233. Are we Anxious because We Know We Lie All the Time?

Facing our Personal Judgment Day

When looking at strength the past week, I had a dream wherein I would see a symbol that represented strength being mended/ broken and covered up with a ‘surrogate symbol’ if you wanna call it that.  How can any strength be real if it is founded upon an Idea of Self based upon an actual survival mode-system that we’ve been living as, projecting the usual image of ‘self-control’ while inside one is a wreck? Well, that certainly creates an underlying anxiety which indicates simply what? One is not being absolutely self-honest with one’s living and words, one is still wanting to hold on to something as a point of benefit/ idea of self that in no way can be sustainable if one is walking down the road of Self-Honesty. 

 

An aspect that I’ve lived for the most part of my life is precisely this: show no weakness = live strength as an Idea of Self- in order to seem ‘immovable.’ But when this strength is based on being ‘on guard’ to any form of attack, then it is not real strength but just defensive mechanisms stemming from fear.  As we know, nothing that is energy based can survive as an actual integral living-of-words within myself. The outflow is precisely this point wherein we try and cover things up nicely. As I write this I can talk about my grandfather and how he would hide his huge financial crisis that took him to lots of debt after having had quite his own piece of heaven so to speak. One would always see him being what you can call ‘political’ about it, even when he was sick, he’d behave as if everything was just fine, a small bump on the road here and there, nothing to worry about, while at the same time we all knew things weren’t alright.  And the same with my parents, I guess it’s a protection mechanism to hide when things are actually not going well and I see that we have conditioned ourselves to always ‘look at the bright side’ and look all around or anywhere else but straight forward to speak things as they are. That would piss me off:  what are they hiding from me? why can’t they look at me in the eyes when they speak? And this would be applied to virtually anyone. However, I had not realized I’ve been living the exact  same point wherein I try and cover up any actual fears with a false sense of strength and certainty, which later on becomes only so much one can deal with till it’s no longer able to be ‘sustainable’ as a living-word = me being actually IT and all of it done to  ‘save my ass’ in any regard.

 

This works temporarily in a system wherein if you have a great presentation, you can get cool attention and consideration from others as a sellable item– but if we are talking about self honesty which means realizing the truth of ourselves for ourselves/ by ourselves/ toward ourselves, even that ability to stand as such point in the system requires one to first be fully certain of what an actual strength is as an actual living truth of oneself, which cannot be measured by anything that I have been before as any form of ‘props’ within the system as that is the usual role that I have played for a long time as part of preprogrammed personalities and characters I got characterize throughout my life.

 

All of this came up when reviewing the word intelligence and ‘being responsible’ and how I pretty much disliked being called that while going through school, because I didn’t want to be reduced to being this single brain that apparently thinks and gets everything alright. This egotistical trait lead me to seek other ways in which I could be ‘regarded’ as special, unique or someone liking me for ‘who I really am’ – but, did I know what I really am then? No, do I have an idea of what I really am now? yes If I define myself as a physical living being that exists as part of a whole that is in the process of aligning this entire ‘me’ that I’ve been as all the ego-trips and willing to stand as an equal being to everything and all in order to support myself as life –  this implies no lie sustained by the past system of false values can exist within me = all of the ‘me’ as any apparent positive trait must go.

 

So, within this point of conflict between being sincere/ genuine or actually live the words  I speak, create a sense of glib self experience we all know is part of the building blocks of a façade we keep up in order to survive, it’s just like people presenting an image of success to pretend that everything is under control / I am perfectly normal and okay, thank you – I would get pissed off at people playing out these characters  without realizing to what extent I was playing the game as well. A common example is virtually any authority-figure representing the ideal of ‘All is under control’ while behind there’s this massive fear running throughout your body because you have actually no clue of what the fuck you really are doing  – then why keeping this ideal? Survival of our own fittest-ideal of ego in a dog eat dog world that we’ve all accepted and allowed.

