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440. What Do I Deserve?

 

There is one word that – along with the word ‘Rewards’ – I had created a particular relationship of dislike to, and that is ‘Deserve.’ As with anything that one comes to like or dislike it means that one has created a particular relationship to it, loaded with experiences, definitions and considerations that are seemingly ‘devoid of solutions’ which is also an illusion. So I considered it is time to set the record straight when it comes to this word ‘Deserve’.

It’s great to work in this process also assisting others in seeing their own minds, words and relationships created to themselves and others through them, because this word ‘Deserve’ actually emerged through a conversation with another person and so, in order to best assist and support another I realize I have to stand clear in relation to that word as well if I am to share my own example of how to walk a redefinition or re-creation of a word in a way that is supportive, and so no longer harbor a ‘dislike’ relationship to this word .

With deserve there are two ways in which I’ve identified most people use them and I can only recall using it myself in one of those ways.

The first one is in the context of personal debasement, an inferiority, an ‘unworthiness’ of sorts where we lead ourselves to say ‘I don’t deserve this/that’ when it comes to generally supportive or generally ‘good’ things in life, which is a very nice trap in our minds because, who is there to decide what we are ‘worthy of’ but ourselves? I can only assume that there can be traces of religious programming where one believes one has become a sinner with no solution at all and therefore defining oneself in the ‘lowest level of life’ from which one decides one isn’t worthy of something, as a form of punishment or also as a form of martyrdom.

This is the one I recognized I have applied before in my life, mostly in my teens where I truly considered ‘my life is not worthy at all’ so what’s the point in it? Or ‘I am not worth the food that I am eating’ or also in the context of belonging to the human race, seeing myself only as a parasite that continually feeds of everything and gives nothing back. This is a ‘common place’ I could still go into if I allow myself to flow in that pessimist tendencies I have created within me, where one only focuses on the bad, the wrong, the guilt, the shame, the remorse, the problems and sees no way out. Takes time to face all of these points but I can tell here that one is able to for the most part effectively redirect this into constructive directions.

‘I am not worthy of living’ or ‘I am not worthy of life’ is something that comes up mostly when realizing certain abusive aspect of myself towards others or life itself, as in not honoring the very breath that I am able to inhale every moment to keep myself alive. This is something that one could easily define as being ‘unsatisfied’ or ‘depressed’ or ‘demotivated’ but they are all in fact states of self-abdication where one is simply not effectively giving oneself a purpose, a direction, a reason to live for one’s own wellbeing and that of others/ the rest of life itself. When one is continually self-indulging into what may rejoice us momentarily but is truly not contributing to anything of significance to one’s own life development and that of others as well. It is in fact then when I had associated the word ‘deserve’ to being a ‘disservice to life’, not serving, not helping, not growing, not expanding, but only surviving, going by or ‘growing in greed numbers’ so to speak as in focusing on feeding our egos and that’s it. 

When I first realized about this process of self-realization and observing everything around me as an extension of myself, I had an emotional breakdown that compares to the lines I wrote above of ‘I am not worthy of living’ or ‘we are all parasites, we should just not exist’ ‘we don’t deserve all of this, we don’t deserve to live.’ It is a dark place to be in for sure, but also a necessary one to at least face once in one’s life. Why? Because it had a profound effect in my life to finally ‘open eyes’ to something I had completely suppressed or ignored or turned into some emotional conditioning within me, instead of for the first time actually realizing what we have done onto this world, onto ourselves, onto other beings, our bodies throughout this entire time, it is baffling yet it is not like there’s only the abyss and that’s it. There is a way out but one has to actively conduct oneself out of it.

The second form of the use of the word ‘deserve’ has to do with more of an egotistical or as I call ‘haughty position’ within oneself where one believes that ‘one deserves the best’ or ‘one deserves the most of this/that’ or ‘I deserve life’ and things like that, which have made me cringe from time to time because to me it sounds more like a demanding statement, a positive thinking statement, one of those programmed in by repetitions of the likes of Law of Attraction and that sort of stuff that puts  you in a nice trance of ‘imagining all the best and saying I deserve it to the universe’ doing nothing at all to actually create such wonderful things in one’s life. So, this is of course not the way to go either, this is just the polarity of ‘I don’t deserve this/that’ into a self-fulfilled prophecy of ‘I deserve this/that,’ both ways just don’t sound right to me.

 

 

I have walked quite a process with the word ‘reward’ as a cause and effect process so that assisted me in then seeing that I could so the same with deserve, I leave some links here for reference:

277. Finding it Hard to Accept Rewards

279. My Ambivalent Relationship with Rewards

281.The Benefits of Redefining Rewards in Equality

 

So I brought up this word into a group discussion where many of us could discuss these aspects of ‘deserving’ and ‘not deserving’ and how it has been lived by us and how it may still exist in us.  This time upon checking the definition on a standard dictionary:

deserve

n   verb do something or show qualities worthy of (a reward or punishment as appropriate).

 

It is definitely a conditioning word in the sense that it makes one be motivated by an external source for an outcome to ‘get something’ or ‘make oneself worthy of’ or punish oneself for doing or not doing something, when in fact this can be looked at in a much more self-responsible way where one can just acknowledge or realize there’s cause and effect in things we do or don’t do.

Therefore things won’t be a matter of ‘deserving’ anything as a thought in our minds, that is really just like wishful thinking. If one says, for example, I deserve to live a successful and healthy life, well, I’d rather not say it but live it, do what is necessary to have effective ways to accomplish what one is aiming to do or become in one’s life and also investigate which ways of eating, exercise and mental support are best to keep one in ‘good health.’ That’s a doing and there is no one else that will ‘serve us’ that on our plates but ourselves, one has to actually ‘do it.’

