Tag Archives: universal laws

The Starting Point

By Ken Cousens

 

“True Love cannot exist in the presence of Unequal Station”
In this essay we will explore the fundamental context that one must address in order to understand the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life. This context is summed up in the title of the essay: The Starting Point. Simply stated, it is one’s starting point that will wholly determine whether one can comprehend the concepts of Equal Money and Equal Life, and in that context there are only two starting points that exist, either one starts from the point of self-interest (“What’s in it for ME?”) or one starts from the point of what is best for all (“What’s in it for WE?”). There is no middle ground. If one is starting from the point of self-interest, one cannot get there from here. Every argument and every position rallied against the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life become self-nullifying when the starting point is self-interest. When life is viewed from the subjective position of unequal station, where there is greater and lesser, superior and inferior, more deserving and less deserving, and every variation thereof, then nothing exists except for the self-focused reality of self-interest. Not only is it a fact that true love cannot exist in the presence of unequal station, but nothing exists in the presence of unequal station except the self-absorbed reality of personal agendas, the self-focused litany of arguments ad nauseam that insist it is more important than all of existence, and that rights of birth, station, position, status quo and everything else are there to support the illusions of separation and all of its variants. In simple terms there is only the choice between Life and self, and what those saluting the flag of self have failed to take into account at this stage of planetary evolution is that life has had enough of the abuses of self, and is now taking control, whether that is apparent to the self or not at this moment in time. In time, and the not too distant future, it will become the most self-evident principle on the planet.

 

When the starting point of one’s approach to Equal Money and Equal Life is “What Is Best For All” then the entire universe rearranges itself to make the principles self-evident, as if they always existed as an integrated whole system, a complete interconnected fabric of life and existence that has never been without harmony, balance and equilibrium while still at the same time fully observant with eyes wide open to the horrors of separation and all of its spawn. Such a starting point is not about the lofty abstraction of positivity in ignorance of the realities on this planet, it is simply the firmly established stand that there is only one choice for how money and the systems thereof must ultimately be applied, and that is to do what is best for all. In such context, Life is seen as a fluid continuity that is in communion with all of existence, and every part contains the template of the whole and the whole is seen in every part. In this, the starting point is to stand as Life; to take the stand within and as oneself as Life means that one cannot do anything that is not fundamentally based on the sound principle of what is best for all life in all expressions and all manifestations. Life as what is best for all is based on correspondence, which is simply the ability to respond as the equal and parallel coefficient of every other expression of life, to respond as co-equal to all other forms of life, to nurture every iota of life as one would one’s own breath, and the in breath and out breath of one’s own respiration, as re-spiriting, is the inspiration and out spiration of life as spirit as one and equal to every and all living expressions.

 

When one takes a stand for Life, it is a self-directive state of being that establishes an implacable position that will not be swayed and cannot be persuaded from that position no matter what may come at it. All time and space cannot persuade one so situated to rescind the commitment, and such a stand for Life will inevitably force all of existence to rearrange itself to conform to the intent of such a stand for the principle of what is best for all. To the self-focused and self-interested such a stand is madness and has no logic, because the starting point of such is that if it does not serve self in its self-fulfilling gratification, then it has no meaning and has no value. The self-interested cannot even fathom such a stand for Life because there is no instant gratification and there is therefore no value to such a one.
The self-interested character that resides, in one variation or another, in almost the entire planetary population knows only one principle, so succinctly expressed in the statement “What’s in it for me?” It is like a universal radio station tuned to WIIFM, and the pain, suffering, agony, pleading, misery, torment and convulsions of the world and its population are like distant static that are so effectively tuned out by that finely honed instrument of self-adulation and ego-maniacal madness known as the self, singing blithely “I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine…I, Me, Mine….” as the world descends into entropic annihilation. “Are you mad?” proclaims the self-interested adherent when presented with the concept of “The Greater Good” because such a one cannot even begin to understand that there is anything outside of itself worthy of its attention. Their starting point as well as every other point along the timeline of their existence is always and forever centered on self, so such concepts as a global economic and monetary system based on the sanctity of Life, the honoring of all beings and the exaltation of the life force in every plant, animal, human, forest, ocean, river, field and ecosystem cannot be fathomed and never given credence. Conversely, a system in which every action is within dynamic equilibrium with all beings and all existence so that Life itself is forever regenerative, equally manifesting what is best for all beings, reciprocally and mutually beneficial to every form and function, and eternally sustainable, is as natural as the first breath of a new born baby to one that stands for the principles of Equal Money and Equal Life for All.