 

This is a common experience at times when having to face an authority – parents, teachers, mentors, the ‘law,’ people you owe something to, people that show some ‘respect’ to you in any regard – all of this that we play in between our daily interactions keeps a masquerade in front of us as if ‘nothing bad happened’ – this is the actual disingenuous definition of who we have become: pretending all is well, but how can it be if Nothing in this world is working as an actual force of benevolence that is able to support all human beings, No one in this world is living up to the standards of what caring for one another as equals in fact implies in all possible ways, no governmental or financial systems are working to regard all living beings as having equal right to live in dignity, no belief system has ever proposed a solution for this world that could provide actual love and care for every single living being in this planet, No scientific discovery or human knowledge has ever been able to explain why we simply don’t care about each other. Then how could we Not feel insincere and fake if everything we’ve been thus far has been founded upon these lies we bought and sold?

 

We keep a presentation as if everything was fine, good, so/so going while in fact, everyone’s having their own little hell inside that is being feared to be faced. Why don’t we just open up? Out of fear of presenting ourselves as something/ someone that is not ‘as good as the rest’ –but, it’s rather ludicrous to keep up to each other’s lies considering the amount of stress, worry, anxiety, petrification this single realization causes.

 

So, why do we suppress ourselves and keep a glib personality, pretending something that we know is all lies? Is it only to benefit our egos and save our reputation somehow? a Reputation that has been built according to a social conditioning that supports nothing but lies to be liked by others that have also been conditioned to buying lies, reducing life to a single paper of abilities and skills that can be sold to the greatest bidder? Reducing all we’ve been to the amount of money in our bank accounts? Reducing the physicality that we are to a single image that can be attractive to others for sex? Is that living?

No

Then why are we hiding from actually speaking things as they are and keep a ‘good sellable self image’? Fear of rejection, fear of not being good enough, fear of ending up being seen as crazy, fear of failure, fearing being a loser, lunatic, hypocritical, selfish, self centered, dishonest and any other word that we’ve created out of the same consciousness that we have limited ourselves by.

This means that we can only create a form of conflict within ourselves according to ‘who we are’ if we still take such ‘who we are’ as an irreversible form of existence that we have to bear as our cross with no ability to change. That is certainly partly true, since the consequences of whatever we’ve lived while being in character are already here and having to be faced – but we certainly can walk a process to align ourselves through walking a process of writing, self forgiveness and self corrective application to instead let go of striving between the poles of the good and the bad, hiding our actual self from Ourselves and in such process, taking responsibility for the massive fear we have inflicted upon our physical bodies, the truth and reality of what we’ve become while accumulating only worry, concern, anxiety and a general stress because of knowing ‘we’re bulshitting ourselves and everyone else, and not knowing ‘how to follow through’ once this is discovered and realized. Well there is a solution. 

 

How I see it is as if we are building up these bubbles around us sustained by air  itself that can also be destroyed by air itself which means they are as flimsy as all the thoughts we’ve tried to live out as ‘who we are,’ invisible entities that we’ve given our actual lives to, which is rather ludicrous and paradoxical: giving the real life away to live these characters of self limitation through pretentious ideas of self that ‘sell well’ in the market, which we’ve then externalized as our financial bubbles within which our entire ‘lives’ are dependent upon. Why is this? Again, peer-pressure, social-pressure, ‘filling the role’ the best way possible. I’ve caught myself many times projecting this judgment toward people in general, but, it is time I take the point back to self and investigate myself playing out the same role just to keep up with what one is supposed to ‘keep up with’ as a form of reputation/ consideration, which again, falls within the same social conditions of ‘who am I supposed to be’ toward others and how one is able to fall for chasing the presentation without really following through with the actual living of it – just like any nice words we might say, but how many times we don’t end up actually living it? Or creating an idea of having everything ‘under control’ but not really knowing how to take the wheel and drive?

