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Day 42: Toxic Fun–Drugs as Enslavement

Who are we when we allow the intoxication of another being that you can call a friend/ partner/ lover in the name of ‘Fun’? It’s taken a punch to my ego to write a ‘we’ when I have declared myself as an official drug/ alcohol detractor – yet, I’ve been there myself and even had special affinity toward self-destructive people, which implies that whenever I accepted the consumption of drugs/ alcohol in the name of ‘fun’ = I accepted an allowed the man-infestation of the abuse of drugs and alcohol consumption in the world as way to ‘have a good time. ‘

 

Who are we when we support the use of drugs/ alcohol as a way to ‘free ourselves’? Isn’t that the same as inducing another to take some rat poison while pretending that you can just throw your hands in the air and wave them like you just don’t care?

 

My mind wants to run rampant in rage when seeing the effects that such stupefaction generates in a human being – however, here I have placed myself as the point that stops judgment and any other reaction, walking the Self Forgiveness as well [*]. And how I was able to stop the immediate surge of backchat was through saying out loud ‘I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another for seeing the obvious effects that alcohol/ drugs had upon them while in fact that person as this very moment could have been me’  – and so, the tendency to judge from this ‘superiority’ idea of self was deflated and brought back to the ground, hearing about Patience today also supported me a lot to slow myself down.

 

Thus, now that I have walked the road to hell and back, meaning having walked the process of self forgiveness on these subjects and practically Stopping all forms of substance abuse as an integral part of my commitment to life – I can say that allowing the continuation of such self-abuse between so-called ‘friends’ and partners/lovers is just the most obvious act of actual spite and self-loathing that you can ‘gift’ yourself and another with – that’s how any relationship that wherein alcohol and drugs are promoted as a way to ‘feel good’ and ‘have a good time,’  ‘relax and just chill’  is equal to allowing any form of Self Abuse such as rape, murder, violence and any other form of psychological and physical abuse,  no matter how it is ‘covered up’ and ‘masked’ within this reality.

 

It should be fairly obvious how alcohol is promoted and accepted in our society in such a ‘broad spectrum’ so to speak: it keeps slaves happy and sufficiently droned down to be able to never question how this reality works and only care about dumbing people down to be willing to accept the most ludicrous social policies as long as the so-called ‘free choice’ and ‘free will’ are a means to be able to get drunk, get high, get fucked and repeat the next week on a regular /religious basis.

 

Unacceptable, even more so when the physical body is absolutely neglected, not really imagining what the cells of the body are having to go through once they are drenched in alcohol and any other chemical-poisoning in the name of earning an ‘Experience’ – the use of drugs indicate to what extent we have separated ourselves from our physical bodies and believe that it is only ‘here’ to hold as a chemical reactor of experiences that we dare to call happiness, enjoyment, fun, satisfaction and even going as far as ‘getting in touch with yourself’ when it comes to psychotropic drugs.

 

