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375. The Acceptance of Power as Our Own Demise

“Whoever is the cause of another becoming powerful, is ruined himself for that power is produced by him either through craft or force; and both of these are suspected by the one who has been raised to power”Niccolò Machiavelli

 

The Lost I of the Universe by Thought

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to integrate the illusion of power and hierarchy as part of ‘who I am’ and ‘how reality operates’ without realizing how within this acceptance, one gives way to laws, rules, regulations to dictate one’s life through politics, through laws, through so-called education systems that in no way have inculcated living principles, a living understanding of who we are as living beings that are made of the same substance – instead, I accepted and allowed myself to learn of the differences, the hierarchy, the power structures, the laws to abide to, following the education system to the T and believing that such structure was created in the best interest of myself, my life, the life of others and of this entire reality, therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my own responsibility to myself, to others, to this world through immediately giving up my ability to comprehend, realize, understand reality through physical living principles and instead, gave myself into knowledge and information, rules, supposed principles that I integrated as the way that I conceive and understand reality which I have used to lead myself through the world as a passive participant, believing that the existence of power in the political class was inherent to such structure that governs our lives

I realize that such power could have not existed if I hadn’t integrated the concept of hierarchy, authority, ruling powers, kings, presidents, monarchs, tyrants, dictators, magnates and any other position of power that implies a form of control and deliberate abuse in order to generate such power as the accumulation of ‘moreness’ at the cost of equality as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever experience powerlessness toward authorities/power structures not realizing that my own submission, fear and experiences toward the idea of something superior to myself, validates and enables the creation of such separation to exist as ‘how our reality operates’ – therefore

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the actual existence of the system is not in the people outside of myself, but it exists within and as myself from the moment that I accepted thoughts, feelings, emotions and the entire comprehension of my reality in inequality as ‘how things are’ becoming the perfect slave and follower to whichever idea, construct and system that was formed from the beginning of our time and simply agreeing to give it continuation from generation to generation through education, culture as if such rules, ways, structures and systems were genuinely representing the laws of our being and what is best for all which was never so.

 

I realize that having a myopic view of the problem of the world in only focusing on one system, one area such as the offense-defense balances of political powers, the violation of human rights, the deliberate fraud the monetary system is are only consequential outflows of the inherent hegemon/ monarch/ king/ ruler/ leader/ tyrant and dictator that I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as myself as the mind, as the system that is the source and origin of ‘all the powers that be,’ that is the real image and likeness of what our reality currently exists as because words themselves as laws, people themselves as actors, money printed with numbers are in essence just part of this reality no different to anything or anyone else and that as any tool, it can be used for the benefit of all OR for the detriment of all. In this

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the key to change the structures of this system resides in the mind of each individual human being, for it is to realize that the best laws can be written to guarantee the best living conditions to all, the best monetary system created as a tool to guarantee the access to all the necessary means to live in a dignified manner can be created, a proper structure to ensure the preservation and sustainability of the ecosystem, taking care of the flora and fauna, the best constitutions can be written, but unless the nature of the human being changes = nothing will change.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to life by integrating knowledge and information that directly separates, severs, divides, hierarchizes, abuses and confuses our relationship to one another as equals by nature and in this immediately giving into the belief that something or someone can genuinely have power over myself, which begins at a thought level and exists in that moment that we learn how we must follow rules, ways, laws, regulations or else we would be punished by god/ authority/parent/teacher/police/judges and any character that we accepted and allowed to perceive would have power over others through the threat of punishment, thus having to follow the laws, rules, regulations written by us humans that never have existed with a foundation of genuinely caring for all, but instead already replicating and mimicking our own learned – accepted and allowed – ways of thinking and conceiving reality through the mind, which is a system extracts life substance from the physical body to generate energy, using all means and ways to ensure that the power/ the energy is able to be obtained over life, deliberately using/abusing the physical, the life force to power up its own existence and continuation that was then prescribed as laws, rules, regulations, ‘principles,’ morality, ethics, philosophy, wisdom, religions, politics, science and any other form of acceptance of such premises to be ‘the reality’ of who we are, ‘how things are,’ immovable precepts not realizing they were in fact pre-sets, pre-determined and pre-defined ways to guarantee the submission of who we are as life to the mind, the power-system and believing ourselves to be only that: pawns in a system, having a purpose, fulfilling that purpose or else we would die/ we would be punished and cease to exist.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to in the beginning, fear the non-existence of myself based on the threat of ‘the powers that be’ whether it is the figure of a god, ‘justice’, parent, teacher, tyrant, judge, dictator, president, director etc. which are nothing else but necessary figures of control in a system that required such fear to maintain ourselves subordinated to the status quo, the ‘how things are and always have been’ and according to this acceptance and allowance of our history, our knowledge and information, we became slaves to it with an inability to think outside the box, because we accepted the box as the vox/ the voice in our head, in our mind as ‘who we really are. ‘

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint the meaning of authority with fear, with authoritarianism as the abuse of power instead of realizing that the authority of myself is the ability to direct and write myself to be a self-directive being in self honesty, using the real power that is the physical body to do so.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self-authority as the ability to direct myself in common sense considering what is best for myself and all in the way that I live and relate to everything and everyone in this reality to an idea of having to be ‘loyal to the laws, loyal to authorities, loyal to my family, loyal to a country, loyal to myself’ as the pre-determined role of being a follower of the rules and regulations believing this to be something ‘good’ that would make me by default a ‘good citizen’ and as such, believe that this submission and subordination to become an obedient individual to ‘the powers that be’ would make me a remarkable, loyal and trustworthy person, without realizing it was exactly the opposite.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever participate in any form of superiority, subordination, inferiority, as the polarity in which our mind as the generator of this frame through which we view and conceive reality is existing as, which means that every time that I give my power away – which is the actual power of every breath – to a train of thought, to imagination, to an experience I am already recreating the slave-master relationship that I have existed as within myself, individually within the disparity that I’ve become as a body, a mind and beingness that has been suppressed by my constant and deliberate participation in the mind in the acceptance of it as ‘who I really am’ – this is then understood as the basic hierarchical relationship I’ve existed as within myself, therefore toward others as well.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to from a very early age believe that the intention of the creation of governmental structures, nations, states, and all the ‘powers that be’ was to guard my life, the life of all living beings in this planet, thinking and believing that if there was an authority behind the creation of our education system, the supervision of what we eat/drink, the rules that we guide our lives with then we would be immediately safe and our interests would be secured, without realizing that any formation of a hierarchical structure was never meant to be supportive for all individuals, for the existence of a hegemon/god/powerful entity implies already the subordination and abuse of everyone else that does not form part of such superior structure/class/elite.

 

 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that looking at political actors as the ones to blame is futile since we are the ones that from the beginning of our existence accepted the idea of god/superior,  powers/ leaders and any other figure of power as ‘how society must function’ within the belief that we were incapable of taking care of ourselves, of genuinely understanding and exercising any form of self-governance – because we never pondered why we weren’t taking care of the matters of this world by our own hands – we became passive, complacent and subjugated to the laws, rules and regulations that we instead feared not following due to expecting any form of punishment for not doing so, instead of pondering why we had to follow rules that we inherently knew were not supportive every individual in equality and instead, gave into fear and decided to not question, not investigate, not challenge the way things are because in our own minds, we have never really been the actual director of our lives in every moment of breath, and instead gave ourselves into fear.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to integrate the belief that people in positions of power were ever placed in such positions to genuinely care for ourselves, to genuinely act in the best interest of all and within that, creating and developing a trust toward that which I believe was meant to ‘direct me in the best interest of all’ without realizing that this false conception has led us to believe that there were others taking care of ourselves and we then didn’t have to do anything about ourselves, understanding the structures by which our lives are governed – and instead focus on merely developing our individual lives accepting by default the limitation to ever aspire to get to any position of ‘power’ because in our education, in our comprehension of our reality such ‘realms of power’ were by default concealed of our understanding, leaving ourselves and conducting ourselves then to only conform, comply and ‘make the best’ of the limitations, the deliberate disparity and scarcity that we have lived in throughout our entire human history wherein as society, as human beings we have never coexisted as equals for we have always accepted and allowed the belief and idea that something or someone must be ‘on top,’ must be the one that ‘sets the rules,’ ‘makes the decisions’ and in this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent and lazy to learn or even care to establish proper foundations at a mind level to know how to live, act and direct ourselves in the consideration of what will be best for myself and everyone else equally, what will not harm or abuse others, what will support the sustainability of the relationships that enable life to continue, the relationship toward oneself as an equal part of such life –  instead, we gave our ability to understand and comprehend the reality as physicality to the mind as the imposition of illusions made real through the violation of physical laws such as the notion of ‘power’ as something or someone “superior” defined by the ability to abuse, control, manipulate, deceive in self interest.

 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the consequences that exist as the totality of this reality based on the abuse and harm justified and conducted by people in positions of power/authority acting within the framework of a ‘power structure’/ hierarchy/ world system,  not realizing that in such blind acceptance al of us, one by one, have played and become the silent bystander that has witnessed the abuse of each other, of all life and did nothing because we believed and justified it with saying that ‘someone else was responsible for it,’ and in this even becoming resentful, hostile, angry and rebellious toward authority without realizing that we have only been angry at ourselves for the ignorance, the complacency, the subordination that we accepted as ‘who we are’ in our belief of being incapable of ‘doing anything about it’ –

And yes, it is now ingrained to the point where it may seem impossible to deconstruct the foundation of this hierarchical structure that exists in every word in/as our mind, yet it is definitely possible to establish common sense, to understand basic living principles that benefit us all and as such go bit by bit, thread by thread deconstructing the fallacy, the lie, the fiction, the belief system, the knowledge and information that we have used to justify our abdication of self-responsibility to ourselves and all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by condemning ‘the powers that be’ all that can be realized is how any and all forms of abuse and atrocities are not only conducted by the individual themselves, but as the pattern that has been accepted and allowed, integrated as part of our ‘human nature’ from the beginning of time wherein the way to survive was to abuse and through these survival mechanisms, we then followed through to create our institutions, our laws, our philosophy, our knowledge, our ethics and morals based on this premise wherein the inherent belief of hierarchy as a normal organization of life  has become our very self-created demise.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only through education about how the system operates, one is able to conduct change in the world, not realizing that this world as it is is the result of each individual’s participation in the system, as the system existing as the continuation of the past that exists within and as ourselves in the mind, harboring the basic premise and permission of the existence of direction as words in the form of knowledge and information that has never been existent to benefit the life of us all as human beings and our relationships toward everything that is equally here.

 

Therefore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to look at the balance of power to create solutions outside of myself, without realizing that even if the best laws, the greatest and most equal form of government is implemented it is only the structure, the foundation of  the system to be – however the actuality, the matter, the substance of the system is not existing in the laws which are only words, or in the positions of people in power that are only fulfilling a role within the greater scheme of such structure, it is existent in how each one of us live and interact with one another wherein basic principles are lacking in our interaction with and toward the environment/ the reality that we live in

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to by defining myself as the mind that thinks in hierarchical values, impose such values, such perception, such frame and filter through which I see reality upon everything and everyone else, giving up my ability to see directly reality, to direct myself and focus on sheer basic observation principles where there are no tags, no inherent differences that can make us think or believe that some are entitled to be and have ‘more’ than others.

 

This is how knowledge and information on how the system is structured is only viewing a blueprint, the map, and the map can be corrected to follow new ways in which we can direct ourselves to a better destination – we are the ones that have to change the route in fact, we are the ones that have to direct ourselves to actually walk that process of changing the route, the ways to walk it or else the map as the words, as the new proposals, new treaties, new constitutions, new laws, new presidents, new monetary systems as organizational structures, as genuine representations of our self-governance and self-authority will be useless and remain as depictions, as representations or ‘dead print’ unless we genuinely live them, incarnate them as the living principles that we should have always lived by and is only now that we are able to see beyond the ‘mindframe’ that we’ve always existed as that we have the opportunity to change the way we conceive our reality, to understand how authority is not something imposed onto ourselves, but how each one of us accepted and allowed hierarchy to exist within and as ourselves first, otherwise it would have not been successful once such ‘authority figures/ powers that be’ would be created i n reality if we didn’t have the proper mindset to understand, to conceive and comply to the existence of such authority-figures/roles as part of our reality, as ‘how things are,’ never questioning why we required others to take care of ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that through the blind acceptance of teachings/education as the integration of ‘how things work in reality’ I became a complicit in the malfunctioning, the abuse and the violation of life in the name of merely complying and not questioning my life nor that of others which means that through this blind acceptance I became part of the necessary continuation, perpetuation of the structures of power and abuse by the sheer integration of words such as power, government, authority, control, fear, justice, laws, education, family and all roles of ‘authority’ contained in them as ‘how things work,’ ‘who I am toward others’ and in this locking myself down as just another pawn within the system that gives power away to others in the belief of others caring for myself and guarding my best interests, which is as we know not at all so.

 

I realize that in order to conduct genuine change in this world, looking at politics, looking at economics, looking at education as isolated systems is not the way to create a change because change won’t happen just by re-writing the laws, codes, books and explaining how things operate to everyone because what matters is the decision that each one of us take in order to live and integrate the living principles of life in equality with which we will conduct ourselves to live the necessary changes and corrections to the way in which we have lived thus far.

 

I realize that the lack of common sense and living principles is what has propitiated our submission and compliance to “learning” how to view this world through the mind, through concepts, through value structures, through hierarchical orders instead of learning how to view each individual as an equal, each living being in this reality as part of who we are and as such realizing that in order to be able to organize ourselves, to direct ourselves, we don’t require another to tell us what to do, but instead we have to live by principles of no harm or abuse toward ourselves or others as well as self-responsibility as our ability to respond, to act, to direct ourselves and our lives in consideration of what’s best for all.

 

When and as I see myself viewing the power structures in this world as something greater than myself, I stop and I breathe – I realize this is the outflow and consequence of my own psychological conditioning, called education which is nothing else but the acquisition of knowledge and information that enables me to accept and allow any form of authority, abuse, power, to exist in this world as ‘how things are’ which is thus an individual process of compliance that has taken place wherein we have learned how to ‘cope with the system’ and ‘accept the status quo’ instead of directly seeing how and why we have come to accept such world-orders without a question, to begin with, and realizing how such ‘power’ only exists in the belief I have imposed upon them/upon the structure and system in itself the moment that I abdicated my own.

 

I realize that my understanding of reality through the filters of education, politics, economics, philosophy, religion has created the entire continuation of this entire system by living within the compliance of their existence as dogma, as how things are and operate, how everything has always been with which we have become passive participants in the continuation of the same cycles of negligence toward life, over and over and over again.