 

What happens with suppressions is the more we hide, the more things pile up, accumulate to a bigger conflict only because of holding an inner-perspective of who we are as such conflict and how we should handle it, which again is usually falling onto the same ‘control measures’ based upon fear, not actual Self-Understanding of How one created the entire ‘ball of snow’ in the first place.

If one is not absolutely self honest, fire eventually catches up on you and from there, only consequences must be faced, walked as a starting from zero point in order to see what was based upon being mere ‘froth’ which sounds like ‘fraud’ and how one can align it into a real physical living integration as part of the integrity that one would want to actually live, one that is not based on creating the most ‘sellable persona’ in the social-market of financial bubbles – but a human being that is able to die realizing that one has in fact done, been and become All one can in fact Live as a certainty of self as ‘who I really am’ in order to dedicate oneself fully and completely to do what’s best for all, to support self to be an actual example of what that means in all ways – am I currently that? No way,  there is so much to walk and align until there is not a single inkling of conflict with who I am, what I say, what I do and why I do it and all as in everyone else stand within one integral principle: an expression of self as one and equal –because, as the saying goes: no one is free until All Is Free.

 

This is one of the reasons why one can experience anxiety when facing mostly people and general situations wherein one’s own stand is questioned. One realizes one has been fucking around and cannot hide the truth any further and as such, anxiety as an intense fear is experienced. This is how if someone spends a considerable amount of time piling up this anguish, stress and anxiety, it is most likely that one then end up believing there’s something ‘really wrong’ with one’s nerves or health or whatever – but, what we don’t realize is that we have all created this ourselves, by our own thoughts, by our own irresponsibility, by our own false-presentations in order to present a ‘good-doer’ type of persona – but, now that we are aware of the Evil as the human nature that we actually are, is there any way to in fact be able to be ‘good’ in this world, as we have conditioned our own ‘good’ to be about within a system where life is being sold and denied to those who have No Money at all? No.

 

Hence, in order to align ourselves to a sound living experience, one has to face the idea of self and why it was kept ‘up’ within such a positive light, for what purpose, what do we exactly fear losing as the unsubstantial ego that we’ve become. For what? for who? what is ‘in it’ for us? what were we attempting to gain?

 

So, a suggestion I that if you reading this in any way believe in the end of the world, you give yourself the opportunity to give an end to the old world that we’ve kept ‘alive’ by the tips of our tongues every time that we speak just to create a cover up of our actual experiences that we even hide from ourselves, ending up fooling ourselves and living an inner conflict wherein one believes that ‘I don’t know who I really am’ and everything seems fuzzy and foggy, nothing ‘making any sense anymore’ which is just another ESC personality as another attempt to try and avoid facing the outflow of actually fearing to see the truth of ourselves: we’ve tried too hard to ‘make it’ but how can we ‘make it’ in a world founded upon lies?

 

So these are the points to explore, most humbling I can say wherein as I’ve agreed to define this: learning from one’s mistakes and walking the correction to align oneself to an actual living that I can stand by not only as words or a particular ‘idea of self’ that won’t last, but actual living-actions that are in fact a physical alignment to living, doing, becoming what’s best for all – not just goody-god-doer glib talk.

 

I’ve walked this process to get to a point of Self Honesty and this is what I’ll continue working on based on the points explained within this post, so, walk with to get to a point of sanity to create ourselves as actual living beings that are ‘Real’ in the physical sense of the word, no more upgrading personalities to avoid catching up on fire, but be able to stand here, absolutely unwavering from having faced our own inner demons as the ‘hidden corridors’ and dark corners of our mind and as such stand as an actual integrity that we all can in fact cultivate as a self-forgiveness process of everything that we owe to ourselves as life.

 

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85. Death to the artist–Bearthing Life

To stop the characterization in our lives implies self forgiving the configuration of our programming to instead, direct ourselves to be and become the actual living physicality that only requires to establish one single principle to be able to coexist: Life in Equality.