 

The self-interested starting point can only hear the word “Money” in the phrase “Equal Money” and cannot comprehend that such a word as “equal” has anything to do with money. Money to the self-interested is the beginning, middle and end of all existence. It is not a means to an end, it is the end itself. The self-interested worship at the altar of money and never give it a second thought, never understanding that every dollar that passes through their pockets and accounts is attached to someone, some where, that must service a debt, toil in the fields, labor in the factories and deliver the goods that their self-indulgent lives may be supported and sustained on the blood, sweat and tears of millions whose bones pave the way to an imaginary heaven so that the privileged few might easily enter such a promised land. The self-interested do not even know that the word money itself is derived from the name of an ancient moon goddess (“Mon”) that has woven her lunar spell over countless generations so that their very minds are wrapped and enraptured as nothing less than the lunatic fringe of a world gone mad, driving the teaming masses to commit the unspeakable and heinous acts and assaults on Life now taken for granted as if the end point of this madness is the way it is, the way it has always been and the way it will forever be. Such phrasing as “It’s to Die For” and “I will kill to have that new car” are taken as a given, as natural, as the rallying call of the self-interested, thereby establishing their starting point as death, violence and destruction just to fulfill that one last desire before the closing of the last curtain over the stage of all life, to die for one last pleasure, to kill for that one last prize.

 

Therefore, one must start with the logical question: “What is my starting point?” How does one approach the question of Equal Money as a direct expression and manifestation of an Equal Life for all? Does one, in fact, start from the point of recognizing that every thing in existence is standing as Life itself, for everything has a life force, and that life force is equal in all things. But, you say, rocks do not have life force. To which the proper response is, oh but yes they do. They stand equal as the manifestation of Life in every atom of their substance, that stands equal with magnetism and electrical current that flows throughout their molecular bodies, and from the rocks comes the soil and in the soil exist the teaming masses of microorganisms that are essential for every plant, animal and human to stand in their life as the physical embodiment that they are. When Life is seen from the starting point of an inextricable web of creation that is wholly interdependent on every other living thing, just as the systems of man have created a global system that everyone is completely dependent upon as a quantum whole, then the starting point begins to become clear as that which holds and sustains Life in all things, in all creatures and in all of manifest existence. And every other thing, every seeming inanimate expression of Life, when looked upon in and as part of this inextricable fabric of Life as a quantum whole, can and will be seen, if the starting point is Life as one and equal, as part of the whole, both dependent and interdependent for its life, life force and existence, as standing in oneness and equality with all Life.

 

So what does it mean “to stand” for Life and “to stand” for oneness and equality? It means simply that one chooses as a self-directive principle to make Life and what is best for all as the central point from which all one’s life, actions, thoughts, feelings, emotions and intentions emerge. It means one stands for Life and cannot be moved from that position, as a commitment of one’s being beyond time and space, as a holding point and station that will not ever again accept or allow that which is not best for all or in support of Life. From such a starting point, everything that is not in support of Life, that is not properly founded on life-enhancing principles, shall, as by a force of nature, depart from one’s existence. If one takes that stand resolute and without equivocation, then all of Life and all of nature shall rearrange around oneself in correspondence with that stand; and when two or more stand for and as Life, together as one, Life is here in that co-equal commitment and co-resonant expression and the power and force of that commitment is expanded exponentially. In that stand and starting point, the mind cannot enter, because the mind by design will seek every angle, every perspective and every strategy to find fault in that stand and position. The mind as the starting point is designed to support separation and self-interest, and therefore, if the starting point of approach to the concept of Equal Money is one of the mind expressed as logic, economic models, mathematical equations or any other spawn of the mind, one can never see past the veils of illusion and deceit upon which such a starting point is premised.

 

To the mind of self-interest, the starting point of a forest is nothing more than a calculation of board feet, bonds and capital, corporate equity and the rest of it; to one who stands as Life in equality, the forest is a living community with infinite variety, infinite grandeur and infinite expressions, seen as the whole forest consisting of and equal to every part and every being living in that expression of Life standing equal to the whole. As such, if a human enters that forest and standing as Equal Money and Equal Life utilizes the mind as a tool, the calculations of that self-directive being with and through their mind will analyze the use of the forest in a sustainable model. In such an approach, every living creature in the forest is taken into consideration, so that if harvesting timber is part of the intention, then it will be done with the life of the forest itself taken into consideration so that the forest is left both intact and sustainably continuing in its life force and every component part’s requirements sustained and maintained. This approach can be applied to any other system, whether it is a farm, a river, an ocean or a planet. Human needs can be met in such a model, and Life itself will direct the principle and the calculations and the considerations to sustain the whole, including humanity, within the context of preserving the part of every whole in its integrity and its right to Life. Standing as equality includes consideration for the future, so that the future needs of the system, at whatever scale, are part of the calculations, so that the sustainable model can exist here and now, and can continue in every moment here and now into eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as eternity. Standing as Life is standing in and as Equal Station with all of Life, in its infinite variety of expression and manifestation, and in its eternal continuity throughout all of existence.