 

I commit myself to stop any experience when I believe I have no say upon/ have no power/ have no authority to direct a point, instead of realizing that we can only have power to direct ourselves to be the living example of what it is to live in consideration of all beings as equal, the best living forms and ways in which we can coexist and how if our reality, our creation is not existing as the living principles that correspond to what is best for all, then we have to become that change and promote that change through the understanding of individual/ self’s responsibility within it all, realizing that by abdicating our responsibility = we give our power away and as such, we directly enable and validate any form of abuse that comes with the structure of power as something greater/superior than our individual volition.

 

I commit myself to live by principles that contemplate and integrate life in equality, what is best for all at all times so that no division, no separation, no judgment, no proselytism exists within me other than the living example of what it is to live by principles of life in equality, of the equality within and as everything that is here as myself and as such understanding my own mind, my own ‘brainwashing’, my own conditioning, training and point of control to then see how it is only through changing the way that I relate to myself, to my own mind, to my own thoughts and concepts about reality to go seeing what is useful and what isn’t to support myself and others to realize that if we want change, we have to be the change but that isn’t about demanding or only understanding how things operate, but focusing on self change, the how I live, how I interact with myself as my body and mind and with others always considering the ways in which we can coexist in real harmony and peace by ceasing to exist in the belief of powers over ourselves .

 

I commit myself to realize that the power we all have exists as the functionality of the physical body in every breath, and how we are able to have that authority of and as ourselves as we go integrating living principles that are the genuine way to have power in this reality, to learn how to live and coexist In equality.

 

I commit myself to restore or integrate a sound meaning of words that are not tainted by the mindframes/structures within which they have been originally constructed to support belief systems of separation and inequality, but instead are words that can be lived in a sound manner with a certain living outcome that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to understand the systems through which we have separated ourselves from ourselves, how we have created this creation so that we cease to recreate the same patterns and instead plan/integrate/initiate and ‘install’ a new living program, a new set of directions, new living instructions that are aligned to taking responsibility of ourselves and of each other as one and equal.

 

“Remember, whatever is faced or created within self – self is and has been the creator. Do not live in fear of what is here, understand it, realise self as it and assert yourself to stand-up for change, to not expose others as you to such a world – but create a world in which they will be embraced with equality and oneness and actual living”
– Bernard Poolman

 

We accepted and allowed it

“We accepted it”

 

 

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188.Con-Sequence

Consequences of ProcrastinationWriting 

The manifested consequence of our creation is what we learn to face within this process  – and one would common sensically consider that because of knowing/ being aware of the potential harm, disruption, loss of integrity when deliberately participating in any thought, word and deed that we ‘know’ is not what best for all, we simply would stop doing it and stop the harm and self-abuse. Well, who we are as the mind is anything but common sensical or ‘sane’ within the logical sense of what sanity should be as a state of equilibrium at an organic/body and mind level. We are anything but that. While reading one of Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs I remember leaving a comment how I was a bit shocked when realizing that we Know what we are doing to ourselves, such as consuming our very life substance in order to create energetic experiences – yet we continue, yet we keep doing it even though the explanation is here on a golden platter for us to stand up and change.

I saw within myself also how the points that I’ve been able to definitely quit and stop and support myself to face the ‘withdrawal’ of were aspects wherein I made a firm decision to change. The moment I do not make this definitive decision, I know beforehand that I will use an excuse to not-change and kind of sneak in the pattern that I am ‘trying to stop’ because in the ‘trying’ there is no definitive action taken to decisively stop something. How on Earth have we managed to fool ourselves? To actually be abusing our lives, our living opportunities of expansion and growth even within the current ‘constrains’ of the system we live in, and simply allow ourselves to be ruled by apathy, by uselessness, by the sheer decision to ‘do it later’ which implies already deciding to do something else that sounds better to me than actually pushing myself to expand my current accepted and allowed automated response to only ‘go for’ that which sounds nice, enticing, comfortable, cozy even within my mind.

 

Now, the consequences… this is the part we really don’t want to face because it is all obviously to our own detriment and within the character walked so far, I realize the piece of self-sabotage masterpiece this has been.  I have also realized that I cannot victimize myself, make excuses, try to explain why I didn’t do it in a way that would sound ‘good’ at the ears of others – nope, I can’t like and all I have been able to say is ‘I have no excuse for that’ and even that sounds like cynicism based on me obviously having judged people in the past that would ‘blatantly’ accept their mistakes and faults and have  ‘nothing else to say’ because apparently, an excuse or justification would ‘soothe the consequence’ in some way, which is always stemming from this inherent human-mind desire of keeping ourselves on the ‘positive score’ of the game, even if everything goes to hell today we rather say ‘oh, but, you know, we did our best, we did everything we could, there was no way to change this’ – and cross our arms and hope to die probably.

Well, that which I see could happen at a global scale in terms of the procrastination we are accepting and allowing to sort out this world, the same I can see in the seemingly ‘unimportant’ points that I have procrastinated, deliberately ignoring the consequences and effect that this single point that I accepted and allowed to leave behind created as an effect in my overall beingness wherein it is rather difficult to pretend that everything is fine when there’s this corpse you’re dragging behind you and stinking every day a little bit more every time.

The consequences are both at a physical reality level and within my own ‘stance’ as a living being, because as we’ve explained before: if the sun refused to shine and postpone it’s glow today, life on Earth would not be possible, if the oxygen decided to withdraw itself from the atmosphere, take some ‘time out’ and come back in a week or so after a run through the universe, would life still be possible? No – and these are all obvious hypothetical points because it is simply not common sense to even conceive that a physical constancy in our world would procrastinate its function – the same applies to our physical body.

 

So, I see, realize and understand that every single judgment I had toward anything else not being fully applied and determined to change within others, must be absolutely reverted for me to face my own deliberate procrastination even though realizing and knowing/ being aware of the consequences. In my mind, it doesn’t make sense obviously to do something that will not be producing energy for it to create an experience about the moments that I am working on something – and this is precisely the ‘withdrawal’ process I see I have to face here – it’s going ‘better’ in terms of being able to spot the moments, however unless a definitive decision is made to stop walking the middle path, nothing will absolutely change/ be corrected.

 

I see and realize that within giving up on a single point and trying to hide/ suppress the actual experience toward it, it simply compounds until it becomes a literal burden on your back – so, this has been cool in order to spot the anxiety in relation to this, which would be automatically coming up in the seemingly unnoticeable moments wherein I would have the least ‘reminder’ of this point that I have to do – however since I’ve been actually working on it, the ‘benefit’ of this is also re-establishing myself as my directive principle which is one of the other dimensions of consequences that emerge when procrastinating: we stop existing as that immovable force that is able to ‘walk through it all’ simply because of allowing ourselves to be diminished and create an entire detrimental experience within one single point that we Know we are not ‘sorting out’ in our reality.

We cannot blame either, that’s just a be-lame act in order to not take responsibility for our actions, and I have walked that as well as it came through while walking all the other dimensions to this procrastination character that you can read from the first day here:
162. Either Do it or DIE

So, my suggestion within this is to give ourselves the necessary direction to commit ourselves to do and act and give direction to that which we have committed ourselves to be and do, to stop generating unnecessary consequences as I see and realize that it is Not required for us to go through hell and back to learn a lesson, that’s just white-light-dovey crap like the ‘paths of the soul’ for us to accept our own self-abuse as a ‘living lesson’ – No fucking way.

Within stopping the first moment wherein we see ourselves wanting to procrastinate, we are able to stop the entire sequence of events generated as a result of our own con wherein we opt for the ‘feel good’ experience instead of doing and working on that which we are aware must be directed and done.

 

Till Here No Further

Feelings and Procrastination

 

”More perspective on the points of feelings is that one tend to procrastinate because you feel good. But interestingly enough you have created those feel good feelings through your resonances through time so that you can trap yourselves so you never have to do anything. Because in-fact you are in constant fear and the only way that you don’t have to face your fear – which is everybody else in this world and the world system – is to create a feel good situation where you can justify why you are powerless and helpless to do anything about the situation in the world and that is how you delude yourself and deceive yourself to never actually take action and to accept the world the way it is, through happiness, feel good little feelings.
And obviously the world system in terms of money, and all the days like ‘Christmas’ and ‘Father’s day’ and ‘Mother’s day’ – all those kind of stuff is supporting your self delusions in keeping you trapped in it. And all the parent’s are teaching their children exactly the same traps so that they can feel good and even say, ‘I mean how dare you, let the child at least live and feel good while they’re alive’. Meantime, you have stolen that child’s life using the deception of feeling and energy.
Understand, the ‘Physical’ do not feel good. The ‘Physical’ will either have pain or no pain. That is all the physical feel. It’ll be either hot, cold – it’s simple physical things, that’s what the physical feel. That’s what’s Real.
One plus One Equals Two.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

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71. Knowledge is $ Power

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the fact that money is just like knowledge that is not readily available for everyone and that is the very cause of social inequality as education can only be obtained if there is Money –  if there is no Money = no education which means that no knowledge = No Power in our current world-system configuration.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the fact that knowledge as ‘value’ in itself contributes to the existence and generational perpetuation of wealth and starvation as once you are born in a ‘golden crib’ = you are prone to remain in such a position for the rest of your life and your children – while when being born into a precarious situation of no money/ absolute starvation, poverty or ‘modern day enslavement’ = you are prone and most like to remain in such a position for the rest of your life, both due to the ability/ inability to get proper education in order to have the means/ tools to survive in this world as ‘knowledge’ that is an asset that one becomes in order to sell ourselves within the system as ‘knowledge and information that creates profit’ for some others that are able to pay for our services/ employ us.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Intellect as knowledge and information in order to differentiate myself from other human beings as being ‘well educated’ in comparison to being ‘not educated’ implying the essential difference that creates a rift in a being’s life as education/ knowledge becomes an asset itself in order to get a job/ make a living, wherein through denying education to all beings Equally, we are agreeing to have 2/3 of the population bound to menial/ odd jobs or absolute poverty/ starvation mode due to them not having been given unconditional support as Education in order to have Equal Choices in Life, the same way that anyone with enough money has in this world – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that these so called  ‘Choices’ are also arranged, schemed and obviously dependent on the current same system of abuse wherein no matter which ‘choice’  of career/ profession we take, they are all equally bound to one single point: supporting the same polarized system of money that does not regard LIFE as an Equal  and one Value as who we are, but rather considers Money as the ‘real value’ over life which is used as a means to control people’s lives and their futures to either live or die according to the ability to survive in the system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not realize that by selling Education and making of Education an asset in itself, we are diminishing the probabilities of an equal world due to money not being given to all beings equally and unconditionally – nor is Education absolutely Free and of the utmost quality to prepare a being to Live, but is only a training and indoctrination in order to continue and perpetuate the same system wherein money is the one ‘power’ that is sought for, placing aside any attempt and encouragement to the betterment of all beings equally, which implies that Education in itself is elitism = it is only ‘power’ for some that have the money to begin with to obtain such same training to perpetuate that same money that they have, with no consideration of first giving equal-education to those that have No Access to it, as that would mean that there would be ‘less chances’ of ‘making it’ in this world due to how we have limited ourselves to only aspire to the get to the top of the hierarchical system wherein only a few can reside in, which makes of Education a simple straining training ground of teaching beings survival-tactics, competition and the idea that life is a struggle and must be strived for, which is teaching beings to ‘do everything they can’ to get money/ survive in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of knowledge and information an asset in itself wherein the more a person ‘knows’ = the more they are regarded as ‘valuable’ within this system, while neglecting that knowledge in itself has Never been placed at the service of life, to promote actual common sense in practical ways wherein a real new Human Being could emerge through proper education based on a living principle of Life in Equality – but instead, knowledge has served its own creator/ god as money and the world-system that we live in today, which implies that Knowledge is Useless to create a world that is best for all due to how it is currently being valued and equated as Money in itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘worth’ myself according to the knowledge and information that I have and that I use in order to ‘speak about the system’ without realizing that within the intellectualization of the problems of the world, we are in fact simply perpetuating the same system of abuse due to the purpose and starting point of knowledge in this world as power in itself. This implies that the more that I praise knowledge as ‘truth’ and ‘the way’ to create solution sin this world, the more ‘Money’ as the current world system is being promoted, because of and due to how knowledge is being used as an asset in itself within individuals and the world system as ‘Education’ which is an added value to beings themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that intellect is a product of capitalism itself, as the value placed over words as ‘more than life’ due to the service that knowledge renders to perpetuate a belief-system of value over life, as the current capitalist system demonstrates. Therefore I see that I have accepted my own brainwash as the rationalization of real problems in the world as some form of ‘supreme knowledge’ that only ‘specialists’ can talk about, without realizing that such ‘specialists’ have never before and not yet created and proposed an overall system reform that can create and establish laws and principles of Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that every moment that I am able to philosophize and intellectualize reality through words learned in school within a system that entertains people earning good money by theorizing about reality, I am in fact spiting the actual reality where 2/3 of the world suffer while I can pretend to ‘ find solutions’ that involve using the same Money that has caused the condition of suffering, poverty and abuse of life, which means that there is no way that a single theory can change the world and the lives of actual living beings unless such intellect is used to establish the logistics to create a new monetary system that is able to provide life’s resources for all living beings in Equality as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that theorizing solutions and never placing them into practical living application is proof that no philosophy, political or sociological study have created a radical change in reality, because all are still trying to find ‘options’ to capitalism while using ‘alternatives’ that in no way consider Life in Equality and the need for a complete system overhaul, which implies that no knowledge and sophism will do the actual education to realize how we have accepted Money as a single word that seems unchangeable without realizing the make-believe system of social convention it actually is.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that making money out of intellectualizing the problems of the world is capitalist spitefulness wherein the actual solutions are absolutely neglected and deliberately ignored in order to continue and perpetuate an elitist system wherein only a few can ‘ponder’ solutions for the world while the reality of having no money as no access to life is growing in an ever so frightening manner, which should leave things clear by now on how MONEY is the actual motivation to ‘seek solutions’ with no conclusive results, because that would mean that many professions would no longer be required and people fear losing their current position if an actual solution was established, which once again reveals that intellectualism is very well paid to ever consider proposing a new economic system based on Life in Equality, without realizing that Equality does not mean poverty and only getting a limited ration of resources to live, which is part of the mind control established as the word ‘Equality’ without having any context how such Equality is who we are as LIFE itself.

 

I commit myself to educate myself about reality, the inner workings of the system to realize how I have separated myself from the solution to the problems in the world through knowledge and information instead of practically being the change that I see is required, beginning with stopping all forms of desire for power and greed, stopping following that which I was taught in school I should ‘aim for’ which is success, power, directing people and becoming a ‘leader’ in a world where the leadership positions are only available for a Few/ minority that has had the opportunity above others to get to such positions.