 

Any personality and its various characters leads us to act/ do/ say and think according to one single limited character frame that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to reduce ourselves to. Thus, within this I see, realize and understand that the end of the illusion is here as myself, in every moment that I decide to breathe, be here as the physical instead of perpetuating the lie of ‘who I am’ as a character in my mind and toward others.

This is the second part to 84. “What are you up to?”  seen from the perspective of the pattern such interactions represent within the context of who and what we become as ‘characters’ in the world system that exist as such just to live as illusions and delusions that have never in fact ever Lived. Thus, it is within me that the ability to ensure I establish myself here as a living physical being exists – this is to stop complying to playing the game/ being a player in the game we have called ‘life,’ which has never in fact being Living but only getting high on energy up to the last drop to then decay and die as the fleeting spark we have diminished ourselves to be.

 

Hence, this is the end at the moment for the ‘artist character’ in various dimensions as examples of what one single personality possesses our very being wherein we forget about the actual reality that we exist as, and become nothing else but another player in the chess game battlefield that we have superimposed to the unconditional physicality of ourselves here. It’s time to take off the costume – I am here to live, not survive.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the moment I comply to communicate with another based memories, I am in fact re-creating the same illusion that we have bound ourselves to – and by illusion is to understand that it was never in fact real – thus what is the point in perpetuating a Lie toward ourselves and others if we already understand that, within keeping ourselves as such lies we are in fact abusing of this entire reality from life after life after life, just because of this single acceptance of individualized characters that communicate as characters, fulfilling experiences as characters in this staged world-system wherein nothing that we have ‘created,’ has ever been REAL in fact, but only consequence of our eternal drive to ‘fulfill ourselves as characters,’ without ever seeing ourselves as the origin of such ‘search’ in the first place – thus running around in circles, chasing after chasing ourselves only, but always veiling ourselves from realizing this because of the actual positive experience we all sought for as energy itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I’ve wasted an entire education on art because I am not creating any longer, without realizing that self interest would be to stick to doing something that I realize is not supporting myself as one and equal, and instead do it to simply satisfy the character that I was supposed to be.

 

When and as I see myself thinking that I wasted an entire ‘art career’ because I am no longer creating, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I’ve actually wasted entire lifetimes seeking to fulfill a character that was never in fact real in the first place – thus I let go of any ideal/ belief or perception of anything having any substantial ‘worth’ as myself here – I realize the fulfillment of the illusion was what kept me busy as only a character seeking to fulfill its due-characterization which is not who and what I am here as the physical.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others have to say in relation to my life as a ‘drop out of character’ without realizing that standing ‘as’ the character and fulfilling a life as such is the actual enslavement that we’ve all complied to without a question, wherein we buy into social pressures of ‘who we are’ toward others, instead of realizing that in playing such which-character-are-you-today game, we are in fact binding ourselves to an enslavement to the mind, the character and the stage alike.

 

When and as I see myself thinking that I have ‘wasted myself because of not following through art-education,’ I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is just a victimization character to keep the mind preoccupied thinking that there’s something ‘wrong’ that was done with that – and instead direct myself to see how I have only been playing out a ‘character game,’ entertaining myself as whether I did good or not, without realizing that while existing lost in such characterization, I missed the entire reality that is here and that I was only focusing on me-as-the-character, missing the reality that we are binding to our mind-illusions, seeking to fulfill each other in order to not see what we are in fact doing/ consuming every time that we ‘call ourselves by our character,’ and thinking that it is ‘normal’ to exist like this.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever make of ‘art’ something important, without realizing that it was just another mind possession that I took on for the evasion it represented just as anything else- and I realize that it could have virtually anything of this world that I could have grabbed-on in order to make it ‘my own’ and ‘my thing’ in life, which is the only way we have kept ourselves busy in our minds, fulfilling each other with lies to believe that ‘what we are seeing/ hearing/ experiencing’ within ourselves is ‘real’ as ‘who we are,’ when in fact: it never was.