 

Standing as Equal Money means that one has taken the irrevocable stand as a commitment of one’s being to live in every breath as the principle that money is only a tool whose utility must always be applied to what is best for all and shall provide the means and methods whereby all of Life will be honored as equal in life force in the part and in the whole. Standing as Equal Money establishes a starting point that money is seen as a system that previous to such stand was created and applied within a context of competition, jealousy, fear, violence, destruction, proceeding as a veritable biblical plague that will devour everything in its path to perpetuate its existence as the god of humanity and a force that cannot be contained. Money in and as a principle of unequal station creates hierarchy, posits reality on seemingly immutable laws of lack and limitation, in which some will have and some (read most) will have not. The inevitable equation of money premised on unequal station is that some have the so-called divine right to hoard and accumulate wealth to be applied only for the glorification of self to the detriment of all of Life as a whole. This, of course, equates to the love of money, where in such an equation this so-called love is nothing more than the penultimate expression of self-aggrandizement, self-interest and self-adulation, all of which is, in fact, nothing more than the inversely proportionate expression of self-loathing, self-degeneracy and self-abnegation.

 

What those in such a station at this point in time do not see, realize or understand, is that money as a force has now taken control of all of the systems previously created to support and sustain it, and that force is one of pure unadulterated self-interest equal to the negation of Life, which can only be defined as a reverse reflection of LIVE, thus as EVIL, and that it is now commenced on the process of consumption of all in its path, including those previous masters of money who perceived and believed themselves destined to own and control all of Life and all of this world. All who insist that money in support of self-interest is an eternal and never ending ride shall one day soon wake up to the sober realization that they are one and equal to that which they support and have become. Therefore, those in support of money in any manifestation of inequality, where the few have much and the many have none, shall be increasingly faced with nothing left but themselves and as themselves they will be sorely pressed to face all the consequences that ensued from such a starting point. To those it can only be said to consider the possibility that at some point in time, somewhere, some when, somehow, Life finally has had enough. Now Life, as the most powerful force in all of existence, has begun the slow and steadily increasing reversal of the game whereby only Life as an Equal Station, as an Equal Starting Point, will inexorably have the final say in the matter. And the beginning point of such a say is in fact matter itself, as matter derived from mater, the material matrix from whence life emerges, the mother of all here in the physical, not in some ephemeral dream posited as heaven in some non-existent future, but right here, right now, whether as Life in the microcosm where the microbial expression shall overtake mankind’s ignorance of Life itself in its use of drugs, antibiotics, chemicals, poisons and genetically modified organisms, or in the macrocosmic scale of weather and planetary ecosystems that shall, if necessary, remove the offending apostates who think they can play god and own and control Life itself. All the money in their self-contained delusions of grandeur will never buy Life and will never again buy anyone a first class ticket to heaven. Get real, get with Life, or pay the consequences when you must, inevitably, face yourself and only yourself in the end. And do not delude yourself any longer, for you do so now at your own peril. The beginning of the end has already begun.
Life is now in control.

 

Life can and will rearrange the system of money to serve Life, and those clinging to money as their god and their central starting point of self-interest, will find that they are beginning to lose their grip. Indeed, they are already finding this to be the fact. All of Heaven now stands as equal to Life; before the maxim as above, so below was literally true, and therefore, the hierarchical, unequal structure of Earth in its monetary system of life-negation was indeed how Heaven was arrayed. But a doorway was finally opened between Earth and Heaven, and the infinite separation that had allowed the previous system to be created, to grow and thrive, was suddenly dissolved forever. Those in the hierarchy of Heaven, in which control and enslavement equal to that seen here on the Earth, had suddenly become aware of the situation, and they took the stand – finally – to serve Life. Now, those who previously had been assured their destiny as masters of the universe here on Earth, no longer have the support of a stratified dimensional Heaven that supported their stations as the seeming masters of Life. Suddenly, and irrevocably, all in Heaven came together as one, equal with and as Life, walking a process to face themselves, to forgive themselves and to commit themselves to what was best for all, best for Life.

 

The stand for Life, with the starting point of asking the question with every action: “Is this Best for ALL?,” requires that one must always start with and stand on the principle of self-honesty. When one fills a car with gasoline and uses that gasoline to convey oneself to a place for self-indulgent purposes, does one honestly stand with the principle that the price paid for a gallon of gas does not come close to paying the full price in all of its consequences for all such self-indulgent acts? When one drives a car to work to make money in an industry that negates Life, that destroys Life, that contributes to the annihilation of species, of ecosystems, or the planet as a whole, can one truly face oneself in self-honesty and avoid the fact that in consequence there shall be a significant price to pay for that gallon of gas, that day’s events, or that job, or that transaction, that corporation or that nation? Can we as a whole, as humanity, stand in true self-honesty and view the condition of this world and the condition of a large portion of humanity and say the current system of money and politics and religion, the triumvirate gods of most who refer to themselves as human, and say that this system is what works for all and is best for all?

