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252. Self Forgiveness on UnWholeliness

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I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live and align myself to the Law of the Physical that Governs who we are/ what we are as a complete, perfect awareness as Law and instead, having followed through with laws that have been created by/ through the mind that does not have any regard for the physical, but only use it as a resource for its own functioning and survival, which is how and why we have led us to the current problem in this world/ reality, because we have followed the mind-made laws instead of having observed the physical and aligned ourselves to it/ as part of it, as an equal-system of perfect symbiotic relationships.

Nature and Symbiosis

When left to operate naturally, the plant and animal world exist in a symbiotic relationship with each other. Symbiosis is, in essence, a giving and receiving – a form of value exchange. When all parts of nature are allowed to exist in a symbiotic way – they together exist as a massive and complex life-support system, which human beings are meant to be a part of.

A profit-driven system has altered how we view and participate in nature, where we have started to take more than we require and virtually stopped giving back, hereby disrupting the balancing effect nature requires in order to be able to perform its function as a symbiotic life-support system.

source: equalmoney.org

Text quoted in Bernard Poolman’s blog Creation’s Journey To Life  Day 252*

“The Law of the Physical that Governs the Physical – is Complete, Perfect, Awareness as Law. Thus, it Functions Equally for All in Every Way. Originally the Earth was a Planet of Sound, which means: Wholeness, which Inherently Existed as All the Laws of Wholeness.”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the laws of the physical out of ignorance, wherein I adopted the way of conceiving laws and regulations based on self interest, based on a monetary system that hasn’t functioned at the best interest of all – disregarding the basic functions that have enabled fauna and flora and this entire ecosystem as the Earth to continue existing, which is the ability to freely get/ obtain the resources that are required to live, and that it is us as human beings that have violated such rules in the name of personal gain and self interest as greed, which means we violated the laws of the physical and as such, are facing the consequences of having denied equal access to all our equals in this world to have a dignified living condition.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow through with what was placed as ‘advancements’ and ‘progress’ in our reality, wherein I accepted things as ‘they are’ and believed that there was people behind such decisions ensuring they would be best for all and taking care they would not cause damage/ harm, without realizing that the moment that we created profit/ gain as a form of superiority above other living forms, we created the greatest violation to the physical laws, which is the violation of what is Here, regardless of any mind thinking about it.


I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to ponder the mind as a greater form of intelligence over any other life form, without realizing that the Mind’s basic functioning is to precisely regard itself as ‘more’ than any other species, which is one of the violations of the Law of the Physical that implies all life forms, all bodies of existence should be equally regarded as Life and embodying such living right in a giving and receiving symbiotic relationship as part of the same organism.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through existing as a mind consciousness system, exist only as self interest that I have believed is who I am and as such, surpassing the law of my being that is Equality and Oneness and only gave head and regard to the thoughts, feelings, emotions, internal conversations as myself, as what is the reality of myself while the world can function without a single being having to think about the world in itself.


“With the Introduction of the Mind to Exploit Disharmony for Self-Interest, Wholeness Constituted the Laws necessary to Return it to Harmony Inevitably.
Awareness as Wholeness do not Direct, as it Is the Directive Principle through which Those that Live, Equal and One as the Law of Wholeness – would Constitute an Equal and One Reality that will be Harmonious. And Those, that Function in Separation to the Law of Wholeness, which is the Law of Physics – would then Wholly become the Manifestation of their Unholiness, Equal and One.”


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard and impose a mind’s desires, wants and needs upon the Directive Principle of the whole, which invariably leads to disharmony as the harm that we have created through the creation of money as the weapon of abuse  – without realizing that now that we are aware of the source of all our disease/ problems, we have also the key to solve the problems, create solutions and embody such solutions as my directive principle that must be reinstalled as my ability to discern at all times that which is best for all and live it, become it – Within this


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever serve the god of the mind as energy, as the abuse of the physical in itself, which is everything that I have defined as my personality and individual configuration that exists ‘different’ to everyone else apparently, without realizing that in such differentiation and individuality, we stopped working and functioning as a collective and became separated through all forms of ideology, dogma, religions, politics, personalities, races and languages as a form to remain divided and only looking after those that are ‘similar’ to us, surpassing the basic fundamental equality that we all exist as, which is our physical body that we all have and exists in an equal and one manner.


I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the inherent Evil as human nature, as the reverse of life that the mind represents, is the source of the current consequences that we are facing as humanity, wherein our un-wholeliness as the separation we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as, is leading us/ we are leading ourselves to a point of potential annihilation due to having ignored the Law of the Physical as the perfection of equality and oneness – and instead, dared to create perfection standards that can only function within the mind’s drive for perfection for its own benefit individually, but never collectively.


I realize that the ‘battle’ we embody as our own physical body with the mind system and all its parts and platforms, represents the ultimate challenge wherein we are having to tame the individual energetic forces that would only seek for individual self interest and instead, deliberately become/ embody the Law of the Physical in all ways as an actual living form – this implies that the process I’m walking is the deliberate decision to be and become a living form that is able to coexist with other living forms as equals – and that, must be taken to a practical living system that must be man made in order to ensure we all abide to this Law of the Physical and never again experience the need to abuse within a mental disorder that leads us to want to be ‘more’ than others’ through abusing the physical for our individual self interest/ benefit.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to violate the laws of the physical in the name of my own self interest, due to a con-formism according to what I would see in reality, and within that, accept my condition of abuser and accepting and allowing to see such abuse as progress, as success and ‘superior’ to other life forms.


Inevitably, thus – the Disharmony would Cancel itself Out and the Physical will Return to Harmony. Therefore the Physical do not Act as a Teacher. But Those that Function – using or abusing the Laws: May Learn from it and Change Themselves. Or End-Up in the Chains they Created themselves. It is thus Perfection as a Teacher-Environment. And thus Produce Either Complete, Perfect, Awareness – or Eradicate whatever Cause Disharmony. Within this, Time is Irrelevant.


I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the purpose of Life is to learn how to Live in Equality/ coexisting with all other life forms and as such, this implies seeing the current ignorance we have all lived as and determine myself to become part of the solution and practically and physically embody that living change from living only as a mind of self interest and greed, to a physical living form that coexists with all other living forms in actual harmony.


I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to actually honor the ability to be alive and become aware of what we’ve become and have the tools and solutions to change what we have become, which is then be able to decide to live the decision to become a living-physical form that coexists with all others as equals, sharing responsibilities and also being able to receive in equality, as this is what is the actual gift of life, being able to coexist in perfect harmony with all other life forms as equals.



Thus, Realise the Gift of Physical Awareness – so that you may Become Aware. Or by your Own Hand, through Abusing the Laws of Perfection – you Will Exterminate Yourself.


I forgive myself that I hadn’t accepted and allowed myself to realize the gift of Physical Awareness and had deemed it as a curse, which is only me as the mind being deliberately placing ignorance as bliss instead of recognizing our physical awareness as the ability to recognize ourselves and as such decide to live according to the perfect ways in which we can coexist if we all come to the realization that it is only in Equality that we can thrive as species that are part of a greater ecosystem that must not be abused for the sake of our personal endeavors as humanity thriving in self interest, but learn how to implement rules and regulations that ensure life is lived according to the Law of the Physical.


I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to fully realize the extent of abuse that we’ve imposed the sheer moment that we continue living as individual mind-sets seeking any form of self interest whenever we only care about ourselves as individuals and disregard all living life forms that are equally here and being disregarded in the name of the mind’s self interest as who and what we all have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become.


I commit myself to align my life, my being and the entirety of who I am to the Law of the Physical, which is ensuring that everything that I use my body/ mind/ voice for is to act, do, speak in the name of what is best for all, and that anything less from this is certainly only abuse, which I commit myself to point out and direct every time that it is here as part of my awareness, and that is how awareness becomes the living-tool in order to realize, see and understand how we have gotten ourselves to this point, how to correct every single point of neglect, abuse, separation and as such, live the principle of self-responsibility as myself, as I realize that I cannot ignore the awareness of what is here and the immediate necessity to align myself to the directive principle of the Physical here.



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How ludicrous it is to exist in this world?

It just ‘amazes’ me that we’ve come this far and it seems we’re ‘pushing the envelope’ more and more every day-  yet this is not to be understood within the ‘positive connotation’ that one would usually ‘hope to hear’.


See, I wake up and turn on the news to see a world that’s going on wars, stock markets falling, CNN claiming to have a project for ‘freedom’ finding ‘heroes’ next to news on political gossip , world leaders vamping on to colonize countries under the banner of ‘freedom supporters’ – what the fuck – along with news on devastating events such as the unstoppable hunger that millions in one single country are going through, population with massive mental disorders and your regular news on looting, stealing, robbing and any other trigger-pulling that leads to further deaths.


Through all of this, by actually understanding the implications of the world as ourselves, we can only breathe and stop our own reactions – yes and realize that this is only a part of what we’ll be facing as humanity as part of this process wherein we are finally ‘meeting our maker’ which is nothing else and nothing more but ourselves – fully and completely, no masks around and no fucking around in terms of getting to see the full-fledged reality we’ve accepted as ‘who we are’.


This obviously can’t possibly bring or create any sense of love and joy, we cannot just ‘resist’ the ongoing problems, that’d be just cowardice to face what we’ve become, what we’ve created while disregarding life as who and what we really are.  Yet we can dive into self pity and misery either. It’s all a matter of stopping.


Everyone wants ‘their truth’ to be  ‘THE truth’, all truths that are promulgated are based on knowledge hence useless as they don’t encourage you to see yourself as your own creator as the truth that stands as yourself, ‘on your nose’ as we say here – yet always seeking outside of ourselves for ‘something’/ ‘someone’ to come and ‘save us’ because we’ve been apparently ‘too weak to do it alone’. Those times are over – and we are making sure we don’t hope or wish for ‘things to get better’ as that would be equal in delusion.


Accepting what’s to come is not a matter of complacency but a matter of understanding the process, our creation, our current stance within this world and our role as catalysts that push for self-revelation, for self-honesty which is nothing pretty or beautiful – this is how and why the Desteni message was utterly criticized and eventually banned, due to being perceived as ‘harsh’ within a world like this wherein it’s apparently too ‘sad’ to think of some thousands killed in some terrorist attack yet allowing a budget for over 10 years of maintaining an ongoing war with an apparent sense of revenge – how loathsome yet, this is existent in all of us.


It seems ‘harsh’ to read that someone could actually ‘harbor’ self-hatred yet we can only criticize that if we’re not willing to look at it within ourselves first. Denying it would only be suppressing a part that’s existent in each one of us and that’s leading us to kill, abuse and steal from one another – these are the signs of the times where the ‘divinity of man’ calls out to be judged for what it’s become: nothing but greedy fuckers and mouthfools of empty words.


We’ve tried so hard to keep up the image of humanity with all sorts of gadgets on top of ourselves with all claims of evolution that has served us only to find ways to kill each other with more efficiency, to steal and torture with less hassle, to manipulate and deceive with pretty pictures – and dare to call this progress.


We can’t even process and actually comprehend the implications of what we are being bombarded with as information that can simply give us an ‘update’ of how far we’ve gotten in terms of disregarding each other as equals. This is not a cool and blissful image that we wanted to  make up of our Self Realization – yet it is all HERE manifesting and emerging for us  to face – no backdoor left.


Who am I within this? I cannot continue existing as a preprogrammed robot that fears and gets depressed at the sight of the world – I cannot be +1 to the misery, suffering and chronically depressed people in this world- though battling such experience can be equally unsustainable –


The way to actually STOP both poles is through Self Forgiveness, to disengage completely from playing any ‘role’ and instead see the facts and events for what they are as I realize that it makes no sense to become another actor within this play – the moment we allow ourselves to be affected by it we can only say that we are playing our part in this entire collective mind possession that we’ve all been living in, detached from being physical breathing-walking bodies and instead ‘fighting for being a Lie’.


Isn’t it insane to see what we’ve become at a mind level? Lol yes there’s a pun intended there and we can only laugh about it – that’s something cool to do actually as only through allowing ourselves to laugh at ourselves can we realize what we can be participating in in any given moment.


Isn’t it insane how someone can still claim to be ‘not-equal to another human being’ or anything else for that matter? That’s the type of answers and encounters we have on the net, people just being completely detached from anything real – and so we ask: how could anyone be real if everything we’ve believed ourselves to be exists at a knowledge level? Come on! how could giving up your knowledge mindful life be any difficult? yet it is! at least for us walking this process we can see and realize how it takes quite great consistency and constancy to walk ourselves in Self Honesty – it obviously won’t come easy yet we are walking it and exposing it because it’s not ‘our nature’ to be so, it’s not the ‘genuine us’ to care for one another’ nor is it fully ‘understandable’ to not question ‘what life is’ –

We’ve never lived and all I ‘know’ is that I’m here and willing myself to be a living being – that’ll certainly NOT be anything else that I’ve defined as ‘living’ in the past – all the desires, wishes experiences, emotions and feelings that I’d rejoice in – lol juicing my mind till the last drop to create a sense of satisfaction – that is no more, at least not even in trying to ‘engage in it’ – it doesn’t last because: I can’t fool myself – lol.


The I that I’ve become as the mind requires a purpose for existing – that ‘I ‘gets excited and thrilled about new adventures which die out quite quick now, and so what we’re left with is nothing else but ourselves, only being able to trust our breath as everything else is able to come and go in one single blow.


Now this is actually what is living in simplicity, not requiring to feed ourselves as experiences or any other type of ‘alternate reality’ which is how we’ve defined ourselves as before : nothing else but experience-machines that require to be entertained and amused all the time – abuzz – and within that constant craving within which we’ve become the greedy, hateful, depressive fuckers around the world, just to ‘at least’ be experiencing something, as if that was ‘real’ and an indication of ‘being alive’ – this all must go.


Within our thirst to consume, within our desire to ‘exist’, within our wants and needs to posses, we’ve missed ourselves all the way.


It is only here at this moment that we can actually for the first time cut the bullshit that we’ve built around ourselves as this colorful aura  created for the sake of deceiving ourselves and others within the pretense of possibly being able to be ‘more’ than another, or being ‘less’ than another, or being ‘good’ and ‘bad’ without having been able to understand our preconditioning as mind systems – what a joke we’ve lived and it’s only fair and necessary to STOP now that we see and understand. Stepping aside from the character to become a care-taker of ourselves and of the world as ourselves. To care for the very first time


It’s fascinating because my mind went ‘oh there you go, had to end the whole thing in something ‘positive’ – but it’s not, it’s simply letting go of the chain of thoughts that I experienced through the past days as a result of events in my reality that is this world and within myself as the digestive process of what we are seeing currently as ourselves and around us. Tending to take everything ‘too seriously’ is part of the experiences to stop as myself – being to ‘weary’ about reality


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resort in weariness whenever I see myself being ‘overwhelmed’ by information and events that I’m consuming as words and knowledge that aren’t ‘here’ as myself in my physical body – I stop participating in such inner turmoil that is in fact invisible.


The energetic eye – the energetic I must go within this because I cannot continue defining me and limiting me and allowing me to wallow in these minor experiences that – even if they don’t last as long as before – I can still see and realize that is accepting a type of diminishment, a possession wherein I tamper my ability to LIVE.


I wake up everyday to ensure that I contribute to support myself, to support others to the extent that I’m currently able to and to make sure that I am part of stopping the bullshit that we’ve enslaved ourselves as in this reality- to face our creation

That’s the way to walk HERE.

Speaking the points as we see them is only the sane way of walking through this world  – silencing myself is not the way to realize equality here – not yet.


Thanks for reading – if you made it till this line –




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