 

I realize the importance of education to create a transition in this system, wherein learning the basic aspects of our reality imply walking the solution as each individual that is able to take Self-Responsibility within this world system, creating a point of change not in separation of systems of knowledge and information as an asset, but rather using and implementing solutions based in Common Sense living as what’s best for all, wherein all beings from a young age as children can begin understanding what it is to create a world in Equality, taking Self Responsibility for themselves and the co-creation process of a world-system based on Life in Equality.

 

I commit myself to expose how knowledge is in fact capitalist spitefulness in a world where knowledge decides who is ‘better’ and who’s ‘who’ in the world system according to the amount of money that is able to be made from ‘theorizing’ about reality, instead of using that knowledge to equalize society as practical skills and education that is based upon the equal-standing of all beings in the same world system, instead of promoting greed, desire for powerful positions, competition and rivalry between individuals from the very first stages of and within the schooling systems.

 

I commit myself to support myself to stick to practical living-understanding of reality wherein no knowledge and information about the world-system becomes a ‘moreness’ and a ‘superior value’ within myself, but instead I take each point as a means to realize my responsibility within the system and within that, ensure that I use the tools that I am being unconditionally given and provided as writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application to walk my own mind and within this, see/ realize and understand that Life is Not Knowledge and that at the moment, all of it is just a tool to ensure that we understand the implications of the separation we have created as words, as money as the entire configuration of our world system, to ensure that we Stop all forms of separation through practically realizing our Equality and Oneness as Life, wherein no knowledge will exist in separation as a ‘value’ in itself, but will be only Living Words that All Beings will be equally capable of living and understanding, as that is the only way that we can begin to Understand WHY and HOW the Equal Money System is the only way to restore Life in Equality on Earth and this Existence.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Intellect of the Human Lacks All Life Morality as it is Not Life, but Mind as Self-Interest – and therefore it Only Designs Systems which will Profit the Self-Interest of Individuals, or Organizations, or Families – while Life is just seen as a Commodity to be Traded for Personal Happiness.” Bernard Poolman*

 

 

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Day 18: Self-Interest Sabotage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept Selfishness as an inherent part of ‘who I am’ as human nature wherein I learned that I had to only care about myself and not bother to look at others’ lives as that would ‘consume me in worry/ concern’ that was ‘unnecessary’ within my life as a child when I would worry/ concern about others’ experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to tamper my incipient common sense by what I accepted as ‘education’ wherein I learned to cover up my actual experience toward others with words like ‘Don’t care about them, don’t look at them, that’s their life’ and in that, accepting that I should only care about myself and focus on only achieving my ‘personal satisfaction’ wherein everything then became me-and-only-me in my world, to the point wherein any bit of looking outside into the world became an instant no-no within my mind, because of believing that others’ lives had Nothing to do with myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use education and parental advices as a living-blueprint wherein I shut off my common sense and consideration/ regard for others, creating a great instability and dissatisfaction within myself, a constant ‘anguish’ that I could not pinpoint because ‘everything was alright’ in my life, I had it all, I was cared for, I was supported financially but something just wasn’t right in the world and in my attempt to discover what was it that was concerning me, I only created further experiential anguish and concern and worry with ‘making up a point’/ creating a point, that wasn’t initially ‘there’ but I believed that I had to find a reason for my experience which lead me to then create experiences in my world to ‘give it a name’ as a justification for that process of deliberately blinding me from looking at the world as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cloud my discomfort when getting a reward from my parents for ‘being a good student’ such as money or gifts wherein I would feel discomfort and it didn’t seem ‘right’ as I was doing it for myself, but I accepted the reward because ‘hey, it’s money, I can buy stuff with it’ and essentially within this giving-into the system of reward and ‘prices’ for ‘doing good in school,’ which I later on said it wasn’t necessary – but because I had accepted it as part of ‘parental love,’ I ended up using such reward to my convenience to get stuff that would make me ‘happy,’ and in this, accepting the motivation to do well, to take responsibility in separation of myself while accepting then the idea that I must always be rewarded, thanked for and appreciated for everything that I do.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself into believing that it was ‘wrong’ to take rewards from my father and feeling embarrassed about it, yet eventually ‘giving in’ to it because it seemed it ‘made others happy to do so,’ and in that complying to the parenting/ child belief system of reward and love as giving prices/ money that could ‘make me happy’ because I believed that their happiness depends on ‘my happiness.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself and my common sense to play a part of the reward/ manipulation masked as care/ love by parents/ teachers and within this any other reward-system existing in this world that begins at home, wherein we learn that we require something to motivate us which is ultimately in the form of money, as everything that is here that can be ‘given’ currently has a price tag attached to it, as the symbol of separation that we have accepted as a form of possession wherein ‘I’ have accepted and allowed myself to possess ‘something/ someone’ in the name of personal power, while neglecting the fact that nothing that is here I can actually possess, no one that is here can actually be Mine – though because of accepting this ‘idea’ of myself as an ‘owner’ and a ‘winner’ I became absolutely accustomed to the idea of buying stuff in means of caring for others, giving stuff in means of obtaining appreciation, giving something to someone while expecting a reward, which is me playing the game of this entire world that lives and thrives upon ownership and possession.

 

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge other children for being ‘whiners’ and manipulating their parents to get stuff at the supermarket, while taking on the haughty position of being ‘above that’ and feeling good for ‘not playing that game,’ without realizing that I DID play that game in various other ways in my reality wherein I knew that accumulating a ‘good profile’ within my family and my environment, would lead me to get what I wanted because of thinking ‘I deserve this/ I earned this/ I should have access to that’ – and this, perpetuating my own ‘masked’ reward system wherein I learned how to use my ‘props’ and ‘points’ accumulated through time for being a ‘good student’ and a ‘good person’ that would lead me to eventually ‘have/ own what I want,’ because of thinking ‘hey, I’ve done ‘good’ I deserve my piece of the cake!’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a superiority position while being in this world because of ‘noticing’ the manipulation patterns within children and parents and judging them, without first looking at myself and How I was living the exact same point minus the tantrums but in a very specific and masked with ‘modesty’ type of manipulation wherein I would always say ‘It is not necessary for you to give me presents, I do this for myself,’ yet eventually opening my hand to get the money to buy whatever I already knew that I wanted to get, in this placing all integrity aside and giving into the money, the ‘power’ as the reward that I did know  could accept as everyone else did it, everyone else does it.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to secretly judge my classmates every time that they said: ‘Oh I wanna be like you and have your grades, let me hand my parents your notes/grades/record so that they can buy me whatever I want/ with your notes I would get whatever I would want from my parents/ I would make my parents happy with your record’ wherein I judged them as manipulators and cheaters and selfish and interested people, while disregarding the fact that deep inside I knew I would ‘modestly’ accept prices and rewards for my grades while placing a face and a cloak of ‘Oh it’s not necessary, I don’t require your money’ but in the end, accepting it.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to always place a nice face whenever I required money to buy something and speaking in a high pitch voice and move my face in a way wherein I knew that my father/ mother would not be able to ‘say no’ to buy me/ get me what I wanted, and in this playing out the same manipulation system wherein the bond of family/ love is used in order to ‘get what I want.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build a life based on accumulating ‘good interest’ just like when you build a good profile in a banking system that enables you to get ‘all the credit you want,’ and in fact learning about this from what my father taught me about banking status/ profile wherein he would get all offers to get credit and he’d always refuse because of not wanting to get into debt, and in that I learned how I could have ‘the world at my feet’ by accumulating a ‘good profile’ within my world wherein I could use that credit as in obtaining rewards at any given moment because of having accumulated such ‘good profile’ throughout my life. This means that everything that I’ve done within my self-created belief of modesty and ‘integrity’ has Always had a point of self-interest behind, a monetary potential in the background as I knew that within keeping walking the steps of becoming a ‘good citizen’ and learn how to administrate my money, I could get to a higher position in society.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the fact that I was actually taught how to save money as a means of security and how Money played a big role from the very first moments that I would get money from my father with which I knew I could buy things that I wanted. I became so used to getting money on a weekly basis that I learned that this life was about buying stuff as a means of obtaining happiness and fulfilling myself with ‘buying.’

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to keep my savings in a zealous manner, as I knew that I was already ‘building my profile’ as being a ‘saver’ which meant something good within the world system where people that get the benefits are the ones that are able to obtain interests from capitalizing that money in the bank.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that being a ‘saver’ made me a ‘better person’ and not a ‘bad person’ such as the people that owed money to the banks –within this, believing that all the money that I owned was ‘clean’ and was ‘good money’ because it was earned/ worked for without ever ever questioning why some people had to borrow money to the bank, why was there not enough money for people regardless of them working for it or not – why was life denied to others and having to go through extreme financial troubles that would lead them to their own death, because of how the money system works.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to only be confused about how the money system works as a child, not getting any proper explanation to why poverty exists and instead, only learning to focus on me, my savings, how to administrate my money and in that becoming a life-time administrator wherein money is always carried with me as a means of security, as a means of survival, as a means of protecting myself from ‘anything’ that I could require as I’ve learned that I can buy anything in this world with money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this, develop a ‘good persona’ idea of myself wherein because of knowing that my family/ my father had ‘no debt’ I took on that position of feeling good about money because of believing that we were not ‘bad people’ that ‘owed’ to the bank because of not being proper administrators. Within this,

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always automatically/ by default through what I learned judge anyone that owes to the bank/ that has debt because of considering this as a synonym of them being ‘bad people’ that somehow had corrupted themselves to not be able to get money, without ever actually investigating that MONEY in itself exists as DEBT as that inherent point of enslavement and separation that we have created in the name of power, of some having ‘more’ than others’ and some others having ‘less’ or no money at all, and in that neglecting the fact of the world system running in inequality, which I simply accepted as ‘how things are,’ because I was taught that ‘I should not worry about that, it’s not in my power to change it’ – hell no.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to generate a positive experience within myself when I had accumulated money through saving within this ‘saver’ personality as building a ‘good reputation’ within the system, which became my way of functioning in the world as I knew that all the scores throughout my life in school as being a good student, my life within my family as ‘being a good daughter, ‘ my ‘good will’ within society as a ‘good and concerned citizen’ would lead me to a  position of comfort and financial stability in the future – apparently – because of having learned that one gets rewards for ‘being a good person’ and in that, accepting the fact that some others would inherently be damned to not have enough money to live, which I justified as them having been lazy/bad administrators/ corrupted people, which is how I ‘made sense’ of this world living in disparity, placing each person through my own judgmental values of what lead you to be ‘rich’ or ‘have enough money to live’ or ‘be poor/ starving’ wherein I thought that it was directly related to ‘who they had been’ in their world, neglecting the obvious facts wherein people are born into such positions which means that they had no say within their world in terms of money, as family/ context/ environmental predisposition as inherent conditions within each human being’s life was not seen by myself at the time.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to build a persona of and as ‘modesty’ wherein I would take all the awards/ rewards and recognition only as an accumulation of ‘good score’ that I knew would get me anywhere I wanted in this reality, and in fact it did in terms of education and within that feeling ‘great’ for having known how to use the system  – yet being moral about it in terms of seeing it as a ‘goodness’ within me, wherein anyone else that could Not access to the same that I had access to, I deemed as less than/ stupid/ lazy/ irresponsible and within that, asserting that I was ‘on the right path’ to become that whichever I wanted to become, because ‘I had earned it/ I had become it honestly’ without seeing that money was the actual motivation for all of this lifetime of achievements that I kept as a score in such a proud silent manner.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to link ‘good finances’ and ‘good administration’ to being a ‘good person’ wherein I took the role model of my father as a ‘good administrator’ which I see would lead me to ‘success’ without realizing that within this accepted form of manipulation/ use of the ways within the system, I accepted such ways as ‘okay’ to live by within this world, wherein I would then measure individuals and their financial situation linked to their personal-moral and ethics within this world, separating ‘good people’ as people that were financially stable and ‘bad people’ as people that had lots of debts and financial troubles that would reflect in their mental instability, personal crisis and diseases that would lead them to die.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever judge people that would ‘cheat’ in the system, without realizing that I was in fact being the perfected system of cheating/ manipulating and accepting the flawed ways to thrive in this world wherein one must comply with all the ‘good aspects’ that the system/ society is expecting me to be, wherein I could finally take the ‘position’ that I had ‘earned’ throughout my lifetime, within this not Living here as myself as breath, but only living to ‘get to that superior position,’ living to get to that ‘throne’ that I believed I had earned throughout my life with ‘hard work,’ without realizing how I was essentially preprogrammed to accept myself as ‘better than others’ and in that believing that I had some higher mission to have a position of power in this world – all delusions only in my head that lead me to create this constant belief that I was ‘better than others,’ and ‘more apt’ to do whatever I had to do than others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become ‘my reputation’ as the score-keeping that I’ve done throughout my life where numbers as scores, numbers as the reflection of the profile-building that I knew would get me a ‘reward’ someday, which implies that I have lived as a score-keeping system fulfilling targets to eventually be ‘free’ and ‘happy’ and ‘fulfilled’ with having achieved a lifetime of ‘good reputation’ which always translated to money and obtaining/ attaining financial stability.

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of my preprogramming in ways that I knew I was only ensuring ‘my future/ my survival’ while neglecting the fact that I had to inevitably use this to benefit of all – and for a moment, get lost in the trap of attaining ‘power’ to get myself to the position that I wanted disregarding the fact that I could become the solution to this world, because of having given-up to the fact that I Can become the solution to this world and that it is not even a want/ desire to do so, but it is a point of Self-Responsibility.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deliberately deny my abilities/ capabilities and choosing to diminish myself just because of seeing that I was becoming a ‘perfect system’ and that I was aiming at ‘getting all the power I could,’ which I judged as nasty later on in my life, judging myself for having had greedy thoughts and in that, going to the exact opposite of denying, neglecting all-things-money, all-news, all careers that I had initially sought to study in order to make of my ‘traits’ something useful within this world, and in that, going to the exact opposite which was seeking value within that which I judged as ‘non-valuable/ without a price’ such as how I deemed ‘art’ would be like. In this, my own cave was wrought.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for having ever pursued my own interest while growing, then going into blame, self judgment and into the exact opposite as denying that I had ever sought such positions of power/ recognition/ elitist status by becoming the ‘black sheep’ of the family that would deliberately seek the opposite of what I had learned I ‘wanted’ to be like/ live like in the future, in this not ever realizing and pondering that I was only sabotaging myself and my ability to position myself in this world in a place wherein I could actually make a difference to it, which I realize requires education on how the system works and getting myself into a position of where the cogwheels of the system are moved in order to create a substantial change in this world/ system.

 

I now finally realize the entire fucked up sabotage to my own abilities and capabilities because of judging money as good or bad, because of judging my inherent abilities as good for the system but ‘bad for my integrity’ wherein I later on ostracized myself from ‘all things systematic’, shutting myself from continuing my education within the realms of politics and social matter that I had initially been interested in, because of having deemed it as a ‘lost cause’ and believing that I was completely incapable of doing any difference to.