 

Can you who are reading this essay stand and look at yourself in the mirror and see in yourself a mother clutching her starving child to her withered breast bereft of nourishment and blithely just discard that living child to the trash heap of history and grind her bones to build more castles and citadels designed to protect and defend the sanctimonious temples of this world; can you continue believing that in ten thousand years of more of the same, such bones of countless starving children shall turn to limestone and become the marbled pillars of the moneyed institutions in some future world in which such money stands as god of existence and all bow down to it and pray for relief to be disbursed like rolls of copper pennies. Can you in unabashed self-honesty look yourself in the eye and see yourself standing one and equal in the body of a wretched soul who must grovel in the trash heaps of this world to scratch out a meager subsistence of life, to stand equal to the children having to sleep loveless and cold in the discarded corners of every city, to stand equal to the battered women as they endure the relentless onslaught of violent and impotent men made so by a soulless society that cares naught for their existence save for how their life force can be forcibly extracted to energize the neon lights of this phantasmal illusion that knows nothing of real Life? Do you ever ask yourself what was that bump in the road that momentarily disturbed your air conditioned limousine ride through the perfumed corridors of your mind, and listen for the answer that says it was the discarded bodies of a billion hungry men, women and children that you have built your empires upon or perhaps the countless piles of bones littered throughout your history of neglect, contempt, and disdain for such lesser beings not worthy to eat the few crumbs that fall from your sumptuous banquet table? Do you really think the incantation of the priest will absolve you of personal responsibility as you pass from your deathbed into the beyond, or perhaps do you ever consider the possibility that now that Heaven walks equal as one with Life, you will only be met with the reflection of your own starting point and you must walk every moment of it with full awareness of every deed you have done and every consequence you have spawned?

 

It has been said as if eternally true that there are only two things that are certain in life: death and taxes, yet now, there is really only one thing that is certain, and that is that in death one will inexorably have to face oneself. At that moment there will be only one question: “What was your starting point when given for consideration the concept of Equal Money as a new system to replace the old, one in which all things are constructed to serve every aspect of Life, every being and every thing?” Was it “What is best for all,” or was it “What’s in it for me?” Was it “How Can I Serve Life?” or was it “Who Will Serve Me?”

 

Equal Money has nothing to do with money, for money does not exist. Money is simply the totality and reflection of humanity in its current relationship to life, which is a system on automatic drive that is self-perpetuating, parasitic in its total expression, and harvesting the substance of the life force of all of humanity without regard to the consequences. Today money serves the ego and the illusion of false prosperity and the abject denial that things are seriously wrong in this world. Today money is god, for both the godly and the godless alike; all worship at its altar and pray to its deified visage in their minds. It is not a pathway to Life as best for all, but only for what serves them and them alone. When the starting point of anyone upon hearing the phrase Equal Money is that which is best only for themselves, they only hear their own denial and the collective din of humanity in its mass consensus hallucination that all is right in the universe. All is not right in the universe, yet all can be made right. We need only commit to and stand for the concept of Equal Life for all, commit to and stand for the principle of prosperity and abundance for everyone, commit to and stand for the starting point that all children go to sleep at night in a warm bed, with furry toys tucked in beside them, with warm bellies filled with nourishment, with all men and women standing together in joie de vive, a joy for life born from the soil and substance of their lives in harmony with all other Life, standing firm and implacable in the realization and understanding that by standing for Life they stand with and as all of existence.

 

So in the end there is only one choice, death and annihilation, or Life and eternal vitality for all. True love can only exist within the balance and harmony of equal station for all, which means simply that all can stand in their own lives equally, that all fundamental rights of existence that one would want for oneself and one’s family are equally available to all. In such a paradigm, money automatically becomes an equal equation that is utilized for fulfilling the requirements of Life as best for all. It can happen in an instant breath for anyone, it simply requires a paradigm shift in a quantum moment, to take the stand for Life, to realize that Life in correspondence with Life is what true love consists of and exists as, and to realize that all substance here in the physical is the very fabric of Life itself. To deny any other being the full compliment of joyful existence in the full vitality of Life is to deny oneself the very same, for we are each as to and unto each other the mirror reflection of ourselves, and in fact, we are each other as we are Life as a whole. We only have to wake up from our self-induced nightmare and take a stand against the perpetuation of the illusions of separation within and as the abstractions of the mind, which have driven us to the very precipice of madness and precariously close to the imminent tipping point towards irreversible planetary ecocide. But the hour is getting late; it is very late, indeed.

 

ALL Equality is WITHIN the ESSENCE of LIFE itself,
From which All Form Emerges;
When this is not recognized and understood,
A separation occurs where No Joy is Ever Possible.[1]

 

There are many here among us, who feel that Life is but a joke;
But you and I, we’ve been through that, and that is not our fate;
So let us not talk falsely now, the hour is getting late![2]

 

 

[1] Bernard Poolman, Creation’s Journey to Life, Day 174
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-174-after-death-communication-part.html
[2] Bob Dylan, All Along the Watchtower

 

Advertisements

92. Thinking = Metaphysics

How deep is your thought? Is it really ‘out of reach?’ or are mysteries another way to keep us occupied in our minds? Is thinking a hobby? A blatant way to keep us enter-tamed?