How low have we gone within this reality in the name of drugs? Extremely low hence, here’s some Self Forgiveness to give ourselves an opportunity to review what we have done onto ourselves in the name of our own energy-god experience that alcohol, drugs and sex abuse creates.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take a hierarchical standing within ‘superiority’ for being ‘over any drug/ alcohol/ substance’ abuse – including sugar – while realizing that this process is not only about ‘me bettering myself,’ but expanding the realization of who we have become as life-consuming beings in the name of an experience, such as getting drunk/high which is numbing our senses in the name of what we have accepted and allowed to call ‘fun’ and ‘entertainment.’ I realize that this world won’t be ‘done with drugs’ until every human is able to realize the actual detrimental effects that such drugs/substance abuse creates at a physical and mind level.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the use of alcohol as a way to ‘have fun’ that is socially acceptable simply because it is sold in your corner shop, which I have then equated to ‘it is safe to do it – otherwise, why would ‘my government’ want to poison me?’ without realizing that in a world where money moves the threads of every single being and manifestation in the name of power/ control over reality, we cannot possibly assume that everything that we buy/ consume is ‘safe’ and ‘not harmful’ while such assumption is deliberately wanting to neglect and ignore the facts about human decay that are stemming from alcohol abuse, which means that everything that I have ever deemed as ‘safe’ because ‘it’s sold in stores’ I have accepted and allowed simply because of faith and trust upon others while neglecting FACTS and actual Consequences of such substances in reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate ‘having a good time’ to taking some form of drug, drink alcohol or take any other chill pill to ‘feel just fine,’ without ever considering the irreparable damage that I am inflicting upon my body whenever I consume any substance that I abuse in the name of personal satisfaction as an euphoric experience of which I am completely oblivious as to what are the actual consequences as harm that I am inflicting myself with when using and abusing substances. I realize that I have made things ‘0kay’ in my reality because they are ‘socially acceptable,’ and ‘everyone does it,’ which makes me ponder what else have I accepted in the name of it being ‘socially acceptable’ and it making me a deliberate sheep and follower of a system of enslavement and abuse, such as the capitalistic system wherein I actually pay for my own slow death the moment that I pay for drugs to ‘have fun’ for some time, while having long lasting effects at a physical level out of a moment of self-indulgence.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to ask forgiveness to my body, to every single cell that I neglected the moment that I only sought to ‘have fun’ and inducing chemicals into it that had detrimental effects in an immediate moment, which is how we can numb ourselves from the actual physical experience that we put ourselves as our physical body through the moment that we aim to ‘live’ through Experiences – without realizing that Energy as Experiences is Not Living, but actually abusing the physical in the name of personal interest as instant gratification.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make this entire system of drug consumption which includes entertainment, information, media, advertisement, religions, spirituality as a constant seeking for ‘bettering’ myself either through deluding myself with drugs, knowledge, information, self-talk or positive thinking which are all self-induced forms of abuse in the name of personal satisfaction while neglecting the reality that we are all living in, wherein any form of experience is at the expense of the very use/ abuse of life substance as who we really are, which causes a massive delegation of our physical-breath power to the diminishing of ourselves to a single ‘positive experience’ such as the one that we get to have when drinking alcohol, taking drugs, praying, praising some deity, doing charity, meditating, talking to god/ self as the mind and seeking to mimic the lives of the rich and famous that seem to have a never-ending life of eternal satisfaction, without realizing that such lives are essentially propagated and sponsored by the elites to promote a way of living that is associating life with consumption/ abuse of substances, as this has proven to be the best weapon to keep the masses silenced and obeying.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately induce self-harm toward myself and others in the name of ‘fun’ and ‘partying’ through the use and abuse of substances like alcohol, drugs and any other ‘legal pharma-suit-to-kill’ that can give me a temporary high and experience of ‘feeling great’ for a moment, while neglecting the very breaths that I am squandering and essentially eating up in the name of personal satisfaction such as ‘getting high’ and ‘having fun’ as a ‘cool mix’ that has been accepted within society as nowadays’ way to ‘have a good time,’ which makes it obvious how abuse is inherent to anything that we have dubbed as ‘good time/ positive/ enjoyment’ through the use and abuse of external points such as drugs and people alike.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to label self-abuse as ‘free choice’ and ‘free will,’ which is the standard used by individuals to justify their ability to consume drugs and even ‘spite the system’ through consuming illegal drugs within the belief that such action will – in any way – ‘liberate them’ from the so-called ‘oppression’ in reality, while in fact the only thing that is being perpetuated is the constant opposition and conflict toward a world that is self-created = we are all responsible for everything that we could deem as limiting and subjugating to a ‘hierarchical power,’ which is only us subjugating ourselves to a monetary system that is does Not care about life and supporting a dignified living for all, but deliberately promotes self abuse as a way to maintain ourselves limited and caged within a very narrow spectrum of reality – which reveals that we have been the only ones that have accepted a ‘lifestyle of abuse’ as something that is cool and socially acceptable, while neglecting the harm that is being inflicted at a physical level and toward other beings when ‘making it acceptable’ to consume alcohol/ drugs within society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to apparently ‘spite the system’ such as family, society, government/ laws by consuming ‘illegal drugs’ without realizing that if they were really a threat to promote an actual emancipation of beings, they would have been eradicated from society and any form of market – yet because they represent the greatest weapon of control and temporary fear-reliever, they are accepted as an apparent surreptitious market and industry – yet having great weight upon global economy as drugs represent one of the greatest markets with the most profit that goes un-checked and unnoticed – apparently – due to the extensive amounts of money that are involved within such so-called ‘criminal activities’ – which once again proves the reverse psychology within beings wherein: everything that is deemed to be ‘wrong’ and ‘bad’ and ‘opposing the law,’ will be embraced and promoted as a ‘self-liberating’ way to ‘be free’ and ‘be joyful’ – while neglecting that this represents falling in the very trap carefully built to enroll people within chemical addictions that become a promoter for passivity and acceptance of this reality ‘as is,’ which is no different to how spirituality promotes ‘surrendering to the here now moment’ and neglecting any form of self-responsibility toward the individual within society and the individual’s life itself, beginning with considering HOW am I harming my physical body with consuming substances that are obviously detrimental to my physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘oppose the system’ and be an ‘activist’ while using alcohol, drugs and any other illegal abuse of substances as a way to reinforce my so-called antagonism toward society/ the system, which reveals that I am a perfectly mind-controlled drone that is willing to create resistance toward a system that requires such conflict to continue thriving in the same stagnant position of continual disregard toward life – without ever questioning how it is that opposition and protesting against the system has never ever had an actual effect on this world as a living-change that affects every single being in reality, which proves that I as an ‘activist’ and ‘system basher’ was only seeking my personal satisfaction and gratification to be able to deem myself to be ‘free’ while neglecting that it was through the very use and abuse of substances that I was already making a statement of: ‘I don’t really care about anyone else but me and my fun’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a religious drinker/binger in the name of personal satisfaction as a way to proclaim that ‘I am a free being! I have free will! I have free choice! I can do whatever the fuck I want!’ While obviously neglecting every bit of life that I abused in the name of such desire and need to create an Experience of ‘power’ as the ‘moreness’ of myself through deifying energy as ‘who I am’ as such fleeting moments and experiences, while defying the physical living substance that I use and simply consume as a fuel to my own personal delusions, which is absolutely unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to promote drug consumption as a way to ‘get in touch with yourself’ which was actually only promoting ‘get drunk, get high and forget about your living reality that you breathe in’ – which is in itself proving that I have become nothing else but a single self-seeking individual that is willing to do ‘anything’ for a moment of ‘peace’ and ‘happiness’ and ‘love’ which have all proven to be the very keys to the enslavement of this reality, creating and supporting the existence of a passive and ignorant human being toward all-aspects of reality that are outside of the self-obsessed culture that we have become in reality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to link the use of drugs and alcohol to sex and call it ‘sexy’ which means that I have been sufficiently brainwashed through media, books and everything that indicates that I am willing to accept self abuse in the name of personal satisfaction as the fleeting moment that becomes sex when stemming from mind-stimulation which in no way constitutes an actual physical Real expression of reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that through consuming drugs, alcohol and any other substance it is possible to ‘escape from myself,’ without realizing that it is actually within facing myself and supporting me to walk my own mind as fears and desires to ‘be free,’ that I can in-fact free myself from my own mind-limitation that is the only one that seeks such type of entertainment and ‘satisfaction’ in the name of a temporary band-aid to the existential doom that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish who I am to a single fleeting moment wherein I lose all integrity as a human being while allowing me to become obsessed and possessed with the chemical influences that a single substance can create in the entirety of my human body, which reveals that I have in fact never considered the very life that allows me to continue breathing in this world and that I have only become my own enemy while having to seek ‘outlets’ as ‘diversion’ in order to ‘have fun’ and ‘enjoyment’ in separation of myself, which means that I have accepted and allowed myself to become nothing else but a mind-drone that seeks an experience at all times, while neglecting the fact that who we really are is here as breath as ourselves, in every moment that we allow the mind to be quiet yet remain self directive in our living-reality, which is absolutely possible if we walk a process to do so.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is now so automated as a system, that no one can remember what started it and no one cares – because a good scare gives a physical response, a physical high, so as to get Drugs for Free – just by producing your own Fear is Heaven on Earth.

I commit myself to show that the body is always in agony due to the Mind feeding on it in various response patterns, forcing the body to produce chemicals in many ways to keep the experience of the Mind Bubble to NOT see reality – producing, just like with the use of drugs, a dreamlike state – while calling the dream of the mind real, and calling the physical that is real, a dream.

I commit myself to show that Breathing Here without using the MIND, being physical – will show how fear is a MIND JOB based on a physical addiction to the body response to the fear.” Bernard Poolman [+]

 

Thus, I commit myself to continue exposing the truth of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as energetic vampires that seek an experience out of virtually anything in this reality, in the name of personal satisfaction and a fleeting moment of so-called fun and enjoyment that is in no-way in relation to the physical reality that is here, tangible, breathable and doesn’t require a specific ‘state of being’ to exist.

 

I commit myself to reveal how one is able to live and exist here as a physical being without having to constantly be seeking ways to ‘feel better’ and ‘have fun’ through using/ consuming substances, alcohol, drugs or create a deliberate experience in order to satisfy ‘the senses’ which is no different to believing that who we are is eternal bliss and fueling positive thinking to create such perpetual state of actual self abuse that neglects the physical reality that is burnt as fuel in order to keep such self-created mechanisms going.

 

I commit myself to expose and reveal the ability to live without seeking for the next greatest excitement and having to be constantly living up for a future moment of ‘enjoyment’ through the use and consumption of substances, and instead show how the acceptance of self as breath here is the solution to all the problems/ desires/ experiences that would have gotten anyone to consume alcohol/ drugs, as all desires, wants and needs are created at a mind level which I am able to stand one and equal to.