So here the word ‘serves’ come which is contained in ‘deserve’ wherein one can consider what would everyone in this world deserve to have as a form of support: we all know there’s the basic nourishment required, house, money, education, healthy minds, etc. So if that is what we all deserve, then why not instead of just saying ‘I deserve’ it only, rather working on co-creating such wellbeing for each other, serving oneself and others back so that we can in fact be able to give to another as one would like to receive = that is what deserve means to me in a principled manner. Nothing can really always only ‘come to me’ if I am not cooperating in the relationships that enable life, where one can ‘give back’ as well and enable the feedback process that creates life, that contributes to a better life for myself and others.  Here the process of ‘deserving’ then stops being just one of asking, demanding or debasing oneself with as a statement, it is more of a doing that one decides to create and live for oneself in whichever direction or purpose that one decides to do.

In this process of self-creation in a way that is best for all, if I had to define how I can live the words ‘I deserve to live/ I deserve life,’ then I can turn these words into ‘I can serve me/my life and that of others to make it something that is genuinely better for me and others as well.’ That comes with deciding to become a better human being in all aspects of one’s life and also if one decides to dedicate one’s time and actions to assist others in any ways we can and are able to. 

Some might have a relationship of dislike toward the word ‘serve’ and that is something that I could only say one can work with, because surely there is the whole conditioning around ‘serve’ when it comes to ‘masters and servants’ and that whole enslavement relationship we’ve called our ‘jobs’ and other ways to condition our livelihood with serving with something to get something in return, like money or other benefits. Yet, this is only understood as such ‘enforcement’ or obligation mode if one has really ‘bad pay’ in a job or has the worst conditions in such activity or any other injustice that is unfortunately existing in this world where most of us are currently slaves to money, even if one is in the path to eventually create solutions: there’s still billions of people under the same regime, and that will take time to sort out but the best way is to definitely realize that creating further antagonism or rebellion against the ‘oppressors’ is not going to get us anywhere better really, so if one is in this kind of experience, best to not keep feeding this kind of disempowerment on a daily basis, it will only make one sick in the long run and wont’ change a thing in reality. And this is where the statement of ‘I don’t deserve this’ can emerge as well, and this might be a tough one because surely no one really wants suffering and a hellish experience for anyone in their lives. But there is also a ‘greater picture’ that we often forget about, how it is not only ‘me’ that may go through that, but everyone else on earth, all beings – not just humans – are existent within such unjust, unfair, unequal relationships and that’s mostly because we have allowed this to exist ‘as is’ for a long time.

Therefore here we go back to the point of ‘cause and effect.’ It is not like anyone on Earth right now deserves the hideous situations that most people are going through, but unfortunately it is the result of our own abdication of self-responsibility, of allowing ourselves to be handled by a few or just be blinded by the benefits that one can personally obtain in self-interest, devoid of any reason and consideration for others/ the whole we are an equal part of. In fact,  a way in which I have been able to not get so down and depressed when watching say some news or documentary that depicts really bad situations people are going through, is the realization that I am them as well, it is only my personal or ‘individualized’ experience that prevents me from experiencing what others are, and that eventually we will all have to do something about it, face ourselves in different ways so that we can altogether come to the conclusion that we must do something in our lives, in this world if we are to change the ongoing trends. That’s where instead of only thinking ‘I don’t deserve this life’ of abuse, suffering, pain in its multiple ways, we will rather stand up to say I don’t deserve this life, I don’t continue ‘disserving’ life, I rather do what I am able and capable of to change the ways in which most humanity is going to. And this truly begins with oneself, observing one’s thoughts, experiences, patterns whenever we are simply not contributing in a supportive manner to our lives or that of others, where we are too focused on our lives only that we lose the ‘greater picture’ we belong to as well. Only then does one start gearing one’s life and existence to something that is truly supportive and of service to others which at the same time, creates a rewarding process because in helping oneself or others, we uplift each other to do and become our best we can, which means that whatever we then do or create ‘out there’ will contain this self-corrected version of ourselves, we will no longer accept abuse, suffering, debasement ‘out there in the world’ if we work with these aspects first of all within ourselves, within our minds, starting with something as simple as stopping ‘hating’ one word and deciding to live it in a way that is supportive, such as this process with the word ‘deserve.’

Plus it makes the word much more ‘tangible’ as actions, doings, day to day creations instead of only airy-fairy self-righteous statements of ‘I deserve’ this or that, who the hell is there to say what ‘we deserve’ or not? There’s no one, only ourselves and saying it does or changes nothing: if one thinks that one deserves something, not just think it but do something about it.

An example ‘I deserve attention’ then equally give attention, engage with others from whom you are seeking attention or focus from, be that which you are expecting others to give to you.

Some may say ‘I deserve to be loved’ – well, nothing comes magically so how about rather redefining the word love to a practical care and consideration, an actual doing that entails doing that which is supportive for your life and that of others, to grow as individuals, to become better beings day by day, to have a regard for our own lives and bodies and so, toward the entire environment as the physical reality that is here. ‘Love thy neighbor as thyself’ well this is currently not being lived because we haven’t even learned to love ourselves practically, not a ‘feeling’ based thing but a series of doings, of actions, of supportive behaviors and decisions that one can live to become a better human being and so in realizing the benefit that brings to oneself, to do the same in whichever measure one is able to toward others.