Fathomless
1    [usually with negative] understand (something) after much thought.
2    measure the depth of.


 

I just became aware of how we can feed each other’s experience within just being here wherein thinking becomes a mental masturbation, trying to ‘grasp’ our understand reality. Now, I had talked about this before in the Stoned Philosopher – and this is something similar – however the point here is indulging into the act of analyzing and thinking in itself as a way to understand, wanting to make sense instead of seeing common sense.

 

Hell, this knocks hard on my guts as I have throughout my life delved so many times in the ‘unfathomable’ and then resorting to THINKING to make sense of it all. So the point here is to walk how I have tried to ‘Make Sense’ of something instead of walking it breath by breathe – knowledge will never be life, because knowledge was in itself the very consequence of our awareness being in separation of self here.

 

Now, I definitely recommend listening to the interviews ‘The Secret History of the Universe to understand this point. To me, ‘the ‘thinker’ it was a ‘profound revelation’ = another character- that I gave too much value to, so much that I heard the interview #6 about 6 times already, something I had not done with others before. So, within this the ‘fathomless’ character which I had specifically defined according to and toward ‘the origin of ourselves’ was being debunked in my ears, just like that – and that was a ‘shocker’ to my personality that would rejoice trying to ‘grasp’ things with thoughts in my mind.

Now, it’s cool that the word came up, because it had become ‘me’ so much that I was not even looking at it. Yet, it is thinking, it is ‘trying to understand’ and ‘grasp’ in separation of myself here.

 

Hence, Self Forgiveness ladies and gentleman.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the ‘fathomless character’ that I used to resort to every time that I would indulge in wondering and trying to ‘find out’ truths of the universe and our existence, creation in an attempt to ‘make sense’ of myself through thinking, without ever realizing that thinking in itself is separating self from here as self-awareness as a whole, wherein ‘awareness’ then became only knowledge and information that I used as a way to intellectualize my reality and within that, missing everything that is HERE as myself, as reality, as the physical and only believing that ‘through thinking I would get to the truth of it all.’

 

When and as I see myself resorting to knowledge and information in separation of myself to try and attempt to ‘make sense’ of myself and my reality, I stop and I breathe. I realize that knowledge and information in separation of myself is just another way to keep me occupied in my mind while missing what is here. I realize that every point that I am able to understand about myself exists here as myself – there is no separate point that I can ‘seek to attain’ as that would be the character seeking its fuel to continue existing, which I am not.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this fathomless character when I was a child and learning how to read, picking up a book about the universe and the space travels and within that, generating this fathomlessness experience within me wherein the thought of the universe overwhelmed me and deciding that ‘I would never ever get to grasp who we are/ how big is the universe/ get to know the universe itself’ and in that, becoming a ‘thinker’ throughout my life wherein from this premise of separating myself from what is here through thinking and making ‘the thought’ of the universe as More than myself, I became a seeker of the truth, seeker of knowledge in an attempt to understand who I am, why I am, how I am through knowledge and information outside of myself, instead of Looking into Myself.

 

When and as I see myself stepping into the fathomless character and experiencing myself to be ‘overwhelmed with knowledge,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am separating myself from here and that I do not require to make of knowledge and information as something separate from myself in order to ‘make sense’ of who I am. Who and What I am does not require to be ‘made sense of,’ but simply walked, lived and understood upon practical living and self-introspection through writing, applying self-forgiveness and establishing myself here as the physical to really, in fact get to know me from the practical physical reality that is here as the totality of this world, beginning with my own mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an analyst of myself, others and reality in separation of myself, believing that because I am able to ‘understand’ I am now more ‘empowered’ in a way which I am not, because who I really am is not knowledge and I have to instead realize that I have simply separated myself from understanding and realizing who I am because of having separated myself to live only as a mind consciousness system that works through knowledge and information in separation of the physical reality that is here – thus, I walk through the information and practical application thereof in order to ensure that what I realize and understand is able to support me to stop the ‘fathomlessness’ character and as such, occupy myself with the matters that are here in this world to be taken care of, which is the Reality that we have veiled through the illusion of the mind.  (Please listen to How Illusion became Reality for further context)

 

I realize that whenever I see myself not hearing here completely and absolutely to a interview, it is because I am trying to protect that which I had become to such an extent that it is almost like not wanting to take the mask off because of the value/ worth I had given to the character as myself, as self-definition.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being an analyst, a ‘thinker’ was a natural ability to me and that it thus defined ‘who I am’ as a person that is able to ‘understand/ grasp more than others,’ which means that it became the egotistical character o ‘understanding’ in separation of self, as no knowledge and information can possibly make someone more than another-  yet within this I see that I complied to the rules of the system wherein  I learned that ‘knowledge is power,’ and a such believing that I was special and unique for having all these existential questions and eventually getting to the answers only to find out it had all been a blatant character mindfuck, which is pretty cool.