 

I commit myself to promote a system – the Equal Money System – that supports all life in Equality, that supports actual living self-expression wherein no drugs, no alcohol will have to be produced as there will be no need to seek for an alternate experience other than the ability to live as heaven on earth for the very first time in our existence, as I realize that all drugs have been an attempt to mimic and false-represent a true well being that we are actually able to work for as a collective, as humanity in order to establish a Living Reality that doesn’t consume life, but supports Life as Life itself.

 

“I commit myself to show that the Human Race is yet to Wake Up and that all Mind Jobs of Self-Realization are just ways used to find a better chemical producer by the Flesh on which to continue the High of the Addiction called Personality/Individuality. It is like the Robbing of the physical flesh of its resources, as constant raping of Life, just to have Feeling – like being on Drugs.
I commit myself to show that these Addictions to substances is all the Human has ever been – and that at the moment, few will have the resolve to Break the Addictions. Fortunately, Death ends this – but, what is visited upon the children, generation after generation, is atrocities of magnitudes yet to be Realized.” – Bernard Poolman [+]

 

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Day 37: The Opium of the People

 

A cold realization – yet another one in this process – in relation to Religion. I had become such a blatant hater of the religion I was born into and then, fascinatingly enough, sought others to fulfill ‘my needs’ that were based on any type of philosophy and practice wherein I could create a ‘bridge’ toward a relationship with a god/ source/ higher self and ‘fulfill my mission in life.’ I’ve written before about it in the various spirituality-related blogs  and it’s great to realize that there is still a lot to understand about this reality, and that I can take a lot of my words back to self through Self Forgiveness on this post in relation to how much I have judged reality as the ‘opium of the masses’ without understanding why we actually required to be  sedated with the illusion of god/ heaven/ happiness in the afterlife in order to not end up killing each other due to our Real Nature. Yes,  as shocking as it is: we required God and following Religions, Spirituality or any other Movement that promoted the reunion with the ideal of benevolence that could instill – on a parallel mode – Fear as a way to control our real heavy-duty evil nature.

It’s fascinating that I saw the word opium coming up yesterday and I could not pin point what was it all about, until today that I heard an interview that explains Religions and their key-role within the development of our civilization. Then Marx’s quote about Religions came up and realized that we truly had no idea about ourselves until now. With this, I clarify I am in no way justifying or now supporting religion – as anything in this world, it is part of the enslavement that We Created for ourselves and that we were definitely requiring it in order to not go absolutely haywire against each other.

It is interesting as I had realized this point partially, when seeing how people with scarce resources – poor people – could be the most angry and spiteful toward the system yet remained appeased due to one stronghold in their morals: religion, the idea that they had to be good/ do good in order to get to heaven. The idea of heaven then becomes such a powerful dream and desire that is able to instill fear – as the opposite force of the happy ideal of fulfillment – through creating necessary threats to make it clear that:you had to love your neighbor in order to get to be with god in heaven. That was, of course, the heaven of ‘your choice’ which was created and related to specific groups of people in this world as humanity.

Now for the entire explanation, hear about why the inherent nature of man is Evil and enlighten yourself about the exact detail of why, how and how come it is that we haven’t seen and realized this before throughout human history. Brilliant.

 

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge anything in this world just because of what I read and what I got to understand as knowledge that seemed like common sense to me, but never really knew ‘why’ a point like Religion, in this case, was a necessary ailment to prevent the actual inherent nature of man as evil from taking over our reality to such an extent, that we could have most likely exterminated ourselves long time ago.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Religion was pure evil, while in fact it is me as humanity that is the real evil and required of a handbrake as fear-installment through Religion in order to create a point of morality to always seek to do good to eventually get to a heaven wherein we could meet ‘god’ and live happily ever after – all of this because of our real nature being that of self-interest, desire for power and being willing to do anything to get to a position that would fulfill that self-centered egoistical nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge religion based on deeming it as brainwashing, without seeing that it is not about ‘Religion’ as a man-made creation in itself, but about Human Nature, our nature that is the actual effect of the primordial separation that ensued the moment that we separated ourselves from being one and equal as life – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to be so ‘sure’ about something such as deeming, judging and denigrating any aspect of reality as something that is ‘bad’ and ‘wrong’ and ‘abusive’ without taking such words first back to myself and dare to investigate how come an apparent point of ‘separated-reality’ is able to be ‘evil to me’ and ‘bad toward me,’ such a religion ‘wanting to manipulate me’ and forgetting about asking the very key-question to all aspects in our reality: Who  have been the creators of religion, of spirituality, of movements, of capitalism, of the banking system, of the political elite, of the corporations: we have, human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why I hated religion and then sought religion as a way to make myself less miserable, without realizing that the relationship that I had sought to create toward god was in essence, the relationship that I had separated myself from as god, as one and equal, which is the essence of separation that we have created, recreated and multiplied in all the plethora of points that we have acquiesced as part of our reality, without ever really questioning ‘why’ and how come we require the idea of a god to exist, and how come god it is separate from ourselves if it is god, which should be an ever-present omniscient type of concept.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Religion as the ‘opium of the masses’ without ever really understanding why Religion existed as a key-aspect in our relationship to ourselves due to the inherent evil nature that exists as ourselves, human beings, hence religion being an actual regulator of our inherent evil nature to prevent us from killing one another in the name of power and greed over others.

 

I realize that the only way to walk this process is through accepting humbleness as self, because we cannot possibly continue existing in an elevated idea of self based on knowledge and information as our own spiderweb that was spun, without ever considering that every single point of separation as knowledge and information is actually demonstrating an aspect of ourselves that we created an experience toward, and that must be now restored/ given back to self through Self Forgiveness, as there is no other way to get to a point of equal-terms and clarity as Self once that we are now witnessing the damage done as the result of our own creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create separation upon separation through judging the initial judgment that religion entails as a point of separation from god/source/ substance as life, that we then sough to ‘reunite with’ without ever wondering: why and how did we ever then ‘separated’ ourselves from it? How come we have allowed ourselves to fall for a belief and base our entire civilization upon a single judgment that is indicating our separation from any form of actual understanding of how we got ourselves to this point, wherein we are blaming religions for the problems in the world and overlooking the very simplistic aspect of ALL problems in the world: they have all been man-made.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself in words as creations that I then dared to judge, blame and  base myself in comparison-to, belief-upon, belittle, antagonize and even hate without ever realizing that nothing was just ‘miraculously’ placed here by a ‘hand of god’ – I see, realize and understand that this reality has been my creation, in all bits, parts and even that which I had promised to myself to never ‘be a part of’ – it has always been me.