I realize that I sabotaged myself by going to the exact opposite such as deliberately diminishing/ playing aloof and being seemingly ‘unaware’ of the reality because of having found that ‘not caring about the world/ only caring about myself’ was apparently more ‘fulfilling’ and an easier way to live, than having lived as a concerned/ worried person about the world – which was then integrating the belief that ‘I must only care about myself’ as ‘who I am’ and in that, wasting my abilities and capabilities for some time/ the extent of time you take to study a career because of believing that I could only ‘make the best for myself’ and that this world was doomed.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to use my personal interests as a way to justify my giving up on the world, my giving up on the abilities and capabilities I was fully aware I could conduct into a position that I could take on and make a difference, regardless of what everyone said about it, and instead going for the ‘easy way out’ apparently, without realizing that this would only lead me to a pointless-timeloop but probably absolutely necessary, now that I see it, because how else would I have had the time to become a real observer of the system without me trying to pursuit the same as everyone else, and now having had enough time to study how reality works, how this entire monetary system as our own reflection drives the world around and how I am perfectly capable of being in the system and creating a point of change by clearing/ and creating a complete new starting point to develop myself and my abilities to the utmost potential wherein Self-Interest and Selfishness is no longer the driving force for it, but Who I See/ Realize/ Understand is who I really am as life as all as one and equals –

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify my engagement with relationships that would support this ‘escapism of self responsibility’ as that would support my own ostracism and deliberate ignorance about the world system while resorting in entertainment that would only fulfill and satisfy this believed/ perceived ‘path out of the system’ wherein I allowed myself to judge the system, criticize everyone with ‘aspirations’ to succeed and taking on the exact opposite by ensuring that I would ‘never’ want to be in a position of power, because of believing that such power was real in the first place only because of money. Now I realize that if money is a belief system = power is a belief system that allows abuse – therefore I can be and become the point that utilizes all means I can in order to establish an equality in this world by me first allowing/ accepting myself as the ability to establish myself as the equal-power as an equal participant that I represent within this world and reality – no longer driven by the judgments that I have given to money/ power, but having a firm self-agreement to do this for all, as equals.

 

I see and realize that any point of judgment toward a position of power can exist if I am corrupting that power in my mind for self interest in the first place – this is the point to realize when and as I see myself judging a position of power/ myself going into a position of power in a hypothetical situation in this world, I see and realize that I can only judge it if I am embedding my ‘personal interest’ within it, and not regarding that such ‘power’ can only exist if All is equally considered in the equation, which obviously includes myself.

 

When and as I see myself judging the words ‘position of power’ when and as I hear them, I realize that I had lived a life of being conditioned to desire such power and then reject it because of the judgments I embedded onto it, not wanting to be in a ‘superior’ position by deliberately ‘lowering/ diminishing’ myself by self-judgment and in that, allow myself to only accept power as the realization of each breath that I have here in order to establish myself as the equal and one part that is able to conduct, direct and live by the principle of what’s best for all, regardless of the activity I am involved with at the moment, regardless of the ‘perceived’ position such activity entails, as I see and realize that positions of hierarchy only exist as a remains of the past that I am here to debunk, to deflate and to deconstruct to establish solutions and relationships of equality and oneness wherein no being can ever step on top of another through social acceptance of hierarchy and ‘power levels’ in this world.

This I commit myself to debunk, expose which is how ‘power’ has been a fucked up belief system wherein we have accepted and allowed ourselves to enslave each other to a more than/ less than position, sabotaging our inherent ability and capability that can be developed to establish what’s best for all in this reality as who we are, as one and equal.

 

I commit myself to make use of my abilities/ capabilities and accept myself as the path of self-perfection to ensure that all and everything that I do and accumulate is Not only for the best interest of myself, but the best interest for ALL as Equals – this is the point that changes the entire way that I as a human being has lived in this world, because I had not taken into consideration the whole as myself in the past – now I see, I realize and understand that I can use what I do, the potential I represent as an equal part/ participant of the necessary changes and processes that are required to implement and establish in this world to generate solutions and an entire point of change in this world that begins with myself, realizing how I can only have Self-Motivation as the realization of Equality as a world system that benefits all – which includes me, invariably – and in that, integrating my ‘Self-Interest’ as Previous personal interest into an actual Self-Equal and One Interest to create and manifest a world that is best for all.

I recognize that we have all been blinded to our fullest potential within structures based on fear and limitation that we can only deconstruct and reconstruct into equality if we ALL work together to take on our own lives through this deconstruction wherein I make sure that everything that I have ever been and accepted as a form of separation from the whole, is exposed, is self forgiven and corrected within the realization that this process is a collective effort to equalize life, to realize that whatever limitation another allows within themselves, it is and becomes my own limitation as well.

 

I recognize that I had been deliberately fooling around to not take the responsibility that I am fully aware I have only tampered with beliefs about myself that have deliberately maimed my abilities and capabilities, because I feared not being able to fulfill the task that I always saw I had to stand for, which is creating a world that is best for all.

 

I see and realize now that such conditions where imprinted within me as a child and that I became the perfect system to fulfill the tasks that would only benefit me within the system, disregarding that I in fact could expand and extend these achievements to a best for all outcome, which is what I here realize is what I am, what I am here to live by and establish – and that all are equally capable of doing this as well as it is not a matter of choice, but a matter of understanding who we really are and what must be done in order to establish ourselves as living-beings and stopping all survivalism in this world.

 

Self Responsibility can only be acknowledged within Self Honesty wherein what’s best for all is the only point that drives my day to day living, wherein choice doesn’t exist, it is a Self-Willed living action that I become.

 

I dedicate myself to develop my abilities and recognize my capability of becoming the point of my process as the key that I see and realize each one of us is able to be and become if our starting point is unified by a best for all principle and outcome.

 

I commit myself to not diminish myself within beliefs that I’ve kept as ‘That’s too much for me’ or ‘How am I possibly going to get there?’ without realizing that this is a physical process wherein the first point is removing all limitations and preconditions that I have accepted as ‘who I am’ and this is precisely the key point wherein the realization that I can create myself is established, with a foundation upon a living-principle as Life in Equality is the law of my being – by walking, living and aligning myself to this living-law, I am able to support life as myself, and life supports life therefore, I realize that by equalizing my potential to a best for all outcome, what I have already proven I am able and capable of being/ becoming is then expanded onto a best for all scenario, as I see and realize and understand that Life can only thrive in Equality – My life can only thrive in Equality, Existence can only thrive in Equality as Life.

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This blog post emerged from reading the first blog listed in the blog support area, as well as the following interview that allowed me to realize for the first time what type of limitations I had lived/ accepted and allowed within my world and that I had not been able to ‘grasp’ until I listened to this and realized that I can in fact change the starting point of who I am within my abilities and capabilities and determine myself as an active participant that commits to live/ be the solution as a Self-Willed living being to Life.

 

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Day 18: Dementia – The Rotten Child Syndrome
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The Trap – 1 – F*k You Buddy


Day 13: The Mind as Self-Creation Buddy

When removing this entire attachment/ hold toward my personality, what remains is aspects that I can live as who I am without keeping it as something that I manifest through an energetic relationship toward. An example can be how most – if not all – have something that we want to ‘hide’ because of all the memories and past experiences that lead us to shape and create ‘who I am’ as a personality that has a particular set of preferences, habits, behavior and experience toward the world. So, instead of continuing defining me as such differences and categorization as an individual in contrast to others, I can potentiate the words/ aspects that I see and realize I am able to expand and implement as ‘who I am’ by correcting the starting point of such relationships in a self-supportive manner.

 

“I commit myself to – practically utilize my Mind Consciousness System  in/as my processes of/as writing/self-forgiveness and self corrective application, to assist/support me with identifying/exposing/revealing my accepted and allowed self-separation from/of all as me, as I see/realise/understand that the Mind has become the embodiment of/as all the relationships I had created/manifested in/as separation of/as me.” [1] Sunette Spies

 

This is a key-point here as the Mind is our direct and explicit in-detail map to see where and how we have directly separated ourselves from within this physical reality, it’s like your Google Earth wherein we can actually use it to become really specific in our creation process as an equalized being.

 

Each one of us walks a different ‘path of separation,’ and in that, we are all equally and one walking the process of correcting the relationships of separation toward ‘the whole,’ which means that each one is walking different aspects of self that we have separated ourselves from, according to the energetic experiences a definitions we have imprinted to everything and everyone that we have deemed as separated from self.

 

A quick example when I realized this in the past – yet in a very rudimentary mode – is how when we established words to ‘name’ everything and everyone in separation of ourselves, we immediately differentiate ourselves ‘from that which we name.’ The moment we have a tag/ label/ name toward something/ someone it became a relationship that creates an experience that is different/ unique to each person, as each person has only ever really experienced ‘themselves’/ ourselves as our mind, never really ever ‘felt another,’ or ‘experienced’ the same as others do, because we all have lived words through different experiences and moments that builds up ‘who we are.’

We can’t possibly experience the same or associate words toward the same energetic experiences – it is because of this that we have all in fact been ‘lost in translation,’ trying to establish ‘connection’ as relationships toward people/ things/ places because that’s all we have ever known ourselves to be: an individual that is separate from the whole = seeks to connect/ create relationships all the time, which can only exist at a mind level. So it doesn’t even matter if you are with another or not, as long as we had our mind as the faithful companion, we agreed to remain subservient to any physical reality that was obviously of separation and energy-sucking from one another, as well as the entire Earth and its resources.

 

So – what the hell are we doing here? Healing/ repairing/ correcting/ mending the primordial separation from each other as the whole. That is by each one taking on their mind as their ‘set of separations’ that is ‘unique’ as a configuration within each one – yet equal to all within the mechanisms that generated such relationships, which are energy-based and generators at all times. Hence, what each one of us in this process is walking is the manifested separation through our accepted and allowed ‘living’ of words in separation of who we have become As such words in separation of self as one and equal. This is all of what we gave-a-name to as something ‘outside’ of ourselves.

There might have even been a moment in your life that you saw yourself thinking ‘what if this is all that I am? What if I am only thinking this reality’? Well, we were and still are only thinking the reality that is simply here, manifested and doesn’t require us to think about it to exist. This means that the only way to equalize ourselves is to stop thinking and creating further relationships as experiences ‘toward’ this reality, but instead live and experience the actual physicality that is here as myself, as my body, as the environment that I can simply direct myself within and without, minus the constant generation of experiences about it.

 

I represent a set of points of separation – you represent another set of points of separation – we all together walk our sets of points of separation and in that, our part is contributing to the whole correction that is required within this world to establish best for all living-relationships that will enable each other to finally enjoy, express, be boundless yet living by equal and one principles – that’s the point here. And through correcting such relationships – because the only correction possible is equality and oneness as life – we will have as an inevitable outflow from such application, an physical change in the way that we interact, communicate, establish relationships as the new way to live/ exist in this world. The way that we see each other is changing already – if you have been duly aware of this – we are becoming aware of, for example, to what extent we would dare to project our own self-created mind-maze of relationships and self-depreciation onto others – unacceptable, yet we thank ourselves for being able to walk Self Forgiveness for all that which we have used and abused in the name of a personal delusional – and abusive – self-glorification.

 

So this is self-support for me to see how the points I had realized in a rather vague way did make sense and that I wasn’t only divagating. And this comes from the direct experience that I would get when becoming a bit ecstatic about these realizations during school mostly, and would share them with others and people would mostly stare back with what I judged being a ‘yeah-right’ type of attitude, not really caring or probably understanding what I was trying to say – such as the cookie theory and this point of primordial separation of who we are as words. Again, I’m not going into the elusive ‘god’ creation that is believed to be superior, this is about self-realization of who we are as god, an equal and one meaning as the only definition/word/value/experience that can exist: Life in Equality.

 

Equality is the main correction to implement within the definition of Life as what’s always been here, equal and one – yet our experiences toward life and everything had not been of equality, which is why we are now walking this process to equalize ourselves as life.

 

So, what does this all mean then? That I have to walk each tidbit of association that I created an energetic experience toward, beginning with how engaged and/or compromised I became toward the experience of myself ‘as myself,’ as a personality/ego and ‘my precious’ creation that I was directing to fulfill my personal wishes and desires that could only stand in separation of the common sensical realization that: I can only be fully happy, living in absolute self-realized self-expression IF standing one and equal as everything and everyone that is equally here as myself- there is no other way.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to live a life wherein I sought to create relationships toward others in separation of myself, in the name of creating me an experience that I could call ‘life/living.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having lived a life of self-interest wherein I didn’t realize that the only driving-factor for everything that I did, was always seeking an energetic experience that I could keep as ‘memories’ that I could later on utilize to satisfy my memory-needs of identifying myself a my past, as my friends/ family/ partners/ living places that I have defined as ‘pieces of me,’ that I have kept for the sake of the usual memorabilia that I was looking forward to keep until I was very old and I could use such memories to generate the same experiences that would have led me to ensure I ‘keep this moment as a memory’ in order to satisfy my mind’s desire to remain ‘alive,’ within myself, missing the obvious common sense wherein: who I am cannot be only a memory kept throughout the years, that is gone in one moment and can be distorted to suit my personal needs, wants, desires. Who I am cannot possibly be a memory or an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever seek creating, forming and establishing relationships to people, places according to my self-created configuration that determined how I viewed/ saw ‘my life’ as an accumulation of memories, data, knowledge that I could later on use to enhance my value, my worth and my own experiences b keeping/ freezing such moments as ‘who I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself to being a single memory rolling and repeating itself aimlessly, I realize that I had become a memory-collector in order to continue ‘identifying’ and building myself as a personality that I wanted to eventually be able to be proud of.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a life of self interest wherein every person I sought to ‘connect with,’ every place that I created an attachment toward and every thought as an experience that I believed was ‘me,’ were in fact only in the name of creating me a nice and apparently fulfilling experience as a record-keeping that I could be satisfied with at the end of my days.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my lifetime to a single memory-collector, specifically being aware of imprinting/ keeping/ saving the moments that I had decided was the way that I want to ‘remember myself,’ and in that I developed such an emotional attachment to it, with a definitive conscious participation to deliberately do so, that It’s taken me a while to go actually disengaging from the memories as the experiences that I created toward others, which is revealing in itself how much effort, time and consistency I lived toward the idea of myself as my personality, of others, of places, or events in my life that I had deemed as ‘valuable.’