‘I don’t deserve to live’ can then become a statement that doesn’t lead oneself into an abyss of depression, tears and sadness which I realized was mostly a comfortable spot of self-manipulation and inaction really, where one believes ‘one can’t’ because if one says ‘one can’ in fact, there’s actual work to do and that’s usually resisted in the mind. So, rather my suggestion and here if in any moment this sentence comes up within me again of ‘I don’t deserve to live’ or ‘I don’t deserve life’ then rather use it as a ‘flag point’ to look at where and how am I not living up to my potential, where am I not honoring my own life, where have I harmed or abused others in a way that I believe has no forgiveness, when in fact there is only self-forgiveness and a commitment process to change/correct myself, where am I not living in integrity, where am I becoming demotivated where I can realize I have to be the one moving and motivating myself, where have I become ‘disillusioned’ where I can remind myself that being in an ‘illusion’ is not practical and rather plan out new ways and things to direct my life and purpose to live for, where have I become too ‘angry’ at everything to say ‘they don’t deserve to live/ they don’t deserve life’ or ‘I don’t deserve life’ wherein I can remind myself I am just in a momentary emotional experience, there is no ‘deserving’ needing but only facing of consequences that one can use to grow, to learn from it, to ensure one doesn’t repeat the same fuckups again and instead learn to continue standing up, every time.

I deserve a second chance, that’s what I would mostly say, I give myself a second chance to change, to correct, to do the right thing once realized the mistake or fault. I deserve forgiveness = no one, no god, no nothing can give it to me but myself, therefore I deserve self-forgiveness, I serve/ give to myself that forgiveness to realize and recognize the problem, the fault, the misrepresentation, the dishonor, the dishonesty and so make a clear stand and commitment to change this within myself, to live that ‘second chance’ every time and not give up/ give into the ideas that ‘I am not worthy of it’ as this is only a mind trick to not continue doing the actual work, constancy and dedication that creating anything in this world entails.

 

Ok so, I’ve walked through the main points/ways in which I have related to the word ‘deserve’ either through personal means or through interaction with others, it is mostly about giving and receiving, co-operating, contributing, creating along with, assisting others to do the same, to learn how to become better human beings, to contribute to life in any way that is possible to us, individually first and foremost and then toward others/ the world system as a whole. If we all learn to enjoy the benefits of our shared creations and principled lives, there will be no need to ask for ‘rewards’ or say statements of ‘I deserve’ this or that, we will simply live it, be it, create it, and that’s definitely what I want to live myself and be a part of, a person that no longer measures oneself and others through fictional values of ‘worth’ but rather lives this worth through actions and one’s own quality of life to assist and enable life to exist in its best possible form.  It really all begins with oneself.

 

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344. Integrity in Equal Money

 

“It is Essential that Human Integrity as Life Equal be Restored as the Fundamental Rule of Law in this World. Call Out Those that protect Inequality, Become Politically Wise – Install a New Government, through Democracy and Re-Educate the Abusers of Life; in the same way they now keep Millions in the Chains of Inequality – ‘till they Repent and Show through their Actions that they Also Care about Life.”
– Bernard Poolman

 

Continuing:

 

 

 

Problem                                                                

“We’ve become dependent on fear as a survival instinct and so actually fear commonsense and integrity as it is experienced/believed to be a ‘weakness’ – you have to live in fear in order to survive as the law in the matrix goes” – Sunette Spies

 

  • The result of our abdication of self responsibility to the laws and mechanisms in which our physical reality visibly operates is expressed in the current organizations and institutions that we have become so ashamed of and continuously complain about, which are the  product of our primordial disregard of ourselves being one and the same organism that is subject to physical laws that enable life to exist. Instead, we created these external entities to become the deposits of our rights that we signed off when agreeing to become part of a system wherein money as our creation meant our ‘indebted access’ to have a dignified living. This means that we lost our integrity the moment that we placed ourselves to be subject to laws that were never equated to guard and ensure a constitution of life in Equality.

 

“You are in this World, because: You Have No Responsibility, No Integrity and because you have Never Cared about Life in the Universe throughout All Time. You are, in a way, in a Prison. A Prison you created for yourself. You’re Not Going to Get out of This one…not here or in the hereafter without facing consequence, taking responsibility for it and changing for oneself and so for all as self.” – Bernard Poolman 

 

  • What we face as our current world system is the product and manifestation of our abdication to Life in Equality. What does this mean? That the same system of oppression, or scarcity, of lies, of corruption, of hierarchical structures and imposition of power to generate fear is in fact the mirror of every single relationship that we formed in self interest, seeking for our individual benefit only in separation of ourselves as one and equal. This means that the imposition of ourselves as our Ego, our Mind, our Personalities, our Preferences, our Opinions, our Thoughts, our Emotions and Feelings, our Desires over the Physical matter is what became and exists now as the violation of our own ‘right to life’ where no Self Respect toward ourselves, toward the life that is here as ourselves and in the various Life Forms exists – instead  we have turned each other and this world into assets for our benefit and indiscriminate consumption. Life after life we have lived throughout generations guarding these interests as laws that we enforced to every single child born into our world without a question.

 

  • We made of our so-called Free Will and Free Choice that individual ‘course of action’ that determined the ability to abuse one another through the acceptance and allowance of self-interest, superiority and personal satisfaction of security and power over the common well being. Every single word that we have used to denigrate or deify something or someone became the symbols of power that we imposed onto ourselves as a sign of our Inability to See what is Real and Live according to it.

    All the suffering, harm and abuse  as the result  disintegration became a reality when  we imposed meanings, values as experiences over matter and made ourselves subject to it, instead of doing the process the other way around: ourselves becoming the direct beneficiaries of every single word thought and lived as a result of an understanding of ourselves as creators of our reality through the values imposed onto matter and experiences at a mind level, disregarding the physical laws and considerations wherein clearly no spec of matter has been regarded as equal, instead it has been always gauged according to the system of values that serves the Human Mind, the Human Nature that became the accepted and allowed behavior of ourselves as species, indoctrinating every individual to integrate the same patterns generation after generation, wherein some symbols became our gods – like money – and some others became the experiences in which we all got ‘lost’ and confused while missing physical reality, and dare it to call it our ‘human nature’ such as our desire to win, our desire to have more than others, our rejoice in emotions or feelings and any other mind activity that is never evident as an integral part of our physicality, because it is only existent at a mind level, as our creation.

