421. Art is in the Eye of the Beholder

 

I took this great blog title from Leila Zamora Moreno who gave it as a name for her son’s Cesar first masterpiece which I am going to share here because it’s his first year alive on Earth today!

We got a Pollock coming, people!

 

So, I watched a documentary on Marina Abramovic’s work called Marina Abramović: The Artist is Present and noticed how through watching it, I was constantly seeking for some kind of ‘meaningful’ thing to come through, something that could match my idea of ‘art.’ Through writing the self forgiveness I’m about to share, I realize that I had become this constant judge toward anything I’ve defined as ‘art’ and within doing so measuring/gauging it and see if it does match my idea of art as something that can ‘change the world’ and if not, usually I would follow through to judge it as pointless, useless, a waste of time, etc. In fact I had written out a blog about the documentary, but obviously noticed it was filled with righteous comments so as to impose ‘my perspective’ which then of course was a cool thing to do or else I would have remained within the idea/belief that ‘I was right in my assessment’ lol.

I also reacted when seeing people organizing performances and/or artistic creations around an ongoing situation here in Mexico about students having been disappeared/most likely killed due to a political point of convenience for a governor in one state here and then judging this as ‘pointless’ and ‘meaningless’ and then rehashing the judgment of ‘how come I can despise this ‘art world’ so much now and I once was so eager to be a part of it, where was I?’ – so here I go straight to Self Forgiveness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say to myself, how was I ever involved in this art/cultural realm and come to despise it so much at the same time? Which is only showing the usual love-hate relationship wherein of course any ‘negative’ experience is in fact denoting I still hold a relationship toward art, and as such, it’s all about ME in fact and not at all about art/artists or the art world at all – this is then the point of self-responsibility to expand upon here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience remorse and embarrassment for having ever aimed at achieving an artistic career as I followed my desire to experience something ‘special’ through art and aim at ‘changing the world’ with it, which simply means that I was entirely driven by my own emotional and feeling experience and that this clouded my ability to see reality for what it is and genuinely question whether a ‘work of art’ has in fact ever changed people’s lives to the extent that I thought it would.

In this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge art as something frivolous or useless, wherein by defining it in such way I am then creating a negative relationship to it, but still a relationship nonetheless, so this is about me taking responsibility to ensure I no longer impose any ideas, beliefs, perceptions and reactions toward ‘art’ itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create yet again an experience of disdain toward people that are using art as a way to demonstrate the corruption and deaths of people here in Mexico, wherein now artists are gathering to create portraits of students that have been – most likely – sent to be killed by a high authority in one of the states here in Mexico, and so reacting with the experience of ‘this is utter bullshit’ and so having the desire to just curse at the people that believe that in any way doing a portrait or performance of and for the people that have disappeared will change their family’s grief or would in any way ‘solve the problem.’

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that this ‘disdain’ is simply a tantrum like experience that comes after one had created certain ideals and expectations upon something, which is why one has such a ‘stance’ toward – in this case – art, instead of realizing that ‘art’ in itself in this case is not aiming at creating a tangible, physical solution, but simply a remembrance that some people might find supportive and that’s up to each person and how they react/interact with such artistic expressions – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become hypercritical to anything that has to do with art and aiming at bashing it constantly or whenever I can, which only demonstrates my own judgments and ‘false expectations’ created and imposed toward art, wherein I was trying to make of art an actual ‘tool to change the world’ but I realize that ‘art’ in itself as a manifestation and expression cannot do that at all – self change is and will always be here as ourselves, it is about who we are in our mind and in our actions, which in turn will define our creations as well.

 

I realize that in this, of course I’m missing out the actual self-forgiveness that extends beyond ‘myself’ only but as a human being that has lived in a world where pictures, emotions, experiences are the actual ‘drivers’ and/or ‘fuel’ of our reality, wherein the society of spectacle also involves creating this kind of ‘motives’ and ‘remembrances’ using art as a way to ‘heal the wounds’ or else, without realizing that in essence, art only works at a mind level and as such, it creates no solution to real-reality problems and in this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge art for not being what I expected it to be, instead of realizing that it’s only me that tried to make it’ more’ than what it in fact is – in this

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly try and fit ‘art’ into the category of a human creation that will in some way ‘change the world’ or ‘change people’s consciousness’ wherein in my desire to ‘fit’ art into this ideal, I’ve actually created such an unnecessary conflict within me, because I see that it is just impossible to do so, because nothing, no object, no image can ‘change you’ but only oneself in actually understanding why changing is necessary and how one can practically do it – in this:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get so infatuated with the idea of ‘change’ being able to exist within art, which you know in terms of the large scope of what art is, this idea of ‘change’ is already a limitation, a definition that is coming strictly from who I am and what I am walking in my life, which is very much aligned with ‘changing myself ‘ – thus, I have to stop trying to fit the world, fit people’s idea of art into my own.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be gullible and somewhat stubborn in trying to fit ‘my idea’ of art into everyone else’s artistic creation, which then of course leads me to only criticize, judge it, see it as ‘not good enough’ or ‘pointless’ or plain ‘bullshit’ without realizing that I’m judging it from my own point of view that aimed to make of art ‘something life changing and revolutionary.’ Therefore, I realize that I have to STOP trying to impose my own ideas of what art was supposed to be as a catalyst or a way to change people’s minds/lives and instead of trying to measure ‘all art’ against my own idea/belief and perception of what ‘art should be, I have to rather use all judgments as a way to continue checking what exists within me as an expectative or assumption around art, as this is then how I can use art or anything else as a mirror to continue seeing where I am creating experiences and separation from what is here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play out the love and hate relationship toward art, which only signifies one thing: there are still remnants of self-definition within me according to ‘being an artist’ or wanting to stick to that profession as ‘what I studied’ or ‘who I was,’ because in a way I still wanted to try and ‘save the profession’ as ‘my choice’ and having done so in absolute clarity and conviction within myself; and so this was my attempt of trying to justify my decision thinking that I wasn’t so ‘out there’ or detached from reality when I chose to study this – but, at the moment I can see that I was in fact not really ‘grounded’ on Earth 10 years ago when I made such decision and that somehow I am still beating myself for it, which is not necessary – therefore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having chosen what I now judge as some self-conceited and self-importance and absolutely self-indulgent profession as ‘art’ which in this is in fact only judging and ‘dissing’ that which didn’t ‘turn out to be what I expected’ and so, I realize that I have gone back and forth within this experience in the past of the ‘love and hate relationship toward art,’ but the problem is that I still tried to ‘suit my idea’ of what art should be in everything that I continue to see/watch and consume as ‘art,’ instead of realizing that I have to absolutely let go of the idea that I once held about art, let go unconditionally of my past choices in life, of my past ‘mindset’ and as such, stop any judgments around this point within me.

I commit myself to see art for what it is: a series of visual or experiential-based objects or images or actions wherein one is challenged to see reality with another pair of eyes and get to see reality from each person’s mindframe and perspective – thus to take it ‘for what it is’ as an individual or collective expression, instead of continually trying to see ‘where or how is this in any way changing the world?’ which is My idea of what art should be and the reason why this conflict still would emerge within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘the past me’ as vain and superfluous for having chosen such a career and now in one way or another wanting to throw shit at it, which is not really acceptable at all, because art as any other action and creation that we do in this world, is part of what we also have to take responsibility for. Thus my way to contribute to it, is not to ‘bash’ something because it did not ‘fulfill’ my expectations upon it, but rather take the words that I had once associated with art / being an artist and live them myself in the way that I see is supportive and best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to having said this morning ‘where the hell was I when I decided to study art?’ and say so with a sense of regret and disdain toward me and so toward everything and everyone involved in such practice, instead of realizing that if I did this same kind of reproachment for everything else that I see we have done ‘wrong’ in our lives, I would live in constant reproachment which is obviously not necessary at all as in that, we only trap ourselves in guilt and remorse, instead of focusing on what is required to be changed HERE.  

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that what’s hiding behind this is me not wanting to admit that it was my own starting point toward art that defined my now judgment toward ‘art’ which is not about ‘art’ but about me and how I was in fact living and acting in a self-absorbed manner and was seeking for the kind of things like fame, fortune, all the money and the ‘good life’ as well as bashing the system while earning good money, lol – so I realize that I have to simply admit to myself the kind of decisions that I made in the past, the reasons behind it and that there is no way that I can ‘turn back time and change my decisions and career choice’ because I do realize that the decisions I made in my past were absolutely ‘congruent’ to my mind-frame, my interests, my aspirations in the past and within this, I have to absolutely let go of me trying to ‘make sense’ of my initial ambitions and desires in life so as to justify them, and try and see them with a ‘good light’ so to speak, which is not really necessary to now super impose some ‘goodness’ to it, because that would simply imply that I am still judging my past life and decisions as something ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ or ‘self-interested,’ which is not really necessary once that I realize I have simply moved on from that phase in my life and my interests and aim in life have veered substantially from how I used to think 10 years ago, which I am of course grateful to myself for as well and for all the past moments that led to this realization.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my dissatisfaction with my past choices upon every other artwork or artist I see and get to know of by judging their work and activity in all possible ways wherein I diminish it to being ‘pointless’ and ‘useless’ and taking this as a ‘fact,’ without realizing that all of these were only self-judgments that I have created around ‘art’ based on my own judgments toward myself and my past.

Therefore I commit myself to stop wanting to impose my idea of what ‘art should be’ upon others’ creations and simply redefine the word for myself to live as the actual creator of my life within the principles that I have established for myself of self-responsibility, self-introspection, self-forgiveness and self-correction as I see that this is what I have realized is the genuine way to do what I always aimed doing through art, which is changing myself and so with that, changing the world – therefore I hereby let go of the desire to ‘change the world’ through art  or attempt to make of art that ‘one point that changes the world’ which is also not ‘the point’ here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as a human being desire to do something ‘more than myself’ through objects, experiences, artifacts outside of myself and now judging art for what I believe or assume ‘artists’ are aiming to do, which is another judgment coming from what I used to do with art itself, instead of realizing that art can be used as a bridge for self-investigation, yet it is not ‘the change’ in itself at a massive level that I wished it to be at some point, as I realize that self-change and self-realization cannot in any way be something done through only one action, one object, one image and have an effect ‘en masse’ – there are no magic tricks on this.