 

I realize that Self-Forgiveness is the ability for me to no longer be bound to the chain-massacre of judgment upon judgment and reaction upon reaction as the infinite ways in which I could continue delegating my point of responsibility toward ‘something/ someone’ outside separate from me – from god, to politician, to CEO, to bankers, to spiritual leader, to the pope, to parents, to teachers, to kings, queens and any other person that I deemed was ‘responsible’ for the fuckup that is here as this world, missing out completely the basic common sense realization which is: it’s always been myself creating and perpetuating separation as the initial after-shock from that primordial separation from being one and equal, from which this negative experience that emerged, became ‘who I am’ as a separate being, which is and has been the starting point of ourselves as creation.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wage war against me all the time, to separate myself even further every time that I sought to feel better about myself, to ‘be closer to god’ which is in essence the perpetual enslavement that we all became a part of – either through religion, spirituality and participating in any form of movements – as well as sex and following money – all forms of desiring to create a point of positivity and a good experience in ourselves, that could get us ‘back to’ that initial fulfillment that exists when ‘being whole’ as the sum of all separation that currently exist – therefore

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is only through writing myself, applying Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application that I can go stopping all forms of separation toward myself and walk the necessary process to stand one and equal as that realization of completion/being one and equal,  through stopping the recreation of separation as an energetic experience within me, which begins at the level of a thought that is seeking to be ‘more’ and ‘feel better’ about myself and in relation to ‘others,’ within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the initial point that lead me to seek to be a part of a religion and seek ‘god’ and establishing a communicating with ‘god,’ as that ideal of perfection and ‘greatness’ which had always actually been me seeking to communicate with myself – yet always existing only as an ‘idea’ of myself toward the idea of an almighty god that could ‘save me,’ without ever being able to see the obvious: there is no god and I’ve done this all to myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within this point of righteousness toward religion, seek to make myself ‘feel better’ about myself whenever I would rejoice in criticizing it and deeming myself to be ‘more intelligent than that,’ while missing out the obvious: any time/ moment that I sought to ‘find myself,’ I was participating in the same religious construct that I judged as the opium of the masses, just because I had pondered knowledge and information above all common sense within this reality.

 

I realize that the relationship that I sought to create with god, was always seeking to create a relationship with myself, which is now in the process of stopping the energetic relationship that I have created toward my own thoughts, emotions, feelings accumulated as memories that defined ‘who I am,’ and walking the process of disentangling myself from all the bits and parts that I have separated myself into within the belief that: I was incomplete and required  god and the illusion of eternal life in heaven to exist, wherein I could finally be ‘free’ and ‘happy,’ which is the reason why I actually accepted all the abuse and suffering in this world, diminishing this reality to being just ‘hell’ in my mind, which was always self created by individual and collective participation due to our inherent beingness that emerged from that primordial separation that we have ‘forgotten’ about, yet recreate every single day that we neglect the fact that any being that is Here as part of this reality is equal to and one with ourselves.

 

I see, realize and understand that it is my/our duty to now walk the process of actually Living as equals in this world, which is a process that lived by self every moment of breath that I have been able to effectively write out, self forgiven, applied self corrective application and walk the process of self, here as a breathing living being that is existing as part of a social organism that requires actual laws, policies and structures that support life in equality – for all to finally live as gods, as creators of a world that we can in fact live together in without desiring something in separation of self as motivation.

 

I commit myself to walk the process of realizing how it is that through me giving myself back to myself everything that I have separated myself from, that I can in fact stop all forms of abuse and negligence that stem from the single point point of friction that I allow within myself to exist as in relation to religion, spirituality and any other form of movement that stood as a yearning and desire to be ‘whole again,’ without realizing that such wholeness has always been here as myself in every moment that I am able o exist as breath and not give into an experience of self that is based on conflict and the accumulation of my own thoughts to ‘seek o be more/ seek something new’ and identifying the fact that all ‘temptations’ are in fact ourselves as points wherein we haven’ established ourselves as being a directive living principle at all times.

 

I commit myself to walk this process of self equality and oneness wherein I now take on the various components of myself as an individual within this reality, wherein all identifications and associations at a collective level in various groupings according to religions, cultures, political affiliations and self-identification movements are walked within the principle of equality and oneness to stop separation from

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I commit myself to expose and explain how a religion or any other form of seeking to be whole/ complete again is an actual process that can be walked in a written manner through a personal process of self-realization wherein such equality and oneness is walked as a physical process of writing out, applying self forgiveness and self corrective application for all the ways in which I have separated myself from as relationships in he mind, which is how we can learn how I is o exist physically once that all energetic reactions against each other cease to exist.

 

I commit myself to reveal how any form of judgment toward religion or any other aspect of our reality is actually a point that we all are responsible for and that instead of judging, we can walk as a necessary process of self-forgiveness in order o ensure that we understand Why and How we created such separation, to now be able to go stopping ourselves from participating in any energetic games wherein we all sought to get closer to god.

 

I commit myself to walk in Self Honesty which implies: walking as breath in every moment to ensure I am in fact supporting myself to stand one and equal as the physical breathing that confirms: I am here.

 

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IGod

Great Interview that explains the role that religions played within human civilization, as well as understanding Freedom and Imprisonment within/ as the Human Physical Body

Atlanteans – Why the Nature of Man is inherently Evil – Part 33

Blogs:

Glorifying the Devil as the Nature of God: Day 36
Day 36: Heaven on Earth

Man Know Thyself – By Bernard Poolman

Day 2: Perfection Game


Day 10: Money and Politeness

 

As I walked the point of politeness as a positive experience within me and now that I am realizing to what extent everything that we have done/lived by has been linked to Money and the functioning of money in this world, I’ve seen how I’ve lived as a ‘polite person’ without identifying the actual positive ‘kick’ I would get out of it, yet this ‘attribute’ was linked to an inherent desire to be part of the ‘polite people in the world’ which, if reading back in my previous entry – were ‘well educated people’ that were mostly rich/ having more than enough money to live ‘well.’

 

This ties in with my choice of careers as well wherein my inclinations toward the world of ‘arts and culture’ lead me to believe that I had a more ‘refined’ taste than other members in my family who would not be any type of art enthusiasts or well-cultured in the usual ‘intellectual ways’ that I would deem people to be in such ‘social circles.’ So, when I began realizing that only a certain type of people was into art/ music and how they mostly were people with a certain education/ background that lead them to have such ‘refined’ tastes and views on life, I realized that I had to equate that, that I had to become part of such circles in order to achieve my desires/ dreams that I had formulated back then, which were pretty much linked to having enough money to travel around the world and the usual stuff that we dream of as young kids growing up into the ‘adult world.’

 

So these ‘refined manners’ were acquired from interacting with people outside of my family. I recall admiring people that were ‘well cultured’ and would express themselves with such a vocabulary that denoted they had read tons of books throughout their life. I would enjoy going to my aunt’s house for that reason, it was filled with books and we could go to museums and do stuff that I never did with my parents. The same when enjoying talking to their friends and also when being with parents of my friends and partner, they were all ‘well-cultured’ people, even teachers in literature and history and linguistics, which made me want to become part of that circle of people that would have dinners with wine while telling intellectual jokes and having some delicious Italian salad while eating nuts. If you have seen the movie ‘the hours’ I wanted to be like the character played by Meryl Streep, and somehow I would picture myself feeling equally empty even if I had achieved such ‘status’ in my world. But anyways, it was that ‘realm’ wherein I envisioned myself as being fulfilled.

 

What was the way to go there? Becoming equal and one to how I would see these people would behave, talk and experience themselves. So, I enjoyed reading from an early age and linked this to being/ becoming a cultured person, even if I read mostly fiction novels for most of the time.

There was also a time when I was a lot younger around 9 years old when I would attend these luxurious dinners with my parents wherein I got to experience what ‘being in society’ was, and how I was simply acting like a full grown up at that age. I would observe how everyone behaved and even though I knew the whole thing was a façade and really fake, I would play along trying to be charismatic to be equally liked/ accepted the same way that my sisters were. I guess that having a taste of what it means to have a ‘good life’ left a mark on me, even if at the time we were under extreme financial strain, all of those trips and luxury was paid for according to a certain position my father took for a while in a national organization. It was such an awkward experience because we did not have much money then, but we were in these pompous dinners and staying in master suites, literally stealing the room from rockstars staying in the same hotel. I guess that’s the most ‘taste’ I’ve had of what it is to have such luxury and comfort, as well as people praising you all of a sudden by association. Man, it is really something that ‘traps’ you for a while.

 

I guess that if I had not had such experiences, I would have not been aiming for such positions in a not so conscious way – or I didn’t want to fully acknowledge because of not wanting to be deemed as greedy. It’s cool to expose this as there is obviously so much that I held as an imprint on these trips wherein ‘the good life’ was suddenly my reality for a moment. That’s where I got the association of ‘polite’ as in being a ‘politician,’ because that’s how I identified the way that people at such conventions would act like/ interact with each other: in a polite, refined and ‘safe’ manner which is not being too ‘open’ yet not ‘too quiet’ as if there was a problem with you. I learned how having a constant smile made you being liked – I could not fathom why people would always say the same things to you ‘oh how pretty are you!’ It was a bit traumatic having to go through such disparity at such a young age, really. When coming back home after such events and trips – which were only two or three only during two years – it was like getting off of some really nice dream where you could ‘have it all’ and forget about all the actual financial troubles that my father was going through at the time, which I have shared and how it would also preoccupy me extensively as in fearing losing the house and everything.

 

So, to sum up, politeness was for me a way to establish and place myself on the track to become someone of ‘importance’ and in a certain ‘circle in society’ that I wanted to be part of, which was mostly the ‘intellectual circles’ wherein I could have enough vocabulary and presence to mingle with such people. That’s how both my career choices were linked to such cultural world, even after knowing that making a lot of money out of it would not be as easy – as I had initially thought. I got to admire mostly people that had written books already and that I knew I could ‘learn from’ in my attempt to become equal to them. And this all entailed having a secured-financial ‘freedoom’ while doing ‘what I like,’ which was either writing or creating art. I knew how being polite would lead you to get preferential treatment as well, and I sought that, creating a certain aura of power/ control and importance wherein I made sure people would ‘pay attention to me’ – yes.

 

Later on I went into the controlled opposite, but that’s another story wherein further suppressions were linked mostly in relation to judgments toward money – as I have briefly explained above. What I have walked here were dreams and desires that I had kept and was preparing myself for when I was in my early teens; I even thought of becoming a financial advisor just because of knowing how much money they would make, and all of those decisions were only based on desiring having a preferential position in the system wherein I could have enough money to travel around the world, as that’s what I really wanted to do or my ‘idea’ of what happiness in this world is about.

 

Now I have realized within the 23rd Interview by Anu how such elaborated words are definitely only for the ego of the intellectuals and it’s absolutely true – I mean, I created myself as that for the sake of belonging and making myself a space in such circles that I later on absolutely abhorred and almost completely ostracized myself from – going from admiring rich people and the power they had to opposing them and even blaming ‘them’ for the current status of the world, that’s been my life with money which I had not exposed to such extent from this money-perspective before. However I see how it is definitely the ‘missed factor’ that I probably withheld from sharing because of not wanting to be seen as greedy or superfluous/ self-interest driven person while acknowledging that we all are, and we all sought our ways into the system in one way or another. Everyone would enjoy having such financial comfort and power – even myself that later on tried to deny it can only recognize that I did, and ‘my dreams’ were based upon getting to a certain ‘state’ wherein I could write or do some works while having all time left to explore the world.

 

Well, it’s easy to dream and part of this entire process is to take all the points here back to Earth wherein I land myself on the ground to then see how a single seemingly ‘normal’ expression like being polite is in fact having all of this – and probably a lot more – behind it as a conditional input for me to express such ‘politeness’ as ‘who I am,’ which is linked to how I had defined myself according to the ‘social stratus’ that I wanted to be a part of within this world system.

 

I still have a lot of ‘points’ to sort out in relation to and toward money and my career and who I want to be and what must be one, mostly because of – as I mentioned before – going to the opposite polarity of judging rich people, judging the ‘power’ that some beings had to manipulate others because of money, judging the attitudes rich people would present while neglecting the fact that I had sought to be ‘just that’ as well. All of this while deliberately shoving off the reality that I knew and was well aware was going on in this world.

During this time, I managed to make of poverty and misery something that was just a constant part of my ‘landscape’ yet continuing to seek my personal fulfillment. I could have long talks with my then contemporaries that were sociologists and economists, literature people and talk about social policies and the government and whatnot, but we never ever had an actual definitive realization on how We were absolutely responsible for it. That would be yet another part of my ‘socialization’ wherein sitting in cafés talking for long hours would lead us anywhere, yet believing that we were ‘changing the world’ with our bright intellectual ideas and reunions. Lol

 