 

  • What we regarded as ‘Our Human Nature’ in the form of emotions and feelings became the greatest distractor and consent enter-tamement to not question the laws, the rules, the systems in which we’re living in, but instead merely complied to them as a sign of ‘resignation’ because no one else seemed to be noticing how inherently flawed and wrong the system is, no one dared to question the abuse, the suffering, the poverty, the absolute madness and absurdity of how we bound ourselves to a system of values where money became an abstraction that contains the value of our work to obtain what we require to live – a giving and receiving in separation of an integral equality process, instead we became the embodiments of a an unequal relationship between what dictates in our minds and what our body requires to exist. Therefore it is through our very own laws and belief systems that we enslaved ourselves to what we believed in our minds is real, ignoring physical reality evidence of such facts being true as an inherent part of the matter and the physical.

 

  • Our integrity has been non existent from the moment we give our power away as the breath of life to exist in multiple ‘states of mind’ leading ourselves to feel ‘superior’ or ‘inferior’ to the physicality that we are, which is clearly indicating that we’ve always lived in a continuous separation from the integrity of our physical body that is as constant and consistency as the physicality that is nurtured and reconstituted in every singe breath that we take.

 

  • Our political system, our monetary system, our economy, our social structures denote the exact opposite of this physical relationship of equality and oneness that we could hold as ourselves and toward one another. This is the physical integrity that we have lacked in our words, which became our laws and eventual authorities wherein we created fictional entities to take care after ourselves. We created our kings, our policemen, our judges, our monetary system, our politicians, because they all represent the violation of our individual right to life in Self Responsibility.

 

 

Solution                                                              

Integrity and Standing in Reality is Not Determined by a ‘Piece of Paper.’” – Bernard Poolman
  • Words that stand as the law of our being of Equality and Oneness, lived and applied as a physical consistency of the recognition of who we are as life are the key and way to ensure that we establish our individual an collective Integrity by our individual decision to live according to that which is best for all.

 

  • The process of Self Forgiveness wherein we  take Self Responsibility for the Accepted and Allowed Mind-Nature as thoughts, emotions, feelings  that we have imposed onto ourselves as physical beings is the way to  establish our definitive integrity. This is for us to understand how we created relationships of self diminishment or self aggrandizement in self-interest, causing the tumor as an overgrowth  that indicates the violation of the physical matter of Equality. This Self Forgiveness Process is the key to understand our individual and collective participation in the current outcome we’re living in as our society and world system. This responsibility comes with immediate self-directive solutions that are understood and lived at an individual level to create and establish the Law of our Being in Equality.

 

  • Money as the creation and manifestation of such system of self-abuse will also become the solution; this is within the principle of ‘Like Cures Like’ wherein we are determined to make of money a tool that represents this reintegration of Equality and equalize its function to our physical breathing, which means it will become a guaranteed giving and receiving of the resources we require to live, it is an insurance to maintain our physical integrity where all parts are equally supported, which will translate into an  integral society where relationships are formed in an interdependent manner, existing in a one and equal recognition of our responsibility to live. This implies absolute self directive principles to grant each other the right to live that is not ‘demanded,’ but instead founded and created through our collective ability to honor ourselves and each other as equals.

 

  • Once that money ceases to exist as the driving force within our lives, actual integrity will emerge in our society which will create new forms of entertainment, of relationships, of social interactions that will be based on mutual support and understanding where no ‘hidden interests’ will exist in an attempt to harm or abuse for personal gain. This means that our ability to stop abuse will form part of our ability to construct this integrity as who we are: no abuse, no harm and no disregard will be accepted or allowed to exist.

Rewards                                                  

  • Living Self-Integrity is the foundation of a fear-less society where each one’s words can be measured according to the actions lived that generate the Best Living condition for all.  It is the actual consideration, understanding and regard to guard each one’s well being as our own which will result in a mutual honor that has never before been existent in our society toward each part of ourselves as one and equal. 

 

  • Self Honesty is the principle in which we recognize that our individual well being is founded upon our ability to respond and act in the best interest of all, which creates the relationships of self support, dignity, respect, compassion and consideration to one another once that we live in a world where another is seen as an equal part of ourselves and no longer someone to fear, abuse, extort or compete against.

 

  • The living of our individual Integrity leads to generate the necessary foundation to establish Self Trust within ourselves and toward one another to ensure that no matter where we are, what we say and the decisions we make, we are always acting according to that which is best for all which is the manifestation and living practicality of what Love and Honor should be. This is the key to manifest a heaven on Earth but for that, we have to establish our Self Honesty and Self Forgiveness first – this is the Individual process we’re walking and invite you to participate within the understanding that Education is the first step to understand where, how and why we separated ourselves from life.

 

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311. You Want ‘All The Power’?

 

Power is embedded in the nature of who we are as the Mind, as the actual Evil that abuses the Physical, finding any ways and means possible to get what what we want, what we desire above any consideration and regard for the others that are abused and neglected within such living-out of the word within its current usual definition. We have all collectively created our own worst enemy and nightmare where Power means Manipulation and Control

Continuing from:

We have discussed Power at a System Level as the determining factor that decides how our Rights are created and implemented –or the lack thereof. Rights are a Moral stand point that stem from Power in itself through the following means:

manipulate 
1    exercising unscrupulous control or influence over a person or situation.

