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344. Integrity in Equal Money

 

“It is Essential that Human Integrity as Life Equal be Restored as the Fundamental Rule of Law in this World. Call Out Those that protect Inequality, Become Politically Wise – Install a New Government, through Democracy and Re-Educate the Abusers of Life; in the same way they now keep Millions in the Chains of Inequality – ‘till they Repent and Show through their Actions that they Also Care about Life.”
– Bernard Poolman

 

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“We’ve become dependent on fear as a survival instinct and so actually fear commonsense and integrity as it is experienced/believed to be a ‘weakness’ – you have to live in fear in order to survive as the law in the matrix goes” – Sunette Spies

 

  • The result of our abdication of self responsibility to the laws and mechanisms in which our physical reality visibly operates is expressed in the current organizations and institutions that we have become so ashamed of and continuously complain about, which are the  product of our primordial disregard of ourselves being one and the same organism that is subject to physical laws that enable life to exist. Instead, we created these external entities to become the deposits of our rights that we signed off when agreeing to become part of a system wherein money as our creation meant our ‘indebted access’ to have a dignified living. This means that we lost our integrity the moment that we placed ourselves to be subject to laws that were never equated to guard and ensure a constitution of life in Equality.

 

“You are in this World, because: You Have No Responsibility, No Integrity and because you have Never Cared about Life in the Universe throughout All Time. You are, in a way, in a Prison. A Prison you created for yourself. You’re Not Going to Get out of This one…not here or in the hereafter without facing consequence, taking responsibility for it and changing for oneself and so for all as self.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

  • What we face as our current world system is the product and manifestation of our abdication to Life in Equality. What does this mean? That the same system of oppression, or scarcity, of lies, of corruption, of hierarchical structures and imposition of power to generate fear is in fact the mirror of every single relationship that we formed in self interest, seeking for our individual benefit only in separation of ourselves as one and equal. This means that the imposition of ourselves as our Ego, our Mind, our Personalities, our Preferences, our Opinions, our Thoughts, our Emotions and Feelings, our Desires over the Physical matter is what became and exists now as the violation of our own ‘right to life’ where no Self Respect toward ourselves, toward the life that is here as ourselves and in the various Life Forms exists – instead  we have turned each other and this world into assets for our benefit and indiscriminate consumption. Life after life we have lived throughout generations guarding these interests as laws that we enforced to every single child born into our world without a question.

 

  • We made of our so-called Free Will and Free Choice that individual ‘course of action’ that determined the ability to abuse one another through the acceptance and allowance of self-interest, superiority and personal satisfaction of security and power over the common well being. Every single word that we have used to denigrate or deify something or someone became the symbols of power that we imposed onto ourselves as a sign of our Inability to See what is Real and Live according to it.

    All the suffering, harm and abuse  as the result  disintegration became a reality when  we imposed meanings, values as experiences over matter and made ourselves subject to it, instead of doing the process the other way around: ourselves becoming the direct beneficiaries of every single word thought and lived as a result of an understanding of ourselves as creators of our reality through the values imposed onto matter and experiences at a mind level, disregarding the physical laws and considerations wherein clearly no spec of matter has been regarded as equal, instead it has been always gauged according to the system of values that serves the Human Mind, the Human Nature that became the accepted and allowed behavior of ourselves as species, indoctrinating every individual to integrate the same patterns generation after generation, wherein some symbols became our gods – like money – and some others became the experiences in which we all got ‘lost’ and confused while missing physical reality, and dare it to call it our ‘human nature’ such as our desire to win, our desire to have more than others, our rejoice in emotions or feelings and any other mind activity that is never evident as an integral part of our physicality, because it is only existent at a mind level, as our creation.

 

  • What we regarded as ‘Our Human Nature’ in the form of emotions and feelings became the greatest distractor and consent enter-tamement to not question the laws, the rules, the systems in which we’re living in, but instead merely complied to them as a sign of ‘resignation’ because no one else seemed to be noticing how inherently flawed and wrong the system is, no one dared to question the abuse, the suffering, the poverty, the absolute madness and absurdity of how we bound ourselves to a system of values where money became an abstraction that contains the value of our work to obtain what we require to live – a giving and receiving in separation of an integral equality process, instead we became the embodiments of a an unequal relationship between what dictates in our minds and what our body requires to exist. Therefore it is through our very own laws and belief systems that we enslaved ourselves to what we believed in our minds is real, ignoring physical reality evidence of such facts being true as an inherent part of the matter and the physical.

 

  • Our integrity has been non existent from the moment we give our power away as the breath of life to exist in multiple ‘states of mind’ leading ourselves to feel ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’ to the physicality that we are, which is clearly indicating that we’ve always lived in a continuous separation from the integrity of our physical body that is as constant and consistency as the physicality that is nurtured and reconstituted in every singe breath that we take.

 

  • Our political system, our monetary system, our economy, our social structures denote the exact opposite of this physical relationship of equality and oneness that we could hold as ourselves and toward one another. This is the physical integrity that we have lacked in our words, which became our laws and eventual authorities wherein we created fictional entities to take care after ourselves. We created our kings, our policemen, our judges, our monetary system, our politicians, because they all represent the violation of our individual right to life in Self Responsibility.

 

 

Solution                                                              

Integrity and Standing in Reality is Not Determined by a ‘Piece of Paper.’” – Bernard Poolman
  • Words that stand as the law of our being of Equality and Oneness, lived and applied as a physical consistency of the recognition of who we are as life are the key and way to ensure that we establish our individual an collective Integrity by our individual decision to live according to that which is best for all.

 

  • The process of Self Forgiveness wherein we  take Self Responsibility for the Accepted and Allowed Mind-Nature as thoughts, emotions, feelings  that we have imposed onto ourselves as physical beings is the way to  establish our definitive integrity. This is for us to understand how we created relationships of self diminishment or self aggrandizement in self-interest, causing the tumor as an overgrowth  that indicates the violation of the physical matter of Equality. This Self Forgiveness Process is the key to understand our individual and collective participation in the current outcome we’re living in as our society and world system. This responsibility comes with immediate self-directive solutions that are understood and lived at an individual level to create and establish the Law of our Being in Equality.

 

  • Money as the creation and manifestation of such system of self-abuse will also become the solution; this is within the principle of ‘Like Cures Like’ wherein we are determined to make of money a tool that represents this reintegration of Equality and equalize its function to our physical breathing, which means it will become a guaranteed giving and receiving of the resources we require to live, it is an insurance to maintain our physical integrity where all parts are equally supported, which will translate into an  integral society where relationships are formed in an interdependent manner, existing in a one and equal recognition of our responsibility to live. This implies absolute self directive principles to grant each other the right to live that is not ‘demanded,’ but instead founded and created through our collective ability to honor ourselves and each other as equals.

 

  • Once that money ceases to exist as the driving force within our lives, actual integrity will emerge in our society which will create new forms of entertainment, of relationships, of social interactions that will be based on mutual support and understanding where no ‘hidden interests’ will exist in an attempt to harm or abuse for personal gain. This means that our ability to stop abuse will form part of our ability to construct this integrity as who we are: no abuse, no harm and no disregard will be accepted or allowed to exist.

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  • Living Self-Integrity is the foundation of a fear-less society where each one’s words can be measured according to the actions lived that generate the Best Living condition for all.  It is the actual consideration, understanding and regard to guard each one’s well being as our own which will result in a mutual honor that has never before been existent in our society toward each part of ourselves as one and equal. 