 

I commit myself to stop judging art, artists, art collectors, art supporters and everyone that enjoys art and instead see ‘art’ within the realm of any other human activity that we do at the moment which means that everything we are and do is yet to be walked through a process of self-realization and self-correction, which means there cannot be something that is genuinely ‘supportive’ if there is no foundation to understand such support or what would be supportive to ‘change oneself’ or ‘change the world’  – thus I am the one that has to stop seeing art through the eyes of ‘practical change’ and/or ‘practical relevance for self-change’ wherein I then create a righteousness to create ‘negative’ judgments toward it, which is once again falling in the judgmental trap that leads nowhere and in fact then I would support the continuation of separation, reactions, judgments and division in the world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that because I studied art, I have ‘an authority’ to bash it which is really only playing the same critique conundrum that I have also criticized in the past, instead of seeing art or anything else as just expressions that each one of us will have to take self-responsibility for, for the intent, the purpose and the experience within which it was created – thus, I am no one to judge anyone or anything for what it is, I can only reflect myself upon the world and thus take responsibility for my judgments, my experiences, my expressions ‘toward others’ and always realize it has nothing to do with art per se, with artists or with the artworks themselves, but with myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still have wanted to control ‘my vision’ about art and so be able to ‘measure all other art’ according to what I had defined as ‘art,’ not realizing that this definition of ‘art’ is not even certain for people in art creation themselves. So, this is once again a point to show how when trying to ‘fit in’ one’s definition upon something/someone, because  each definition is created in one’s mind, it will always be a source of conflict to try and define something that in its nature is not meant to even be ‘defined’ as such, thus I see that my point of control was coming also from self-interest and still wanting to somehow remain with the dignity of having studied something ‘meaningful’ or ‘more than’ any other career, which would then lead me to play a value game that is once again of the mind and of consciousness definitions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still go and see art in the hope that I will find something that is ‘life changing’ which is why every time I obviously come out without ‘anything’ or ‘nothing learned’ because I am seeing it all through the eyes of ‘come on, art exhibit, change me, change my life!’ which is impossible of course, it would be like thinking that praying to the image of a god or a saint will change your life, which is simply a delusion.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having ever been fascinated with creations because I have now judged this as ‘vain’ instead of realizing that just as anything that we create in this world, we can appreciate it for what it is in its physicality and no longer having the ‘artistic value-frame’ with which I was trying to measure it against, as this is once again trying to control and impose my own perspectives and experiences toward ‘art’ itself upon others’ creations. It would be like trying to define which human being is more ‘beautiful’ than another or which tree is ‘more expressive’ than another – it is really pointless and a waste of breaths to be dwelling upon this kind of questions, because ultimately if there’s something in art is that precisely this whole ‘valuation’ scheme is meant to be broken or questioned at least.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have judged this point as ‘petty’ or ‘non important’ or there being more ‘relevant things to blog about’ but, I realize that due to the actual judgmental view that emerged within me while watching Marina Abramović’s documentary and when getting to know of artists gathering to create something around people that have disappeared through political reasons, it was then a point to of course review and open up within myself so that I can align this one point within me and my day to day living and so stop the judgmental me toward art or artists as a constant source of conflict.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have some ‘right’ to judge something because of having ‘studied’ it, which is essentially a belief learned from how our system operates with licenses and such, without realizing that a judgment will always be a judgment specifically when it’s made in an attempt to debase or ‘debunk’ something as to ‘make it less’ in a way, wherein then my judgment becomes in my mind something ‘superior’ to point out.

 

In this the application is actually to ensure that I can investigate all things and keep what’s best, instead of investigating all things, judge and criticize with an attempt to ‘debase’ something and then place my judgment as ‘superior’ which is obviously a destructive and consequential way of looking at things.

I realize that I can use anything and anyone in my world as a mirror, and in this, whichever I may think, believe and perceive relates to ‘another’ is in fact about myself, because I can only think/judge something about someone  if I have judged myself in the same way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was in fact desiring to ‘take a position’ or ‘take a side’ in relation to art because of the self-definition I have created within and towards ‘art’ which is how one then creates a sense of ‘righteousness’ as in having ‘one stance’ in relation to it, which is all knowledge and information based, it is not at all considering what is common sensical or looking at what’s supportive within something – but instead, immediately putting on the ‘judgmental glasses’ and ‘finding fault’ eyes going into ‘attack’ mode to point out all the ‘flaws’ but all of these flaws are pointed out within the starting point of me already seeking to ‘debunk’ another, which is quite the usual nasty game that we play when we want to impose our own mind/righteousness, what we believe is ‘right’ above others.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to question the ‘impulse’ that I sometimes have in relation to wanting to talk about something/someone in an attempt to ‘debunk’ them while still holding a judgment with experience in it as to ‘prove it wrong’ – instead of realizing that I can talk about something/someone without having to resort to taking an antagonist stance toward it, but simply be able to reference it, to look at it in common sense and then  focus on reflecting any judgment back to myself, that’s the only way one can really develop self-honesty, and stop only criticizing things for the sake of feeling ‘righteous’ about something or someone and so justify my experience toward something or someone, in this case, my ‘experience’ toward art which shouldn’t exist at all as an experience.

In this it is to realize that any experience that I have toward something/someone, it indicates I have created a relationship to it, and so it becomes a point for me to take self-responsibility for which means: it’s never about ‘art’ itself, it’s about how I see it, who I am toward it and this is then a much more supportive starting point to look at art and visit art galleries, to see ‘what comes up within me,’ instead of visiting and looking at art from the starting point of ‘proving it wrong’ or wanting it to ‘match my ideal’ of art, which is why all this back and forth friction toward it emerged: it’s all an inside job.

 

I realize that ourselves as human beings tend to seek for answers or ‘find ourselves’ ‘out there’ instead of realizing that everything we require is already here, as ourselves. So in this, I commit myself to stop judging anything that we do/use in order to get to this point of self-realization, wherein I see that art can be used as a tool of self-reflection as with anything else in the world and what we create and do within it. This is where I then have to realize that my process and realizations cannot be the same as others’ and so, I have no authority to judge others’ processes, ideas, beliefs and perceptions – this process is about self-responsibility so here I then commit myself to always see art as a cool point of self-reflection wherein I stop all judgments ‘toward’ art or artists themselves, but rather see ‘who am I’ toward it and use that for my own process of self-honesty.

 

I commit myself to integrate the realization that everything that I judge or criticize in a judgmental manner is and only has to do with myself and the relationships I have created toward something/someone in my past, and so I can only look at things/people objectively where I can first identify if there is any reaction, take it back to self wherein I see the origin of such judgment toward it, do a self-reflective analysis on it in order to support me in common sense to immediately realize: I am imposing my past definitions upon this moment here –  and so I then focus on seeing, watching, reading and participating in anything related to art for what it is – no hidden agendas allowed within me.

 

For a review on the documentary:

• Podcast: Marina Abramović: The Artist is Present

 

 

 

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303. Competition: War Against Each Other – Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize the freedom to do whatever  we want to do onto another/ free will is a basic mechanism to justify perpetual war against each other.

 

The system is a reflection of our own mind, once that we have placed a common sense solution to competition in the previous post, I walk here the Self Forgiveness process for the competitive traits that I can see have been the basis of externalizing these desires and make it our capitalist system’s base foundation of selfish intent.

 

Continuing from :

• 281.The Benefits of Redefining Rewards in Equality
• 283. Private Property and Equal Money Capitalism
• 284. Capital Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
  • 285. Who Taught us What We Want in Life?
  • 286. The More Goods we Own, the More Good we Are?
• 288. Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
  • 287. You get Happy with your Paycheck?
  • 289. Our Lives as Money-Making Machines
  • 290. How to End Slave Servility? Equal Money
  • 291. First Learn to Love thy Thyself
• 293. Services in Equal Money Capitalism
  • 295. Human Desire: Profitable Drive for Slavery
• 296. Profit in Equal Money Capitalism
• 297. Why Are We Never Satisfied?
• 298. Accumulating Consequence through Capital Accumulation
• 299. More for You is Less for Me: Self Forgiveness
• 300. Redefining Accumulation of Capital in Equal
• 301. The Rules to Play the Game
• 302. Competition in Equal Money Capitalism