2  handle or control with dexterity.
3   examine or treat (a part of the body) by feeling or moving it with the hand.
4  control or influence cleverly or unscrupulously.
5   alter or present (data) so as to mislead.

 

control
n    noun
1    the power to influence people’s behavior or the course of events. The restriction of an activity, tendency, or phenomenon.

 

This means that our current Power is in fact Manipulation to Deceive and Control.

 

Problem:                                                                      

 

Power when embodied by an Authority is accepted and allowed as Real, as Truth, and surprisingly enough we Trust such Power to act in the best interest of all. But as we should have realized by now, Power means control and superiority, the ability to have things done and said the way you want to say it for your own benefit, having the power to decide how all of our lives are conducted when having the ability/power to create laws, set treaties, determine Military Policy, Foreign Economic Policy, Domestic Policy, etc. Which implies that one has the power to regulate the individuals, the State and the System in itself, in essence: have the power to Decide upon people’s lives in all realms of their lives, Our Lives.

 

The dominance in this point is utilized to create Control, Empowerment, Superiority by the people in Power and the Illusion of: ‘Because I can control you, I am In Control of  you’ Which is the paradigm of Manipulation and Deception explained in the following interview by our Designer, which is the existential framework of Authority, Power and Control which implies Manipulation, Deception, Lying, Corruption, Dishonesty.

 

This means that the System Honesty that we have lived in has been based upon ‘following the rules’ of a sovereign, a hegemon that sets such laws/ rules  only to benefit the interests of a minority, never really in fact representing what’s best for all. And this is because of our Relationship to Money, because Power = Money as we have explained, so our entire Power Structure is currently existent within the terms of Manipulation, Control and Deception that we all abide to the moment that we Vote for such power, the moment that we believe in the Power that money has, and comply to perpetuate the same Power System without a question.

 

Power as Self Dishonesty exists within Each One of us where Self-Interest exists at the Sacrifice and Cost of Other Human Beings, maiming and limiting their own ability to have what you/ I have. This is our individual contribution to our current system.

 

Here we have to be absolutely Self-Honest to realize that if we have had the lives of the people in Power, their education, their environment, their conditioning, we would have done exactly the same as they have: seek more power, seek to get more, have more, rule everything and everyone, because ‘they can,’ and this ability is the power we have all collectively agreed upon.

So, now it is to see where in our lives we have accepted and allowed ourselves to embody this desire for Power, Control, Domination, Authority, to have More than others, and for this, resort to lie, deceive, cheat, participate in corruption which is precisely how our lives are currently guided, because who we are as the mind is an entire Lie in itself, there is absolutely No Self-Determination yet, there is no consideration of ‘What’s Best for All’ existent in our thoughts and living decisions, and this is precisely what ‘sets the tone’ of our entire System. It is not to Blame ‘those in power’  – but instead Recognize How we have all collectively participated in manifesting Power as such an abusive mechanism that regulates our lives in every single way.

 

At an Individual and personal level, we create this power-driven inequality the moment we want to posses a person in our relationships, the moment we want to take advantage of our position to have more than what we have, the moment we lie, deceive and manipulate in order to ‘get the most of the cake’ or ascend in our social-status to have more money, not caring who are we directly affecting with such ‘move.’ This is why we haven’t been able to trust each other, because everyone is running after the same bone, and this exists between individuals also in the political spheres, where people are obviously not genuinely determined to serve the people and establish a best for all living condition by writing laws and constitutions that are in fact implemented to better the lives of humans, but instead having a ‘better position’ only means having more money and the ability to write rules and laws that will support and guard such position and power. It is a dog eat dog situation that must stop, because it is unsustainable and it’s ending with the lives of all individuals that see their ability to be supported to live far far away every single day, which is unacceptable.

 

Solution:                                                               

 

Realizing that the Nature of our Own Mind is the one that Creates the Nature of the System will enable us to Stop being the Victims of ‘those in power’ and instead Take Responsibility, individually, for our own nature that seeks to have ‘the most,’ to be ‘on top’ of others and use manipulation and deception in order to attain such desired status. This is all money driven, therefore by us allowing ourselves to be Money-Driven, it is clear that we are not standing within the Principle of What’s Best for All as long as we only look after our own benefit.

 

If we look at the context of Protests and Activism, people seek to ‘Gain the Power back’ but only to then take revenge upon those that held the power before, which will only lead to a ‘turn around’ of the roles with no practical solution. Therefore, we have to realize that the way to stop our current Power Structure is not by ‘overcoming power with ‘greater power,’ but establishing a new political system that can effectively manage the Distribution of Power in Equality, as explained in the previous entries. By this, each individual can realize that we have to unite under one single banner to establish a New Way of Living as Equals- that’s how we are proposing the Equal Money Capitalism System, which one can read about to see how it is a smooth transition from our current system to a more equal and balanced way to establish a social system that is founded upon Life in Equality.

 

Instead of Seeking individual power, we have to set aside all our ambitions, all our desires to ‘make the most’ and realize that if we want to change the world, every single moment wherein we want to possess, have the most, be on top of others, we are abusing and exploiting others, wherein their own ability to have what you pursue is diminish in a direct manner, since the system is set up so that no two individuals are able to possess the same money. This is recreating the same system of Power we’re existing in. This is thus walking through an individual Process of Self-Honesty to see where we are still wanting to have More than others, to be Better, to have Control over others and as such, correct our living application so that manipulation and deception are no longer the means in which we drive our lives toward success, but we start considering that any form of imposition toward another is their enslavement to you. This is why we’re all collectively responsible for our entire system, since we have only complied, but never really taken part of it to actually in fact vote and decide for each policy, law or regulation that is promulgated.