 

When and as I see myself stepping into the ‘thinker’ character when I am alone with myself and getting a kick of excitement when ‘understanding’ reality along with a sense of the opposite because there are no more ‘mysteries unsolved’ in my mind, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am now simply being able to understand and equalize myself to that which I have always been and existed as – yet separated myself from when becoming just one single character in this character reality. This means that walking through knowledge and information that explains the reality of myself here is no more than who I am, it does not make special, it is only an opportunity to now stop my actual ‘kick’ such as indulging in mysteries and wonderings and trying to elucidate about reality, which had become a past time in itself in my life, thinking about the world, life, the universe and never even questioning such ‘thinking’ activity in itself, but considered that I was special because I was asking such questions myself.

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create an entire personality out of ‘not being understood’ about my fascination with the universe and existence and pondering ‘where do I come from?’ ‘Who am I?’ ‘Why am I Here?’ which were the basic questions that got me into seeking answers as knowledge to ‘make sense of myself,’ seeking for solutions in separation of myself without ever even realizing that if we are all that exists then we are the origin, and as such, we would have to eventually realize who/ what we are as it is in ourselves – and instead focusing on removing the veils and conditions we have imposed onto ourselves and this world to not see the Reality – and instead realize that we veiled ourselves in order to continue existing only as an experience, instead of realizing ourselves as one and equal here.

Realizing ourselves as one and equal is a living-practical process, it cannot be taught onto another, it cannot be solved through knowledge and information – it can only be practically realized through getting to know ourselves as our own mind, seeing who we are in relation to others, to the environment, toward this entire world that we had separated ourselves from the moment that we became only this separate bubble of knowledge and information as the Awareness of self in relation to defining ‘who we are’ based on comparing/ contrasting/ differentiating ourselves from one another.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create an experience of ‘fuck! we missed it all the time’ and going into some instant kind of remorse or regret – whatever it is that came up in that moment – it is just another mind-created experience upon knowledge and information – thus

 

When and as I see myself listening to points wherein I realized to what extent we have separated ourselves from ourselves, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I have allowed a tendency to get infatuated with knowledge and information and with that, going into the ‘I missed it all’ type of experience based on not having been able to fulfill my desire to ‘know it all’ form the beginning, which is yet another character of ‘wanting to know it all,’ without taking into consideration that this is not about one individual knowing or understanding, but about realizing how we came to be who we are, how we came to ‘separate’ ourselves through knowledge and information from that moment that our awareness was directed in separation of another as ourselves.

 

Thus I realize that any experience that comes when getting information, stems from me going into a personal interest of ‘wanting to know it all’ in separation of myself, which is useless. I walk the point here to assist and support me to stop participation in further curiosity about the world, reality, who we are as it is quite obvious by now that there cannot be something ‘more’ than myself to be understood, but that these are practical points of support to understand How we got ourselves to the point we are in currently and through that, walking a physical living process to place that into application to finally see and realize and place into action our actual potential as creators, as expressions of what is and has always been here.

 

When and as I see myself going ‘deep in thought’ such as trying to fathom things in separation of myself in the physical moment, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I can only work/ walk what is here as myself in the physical moment – I instead ensure that I am not trying to go into ‘deep thinking’ based on wanting to avoid taking responsibility of myself in the physical moment and my physical reality, which is how the ‘thinking’ became a habit/ hobby in itself to escape reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have never ever accepted and allowed myself to realize how thinking had become a habit and a hobby in itself, wherein it would not matter that I was alone because I had my mind as ‘best friend’ to talk myself into multiple realities and outcomes trying to ‘understand myself’ and ‘make sense of myself,’ wherein I built a character of ‘thinking myself’ in itself, which is like meta-physics in itself, lol, going beyond the physical to try and understand ‘who I am’ as thinking, never realizing I was only going to perpetually loop around the same thoughts and the same programs as ‘thinking’ itself, which is not HERE as the totality of myself – yet.

 

When and as I see myself ‘rethinking’ the information and knowledge I am able to listen, I stop and I breathe – I realize that being HERE when and while reading/ understanding is sufficient to grasp the points that I require to grasp and that I do not require to make of this information something to ‘know’ but simply integrate it within myself as an understanding that supports me to stop the ‘incognita’ creating the ‘fathomless character’ within me.

Therefore, I walk through the material that is provided as self-support for what it is, wherein I see and realize that making it something ‘outstanding’ and ‘over myself’ is also ego and a character that tends to go into a positive experience as a ‘Eureka!’ type of realization that I then fuel by over-hearing something as if I could grasp ‘more’ than what is said in an attempt to make it something ‘great’ and ‘magnificent’ above myself, without realizing that: all that I am listening and hearing is part of who I am that I have separated myself from – thus it is no more than myself, it is only a point of support to see, realize and understand myself here.