So – time for self forgiveness and self-corrective application to disengage from this politeness that I have separated myself from according to all of these memories that I’ve held within myself for the purpose of someday, being able to correlate/ cross-reference if I had ‘made it’ within this world system according to the expectations that I placed onto myself.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make of myself a ‘polite person’ and allowing it to create an inherently positive experience wherein I became part of the ones that are looking forward to become part of a certain elite in this world, which in my case was the ‘intellectual/ well cultured’ people that can certainly only exist in a particular social stratus where money is affluent and where money is not a concern. Therefore, by me acting and playing out being the ‘polite person,’ I was in essence training myself to be part of the ‘polite world’ which I had linked to higher-social stratus of well educated/ well cultured people/ rich people/ intellectuals, because that’s what I wanted to be and ‘where I wanted to belong to.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then create an inherent desire to be and become someone ‘superior’ within the social standards which is why I fed myself so much with knowledge and information as I had given value/ worth to knowledge and information as my ‘talents’ when realizing that I could make a living out of it and still get to an elevated social stratus wherein I could be financially stable and have more than that in order to have a life of luxury and traveling as the dreams that I had created in my mind while neglecting this reality in its entirety.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear losing all the relationships at an intellectual level with writers, sociologists, historians, linguists, and any other person that I deemed as ‘intellectual/ superior’ when I decided to step aside from that world and going into a more ‘noble’ and ‘meek’ path of not wanting to be part of the ‘high spheres in society,’ which came after a particular event that changed my view/ perspective about money and recognition and made a decision that ‘I didn’t want that for my life.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to want to be part of the ‘intellectual people’ as that’s what I gave myself value as, knowledge and information, accumulating data that I could later on speak about and be regarded as ‘important.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to play out being the ‘polite person’ among people that I wanted to ‘keep’ as relationships because of already being scheming me being part of such social-circles that I sought to be a part of, mostly because of regarding that I could make a load of money with it while doing something that I regarded as ‘humane’ as possible – which is culture/ words/ arts/ music, etc.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to increment my desire to know and prepare myself within specific careers simply out of the desire to accumulate as much knowledge as possible that I could ‘sell’ as my profession and earn good money out of it. In this I forgive myself that I had denied the fact that my life, my attitude, my politeness had been having money and the desire for money as an obvious drive in the background, while me denying so because in such realms, people seemed to be “humble” about their careers and knowledge – yet having a very affluent type of living, which I also desired to be like/ experience myself as: having money yet not being a ‘show off’ about it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link a proficient vocabulary to being a ‘well cultured person/ well educated/ refined/ well mannered/ polite’ which I have immediately identified as something ‘valuable’ within a person, which is identifying knowledge and information as ‘valuable’ on top of the one and only value that exists which is life and Life cannot ever be knowledge.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ever criticized/ judged people on how they would place value in their possessions without realizing that I was doing the same toward myself as my own mind in the form of knowledge and information and creating a value toward myself according to it, separating myself absolutely from the one and only reality that is here as myself as my physical body, as life, the life that I absolutely neglected in such times simply because being too busy building myself and preparing/ scheming my way to climb ‘the ladder of success.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blind myself with believing that my parents were unconditionally supporting my decision in life, without realizing that they were ‘happy’ about it because I was aiming to be a ‘rich’ person or having more than enough money and that my aspirations and actions were leading to becoming this ‘important person in society,’ which is why they started reacting when I stopped creating/ forming relationships in society and retreated, because this was linked to me losing all contact with such ‘intellectual people’ and losing the opportunity to be ‘a part of them.’ Now I realize that it was linked to money, to securing my ‘place in the world’ that I also deemed to prefer above any other professions or activities in the world. I was ready to praise myself as knowledge and information only, which I now see is the absolute manifestation of self-interest because I never considered ‘life’ in that, at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create and build myself within a particular personality wherein I made sure that people would ‘pay attention to me and give me a position of ‘importance’ even at face value, which was linked to my ‘scheming’ of positioning myself within a certain area in society that I could live ‘well’ of and still fulfill my desires to be someone ‘important’ in my world.

 

I commit myself to stand in a position in this world wherein I can truly make use of these attributes in a way that is best for all, because I see and realize that if I had personal interest as a driving force to be ‘preparing’ for such world, I could do the same now with having the starting point the absolute drive to support myself and all beings equally within a position within the world system wherein I no longer ‘fear’ it/ oppose it as some type of rebellion and antagonism stemming from criticism toward money/ power in this world. I realize that being in a position of power in this world cannot possibly exist within me unless I stand as one and equal to all – which means that whatever I have to do within this world system, I realize that I am perfectly able to do so, with having the starting point of doing/ living/ acting and creating myself as someone that can stand within the system to establish a system that is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to use these acquired ‘attributes’ and experiences as a point of reference to see and realize how I am capable of standing in a position that I had deemed as ‘superior’ yet now having a principle to actually stand for, which is life in equality and oneness – and not just following ‘dreams’ of fame, glory and success that I formulated in my mind which I knew would lead me to feel equally empty, because I obviously was not considering the whole in that equation.

 

I realize that the only true-fulfillment that I can create for myself is stemming from the standing and consideration of an overall well-being for humanity, that is my ‘true passion’ and as I got to know from some feedback at the farm ‘I’ve found my purpose in life,’ and the proof of this is that I had not been as consistent toward any particular ‘movement’ or ‘phase’ in my life as I have now within this process, because it is not just ‘another phase’ in my life of seeking my way into the system, it is The Phase and only phase wherein I dare to face myself and take self responsibility for my creation. And I realize that this entails actual work, actual self-commitment that strengthens every day the more I see, I realize and understand the extent to which we have enslaved ourselves to the absolute separation that stops here as myself.

 

Thus, I commit myself to stop any personal interest that stood only in the name of personal glory and success and instead use what is here as myself as a means to establish what is best for all in this world, which I hereby commit myself to walk into its completion as I know that I won’t ever be actually ‘fulfilled’ until this entire world is equalized as myself as who I really am, and for that there is Actual work to do and a long road to walk.

 

 

Suggested support:

An Interview on how when you really have it ALL and you then see yourself in the absolute opposite, your life changes, ‘who you are’ is gone. It is proof of how much we can also disregard within the experience of those in ‘power’ and apparent ‘control’ of their lives – a very cool interview that supported me to open up these points with more ease, to not judge what I have lived and become, but to see it for what it is: unacceptable forms of separation we’ve created in this world:

Life Review – When you Lose your Money – you Lose your Friends

Blogs of the day:


Day 9: Politeness

I’ve been having in the back of my head how I developed the survival system of behaving politely/ in a socially acceptable manner since I was a little child. This is mostly to how I was raised by my parents and other socioeconomical factors that have created definitive ‘marks’ on who I am as my behavior.

 

The image that comes to my mind is a picture that I saw once in my photo album from my first years alive and I am placing a napkin hanging from the collar of my t-shirt with a rather righteous/haughty/ fancy look and my mother is next to me looking at the camera. Another one is a picture of me with a paper-made crown sitting on a sofa, like a ‘throne’ for a queen when I was just 2 and a half years old; there’s another one of me sinking my hands in a bucket of water while my then nanny is crouching down and looking at me, probably warning me about getting all wet and that I should not sink all my arms into the bucket of water that was probably as tall as my waist line. My father’s car is in the background which means I wanted to clean it just the way he does, I was only 3 years old then. There’s also pictures of me having these huge headphones and sitting next to a tape recorder while having my mouth open, which means I was singing. Well, all those points developed into defined personalities such as being always holding a napkin on my hand while eating as a symbol of ‘proper manners’ and eating behavior, being a cleanliness freak, being a ‘music lover’ and being a self-righteous ego on two feet within a sense of having some domain or specialness in me. And I was only 2 to 3 years old in all of those photos.

 

So this point came up as something to write about when listening to some interviews today in relation to observing behavior, which is one dimension that I have not fully delved into looking myself as behavior linked to the personalities that I developed throughout the years. I tested out a word to write about today and ‘manners’ came up which is then how this whole point opened up.

 

Being polite is one of the main ‘characteristics’ and behavior that I play out when being with people and ‘in public,’ and the image of my father playing to be a polite soldier comes up, actually my mother would call me something like little tin soldier when I was a little girl, which probably explains a lot as well. Okay but not to deviate from the point. My father would always let us know to ‘be still!’ and basically both my parents educated us in such a way that we would act like little grown up people.

 

This politeness got imprinted ‘heavily’ later on from when I was 6-7 years when socializing with my parents friends whom I perceived as ‘more than’ because of essentially having quite a lot of money and having these huge houses and living in cool residential areas that I would enjoy going to play to. In that, I would perceive such world as everyone being ‘polite’ – which is how I’ve linked it to being ‘political’ in the character/way of being that politicians act like, which is basically focusing on presenting a particular façade to play safe all the time when being in public.

 

‘Keeping a good image’ was something also induced by my mother, hers was mostly in the ‘expressive’ aspect of watching my mouth and not being ‘impertinent’ when speaking to people –my father focused on the physical behavior, like telling us to sit properly and crouching down to always pull up my socks and ensuring my shoes are clean. I’m laughing because of how much I simply accepted that as ‘normal’ and that’s why I had such a hard time interacting with other kids because they didn’t give a fuck about manners and being polite or getting their clothes dirty – so I developed a judgmental experience toward anyone that ‘would not be polite’ = being a regular human being, really.

 

Till this day I’ve caught myself going into a reaction the moment that I perceive that someone is Not being polite as in ‘taking advantage of a position’ – like someone wanting to win a place in the queue for something – or getting one step ahead of me to have a better place while waiting for the train, seemingly ‘unnoticeable events’ wherein I have automated responses of criticizing and judging people because of them not being polite.

 

The points that I’ll be walking and opening up are aspects of myself that I had not opened up for having them as ingrained belief systems that I deemed as ‘positive’ and in that, thinking that I should not bother to look at them, without realizing that there is actually a great part of myself ‘hidden’ behind these seemingly cool attributes that I’ve lived so far. As long as there is an entire indoctrination system behind it, I must investigate it, which means that no matter how ‘cool’ I perceive a point that I’m living to be, I must investigate it to make sure that whatever I am building/ creating and establishing myself here as, is based on actual self-understanding of How I got to be ‘who I am’ at the moment – in such case, how ‘manners’ exist as a belief system charged with a positive experience wherein the ‘negative’ is created the moment that I, through my politeness-filter of reality, judge and criticize everyone that I believe are Not polite and within that Not ‘humanly’ enough to interact with.

 

This means that I’ve created of my ‘politeness’ an elitist system wherein I believe that a well-educated being will have certain attributes that make them consider others before them, a way of perpetual altruism that often evokes a ‘good feeling’ out of it, which means it is an energetic-based personality and not an unconditional expression of self, as a sense of neighborism that is acquired within the basic principle and understanding of What’s Best for All as Equals.

 

I’ll be continuing opening up different aspects and dimensions of this ‘manner’ point as the behaviors ingrained with personalities throughout different stages of my life, which I had not opened up in fear of them being almost ‘self-glorifying’ yet suppressed and still existent within me, which means that every time I suppress it, I am recreating it and accepting it as ‘part of myself/ who I am’ without even noticing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as ‘politeness’ as a behavioral pattern that I had deemed to be ‘positive’ and ‘good’ for myself within the belief that being polite is an attribute that all people should live by, as that would make our coexistence ‘easier’ in this world, without considering that it is actually only an experience that I have created based on survival as the improved acceptance that a polite person gets within society and certain socieconomical stratus wherein money dictates the education that a person has, and in that, the behavioral patterns that denote a person’s ‘quality of living’ and parental values at home.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give continuation to a behavioral pattern such as ‘having good manners’ from the starting point of revealing/ showing that ‘I am well educated’ and in that, creating an ideal of who I am as ‘my education’ as ‘my family’ and ‘values’ that I have given to a certain behavior wherein I then judge/ criticize anyone that cannot fit into a category of being well-educated/ polite, without realizing how this is a belief system that I have adopted and continued in the name of representing ‘who I am’ as a configuration based on how my parents wanted us to ‘be’ within the social context wherein high-education, manners and ‘values’ are highly regarded, which would ensure our survival and positioning in the world system within a high-stratus in society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a person with ‘good manners’ is well educate as a synonym of being ‘a good neighbor’/ good person which implies that I have created my own elitist value schemes toward people according to how I see them through my politeness-filter personality, which implies that I will only ‘mingle’ with those that I perceive as educated, well mannered and polite according to how I was taught I should be/ behave as a little child at home.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a superiority experience within me whenever I see myself being ‘polite’ toward people and getting an ‘instant-gratification’ reward such as being thanked for doing something for another which is then implying that my ‘politeness’ is not an unconditional common sensical expression of and as self, but still an energetic personality that I try to keep up to, without realizing that in this, anything that steps out of my ‘politeness schemes’ I judge and criticize as lower/ inept/ rascal/ savage, without realizing that this is how I have had such an immediate judgmental behavior toward people while interacting in reality, due to how I have been conditioned to believe that polite people are ‘worthy’ and the opposite are ‘unworthy,’ in this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize how politeness/ well mannered people is linked within my belief system to having enough money and in a certain social position that I have been taught is ‘more valuable’ than someone that is uneducated/impolite/ rascal/ savage according to the judgments that I learned as the way to denote someone that would probably not have enough money to be ‘well educated’ and in that, accepting the point of discriminating people according to the amount of money they would have, while absolutely neglecting and not even considering why on Earth such polarities even exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having regarded my parent’s imprinting onto myself as ‘good manners’ as something that I had to be grateful for, without realizing the actual belief system as elitism that I accepted and allowed to exist within me when linking good manners to ‘affluent people’ and bad manners/ impolite people to ‘lower class/ moneyless people’ and in that, creating a positive experience toward ‘fellow polite people’ and a negative experience toward ‘impolite people,’ as well as a neutral experience to people that I would perceive as expression-less within not being decidedly polite or impolite, which would be then linked to undefined within my schemes of human categorization according to education and money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a sense of comfort and openness as an experience created upon interacting with someone that I perceive and profile as being ‘well educated/ polite’ within the identification of that which I was taught I should be like and aspire to become, which I accepted as a valuable aspect within human beings which lead me to create a positive experience within myself whenever I behave in a ‘polite manner,’ while creating the exact opposite as a negative experience as the immediate profiling of people that I perceive to be savage/ uneducated/ impolite, which I have accepted to discriminate/ judge in my mind while believing that I didn’t want anything to do with such people, creating the ultimate elitist experience based on manners.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘How I behave’ is who I really am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still perpetuate the ‘ingrained values’ that I acquired at home, that I have kept due to them being seemingly ‘positive attributes’ within my personality, without realizing that it is in these ‘values’ that I have perpetuated the existence of good/ bad, positive and negative as well as neutral experiences toward people according to How I deem them to be within my polite/ impolite schemes, as the manners they present on face value when interacting with people in any given moment.