 

When and as I see myself placing ‘what I do’ as more than myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize that anything that I make to validate myself as a character is only serving the ego of the mind and not who I really am as a physical being that certainly does not require any form of recognition or validation from an external source to verify that ‘I am here.’ Thus I commit myself to establish the totality of myself as here in every moment of breath wherein I do not require to become a character or ‘create’ something in order to ‘exist.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play out characters that seek to validate their own creation as real and ‘meaningful,’ without realizing that it is just another form of praising each other’s character as to see who becomes the best actor of it all, and as such get the most reward in the name of ‘who I am as the mind,’ instead of realizing that in / as the physical there is nothing to recognize as superior or inferior, there is no need to prove yourself to others, there is no need to become something ‘better’ for others to see or praise. Therefore

 

 

2008

When and as I see myself diminishing myself to become a character in order to fulfill the idea/ memory that others have of myself, I stop and I breathe. I realize that self-as-here cannot possibly continue perpetuating the same game of ‘who you are’ and ‘prove yourself to others’ in order to satisfy a world system that thrives on personalization to create specialized fields to entertain ourselves in, believing that ‘we have to become a character for others, otherwise we are no alive!’ which is how we have compromised, abused and used the entirety of who we are in the name of that fleeting sparkle of ‘personality’ aiming to get ‘high’ in the world system, while neglecting the actuality of how we were able to do this as an absolute consumption of ourselves, reducing life to a single gimmick of living. That is not who I am and I commit myself to establish myself as the physicality in every moment of breath, stopping all forms of mind delusions that come up as temptations to follow through with a positive experience. I realize the illusion for what it is and remain constant and consistent here as breath.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to reduce myself to being a single ‘bright spark’ as the character that I sought to be and become in absolute ignorance of what is it that I was in fact using and abusing to fulfill my desires, hopes, wants, dreams, wishes throughout lives, never ever pondering about anything else but ‘who I am’ as this someone that ‘must become someone better/ greater no matter what,’ and within this single acceptance of becoming a professional in something, a single career, a single character I complied to playing the game of the world system of characters, believing that the most important decision in my life was ‘who I will be/ become when I grow up’ based on the limited variation of characters that I saw as ‘available’ and even with that, having chosen one that I could use as a means to apparently ‘evade’ reality, never realizing that I cannot escape reality at all and that wherever I go I am here – thus, I direct myself to face myself in every moment of breath to ensure that I stop the stupidity cycles we’ve existed as the mind, creating further separation from one another by fully embodying characters that never regarded life as ourselves here – but always used it and abused it to fulfill a program, a script as the character.

 

When and as I see myself loading memories to fulfill the idea of myself toward others in relation to the character I had accepted and allowed and defined myself to be, I stop and I breathe – I realize that the only way I can be real and exist here, is here as breath as the physical – and I dare to stop the illusion within another toward myself, as I realize that the very least moment that I ‘give in’ to play the same old game, I give into the character version of myself that is not real – hence I commit myself to be the one that places a final stop to characters and to face the reactions as what they are, characters complaining a character loss in another, as that debunks the happy-go-lucky character world that we’ve enslaved ourselves within and as.

 