 

I commit myself to stop thinking as a habit that goes into the ‘deep crevasses of my mind’ in an attempt to understand in separation of myself, as I realize that no knowledge and information can change ‘who I am’ already – and that I instead have to see how I have accepted and allowed myself to become knowledge and information in separation of myself here.

 

For further support, visit the Desteni Forum

Read the blogs at Journey to Life to find out why we are committing ourselves to walk out of our minds and establish ourselves as the physical, within the realization that it is in the awareness of ourselves as knowledge and information that this entire journey began.

Back to Nothingness

 

Thanks for reading.

 

I am made of the fabric of existence – Birthing Life from the Physical 2008

 

Blogs: 

 

Interviews to Understand what I was ‘pondering’ about here to stop all existential woes:


61: The Stoned Philosopher

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that Alchemy was ‘the real deal’ within reality to obtain the ultimate knowledge wherein I could finally obtain ‘the truth’ and be enlightened through knowledge and information.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify the lives of suffering and ‘misfortune’ as ‘lessons to be learned’ wherein we had to first reach our lowest bottom to then rebirth from the ashes like a phoenix, and in this allowing me to use all knowledge and information as myths and gnostic meanings in order to make sense of life, without ever pondering that life has always been here as myself, as my physical body that I used and abused in order to obtain some ‘higher knowledge’ that could lead me to ‘the ultimate power’ as eternal life, which I now see, realize and understand cannot in any way exist as a piece of information at all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the ‘spiritual entheogen exploration’ wherein I believed that seeing the patterns on everything and dancing on the walls was really being seeing life moving and dancing for me, which I had kept as a memory that I didn’t want to ‘let go of’ because of how wonderful if was.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was special because I could see all of these patterns, figures and energetic experiences that I have defined as ‘blissful,’ while having no idea whatsoever to what it actually implies to Live, which has nothing to do with any symbol, any pattern, any thought, any feeling or emotion – but self, here, stable as the I that stands aligned as a physical being that is no longer crucified by knowledge and information as the mind’s experience seeking ‘life’ in knowledge and information generating experiences that are finite and induced just like any other drug-related enlightenment.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that the truth of reality could only be accessed through knowledge, information or chemically induced experiences wherein everything that I saw was only myself, my own mind and in no way was I actually ‘being here’ as the actual realization of who I am as one and equal as life, but it was only a temporary mind-experience that lead me to seek further into knowledge and information, missing out the basic point which is: not having to ‘seek’ something outside of myself to live, but rather stopping the constant thinking, believing, perceiving, mind chatter and be here, breathing, being still yet self directive which is what I always overlooked when it came to seeking ‘enlightenment,’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek enlightenment as a way to evade taking Responsibility for myself, my world, my reality because I thought that through my own purification,  I would have an ‘easy-access’ to life, eternity and all the blissful experiences I sought – never taking into consideration the totality that is self-here as one and equal, but only minding my own business, only being concerned about ‘my’ experience only, which is the ultimate form of selfishness and self-interest that all-seeking spiritual people are currently perpetuating and feeding as themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with alchemy, its symbols, its illustrations and the depiction of the ‘majesty’ of life after walking a process of self-purification from the nigredo, to the albedo to the rubedo which is what I sought to be and become ‘no matter what,’ wherein I neglected at all times the actuality of the world that is here, wherein billions are having no means to eat – yet there I was, wanting to ‘ascend’ and be a super-consciousness being that could ‘the pattern of life’ which was only the patterns of consciousness itself as my own mind, reminding me that I have enslaved life to a pair of figures and symbols in an attempt to live.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become infatuated with knowledge, believing that ‘I was on to something’ and I was ‘this close’ to ‘get it’ wherein the chemical marriage implied that I had to fulfill a ‘journey’ in my life that was related to higher knowledge, higher understanding that made ‘me’ special and ‘unique’ because I felt as if it was ‘calling me,’ when in fact, it was all self induced and learned from examples in popular culture, just like from Jodorowsky and other ‘masters’ that I would read in order to make ‘my own religion’ based on personal self-interest to ‘be one with God’

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to seek God in patterns that I could see with my physical eyes, seeking god in the ‘abject,’ seeking god in Hebrew words, symbols, alchemical terms and trying to find a meaning to life, without ever realizing that life has no meaning but is and exists in itself –