 

  • Self Honesty is the principle in which we recognize that our individual well being is founded upon our ability to respond and act in the best interest of all, which creates the relationships of self support, dignity, respect, compassion and consideration to one another once that we live in a world where another is seen as an equal part of ourselves and no longer someone to fear, abuse, extort or compete against.

 

  • The living of our individual Integrity leads to generate the necessary foundation to establish Self Trust within ourselves and toward one another to ensure that no matter where we are, what we say and the decisions we make, we are always acting according to that which is best for all which is the manifestation and living practicality of what Love and Honor should be. This is the key to manifest a heaven on Earth but for that, we have to establish our Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness first – this is the Individual process we’re walking and invite you to participate within the understanding that Education is the first step to understand where, how and why we separated ourselves from life.

 

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170. Positive Thinking Irresponsibility

Continuing with Procrastination Character 

Positive Imagination

As I had mentioned in the previous entry, whenever I had the ‘negative imagination’ such as the point of confronting my writings with my professor, I immediately create a rather positive point of imagination that is related then to, instead of dedicating myself to my writing, I would decide to rather ‘do some small things here and there’ and then go outside for a walk, for example.

I have made no excuse to not go outside for a walk as it’s been a very supportive point, however I see how within this same process of planning my day to ensure I do make some time to go out for a walk, I apply and implement the same for all my other tasks. This means that the seemingly ‘innocent’ moment of imagining the walk outside becomes another point of distraction.

 

Now, what I have realized as well is that this positive imagination does not ‘roll out’ much so to speak, meaning I am not fantasizing all the way about ‘walking’ or else, it’s simply a thought that rolls into the imagination of the air/ breeze, the view of the sun going down, clouds covering the sun, and having something to buy in the vegetable and fruit store/ getting milk – all which are also points that in my mind I make as ‘priority’ and something that ‘must be done no matter what’ which is yes, necessary – however the point is how I use these seemingly common sensical aspects to then simply place everything aside to ‘go get it.’ This means that I have ‘evolved’ somehow my own parameters of tricking myself into simply ‘leaving everything for a moment and going outside’ – which is how I then spend more than an hour out, come back to then see it as ‘too late to write.’

 

There are also future-projection points of imagination, wherein I am mostly waiting for the moment when it is all done and I simply can finally leave and be ‘free’ according to my expectations, which is probably the point of imagination that creates the most ‘noise’ as it is only within these thinking processes and imagination that I see it as ‘too far to get there’ and in that moment, instead of making the decision to walk it through in the moment and get it done, I go into the DIT (Do It Tomorrow) state wherein I simply give up any possibility of even approaching the document – thus, here another imagination with a negative charge comes in within this ‘battle’ between the positive and the negative: I go into the imagination of having to read through all these scattered bits of information and trains of thought that I had poured into that paper, aside from criticizing my Spanish for having too many ‘weird sentence constructions’ which I see I can simply stop judging and re-write in a more suitable manner.

Thus this imagination of having to ‘go through the document’ comes as it is: me sitting in front of my laptop and reading through the information, having to go creating the necessary cites and becoming quite specific within it all which in my mind has become part of an ‘undesired nightmare’ which is only me as my mind making of this task the boogey monster just by this image of me scrolling down all the writing and trying to ‘make sense of it all.’

I stop and I breathe as I see how there is even an anxiety linked to this imagination as I write it out here. It’s fascinating how within this simple example I see and realize how the seemingly ‘positive’ does not emerge from ‘nowhere,’ it’s actually stemming from the negative initial imagination of having to write/ having to fix/amend my writing/ having to actually do it and instead, covering it up with my personal version of love-and-light which is walking outside, having a ‘cool time’ and talking myself into it which I’ll disclose later in the backchat dimension. Thus it is plain to see how we cannot claim that the positive is ‘what it’s meant to be,’ as its very origin is actually a defense mechanism/ a distraction that we create in order to not have to face an actual point of responsibility. I also see and realize that I cannot have the single audacity of judging ‘love and light’ as long as I am creating my own ‘love and light’ through my positive imagination rolling in a seemingly ‘innocent/ harmless’ manner, which has actually become an accumulation of a ‘good/ positive experience’ to cover up the actual procrastination/ negative experience that I have accepted and allowed within me.

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So, let’s roll with Self Forgiveness these points:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a positive imagination point of me going outside, seeing the weather as perfect for a walk and in that moment imagine myself strolling around, experiencing the chilly breeze of air, the streets, the moment of walking in order to convince myself that I should rather go out for a walk instead of writing and leaving the writing for ‘later,’ without realizing that this single occurrence that I have made ‘okay’ to be disciplined about in my day to day living – such as doing it on a daily basis no matter what – has become one of the primary factors to kind of ‘make my day’ to in my mind create a positive experience toward it, instead of facing the point of responsibility that I am ‘saving for later’ due to choosing to go and do that which makes me feel ‘good’ and ‘fine’ about myself/ my day.

When and as I see myself being in the moment of the day wherein I see that it is time for me to write/ tap into the writing itself and get the image rolling of me walking in the street, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is the moment wherein I make the commitment to not just follow the ‘positive image’ and instead commit myself to do what I require to do, which implies that I can instead schedule my day to ensure that I get to do all my tasks, including my walk, and instead of seeking to have ‘long hours for my writing’ only, I make it a point to work on it in a consistent manner, as this is the only way I see I can ensure that I do not continue postponing and ‘saving for later.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in my mind make it ‘okay’ to imagine for a moment me walking outside/ going out for a walk and use that single point of imagination as enough of a reason to go outside and actually do it, leaving aside everything else because ‘it’s my time and my moment for myself,’ – thus within this positive backchatting creating an acceptable reason for me to do that instead of actually focusing on making it a point to write before I go to the walk, and this is a more suitable way to actually direct my day instead of being ‘waiting’ for the apparent ‘right moment’ that is actually subsumed by all other tasks and bits that I instead go into, leaving aside once again this primary task that must be done.

When and as I see myself making the point of walking an okay thing to do in the moment, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I can in fact continue having that moment within my day, however instead of using the time as a ticking clock for the time to go outside, I use that time to go into my writing. I see and realize that I have created this idea of me having to be in a particular ‘moment/ point of experience’ to be able to write about this, this which is bullshit and a blatant excuse disguised with characters to actually not do what I have to do.

 

Thus I commit myself to not leave the writing for ‘the end of the day’ as I realize that such moment is not the most ‘suitable moment’ to do so, as that is when I instead go into any other point that requires direction  or even another distraction wherein I then waste time that I could have used to do whatever I did before going out for a walk.

In this I see that it is more suitable for me to write during the day than waiting at night to do so, as the night comes and then the ‘Do it tomorrow’ mode becomes another way to justify not getting to it today.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the imagination as a remembrance of me deciding to write my document and having to go through these endless pages of scattered information that I have equated to a point and experience of anxiety and frustration and irritation, due to me having had no regard to go placing the necessary data to be able to identify the information appropriately.

 

When and as I see myself using the imagination of me scrolling down the entire document and reading through it as a negative experience within me, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I have kept this memory as a point to re-enact whenever I am ‘apparently’ making a decision to just do it, and that I have repeated and integrated at the level of a physical habit in order to Not do things which is unacceptable, as I then pull out the imagination point of ‘walking outside’ as a positive experience and make it ‘okay’ to just leave everything else for later.