I realize that it apparently takes courage to do this, however if we don’t do it we simply doom ourselves to a finite version of who we are yet again, which is unacceptable and this is how it must be stopped No matter What.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become a character that compromises itself as a character that depends on other characters to survive, which is how essentially we have limited, diminished and made ourselves dependent on a monetary system based upon abuse, determining ‘who we are’ in relation to others according to the amount of money we have a ‘power to exist,’ which is absolutely ludicrous when realizing that we actually would not require this enslavement at all, we have become it because we decide to become a character that seeks for its ‘great high’ instead of realizing ourselves as what is here, in its totality – which is how I see and realize that any point of ‘great potential’ could only exist as an illusion of who I am as the mind – and that the only reality that I actually exist as is the physicality that I am here as, which doesn’t require anything else but itself to exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to preoccupy myself with trivial experiences in relation to ‘the character’ that I’ve become in relation and toward others, without realizing that the only thing I really feared was losing the recognition and support of other characters to ‘my character,’ which was the way to simply continue lying to each other in believing ourselves to be these unique individuals as ‘special characters,’ without realizing what we have actually done to ourselves and each other as this entire world system that thrives on the ‘evolution of characters’ that consume more, that have specialized ‘likes’ and preferences that can only benefit a world system that only seeks to fulfill itself and never has in fact realized or supported life.

 

Thus, I commit myself to restore the world order, the life order on Earth and to expose the simplicity of the realization of how we diminish ourselves every time that we seek to ‘create’ in separation of ourselves something just to satisfy our characters.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience any form of guilt or remorse for stepping out of character toward others, without realizing that this belief of ‘biting the hand that feeds,’ is only a blackmailing mechanism used to always maintain each other’s character in place, seeing the ‘out of character’ as a betrayal and often ostracizing anyone that would dare to ‘step out of character’ to point out any for of reality, because they represented a potential threat to this entire world system of characters. Thus I realize how any point of realization that I could have ever experienced in relation to ‘having to choose what character to become in life’ and that I deliberately placed aside, I did so because I could not fathom not having a character to stand by in the world system, which proves to what extent we have become the very ‘masters’ of our own enslavement, believing that we had to fear losing our character as we would experience ‘rejection’ from others, because this is exactly how we have threatened each other to ‘remain in character,’ just like a gang wherein if one decides to stop being a member of it: they are haunted, ostracized, criticized, denigrated and sometimes even killed just because of not complying to ‘the rule of thumb’ of a majority that sought to keep the illusion in place, as the illusion ‘pays off great experiences,’ without even questioning why such experiences could only last but for a moment and never ever could remain here eternally as ourselves, because we actually doomed ourselves to death the moment that we chose to only be these fleeting characters and not life eternal.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself to ‘have to make a living’ in the world system based on becoming a character that could be ‘acceptable’ as a way to make money/ make a living wherein I could in one way or another have to comply to others’ characters in order to build mine – this implies that from the moment that I accepted people as relationships in separation of myself as equals, I complied to the game; and all the way throughout the basic indoctrination as part of the system called ‘education,’ I became aware of what character I had to be/ become and play in order to survive, which is how I accepted the requirement in the system to become a character as the only way to survive, because: if I didn’t do it, I would have no means to get money – and because I knew that we depend on money = I had no other option but to become part of it and in doing so, complying to each and every single rule that we’ve enslaved ourselves to wherein Life is not unconditionally supported and provide for all as equals, but is and has been instead only used as cannon fodder to win our battles upon others and make ourselves ‘great’ in our own minds, without realizing that who and what we have become in such characterization is promoting, supporting each other’s illusions/ delusions as only being ‘someone’ in our minds, in the world system, while missing out the actuality existing here at all times, covered up with this gimmicky living-reality that in no way supports life, that We have accepted and allowed as an actual prison to ourselves – and I cannot fathom how we have not realized this before.

 

Therefore, and hereby I commit myself to break the illusion, to stop my own characterization based on that complied-to character that I chose myself to be in all ways and through doing that, establishing myself as the physical which is what is tangibly here as myself, which is what I am certain of I really am – as if I don’t eat, I die – and that any other ‘idea’ that people of ‘my past’ had about myself is no longer relevant to who/ what I am here, in every moment of breath, physically.