 

 

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The ability to give and receive in Equality,  in such a non-harmful and harmonious manner will lead to peace on Earth.

Imagine no countries fighting against each other – which means No Wars – but also no rivalry as to who is making more than other, whose resources can be exploited and whose population is now invading another country through immigration, because through Distributing Power to all Equally through Equal profit, we can thus stop worrying about not having money to live, or even more so deciding that we ‘want more’ because that’s what others are able to do. This is a collective way of realizing that everything that we have perpetuated thus far can be corrected by considering each other as Equals, and deciding to give each other the right to life at a system level, this will create a Utopia that we haven’t yet experienced, though it will take this individual realization of how through each one of us stopping the desire for More, the desire to Experience Power at an individual level, we can instead create the immovable certainty and guarantee of being supported within a system where everyone else is being also supported, a real sense of community and cooperation will emerge from this, a state unknown to humanity and yet to be lived which is something I am absolutely looking forward to enjoy.

Power in Equality is recognizing our ability to create a world that can certainly be best for all: what you want and desire you also give your neighbor to.

 

Let’s keep in mind thus this Collective and Individual responsibility within the use of this word ‘Power’ and remember to use it as your ability to Decide, Act and Live in accordance to what is best for you and Everyone Else Equally.

 

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257. A Piece of Heaven at the Expense of Life

Why do people turn to drugs? There is a definitive reason that cause all the dimensions that play a role  in our current Drug Culture as either cause/effect,  but a common thing is definitely the root and cause of WHY people turn to drugs. We all know the usual things, for example: to escape from oneself, to hide, to run away from the mind, to stop the abhorrent self-experience, to avoid taking responsibility for one’s life and relationships, self-loathing, etc. – but, have we asked why do we have these problems? One can say: family problems, relationship problems, issues with one’s ‘flawed self,’ physical issues, lack of self esteem, heritage, cultural trends, traditions, religions, survivalism in clans/ mafias/ brotherhoods, spiritual beliefs, shamanism, environmental contingencies, availability of narcotics due to associations/ alliances, legal drugs due to psychological conditions, and the list may go on – However, behind all of this one must see one common thing: human conditions that have lead to all of these problems/ issues/ separations and sectarianism that stems from a basic problem in our society: a lack of support for all living beings to have a dignified living that creates a proper environmental condition where All beings would be able to live without having to worry about not making it through the next day, not having to tolerate the injustice and abuse that is accepted and allowed within a system that only caters for some– that’s it. 

 

And that’s what we know in common sense and what can also be watched in all the various documentaries* about drugs that are affecting our societies wherein there is simply an absolute boredom, menial jobs for the working class – or no job opportunities at all – and a general dissociation from wanting to have anything to do with a ‘shitty world/ shitty system that doesn’t give a fuck about life!’ hence turning to have an alternate reality where ‘everything is fine, a heaven in one’s mind for a moment, a harmful  momentary high that turns into a lethal habit that leads to a living condition that is mostly deplorable in most of the cases, as well as leading to any other ‘sudden deaths’ out of the usual ODs and other negligence  that stems from lacking any form of precaution when ingesting/ inhaling/injecting/smoking a drug. It is even common to have people that do this on a regular basis become ‘icons’ in our society, our ‘role models’ which can already point out what type of ‘human quality’ we’ve become fanatics of.

 

It is also interesting how drug-culture became mainstream to a point now wherein one can watch a “music video” and there’s people smoking weed, one can watch a movie and get all the specifics on how people shoot themselves heroin and even all the withdrawal processes in a explicit manner, like in Trainspotting which is probably one of the most popular and obliged reference about drugs for many people that even learned how to do drugs through watching the movie.  I will tell more about that in following posts.

 

The reason why this is an important topic is because drugs as any other form of escapism, represents the aspect we hold on to the most, as it is a self-created intricate relationship we form with only Experience as an Energetic physical experience induced by chemicals in the physical body – the reason why I find it so important to expose is because it’s ubiquitous nowadays for people to be aware of all types of drugs and ways to get high or even self-harm to get a moment of absolute adrenaline –rush/drug of the mind . That’s becoming a children’s game  and I’m referring to what I became aware of today as the salt and ice challenge – I mean, this is how kids age 10 or even less can get used to having a way to get this absolute pain and fear that are the most ‘powerful’ self-experiences created at a mind level when inducing pain along with the ‘challenge’ aspect – where kids will mostly broadcast themselves doing so to ‘prove’ to others they are able to ‘handle it,’ and what mostly happens is kids then will turn to seek for more ‘intense experiences’ like that. Even our words and vocabulary is pointing out blatantly what it is that we are inducing within ourselves: that was Intense! all energy based, and if you’ve been reading these series, you would be aware by now of how energy operates within the physical body through consciousness as a system that we believe is ‘who we really are,’ which is comprised of all our thoughts, emotions and feelings that we whole-heartedly have believed is ‘what living is for’ and if not.

 

This Grave mistake of identifying ourselves with all the drama, excitement and high-intensity of any self-experience is what is mostly leading us to an actual death wherein we disregard actual life/living just for a ‘little piece of heaven.’

And this is what’s leading humanity to a certain end if a single pattern of addiction continues without any definitive decision to STOP.

 

Please read the series to catch up to this point:

220. Drug Culture: Mad Society as a Lifestyle

 

 

I had made a pause in these series due to the impending ‘doomsday’ that I decided to write about due to my inherent responsibility in having participated pretty much in that type of doom-mentality or gloomy-self-experience as we’ve called it – and what is left is pretty much ourselves, having to face what we have become and as such, take the wheel of our reality in all levels, in all ways and have a look at how we’ve become what we’ve become, which is also another form of escapism through the mind to evade the responsibility we all have here.