I commit myself to stop fooling myself within my own mind with all types of images and excuses and justifications to not move and not do this  – it is even quite a joke to see how I have committed myself to write on a daily basis for a while now and how I have been able to do that without major problem, however when it comes to another writing point that I have separated from my current writing, I judge it as a burden/ as a point of resistance which simply allows me to see where and how I have created separation within my own value system of what type of writing is ‘more important to do’ instead of actually realizing that if I am able to write here, I am able to write in just another word document as well – it is a single physical aspect/ point to walk through, committing myself to remain here as breath to not allow any negative experience such as anxiety or fear itself as a single point that prevents me from simply doing it.

I commit myself to walk through the resistance to write and stop all positive imagination to not do it in that moment, and instead direct myself to open the document, start reading/ looking at points that require to be re-written, re-arranged and give it the same point of dedication that I have committed myself to in my daily writings, as it is then a single point to extend my responsibility to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create my own ‘temptations’ through my own participation in imagination, wherein I then become a ‘victim’ of my own positive-imagination to lure me into doing something that I ‘enjoy’ instead of doing that which must be done no matter what.

 

When and as I see myself creating my own ‘temptations’ of luring myself into doing something that I would ‘rather do’ and ‘enjoy more’ doing/ participating in, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is my point of responsibility and I see how it is just like a foolish point to continue giving my power away to this, as I realize that no matter how much I ‘think of doing it,’ it won’t make me more or less responsible about it, this is about being physically moving here wherein I stop all assessments, judgments, time calculations, positive imagination thinking and future projecting about the task at hand – instead, I bring myself back to breath and simply do it.

I commit myself to not use a positive image of me doing anything else BUT going into the actual physical opening of the document and working on it which I realize  is just an action of Doing it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by my own imagination as a positive and or negative experience that in both cases, becomes an obstacle for me to not do it, within this

When and as I see myself going into my own imagination as an excuse to not do things, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I have made it ‘okay’ for me to ‘follow my desire to have a positive experience’ during the day instead of realizing that it is not about giving up ‘walking’ altogether, but simply not using it as an excuse or reason in my mind to do this instead of ‘that.’

I commit myself to stop participating in my mind in imagination in order to actually get REAL and physical with what is required to be done.

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151. The Food for Thought is Our Flesh

 

Thinking Reality instead of Living it

I was listening to e Life Review – BeLIEving if I Know my Past – I’ll Know Me and it was most certainly quite supportive to realize to what extent I have defined my ‘stability’ according to the external factors that have created such Experience of stability: money, family, education, living in stable and supportive environments that I would tend to judge as being ‘non supportive’ in the past, however I see and realize now how I would consider myself ‘out of place’ based on the personality requirements and ‘needs’ that I created for me as the mind. I never had a particularly ‘shifting’ reality in terms of suddenly having no money at all, o having no support to go to school, or not even living with my progenitors/ family, which is something that for many children is not a ‘given thing,’ and it’s once again the points I’ve taken for granted that created the ‘who I am’ as the mind that is within this stability due to having support to cover all basic needs and essentially, becoming that stability as a certainty of assuming that ‘I’ll always be able to take care of myself/ there’s always someone that will be able to support me’ which is in fact still delegating the point outside of myself, as I realize that I have missed the absolute establishment of who I am here as breath.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘who I am’ based on the stability that I grew up with and was born into, wherein such stability is translated to having been born in a family living in a stable environment that could provide all that which I required to live, which is what I took for granted and side viewed as a factor that determined how I am experiencing myself at the moment, as it is most certainly obvious that I would not have been able to continue living if it wasn’t for such basic support to do so.

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of living that reality of support to develop an absolute point of stability, I created emotional and feeling relationships as the mind in order to ‘make myself alive’/ living, which I had equated to being/ becoming emotional, having feelings and ‘stories to tell,’ which is how all of that ‘readily-given’ support to be able to eat, to drink water, to have a constant environment to live in, to be supported in all that I wanted to do is simply ‘taken for granted,’ and considered as not living, but instead went out to ‘create experiences’ so that I could define ‘who I am’ as a mind that experiences thoughts, feelings and emotions as a way to create the ‘idea’ of living, instead of actually living here as the physical, breathing, eating, relating myself to others as equals and establishing a relationship with my own physical body, which I Absolutely never considered.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to while listening to the interview think ‘I must be grateful for having had a stable environment to live in,’ and within this separate myself from the stability that I am here as breath, wherein it is actually not about ‘where I am’ that defines who I am, it is to see to what extent we have separated our own experience based on the environment/ images/ people/ things around us, missing out the stability that is here as breath. It is almost as if we distract ourselves deliberately through thinking reality instead of Living Reality, which would be a constant and consistent in and out breath wherein our physical requirements are fulfilled and as such focus on seeing where such stability as the physical is not being fulfilled in other living beings to equalize such stability, which would mean creating a point of transformation in this world according to ‘how it works’ based on money, legal ‘rights,’ and an entire societal structure that must also support this realization of who we are as the physical, as we can see how right now we are essentially not living to establish ourselves as physical equality and oneness, but live in a system where the image/ picture of ourselves as an Idea is what’s being glorified, sought to be ‘upgraded,’ while missing out the obvious self abuse that has come with our ‘progress’ and evolution.’

I see and realize to what extent we have moved ourselves away from the obviousness of the physicality through transforming our world, our reality to a single set of visual-thoughtful-emotional bullshit that can only exist if we all have submitted and diminished ourselves to only be an image, to only be a ‘thought’ in our heads, to only want to Be a thought and an experience within other human beings. I realize to what extent it is absolutely delusional we’re still even alive when we are taught and learn how to fear from the beginning of our breath every day to the moment we go to bed, just dragging our lives along and accepting such experience of ‘dread’ and ‘drag’ and ‘doom’ as ‘who we are,’ without ever even pondering: how come my physical body is still here and is constant and consistent in its functioning, I mean, my lungs don’t get depressed and decide not to function one day or require therapy to continue going, or some type of incentive to realize that ‘there’s more to life,’ no – instead we judge the very air we breathe as we use such breath to only exist as a mind that judges, that consumes the physical to continue existing, building, upgrading ourselves only as a personality/ character that stands as the proof of everything we have separated ourselves from: ourselves as the mind.

Thus I commit myself to establish my self stability here as the physical breath, as I see and realize how effective it is to stop defining myself according to ‘where I am’ and as such, stop ‘evolving’/upgrading the IDEA of myself, and instead reinforce the physicality of who I am ensuring that I accumulate each breath to be here. This is at the moment only a statement that is ‘in my hands’ to live or not, however the physical is such a self-sufficient point that it does not require the mind to think of stability as it IS stability as itself, as its very own functioning and configuration – thus the point to live is assisting and supporting myself as my mind to stop giving attention/ giving my moment away to thoughts and instead breathe and assure the realization that I cannot continue providing myself as ‘food for thought’ as that food is my own physical body and as such, I cannot possibly continue depleting that which stands as the unconditional physicality that I exist as only to support my mindfucks, my deliriums, desires, wants, needs, ideas of ‘bettering’ and ‘improving’ myself, of happiness and fulfillment as an energetic experience in absolute abuse and separation of ourselves.