 

When and as I see myself categorizing someone as polite and creating a positive experience within me toward them, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am accessing my politeness-filter wherein I am valuing and regarding the people as ‘good’ and ‘benevolent’ based on the attitudes and manners that they present. Therefore I realize that I must treat every person equally regardless of how they ‘present’ themselves, as I realize that such manners are a survival-masquerade to remain as ‘worthy’/ ‘valuable’ within a system where money decides who is ‘worthy’ and who is not and seeing good manners as the direct consequences of having money to be well educated, in this creating a positive experience toward people with money.

 

When and as I see myself judging a person as being ‘impolite’/ presenting bad behavior such as ‘bad manners’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am accessing the politeness-personality wherein I am then adjusting my experience to be negative and derogatory toward such being for being seemingly ‘uneducated’ and a ‘rascal’ without considering at all that I am creating such separation based on the link that I’ve created in my mind as ‘bad manners = poor education’ as a symbol to represent lack of money/ being poor, which I have created and associated a negative experience toward.

 

I realize that with me stopping the polite/ impolite judgments toward myself and others, I stop perpetuating the current money system wherein rich/ wealthy creates a positive experience while poverty/ lack of money represents and creates a negative experience, as well as the non-expressive people that I have judged as ‘mediocre’ which are all values I have separated myself from in relation to the same values we have separated ourselves from life through/ as money.

More to come…

 

Blogs of the day:

 

Interview support:

2012: The Secrets of Competition

 

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Jingle-bell solutions are Not ‘Best for ALL’

There’s a very basic point to understand when walking around the Desteni material and everyone’s vlogs and blogs – if you care about life in this world, about the environment, animals, humanity in all its aspects, you’ll resonate with what’s being said and eventually stand up in Equality with us.

Anyone that’s not willing to See the common sense of presenting ‘what is best for all’ is already indicating that they will not give up their individuality and ‘free choice’ which is eventually not giving a fuck about the rest of the world, life, animals or anything around them but satisfying their own guts. What’s best for all is not debatable, it cannot be denied when having this entire world as the direct result of all of us abdicating our self responsibility on this world and only ‘following our greatest excitement.’

Denigrating the truth as the reality of what is here is a self-protective mechanism to preserve ones preferences and apparent free-choices in place, as well as knowledge that is usually given too much value to form oneself as an opinionated person with a certain view on life – any ‘view’ that deviates from what’s best for all is a threat to anyone in this world – as simple as that. May seem totalitarian but that’s how reality is and anything that doesn’t correlate or represent facts but only knowledge that preserves separation will still hold any point of ego in place.

When we say: see for yourself, read the material – it’s about that process of self discovery that I completely agree with as this is how all of us came around Desteni. I spent months reading the forum, watching the videos before I participated fully in it – why/how? because I cared, because I saw how understanding the basics would allow me to have proper ability to discuss what was already clear and known to others there. That was my initial equalizing homework – I saw how effective this was hence I promote it as the way to go when getting to Desteni and/or Equal Money System. Along the way you participate and through that, get supported to understand and clarify all aspects for yourself through your own application.

 

I cannot understand how anyone that is apparently also interested in a solution would be disregarding the presentation and proposal of a system that will be best for all out of nowhere almost in an immediate manner, while remaining in an almost faithful-conviction to other projects and ‘solutions’ that are certainly not taking the whole into consideration.

We do our homework and investigate other solutions, yet the same point is often missed: equality as the life principle that’s best for ALL – no one is considering that the ‘unthinkable’ can actually be done such as reforming the entire monetary system for example and with that, revolutionizing the way every living being exists in this world, to finally get to live.

Examples are when getting to know of Zeitgeist –  from the movie time even before the ‘movement’ – we realized how it was cool information on economy, religions, the world, secret societies etc. as a general debunker of that which was still ‘hidden’ for the majority. Then the movement came without any actual practical solutions other than ditching the current monetary system in its totality and kind of dwelling upon the same territory that OWS (Occupy Movement) is at the moment.

When we investigated the Venus project we saw how the technological aspect of it could be used as well as any other cool innovations for the use of energy, but also realized they weren’t considering ‘what’s best for all’ in any way nor creating any reform to support the actual beingness of the human to become a real considerate individual of what’s best for al. We couldn’t find direct inclusion of those that are currently living in dire conditions within such solution. How could we get to exist in such paradise cities if there are people in this world that don’t even have potable water, food or a house to live in? That should say it all in terms of it being a partial solution that’s not really including everyone in this world.

 

Placing a cross to anything ‘money’ without seeing the equal next to it is indicating that they have to step out of their own prejudices and get to actually reading/ watching/ investigating the material if they are really interested in becoming part of the solution. Again, we’re not here to convince anyone – those who care of fellow beings will listen and understand it – if not right away- will take the time to read, watch, study = dare to care.

 

What happens is people are attracted to the jingle-bell solution of these nice cutting-edge sketches that Fresco envisions without having a look at the actual considerations such project would entail and how it simply won’t work as it’s not based on an overall living-change, but only creating solutions to keep/ maintain the same lifestyle of the human being. By Lifestyle I mean  the inner-experience of the being which is not taken into consideration and is the actual cause of the world being in the condition it is now – the problem is the human beings. So when self responsibility is placed on the plate, it doesn’t look so tasty or something I would ‘enjoy’ doing – it’s not a matter of enjoying it initially, it’s about common sense and directing oneself to live by a principle that’s never been lived in this world. One can only get the gist of it when getting to see how self support works along the walk once one starts living as the principles at hand. I can tell more about it, but it can only be my story, my experience and that is what I’m here to encourage every one to see for themselves once again.

 

None of the current crisis and problems would exist if the human didn’t exist. But because we do, the least thing we can do is create a complete change in the way we live in, to stop desiring to live in opulent make-believe realities and start re-aligning with the actual cycles of the biosphere we live in, this is taking life into consideration. Then money can be equalized as we will not be trading fake mental values – yes as redundant as that may seem – but will simply focus on creating sustainable and effective living environments for all involved: animals, plants, environment and the human being. We can only continue existing as Earthlings, there is no other way – the human greedy being must become Self Honest which is taking into consideration the whole before any other attempt to ‘evolve’  – which is not really existent at this stage.

Because such regard is mostly non-existent in human being, we must create it and this is what Desteni and Equal Money are all about: creating a world that’s best for all in Equality because it has never existed before.

 

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