 

Drug Culture is quite a common topic virtually everywhere in the world, no matter if it’s a high-energy-hyped society like many places in Europe and America or a third world/ poor country in Africa, or under developed regions like South America – everyone’s got the same ‘epidemic’ which is drugs which includes alcoholism as main problems that maim  the ability for any being to realize and take self responsibility, because drugs imply one single point: a giving up experience that is now turned into an addiction, a need, a fascination and obsession wherein people are literally willing to give all their money, all their life just for one single initial ‘rush’ that any drug can give them. While observing this, it is impossible to not create a parallel to what we understand now of how the mind works, wherein we create our own fixations in order to fuel and satisfy this idea of ourselves that we’ve simply copied, absorbed and ‘become/ embodied’ without a question, and that includes addictive patterns of seeking this ‘greatness’ as an energetic experience that is able to be obtained with drugs, pretty much flushing your entire life down the toilette for a single self belief of you being ‘perfectly fine/ in control / able to quit any time and all of the people that have been severely enrolled in hardcore addictions mostly find it very hard if not impossible to actually live out that belief of being able to stop and quit at any time.

 

That is One single dimension of the addiction: the energetic experience that we are familiar with the moment we accept emotions and feelings as ‘who we are’ and what drugs do is an overall enhancement of this relationship within the ‘who we are’ as the mind, which implies that we are completely hooked on absolute self abuse, since any energetic experience  – as anything that requires energy – is not ‘for free,’ it is an actual process of consumption of the very physical tissue/ fabric that provides the necessary resources for any drug to function properly – this is why the deterioration of the physical takes place in drug addicts/ consumers – among other various dimensions that involve the living conditions that hard-core long-time addicts end up living in or are born in, which is also another aspect that leads to drugs – all in all: stems from lacking actual living support in all ways to live in a sound and healthy environment where life could be actually honored = hence it is a matter of Collective Responsibility, since we are all responsible for continuing fueling a system that is not providing a sound environment for us to develop our expression to our utmost potential.

 

The purpose of these blogs will be to point out main factors that lead to drug consumption, the reasons behind that and how to support oneself to Prevent drug-addictions, referencing the usual ways in which one picks up this belief of drugs being the ‘greatest thing ever’ as well as gathering enough strength to realize there IS a solution to this world, there IS a way to support ourselves to stop seeking to ESCape from reality and instead, sober up and stand up to support the actual change we all dreamed of, it’s in our hands, so we must clean our act before we can establish ourselves in the actual world we have all wanted to live in, and within this, also paving the way for the children to come and ensure they do have the absolute opportunities  to Live and express themselves, and never again resort to any form of escapism through the mind to manifest a self-abusive ‘heaven’ in the mind.

 

Erroneously – those that Profess to be ‘Souls’, will Claim that the Body of Flesh is a temporary Illusion. And they would base it on the Experience they Generate through Mind Systems, which Follows the Design of the System where: the Search for Meaning and Reason, would Follow through the Combination of Predesigned Platonic Solids as Key Parts to Systems that produce Energy and Visual Input which the Person Align with, So Intensely that they Believe that it is Real, and they Disregard the Simple Reality of a Breath and Food and Bodily Functions that Keeps them Alive.
In this, these ‘Souls’ End-up Acting like Vampires in the Physical Reality, Seeking to Consume everything in their Path for the Self-Interest of the ‘Feeling’ that Produce, according to them, the ‘Experience of Happiness’. The fact that this ‘Happiness’ is Produced at the Cost of the Suffering of Uncountable Living Beings – Simply is Ignored or Seen as ‘Collateral Damage’ of an Illusion that will ‘Suddenly, Magically’ Disappear.”  – Bernard Poolman +

 

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234. Feeling Weak Today?

Are Feel-Ill-ings Self Manipulation?

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Where have we gotten this idea of ‘having to project strength and security’ in the first place as a means to ‘be presentable’ in this world? It’s the same point as: who taught us to feel good about ‘doing good’ things? It is certainly through the indoctrination received from generation to generation through parents as we get ‘suited’ and ‘loaded’ to face the war zone that our reality as the world system has become. Presenting ourselves thus as the best suited in physical appearance, mental skills, social traits, virtues and any other charismatic trait assures you – or may I say ‘assured you’ – a place in the system that would regard you as special and unique for representing the ‘Ideal Persona’ that everyone wanted to be.

I got to live this from a certain perspective and I will walk this by all means to not obviously puff up my own ego-preprogrammed self-image, but to absolutely debunk it within the consideration of how the opposite of what I had to play was always a point of discomfort within me, which is not usually considered when the majority is the one ‘not getting anything right’ and there’s only a minority that ‘do everything right’ – but all of this right and wrong obviously based only within the context of this system that was settled to only function this way: only a few will obtain the grace of god as all the best positions in the world system, while the majority have to strive for that. This does not mean though that I actually ‘made it,’ I simply got to try out and live out what would be placed as an example for others, which became more than unsustainable, worrying, tiresome and obnoxious to say the least. This was also part of the character, which is why I lead myself to ‘spite the world’ which was only spiting myself, ending up eventually not following through any of the expectations that I had lead myself within, which is just as it should be, as all the past expectations were based within my past-mind set of Who I Believed Myself to Be = Not actually real, but only a literally frothed idea of myself that I knew was fake all along, but felt ‘nice’ to play it for a while – due to all the benefits and the props you get, blatantly saying ‘Ok I’ll take the heat for a while, it’s cool, I like it’ and neglecting reality for all the abuse that stems from accepting a single idea of ‘superiority’ in this world, no matter where, how or why.