And all of this is yet to be walked, as I realize to what extent we have in fact configured this entire reality as ‘the perfect brothel’ for us to prostitute ourselves/ sell out to upgrade and exist only as a thought/ a mind that thinks itself, not even ‘thinks the body’ – and within that getting ourselves to the current ‘place’ we’re in: abusing this entire physical reality beginning with our body to sustain a ‘perfect picture world,’ that just as anything that runs with energy looks ‘pretty glimmering and shiny’ while being oblivious and ignorant to the actual process behind this point of ‘beauty in the eye’ that stems from the abuse of the physical.

 

I breathe and realize that I can only live these statements by being here as breath, not ‘thinking’ about doing it, but just living it, stopping participation in the merry-go-round of our constant thinking and support and assist ourselves to instead develop an equal and one relationship with ourselves first to see who we are as the mind, to get to know how we have become ‘who we are,’ continuing walking our process of self forgiveness, self corrective statements and application in self honesty to continue getting a hold of ‘how’ we’ve become what we’ve become and as such, correct ourselves and most importantly, ensure that we do not continue and perpetuate the same patterns of self abuse that we’ve called ‘a life/ living’ which is unacceptable.

 

Our entire ‘culture’ from the primordial conception of ourselves as ‘thinking species’ must be debunked, must be exposed for the abuse it represents, making it acceptable to praise ‘thoughts’ while being absolutely oblivious and separated from everything and everyone that is Here as ourselves, as this entire world/ reality and Existence which is something that we have always seen/ regarded as ‘too far fetched,’ ‘too much’ for us to even conceive it, without realizing that we Are It and we have only separated ourselves from-it through accepting and allowing ourselves to only be a mind that thinks.

 

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137. Who am I within Choosing?

 

Fear: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to have it all’ while facing a point of decision between two or more options wherein the fear that emerges is ‘missing out on something’ by choosing one point or the other, instead of realizing that a want, need and desire exist as a mind point that can in fact be grounded and ‘landed’ to transform it into a physical practical and self-aware decision to be, do and live from the starting point of what’s best for all.

 

When and as I see myself fearing losing ‘the other one’ point as ‘option’ that I believed and perceived myself to have, I stop and I breathe – I realize that such point of possession to create a sense of ‘winning’ one and ‘losing’ the other only exists depending on the point of preference that I have created in my mind. Thus it is to instead change the starting point of who I am within having to ‘choose’ and instead of ‘choosing,’ simply turning the point into an informed decision that I can stand by for eternity.

 

I realize that the perceived loss is not real as it only exists within my mind, therefore it is to precisely walk the realization that I cannot fear losing something/someone that I cannot ‘own,’ thus it is to simply stop recreating the relationship in my own mind that holds no physical foundation other than thoughts, feelings and emotions when going into a conflict due to ‘fearing’ losing that other choice that only exists at a mind level. Instead I asses the points within the physical reality and stopping judging one or the other as ‘superior’ and ‘inferior’ as that’s only mind-assessing a point, instead of looking at it physically

 

I commit myself to realize that whenever I have ‘two choices’ and see myself wanting to ‘have it all’ as a point of mind possession to end up ‘winning,’ to see and realize that a point of choice can exist within the consideration of its viability and how plausible it is in this physical reality – as it is also a point to assess within practical terms instead of only viewing it as a point of preference as a ‘choice’ of a positive or a negative outcome, as that limits the point and reduces both options to simple inferior/ superior points as defined within the relationship we have formed with them in our mind, instead of walking it physically.

I see and realize that the first and primary point is walking my self equality and oneness wherein I cannot be defined by having/ not having/ holding one relationship to something/ someone, but instead are physically directed as points of support that I can align myself to without generating a desire and fear about it, but simply making decisions that are based on what is best for myself as all – and that’s the only valid point to take into consideration when making a decision. 

 

 

Thought:I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a point of leaving something/ someone behind/ missing out on something/someone which is placing a point of value/worth in separation of myself, missing out the actuality as the realization of who we are as one and equal wherein there can exist no loss nor gain in any way whatsoever.

when and as I see myself creating a point of conflict because of not wanting to ‘leave’ something/ someone behind in means of opting for the choice/ point that is in fact best for all, I stop and I breathe. I realize that there is no point of gain or loss within making an informed decision that is best for all, as all that I am is in fact here as one and equal and that what I decide to be/ become and support myself with, can stand within such equal and one consideration as I am the one that decides the starting point of  myself within what’s best for all.

In this I can ensure that I in fact assist and support myself within my process, creating a point of actual self-support wherein I do not define ‘who I am’ based on the options/ points that I decide to walk with/ support myself with or dismiss, but instead become actual living-physical decisions of what can work and what cannot work, and in this the mind’s experience is not relevant as a decisive factor to ‘what I choose’  as this ‘choice’ can only exist within the principle of what is best for all in fact –

 

I commit myself to see realize and understand that a decision made within the consideration of what is best for, all cannot have a point of ‘lack’ in itself, it is to then see the ‘lack’ and sense of ‘dismissing’ as mind-created experiences in order to keep myself within a point of conflict that cannot exist and do not have to exist if there is clarity and certainty within the decisions made within the principle of what’s best for all – thus I realize that any dubitative mode around something, must be looked at what I fear ‘losing,’ then realizing that point of loss as an actual illusion created only in my mind as I cannot in fact ‘own’ something/ someone – it is only a decision to walk in this or that direction within the consideration of what is in fact best for all.

 

 

Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of ultimate satisfaction as physical exploration wherein I can get ‘what I want ‘and within that, satisfy only a desire in my mind that in fact indicates a point that I have separated myself from – in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself through relationships to options/ choices that generate a point of conflict wherein I am the one that has created the conflict when not considering the point in practicality, but instead approach it at the level of desire/ want and need.

 

 

When and as I see myself imagining a point of happiness in relation to ‘having it all/ being able to keep the best of both worlds,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that when walking the points of separation toward one or the other points/ choices, I am in fact able to see what remains as a practical and physical solution, wherein there is no longer a ‘make believe’ reality of ‘what can be’ as hope in my mind, but instead consider the physical practicality of such decisions and how it can in fact work in a long term basis as a living-decision in my life, wherein I ensure that everything and everyone involved, are equally supported within such decision.

 

 

I commit myself to walk the realization of how any belief that I had wherein I can always ‘end up winning’ in my world and that everything always ‘turns to my favor’  is a lie – Instead I can practically decide to align any point in my world to a best for all decision wherein I no longer stand as a a relationship to such point of choice/ option but instead, integrate it as part of the decisions that are based on practical terms, instead of playing a Hollywood movie in my mind, fueling mind desires that are not required at all when the point at hand implies Real living decisions.

 

 

Backchat: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘but I want to have all options’ as an indication that any point that is sought to be possessed/ owned is in fact that which I have separated myself from, creating an energetic relationship in my mind of want, need and desire  – thus

 

When and as I see myself thinking ‘But I want it all/ I want to have all options’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that the BUT is already indicating a point of condition and restriction wherein I only Seek that which will give me an ensured point of ‘satisfaction’ in my mind, wherein the physical reality is not being considered. Thus it is to walk within the realization that the choices we make in our lives will determine the who we decide to be in our reality – and in that, only a principle of what’s best for al is what stands the test of time.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from holding two or more points in my mind as options that I Want and Desire to have/ own for my personal benefit, as it is within these points of desire as the mind that I create unnecessary conflict that I can see and realize are not necessary if I equalize such points to viable and practical solutions wherein I consider what it is that I am in fact willing to be and participate in throughout my life and in my world. 

Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of physical strain in my body due to existing as a diatribe in my mind based on seeking to fulfill points that I have separated myself from as desires and finding no way to ‘materialize’ them, as I see and realize that I can instead walk within/ through self forgiveness each relationship formed  to ensure that I am in fact considering the physical reality that is Here as all and everything in which I can decide what I will be/ live and become within opting for one point or another as the decision we make in our lives that will define who we are and will be.

 

When and as I see myself creating a point of strain at a physical level upon existing in a certain conflict, I stop and I breathe – I realize that a point of conflict that exists within myself as my mind is not taking the points to a physical and practical reality, but only fueling a point of conflict through thinking, backchat and internal conversations. Thus

 

I commit myself to breathe whenever I see myself wanting to ‘shove away’ thoughts that I consider as ‘not relevant’ and instead walk them through writing, applying self forgiveness to see what it is that I am in fact existing as in every moment and within this, ensure that I do get to know myself as my mind, as this is not about anything or anyone else but myself in such moment as the relationship that I have with myself as my mind. Then, once the point is walked writing, the practical considerations must be given direction to.

Consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not exist here as an absolute clarity of who and what I am and what I am willing to be and become based on the decisions I made – thus

 

When and as I see myself existing as an experience of inner conflict that manifests at a physical level, it is to investigate my own thoughts, my own immediate backchat, reactions and experiences so that instead of ‘shoving them aside,’ I can support myself to in  fact walk them within and through Self Forgiveness to then see and assess what are the points I am separating myself from as a desire, and instead, direct myself to consider the physical practicality of our living decision.

I realize that all decisions stand from and within the consideration of self-equality and oneness, wherein whatever I choose or not chose does not change ‘who I am,’ as such decision will be based within the consideration of who and what I am as one and equal to the points that I decide to align myself to.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that any decision I made stands as part of the self-agreement that I decide to give to myself as the realization that that which I will decide to live and stand by, will be the expression of myself as one and equal in its entirety – thus, it is to instead walk a practical physical living-projection to see what is viable, what is plausible and what  are the potential outcomes when opting for certain decisions in our lives.

I realize that the Who I Am within ‘Wanting to Have it All’ is in fact a mind that seeks to satisfy itself with positive experiences and call that ‘a life/ living’ and ‘fulfillment.’ We are already here, and any point we decide to live with and by, stands as a 1+1 addition, wherein one cannot be less or more than one plus one.

 

This is the point wherein Self-Honesty stands as the guiding point wherein all the perceived choices can be actually be taken and considered within the starting point of what is best for all and in that, there is no way I can fool myself, as it is plain to see that any point approached from the starting point of energy, will fall. Thus I direct myself to make decision, direct myself always within the consideration of the physical reality and what I am here to equalize myself to and as within the consideration of what is best for all.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Any Choice that Cause Harm to another Life Form, is NOT FREE.

I commit myself to SHOW that FREE Choice is to Be FREE to NOT ABUSE Life.” – Bernard Poolman*

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130. Killing the Loved Ones

 

‘I’ll kill you/her/she/them!’

Continuation from: 129. Will Love and Lighters end up Killing People?

This is one of the backchat points that can be found within the desire  to control someone, which is wanting to manipulate another for the sake of acting/ doing things our way/ getting our point of Happiness. Whenever the person does Not recede to our point of control, backchat may emerge in an insulting, denigrating manner toward the unsubordinated person and one of the ‘most negatively charged’ type of backchat exists in the form of ‘I HATE YOU/HER/HIM’ or ‘I WANT TO KILL HER/HIM/THEM ALL’

 

Now, what does all the positive thinking on ‘light, love, bliss’ has to do with the point of negative backchat such as ‘I want to kill you/he/she/them?’ It is an extreme bouncing off from the positive experience, it is the extreme polarity once that someone ‘had it all’ and then ‘lost’ it as a point of self definition, unleashing then the opposite-directly proportional input of positivity back into negativity – that’s when we can identify our ‘downfalls’ and ‘depressions’ and whatnot that can escalate through our own participation up to a point of absolute mind possession labeled as ‘mental instability’ by the psychiatrists that do want to make the most for their pockets out of a seemingly neuronal-hormonal dysfunction.

In other words, this can only happen if we give too much head to such negative experience, eventually becoming nothing else but the absolute opposite of the initial all-positive input of loving someone for example – there’s even a saying ‘from love to hate there’s only one step’ – and it is so, because the starting point of love is not an equal and one standing as physical beings of flesh and bones that care for themselves = care for one another in physical well being considerations – no, love means in our colloquial vocabulary just passion, energy, bubbles in the stomach that become an absolute life-hijacking obsession that is specifically directed to a point of possession a.k.a. wanting to control the other being, wanting to feel special with that something or someone, wanting to ‘fulfill the dreams’ that only existed as a positive experience in our minds.

 

This is how we can see MANY demonic-possessions today – which are MIND-possessions and should be understood as synonyms nowadays, wherein boyfriends attack their girlfriends – or vice versa – ending up slitting their throats, killing them, hitting them to ‘make them look ugly’ and one cannot possibly fathom: ‘but wait, I was sharing my life this man, I had sex with this man, how could it possibly be that the next day he’s trying to kill me!’ – and this is precisely where the role of the mind as a literal entity occupying our physical must be understood: the problem is thinking, the moment we think, we are already existing in an alternate dimension in our minds – and in that, hell is not far away. You may say: well, then we’re all living in hell, because we All all the time, and that is correct and that is what apparently makes us these ‘supreme beings’ that can THINK – but is it really so? Who invented this type of judgment but ourselves as human beings that deep inside actually fear NOT being in control of Anything or anyone that exists here.

 

In past blogs when revising words as the imposition of man’s mind upon the physical reality, this relationship of control was seen, which later on became the money language that we are currently living with and by, it is to understand who/ what do we have to accept and allow ourselves to exist as in order to voice/think a sentence like ‘I want to Kill Him/Her/them’ and in other cases ‘Me’ as well. Here is the deal: not many people can deny that this sentence has crossed their minds in an absolute moment of an absolute negative experience which within the understanding of how the positive and negative exist, means a ‘Fall from Heaven’ to the absolute opposite – why? Because of all the expectations we built in our MINDS only – reading again, yes only in our minds – about getting/ being with/ experiencing ourselves with something or someone ‘for the rest of our lives’ which is the usual bullshit peddled in our media about these everlasting relationships for example. And this is primarily focused on wanting to Kill the Loved One, which for all cases should be the most shocking and extreme type of betrayal toward one’s conception – meaning creation of the concept – of what love is/ should be, it is as ‘frightening’ as can be, because every single bit of relationship that exists now as ‘our society’ is apparently founded (or found dead) upon love – have a look at the promotion of these experiences as something marvelous and real: having a partner, getting married, having kids, creating a family, having pets, your relationship to god,  your job, your neighbor – everything is promoted as these bubbly stages of your life wherein you are supposed to be ‘Luvin’ it’ all the way – and it’s actually quite fascinating how we can find a note in the news on a daily basis about apparent ‘loved ones’ killing each other, people hating their jobs, people bugging their neighbors ‘just because,’ people eating their children, people killing themselves or others because of their relationship with god, men killing their ex-wife and children because of a marital break-up, and the list goes on and on and frightfully on.