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept inequality as an inherent trait existent within us all based on external considerations based on knowledge and information that has turned into positive and negative traits that make ourselves as humans greater or lesser than others, which is a mind process imposed onto physical reality wherein we’ve learned that such disparity is in fact real and a cause to justify one’s living conditions and social standards upon which we identify ‘who we are’ based on ‘what we have’ in society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider wits and someone’s knowledge and information a valuable trait that conditions someone to be ‘more’ or ‘less’ than others, which then became a reason to define who gets ‘the most’ and who gets the least, based on patterns of strength and weakness, which indicates that competition in itself stems from the need for survival that we then used to define ‘who we are’ toward each other.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed a comparison point to then become the reference point for me to desire what others have and within this, realizing that the way to obtain it would be through directly competing to aim at the same outcome/ end and in this, within desiring the same thing, the competition is then forcing each one to destroy or subdue one another since no two bodies can get the same thing/ end at the same time, same goes with wanting ‘the most’ wherein such opportunity is not a given thing to everyone equally.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never realize that the one I was fighting against inimically was another part of myself that I was opposing and waging war against based on me desiring to have the most/have that which others wanted as well in order to win and remain as the one that was able to overcome all obstacles and surpass others, which is seen as  a triumph instead of seeing it as the brewing pot of inequality.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed competition as a means to strengthen one’s power without realizing that such power is based on having to subjugate others in order to have such position of grandeur as a mastering in reality which is rewarded with money, meaning that the person that plays the game in the most effective way =becomes the winner, but as we have realized, such game is not based on rules that lead to Equality but can only be one is one is willing to abuse and neglect another part of self. This is the basis of the winners in society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use competition as a means to aggrandize myself, setting a goal not based on a common sense aim that will make myself a better person as myself and others, but drive such competition in order to continue growing/expanding such power – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to make of competition a energetic drive to have more than what our general sustenance and conservation requires wherein the Experience of getting more/having more/ conquering/ winning against others was experienced as a powerful act, a powerful experience wherein we stopped seeing common sense and measure, and became a driving force to perpetuate the same powerful experience that winning against others creates.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see this competition as a legitimate way of ‘winning’ and seeing it as a ‘fair game’ without realizing that winning over others, creating is already an accepted disparity that we’ve learned to laureate and denigrate accordingly, becoming one of the inherent flawed self experiences within humanity when realizing that not everyone could be a ‘natural winner’ because we submitted ourselves to playing a game where some had to always be below for a few to be on top.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed a self experience of empowerment when winning a competition which then became an addictive experience, taking pleasure at contemplating one’s conquest and dominion and power which leads to further pursuit of power even through  the one that is already obtained is sufficient, the drive for ourselves as humanity to seek for more power is a disease that has become a pervasive economic system that is existent by default in everyone’s mind now, wherein we learn to continue winning, earning and having more and more and never consider a point of sustainability within such power and dominion, but all excesses instead are pursued, accepted and allowed.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience the contrary of this zealous experience when winning/having it all, and veering toward grief and dissatisfaction when being a ‘lower’ as in having someone else reaching and attaining that which one also desired, without realizing that such negative position is only the counter act of living in a fixed game where there would always be winners and losers based on a set of traits that were not equally existent in every being, instead of us having provided equality to all and within that no ‘goal’ would be existent outside of the common well being, but instead, we supported a minority’s ambitions and dreams and forgot about all of those that by default were not even considered to play the game.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to never consider another as an equal-value to myself, but always seeing another as a potential enemy to overcome, a potential grabber of that which I am placing my eye upon which leads to an unspoken fear and rivalry that is accepted and allowed as a ‘fair game’ that has been externalized as a regular comparison and competitive interaction between beings wherein all that matters is one winning, and never really considering a common goal and a common well being.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see the word competition implies fighting and rivalry, but instead learned to see it as a way to improve everyone’s living condition, when in fact competition also means the ongoing battle to continually get more and the most of that which others also want and desire, creating a point of  jealousy an justify it as ‘how things work.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify invading, conquering something that I could entitle myself to, wherein such fight or demand for obtaining the best/  the most is now embodied as a reputation that should be ‘maintained’ throughout one’s  time wherein I have lived by the statement that ‘not everyone can attain this,’ and as such, justify it with knowledge and information or physical attributes and experiences that should not take part of defining who one person is, as within this basic principle, all forms of separation then should cease to exist.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to relate wars directly related to competition wherein the ability to invade , have security and protection for my own benefit, justified any damage done onto others in separation of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize how competition when lived as a matter of life and death is violent, wherein the outcome is inequality at all times, leading to a constant war against one another, which implies that a constant competition dwindles any opportunity for real freedom and expression, since it means a constant state of survival and fear, which becomes the reality of a fearful and anxious man that we’ve become, fearing each other all the time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to function according to this constant competitive mode against other human beings as a ‘default mode’ wherein I never questioned why I would compare myself to other human beings and generate fear when it came to being ‘less than’ and create a better experience if being ‘more than’ others in my mind, never realizing how I was being the very promoter of competition according to how I learned to act and be around other people, and see them not as team members but as potential competitors that I had to measure at all times to see ‘who I am’ in relation to them. ‘

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the moment there is no common sense in our living conditions, as in working together as equals to live in a sustainable manner, competition was the way with which we accepted injustice, disparity and inequality as a usual social condition of man comparing himself onto others and generating a secretive war to win against others, which means that we have never lived in a state of actual peace and common weal when a single man competes against another inimically.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that private property has made competition a  possibility between men in society, wherein everyone fights against one another for the same property, dominion, power over something or someone to get the most and have such ownership define the person as to ‘who he/he is,’ never considering how there cannot be such real entitlement of a piece of land and resources to a single being, since the Earth is of the Earth and we can only adjust ourselves to use it the most convenient and self-supportive manner wherein everyone is equally supported.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the desire for peace resides in the fear of death, which is what drives all competition ultimately, a desire embodied by positive experiences, a desire to obtain the most, the best not as a self-directive outcome, but the single stance of competition already implies fear to be out of the game/lose the game in this constant war against one another.

 

 

Solution:

I commit myself to live equality as myself as an individual that stops seeing others as enemies and people to surpass in any way, stopping seeing people as enemies and rivals since that indicates an inherent self interest to be ‘more’ than others.

 

I commit myself to live the understanding that a real state of freedom and power can only exist in equality where no men desires what the other has, and to make this statement possible in our current society, we require to establish a state of law that supports this realization of Equality wherein every being is equally supported with money to live as a result of their contribution to maintain and sustain our current system.

 

I commit myself to reform the educational system that includes parenting and school-systems wherein we stop promoting competition based on winning and losing and as such, establish competitions as a constructive self-reference to improve ourselves, our living skills by becoming our own standard of what is best for all.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that as long as I fear another human being, I am recreating fear and as such competition and its extreme which I wars – I direct myself to instead consider common sense as what’s best for all at all times

 

I commit myself to stop the desire to have what another has, since competition i s currently fueled by desires toward that which we don’t have.

 

Rewards:

I realize that the moment that we establish a common ground for all human beings of equal support and equal consideration as a basic living right and law, we will be able to stop fearing each other, stop fighting against each other and stop seeing each other as enemies and this is the only way in which true freedom and peace can exist:when no man fears another based on a state of survival, but instead come to the realization that we can only operate in a functional and sustainable manner if we support each other as equals.

I realize that the moment that we don’t have to ‘sell ourselves’ in order to get the necessary to live, but change the definition of work as a contribution in equality to make of our lives a sustainable system wherein everyone is equally supported the same way that we will support to make of our lives sustainable.

Giving and receiving in Equality means that the only competition available is only toward ourselves in order to better our conditions, to become efficient in our use of the resources, of ourselves as work force and intent in our principled living in common sense.

There is enough for everyone, eradicating scarcity and other beliefs of necessary limitation should be considered only as a remedy to make ourselves aware of what we in fact require to live and what we don’t, in this removing the ‘power’ in itself to own and possess, and instead focus on mutual support to live as equals, a real state of freedom.

Quod tibi fieri non vis, alteri ne feceris: do not do unto others what you do not want done to yourself

 

For further reference, read  the Equal Money Wiki

• Place your questions as the Equal Money Forum and Equal Money Capitalism at Quora

• Visit the Group Capitalism vs. Equal Money group on Facebook.

• Read the Equal Money Wiki

• Read Economist’s Journey to Life

 

 

Further Support and General Information:

• Desteni

• Desteni Forum

• Desteni Lite Process – Online Free Course to take the first steps to walk in Equality with us

• Desteni I Process

• Equal Money System

To Understand Money-Consciousness, hear the following awesome series:

• The Soul of Money

 

Blog:

• Day 299: I Refused Enlightenment

288. Goods and Equal Money Capitalism

 

Continuing from:

• 287. You get Happy with your Paycheck?
• 286. The More Goods we Own, the More Good we Are?
• 285. Who Taught us What We Want in Life?
• 284. Capital Goods and Equal Money Capitalism
• 283. Private Property and Equal Money Capitalism
• 282. What do Spirituality and War have in Common?
• 281.The Benefits of Redefining Rewards in Equality

For context on redefining capitalism, read: Day 180: The Word ‘Capitalism’ in ‘Equal Money Capitalism Redefined

 

Goods

“In economics, a good is something that is intended to satisfy some wants or needs of a consumer and thus has economic utility. It is normally used in the plural form—goods—to denote tangible commodities such as products and materials.”

– source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Good_(economics)

 

“A commodity, or a physical, tangible item that satisfies some human want or need, or something that people find useful or desirable and make an effort to acquire it. Goods that are scarce (are in limited supply in relation to demand) are called economic goods, whereas those whose supply is unlimited and that require neither payment nor effort to acquire, (such as air) are called free goods.”
Read more: http://www.businessdictionary.com/definition/goods.html#ixzz2JcHGO32h

 

 

Problem:

• Turning life into a commodity means that we’ve placed a price tag onto everything, making of this world a ‘market place’ where all that matters is profit and not the actual meaning/value of such product a a means to support Life. This is leading ourselves to the brink of self-destruction in an Economy where all that matters is obtaining the highest GDP for nations to compete in this global competition for the winning price of being the most developed economy, but such numbers never regard the actual living condition of beings, resources, animals and the damage done to the environment in such ‘transformation process’ of our living-resources to mere assets

 

• Wealth is the defined by the amount of goods produced and consumed without realizing that money defines who gets the opportunity to produce such goods and the availability of resources, which is what leads many countries to invade others for the sake of obtaining such fulfilling need as the necessary goods to sustain laws of supply and demand, maintaining artificial values that in no way represent a pricing system created and destined to create a profit that represents the real cost of production that all goods should present.

 

• We have given a name to resources for the sake of fitting into a belief-system that is our current economic system, becoming goods that are then suited to fit certain necessary patterns to create enough profit within a system where not a single denomination of money has been based upon life itself. This makes of our current system a great complex system of values that have no correlation to physical reality, and this is imposed to everything that can be sellable, such a everything that we denominate goods.

 

• A lot of stuff is being created for the sake of profit, without such products being of indispensable need for human consumption and living condition- therefore, a lot of pointless jobs, industries and marketing purposes are destined to promote ‘goods’ that are far from being supportive for human consumption.

 

• Animals, plants, nature are being extracted from their natural habitats in order to be turned into goods that can generate more profit – think of animals in a zoo, circus, ‘exotic plants’ or entire territories that become another factory machine to extract resources that turn into goods in a market with ‘free range’ and no scrupulous to decide what type of products are in fact being created as a necessity in the populace’s conception of what a ‘good’ means.

 

• Clandestine goods are beyond the legal framework of regulations that can ensure the quality and nature of such goods are in fact beneficial for human use and consumption – this is a grave and ever escalating problem that only exits as such to illegally evade taxation and other permits that often violate human rights, societal codes of dignity and honor of living beings.

 

Solution:

• Goods will no longer follow laws of inflation and depreciation according to market forces – or a few being’s decisions upon pricing – but will sustain a fair constant pricing that represents the recognition of the work/time invested upon the extraction, manufacture, transportation of such product.

 

• Most of the production will be based upon covering necessary means to live life and satisfy/ better our living conditions, which means that anything that is less than supportive for human life will simply not have the workforce, resources and money destined for its production –this is how we’ll clear the space from useless products that do not benefit our living interaction and condition.

 

• The good stuff as all the products that are meant to better our living condition  is what we will keep, sustain and procure in our new way of handling money as a means to buy what physically fulfills our living condition – this means that the definition of goods changes to being that which truly enriches life as a whole, as a community.

 

• Free Stuff only makes our eyes go wide in excitement because of how we have – in the first place – restricted ourselves from our ability to have equal access to the Earth’s resources and all the tools and equipment that we have discussed within the previous blog 284. Capital Goods and Equal Money Capitalism –thus, recognition of there not being Free stuff implies that we then learn how to value life and work for it accordingly within the understanding of sustainability of as system where life is managed and maintained through an equal agreement of responsibilities and rights to profit in an equal manner.

 

• Money won’t serve as a dominant factor within our transactions for the sake of profit making – the quality and nature of the good is what is of utmost importance, respecting all sentient beings from becoming profitable products in an abusive manner.  This means that everyone’s freedom to purchase and consume will be regulated by the sheer availability of that which will be made available to consume before it hits the market

 

• Clandestine production will cease to exist once that there is no need to create piracy in the name of unregulated profit/to evade certain copyright and patent licenses – this will in turn also reduce criminal activities also linked with the type of black market productions that are mostly also a market that is Not beneficial for beings’ lives.

 

Basic Solutions:

Capital as Life At the moment – capital is referred to as intermediary goods – such as machinery and warehouses. Within Equal Money Capitalism – capital will refer to Life and include resources and people. Therefore – to value capital, means to value Life – and thus, all capital and all Life should be valued equally. For this – full employment is again a necessity.

 

Free Stuff Within Equal Money Capitalism no free stuff will exist. This is one of the basic principles within economics (and physics) – There Ain’t No Such Thing As A Free Lunch (TANSTAAFL). With anything that is produced or consumed – there is always a cost. If this cost is not represented and considered within the pricing of the particular good or product, one is in fact stealing. Currently, free stuff is used to compete for consumers at the cost of the labour force creating the goods – because they will be paying the difference.

source: Day 162: EQUAL MONEY CAPITALISM – The Way Forward

 

 

PRICING Pricing on products will no longer be based on expensive or cheap– or making profit –but rather sustainable pricing that ensures enough money in circulation to make the system function effectively.   Profit Profit is not to be understood in the same way as it is now. At the moment – profit is what is left after wages have been paid and production costs are covered. Within EMC – there will be no wages – your profit will be your wage. So – every time a product is scanned when it is bought – the computer sees what percentage of the price is allocated to whom – and immediately the money-allocation happens accordingly. So – there’s no need to wait a year to calculate profits – it will be immediate.

source: Day 164: Equal Money Capitalism – Preparing the Road for Change

 

• Equal Money Capitalism: We shift our focus from producing goods in the name of profit to placing our attention to what is here as Life and requires Life support – and accordingly resources are distributed. We’ve objectified our economic system, caring only about things such as goods and money – while losing all touch with what really matters, as being Here, being Alive and Living on this Earth in a way that is enjoyable for all Now and in the Future. – Day 183: The Myth of No Alternative and Equal Money Capitalism

 

 

Rewards and Communal Benefits:

 

• We will stop feeling like we’re losing/abusing/ desiring to own more, because the understanding of how private property is redefined to use what is here to produce what benefits the community/ society, since money won’t be the driving factor to buy or sell, but a real enjoyment and actual necessity of the good that is bought/consumed

 

• A new way of interacting with our environment and all natural resources will emerge, since there will be no need to be converting everything into a sellable item, this will give us the gift of realizing we are no longer abusing life in means of profit – clear conscience is what real peace of mind implies.

 

• Life is Equal  – therefore giving and receiving in Equality as in having equal access to what we require to Live  is the main Principle of Equal Money = redefining money into a means that values life as a physical aspect that we give and receive, a ‘token’ for our agreement to ensure that any form of profit generated from the wholesale of goods is given and received equally as a recognition of the support and work done to benefit the whole – there will then be no desire to accumulate, but an understanding of sustainability and ecological considerations of preservation

 

• No more animal abuse for the sake of turning them into goods that are sold as sybarite means to satisfy people’s ‘tastes’ that only exist because of the current power money has and the ability to buy the abuse of life.

 

• Stepping out of our current self-induced state of hypnosis wherein we’ve made of money our god, instead of regarding life as a whole that must be regarded as the one and only real value in this world, and that includes All = Equal Value = Equal Money = Life for all as all in an interdependent arrangement of work force to produce that which contributes to create a real meaning of the word Good in our every transaction with money,

 

• For Further Reading on Goods: http://equalmoney.org/wiki/Goods

• Place your questions as the Equal Money Forum  and Equal Money Capitalism at Quora

• Visit the Group Capitalism vs. Equal Money group on Facebook.

• Read the Equal Money Wiki

• Read Economist’s Journey to Life

 

Further Support:

• Desteni

• Desteni Forum

• Desteni Lite Process – Online Free Course to take the first steps to walk in Equality with us

• Desteni I Process

• Equal Money System

 

 

Blogs:

• Redefining Faith, Belief and Believe (Part Two): DAY 286

• Redefining Faith, Belief and Believe: DAY 285

• Day 286: Care for the Asthmatic and the Charismatic

• Day 287: Asthma – How I Prevented it in my Children

 

 

Interviews:

• The Soul of Money 

137. Who am I within Choosing?

 

Fear: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to have it all’ while facing a point of decision between two or more options wherein the fear that emerges is ‘missing out on something’ by choosing one point or the other, instead of realizing that a want, need and desire exist as a mind point that can in fact be grounded and ‘landed’ to transform it into a physical practical and self-aware decision to be, do and live from the starting point of what’s best for all.

 

When and as I see myself fearing losing ‘the other one’ point as ‘option’ that I believed and perceived myself to have, I stop and I breathe – I realize that such point of possession to create a sense of ‘winning’ one and ‘losing’ the other only exists depending on the point of preference that I have created in my mind. Thus it is to instead change the starting point of who I am within having to ‘choose’ and instead of ‘choosing,’ simply turning the point into an informed decision that I can stand by for eternity.

 

I realize that the perceived loss is not real as it only exists within my mind, therefore it is to precisely walk the realization that I cannot fear losing something/someone that I cannot ‘own,’ thus it is to simply stop recreating the relationship in my own mind that holds no physical foundation other than thoughts, feelings and emotions when going into a conflict due to ‘fearing’ losing that other choice that only exists at a mind level. Instead I asses the points within the physical reality and stopping judging one or the other as ‘superior’ and ‘inferior’ as that’s only mind-assessing a point, instead of looking at it physically

 

I commit myself to realize that whenever I have ‘two choices’ and see myself wanting to ‘have it all’ as a point of mind possession to end up ‘winning,’ to see and realize that a point of choice can exist within the consideration of its viability and how plausible it is in this physical reality – as it is also a point to assess within practical terms instead of only viewing it as a point of preference as a ‘choice’ of a positive or a negative outcome, as that limits the point and reduces both options to simple inferior/ superior points as defined within the relationship we have formed with them in our mind, instead of walking it physically.

I see and realize that the first and primary point is walking my self equality and oneness wherein I cannot be defined by having/ not having/ holding one relationship to something/ someone, but instead are physically directed as points of support that I can align myself to without generating a desire and fear about it, but simply making decisions that are based on what is best for myself as all – and that’s the only valid point to take into consideration when making a decision. 

 

 

Thought:I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a point of leaving something/ someone behind/ missing out on something/someone which is placing a point of value/worth in separation of myself, missing out the actuality as the realization of who we are as one and equal wherein there can exist no loss nor gain in any way whatsoever.

when and as I see myself creating a point of conflict because of not wanting to ‘leave’ something/ someone behind in means of opting for the choice/ point that is in fact best for all, I stop and I breathe. I realize that there is no point of gain or loss within making an informed decision that is best for all, as all that I am is in fact here as one and equal and that what I decide to be/ become and support myself with, can stand within such equal and one consideration as I am the one that decides the starting point of  myself within what’s best for all.

In this I can ensure that I in fact assist and support myself within my process, creating a point of actual self-support wherein I do not define ‘who I am’ based on the options/ points that I decide to walk with/ support myself with or dismiss, but instead become actual living-physical decisions of what can work and what cannot work, and in this the mind’s experience is not relevant as a decisive factor to ‘what I choose’  as this ‘choice’ can only exist within the principle of what is best for all in fact –

 

I commit myself to see realize and understand that a decision made within the consideration of what is best for, all cannot have a point of ‘lack’ in itself, it is to then see the ‘lack’ and sense of ‘dismissing’ as mind-created experiences in order to keep myself within a point of conflict that cannot exist and do not have to exist if there is clarity and certainty within the decisions made within the principle of what’s best for all – thus I realize that any dubitative mode around something, must be looked at what I fear ‘losing,’ then realizing that point of loss as an actual illusion created only in my mind as I cannot in fact ‘own’ something/ someone – it is only a decision to walk in this or that direction within the consideration of what is in fact best for all.

 

 

Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of ultimate satisfaction as physical exploration wherein I can get ‘what I want ‘and within that, satisfy only a desire in my mind that in fact indicates a point that I have separated myself from – in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself through relationships to options/ choices that generate a point of conflict wherein I am the one that has created the conflict when not considering the point in practicality, but instead approach it at the level of desire/ want and need.

 

 

When and as I see myself imagining a point of happiness in relation to ‘having it all/ being able to keep the best of both worlds,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that when walking the points of separation toward one or the other points/ choices, I am in fact able to see what remains as a practical and physical solution, wherein there is no longer a ‘make believe’ reality of ‘what can be’ as hope in my mind, but instead consider the physical practicality of such decisions and how it can in fact work in a long term basis as a living-decision in my life, wherein I ensure that everything and everyone involved, are equally supported within such decision.

 

 

I commit myself to walk the realization of how any belief that I had wherein I can always ‘end up winning’ in my world and that everything always ‘turns to my favor’  is a lie – Instead I can practically decide to align any point in my world to a best for all decision wherein I no longer stand as a a relationship to such point of choice/ option but instead, integrate it as part of the decisions that are based on practical terms, instead of playing a Hollywood movie in my mind, fueling mind desires that are not required at all when the point at hand implies Real living decisions.

 

 

Backchat: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘but I want to have all options’ as an indication that any point that is sought to be possessed/ owned is in fact that which I have separated myself from, creating an energetic relationship in my mind of want, need and desire  – thus

 

When and as I see myself thinking ‘But I want it all/ I want to have all options’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that the BUT is already indicating a point of condition and restriction wherein I only Seek that which will give me an ensured point of ‘satisfaction’ in my mind, wherein the physical reality is not being considered. Thus it is to walk within the realization that the choices we make in our lives will determine the who we decide to be in our reality – and in that, only a principle of what’s best for al is what stands the test of time.

 

I commit myself to stop myself from holding two or more points in my mind as options that I Want and Desire to have/ own for my personal benefit, as it is within these points of desire as the mind that I create unnecessary conflict that I can see and realize are not necessary if I equalize such points to viable and practical solutions wherein I consider what it is that I am in fact willing to be and participate in throughout my life and in my world. 

Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of physical strain in my body due to existing as a diatribe in my mind based on seeking to fulfill points that I have separated myself from as desires and finding no way to ‘materialize’ them, as I see and realize that I can instead walk within/ through self forgiveness each relationship formed  to ensure that I am in fact considering the physical reality that is Here as all and everything in which I can decide what I will be/ live and become within opting for one point or another as the decision we make in our lives that will define who we are and will be.

 

When and as I see myself creating a point of strain at a physical level upon existing in a certain conflict, I stop and I breathe – I realize that a point of conflict that exists within myself as my mind is not taking the points to a physical and practical reality, but only fueling a point of conflict through thinking, backchat and internal conversations. Thus

 

I commit myself to breathe whenever I see myself wanting to ‘shove away’ thoughts that I consider as ‘not relevant’ and instead walk them through writing, applying self forgiveness to see what it is that I am in fact existing as in every moment and within this, ensure that I do get to know myself as my mind, as this is not about anything or anyone else but myself in such moment as the relationship that I have with myself as my mind. Then, once the point is walked writing, the practical considerations must be given direction to.

Consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not exist here as an absolute clarity of who and what I am and what I am willing to be and become based on the decisions I made – thus

 

When and as I see myself existing as an experience of inner conflict that manifests at a physical level, it is to investigate my own thoughts, my own immediate backchat, reactions and experiences so that instead of ‘shoving them aside,’ I can support myself to in  fact walk them within and through Self Forgiveness to then see and assess what are the points I am separating myself from as a desire, and instead, direct myself to consider the physical practicality of our living decision.

I realize that all decisions stand from and within the consideration of self-equality and oneness, wherein whatever I choose or not chose does not change ‘who I am,’ as such decision will be based within the consideration of who and what I am as one and equal to the points that I decide to align myself to.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that any decision I made stands as part of the self-agreement that I decide to give to myself as the realization that that which I will decide to live and stand by, will be the expression of myself as one and equal in its entirety – thus, it is to instead walk a practical physical living-projection to see what is viable, what is plausible and what  are the potential outcomes when opting for certain decisions in our lives.

I realize that the Who I Am within ‘Wanting to Have it All’ is in fact a mind that seeks to satisfy itself with positive experiences and call that ‘a life/ living’ and ‘fulfillment.’ We are already here, and any point we decide to live with and by, stands as a 1+1 addition, wherein one cannot be less or more than one plus one.

 

This is the point wherein Self-Honesty stands as the guiding point wherein all the perceived choices can be actually be taken and considered within the starting point of what is best for all and in that, there is no way I can fool myself, as it is plain to see that any point approached from the starting point of energy, will fall. Thus I direct myself to make decision, direct myself always within the consideration of the physical reality and what I am here to equalize myself to and as within the consideration of what is best for all.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Any Choice that Cause Harm to another Life Form, is NOT FREE.

I commit myself to SHOW that FREE Choice is to Be FREE to NOT ABUSE Life.” – Bernard Poolman*

Desteni

Desteni I Process

Equal Money System 

 

 

Blogs:

*Day 137: FREE Choice and True Activism

The Mind System’s Conscious-Mind Structural Resonance – Part 1 (Self-Forgiveness): DAY 137

 

Absolutely Supportive Interviews to get to know ourselves as choices, decisions and preferences as the mind:

• Reptilians – Visualizing my Future as Existence – Part 86

• Reptilians – Existential Guidance – Part 87

65. Treacherous System or Original Self-Deception?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that my trust has been betrayed in the system, that I have been tricked and deceived by ‘others’ that ‘abuse my power,’ without realizing that I was the first one that accepted and allowed to give my power of Equality away to live as a mind-system that would only equate everything that is here as Life as separate from myself,  turning everything into a monetary value in separation of myself as Life.

I realize that the quality of the system being Treacherous is merely reflecting back to ourselves the Lie that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to build around life itself: a system of values/ worth that begins with words that define a fictional existence of ‘value’ in separation of myself as life, wherein all words entail a relationship that I create toward everything and everyone I see, which reveals the extent of the deception as only definitions/ limitations can exist in inequality.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to place ‘trust’ in a system of values where Life was clearly never considered as Equal and in that, believing that such system was created for the benefit and utmost care of each being on Earth, which is only a product of the propaganda and information that I have come to believe is Truth, just because of having learned that ‘those in power’ would be taking care of the best interest of the population, which is and has clearly been proven as the total opposite in fact.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn from a very young age to save money, to ponder money as something ‘important’ while creating an inner conflict as to who decided ‘what price’ to place to all things and why some things were cheaper than others? Without getting any straight answer which lead me to stop asking because ‘I asked too many questions’ and instead accepted and complied to simply get used to the idea of being able to buy things with paper and metal coins, which seemed absurd all the way when what is here is no one’s property but the Earth’s itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a system wherein lies are told from the get-go in the form of accepting a fictional value system such as money which implies that first ‘life lesson’ of separation toward children: you require money to buy what you want and in that accept money as truthful and real, believing that this ‘agreement’ of using money as a way to obtain things was best for all – never realizing that it was in that moment that I stopped asking questions about money and how the banks worked that I simply complied to game and ‘played along’ with becoming a ‘good saver’ and learning to value money over life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that everything that was produced in the system was in the best interest of all, wherein I could not fathom that there could be products that were not fully tested to its ultimate consequences – or tested on animals – and could be sold/ or providing services where the health of the person would be taken care of with utmost specificity, only learning much later and to my anger and absolute awe that a lot of abuse was taking place in the name of money.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to only ‘swallow’ all of those reactions I would get whenever I heard an explanation on how the system works, wherein all the anger and frustration of feeling powerless to change how ‘things worked’ in the world became layers of frustration and anger toward the system that I later on sought to escape or retaliate in my very own selfish mode of criticizing the system and seeking to be ‘separate’ from capitalism, due to my ignorance and absolute unawareness of my own responsibility entailed within the creation of this system by my own acceptance and allowance.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to be brainwashed to equate things to money, wherein that simple ‘logical’ equation lead me to accept the entire treacherous system as who I am, because I gave up the actual value of Life in Equality and started monetizing everything as numbers that varied according to ‘someone else’s laws and regulations’ that I stopped bothering to question, because of thinking that ‘people in power knew what they were doing’ due to the premise of learning how our government is supposed to take care of all the population and guard the implementation of the best policies for all, only much later realizing the extent of corruption that I got to be aware of within the political elites, which proved to me that I had been ‘deceived’ – yet it was my own deception, my entire acceptance and allowance for having assumed and taken for granted the system as something that would be designed in the best interest of all, not being aware of greed being a more powerful quality than that of ‘honesty’ and regard for Life.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself for having ignored how the ‘dissociation’ that I would experience in every moment that I would face ‘greed’ and taking advantage from certain positions in the system – linked to having more or less money – would stir this sense of ‘unfairness’ within me that I simply neglected because I saw that no one else was ‘caring’ to ask or know further about it, within this complying to how the rest would move/ be/ think and act wherein everyone seemed to be perfectly fine with how the system operated, thus I complied and ‘moved along’ because of assuming that things would be taken care of and done in the best interest of all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the physicality of money as an actual value in itself, wherein I learned that without money = I could not get anything, and in that, becoming very cautious/ fearful about money/ losing money, being very careful with what I would buy and start living in limitation and contention in order to always have money as a form of security in my life, always equating having money in my wallet as being secure, being powerful and being ‘prepared’ for any eventuality or emergency, which is accepting living in absolute survival wherein the very presence of absence of paper and metal coins with me would make a difference in how I act, how I move myself in the world and my relationship to all and everything.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept some things being ‘more’ expensive/ worthy than others within such monetary values

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept the bullshit explanations as to why some fruits were more expensive than others, which is the moment wherein I started realizing that the price of things was not ‘in itself’ but contained a series or processes that were also related to money wherein all that I am buying and consuming is a chain-massacre of fake values imposed onto life wherein the only way to obtain it, is through getting money which is a forced way to participate in the system – because if you question it and have no money = you simply die. Thus,

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to comply to the existence of a treacherous system wherein I believed that I was being cared for and later on realizing I was not, blaming it on ‘the system’ without ever seeing and reflecting back to myself all the series of moments wherein I gave into accepting the system ‘as is’ with no further questions asked.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed the deception of the system because of wanting to be a ‘good citizen’ and ‘complying to the rules and regulations’ which was actually stemming from fear of being punished, being wrong/ being bad, which I took as ‘normal’ and within that accepting a system of survival based on fear of punishment and further isolation from the rest of society, which is what jails represent as the impartation of the law.

 

I commit myself to continue debunking the most ‘obvious’ yet primordial acceptances of value as money in separation of myself as life, and how that has shaped the ‘who I am’ as an individual that currently uses money as a way to ‘survive in the system’ while realizing that everything that is Here is of the Earth is and should be granted in Equality for All – yet, because of the amount of lies we have bought as ‘truth’ in relation to the world-system of money, I am now walking the consequences of delegating and even negating my common sense to trust in the system that I thought ‘knew’ what was ‘best for me.’

 

I commit myself to write to investigate where and how I have built my own value schemes in accordance to the primary premise of things not being ‘equally worthy’ in this world, wherein I then learned that to be ‘special’ I had to place some things/ people of ‘more worth’ than others, such as beginning with favoritism as a child.

 

I  commit myself to reveal to what extent we have used the word ‘Trust’ as a way to blind ourselves to premises that only sound ‘logical’ to a mind trained in/ as Logic, wherein there is and has never been any common sense that could point out the most obvious points such as money being a fake-system, a belief-system that we use to empower some and deliberately abuse others to maintain a system based in inequality where ‘power’ can only exist as abuse of others through generating profit in a system that blatantly accepts it as a form of success.

 

I commit myself to establish the Equal Money System as this is the most obvious common sense we have ever missed in this reality and existence, and that we can only continue existing if we accept the fact that we have been living a LIE as the current world-system and that it will take self-honest and self-responsible beings to dare to correct the consequences of our gigantic mistake and deliberate spite toward life, in order to finally establish a world-order in and of Equality as Life.

 

I commit myself to continue debunking my own logical acceptances of the system, wherein logic stands as the basic ‘love for knowledge’ as truth, in a world-system where knowledge has become the weapon of choice to kill and abuse in the name of power over life.

Desteni

Desteni Forum

 

Mundo Abajo/ World upside down (2003)

 

Equal Money System Book:

• Equal Money – Future of Money – Volume 1

Common Sense Education on Money and the World System:

• How Energy and Money benefit from our Physical-Separation

• The Problem and Solution of Money and Energy

• Bernard Poolman – What is Money in the World?

• Bernard Poolman – Why Equal Money?

• Bernard Poolman – Freedom of Choice and Equal Money

• Bernard Poolman – Gold

• Failure is an Economic System

 

Blogs:

• Day 64: Will Power

• The Evolution of the Female: DAY 64

• Day 30: The design of desire

 

Day 47: Trust in a World of Money-matters

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly trust the world system I was born into and living in, because I was taught that the government is here to care for all us, to ensure that everything that requires fine-tuning to support the well being of individual’s lives and that all actions required execute this are conducted with no delay or hesitation, wherein all forms of poverty that I would witness in my surroundings became the acceptance of that which I thought was ‘unchangeable,’ because of believing that: if the government is here to protect us all, there must be something creating a great obstacle that is making it very difficult to change the current status of poverty in this country, and within that complying to the idea that there were ‘problems’ in the system that could not be solved, without realizing only the greed and desire for power over others were such ‘great obstacles’ that still remain as a way to justify the inequality in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly believe that there were actual ‘impossible’ things to do/ conduct in order to create an actual well-being for all living beings in my world and reality, wherein I had deposited all faith that the government was doing all that they could in order to solve the problems in the world, without realizing that the government is simply the representation of our own abdication to us participating in the decision making and the responsibility that should be inherent to all individuals by mere virtue of coexisting as equal parts of this reality, wherein no ‘single organ’ can be made responsible for all the decision making and the actions to solve any problem – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blindly accept ‘problems’ in the system as if it was an inevitable outflow of living in a world with many people, without ever questioning how it is that such problems have prevailed throughout history and there has been No Change and no definitive solution to them, wherein I accepted the inherent flawed quality of a system as a reality that could not be stopped, because of believing that politicians, people that were in charge of the institutions, law making and execution of justice were in fact doing ‘the best they could’ to solve such problems – without ever realizing that as long as there is a superior power over any form of law, principle or authority as what Money represents, we have abdicated our very own ‘right to live,’ and diminished it to a single side-viewed low-end experience of ‘living’ as survival-mode within a system wherein all problems stem from the inherent disregard of each others’ as equals.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to suppress the questions and observations about the world system that I had, because of the believe that I should trust that everything that is toward the benefit of all is invariably conducted to do so, without ever pondering why it is that we could have millionaires with exorbitant quantities of money – even more than ‘governments’ themselves – and have extreme poverty and starvation on the other side of the coin, which implies that the only interest that has always been at hand is greed and desire for power that is stronger than any best-for-all common sensical proposal that could benefit all individuals equally – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to accept a world of extreme polarities such as wealth and starvation wherein the reality of ‘who I am’ is defined according to being in one point in between such monetarily-defined polarities wherein we have deemed ourselves as ‘not powerful enough’ to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed as a world-system

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that poverty was a real ‘problem’ that had skim to none solutions, while making it acceptable to see massive deployment of wars conducted with exorbitant amounts of resources, wherein the belief that ‘peace’ and the need for ‘defense’ against latent enemies had to be ‘prevented’ by waging wars before it happens, wherein I then accepted war as something more important than carrying out massive social enterprises to support millions of beings living in extreme conditions of poverty and starvation with no other means to fend for themselves but the occasional ‘food aid,’ while believing that I must trust what my government is doing and that ‘they know better,’ without realizing that this entire world system has been built upon abuse, to continue and perpetuate abuse, where no life has actually been supported in any way whatsoever

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become jaded to political decisions, wherein I made it ‘acceptable’ that wars were able to be conducted for decades, spending exorbitant amounts of money on weapons, sustaining military, living facilities abroad, chemical warfare investigation, all forms of supersonic transportations and the most Avant-garde technological research and production only in the name of waging wars/ killing people/ stealing resources – within this neglecting and deliberately ignoring the absolute common sense facts wherein: if there were real intentions to support human beings in extreme impoverishment = it would have been conducted  the same way that wars are executed promptly and using all necessary resources – even building the necessary means  to do so, wherein there is no skimping on funds to deploy massive operations where there is a juicy reward awaiting the final battle – whereas supporting fellow living beings in need would mean little-to-no benefit to those that would invest in taking entire countries out of chronic financial crisis and states of dependency to charity/ aid programs that didn’t, don’t and will not ever solve the problem at its root, which is not based on lacking resources or scarcity of means to distribute them, but simply not being willing to do so because there would be no profit-making out of supporting others –

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to trust that the government/ the institutions were based on the benevolence to always ‘try and do good’ in this world, without ever actually investigating how all charity institutions and financial aid programs are based and created upon the sole purpose of re-inserting money back to the same monetary system that is preventing any form of real solution toward the billions of people that are having no means to live in dignity – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dumb myself, blind myself and deliberately follow the absurdity of living in a world where all necessary cutting of public expenses are conducted in the name of deploying troops overseas in the name of so-called defense of ‘homeland security’ and exterminating ‘all threats to our liberty,’ without ever questioning why is it that the focus is on protecting ourselves from a man-made thread as knowledge and information that I have accepted as ‘real,’ while the actual physical and tangible need and lack created through the same monetary system that is being defended through/ by wars, is side- viewed as a ‘non of our business’ social and political problem in ‘other sides of the world,’ yet being willing to help and ‘liberate’ others just because in doing that, the reward implies massive gain in and of resources that will add up to the never-ending conquering state of accumulating wealth as a means of control/ power, which we all as individuals have accepted and allowed as the ultimate way to conduct ourselves in reality: seeking to make the most our of anything and anyone to always win.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately blind myself from investigating why wars are massively supported through psychological warfare, wherein fear is instilled as a form to trigger the most uncanny justifications to go and wage war against ‘an enemy’ that is also constructed in the name of vindicating the most vile acts in the name of power and control over and of money in this world, of which I as an individual have tacitly agreed upon the moment that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I only have the right to live if having enough money to do so – and in this, becoming part of the masses that justify all means to get to such desired end of being wealthy/ powerful and linking this to an inherent ‘well being’ and optimum condition of the human being, without ever realizing that the mere acceptance of power is implying obvious abuse toward those upon which power is exerted on.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having become a prey of my own fears when it comes to political warfare, as I had trusted that ‘the government/ people in power ‘know’ what they’re doing’ and within this blind faith and belief, never question their decisions as I thought that such national security defense-mechanisms were in fact to the benefit of protecting ‘myself’ and ‘my loved ones’ wherein I then, through accepting such threats as real, gave permission and support to the vindication of wars as a means to reinstate ‘peace,’ which means that I over-looked the actual needs and problems in this world that require massive attention ‘at home,’ and making myself belief that ‘the real problem’ was ‘outside’ of ourselves – in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded by my own self interest, because: as long as ‘I’ am Not affected by such wars ‘at home’ – then I should not care/ worry or even ponder if it is the ‘right thing’ to do, because I am fine and being cared for  – thus it’s not my problem/ not of my interest – and through having followed this jaded perspective upon reality, I asserted myself as the selfish, self-seeking and self-indulgent individual that is willing to turn its back at the face of the most atrocious acts being conducted by self as fellow human beings, and walk way within the justification and excuse that ‘it’s not happening to me, why should I care?’ – wherein I then go back to my individual cave of security wherein money becomes the power to keep living in a self-interested greedy lifestyle, while in this same world, at the very same time, wars are being conducted in the name of keeping ‘my money’ as the ability to have power over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blind any form of care and consideration to study and investigate the world system and how it actually functions, due to the belief that its operational mechanisms were ‘out of reach’ for me, wherein I accepted then myself to see the authority/ government/ points of control as ‘superior’ to myself, and in that only ‘surrendering’ to accept the system ‘as is’ because ‘at least I have what I need to have a comfortable happy-go-lucky lives wherein I can comfortably watch wars being televised while I remain having food on the table, water, toilet, food, care, education and even entertainment to believe that ‘everything is fine’ and that I should not worry as ‘others’ are taking care of it all’   which implies accepting money as my god and savior and absolute disregard for anything or anyone that is being abused in the name of my personal power and satisfaction as the ‘god’ that I’ve been taught I can be when having enough money in my pocket.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could trust that other human beings that were in specific positions to do so, would take care of solving the massive problems of poverty, starvation and abuse through creating laws and executing social, political and economical policies that would benefit the well being of human beings without any hold or hesitation, disregarding the fact that I live in a world where wars/ killing people is conducted with more ease than supporting people in extreme conditions of poverty, famine and abuse.

 

I see, realize and understand now that I have accepted and allowed knowledge as a way to justify the most atrocious acts upon humanity/ ourselves in the name of money, and that I have been tacitly agreeing to it the moment that I have accepted this entire world-system of money to run ‘as is’ – which implies that the only solution to this world is becoming an equal participant in the decision making of policies that apply to all through the review of laws and principles that can ensure the well being of all beings is actually executed and never tampered in the name of personal interest as a deliberate act of abuse and oppression in the name of money.

 

I commit myself to continue educating myself about the world system and how it actually functions, as I see and realize that this is the first step to ensure that I take responsibility to correct all the points that I had blindly accepted and allowed as laws, policies and enforcements that denigrated, abused and violated life in all ways – and within this, become the solution by first educating myself to become an active participant within the decision making in the world wherein within living in and by an equality-as-life principle, no further abuse will ever be perpetrated in the name of ‘power’ and ‘control’ – as all forms of power and control will be dismantled the moment that we start valuing Life as the one an only value in this world.

 

I commit myself to install direct democracy as a goal for all human beings to finally understand that we can only thrive if we all live by the principle of equal rights = equal responsibilities, wherein laws will be then written and applied according to a principle of supporting all living beings equally – and taking equal responsibility for the functioning and sustainability of a system that will take care of all within an actual living neighborism of giving to each other what we want for ourselves – thus voting/ selecting and deciding what’s best for all in mutual consent of such policies, laws and enforcements being standing in the best interest of all equally.

I commit myself to stop my inner-battles and participation in the constant seeking of ‘my own good’ and ‘my own benefit’ while neglecting the reality that I abuse in every moment that I seek to satisfy my personal interests at the expense of others beings’ lives.

 

I commit myself to expose how any attempt to ‘do good’ within the current system is a futile act of actual self interest, wherein any form of ‘good’ is created through a temporary relief that money provides, yet money in itself remains as the source of conflict, separation and abuse – which implies that I must create a reform in the system from within, beginning with myself as an individual that understands how the current monetary system operates – which means that I commit myself to install the Equal Money System as the only way and solution to the problems in this world, along with proper individual education wherein we can learn how to live and coexist as equals, which implies that: all that we will ever accept as the future of this world and for the children to come, is a process of Self-Correction in Self-Honesty until it is done – this is to ensure that life is never again placed in front of the barrel of a gun.

 

“Famine – FAM (family) IN E (separation) – Famine exist due, to / because of the family of humanity not standing in and as equality and oneness, where we’re supposed to exist in equality and oneness – not leave any one behind, but the family of humanity has separated into families that only protect their own possessions as children, that eventually become possessed by the same mental state/condition of survival, protection and defense at the cost/expense of other human beings’ lives…time to sort out the families, and expand family to humanity, stop possessing children to let them stand as the future of this world in fact, until we live so – that no one is ever left behind again” Sunette Spies

 

 

Blogs that explain HOW we have abdicated our living authority to the mind authority:

• Day 46: TRUST ME!

• Day 39: Is Charity Greed?

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  Day 45: Life is the ONLY REAL VALUE

• Consciousness Energy-Authority – Conclusion: DAY 46

• 2012 The Reward World War

• Day 40: The You-Diss-All System in Me

• Day 11: I.O.U. Life as a Debt System of Power

• War Stops Here

• Witnessing: You’re Equally Responsible

• Anger towards Authority

• Birth Life – Not War

Day 47: The Evil Individual

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/day-47-evil-individual.html#

The Prophets of Damnation: DAY 47

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/prophets-of-damnation-day-47.html

 

Documentaries:

The Trap and The Century of the Self

Psywar – Full Documentary

 

Interviews:

The Consequences of Survival : the battle for survival only exists as a mind-driven parasite that has No physical common sense  – lessons from the human physical body and how it functions in an optimum way due to not being existing in inner battles of overpowering and subduing others. – 

 

Life Review – An Elite Philanthropist why giving money away to charities is supporting wars and the same monetary system that is owned by the elite. This series is the education required in this world to empower individuals within one single principle: Life in Equality as what’s best for all.

 

VLog:

2010 Equal Money System: WAR is Unacceptable – YouTube

2012 Gun Culture in America – YouTube

 

 

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Day 45: Rejoice when Others Fall

How come we haven’t asked ourselves: why do we enjoy and rejoice in seeing others fall?

What’s with our human nature wherein we expect others to fall, in the first place – being waiting for the moment when someone will finally give up and quit whatever point they had committed themselves to and get a ‘good feeling’ out of it, even if you are only an outside spectator of it all. And there’s the other side of the coin when we  as the ‘expected to fall’ individual actually create such ‘fall’ by accepted and allowed thoughts wherein we believe ourselves to be in a quandary, not knowing how to follow, what to do because of having ‘all eyes on you’ = in essence, listening to our voices in the head, the mind as thoughts which will always look for its own ways to continue creating conflict and perpetuating fear.

 

Conflict creates further uncertainty as the experience of ‘fearing to fall,’ which translates to a general unstable experience of ‘losing one’s ground.’  It’s like taking a thread of yarn and knitting it: one single thread suddenly becomes this thick patterned conglomeration that is no longer simple single thread: it becomes something ‘bigger’ – apparently – yet it is still a thread – it would only take walking backwards that knitting until the thread can go back to be rolled up into the one ball of yarn again. Is the knitting more special or more important than the single thread of yarn coming out of the yarn ball? Point to ponder for how we see – reality and how we add ‘value’ to matter according to the work that’s been put to it.

 

From the observer’s perspective, as this single thread gets knitted into being ‘more’ and becoming more intricate and with no apparent way out of it: we are only expecting for the moment for such thread to continue getting further into the maze and have no support to ‘come back’ to the single-thread it was, and instead of anyone caring to say: ‘hey, you are making a mess/maze of yourself, you are over-complicating yourself, it’s the other way around,’ we remain idle even when and while looking at the obvious consequences that can pull anyone to a deep end if there is no support available to make another realize: you are going the wrong way! – where is our neighborism when realizing someone is about to ‘hit the ground’ and not do anything to let them know about it? Careless-ness and actual expectation of seeing another fall to make ourselves ‘better’ by being the ones that ‘remain standing.’ This is what adds up to the mess that we believe some one else ‘staged’ for us – really? Let’s just ask ourselves: who are we within such constant expectation and secret mind desire of seeing someone falling, someone losing, someone being kicked out of some place?

 

Yes, evil in the possession of our very own unconditional flesh. Have a look at entertainment where any form of competition is made a TV reality show and the audience eventually gets more excited about seeing who will lose than who wins or develop and better themselves. We seek tragedy, we like seeing people suffer and be able to judge that from a ‘good standing position.’ Spitefulness toward life that is, carelessness, selfishness as the desire to remain ‘over others,’ wherein we secretly think: great, one mouth less to feed/ one less to fight against in this competition of a dog-eat-dog world.

 

See how far we’ve driven ourselves wherein instead of caring to promote an answer to the problems in this world that WE created, as to point out why and how we are all co-‘manifestators’ of this reality,  we prefer to spread separation and retaliation even further with no solution at all – and no public opinion is prepared to actually carry enough understanding to propitiate actual education about the functioning of our world/ reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive experience within me as ‘being powerful/ being more than others’ when seeing others fall/ lose/ get lost as this implies that they are ‘les capable/ able/ stable/ committed/ prepared/ enthusiastic/ hard working’ than me – which is then implying that I am seeing everyone as a potential competitor that I must ‘beat’ in order to feel at ease and feel like being ‘winning’ all the time, which is the experience that comes through blame, spite and abuse toward others in other for me to prevail and remain ‘standing’ in contrast to others, which means that I have reduced myself, my life to being only a comparative conglomeration of knowledge and information that has defined its ‘beingness’ according to others’ as reference point, instead of me being my own reference point as to what it is to stand in Self Honesty where our own thoughts, words and deeds demonstrate our own commitment to life – and allow such thoughts, thoughts and deeds to reveal the ‘true nature’ of what we are accepting and allowing ourselves to exist as the mind only, which means that any form of experience gotten from seeing/ realizing how others are living their own lives is simply spitefulness as the ego seeking to get its positive-energy fix in order to remain within the self-created idea of ‘winning.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts of expecting someone to fall in order to prove ‘my point’ which is always that of diminishing others to a single pattern of self-defeatism and preprogrammed flaws wherein I have become the very perpetrator and equal abuse when participating in such hideous backchat that is at all times, seeking to win no matter what, seeking to ‘remain on top’ and ‘beat any enemy,’ which means that I have made of myself my own greatest enemy as I am only competing against myself and expecting myself to fall, which implies that the starting point of my beingness is not here as self equal and one – moment by moment – standing a self-willed, but compromised to being defined according to others and using others as a measurable point to see ‘who I am,’ which is absolute self-deception and self-sabotage as there is nothing and no-one I am actually directing such thoughtful experience of ‘expecting others to fall’ but toward myself only.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘who I am’ is able to fall and lose any form of actuals substance in that, wherein all that can be ‘lost’ is the idea that I’ve kept of myself and others in my mind, wherein self-determination in every moment of breath to be here cannot be ‘more’ or ‘less than’ – I realize that I have lived a life wherein a thread of yarn is seen as ‘less than’ an entire sweater, even if the physicality of it is the same, I have placed more value onto the ‘over-wrought’ idea of who I am, while neglecting the fact that the only physicality of it is a single thread of yarn. Within this I realize that I have participated in the value-system that separates life into energy that can be either positive, negative or neutral according always seeking to be ‘the best/ the unbeatable’ as that ultimate positive experience that can only stem from this initial point of conflict as the separation accepted and allowed toward others, and seeing ‘others’ as separate from self, which is only the mind’s ego asserting its specialness in the name of self-glorification as the illusion of ‘winning.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever believe and be conditioned by the thought ‘all eyes are on me’ wherein I allow myself to compromise myself, my own standing here as it being ‘something’ for others, instead of realizing that with me standing in self-trust and supporting me in the most optimum way, I am simply able to expand that point of support for others in equality, wherein there is no special-generation of satisfaction ‘toward’ others, but remain self-honest in supporting me and share as to extend that same realization in equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to victimize me within thinking that ‘all eyes are expecting me to fall’ wherein I eventually would retreat and ‘get away’ from the spotlight because of believing that ‘I was not able to keep up with it,’ and in that sabotaging myself by having actually heard the voices in my head that were constantly threatening me/ me threatening myself to exist in constant fear, anxiety and paranoia of not being able to follow my schedules, routine and doing things ‘my way,’ wherein I instead allow me to go to the extreme opposite of apparently ‘not caring/ being careless’ which is just a mind’s justification to make my own insecurity, my own self doubt as an experience that was triggered ‘by others’ instead of taking self-responsibility for my own creation at all times.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fears of ‘falling’ and projecting that onto others when ‘expecting others to fall’ in order to only prove ‘who I am’ as being ‘always right/ being self righteous’ which allows me to then feel better/ more than/ positive about ‘me remaining standing’ which means that any form of competition, rivalry, comparison is just another ingrained aspect of our human behavior in order to survive and participate in the survival of the fittest to make sure that we ‘make our space’ in the dog eat world, wherein we are taught from a very early age that we will be competing and striving to ‘make a living’ for an entire lifetime, without realizing that if we are able to give this to ourselves unconditionally, our entire starting point of human relationships will change as there will be no more energetic dependence as money, actual resources and competition of ideas of self, as all will have an ability to live in dignity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the value-system imposed onto life, wherein I am able to compare myself against others, without realizing that each one’s lives are determined by specific aspects/ contexts that cannot possibly be ‘the same’ in two beings – therefore I realize that any thought related to a positive or negative polarity projected onto another, is simply me as ego, as personality seeking to survive and thrive upon bashing/ diminishing/ proving others wrongs as a way to prove ‘to others’ and myself that ‘I am better/ I can adapt quicker’ which implies that I have reduced my beingness, the physicality of who I am to a single idea that competes and opposes others for the sake of creating enough friction/ conflict in spite, blame and justification in order for me to be able to say: ‘I told you so, I was right’ which is just another egotistical confirmation that ‘I am my mind only’ which is the very brick of self-abuse that must be stopped at all times within myself, and stop projecting such ideas upon others in a constant manner as to be able to ‘have things working my way’ instead of always considering what is best for all life to live and stand as, wherein all beings are equally committed to develop themselves to their utmost potential and no more accept and allow seeds of anger, blame, retaliation and competition to exist.

 

I realize that within me being the point that stops ‘thinking’ about myself as an ‘ideal’ to uphold in relation to others, this point of survivalism as constant competition ends.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to perpetuate this monetary system that exists as imposed values onto ourselves/ who we are as one and equal in the name of our personal positive experience wherein our very nature is revealed as that of spite, abuse and constant competition in order for me to obtain my glory, attention and deification of who I am as personality/ energy/ ego as the mind through values that are translated into being successful/ surviving in this system wherein life is neglected and all that remains is money for one’s own personal power and glorification.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself t deny support to another just because of wanting to ‘see them fall’ and get my positive experience out of it, which is plain evil yet this is how the mind actually operates wherein we would rather see someone hanging from a cliff and get a kick out of it instead of unconditionally moving ourselves as equals wherein such extreme would not even exist as we would prevent at all times another from even getting close to the cliff, as I realize that the only one that I am spiting, abusing and excusing is myself as my own ego – thus, at all times when and I see myself waiting to see someone fall, I realize that I am only exerting the evil nature that I am here to correct, in the name of who we are as one and equal wherein all ego, all desires to win and be ‘above others’ is stopped at the very insinuation that implies seeing another fall for our own benefit and ‘position,’ rather than unconditionally supporting to walk as equals and realize that anything that leads us to ‘fall’ is self-created at a mind level = it is not who we really are and are able to stop, self forgive, correct it and make sure we do not allow ourselves to be defeated by our own participation in the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have ever accepted and allowed myself to believe that we were born to compete and strive to get ‘the most of the cake’ within this world, wherein the ‘fall’ from another would signify one more chance for me to ‘make it’ and ‘be on top’ and ‘be the winner,’ which is only the consequence and outflow of our current monetary system that is implying that we cannot possibly exist as equals as that would imply the very death of our ideal of specialness, superiority, power and control over others, which is precisely what must be stopped in order for life in equality to be established as a living principle at all times toward all living beings in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see competition as a form of entertainment wherein I haven’t realized that I actually enjoy and get a positive experience out of seeing someone fall and get kicked-out/ lose as a way to vicariously experience the triumph in an imaginary way which is what the media’s purpose is about: generating experiences within the mind at the safety of your own couch.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not realize that who I am in this very desire of seeing someone fall is the absolute possession of evil as the evil nature of my own mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to become, wherein all that mattered is my own survival as ‘the winner’ as the one that is ‘always right’ and in this, seeing another’s fall as another triumph of my own expectations and prejudices toward others being ‘confirmed’ as ‘real,’ because of deeming the mind as something predictable and people as predictable patterns, without realizing that I am obviously within them mind also a predictable pattern that is only seeking to continue existing as that ‘self-righteous winner’ personality at the expense of the suffering and discomfort and actual disgrace that any fall may entail within a being’s life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to equate the fall/ the death of someone as ‘more space for me’ within the world, which is implying the ultimate self interest wherein I create only a mind relationship toward those that ‘fall’ and ‘who I am’ as one and equal is nowhere to be found, otherwise I would realize that only one that I have been spiting and separating myself from is: myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever consume myself within having constant thoughts of competition, rivalry, jealousy toward others wherein I am only ‘expecting them to fall’ so that I can finally get over with the constant conflict and be ‘alright’ again, ‘safe’ in my mind-throne, instead of realizing that I am able to stand as equal to anyone in this reality without having to create any form of rivalry, as this is only indicating that myself as the ego of the mind is wanting to exert its influence and abuse over life, which is unacceptable and I realize that it is in my hands and will the ability to stop this and any other form of separation that emerges and originates at  a through level – therefore

 

When and as I see myself participating in the very initial thoughts of comparison, jealousy, competition,  judgment toward others’ words, deeds, actions and already implying that they are ‘wrong’ and ‘I do it better,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this pattern leads to the self-righteous spiteful act of rejoicing when others fall, which is part of the building blocks of this current monetary system that is standing as the image and likeness of who we are as survivors, as constant opponents that only seek to ‘win’ to ‘thrive’ in this world, while neglecting the actual oneness and equality of life that we actually exist as. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept a world wherein the reflection of y own desire to survive, win, be on top and in control of all is manifested as public opinion wherein rejoicing in another’s fall is a usual way of ‘having fun’ and gaining some power over others within our minds by the ability to laugh at their mistakes, falls and personal life problems – which is what political gossip, entertainment industries and any other form of media thrives upon. This implies that I have created an entire industry out of my own evil nature that is seeking to see others fall, ridicule themselves, make mistakes, reveal their ‘true nature’ – while ignoring that the only ‘true nature’ is the one that is able to pay for/ buy/ consume such type of entertainment as a way to make ourselves feel ‘good’ for a moment in the safety of our own room.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to proliferate an industry based on sensationalism wherein the reader is voyeuristically entertaining themselves through the stories/ images that depict the fall, the ridicule, the abject depiction of reality and create a ‘good experience’ of it by deeming it as entertainment, which is and has become one of the most profitable and abusive industries within entertainment, which reveals what makes the masses content is seeing another fall/ fail and ridicule themselves which proves that: this world is the undeniable creation of every single thought, backchat, spitefulness, judgment, comparison and competition that we form as Added Values to a reality that is simply physical and that should Not be subject of any form of lucre – yet it exists as a lucrative business due to the nature that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as. Therefore, all abuse begins and ends with ourselves.

 

I commit myself to stop all forms of thinking/ backchatting in relation to expecting others to fall in order to prove myself ‘right’ and feel good about it, as I realize that this is the very nature of a system that we have accepted and allowed as ‘who we are’ which is promoting the principle of divide and conquer as the way to perpetuate the illusion of power and control over others – I realize that it is only through each one of us committing ourselves to stop as this constant projection of self-interest as the desire to always  win, be on top, be powerful and  in control of others that we can establish an equal and one relationship from the realization that who we are as physical beings can coexist in  equality without requiring to fight against each other to live – within this

 

I commit myself to create and establish a world system wherein Life is the only value that exists wherein no more survivalism will perpetuate the constant strive to live, fight to be ‘on top’ and exist in any form of self-righteous ‘power over others,’ as this will be proven to be the illusion and delusion of our mind as ‘our nature’ that sought to be always ‘more’ than who and what we already are as one and equal. This implies that reality as a living-physicality does not require to fight against each other to thrive, it is only the mind that seeks constant conflict in order to gain the most energy from it to continue existing and perpetuating itself as the occupier of this physical reality – which only implies that I commit myself to give myself back to myself all the relationships of separation that I have created as my mind, as the nature of ‘who I am’ as the result of the initial separation that I chose to ‘live’ within my exertion of self-righteousness over matter, over the physical – of which the consequences are now being visibly realized by all participants in this world.

 

I commit myself to reveal how it is that it is absolutely possible to exist as equals the moment that all forms of separation is stopped within our own minds, which implies that I walk the process to first stop me as my own backchat and participation in any form of comparison and projected superiority/ inferiority toward others in order to be able to stand in equality with other human beings walking the same process in order to finally stand as the new human nature that we all want to be and exist as, once that we have freed ourselves from our own cage that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist as in/ as our own minds.

 

I commit myself to expose the evil nature of our beingness that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become that rejoices in seeing others fall, in ridiculing and mocking others in the name of personal power wherein the only statement that is being presented is ‘I only feel good about myself when seeing others’ misery within falling’  and exposing the great profit that such vicarious entertainment is generating in this world, which proves that we would rather enjoy seeing others’ misery than walking a process to stop such evil nature and dare ourselves to become the point that stops any form of abuse toward another in the name of ‘personal power’ that can only exist as a form of abuse using the very life that keeps us breathing/ alive in the name of a mindfuck that gives a temporary kick as pleasure, as an addiction that we have all been consumed with/ and gotten money from.

 

I realize that the mind is able to be re-programmed, re-educated in order to serve life, serve all as equals wherein we act, speak and do that which is at all times considering life in equality – who am I as one and equal, which implies that there is no way to further continue our own separation if we are only directing ourselves according to the physical reality that is here to work with in tangible and physical matters that pertain all in this reality.

Thus, to stop the con-fusion and self-doubt that is experienced within a world wherein everything is just lies to make money, we have to make ourselves our own point of self-direction through developing common sense in a proper structure of self-support,  such as walking the Desteni I Process  as a lifetime commitment to Learn How to Live and start stopping the usual nastiness that comes when seeing others as ‘more’ than ourselves and waiting them to fall so that we, in our secret mind – can always end up winning against others. The only way to stop seeing your fellow human as an enemy is through walking the opposition and discord existent within ourselves, individually toward ourselves  through writing, applying self forgiveness and developing self-honesty to finally start living in consideration of who we are as one and equal.

Dare to expose the real evil in you as it is only through revealing to each other the very ‘secrets’ in our minds, that we can stop that binding bondage to our own damnation that emerges from a single thought that we accept in the name of personal power and identification – thus, through making ourselves aware of this, we are able to start getting to know ‘who we are’ within seeing others fall, who we are within participating in gossip, who we are within watching media/ news that make fun of politicians – who we are within bashing others in the name of personal glorification as ‘knowing better,’ while neglecting the fact that life has no preference, life has no value, life is not knowledge and life will never exist in a mind that believes itself to be superior to anything or anyone in this reality.

 

It’s Life’s way now.

 

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Learn how to Live:

• Are All Choices Damned?: DAY 44   

• Is Any Choice Ever Free?:DAY 45

• Day 44: In the Name of Love  

• Day 10: Redefining Words (Part 7) How to redefine words –Creative phase –

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• Atlanteans – Righteousness – Part 35

• The Consequences of Survival

• Life Review – Facing Gossip

• The Secrets of Competition