family – for example – a decade ago.

 

When and as I see myself creating a general experience of criticism toward a particular environment wherein wealth/ money is all around and wanting to become the point that is there trying to ‘make a point’ of it all being just bullshit through how I behave and move myself around, I stop and I breathe.  I realize that we are all equally subsumed in this world system wherein buying/ consuming is part of our day to day living due to how we have condemned/ enslaved ourselves to only be able to eat, wear clothes, have proper services if we have enough money to buy it all. Thus

 

I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System to ensure that buying is no longer only a ‘positive experience’ linked to ‘having enough money’ to eat, buy and ‘have fun’ through buying secondary needs/ necessities, as I see and realize how we have created these labels onto stuff based on the amount of money as a price tag that we have imposed onto reality – thus there will be no more points of ‘luxury’ and ‘second needs’ but an actual informed decision to – first of all – produce that which is actually necessary and also cool to support our day to day living, and from there consumerism in itself will stop being ‘consumerism’ as a derogative term that it has become now within our current culture of money as positive experience – and instead, will become the single transaction of equal-money to get that which we require to live – being it first/ basic needs or that which we can call at the moment secondary needs, which will exist as products/ services that are in accordance to a genuine living-expression, which is the basic principle upon which products and services will exist in the Equal Money System.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all things in stores as pretentious bullshit and unnecessary variety, without realizing how I have been part of this world and accepted this desire to be unique, special, original as well, which is the origin point of how all that which we consume is extrapolated to ‘the most special/ the greatest/ the most original’ item that is promoted in such ways in order to make money out of it, which is what we have enslaved ourselves to: a monetary system that requires to create ‘new needs’ in order to continue buying/ consuming and as such maintaining the flow of money as a currency/ current that is based upon abuse of this physical reality for our own benefit and pleasure.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from any being there by silently judging them as ‘oblivious to reality’ due to being there, having money to buy and ‘have fun,’ which can only exist if I have judged money, buying, fun according to knowledge and information of how there are ‘billions of people that can’t experience the shopping-high’ without realizing that in such moment of me judging the whole event and moment is doing nothing at all to solve the problem that money as a disparity in living conditions have created in our world, due to our own accepted and allowed separation from what is here through money, creating an entire value-system/ scheme to categorize people according to the amount of money they have/ don’t have – and accordingly, ‘live’ a life of happiness and satisfaction when there’s more than enough money to buy or the inequality existent as poverty when having no money to buy and sustain themselves properly

 

When and as I see myself judging people that have money as oblivious to reality because of the security that money represents, I stop and I breathe – I realize that judging does nothing but adding up to the separation from the physical reality that we have abused because of another mind-created desire to ‘be more’ which is what I become in my mind when creating an authority of ‘judging people with money’ in a superior mode, without realizing that we are ALL equally participants and creators of All that exist, and that it is then to stop all judgments and walk in the physical no matter what the scenario is, no matter what ‘types of people’ are around, as I see and realize that all these variations and definitions toward a physical environment/ people are based on the effect that we have all duped ourselves with as money, which enables to create either a better picture presentation from/ of our reality or not.

Thus it is to see how the moment that we judge something that is ‘over the top’ from the social standard of ‘normal living’ and existing in/as an excess of wealth is simply something useless to do, as it is not to judge reality, but understand what are the actual origins that lead to the creation of such places and forms of ‘living’ as humans, wherein we have separated ourselves from the physical-cycles of life and artificialized it into a system that is sustainable only according to rules and regulations that we are currently existing as our capitalist system.

I commit myself thus to within stopping judging reality, simply observe what is here and without ‘backchat’ instead take note of the points that I observe in order to realize how we are all creators of such points, what deficiencies exist within the entire system to enable polarized versions of reality to the extent where some live in the utmost wealth and opulence while other live in the worst poverty and starvation that is possible to ‘exist as’ within this world – how we have all agreed to continue living in a system wherein life is not equally valued, but only reduced to a consuming system that is available for some only, while the Earth is giving all that is here without a single ‘bill’ to be paid for.