 

“The moment we make that decision, acceptance and allowance in the trust that whatever the mind present to us is ‘who we are’ and we continue participating in the backchats and energies, with participating as the more and more we continue talking in our minds and experiencing the energies without stopping them/investigating them: what one will find is that they become more and more intense in the mind, the more and more one remain in the energy reaction and so the backchat/thoughts/behaviours that it substantiate in the character/personality possession.” – Sunette Spies*

 

What is Wrong with this picture? The Mind 

Who we are as physical living beings in no way stand as something ‘alien’ to this physical existence as the Earth – the animal kingdom, the plants, the environment, everything functions as a whole and one single organism. Then, who is the real Problem here? The mind, the who we have become as this machine that thinks reality only to scheme one’s own survival and personal benefit, because WE programmed ourselves to only create a world system that could Only benefit ‘some’ in our reality. Now, that is seriously messed up to say the least, who are the real schizophrenic instead? Who are the real killers that are willing to maim any life left in this world in the name of a ‘thriving society’ that can look like the most outrageous façade you’ll ever see – but it’s just that, a facade, a sugar coating enamored view of reality behind which we all hide the Reality of who and what we have become as The Secret Mind

 

Once we pass through the initial disconcertion of realizing how EVIL we have become in fact to the extent of not being able to trust your apparent ‘Loved ones,’ we can start then realizing that there is a Seriously Important Task that each one of us must Take Self Responsibility for, and that’s not something ‘out of our hands’ to do, it is taking responsibility for our own minds, realizing that we all have to ensure that we STOP and Self-Forgive any single inch of hatred and Love toward another being – You might say: wait a minute, you say ‘Self Forgive every point of Loving another as well, but that’s not bad!’ yet, understanding how the existence of Hatred actually stems from Love must have left this point quite clear to you how any positive or negative input upon something or someone, will eventually go to its opposite as an experience that we then act upon, blinded by our own backchat and internal conversations that we are seldom aware of.

 

This is then to put all ‘Love and Light’ as any positive thinking ‘on the table’ from the perspective of realizing how we are all responsible for whatever we see as ‘BAD’ and ‘Negative’ in our society, it is Our Mirror and we have been denying this for far too long now. The thoughts that a serial killer or a bad tempered ex boyfriend that gets to stab her girlfriend are in no way different to Any other thought we may have in our heads.

 

Thus, it is definitely a bucket of cold water to realize that that which we always wanted to ‘ostracize’ in our society to not have to SEE what we had become, is in fact ourselves.

 

We’ll continue with the process of realizing the correction is not ‘out there’ in some bloody policy awaiting to be approved by the government to ‘Stop the madness!’ It is here within and as ourselves that the correction potentially exists: we just have to live it.

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2012 Words Are Us

“Words are here as a tool, as support as assistance for each one of us to communicate with each other, to converse, to express and live through our words, to show each other who we are as I am communicating, expressing, sharing and showing who I am through words. I am the words I speak as each are the words you speak. Words – through words we communicate, we share, we express – have anyone forgotten the importance of words, of realizing the simplicity of the living word?”
~ Osho through the interdimensio­nal portal [1]

Within studying the basics of linguistics I realized how everything that we can define in this world, all that we are able to communicate, identify and depict in this reality can be expressed through words. Some  years ago when I went through one year in linguistics school, I would hear teachers saying how we had chosen to study the most important subject within humanity, which is words – though I judged this as part of their necessary self-glorification because of having dedicated their lives to this science. I was wrong.

One of the core definitions we had to learn by heart is that language is a group of conventional signs arbitrarily created and agreed upon by people. When understanding how the sign was created as the arbitrary placement of one piece of reality= a group of letters called ‘word,’ I thought that this was almost like ‘violating’ the reality that is here – it was like becoming God within being able to name things and give it a certain space and value within what would become the realm of knowledge, our first bite of the apple.

Within this realization, I came to a precipitated conclusion that we had just created a world out of ‘made-up words’ – we had simply taken the entire language system‘as it is’ because that’s what we learn and acquire from our parents, that’s what we use to define what’s here and communicate with others, never really questioning to the core how is it that we have words for everything that is here in both physical and ‘abstract’ reality.  At the time it felt like being studying the origin of the corruption of what is here as the primordial human imposition onto life,  it was like separating a piece of reality, placing it under a certain category wherein we become the point that categorizes and ‘controls’ reality through words, this is where human’s ‘reason comes out as the self-belief – or dare I call it self-talk – that ‘we now know better’ because we are able to define it.

This mindfuck  that I created for myself  became an excuse for me to degrade this reality to being ‘an illusion’ and a ‘fallacy,’  because we have based our reality essentially out of words that – literally – god knows how we got to create. The origin of languages has been placed within the Indo-European civilizations according to the academy; however this only seems like placing a starting point for the sake of having that first methodic doubt solved and not have to linger around ‘filling the gaps’ within our history – which is still being sought/ studied in various fields of our human civilization (see.evil-I-zation)

That’s where I began seeing how there were words that are used to name what is here, what’s physically here – and that makes perfect sense – and words that were then pointing out to an almost ‘metaphysical existence’ that is not-tangible. We are human beings that require to interact with each other in relation to ‘What’s Here’ and whenever we say ‘what’s here’ it means: the world with everything that is existing as the entire ecosystem, the physical reality that we eat from, that we breathe and live and interact within. But then, the word ‘concept’ came into being, it was this ‘abstraction’ that the word becomes out of a piece of reality .

I’ll explain again the cookie-dough theory simply because that’s the way I was able to grasp it that day in school. We have the ‘nebulae of thought’ as they describe it – yet I would rather place it as we have the reality that is here as raw cookie dough. What we did as humanity, was creating a set of cookie cutters that are in, this case, a specific configuration of letters as words to take a piece of that entire mass of cookie dough and give it a shape, give it a form. Within the identification of such mass within a particular form, we are then able to give it a name, to call it in a way that we are able to identify it from the other pieces of reality that have been created with other different shapes from the same cookie-dough.  Just as the first molecule explained, what happened as we went on creating words to name what is here is that the primordial separation of ourselves as one and equal began. Words became these capsules that enclosed a particular meaning/ piece of reality which was absolutely arbitrarily placed.

An example we had was in terms of different languages – in Spanish it is ‘tongues’ as languages is the system of signs, where as ‘tongues’ is different idioms as languages such as English, Spanish, German, Gaelic etc. So, let’s say we have a particular range of colors that go from green to grey. In English there can be a particular word that indicate a particular tonality of green that is predominantly green, whereas in another language such as Gaelic for example, there is a word that would comprise the meaning of a color that was considered ‘green’ yet it was predominantly grey in nature (nature seen here as the color spectrum.) And probably another language could have comprised the meaning of the exact equal combination of both colors in one single name of the color – this is how words that comprise a certain range of meaning in one language, would not exist in another, while – even worse, there was even a gap left for a particular color range that didn’t even have a name. When I realized this, the biblical myth of the Tower of Babel came to mind as our reality: separated by words, by different language systems wherein we all eventually got lost in translation and were simply cursed with having the ability to communicate only with those that used the same code, which eventually became our different cultures/ nations as the blocks of separation. In our attempt to ‘reach god’ we were instead separated through and by words.

“When the languages were confused at the tower of Babel – the outcome you are living now was already foresaw and programmed; and every thought you have was programmed through fuzzy-logic to give you the idea that it is ‘you’

[…]

So the tower of BABEL; it was the attempt of man to build the road/ladder to heaven on earth which was within the DNA/MEMORY of the beings confused to prevent them from doing this by creating multiple-languages so that the humans could not co-operate and never create heaven on earth as it is part of human nature that makes it impossible. Meanwhile it is part of pre-programming. Languages so became the sins of the fathers / the principle of divide and conquer. Now it’s taken forms as personalities as well  that cannot see eye to eye.