 

I realize that it is only through me stopping valuing things, people, places in separation of myself can be actually begin to understand what living a principle of equality would actually mean.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to even become proud of myself as my creation, as my personality because of the amount of time I had ‘invested upon myself’ which lead me to then fear losing it, which would have meant the obvious: I have brainwashed myself all this time. I see how we all have this ‘voice in the head’ that comes and allows you to know and realize what is it that we are in fact existing as, believing ourselves to be, and that it is such voice that I must bring here as words, to assist and support me to get to know myself, to learn how I created, built and connected such dots as words that have defined my individual experience here toward myself and others – and through applying self forgiveness on it, walking the self corrective application, we can actually make of this process something that is simply what it is, having to withdraw from the main platonic relationship we have created which is: the relationship with our own mind.

 

Once that is walked, debunked, Self-Forgiven, Self-corrected, we will be able to understand what such separation actually revealed of ourselves.

 

All in all, what I suggest is to make of this process not a tortuous process wherein we see the point of letting go of ‘who we are’ as our mind as standing underneath the scaffold all the time, which is and can only be painful if we are always at the expectancy of the blade running down all of a sudden, when in fact, such egocide can be as painless, as simple and as gentle as we make decide it to be. In the end, this is about Self-Creation, isn’t it? What type of God would want to continue self-flagellation in the name of purification? None.

 

So – we walk, here as breath, unconditionally letting go and re-establishing that primordial separation is the only answer to Life Here: Ourselves. We require to create a new system that can enable the possibility for all beings to walk this process, as that is what we would like others to do for ourselves in such positions. That’s how we require to establish the Equal Money System to ensure that all Life’s needs are guaranteed for all human beings and in that, take the first move to deconstruct the system of illusion and delusional values that we have created in the name of keeping our mind-bubbles alive. We are here to burst our bubbles.

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Blogs of the day:

[1] As Within = So Without: DAY 12
Day 12: BrainWashing and Mind Control

 

Recommended Book:

Virus Free Mind by Bernard Poolman


2012–Why?

Why does a 3 year old child have to spend her days handing her mother plastic bags to wrap flowers that they sell on the traffic lights?

 

Why is a farmer suddenly threatened with his life if he doesn’t agree with expansive policies that will make of his traditional farming just another leg of the industrialized agriculture, to keep himself in business?

 

Why are people banned from having access to the water in their area while transnational corporations take over the rights for such vital resource?

 

Why is growing your own food and collecting rain water now considered a felony?

 

Why do we call building massive cities that breed more population, greed, violence and pollution a sign of ‘progress’?

 

Why have we called a basic-living lifestyle  a ‘mediocre’ living condition?

 

Why do women have to carry their children on their back, crying, hungry, while they pick up anything edible and useful from the dump?

 

Why do children prefer living on the streets, under bridges trading drugs with others that have done the same to escape from family violence?

 

Why are young women burning themselves with oil in Afghanistan as a quiet scream for help?

 

Why are people being killed in the name of a jihad without ever questioning why religions exist in the first place?

 

Why are people turning to drugs now more so than ever in our history?

 

Why is being stupid and ‘such a mess’ a fashion trend nowadays?

 

Why can 8 year olds play with daddy’s loaded gun at home?

 

Why are kids being sold by their own parents to traffickers ?

 

Why has humanitarian/ food aid not solved the world crisis in starving communities?

 

Why has any politician that stood up for life been shot, silenced or opposed till the point of resignation?

 

Why does a child have to witness his mother being repeatedly hit by an alcoholic father?

 

Why does everyone prefer to ‘keep quiet’ and pretend everything is fine?

 

Why have spiritual masters not taken on the political world to create a real change in the world?

 

Why are journalists shot every time they dare to speak the truth?

 

Why are women prostituting themselves to ‘make a living’?

 

Why are major corporations thriving with massive profit while their employees and outsourcing companies having suicidal workers?

 

Why are mothers asphyxiating their young children with a bra or a plastic bag?

 

Why are children born addicts to methadone?

 

Why are priests abusing children?

 

Why is corruption ever expanding in the world?

 

Why is it easier to become a drug-dealer to make a living than aspiring to get proper Education?

 

Why are we devastating the environment at a frightening rate?

 

Why is it easier to hope ‘it all ends soon’?

 

Why do people say that the next wars will be for water?

 

Why do we consider an overpopulated country like China an ever-growing economy without actually looking at the quality of life they have?

 

Why is the cure for cancer not known as a worldwide discovery and has been shut-off from all possible angles from popular-awareness?

 

Why are rich people supporting charities without them actually stopping their own lifestyles?

 

Why are we told that milk is good for our health?

 

Why are Greeks threatening to commit suicide now?

 

Why is living in prison more safe than living on the streets for young crack addicts that prostitute themselves to make a living?

 

Why does a child have to witness their own parents hitting each other?

 

Why are Holy-wood stars and billionaire CEO’s mourned for when they day and 25000 children that starve to death go unnoticed?

Why is humanity not diagnosed with massive schizophrenia?

 

Why is Christianity not dubbed as a delusional mind-splitting story-tale that is able to be twisted around to the point of defending murder, starvation and carrying weapons for self-defense?

 

Why are the people that dare to tell the truth shut off, ridiculed and/or killed?

 

Why are you and I still carrying money that is based on a Ponzi scheme wherein we have all agreed to enslave each other to have little or no money at all to live?

 

Why are we so concerned about the way we look, how we behave and present toward others?

 

Why does children have to witness their parents being killed during a vindication-shooting due to drug-trade news-reporting?

 

Why is self-talking through our mind not seen as an indicative of madness within us human beings?

 

Why  is the belief in god and light not treated as a delusion of grandeur with pathological symptoms such as a violation of physical laws to justify a belief?

 

Why are the starving, abused and trafficked children not being an urgent case to take on within our judicial system?

 

Why do people in power such as attorney generals, military chiefs, governors and politicians not taken to jail for intellectual crimes within keeping deliberate life-degrading laws/ conditions within a society?

 

Why was a well known pedophile governor kept in office regardless of thousands marching in front of the city hall to ask for his renouncement?

 

Why is education built according to creating slaves and masters?

 

Why are elitist schools existent?

 

Why is free-education a synonym for low or non quality-education?

 

Why do we prefer to watch a movie about ancient paintings or people dancing on the streets than a movie about legal weapon ownership in America or children sex-trafficking?

 

Why do we seek our ‘next greatest excitement’ all the time?

 

Why do we keep cultures as a strong-hold within ‘who we are’ which we use to justify the exploitation, unnecessary meat-consumption and gory rites like circumcision?

 

Why does a newborn has to die when having his parents agreeing to have him be circumcised the next day he’s born?

 

Why are robberies happening every single day in the world?

 

Why can’t I walk alone at night on the streets?

 

Why have we allowed ourselves to become used to ‘not caring’ about our reality?

 

Why are there still school shootings?

 

Why are people getting more depressed every day?

 

Why are activists being secretly lobbied to keep their ‘efforts’ on a ‘strong-hold’ without accomplishing any significant change?

 

Why are detractors, opponents and major critics of the system not proposing an overall new system after all?

 

Why do people fear realizing that there is no god?

 

Why does an animal have to “live” as some ‘product in the making’ inside a cage with several others of their species,  above their own excrement just to become our food?

 

Why is it that we have accepted the pursuit of happiness as ‘our mission in life’?

 

Why are bombs still being built?

 

Why are weapons still being produced?

 

Why is it that no one is stopping wars?

 

Why is it that people have to leave their country and families in pursuit of a better living?

 

Why is it that most of the crimes with rich masterminds behind them get away with murder and solace in impunity?

 

Why is it that science has not yet developed a ‘cure’ for starvation?

 

Why is it that technological advancements have made to improve a self-interest based lifestyle instead of supporting to better and optimize the living conditions on Earth for all beings, not just ‘those’ that have the money to buy the ‘advancement’?

 

Why is it that people are not considered ‘legal’ and with the ability to benefit from social services like healthcare if they are ‘illegal immigrants’?

 

Why is it that the war on drugs has only bred more violence?

 

Why is it that I have now a curfew and watch my back at all times?

 

Why is it that women get raped by soldiers in war zones?

 

Why is it that terrorism still exist?

 

Why is it that our food has become poisonous?

 

Why is alcohol promoted as a way to ‘not worry and be happy’ and think that ‘life is party’ till the last drop dies – or the last one drops dead?

 

Why are we all in many forms of drugs as a society?

 

Why do we fear facing our creation?

 

Why do we fear?

 

Why do suffer?

 

Why do we abuse ourselves?

 

Why do we neglect that we are all one and equal?

 

Why do we compete and fight against each other all the time?

 

Why have we believed that life has its ‘ups and downs’?

 

Why do we all fight to get on top above anything and all?

 

Why do we need to ‘love’?

 

Why do we use money that is based on an illusionary concept of debt?

 

Why do we backup our living-given conditions by ‘rights’ and obsolete constitutions that are only used to backup further abuse through the nice-sounding concepts of free-choice and free-will?

 

Why do we seek to escape through sex, drugs and anything that can make us forget about the world?

 

Why are we al addicts?

 

Why do we depend on money to continue living?

 

Why have we enslaved ourselves this way?

 

Why do we always just ‘wait’ for something to happen and take us out of our self-proclaimed victimization?

 

Why do we keep ourselves in self-masochism thinking about all our fears and limitations, instead of focusing on how we are practically and physically able to create the conditions in which you and I would like to actually LIVE in this world?

 

Why is creating and injecting more Money into the system Not the solution to this world?

 

Why do we keep allowing the existence of a monetary system that doesn’t support ALL Beings Equally?

 

Too many questions with very simple answers: Money, Self Interest, Greed, Fear… =  our mind as ego has manifested our current reality, it is our creation in separation of who we really are as One and Equal as LIFE.

Instead of asking WHY – we direct ourselves to know and realize HOW we have created this reality as our image and likeness.

Educate yourself about this and the entire understanding of HOW we create our reality as the image and likeness of our own mind consciousness system – learn how to support yourself to stop being just another fearful brainwashed numb.er in the system.

Take Self-Responsibility, become Visible – We are here and walking to take on the world system to finally establish actual free-from-doom reality through the Equal Money System and an Equality-Education through Desteni.

Stand up – and join us.

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We are all aware of it – but what are YOU doing about it?Desteni


Inter-net

The internet has created bridges that we probably never really imagined in our past as humanity would have been able to be built. For this, it’s cool to be living in this moment wherein I am able to share, communicate, express and be part of a global movement that is moving through/ as the internet, wherein I have now become used to being constantly participating as a daily point of communicating, sharing and supporting myself to get to know ‘how the world works,’ which is what this ‘information era’ has allowed us to reach at the click of a mouse.

I am Here and this is what I realize, I share myself because I have been equally supported by a group of people that also realized that the internet was the way to reach people around the world and create a total revolution within humanity, it’s been a ‘silent’ one for many – however the effects of people understanding what’s common sense and considering Equality as a starting point in everything we do, remains as a ‘nagging thought’ even for those that initially or deliberately judge and criticize the Desteni message with all types of prejudices – mostly out of that initial fear everyone has to change

 

Through us Destonians being sharing ourselves through writing, sharing videos, information, participating in forums – we  are literally creating a ‘new cyberspace’ to be and become self-honest people that care enough to share themselves and walk a process of Self Honesty to stand as equal points of responsibility within our own lives, and eventually toward the whole world as well.

 

Me and Self-Exposure within the Internet

See, I had a tendency to fear conflict, fear of having to ‘expose’ myself within the internet, I saw it as the equivalent of going out in the night through dark alleys wherein you never know who’s going to attack you next, I feared criticism and judgment from others toward myself. My initial desire to have internet had to do with fulfilling preferences of downloading music only.

 

I nagged my father a lot to have internet – essentially buying me a modem at that time. Lol, my cousins would make fun of me because of being ‘building my own websites’ without having internet and within that, imagining that I was surfing the internet. When I did get it, I was just happy to be able to research on what I liked, reading artists biographies and everything else that had to do with music. I formed some relationships for several years at forums, people that I got to meet because of music mostly and these were people that definitely influenced myself to the extent of being one of the ‘bridges’ that I had to eventually get to Desteni at some point – even if they didn’t get to it themselves.

So – within forming all of these relationships through the internet, I became used to ‘being connected to the world’ and essentially creating a dependency to it – see the words: relationship-dependency. So – the process now is to remove all tags of ‘dependency’ toward the internet, and using it for what it is, a way we have to communicate with others, the world, to educate ourselves, to share and be part of an actual process of self-realization and self-correction required in order to understand how we have created this system as it is – it is essentially an ideal tool to do so.

 

I know that If I didn’t have internet, I would not be doing what I’m doing right now with/ as my life, as Desteni, as this process of Self-Responsibility. I would have kept myself in a very comfortable bubble of entertainment and following my dreams and desires with no further consequence to see ‘what’s going on in the world’ – this is hypothetical really, who knows what could have happened in reality so let’s just say that I wouldn’t be doing what I am now doing.

 

So the point is, I’ve had intermittent internet or no-internet at all for the past days which is somehow breaking a routine within my every day living. Though, what’s interested is that I noticed a point of ‘temptation’ coming-through wherein my mind then feels ‘too comfortable’ for not having to ‘be there’ all the time (be there = internet, communicating, participating) and within this, I acknowledge that my participation within the world at the moment happens through the internet mostly. So, not having internet is a way for me to ‘get too comfortable’ within this disconnection because it means ‘I have an excuse to not participate’ or not share and communicate with the world, which is how I used to exist: only being with myself, not talking to all people, but only to those that I thought could ‘understand me,’ I spent living a life through other’s eyes within reading books, listening to music, painting and all of that which satisfied my personal desires and ideals.

 

At that time I had already withdrawn from being constantly watching news and/or being ‘politically informed,’ because I had given up within the idea of realizing that wanting to be a ‘powerful person in this world’ involved getting down-and-dirty within a ‘corrupt world.’ I obviously didn’t go further into researching the system and how it all works for real – I just took the easy way out, deciding to study something that could at least get me closer to ‘feeling like a human’ than a money-making machine. Oh yes, I screwed up myself within that I had to walk through the entire decision until this day.

 

So, it’s a cool thing to be able to look back and see that I have come quite a long way from that initial resistance I had toward sharing myself, it was a deliberate push but also a process I understood from the group perspective = moving as a single ‘force’ within the system, within social media. Without having the understanding of what ‘walking as a group’ implies, I would have probably recoiled back to my old patterns of seclusion and just keeping my little depressive bubble in place, because even in such misery I was comfortable – nothing was disturbing me other than my own thoughts and personal relationships, it was all I had to ‘take care of’ at that time.

 

No Internet

So, obviously when seeing myself ‘out of the internet’ for a longer time, I get these memories of ‘who I was’ before I was into Desteni or the internet and believe that I could get ‘too comfortable’ by not being active in the internet again, which is literally a mindfuck only, but cool to see that it comes up as it is an indication that such ‘back door’ is still existent yet dormant somewhere ‘up there.’

 

I also see how ‘not having access to the internet’ becomes like a ‘time off’ of my responsibilities within it – which is then what I have defined as ‘too comfortable,’ because we all know that by human design, we would ‘feel better’ if there was nothing to worry about or be in charge of. However, I am now in charge of several points and this means that I must have access to the internet in a constant basis.

 

When coming back from SA, I spent two weeks without having internet – at least not being there the whole time and/ or having very limited time and access to it. But, because I was in another country, I would see it as a way to get some ‘time off’ as actual vacations for it, but the truth is that the point of daily participation in the internet was existent as a thought in the back of my head the whole time.

 

So it is to remove any ‘dependency’ toward it or idea of ‘having to be somewhere else’ and simply direct myself in every moment that I can or can’t be in the internet. This should not mean in any way ‘separating myself from process’ or the actual walking we do here – it is about using what’s here when and if available – otherwise I don’t have to nag myself with that constant worry or preoccupation that doesn’t allow me to simply direct myself in every moment.

It’s very simple –though the mind ‘loves’ to make it a lot more than what it actually is.

 

The reality is that I have made the decision for myself to get myself ‘out there’ and it’s been a very lengthy process. I mean, I had all forms of resistances to open up a blog to share myself, to record vlogs, to open up accounts in all the usual ‘social media’ – I avoided Facebook for like the first two years I had an account there, and I would have probably never broadcasted myself on YouTube or even have Facebook if it wasn’t because I got to understand that If I want to create a change in this world, I must use the tools that are here in order for us to do so. So, slowly but surely – and with Bernard’s support/ push when seeing and realizing what the fuck I was actually fearing in terms of ‘adding too many friends’ on Facebook and sharing my writings there, etc.- I got myself to create an actual platform of me sharing myself there: it was not-existent and it didn’t came out ‘naturally.’ 

When I saw the fear for what it is, I began being more ‘open’ about sharing myself there – this was mostly because of being connected to ‘friends and family’ there and fearing having them asking me questions about Desteni or the portal or what I am doing, as if there was something ‘secret’ to keep – which is how I had dealt with my previous beliefs in the afterlife and spiritual-realms that I used to believe in. So I realized how I had to stop keeping this as my ‘belief-system’ that I would only ‘keep to myself’ and took the information as what it is, self-supportive material that is able to be used and practically applied by anyone that is able to see beyond the images and ‘surface’ of what it ‘appears to be,’ and focuses on listening to the message.

 

 

Self-Broadcasting and sharing with the world as myself

So now that I share and participate and have deliberately made the decision to be a constant presence in cyber-space within everything we do at Desteni, I can see that there would be no other way of doing it other than through the Internet, at least not to reach as many people in such a wide area like the entire world, lol. All the fears about questions that I feared people in my world would ask were never real. It is fascinating to see how the mind keeps lingering to creating all of these seemingly frightening scenarios of ‘what Ifs’ and within that, we keep ourselves just bound by such fears instead of taking them for what they are ‘mind fears.’

 

Getting to the internet and Desteni specifically, became this huge window toward the world that has allowed me to not only get to know myself, but get to know other human beings’ life experiences and within that, understanding how we function and how we can develop ways to see where and how we can practically become agents of change and transformation within this world. Because after all, I was not really ‘happy’ with how I saw the world, even if I tried to ‘shove it off’ for some time, I can see that any experience of self-doom was created out of how I would witness my reality as the city that I live in, my observations toward politics, the government, ‘the system’ and all of that. It wasn’t then such a ‘struck of luck’ that I got to Desteni, because there was always this ‘nagging spine’ within me trying to get an actual answer as to why the hell are we here on earth.

 

Now that I see and realize what a great tool it’s been, I stop thinking that I could ‘get myself back to my old patterns’ with such a thoughtful-ease  – there is really no turning back and as much as this process might seem like too much, or ‘a drag,’ it is just part of the judgments we create at a mind level toward it, to make it seem ‘difficult’ because in essence, it’s been a perfect tool for ‘mind control’ which as Bella mentions, begins within ourselves.

There is no need to make it ‘more’ or ‘less’ than ourselves being ‘here,’ walking process in every moment of breath within the understanding that: there is Actual work, research, reading, participation, writing, sharing and education to be walked if we really want to create and establish a platform of self-support and education for more beings. It takes an actual walking-the-talk and doing, which is what I am grateful for I am now involved-with, because these ‘dormant’ resistances still come up, and it takes an actual ‘pushing’ for me to say: ‘I am in, I participate, I take this point on.’

 

I see and realize that any iota of desiring to ‘get back to my old self’ or ‘wanting to just leave it all’ is stemming from fear, fear of confronting myself and the reality I live in on a daily basis. And it might seem like entering this ever-lasting stream of information that we participate in on a daily basis – but once you get used to it, you realize that you are actually becoming part of the key points of support that are ‘here’ to share, direct news with common sense, sharing our own self support which is creating actual cool information that anyone can access to, and eventually support themselves equally if they have an intention and/or have made a decision to be serious about being part of the transformation required in this world to establish a world in Equality. 

It doesn’t matter if we are physically near or not, which is the cool point about the internet and Desteni, we are connected by common interests that are not ‘separate bubbles’ equating the CULTtures and values we are witnessing define everyone within ‘little realms’ of preferences and affiliations within this world. We take on common-sensical aspects that apply and pertain to all beings in this world, that’s our starting point and that’s how it is an all inclusive group: you are serious to be the change that this world requires = you begin  with supporting yourself and join a group/ a force that is already doing so.

 

I’ve finally found people around the world that are willing to live the same way that I once dreamed we could live as: supporting each other, reading each other, sharing ourselves – instead of having to discuss someone else’s books and fictional stories. This is the real deal and for that, I’m grateful to be walking here – I take all these minute fears and resistances through Self Forgiveness in order to see and expose them for what they are, nothing but habits and patterns that I realize must be stopped and directed on a constant/ daily basis.

 

This world works in patterns and habits – so I create a pattern and a habit of sharing myself, participating, deliberately wording myself and pressing ‘submit’ wherein I make sure that no fear stands in the way of me expressing/sharing and supporting the way to stand as the living expression of what Life should be lived as by all of us in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach the word ‘obligation’ to ‘being in the internet’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a dependence toward internet for the past 14 years of my life wherein I get into an idea of ‘being disconnected from the world’ if not being in the internet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being ‘too comfortable’ with having no internet because this means I am not aware of what is ‘going on’ in the world, apparently, and I can just remain in my own bubble wherein I don’t have any responsibilities toward the world –

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the ‘internet’ to ‘responsibility’ because it is through there that I participate with others, I inform myself, I communicate and interact with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a ‘negative value’ to the word responsibility instead of realizing that it is a word that I am here to live as myself as the realization of what must be done in order to understand how the world works and how I can practically assist to create a new-system that will enable us to coexist in an effective-living way.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could remain in this state of ‘disconnectedness’ toward the world because it is ‘very comfortable’ to not have to do daily tasks and constant participation in the world within the internet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relate the word ‘comfortable’ as in being devoid of responsibilities, wherein I then see that it is actually abdicating self-responsibility and a mind-comfort created within this association, it’s not an actual physical comfort because I realize that I could ‘feel alright’ within my mind – but the nagging thoughts about myself and reality would continue if I didn’t have the will to support myself to stop and correct myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deeply wish or desire that I had never gotten myself into the internet which means

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the internet as a a ’blessing’ but also as a ‘torture’ in terms of who I am and what I have become now as an active participant within the internet as a way to communicate, interact, share, write, inform myself and co-operate within a group that is constantly working and creating information in order to support ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet as a torture toward myself but also a great tool.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see it as a ‘torture’ because I would have essentially kept myself in a very comfortable bubble wherein ‘everything is fine’ and there’s nothing to do but ‘seek my personal fulfillment.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at times create a slight resistance to go through my email, through Facebook, through forums, in fear of it being all just ‘too much’ to go through and in essence not wanting to participate because of the actual work and dedication it entails, without realizing that it is the best way I can direct myself: supporting myself/ supporting others which is essentially what we all should be doing as humanity in order to really create a world that’s best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am ‘not there’ for a day, everything will just compound and become unbearable. Without realizing that it is just an idea of myself toward the points that must be taken one by one without ‘rushing’ or creating and expectation of it all being ‘done’ within a particular time-frame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself in a constant ‘battle against time’ wherein I set up my own ‘scores’ and act from the vantage point of ‘who I am’ within a self-definition as being ‘fast and accurate’ which I have realized is an energetic ego-driven persona that I have developed throughout the years as a point of self-definition, making it a ‘positive aspect’ within myself, without realizing that I have only been ‘fighting against time’ and ‘beating my own records’ as a synonym of ‘self improvement.’ Lol which is actually bullshit really, I move and direct myself at a physical pace, as breathe here in every moment, without having to create the delusion of ‘I must go there’ and rush all the time.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the current awareness that I have toward this world as myself, and everything being part of ‘who I am’ and having to take responsibility for it, because within this, there is actual work to be done as in walking a process of self-correction to actually do something to create a world that is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire that I had never gotten to know about the actual reality in this world – because that would have meant me just continuing living my ‘little bubble’ wherein I was unaware of the actual state of the world- and within this,

I forgive myself that I am actually allowing thoughts of ‘not wanting to actually do the necessary work’ to create a world that is and will be best for all.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create any form of laziness which is actually fear of change, fear of exposing myself, fear of taking actual ‘actions’ that I have to conduct and will challenge who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, not only on a ‘personal basis’ but as humanity, as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a polarity relationship toward the internet as a ‘great need’ but also as a point of ‘rejection’ toward it in the back of my head if I get too overwhelmed by it – hence creating an opposite of feeling ‘comfortable’ with not having Internet/ not having to ‘be there’ all the time, and in that allowing me to get used to not participate, not voice myself, not write and share because that’s quite a comfortable way of existing wherein, we would only focus ‘toward ourselves’ and not the world and the current reality we’re living in.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep thoughts in the back of my head of an apparent ‘nice past time’ wherein I didn’t have to confront myself as in facing myself through this process and the world as myself, because it was seemingly ‘better’ to exist that way according to the memories that I have decided to keep of myself as the past, without actually remembering how ‘lost’ I felt when I was oblivious to this reality, which is how I resorted to  ‘seek myself’ through my own mindfucks in writings, books, music and relationships in an inherent attempt to ‘connect with the world,’ which is essentially how I have now decided to direct myself and my life through using the internet as a main tool of self-support.

 

I stop judging the internet as an ‘addiction’ or as a ‘first necessity’ point within my life, I stop seeing myself with bad eyes for being in it all the time, without realizing that this has become the way for me to educate myself, to direct myself to participate in matters that matter within this world, wherein I have finally found ‘the way’ to connect/ support and realize myself as others as well.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the internet, Facebook, mails, forums, news, videos as something that I could ‘resist’ in order to keep myself in a very comfortable position of ‘not having to do anything about it’ and in that way keeping myself in a very comfortable position wherein ‘nothing disturbs me.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the awareness of the reality of this world as something that ‘disturbs me,’ instead of realizing that this is just the way to start seeing what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become, which should not create any ‘experience’ within me, but simply acting according to how I can stand as the solution, as the point of self-responsibility and self-direction in relation to what I am now aware of requires direction and correction within this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could have remained in  a ‘comfortable bubble’ within my world if I hadn’t gotten to the internet – without realizing that the truth of this world cannot be denied or ‘hidden’ within our every-day living reality to not see it. I have simply ‘chosen’ to become aware of it and direct myself accordingly.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge myself for my participation within the internet which can only come from a starting point of ego and not an actual realization of having assessed the publishing, sharing and distribution of information in relation to making a point of self-support available for myself/others in my world and through the internet.

 

If we all participate in common sense within the internet, being self-honest about who we are, sharing how we support ourselves to stop our personal interest and get involved in collective-interests, sharing how we can becoming effective at what we do,  sharing information that is practical and ‘valuable’ within the context of education,  the internet would be an awesome place to be in.

Unfortunately that’s not the case at the moment – and the same you can access a page full of pornography or ‘101 ways on how to commit suicide’ than you can open up a website on Self Forgiveness and how to become a Self-Responsible being. Therefore, at the moment it’s like a ‘free-range arena’ wherein you can decide what you want to browse for, what you want to participate in – this is how participating in Desteni is a fully self-directive point, wherein beings decide for themselves to either be a part of it or not – no one is pushing it down your throat as part of some squared educational system. It is a truly open-source platform of information and self-support that anyone can walk and have access-to if they have access to the internet.

For those that don’t have internet yet – we hear you, and we will make sure that in the future, internet is free and accessible for all because we have realized what a useful tool it is for purposes of education and, currently, establishing democratic procedures to become involved in the necessary actions and decision-making in the world.

Fascinating, this is how we can actually see who and what we decide to do and direct ourselves as in this world. I have decided that I want to live and support myself and others along, therefore here I stand.

 


How I was able to Hear Desteni?

This wasn’t planned at all, but on a day like today January 29th but in 2008 I stumbled upon my second Desteni video which I got to finally watch. I was alone at night in my apartment and ready to get back to school in the following days, while continuing a process of being longing for a change in my life in a desperate manner.

The months before Desteni – and my entire lifetime if I could say so – I searched for answers that I could not get in encyclopedias or my dictionary. I sought into the occult and mystic realms another form of ‘knowledge’ that could make any sense to all of this ‘life’ of mine of which I was losing my ground on. I was absolutely enthralled with spirituality, the idea of ‘God’ being everywhere, us being god, being one, seeking love, wanting to ‘feel love’ and within this getting quite a burnt perspective on reality which lead me to follow certain ideas/ beliefs of myself having this benevolent mission in life that I had to seek ‘guidance’ for in order to ‘fulfill’ it.

At that time I was questioning myself extensively. I would write about losing the ‘meaning’ of who I am and how I had to go back to memories to remind myself ‘who I was,’ yet at the same time not believing that all I was is this ‘so-called lifetime’ as I wrote. I had been interested in how everything develops/ works as a process in life and this curiosity is what lead me to research on various topics like religions, philosophy, mysticism which included alchemy, magic, esotericism, kabbalah, Sufism and the list goes on with various ‘isms.’ I mean, I tried to get a hold of each thing to see what ‘suited my interests.’ Now we know that religions are designed according to people’s minds and cultural lifestyles which now makes me realize how it is that I couldn’t ‘fully identify’ with any of them. I wanted to ‘make my own religion’ as a syncretism of all of which I could find ‘supportive’ from each one of these religions/philosophies/ practices/ cultures, etc.

I’ve been quite fond of writing and I had been doing it for 8 years by that time wherein I wrote “I know the writings and the essence of my thoughts are creations.” Yet all of this I would still link to the idea of ‘enlightenment’ which is essentially what I was seeking at the time. I also would feel like ‘death’ was around the corner – yep, it was the death of me as who I had believed myself all the time.

I’ll share my exact words on the first encounter with Desteni written out in the evening of January 29th, 2008:

“So I saw this girl from Desteni bringing Ian Xel Lungold who is the man that got me investigating about the Mayan Calendar. So I thank him, now I know what goes one a bit more. . I mean, it’s really tough when you truly think of it, but it is completely plausible as I’ve been in touch with such things since I was a little girl. I was brought up with the belief in spiritualism. Basically my whole life has been based in their beliefs.”

Then I describe several events that I used as a form of believing that spiritualism was real as in ‘real life events’ that supported me to believe in it. I proceeded to write hours later – I apologize for the sketchy and jumpy type of enunciation, but I was mostly on weed all the time and I would write in a rather messy way, yet I wanted to share it as ‘raw’ as it is, this is to clarify that the words might not be well suited to describe ‘Desteni’ yet it was how I grasped it at the time.

“It’s 11:05 and I come here only to make or point out the fact/ statement that a whole dimension of who I was has been completely/ almost shattered today. Something beyond here and there changed my mind. So the channel (portal) can be applied to Einstein, Tesla, Marilyn Monroe, Dimebag Darrel I mean, everyone. So there goes this manifestation… It is beyond all schemes, I couldn’t have (illegible ‘thought this’) not even in my wildest dreams. But seeing Kurt Cobain speaking through a blond woman makes you wonder how you really haven’t (illegible) on stuff, even more when we’ve certainly felt like I didn’t belong here. The idea of good and evil dissolving, I hadn’t thought about the idea of god and it makes me wonder. We are our words and I allow myself to forgive myself for ALL and for it ALL. Each pinch of doubt, fear, insecurity might come from my pre-installed system as it feels odd to be coming out of the end. […] So it’s been a long, long day filled with truly, this time TRULY unexpected information, therefore I’m grateful and I’ll try to begin acting as one, being honest with myself as the very chains of reality, this shadow world comes to a transformation from the core. I want to assist that change.

I’ll try to watch them all (videos.) Lots of good vibes. I thank everything until now for I am indeed now aware of my own nature”

And that was the entry for the day. The real ‘shift came through the writings two days after I spent all my time watching videos while having the last days of vacation from school.

The following pages contain very ‘powerful’ realizations that I would like to share here in a summed-up version of entire pages wherein I expressed how excited I was and all that I was ‘ready to give up’ for this process. I’m even a bit flabbergasted myself to see how immediate my decision was to HEAR – and this is all mostly because of seeing the common sense in having to be the ones that cut the chains of our own shackles in this world.  I’ll transcribe a bit here:

“It’s the last day of the first month. It could officially mean that it’s the end of my vacation time and all I can realize is that all my life could be thrown out the window right now because my belief systems have fell and with it, many things I became a part of. I saw each system demon come in and talk about polarities, beauty, addictions, god, trinity, everyone, everything. And this made me ‘feel better’ like I have a solution to the possible outcome of it all. I heard LaVey saying who he’s is/was a demon and he’s in the dimensions observing how humans go to heaven, their heaven once they die.

So me and that LSD experience. I won’t ever do that again as I must realize what I saw was still the product of our mind. I am really curious about Gurdjieff and his afterlife. He says he was erased from Earth because he realized true awareness of ‘I am.’

So really, it is a BIG change for I now know my thoughts, feelings, emotions are part of the system I am. This isn’t really me, we’re covered in bags of skin with huge egos while thinking about success and happiness in the system. I don’t know what I’ll become or what will actually happen after this whole breakthrough. I really feel I want to quit it ALL. I mean it. So, words are me.

Really this is the end of our world as we know it, really. What will come is our Self Realization through the destruction of our systems/demons and I feel think 2012 will be only a shifting time for all of us to save Mother Earth and become Aware, not saved as Jesus (through the Portal) said, but become aware that I don’t have to worship anyone […] Therefore I won’t be experiencing the unity as I thought. It’s good I’ve got a record since 2000 of my life, so now I will consider, re-consider it all…”

Feb 5th and my world was falling apart already within my relationship in terms of how I began sharing about Desteni with family and friends in a rather enthusiastic manner that didn’t suit their scheme of who I was/ what I was supposed to be. Here I share something of this day

“I’ll be like the temperance so I may have time to realize how we exist through relationships. It can’t make me sad anymore, it’s a fight against my own mind. That is judgment day, is here for me, it’s beginning. I do not believe in anything outside of myself anymore, no more religions, no more surrendering to a higher power. There’s no such God as we are god ourselves. All of us, we just have to realize it.

[…] The deal with it all now is becoming my words and it requires subjugation of our big egos towards unity and equality. Will that ever happen? All my beliefs on 2012 are awaiting (in relation to a final ‘end of the world as shared in previous blogs) In fact I like the idea, but what kind of seems torturing is the fact that there’s no solution, there’s no going out of it all forever.  […] It is fascinating I know I’m not alone, I’m not a stranger, I’ll rather try to burn my ego down to ashes and let the true me get out. I won’t hold on to things as I realize how everything is constantly moving. What’s real? I don’t know. And I’m glad I’m not into a relationship anymore.”

And now I remember how initial ‘doubts’ on Desteni were triggered by others in my world – though common sense was undeniable:

“What if Desteni is actually a conspiracy? Well I don’t feel so, it’s not nice to think that all the books I recently bought are nothing but fantasies either, yet they can be so. Music is a system, art, expression, feelings, so what the hell on earth can I do? I’m just waiting, TELL ME! I have no desire whatsoever and it might be really bad/ good whatever. Everyone… So I sometimes wonder… maybe I could be very useful on heaven here on Earth… I have not bought my life yet but I’ll be patient. I’m doing my effort and placing my endeavor towards – not what is called enlightenment – but the truth of our essence. There is nothing to be scared of but of ourselves. So here we go, that’s it. I will not think of anything but forgive myself and I walk for this is all I got now, somehow.

I will trust them this time for it makes complete sense to me. I want to thank Jack and everyone out there in the dimensions who are currently coming to us (through the portal) in a specific moment of our lives. We can’t deny this, we’re in this together, all of us so we might as well hurry, we are aware of this now. That’s why maybe we all felt our worlds crumbling down for some time now, we didn’t know the dimensions were actually struggling to take out all the white light system. So, we were enslaved, huh, who could tell? To me it isn’t much of a new thing because I’ve seen everyone and I know I feel their whatever they are feeling and I’ve always felt weird whenever a young kid approaches me to ask for money or anything. How odd really, we don’t have to ask more. I will continuously make my endeavor to stop the mind. To know who I really am and so, If we are all gods, we better make up to our own nature. Nothing is sacred anymore but all of it together. So that’s about it. This is the real change.

Then the ‘crisis/ breakdown’ came wherein I started digesting more and more of the material, yet it was a necessary process as we all walking this process know and have experienced at some point in our lives/ process.

“So today it wasn’t such a  great thing going back to school. I know it was going to be mad, I couldn’t really sleep that well, I kept wondering about many things and I had goose bumps, very intense ones so I hope today I find a reason for that. If there’s one, Maybe I’m going through a deep crisis indeed, I need help.

Self Honesty, using common sense. I got a message from Andrea at Desteni. I feel great I know and them, it’s great. It has helped me a lot.

My world is really falling apart, it consists of my beliefs, thoughts, that includes all the stuff I used to cling to. There are no more chakras, there will be no more reincarnation as Buddha (through the portal) wrote – so what happens then? So I’m guiding everyday towards equality and it’s hard considering life in this city which is hell. Art is even nonsense now.

Everything up to where we are now makes no sense. There’s no ‘white light’ anymore so we’re on our own. This will be a major shift, I might as well sell everything and go for a ride. But I enjoy myself here I am now. And I’m thankful for it all too. No matter what, I’ll be a ‘stop the mind freak’ if it’s necessary for me to be so. I’ll quit weed if it’s needed, I’ll do so. I believe I was like a heretic or something (in a past life belief), I believe I stood up for No God in other lives and now I returned for a while as a god conceiver, a ‘god seeking person,’ a mystic which is the ultimate enslavement by that of ‘surrendering to a higher power’ – God! I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think of a higher power other than me. I am living my words so I make it happen. If I need to quit my friendship, I will only if required. I hear my blood streaming. So this is where we got to. It is now, the apocalypse (revelation) is here slowly but surely. The revealing. I am all, I am alive. My blood is pumping.”

The following days I continued describing all the series of realizations with regards to what and who I had become, I realized that I was fooling myself by using weed to ‘cope with the message’ and eventually stopped it, the same happened with my relationship as I saw for myself the deception it was and how it was not supporting myself to walk this process.

I found it cool to share these thoughts straight from my notebook as ‘who I was’ 4 years ago wherein I was waking up from a slumber filled with ‘positivism.’ Desteni became that final and initial point to a process of having sought for a ‘solution’ to this world and having sought for a ‘way out’ of my own ‘chains,’ I saw the common sense in having to become the solution in this world once that I realized there was no God. This proves that I had in fact deposited faith on some benevolent being eventually being able to ‘save us.’ Now I know that it is definitely not so and that we are here, walking our process of self-revelation as the realization of who and what we are as one and equal which is not nice or pretty and implies taking Self Responsibility: an actual understanding of How we have created this world and walk through the Manifested Consequences in/ as our world.

Common sense could not be denied and I walked a process of shedding off my beliefs and embraced the new way wherein Forgiving myself was the way to stop participating in delusions like god or having some form of ‘guidance’ above me to become this ‘enlightened being.’ It was very supportive to get messages from people at Desteni when I did ‘seek for help’ as I was going a bit crazy with all the material. It only lasted a couple of days but what I got really allowed me to settle down and assert myself to walk this.

I eventually walked through the entire breakdown of crying and thinking that I had ‘lost myself’ but it was only beginning to step out of my religion and realizing that I could not continue as the ‘me’ that I had lived as until then.

Now I’m here, I did finish school and I’m actually in that point again in my life where a cycle is about to end here and a new one will begin. I can’t believe it’s been 4 years already yet it is so and we continue walking here.

All I can say is to be patient with yourself if you’re beginning this process, takes time to walk through one’s mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions and the rest of our reality within writing and applying self forgiveness, we’re all still all walking it as well.  I see how the commitment to be part of this process of Equality and Oneness was almost an immediate decision, because I had sought to be part of a change that could give a ‘meaning’ to my life. I realized how I could make myself the point of my existence and within that, make of my life this instrument to transform and establish a system that supports all Life.

Desteni is the process to get to live in this world. It might have come in the ‘weird’ presentation of a portal with all of these fascinating messages that made all sense to me. Yet the process of walking it and applying it/ living it became that single ‘point’ in my world that I required to realize that I was in fact able to become that which I saw  ‘knew’ we were even if it was in the back of my head. I was able to finally get the ‘reality check’ that I required to see how deluding myself with god and spirituality had been in fact neglecting my reality. The breakdown that I described was precisely because of realizing how I had been living in a bubble of positive thinking while abuse, suffering and violence was everything that was creating and making of this world such a fucked up place, all of it beginning within our very own thoughts (!)

Witnessing that through documentaries and videos we would get on a daily basis by Bernard, allowed me to open my eyes to the reality I had neglected. This was probably one of the key points within my Desteni-process wherein I started looking outside of myself to a reality that required to be exposed and shared to see what we are accepting and allowing to exist in our world, our creation. And with that, create and stand as the necessary solution that we are now presenting and walking as the Equal Money System.

Some lines in those journal entries contained some lyrics by John Frusciante that I wrote and seemed appropriate for this point in my life:

My life goes blank
Life was never what you thought.
Life was never what you saw
The lights go out

I dared to turn off the light and face the reality of what I had become, I wrote that it was ‘painful’ but understood why I required to walk this process and committed myself to it fully.

I’m grateful as I’ll always be for being here, being able to share my story today after 4 years of walking this process, between hell and Earth and back again, facing the nitty gritty details of myself that I would sometimes get embarrassed to even expose to myself. All of it I’m able to Self Forgive and prepare myself to be the point that takes Self Responsibility, that does stand up to create the necessary system for all of us to live as equals.

If you want to read more about my process, check out the archives now available in this same blog in the year 2008.

We continue walking. Thanks for reading.

Watch the vlogs on this topic here:

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 1

2012 Walking with Desteni: Why I could Hear the Desteni Message – Part 2

First note when watching Desteni 2008

First notes while watching Desteni, January 30th 2008


We Express no matter what!

This is a blog response to Lindsay’s video Uselessness that came in a very cool moment wherein after vlogging about Child Slavery and having spent few hours editing a video about war and poverty scenes last night, it is almost inevitable to not get a sense of despair with regards to the extent of abuse, negligence and general disregard that we’ve lived by in this world toward each other and everything else in this world.  I have often wondered ‘why only a few are able to listen and care enough to agree and speak up?  Why is it that no one cares?’ But this is in fact taking the points outside of myself without seeing how If I don’t like what I see within such considerations, I stand as the point of correction within this world that is able to demonstrate that such carelessness and disregard is able to be stopped, that the general apathy to address the problems in this world was more likely linked to these thought patterns explained in the Uselessness video like ‘What is the point within this all? Will anyone actually read/ watch/ care about what ‘I’ have to say about this?’ All of this being also a convenient point in the system for those that are currently ‘in control’ so that no one dares to stand up and start questioning their life and the reality we are living in.

The point of ‘Uselessness’ has come up many times throughout this process certainly. I remembered just now a moment at the farm where Matti was working through a similar aspect as ‘pointlessness’ wherein we got to hear Bernard’s perspective on how he was ‘missing the point of it all’ and that point was simply ‘himself.’ That was quite a revelation, it was like suddenly it all clicked, I realized how we had always sought something else to be the point of motivation for our lives and how we’ve never actually lived and done things for ourselves, within the realization that ‘this is it, I make it happen’ and making ourselves the point of our existence. Within this, we realize that we are doing this for ourselves, for what we see and realize is common sense regardless of how our backchat and general observations around this reality may say otherwise, hindering our expression and determination to speak up for what we see is common sense if we allow such thoughts to direct ourselves.

This is the point wherein we come ‘back to our senses’ and see the voices in the head for what they are, only thoughts in the manner of ‘This is useless, no one will care, no one will read, humanity is fucked anyways, we won’t change, it is all futile,’ and instead allow us to ‘just do it’ because we see that we’ve been deliberately hiding and suppressing ourselves for whatever fears and reasons we might give power to, wherein we diminish our voice while having a LOT to say.

I have definitely discovered that any time I allow myself to go into the thought of ‘Nothing is going to change the world’ it is a form of wanting to not take the necessary actions and responsibility that it would entail to create a point of change beginning within ourselves. I can actually realize in this moment that it is in fact so, ‘Nothing’ will happen and suddenly change this, WE have to do it as we realize that this is our creation.

If people at Desteni would have not ‘cared’ to commit themselves to share and become the base foundation for self support for all people that are willing to do so around the world, we would not be here. They are all living proof that it doesn’t matter what anyone says, common sense will prevail after all the lies and the deception of this system finally falls apart, because of it not being based on reality anyways.

We are Here and ‘We will not stop till life is free’ – this is Desteni, this is us, this is you and me that see the common sense required to be exposed, shared and lived in this world. We continue educating ourselves, sharing our perspectives within walking this process of Self Realization and supporting everyone that is willing to walk with us in Equality.

This is the most supportive bunch of people I could have ever met in this world, I invite you to check what Desteni is and take a stand today to speak up about the Equality, to share what you see is required to be lived in this world, commit yourself to Yourself,  become the point of change you want to see in this world and within that, walk and share with all of us that are doing the same already.

Thanks for reading, thanks for the vlog, Lindsay, awesome support.

http://www.equalmoney.org because Equality can only be implemented if ALL is equally supported in a tangible and physical way.

 

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Equality debunks Massification

Response to Jessica Fuller

“I agree Ellory…equality is not the same as freedom. After all, Communists aim to make the masses equal.”

Placing the point into context. We are commenting over a fear-mongering article charged with sufficient propaganda to create the belief that living in perpetual fear and masking it with ‘survival skills’ relevant to one’s individual value schemes is something ‘clever’ to do and denoting ‘wisdom in living’ as the ‘voice of experience’ speaks. It is explained how one must ‘survive’ and protect oneself toward an apparent ‘enemy’ which is the system that we’ve created, accepted and allowed. Now within this, there are a set of prejudices that have built the brilliant educational system that is obviously sponsored by and lobbying capitalism as the ‘perfect living condition’ for people in this world. I’ve seen a constant in people’s arguments through these past  years of interacting with comments in our videos and blogs wherein we  present the solution of Equality as the implementation of the Equal Money System.

Freedom has NEVER existed in fact. It was introduced as part of the vocabulary  as an elusive concept that we were taught we had to ‘fight for,’ defend and even ‘die’ for – yet never ‘given’ as an actual living condition from birth for all equally. Look at your revolutions, they never brought any change but only superficial exchange of powers such as the ‘oppressed’ suddenly becoming the ruling class, often leading to worse results than the ones that were initially fought against.  Freedom in this current system is linked to money and money is inherently created upon abuse, therefore there is no freedom whatsoever because ‘None is Free till ALL is Free.’

Let’s look at ‘making the masses equal’ which is a particular usage of words to create the pejorative sense of ‘massification’ which is a term introduced to describe a sense of loss of individualism wherein groups of people could be directed and encompassed as a ‘whole’ with similar behavioral and thinking patterns through the media.  Therefore, isn’t it that we are already living such ‘massification?’ How about realizing that your current ‘equality’ is desiring the same as your neighbor which is achieving to live the ultimate ‘american dream’ that is charged with this idealism of being a ‘unique and special individual’ that seeks the ultimate success as money, sex and everything else that could create a sense of ‘completion’ in a human being’s lifetime.

Look at your adverts – what are they selling you? The image of perfection that makes you keep ‘striving’ to get to such happiness/ love/ bliss/ completion that is, more often than not, never actually fulfilled in a regular mortal’s life. It’s obvious that your ‘communism’ as it’s been taught in educational systems has been satanized and linked to the worst meanings possible for the sake of everyone seeing it as the ultimate ‘control,’ without ever being able to look back at ourselves and realize that we have accepted that very same  form of control, indoctrination and fascism wrapped up with false-flags of freedom and justice for all – none of them real in any way whatsoever and we only require to look at the world as proof of what I am describing here.

No one is free, we’re all abound to the same monetary system that is absolutely based on abuse and inequality, the inequality that we’ve accepted as part of the brainwashing wherein we believe that we have to ‘strive’ to get a decent living condition and that it is ‘okay’ to have over a billion beings starving in the world. This is all unacceptable and must be exposed for the propaganda it has been to determine a general social, economical and political structure designed to keep some people invariably disenfranchised so that there is always someone ‘willing to do the work’ that no one else wants to do out  of sheer necessity = extreme survival mode lived as the now friendly-named ‘modern day slavery’ which is just blatant slavery, another proof that evolution has not taken place in this world either.

“I also agree that we are responsible for ourselves. Buddhism, arguably the most peaceful religion out of all the major religions of the world, advocates that the only way you can influence lasting positive change is to begin with oneself. The New World Order has it’s talons deep in the world and it has been digging them deeper and deeper for decades…possibly even 100s to thousands of years depending how far into conspiracies you are willing to look.”

Peace is resisting war – peace is created out of the concept and acceptance of war itself in the first place. If you understand Buddhism, in common sense you will see that it promoted passivity and a general mode of observance/ detachment wherein people were never challenged to create a solution for this world; instead they were left to ‘meditate’ and ‘surrender’ to this world, taking on a light blindfold and remaining in a ‘blissful’ experience without even caring to look at how just by the mere fact of existing in this world, they were equally responsible to the ‘human condition’ that has never been ‘best for all’ or a harmonious one. Therefore Buddhism is another form of brainwashing wherein it is easy to ‘detach’ ourselves to ‘avoid suffering,’ yet the suffering remains ‘here’ and is not dealt-with. You ‘turn off your mind’ and pretend that everything is fine even though  ‘trying to keep the thoughts away’ is the first point that is being fought against when seeking such ‘peace of mind’ that is so revered and popular nowadays, it’s just another form of mental morphine to sedate ourselves from the problems that are existing in this world.

We begin with ourselves, yes, that is the principle. Yet the starting point must not be that of ‘existing in bliss’ or creating a false sense of ‘stability’ as a mind generated experience that can only exist at an individual level. It is only kept in place by the person  having to constantly turn off/ shut down the mind without actually daring to see and reveal what is existent within and in doing so, face the reality that we’ve become as our minds to walk an actual process of self correction.

I once tried ‘stilling the mind’ and entire Zen approach to life – I became so frustrated because I suppressed myself every time that I reacted within my mind that raced with thoughts and emotions that I could not ‘externalize’ and face, but simply shoved away.  It is in fact a process to create our inner demons because it all goes back into our head where it regurgitates and becomes backchat. This way we simply chew our own cud up there in our head without ever daring to speak it out and face what such drivel is revealing of ourselves.

It is only through the process of Self Forgiveness that I got to understand how we have to first allow ourselves to know ourselves, get to understand how our mind works through writing and speaking. From there the process of Self Forgiveness is taking Self-Responsibility on every statement wherein we recognize what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be/ become in separation of who we are as Life as Equals. Self Forgiveness is the only application – after many attempts to live through other various practices, philosophies and beliefs – that has enabled me to support myself and others equally by standing within one single and basic principle which is the principle that we are promoting as the base and foundation for a new system in this world: Equality as Life.

Common sense which is ‘what’s best for all’ becomes the constant measuring/ reference point to direct ourselves as our thoughts, words and deeds in our reality. This is how we begin with ourselves because we understand that we are the creators of this world and we cannot possibly look at ‘solving/ changing the world’ without first daring to look at ourselves and understanding what exists within us as our own mind. That’s the first point of Self-Responsibility.

‘The New World Order’ is as real as you want to believe it is in a similar way to the belief system we’ve accepted as our current monetary system. From my perspective it is no different to say ‘new world order’ or ‘capitalism’ or ‘socialism’ as any form of government and control over population imposed by a ruling class is equally deceptive and abusive. Hence I could say that we have existed within a perpetual ‘world order’ that has been based on the polarization of society, the survival of the fittest, the perpetuation of power for only a few that have become those that have set the rules of ‘who you are’ and ‘what you think’ currently, the same elusive ideals discussed at the beginning. They have cleverly designed the entire conspiracy theory point as their own way to entertain ‘the masses’ while igniting their sense of ‘indignation,’ yet continuing to accept a ludicrous monetary system that is certainly a point that is urgent to take self-responsibility for as every moment that we use it, we are existing in that tacit agreement for all the abuse and inequality that money is creating.

“Sitting in a circle signing “Kum-ba-ya” and discussing ideologies while plotting a peace plan celebrating equality will get us nowhere. It’s too late for all that.”

I certainly agree. Though I wouldn’t only judge people singing and praying or meditating – which are similar ways of neglecting the world – but also people that sit around watching TV consuming everything that the media says which is in fact the very artifact used for indoctrination and control to generate the necessary ‘massification’ to keep everyone well enter.tamed. What about people sitting around in their opulent international conventions to create “solutions for the world” year after year? They are also discussing only ideologies without getting anywhere. What about people discussing only about their dreams, desires and ‘pursuit of happiness’ around coffee tables? Isn’t that also part of talking about personal ideologies getting nowhere which in fact keep the current system in place because one will do ‘anything necessary’ to achieve ‘one’s dreams’ while disregarding the rest of the world. The pursuit of happiness is our demise and that’s why we must stop all forms of delusions to any form of ‘celebration’ – there is only people selling you the false sense of ‘freedom of choice’ and a ‘peace of mind’ that will run out the very first moment that you are confronted with your own feelings  and emotions and don’t know ‘how to deal with them’ other than shoving them under the rug, pretending once again that ‘everything is fine.’

There can be no celebration of Equality in this world as it has never existed – anyone claiming to do so is then in a self-brainwashing session that must be immediately stopped and exposed for the fallacy it represents.

“Now is the time to accept that life as we know it is about to change in a drastic fear-inspiring way and we might as well learn to protect ourselves and plan for the worst so that we can survive in order to join together and fight back. When you plan for the worst and the best happens then you may enjoy a pleasant surprise. When you plan for the best and the worst happens, you end up having your ass handed to you.”

I wouldn’t necessarily say that it will be in an ‘inspiring’ way. I haven’t found any ‘inspiration’ in this world other than death and destruction for creative processes –  if you are talking about that type of inspiration here. We are way overdue to accept and understand the fact that we require to stop living in our individual bubbles of self-indulgence wherein we’ve become so used to ‘the world as it is’ with its ‘flaws and charms,’ without ever really daring to question WHY we have accepted the world as it is and HOW we are all equally responsible for the current conditions of abuse we’ve imposed on to ourselves and everything here.

This world is already drastically changing indeed and the level of extinction of fauna and flora is a measuring point that gives us direct feedback of the level of destruction we’ve generated while following our dreams and desires, doing ‘everything we can’ to make an ideal imposed by the media and ‘education’ that began at home, our reality. We learned that we had to become ‘successful’ and reaching the ultimate state of ‘happiness’ and ‘success’ which is as elusive as the concepts of freedom, free-will, bliss, love, justice and any other concept that has been imprinted as ‘ideals’ that have never been lived as the actual agreements and relationships applied toward each other.

We’ve been living in a sugar coated reality of which the inside is starting to rot  and the pungent smell is seething out, reaching those that had lived in perpetual ‘safety nets’/ personal heavens where ‘everything is fine,’ which is how this type of articles are now ‘hitting home’ for many that used to boast on living in ‘the land of the free. ‘ And this must not be understood only as a criticism toward the ‘American Dream’ as we – people in the rest of the world – have managed to accept and copycat the same standards and general aims promoted by the capitalist system (American Dream.) Therefore we are all equally part of keeping our own trap in place.

Preparing for the ‘worst case scenario’ shouldn’t come with an expectation of having a ‘pleasant surprise’ as expectations are usually forms of self sabotage wherein you would then require a second ‘bail out’ to a second-layer of ‘worst case scenario’ in case you don’t get your ‘pleasant surprise’ in place. It’s very clear here how we have conditioned our self-movement, actions and self-direction upon having a controlled outcome or at least a general ‘outline’ of what we will be ‘getting’ wherein we are able to be rewarded. This is how we have always sought to ‘get something’ in exchange, we are always seeking to win and ‘overcome’ whatever adversity we have accepted and allowed as real in the first place, which can only be ourselves fighting back at us.

‘Fighting back’ is the recurred usage of words to abdicate self-responsibility and view ‘them’ as some form of ‘evil’ and ‘enemy’ outside of ourselves. In this we are in fact denying our responsibility within the creation of this current social, economical and political structure wherein we have neglected the fact that we can create a sustainable form of supporting ourselves as Equals, just as it always should have been.

Protectionism is fear based and is  another form of control to keep ‘the masses’ peacefully believing they are ‘saving their ass’ while diminishing their ability to respond– take self-responsibility – for the current conditions we are living in as the world – this means that it is the perfect implementation of ‘divide and conquer.’ People in power have obviously learned this point very well wherein they will stimulate your fear/desire of survival as ‘protectionism’ and promote it as a way to ‘guard yourself and those that you love,’  either family or friends usually, which will create a false sense of comfort based on ‘protecting’ yourself from a perpetual evil that has been self created all along.

When we break-through fear, we become actual stronger beings. This is exactly what people don’t want to realize because the more we see and open our eyes to the reality we have accepted, the easier it will be to realize that we have been brainwashed all this time and that  we can in fact create a change by the single fact of having been living in a system based on blatant lies and abuse for such a long time without ever pondering ‘why’ we are living in such disparity, suffering and abuse if the Earth and what is here is not charging us at all for what we eat and require to live.

The only motivation must be based on Equality as the realization of who I really am, and this ‘I’ includes all as one as equal – though this is not to get all emotional and sympathetic, it’s an actual realization that I am equally responsible for everything in this world: the abuse, the negligence toward all other life forms, the disregard of realizing that every other human and living being is also myself as well as the acceptance and absolute compliance to the current system which is capitalism.

Now within this context, denigrating Equality to a form of ‘massification’ can only reveal a lack of understanding of what the word implies as a living realization of who we really are. This is not a problem because we were all in the very same condition after having been equally brainwashed by our so-called authorities in this world – parents, teachers and the general structure of this world- as well as the money that dictates how everything moves, who lives and who dies.

Any proposal presented by someone and it’s not based in common sense, will pose a threat to humanity instead of an actual solution – this is by simple deduction.  (If it’s not advocating best for all then there is a set of special conditions applied only for some = separation.)

I invite you and anyone reading this to take a moment to learn about what I am saying here, check out the links below which are two websites that will change your life if you have agreed with some or all of the points I’ve exposed in this blog.

I don’t speak for ‘myself’ only, I speak and direct myself within the common sensical perspective that anyone could express in equality just by the fact of being another living being in this world. This  is how we measure our equality,  see for yourself.

http://www.destonians.com

http://www.desteni.org

http://www.equalmoney.org

http://wiki.destonians.com

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