 

I realize that all memories were only illusions and that complying to one single memory of who I am is enslaving myself and others to the same illusion. I commit myself to expose the illusion I had become through continuing writing, applying self forgiveness for the stupidity loop that we’ve been and become as this ridiculous existential fuckup that we have remained blind within until now. I understand the crucial point we’re currently living in, and that it is our decision to stop it here in every moment, breath by breathe, as we walk this process to finally break the illusion/ see behind the veil that we had covered ourselves up with in order to not face the truth that is not pretty nor is it gruesome, but only the reality and consequence that does not require to be qualified but only seen, understood and corrected as ourselves into a best for all living principle that I establish here as myself.

 

“I commit myself to show – how we have never in fact in equal and one awareness with ourselves, our beingness in our equal and one relationship with the physical/physical-body,DECIDED /directed ‘who we are’ in moments of interaction/participation with others, because our responses/experiences/relationships with others have always been dependent/created/manifested from MEMORIES as characters of our parents’ Minds within ourselves, that’s determined ‘who we are’ and ‘how/what we live’ and ‘experience’-ourselves as, as individualized characters in relation to others’ behaviour/physical-responses to/towards us in moments of physical-reality participation/interaction. Thus, we’ve constructed/created ourselves as memories/characters from memories/characters, and so have never actually in fact lived/really decided ‘who we are’ in our living, interaction and participation in existence as memories had come to control our entire mental-physical relationship from birth to who/how we are now in our entire mind-physical existence.” – Sunette Spies *

 

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Day 85: And God Created Slaves by Bernard Poolman 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by AcceptingGod as the Ultimate Creator that Created All as it is, I accept and allow the Existence of Slavery in all dimensions like: Child Slavery, Debt Slavery, Sex Slavery – and that My attempt to change this Slavery while I accept God in this Position as Creation will be futile – as I, in my attempt to Stop Slavery, will be acting against my own Belief and Faith in God – and as I Gave all Power to God, I will be Powerless and thus Slavery will Not end in all its Forms, as I am the ONE that Create it through My Acceptance of God as Creator. Thus, the Decision must be clear. I am the One that Decides that Slavery must Exist, as I am the One that Decides that God must Exist, as I am the One that claims I can never understand God, as Why God Created all that is, According to God’s Will, as I am the Slave that must Exist so that God can Exist, as I am the One that Decides – and thus I must be God that Creates the Slavery, as I have my Reasons why I create Slavery, because I Can – as I am the One that Allows Me to Create a World in which Life is Not Equal For ALL – and for Slavery to Exist,Inequality Must exist – as I am the One that Created Inequality, as I vote for it in Every Election, and I vote for it every time I buy Goods Created by Slaves, Wage Slaves – this world through the Ages has been and will Be what I decide, as I am the One as the Image and Likeness of God with Free Choice that can decide Anything, even to Be the Slave or God that will decide whether slaves will Exist. Thus, I am the One that Must change theWorld to One where there are NO MORE Slaves – Meaning, I must Be the One that Cleans Up the Mess on Earth, Bringing Life Back as Myself, as Equal and One, in Each One – so that, in Fact, we are All Equal as Creators, making Sure we DO NOT FORCE each other Into Slavery, as I AM the One that Decides, as You are the One that Decides – and this is the Decision I must Make in Every Breath, as Who I Am: that which is the Change to What is Best for all, or that which is the Chains that Enslaves Myself and Everyone else to this ILL LOSING. Thus, I decide in Every Breath to be the Change that will Breath by Breath Create a Reality Where For Real All will be Equal and All Life will Be supported One and Equal, as I Give to ALL what I would Like to Receive – and thus I will Be the One that Receives, and so We as One, as we Decide and Live the Living Action of the Living Word of the Decision, will bring into Being Life in the Physical, and SO we will Be the One that is God in Every Breath, Creating the Character that Life Must Be to Be What is Best for ALL Life, Always.” – Bernard Poolman

 

Great Support to Understand this process:

• Reptilians – My Servancy-Enslavement to my own Creation – Part 66

• Reptilians – Time – Consciousness’s Worst Enemy – Part 67

 

 

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