 

This is how I assist and support myself to transform any judgment toward the world system and reality to take it back to self and see where and how we have all created, accepted and allowed the current system to move/ exist as it does now, and within this also at an individual level identify how such judgments can only exist if I had formed a previous relationship to such – in this case – wealth, money and ability to buy everything that I could possibly want, which has obviously existed within me in my past wherein I also learned that shopping and consuming is a  positive experience and a ‘must do’ when one has more than enough money to live.

There’s multiple aspects and dimensions of judging a point that we see ourselves being ‘vexed’/ bothered by, which can  only exist if we have created a relationship of separation toward it, that’s why and how we see ourselves often judging everything and everyone in our world, because everything that we have become is that: separation. And as long as we continue accepting such judgment as a way to cover up the responsibility we hold toward the creation of this entire system, we’ll remain as judgmental victims of our own self-created hell, and I am not willing to continue diminishing ourselves to being ‘only that.’

Thus I commit myself to take responsibility for myself, my actions, words and attitudes, being very aware of how I present myself in any given place/ situation and not ‘adapt’ myself to create any point of resistance or physical judgmental behavior toward that which I perceive as living in the saying ‘Ignorance is bliss,’ as all we had lived as and by as humans is just that, we’re barely beginning to wake up and open our eyes to the extent of abuse that we have imposed onto ourselves and all living beings, just because of seeking this point of happiness.

There’s more to look at here, definitely.

Join us in our Journey to Life to take responsibility for ourselves, our world and reality and support each other the way that it always should have been from the beginning of who we are as existence.

 

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Desteni Forum

Desteni I Process 

Equal Money System

Economist’s Journey To Life 

 

Blogs:

Thought Designs – Part 1: DAY 153

DAY 153: After Death Communication – Part 3

 

Interviews:

Recommended Education about the World System of Money and the relationship to ourselves as the Mind and the Physical Reality:

• The Soul of Money – The Oneness and Consequence of the Existential Bodies – Part 35

• The Soul of Money – How Money thrive from Personality Evolution – Part 33

 

Consumerism explained in this series:

• The Consciousness of the Frog – Part 1

Further support:

• Reptilians – The Human Picture – Part 25

• Life Review – My Life as a Billionaire

• Life Review – Comparison, Judgment and Competition

Day 36: Vulgar Display of Power

A spiritual master, a judge, a gun, the image of Christ on a cross, an exuberant city hall building, a prison, criminal record, a car, food, clothes, water from a tap, a toilet, a machine, a college degree, the Vatican, the White House, a famous person, a circus, a house, gold chains, kings, queens, a TV, a party, a synagogue, a sugary-drink corporation, a school,  a yacht, an ideology, a plant, a skyscraper, a personal gadget, a last name/ family name, a politician, a computer, a banker, a regular working man that ‘earns a living’ – in this reality where Money has become the divide between ourselves and Life in Equal availability for all, anything we use, abide to, follow, buy, sell and indulge into with masked innocent ways (read religion and spirituality) are governed by and represent a form of power over others – including your parents – why?  They all entail a relationship of power just as anything currently does in a world wherein life is subdued to the illusion of power that money entails in this reality.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my dreams of wealth and success to become the control that decides the fate of many through protecting the rights of the few as justified as a free choice opportunity, brainwashing even many of the poor into the hope that they may also one day Live the dream without me realize that I have in fact created a dream for me, but a nightmare for others without considering that an Equal System is in fact a shared dream, without any nightmare as side-effect.” Bernard Poolman

 

The moment that we create a point of superiority and inferiority/ more than and less than idea and perception towards another being, an item, a single part of this reality that we create and generate a particular experience toward – either a want, need, desire, fear, resistance – implies one single thing: we are Not standing One and Equal to everything and everyone that exists in this world, and that means we are living in a constant re-creation of this Idea of separation through our current monetary system, wherein it becomes obvious that life is not being readily given accepted as one and equal for all in our reality, because we have created Capitalism as the way to instead become flagrant righteous beings that according to the amount of money you have, your vulgar display of power will be praised accordingly. And I say ‘praise’ because absurdly enough, we get absolutely mesmerized and tantalized by the ‘rich and the famous’ in this reality, to the point that we can have their sybarite lifestyles recorded, call it a “Reality Show” and it will get Millions of viewers that would rather get a vicarious sense of enjoyment from such vulgar display of power than informing themselves about How on Earth have we come to this low-end in society wherein Money is dictating the very breath we breathe in.

 

Hence the need to seek for god, the need to always have to decide upon yes/ no, black or white, be  in favor of/ against of others, subdue ourselves to a spiritual authority in the name of ‘good fortune’ where being a ‘good neighbor’ becomes a survival tactic rather than a real act of equal compassion. Because of this separation toward life, we have made of this living reality a constant survival mode wherein having food, water, clean clothes and proper sanitation can be a luxurious lifestyle for those that have Nothing to eat and drink; while on the other side of the coin, the need to capitalize money drives an entire civilization that is willing to do anything possible to get to achieve the regularly promoted ideal of happiness and well being that, in our contemporary society, means ‘being rich and having it all.’ Why have we accepted wealth which is a blatant display of spite toward any single being that is below the range of what any regular mortal can aspire to throughout a lifetime and not see it as abuse, but rather justify it with blatant excuses such as: god made us this way, people are paying for their past sins with such unhealthy pauperdom.

It is an absolute dissonance currently to click on an RT video to watch news about an ongoing war situation in this world and having to bare watching advertisement campaigns that fashion industries have designed to – now in a more ‘royally fucked’ way – implant the absolute desire to ‘be strong and powerful’ that is currently promoted toward women, transforming an opportunity to stand equal to all living beings – males included of course – and making it just another gimmicky ‘fashion statement’ while instilling desires for such ‘absolutism’ that was accepted some centuries ago in this reality as the ultimate power: having it all and the world at your feet (or below you several meters from your balcony.) Has anything ever really evolved? No, it just got suited into a TV format wherein the ruling of a few has become the very corporations and institutions that we all depend upon, once again, because of Money.

 

 

Ask yourself: why do we study degrees? To be able to have a stable income/ job that enables us to life – this is according to theory of course, as it is being proven now how having PhD’s can get you nowhere or remain underemployed, which proves that everything that you have specialized yourself was ‘not worth it’ in a reality where all that matters is to live fast and die young – which translates into: consume all you can until you end up eating yourself away. This is what at a physical level we actually do when accepting and allowing a reality of consumption with no regard of what the hell it is that’s giving us this ‘power’ to exist, and why on Earth is such power is not readily existent/ given for ALL in Equality.

 

We have now created ‘special considerations’ toward points in our reality wherein we justify such disparity and polarization when having to watch femmes seducing men in expensive gowns within a royal palace for a few seconds before watching information about an ongoing war with no signs of receding. Why is such vulgar display of power a must-watch for all? Because of money, because advertisement has become a powerful industry in direct proportion to how often we actually indulge into such ‘lifestyles’ as a means to mimic an idea of life that cannot possibly be a Reality for all. Come on, we’re being fed dreams and the naivety of it all is: we still fall for it. Other ‘special filters’ include justification towards abuse due to ‘respecting’ a particular culture, tradition, religion, preference, opinion – all building blocks of the illusion that we have become as selfish beings that don’t really care about creating a world that is best for all, but rather improving and evolving into ‘better ways’ to have it all for oneself and for that: Money is the weapon of choice.

How does this work?

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a system of wealth and property rights is a system of control that is a form of protectionism where only some are protected against the others that do not have equal rights.” Bernard Poolman 

 

Isn’t it a vulgar display of power to have the audacity to squander money in things you don’t require to live while the world starves?

Money is the manifestation of Inequality in this world. We essentially have become the living-split and spite of ourselves when transforming life substance into energy, wherein Money represents that fuel that we have all made ourselves dependent upon, our own  enslavement as ‘our world system/ society’ wherein if you don’t have money = you die. And who benefits from this? Anyone that has generated enough wealth to be able to employ needy people created and accepted by default as ‘poor people’ in society to do the type of jobs that your regular rich person would simply not move a single hand to do. Thus this clarifies how abuse can only exist in the name of power/ power can only exist if abuse exists and abuse can only exist if energy as separation exists.

 

“ I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that once an Equal System is in place, me as the wealthy will no longer have slaves whose Lives I can buy and will have to clean up after myself with my own two hands. This will force me to realize that I as the wealthy have only ever existed at the mercy of slaves and that I have abused the slaves without mercy and should not expect mercy when I never gave it. “ Bernard Poolman

 

A person that is not willing to give to another what they want for themselves, is already abdicating the very ability to live in this world, it is digging your own grave as it is the ultimate statement of you not willing to stand in the shoes of another and consider that they too are yourself and would very much like you tot care about an extreme level of  poverty and unhealthy precarious conditions that they are enduring.  There is certainly no regard to any other being the moment that a definitive stance against equality is established and complaining does a great job to abdicate our equal responsibility within this global problem we’re facing.

 

“I commit myself to the Institution of Democracy as Government by the People, through the People, in fact – with NO authority abdicated to parliament or single Leaders, as that always leads to abuse.

I commit myself to the recognition of the crimes of wealth and ownership as the admission of pre-meditated murder and abuse to do grievous bodily and mental harm, so that morality and integrity may be restored to be values of Life and not profit.

I commit myself to the end of the Tyranny of wealth and ownership.

I commit myself to restore Life to be the only acceptable nature of man on Earth.”

Bernard Poolman

 

It’s in our hands now – we either continue deprecating Life into a sensual experience that comes and goes where consuming the most is considered as being fortunate, lucky and wealthy – or we start realizing to what extent our own “values” are the very reflection of a twisted morality that has been shaped Not according to what’s best for all, but according to the interests behind a machine that continues instigating desires, wants and needs while defending it with the infamous ‘free will’/ ‘free choice’ and ‘liberty’ – all false concepts now being used to promote individualism at its finest.

 

The key to stop the engine of this roaring chainsaw is in our hands.

“It’s time to decide: We decide: we make it or we die “ – The Unicorns Tuff Luff

Be One Vote for World Equality – Support the Equal Money System 

 

 

 

Blogs

All quotes from Bernard Poolman were taken from the blog:

• Day 35: Equal Money will Save the World

Also read:

• The Soul of Fear: Day 35

• Day 1: Reaction Games

 

Interview to understand this process and the world:

• Reptilians – Where does Relationships come from – Part 40

And the Soul of Money Series that is a complete explanation of our current downfall along with the steps to create solutions that are relevant to each one of us in our reality.

 

 

Take a moment to watch this great animation by Micah Buzan that depicts the current reality wherein we are consuming ourselves in the name of Money

THE THIEF – Animation + Music by Micah Buzan

Day 8: My body is Not an Image

Equalizing myself as my physical body implies not suiting the ideals that I have participated and created in my mind toward it, that would be reinforcing the same system that we are here to stop reinforcing . It is about considering every single cell and what I have put my entire body through whenever I have indulged into a ‘regime’ that I have followed in the name of religions, such as when I was a vegetarian, to the point of becoming anemic for not considering the actual physical requirements to nurture my body.

 

I’ve walked that process in the past – however a new dimension has been added to this process of me understanding what it means to really stand equal and one as your physical body. I mean, we have become so separated from our bodies that we follow our mind-created cravings in order to satisfy what we ‘think’ is what we want or require. Just today I realized that I wanted to drink some mineral water, which is absolutely unusual to me, which implies that I didn’t ‘think myself into it’ but was an actual sensation to seeing how I had an experience of wanting something that would contain something a bit more than just plain water.

 

I have been experiencing the subtleties of my body that I would not experience before – yet I see the importance of now integrating the written self-corrective support that goes hand in hand with practical physical actions of, for example, integrating more variety of foods as vegetables and elements that I would not buy simply out of routine. I have lived a life wherein ‘my routine’ has become ‘my religion’ and in that, even when it comes to food it becomes almost like a subservient way of ‘giving me the least variety’ in means of austerity, somehow, yet not realizing that me existing in such limitation is just also self-interest as I am only considering how I have judged food and what I eat and how I have defined myself according to money and what I eat, which are then relationships of value and separation from what I see I am actually capable of eating/ consuming without creating any ideas of ‘being abusive’ for eating – I had just written ‘indulging’ – into a wider variety of foods.

 

It’s quite revealing how one can use a certain image as a means to portray ‘modesty’ and ‘humbleness’ which has permeated the simplicity that I want to portray as an image, and can still come through as clothes – simple clothes – and foods – simple foods which doesn’t meant that it is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ but I can still see that I am holding this ‘neutral experience’ toward it, which stands as a generated experience that I have limited myself within as well. It’s very cool to realize this as I have seen how one cannot really be ‘neutral’ as it is a long-standing point between both poles and still defining it according to having been living in either side of the opposite polarities.

 

So – the way to walk out of creating an experience form that which I eat is stopping giving it any ‘face value’ within my mind, no matter how ‘neutral’ it may seem. The moment I face resistances to open up the point implies that I am not willing to give up my ‘status quo’ which is a very familiar state for me wherein once that I’ve ‘reached’ a certain point I can remain in it without actually challenging such status quo and deliberate change the habit to learn where and how I can implement new points and solutions and physical support for myself. That’s something that I enjoyed about the farm, how points were constantly shifting wherein my usual desire to remain ‘safe’ in any given task, routine is suddenly immediately altered which forces me to re-evaluate, re-schedule and prioritize time and time again. That’s really challenging and it’s in those moments when we can face if we are really ‘stable’ and ‘unconditional’ regardless of the new situations/ events that may come up.

 

 

“Bodyshape – lol; when human beings see the word bodyshape – BODYshape is how it’s read, and attempt/try to shape the body according-to how the mind has shaped reality, and thus what exist within BODYshape is MINDshaped – where the mind takes IMAGES/PICTURES and attempt/try to shape it with/as actual physical reality that is not a Picture/Image but an actual physical existence/reality that is constantly/continuously in motion/movement according to our beingness/mind as how we express through/with/as the physical. And thus, Bodyshape has become Mindshaped and what experience the consequence is the being in/as/with the body – because the mind try shape the body according to a picture/image, like trying to stop time in the physical for the image/picture to manifest when the physical is constantly changing/in movement.

Thus, the process should be SELFshaping – assisting and supporting self to shape self up into/as Life/Living, and realise that it’s bodySHAPE – simply the shape the body is in according to self’s relationship with self and the physical, and to align self with the physical in shaping self and the body into/as equality and oneness – this is the shape that should be regarded”                                    – Sunette Spies

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body and turning it into a single image that I have created in my mind of how it must look according to how I have imposed ‘my view’ onto reality according to how I see through the eye of the mind that places picture-presentation on top of the actual physical existence that is here as the physicality and all the relationships that are existent here as my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard every single cell and part of my body that I have put strain on whenever I would deliberately follow a new belief system upon eating, without regarding its actual nutrient requirements, which eventually lead me to experience my body giving an alarm that I required meat, which is how I realized that I had to stop following a belief system wherein I would only consider my own interest on ‘not feeling guilty for killing animals’ yet being at the verge of a serious physical condition that took me time and pain to recover from in the past.

 

I learn from such mistakes and deliberate abuse that I imposed onto my body in order to remind me to not follow again any regime that will lead me to consequences that I am not equating as myself As the Physical body, but only at the mind value wherein I seek to make myself look better and ‘feel’ better from a mind perspective, instead of actually considering the necessary nutrients and elements that I require to consume in order to support myself as the physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence as only a ‘form’ as a physical body, that I only see the skin/ surface of, without realizing that there is an entire universe of cells forming tissues, organs, systems as the entire configuration that exists as my physical body that I must consider in its totality every moment that I am indulging into food, that I quit/ stop certain foods and the physical movement that I use as regular exercise for self-support.

 

I realize that it is within self-interest that we can abuse and limit ourselves from proper feeding every time that we follow an ideal of what we must eat, without doing proper research within our own body, doing one point at a time, step by step to ensure that we are in fact monitoring the changes and actual physical experience with such changes, to make sure that I am not putting my body under pressure and strain that becomes imperceptible by our current separation that we have created from our physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having imposed my values upon body image, foods and looks based on what I deemed as ‘acceptable’ within my reality, which is a mind-reality where the actual physicality that I am comprised of was absolutely neglected and overlooked when and while imposing ‘sudden’ changes within my diet, which is deliberate acts that I would do in order to satisfy a mind routine of self-fulfillment without considering at all times the actual nutritional value for my body in itself in the first place.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having ever disregarded the very fact that I kept a struggle during an entire lifetime with wanting to achieve a certain ‘idea’ of how I must look, without ever considering the actual structure that sustains me, as the physical constitution of my body wherein each cell is aware of even the slightest change that I create in my day to day diet.

 

When and as I see myself pondering about creating a change in my diet, I stop and I breathe – I make sure that the starting point is actually in order to investigate how certain meals are able to support my physical body effectively, wherein I place aside and not participate within the starting point of using certain meals to support me to ‘achieve’ getting a certain body image as the body form that I have used as an excuse and patterned ideal that has no physical consideration for who I really am as the actual physical that cannot be possibly reduced to being only an image.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reduce myself to being only image seen through physical eyes only.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the fact that I am in constant movement and reactions as chemical processes inside me that I have become so separated from that I have neglected how the slightest indulgence, change/ alteration in my day to day living in relation to food can in fact create a disruption that I cannot even be immediately aware of, due to the extent of separation that I’ve fueled as the acceptance of who I am as a mind that seeks a ‘perfect picture presentation’ based on equally-sold picture-presentation ideals in the name of keeping ourselves entertained with and as the mind as ‘who we are,’ instead of actually stepping out of the mind-loop and get into actual physical considerations of our body as a living-organism, not a bi-dimensional picture presentation according to the standards of what I have believed will ‘make me feel better about myself’ which is linking the body image to a positive experience, like the one we get when having money and feeling ‘better’ than before.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to manipulate my body as a image that could portray ‘modesty’ and ‘simplicity’ yet still within the starting point of creating a ‘neutral’ experience within me, which is then how I have surreptitiously kept myself in a ‘comfort zone’ when it comes to actually dealing with how I have utilized my body to fulfill an ideal of myself – which is not Real but mind-based.

 

I forgive myself that I have deliberately manipulated my diet in means of ‘austerity’ which stems from the entire relationship toward money wherein I created such ‘modesty’ and ‘austerity’ in relation to how I used to spend a lot more money on a wide variety of food in the past- thus I realize that it’s not about creating an experience of ‘eating cheap food’ but actually starting to remove the value as money that defines my current experience toward food, and instead consider the actual nutritional value that is entails to eat and nurture myself as my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of what I eat part of my daily self-religion wherein modifying what I eat seems like a sacrilege to my status quo, not realizing that within this I am only limiting myself to explore new ways of supporting myself and my physical body – mind and body equally.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link ‘austerity’ to a ‘positive value’ within myself, without realizing that it is also an experience that I must stop in order to start reconsidering the actual nutrition points that I require to support my body in an optimum way

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘changing my habits’ as this is part of having to ‘break my personality/ ego’ as the usual comfort and status quo that allows me to ‘play safe’ within my reality, not realizing that this can only lead to stagnation and it is a limitation to the detriment of my own process of actually realizing new points that I can incorporate and move myself toward if I direct myself to do so.

I realize that modesty and austerity are only mind-created experiences that have no physical congruency to the reality that I exist as in my physical body which cannot be fueling or be part of the life-degradations I’ve created as personalities that I have used to suit my own desires of ‘how I must look’ and ‘what I must eat’ within an entire personality idea of me being a ‘modest’ and ‘austere’  person.

 

I commit myself to support myself to actually live in accordance to developing an equal and one support of myself as my physical body, as my mind which I am here to re-educate in means of supporting myself as who I really am as a living being that requires to establish proper relationships with Self as the physical.

 

I commit myself to walk a process of learning/ educating myself further on how what I eat supports me/ doesn’t support me, based on actual experimentation that I allow myself to commit to for a couple of weeks to see how it is experienced within my physical body.

 

The only acceptable form/ shape of myself is as a living being that is able to live one and equal here as my physical body first, to no longer put it under any form of strain while following a certain image/ ideal based on the constrains of my mind that is currently influenced by everything that sells well in this reality.

 

I commit myself to start considering what my physical body is actually requiring instead of following (fall-allowing) the thoughts in my mind of why I should or should not eat something. I have to develop in practicality what ‘man know thyself’ actually means in this regard, which is an actual living process that I’m beginning from here on.

 

 

Interview by Bernard Poolman about the points that must be considered whenever one is trying out new foods and diets in our every day living.

• Demonizing Sugar – YouTube

Blogs of the day:

• Day 7: Letting Go of Regret

• DAY 7: What has ‘Life’ Become?

• 2012: Living With the Word Food