                                                                          ~Bernard Poolman (25/11/2011)

A contemporary example of how this separation is now made into profit – and as our entire money system – is the eternal battle of Microsoft vs. Mac – you can’t simply make them function/ work along because of their different OS System, specifically designed to be incompatible and within this, polarize the computer industry/ market. That’s how we have existed as humanity essentially – and this is not only in relation to speaking different languages which define/ identify the entire culture of a civilization/ group of speakers – but also as the creation of words that became the ultimate tool – and even weapons – created and used to conquer reality, which means ‘gaining power = $’ as a means of control upon life.

Not being able to communicate effectively is also a big problem in our reality. We see this every single day when not being able to communicate within common sense with other beings, simply because knowledge and information as concepts, theories and further mindfucks clog the ways in which we could understand the simplicity of what being living the words imply. This is also because common sense as a living-realization of doing/being what’s best for all has not been lived/ applied either,  and we are barely placing our feet on the ground to get to live that at the moment here. This is how and why the purification of vocabulary has been constantly reinforced within the Desteni material, to realize to what extent words are the key to Self Honesty, to Live as one and equal = because we create this reality as the words we accept and allow ourselves to live/ exist-as.

“Wanting/desiring to become God – is the most profound trap of enslavement in this world – that have raptured the very core of beings into separation. Seeking God as themselves or within others through utilizing methodologies of this world.”
                   ~ Swami Muktananda through the interdimensio­nal portal[2]

I underestimated and degraded myself as words at that time while deeming them as cages of this reality – fascinating self-revelation: me judging words with words that could only depict the nature of what I had accepted and allowed myself to be and become. That was the time when I decided that ‘words weren’t my thing,’ I dropped out of linguistics deeming ‘the systematic nature of words’ as something ‘too constrictive for my liberal mind.’  I opted to create images, entered art school and declared war against words.

It was rather foolish to do this because it’s definitely clear how we cannot separate ourselves from our creation – yes, this was my attempt to ‘escape the system’ as well. I also indulged in literature that would be vicious in nature, depicting the misery that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become in our desire to live within an equation of experiences = ‘being alive.’ It was only when I got to Desteni that I realized what a mindfuck I had created with my ‘rebellion against words,’ I had only created the ultimate separation and spitefulness toward myself, and the world as a whole.

“No word is just a word in this world–it is our fucked- up nature that is in the words
the deceptions exist as words–acceptances–kindness—allowances, etc.
do not avoid words — direct words”

                                                                                              ~ Bernard Poolman

It is only now that I am able to see and realize who I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the words that I think, as the words that I speak and place into action by myself – that is and has become our ‘free choice’ wherein we have an array of words that we can choose to speak and embody without any insight or realization of what is it that we are in-fact saying/ speaking and communicating with others. When we do get to this point of seeing what-on-Earth we have become, the only way to stop it is through Self Forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to declare war against myself as words, to become disgusted by our creation as words and in that, spite my reality through indulging in the use of words to degrade myself through judging and criticizing myself/others,  disregarding at all times who I was within and as such acceptance and allowance of uttering such words toward myself, others and the world that is here, that I separated myself from.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deem words as jails for our reality, and within this remaining as a victim of a system that I saw myself as ‘not being the creator of’ while neglecting the fact that I have accepted and allowed such words to exist as part of myself and this world, without seeing that it is only through and as myself that such ‘atrocities’ can stop, instead of blaming/ judging words for themselves. Words are innocent, it is only us that have given such ‘free reign’ of the having tried to avoid, suppress and escape from them through separating myself from the words I speak, never minding the consequence that I created and manifested through perpetuating the separation of everything that I name and speak as ‘separate’ from me.

“Words are innocent – it is us as who we are that place value and worth and definition to words. We have separated ourselves from words – where words had become separate from us – with separate definition, with separate energetic experience connotations to words which we have used to define who we are separate from ourselves – which has manifested in the form of mind consciousness systems.”     ~ Sunette Spies

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge into speaking words without ever questioning the consequences that I would be creating when uttering them, never questioning what words could create within this reality that is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words to control, manipulate, denigrate, judge, criticize and vandalize a reality that I defined through words as the actual reflection of what is existent here as myself, as the depiction of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be and what we have become, never realizing that who I was in fact judging, criticizing, denigrating, manipulating and controlling is/was myself only through accepting and allowing such words to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and use words that would enable the continuation of abuse toward anything/ anyone in this reality that is also myself.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to not question the meaning of words and the potential harm/ abuse and separation that they implied. Within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words inadvertently, repeating the words I would hear around and see others speak without ever daring to stop myself to see what I was actually implying and meaning within such words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak words out of spitefulness toward words themselves wherein I then placed myself as a victim of ‘language’ as a form of separation, instead of realizing that words are me, words are my creation and within this I take Self Responsibility for each and every single word I’ve uttered in disregard of this point of self-creation.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear using words such as hate, in fear of realizing that I was actually fearing realizing what was existent within me as ‘hate’ as part of this reality/ as myself.

See, this is the shocking point that I realized – how anything that can be named and defined is because: it exists. When reading words about our psychological terms, when finding out the meaning of certain words that imply actions such as forms of torture, diseases, social-negligence such as ‘starvation’ and ‘murder’ – these words exist because we have created them through our own actions. These words have been ‘lived’ – perpetrated –  as what we have accepted and allowed as ‘human nature.’ Words are the mirror of what we exist as – and it’s definitely clear now that we must take Self Responsibility for each word that we have uttered in separation of ourselves. This world is the result from us speaking and acting without awareness of our thoughts and words, without considering what we were actually manifesting as ‘gods’ of this reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself with words that I used in order to ‘spite humanity’ as an attempt to become ‘god’ and stand in a ‘superiority’ point wherein I deemed myself to be ‘right’ and the rest of the world was ‘wrong,’  never realizing that this entire reality and words are who I am, and within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to use words in means of creating and building up an image of myself, an idea that has no relation to who and what I really am, here as the physical reality that I breathe in.

We have created words that are able to rise us up to a non-existent heaven, and words that can depict ourselves as the scum of the Earth. Last night I came to the realization that: we are one and equal as the scum of the Earth – why have we created such value systems as words that can categorize something that is here that may cause us repulsion or disgust – yet it’s part of the Earth itself, is our reflection, it is part of what’s also here as ourselves.

In an attempt to become God, we became our own holy talking ghosts with enough words to fuel our ‘idea of self’ with either delusions of grandeur or misery – both equally fucked – yet only existent in our minds in an invisible form, missing out the physical reality that is simply HERE as ourselves, as the flesh and bones, as the monads of life – if I can call it that –  that we have simply disregarded while being too busy ‘thinking words,’ never seeing and realizing what we were caging and defining ourselves-as and the consequences of how we ‘shape’ ourselves as the words we say/think and act upon.

We are here in fact to relinquish such accepted and allowed past through writing ourselves out, unconditionally placing before ourselves even the darkest pit of our regret through words within the understanding that: we are able to Forgive Ourselves. Whenever I have realized and applied this, it becomes a living-realization that I can now let-go of any attachment I had toward everything that I had blamed myself for/ felt ‘bad’ about, any despicable words projected onto myself/ others and the guilt/ remorse and shame that comes with it,  because there is nothing to keep lingering on to within that. It would only recreate the same patterns if I was unwilling to forgive myself. Blame is another way for us to keep that ‘trap’ in place, simply because in our minds it is a well-known place – whereas taking self-responsibility for our words to stop and correct such patterns is not yet. That’s how now we get to actually create ourselves from the vantage point of giving ourselves a second chance to actually live through applying and living Self Forgiveness.

What does Being the Living Word mean?

“We must, as I have, forgive ourselves for the allowance of separating ourselves from words, which caused knowledge and information only, alone, separately to try and understand and express itself through the creation of the mind/consciousness whilst us were unaware of who we are as knowledge and information in application: the living word. We have allowed ourselves to become slaves to knowledge, slaves to information and have forgotten how to live, forgotten how to breathe and have forgotten the moment as who we are in every moment with every breath.”
~  Osho [1]
“Words are alive – they haunt you infinitely if you abuse words – they never go away – there’s a haunted story if you’ve ever seen one – we’re living it in this world
what exist as this world which you touch – this is living words – this is the living word
touch is a word which you live – because you touch – so, you live the word touch”
  ~beard hair through the interdimensional portal, 2008

Be watchful when you speak – when you voice – be certain that when you speak the words are one with you as you as who you are of life – if they are not – you will surely create and experience what you speak and what you voice as who you are – you create and manifest and experience what you speak – if necessary – do not speak or voice at all – until you are clear and certain of you as who you are with every single word you utter.
                                                                        ~Muktananda [2]

What a great lesson we had missed all the way in existence: we create reality according to the words we speak, according to the words we have created to name our acceptances and allowances. We have given a name to the atrocities that we have perpetuated as our ‘human nature,’ as words we still accept and allow to exist as ourselves in this reality. Imagine being in the moment wherein we have to give a name to the act of a man having sexual intercourse by forcing a woman against her will to do so – the word ‘rape’ was created as an accepted and allowed ‘natural instinct’ of the ape man with and extra ‘r’ to camouflage the act and place it along the large list of words that mean the human actions that name the various ways in which harm and abuse exist.

We are the meaning of such words, it has been an accepted and allowed part of this existence – that is what we have become.

“You have taken the very nature of yourself for granted – your words – your words are who you are – thus who you are is in your words…”[1]
“Insight, wisdom, knowledge, understanding: No matter how beautiful or profound – is empty and worthless without self as presence as the words – without self as awareness as the words – without self living the words.” [2]

Within this process, living the words means we first purify our words to stand one and equal as the words that imply/ mean what’s best for all, as that which we actually see the expression of life can be, the expression that we have tampered with words that have diminished (de-manished) or augmented (increasing ourselves as our mind) ourselves and this reality in absolute separation of the actual expression that can be lived.

Words as Self-Creation

“Be aware, be watchful, be considerate, be creative, be expressive with and through the words you use as an expression, sharing and communication as who you are in every moment with every breath. The moment, the breath, the words, who you are as the living word – this is the recipe for creation. Creating through becoming and living who you are in every moment with every breath. Create yourself, express your creativity through words as who you are as the living word, you are the creator and creation of your world and your existence. You have the opportunity to create in every moment as the living word as who you are.” ~ Osho [1]
“What to do. Silence.
I must silence my mind to see. I must return to birth – to stop all words, all worth, all definitions and start as if I am just born, one difference though – I am going to be my own teacher.
I am going to birth myself.
I am unconditionally going to look at any words I choose to allow within me, as me again and start again.
It must be practical, not only in this world, but beyond.
I must be able to live and experience the word as myself. I must understand honesty with myself.
I must understand self discipline within the process of the movement of myself, as I create myself in this world.
I must stop at nothing and no-one and thus I must be able to stand as all life – meaning, that the answer must prove itself, that when all of life apply it as one, we will be equal and one and live in harmony as God.
I understand clearly that such a point of God/creator existed within each one of us.”
Bernard Poolman [3]

This is how it is explained that we must stop ourselves from recreating the past as words that we see in common sense – the realization of what’s best for all – are not supportive toward our expression, toward the consideration of living as equals/ regarding each other as one and equal.

This is the process that each one lives to see where and how we have separated ourselves from this basic consideration that must become the first educational aspect we can share with children coming into this world. Sharing with them how important it is to be aware of the words spoken to honor themselves and honor life equally, to not accept anything less than who we really are.

This is within common sense – not because words are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and entering the morality trap again, but just placing a cool question in front: ‘what is it that you really want to be/ become as part of this world? What is the ultimate ‘wish’ for all of us to be and exist-as here? Everyone wants to be able to Live and express and ‘be free,’  thus we share words and live actions that we want to implement as the new way of speaking, living and acting in this world wherein no harm or abuse is accepted again – but expression in self responsibility is understood as the new ‘code in life’ – this is where purifying words/ living words becomes the language we speak. Within this single point, we will be giving an actual huge step for humanity to never again step into the old fuckedup preprogrammed ways of existing in separation ever again.

Self-Responsibility within Self-Creation

“All must, as I have, take responsibility as creators for their creation through words as who you are as I am to set ourselves free from allowed and accepted enslavement self-definition conditionings as knowledge and information which have become God, instead of each one realizing; I am God as the living word and I create in every moment, with every breath with each word creating and forming sentences as a statement of who I am through communication, sharing and self-expression.”
                                                                                             Osho [1]
“Though we’ve entered a phase within process wherein we’ll be stopping ourselves – through the experience of ourselves in and as manifested consequence – this consequence is not a ‘payment for deeds done or words spoken in the past’ from the perspective of ‘deserved revenge’, but simply to realize, simply to see – that there has been and is consequences to what has been accepted and allowed within each one’s actions and words towards self and another as self and another as self as within the manifested expression as this world/reality as nature, the animal kingdom and water.”
– Lao Tzu through the Interdimensional Portal [4]
“Self forgiveness and self corrective action must stand as one and equal as you in and as you – it’s the point of establishing oneness and equality in self expression here as you. Because when self forgiveness is applied absolutely, self honesty will emerge and within self honesty – you will absolutely live the self correction of and as that which you’ve self realized in self forgiveness – as what and how you must change and transform you in and as how you live and speak in self expression here as and while you participate in and as this world.” [4]

Self-Forgiveness is the application and I am the expression that lives it wherein I start taking Self-Responsibility for my creation as one and equal and within this, learning from scratch in humbleness how to become the living word as what I see and realize is what life in equality can be for all.

Cites

[1]Osho. “I am the living word in every moment.” Desteni. 22/03/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/osho-i-am-the-living-word-in-every-moment>.

[2]Swami Muktananda. “In the beginning was the word and the word was God and the word was with God.”Desteni. 04/10/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/swami-muktananda-in-the-beginning-was-the-word-and-the-word-was-god-and-the-word-was-with-god>.

[3]Poolman, Bernard. “I, the living word.” Desteni. 04/07/2007. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/bernard-poolman-i-the-living-word>.

[4]Tzu, Lao. “Manifested Consequence.” Desteni. N.p., 15/08/2008. Web. 24 Feb 2012. <http://desteni.org/a/manifested-consequence-lao-tzu>.

Video Support:

2012 – Words that Change the World

2007: Osho – Words Are Innocent

2012: History of Mankind – Part 138 – The Tower of Babel – The Tower of Evolution

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2012 Reasons for a Higher Purpose

2011/01/24 – Liberty is Really Responsibility

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