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deposit my attention to ‘wonderful words’ that would mean something ‘too cryptic’ for me to understand, which made me want to understand and study more to be this ‘erudite’ in the matter, which would apparently make me ‘more’ than myself which is how intellectualism operates: the more you store as knowledge and information, the more ‘valuable’ you are in a system where life has been sold in the name of money, which provides enough ‘power’ that creates self-importance.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life was being ‘tested’ by life itself to see whether I could find and get all the clues to ‘get to god/ life/ eternal life’ which is how I became rather obsessed with numbers, religions, alchemy, gnosticism, tarot and anything that could ‘guide me’ to understand who I was and what I was doing here, following a self-importance journey to ‘enlightenment’ that only existed in my own head, feeling like John Nash having an entire conspiracy in the head, watching Pi and the Holy Mountain wherein I thought I could find ‘the meaning’ to it all.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the symmetry and composition in a work of art was pointing out that I was trying to ‘give myself messages through images/ drawings’ which is nothing but the ultimate mindfuck that I participated in and created for myself, wherein I believed that I was drawing out my past lives and pointing out to me ‘the road to follow’ in this lifetime, which is nothing else but the product of knowledge and information that I used in order to make myself special, ‘unique’ and somehow more ‘powerful’ than the rest of the mortals because of having this ‘unique’ fascination with ‘all things divine’ which was only me in my mind seeking some grand entertainment to evade my responsibility in the world, evade actually planning a physical tangible practical living plan that I could use in order to LIVE in this physical reality, but instead being planning ‘who I would be’ once that ‘I’ve reached the ultimate step of enlightenment’ on Earth.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that smoking weed in any way was ‘opening consciousness’ and allowing me to ‘see more of reality’ which is one of the justifications I used to not give it up at the time.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that all bits of experience, all people, all events had a meaning in the puzzle I was busy building as my ‘spiritual journey,’ without realizing or even wanting to accept that I had created it in my mind all the way, and I was just giving more attention to that which ‘fascinated me,’ rather than toward that which represented facing myself, facing my own responsibility and getting to know my own mind as the real creator of this extensive mindfuck.

 

I realize that I used and abused my physical body in the name of seeking ‘life’ outside of itself as knowledge and information, which proves to what extent we have never even questioned the fact that we are not even aware of every breath that we take, of every single piece of the Earth that we consume in order to continue living and the processes it goes through in ourselves, IN our own physical body – it is ludicrous, yet we are here and walking the process to stop all mind-curiosity toward ‘elevated/ higher/ drugged knowledge’ that has had In No Way any consequence to life.

 

I realize that my initial ‘Love for Knowledge’ as philosophy, as the desire to ‘know more’ was merely self interest, and that my knowledge became my own cross to bear of which I now take Self-Responsibility for, because I am realizing the simplicity of who I really am here as the physical body that breathes and is able to exist without experiences.

 

I commit myself to share my process with anyone that is currently ‘in the journey’ to enlightenment or any other form of spiritual endeavor, to share with them how I have realized the mindfuck that it all was while abusing the physical body, the physical reality and neglecting the actual problems on Earth while seeking my personal satisfaction fueled by chemicals, thoughts and experiences that only made ‘one’ special, while disregarding the rest of the world as equally HERE as ourselves.

 

I commit myself to establish myself as the physical body to ensure that I am no longer bound to the memories of that which I perceived as blissful as all the experiences induced by chemical reactions that I equated to ‘god’ and ‘enlightenment,’ which would have been rather addictive if I had not stopped right away – thanks to Desteni because that’s the only way I realized what I was in fact doing to myself.

 

I commit myself to expose the fact that no knowledge, no special gnostic information,  no alchemic process will create LIFE as Life is already HERE as each one of us, wherein all that we have done is veiled it through further knowledge and information, instead of realizing it as who we are, here as our very physical body that is not bound to the mind’s processes to exist.

 

I commit myself to expose the desire for enlightenment as self interest as that continual desire to be ‘more than’ who we already are here as physical beings.

 

I commit myself to continue walking my process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application to ensure that all knowledge that I had used to define life is purified and equalized as Self, wherein there is no trace of greatness or ‘grandeur’ existent within and as myself, but actually walk the process to let go of this energetic fascinations that I had been so keen toward.

 

I commit myself to reveal how no enlightenment or spiritual endeavor creates an actual physical change in the world that is visible to ALL or creating any form of best for all outcome, but is merely self interest linked to money as that state of ‘happiness’ and ‘bliss’ that can only be obtained as an experience whenever your stomach has enough food, your body is properly hydrated and your environment is safe and secure from ‘the evil’ in this world that is created ever moment that positivity is sought and pursued in this world.

 

We Must Stop.

 

Desteni

Desteni I Process 

Journey to Life Blogs to walk the process in all aspects of our day to day living into a real tangible understanding of who we are as life.

 

 

The Doors of Perception - 07

Vlog:

2012 Love is a Drug: Are YOU an Addict?

Blogs:

 

FREE Download and a Must Hear

 

The Interview that clarifies the Jesus on the Cross symbolism made Practical and debunking Christianity

 

“Will we honor life or will we honor knowledge? In our words our choices will be heard” – Hell Spoof


%d bloggers like this: