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What is ‘Natural’ to us?

This comes through as something that we can easily relate-to and something that seems fairly ‘easy’ or that doesn’t require an extra-effort or struggle to do – this can only be through pre-programming, information acquired from dna and other information transferred as ‘who we are’ as an energetic-personality point. This point explains why to someone being ‘disciplined’ is fairly easy or ‘natural’ and why to others it is something to struggle-with and not ‘natural’ which means that ‘extra-effort’ has to be placed to actually get to a constant position as ‘discipline’. This is one of the points wherein we still exist in inequality in relation to one another and thus the importance of Equalizing everyone and establishing common-sensical points for all to live as.

From this point I remember early on in process applying self forgiveness for that which I perceived as ‘natural’ as in being something that I considered as ‘quality’ within myself, and thus forgiving myself as that program that I had become and lived as which maintained the inequality from other beings which certainly created a ‘difference’ in relation to me and my peers at some point – thus from an early age pondered ‘why’ it is that for some kids some things are easy, ‘natural’ and some others aren’t which can be precisely the opposite points of what I am ‘naturally’ able to do and what I’m not able to do with such ease as others – basic simple comparison points which lead to that constant inequality fed and ingrained even more with the way the Education System works..

So, within applying Self Forgiveness for that which I perceived as the ‘good’ or ‘qualities’ within myself, I declared myself as being able to now direct and take on this resonant points as self direction and giving it an equal and one cause – within this the perceived ‘specialness’ has obviously to be deleted and stand as a point wherein everyone has to inevitably get to – if even a crumb of desire of being ‘special remains’ it is to realize: Equalization in a total-complete manner is not being supported by you.


Within discussing the point of how two people can ‘come-together’ I placed the word ‘Natural’/’Naturally’ when speaking about it which was pointed out by Lauri and thus a very cool observation of how we take for granted the point of ‘what is natural’ and thus immediately taken for granted as what comes ‘natural’ as in being inherently pre-programmed and seems ‘easy to relate-to’ which is simply – in this example-  how it is most likely due to a resonant point that we perceive a point to be ‘natural’ –

Redefining Natural implies applying self forgiveness for that which we’ve accepted as ‘natural’ yet we see it is not ‘natural’ for everyone equally and thus, apply and live the corrective application of self-directive points that we see are able to be applied by everyone equally as part of the equalization of human stance and basic self-support to be able to live in this world in full-capacity of standing equal to any other being without having to make-use of ‘preprogrammed’ points that can create a ‘huge’ difference.

I realize we can’t get to be completely and exactly the same and that at the moment we got our ‘weak’ points which have to become our ‘strength’ which is basically taking that ‘low’ to an average level and our ‘strengths’ we can use for the best of all within the system, yet not defining ourselves or ‘adding’ the illusion of ‘extra-value’/ ‘value’ for that which comes-through as such – everything has to be directed within a one and equal stance so that we make-sure we don’t support the inherent inequality that keeps this world turning in separation of one another – not only beings as ‘humans’ but everything else – knowledge is a fuck up – so being self-conscious at the level of ‘what is natural to us’ is simply accepting that definition to be creating a rift within the moment as we are limiting and defining ourselves according to such parameters which is only ‘praising’ our programming –

Found it quite cool to reflect upon this and how it came-through as my expression as a ‘normal word’ yet not really placing myself as the word and seeing what it entailed as my experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive myself to have ‘natural abilities’ that stand as the comparison point of that which isn’t coming ‘naturally’ to other humans

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having ever praised my ‘natural abilities’ of doing something in relation to others and thus, existing as constant comparison just like any system that is defined according to the environment, instead of simply acting in the moment, directing and using that which exists as ‘myself’ for the best of all – this implies no self definition as being ‘special’ for such qualities or ‘less than’ if perceiving myself to ‘not’ have these ‘qualities’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever ‘show off’ my abilities/capabilities for the sake of being considered as ‘superior’ or to ‘hide’ whenever i considered myself to exist in a position of disparity in relation to others as being ‘inferior’-to and ‘incapable’-of doing what others did.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of everyone having a ‘weak-point’ and a ‘strong-point’ as a form of never pushing myself to transcend my own accepted limitations and seeing it as ‘the way the system works’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my perceived/accepted ‘strong-points’ as a point to compensate for my apparent ‘lack’-of and ‘inability’ to do/perform/resolve and stand as a particular point that I saw would come with great ease towards others, thus seeking points to ‘feel better’ about myself by feeling that I had to ‘push’ to bring-up my ‘natural abilities’ so that I wasn’t seen as ‘inferior’/ ‘incapable’-of, ‘less’-than.

Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support the inequality as the system within myself by supporting the idea of myself as having ‘weak’ and ‘strong’ points that had to be balanced out by making myself ‘more-than’ when perceived being in an ‘inferior-point’ and ‘feeling-better’ about myself whenever being in the perceived ‘more-than’/’superior’ position in which I would feel ‘at ease’ and everything coming/ existing as something ‘natural’ to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use ‘natural’ as a word to create a reference for that which I have accepted within myself  as a ‘strength’ which implies that this ability is not ‘natural’ per se, but acts in relation to an immediate process of comparing myself to another wherein I use ‘natural’ only in relation to a point of ‘struggle’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to understand and use the word ‘natural’ as a ‘positive’-point, as a ‘strength’ and as something that ‘makes me more than others’ wherein self-deception lies within this point showing that I use the word ‘natural’ as a way of ‘showing off’ and ‘swaggering’ around my ‘abilities’ and/or ‘qualities’ which have come through and played-out only to create further separation between beings and myself – standing within both polarities ‘more-than’ and ‘less-than’ –

swagger’ – self importance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make use of that which I defined as being ‘natural’ to me as a point of ‘arrogance’ and creating ‘self-importance’ in relation to others – any definition within a polarity point has to exist in relation to others thus,

I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to live myself as a definition, as a role and pre-programmed character that reflects upon-itself in comparison to others just to find  a point of ‘identification’ in relation to others –

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever accept the point of ‘knowing myself’ as a point to enhance the ‘self importance’ I perceived of myself instead of ever questioning this and using it as self support to see where I am not standing equal-to another and allowing separation perceiving that it is a ‘natural thing’ for some to be ‘up’ and some to be ‘down’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever accept ‘inequality’ as something ‘natural’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept ‘flaws’ and ‘qualities’ which stand as the polarity I play-out as ‘natural’ and thus believing, thinking and perceiving I can’t do ‘anything’ as it is ‘the way it is’, it is ‘natural’

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to perceive ‘fear’ as something ‘natural’

wait… I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to see/perceive and believe that anything of me that I play-out as ‘who I am’ is something ‘natural to me’ because I see and realize there is nothing ‘natural’ in the re-defined way – we are going to be re-programming ourselves which implies ‘new program’ and correcting/aligning points we’ve already been programmed as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the experience of becoming ‘horny’ as natural instead of realizing it is an actual energetic-possession taking place wherein I have to direct it as breathe here to diffuse the energetic compound and thus, not give-in to the possession but actually use it as a point of self-support for the entirety of myself in the moment –

I have to apply that diligently still

So, after this elucidating self forgiveness and writing – I can see I use the words ‘until it becomes ‘natural’ as self’ – so within our process it is to take on points that we realize we can apply and live as ourselves (here is where whenever you see something of someone that you see in common-sense it is supportive and usually comes as a point of ‘comparison’ or ‘judgment’ ) and thus live that point as something ‘natural’ – natural within the realization of who we are as systems within a system and thus being able to live-ourselves as the correction of certain points until it becomes ‘ourselves’ due to the constant application = we end up living the words as ourselves ‘naturally’ as what’s best for all – this is so until All is Equal and thus we can actually explore what ‘natural’ as Actual Life is – because Life cannot exist yet if Equality is not in place –

I see that point as important to take-on to see that there is still lots to walk-through to get this point done for all equally.

Okay, enjoy



Must All Test It!


We’ve been busy working with Muscle Testing and the Structural Resonance Alignment which has been fascinating because it is Here for the First time that Ourselves as the Physical is able to communicate to get to know how or where we’re standing within ourselves as our Structural Resonance

The points I’ve been recently working with is compromise/commitment from the starting point of feeling that I’m ‘holding back’  within the point of standing as myself – alone –

So the points that tested out were completely fascinating as it immediately turned on to the definition of ‘commitment’ from a relationship perspective – merely indicates that I’m still existent within this ‘desire’ for a relationship  – yet

Desire is created as a Polarity Manifestation of FEAR – therefore in my mind manifested ‘desire’ for a relationship, I am actually creating a polarity thought based on fearing a relationship –

Digging ‘deeper’ to see which thoughts were related to such points, the thought of ‘man is evil’ came up – within this I realized that I’ve been constantly having thoughts on our ‘nature’ and how we’ve fucked up our existence by our own hand, by our own actions that we’ve placed in motion in complete disregard of LIFE –

So within this, I experienced great sadness last week because of realizing that we’ve missed our ‘chance’ to self realize in an ‘easy way’ – we now have to go through the actual PHYSICAL process which is leading to the same point – yet, we have to face ourselves in this Life and ‘make the best out of it’ because this is IT – we stand or we don’t stand and this is our last shot – within this I felt completely ‘down’ because of realizing how we’ve fucked it all up in such a way that we think we can’t stop – yet we keep creating the system everyday, we keep existing within our own bubbles, in our minds trying to ‘make the best out of it’ without actually snapping out of the very same thoughts that create this experience of ‘ourselves’ as ‘who we think we are’ and ‘how is it that we’re applying ourselves’ –

Real change, real Physical CHANGE exists in every moment of Breath – we know it, yet we’re not doing it – yet we still abuse one another without considering what the fuck is it that we’re really doing in that moment of allowing ourselves to step into one of the multiple patterns that keep dishonesty as our ‘meek nature’ – ‘as it is’ – within this self abuse is tolerated and accepted as part of something that apparently ‘cannot be changed’ – fascinating fuck up

So – I see where the point of ‘man is evil’ comes from – fearing one another, seeing that if we are the real evil and we’ve created this place as our image and likeness -then no one can be trusted, then we are all fucked up and there’s no way out within my thought patterns without seeing that within this thoughts I am creating my own demise –

Therefore, in the ‘commitment’ a Fear of ‘men is evil’ comes within the consideration of ‘how can I stand as myself If I see myself as Evil – as a complete fuck up within this world ‘ – and how could I possibly walk through this with another who is also an ‘evil man’ as me  – which are still thoughts that are completely unnecessary from the perspective that I’m judging myself within this, and making myself as ‘incapable’ of standing up – self defeated by conscious thoughts of ‘we’re a fuck up, we’re a mess, we’re fucking scum, there’s no way we’re going to go through this’ – without realizing that these are thoughts created by the mind  – instead of standing only here as Breath as LIFE direct, to the point, no thought, no judgment, no compounded information allowing me to feel ‘overwhelmed’ by what’s going on – because at the moment we live in our own ‘worlds’ where we’re not aware of people being abused, raped or murdered – they don’t exist within our ‘reality’ yet they are us as we are all One –  So – within clearing the points, I realized that I’ve been consciously creating these experiences by constant thoughts as information which merely support this ‘self defeated’ experience within myself of ‘oh we as humanity are not going to make it’ –

It was interesting seeing that the sadness wasn’t experience from a personal experience, but seeing humanity as a whole and where we’ve lead us to –

Now, it is very cool that we are giving the first steps to begin connecting with our Physical Body and actually being able to correct our experiences which are created by a thought and manifested as our physical body – which is actually the point of getting to know what we are working with and from there, stand, realize and support ourselves as ourselves – alone – to realize who we really are when there are no more ‘experiences’ happening to us -but instead becoming the directive principle of ourselves within the starting point of what’s best for ALL

So committing to myself is establishing myself as who I really am beyond limitations of any kind as thoughts, emotions, feelings – fascinating how the body cannot fuck with you and is actually able to ‘bring out’ the shit that we usually suppress out of various limitations that we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to become – interesting – fascinating –

Testing others has been fucking amazing as well as each word, each thought, pattern is related to their previous tests and sessions – which is merely confirming the point of actual communication with the body for the first time in an instant communication response through the Muscle – fascinating

Muscle -Must all Tes!

The day I got the tree of life interview

I remember once saying that I would completely “believe” in Desteni the moment I got a tree of life interview. Of course this was a thought crossing my mind the moment I discovered a bit more about the website. Then I discovered I really needed no “proof” this is real for it all makes common sense. I was expecting this interview only to confirm now how I was doing in my process of self realization as all as one as equal. This came today, I was a bit anxious to watch and well… certainly, once again, it all points out to: me trapped, haunted by past experience that’s a mind manifested system affecting my kidneys, my solar plexus, my chest and back area… pff.. no wonder why I feel stiffness specially in my back and chest area as well… The deal is… I haven’t been self honest with my starting point of unconditionally live here as the moment of breath, no existing in the mind. I realize that past is still here trapped and stored in my kidneys, therefore, I have to dig into myself to get out the past rotting corpses. 

The thing is… I realized I was still defining me as who I was.. .and I hadn’t realized that who I am now isn’t the same as who I was before all this. So I was basically holding on to the construction of me, the concept I have shaped and molded and created through this life experience which was all manifested by a preprogrammed preordained predesigned mind consciousness system placement within and as me, right? So I have to get out of all those attachments. pff! I was like.. how dare I still be running in the past? I think it’s one of the first things I should’ve given up to in the first place… but maybe these are heavy layers, past experiences defining me. Although I do not define them as been heavy as I inmediately began doing written and spoken self forgiveness and this time, digging REALLY deep into my past… It was also helpful to be at the chat room the moment I got the interview as I could discuss it with others and get feedback on how to get rid of the past . So maybe it’s as easy as releasing it and unconditionally exist here as the breath. Defining me as who I was perceived to be was one of the most rooted things I have. But let’s not forget this is all mind blabbering right now. I am serious about this and I wrote as much as i could.. no blank moments… memory after memory, thought after thought, all written down and reduced to system manifestations on paper, right..? phff! I just have to LET GO!

I enjoyed my tree of life’s movements while talking about the winged area hehe, chicken like bird like maybe.. oh gee.. I fell asleep like one hour and a half in the afternoon, strange, after drinking some coffee.. woke up and couldn’t tell if I had slept the whole night or not… weird.. right after I began writting and writting.. for two hours and a half maybe… there’s still so much to do but i’m enjoying this. Confrontation of myself while the presence of others now will be interesting… getting rid of past definitions, past experiences, past conditions ….I know I can do this, it’s simple once you get a little help to guide you where you are extremely fucking with yourself right?

I don’t know if then all self forgiveness was useless because of starting point being wrong.. gee… that would be a bummer… lol
anyways… lots of realization today, past memories rising up and the more it comes the more i’ll aply SF on.
I want to be able to feel that breeze the tree talked about… because maybe it’s because I haven’t been in another body “yet” to experience other ways of experiencing life, here and now… maybe I’ve been this tight for so long I can’t define whether it’s pain or constriction or clausterphobia or not.. anxiety… definitely. I realize it comes from some form of uncomformity with myself, and I get now where it comes from PAST! all in the past.

I used to live in the past, and the future, never present tense. Weird that I actually wrote this little post named Past tense the day I receive my tree of life interview and he tells me of past being the main mindfuick hehe interesting, right? So past tense it really was, past will be past. This is me, beyond past definitions, this is me the new me, the me that will endure as self honesty for the rest of existence, the me without the ego manifestations of mind, the me towards freedom from the mind.

I feel greatful for all of this really

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