 

This is how debunking oneself implies looking at the personality creation model based on this ‘strength’ point that I began discussing in my last post and then follow through to what I can see, became my own ‘survival of the fittest’ and how from that single stand point, anything and anyone becomes a point to guard/ oppose, support/ antagonize, want/ fear losing and as such, continue the same inner-conflict and battles to keep us having ‘inner conflicts’ about ‘who we are’ and so on, when everything that we already are is here as physical beings – lol, how could be so conflictive about ‘the who I am’ question if we are already HERE. ‘Who’ Is a being – any other configuration would only reinstall the same past-characters configured within and as the same system of abuse. Do we want to ‘stick to our guns’ then? No thank you, I am not willing to participate in anything that recreates a system of separation, differentiation through the imposition of fake values that are meant to sell life, not live it and honor it in Equality.

 

Here I go with the first part on ‘strength’

 

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements:

 

  • Memory that pops up:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create this idea of strength from the moment that I had to leave my parents in kindergarten the first day of school, and I saw all children crying and I simply ‘played the strong one’ as ‘the only one that didn’t cry’ and in this, marking what I would become throughout my school years: standing ‘above’ in my mind from the rest while at the same time, suppressing all the fears and anxiety experienced because of having to ‘stick to my guns’ of presenting such strength and self stability no matter what, hiding from others the turmoil experienced within me throughout my first school years, due to having to be sustaining/ maintaining this idea of self as ‘strong’ and ‘superior’ which I realize was only an energetic self-experience of Strength based on the survival of the fittest acquired mechanisms in the school system, learning to be ‘on top’ all the time but at the same ending up fearing losing such privileged position.

When and as I see myself fearing exposing a lack of ‘strength’ as this idea that I created of myself – I stop and I breathe – I realize that all the strength that I am is a self-movement that is not energy based or self-idea as the ego-past personality that I’ve been, but a single consideration that I have the necessary nutrients and money to survive, to keep my physical body ‘alive’ and that this is my actual strength as all the power that we have exists in every single breath – thus

 

  • Fear:

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to develop this belief and self idea of strength stemming from actual fear of being abused or violated in any way which implies that all strength lived as a concept of ‘who I am’ was based on fear and as a safety/ protection mechanism as an energetic experience of superiority, never considering who I am as a physical being that does not require to ‘think strong’ in order to move and direct myself in every breath and regard this ability to do it as the actual physical strength that exists equally in all.

When and as I see myself believing and thinking that I lack strength/ I am not that strong today/ I feel weak/ someone stronger than me can do it – I stop and I breathe and realize my ability to move as that single breath in the physical which is where strength exists

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of strength a concept as a self-experience of being invincible and acting as an ‘I can do it all’ character in my mind,  that in no way considers the actual reality and physicality that I am, but only an idea of myself that represented a point of perceived superiority when compared to others, and within this believing that stepping down from such self-created belief of who I am as ‘strength’ would actually mean or imply a weakness, playing the same polarity that I learned to obey without any further questions and simply keeping this ‘ideal’ in my mind but never equated it to physical reality.

I realize that I would also go into ‘feeling bad’ for those that had it tough throughout school, but not doing anything either to question why only some people could be ‘on top’ and the majority was ‘below’ the high-ranks of what a ‘good student’ should be, which is a point that I linked to strength, separating myself from strength as my physicality as every breath.

When and as I see myself believing that stopping playing ‘strong’ means a ‘weakness’ and actually playing out the ‘weakness’ as who I am  – I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is just me complying to my self created beliefs and personalities going from positive to negative and back again, without realizing that who I really am is not defined by being strong or superior, nor weak or inferior – but physically here as everyone else wherein all our power and strength is able to be lived in every moment of breath – thus I stick to my commitment of living physically here as the strength that allows me to move, communicate, live and essentially Be a living being.

 

    • Self Belief:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that I could be ‘strong’ for certain activities/ duties but ‘weak’ for others, and in this, always defining myself ‘liking’ to do what I perceived myself to be strong for, while evading and avoiding anything else that I believed myself to be incapable of living out – due to my own limitations – wherein I realize that I was the only one that followed my own protocol of what I was supposed to do and contain myself within such bubble of being ‘good’ and ‘strong’ for some activities and be ‘weak’/ not good enough for others.

 

I realize that we have all contributed to this separation of ourselves as the physical within definitions of pros and cons, believing that we would Never be able to be a sound-being because that was always portrayed as something ‘beyond’ our capability. Which is How I came to react to words like perfectionism or being extremely effective, wherein I separated myself from such words believing that they were too elusive for me to ever be able to embody.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to even within the idea/ belief of ‘strength’ placed on apparent intellectual abilities, I feared losing such strength and defined myself by lacking strength in other areas in my life, which proves that no matter ‘how’ I perceived myself to be within one area of my life as ‘the best,’ I continued with the ‘inherent flawed’ inner conflict within other aspects of myself such as lacking physical strength or lacking abilities to relate myself to many people –as I thought I had to do – or the perfect image presentation that I pursued in my mind for the purpose of satisfying the relationship stereotype that I believed I wanted – and all of this, creating a massive inner conflict that lead me nowhere but believing that the was actually ‘something wrong’ with me, which is what we have all blatantly accepted and allowed of ourselves as ‘who we are’ without a question.

 

I realize that this is unacceptable since every single self-acceptance of self-diminishment as being ‘weak’ or ‘inferior’ or ‘not good enough’ is recreating and reinstalling the same patterns of self abuse that we have collectively supported as ‘who we are’ within this world system where life has never been considered equal, but only diminished ourselves to these limited ‘models’ that could be sold according to some traits and skills that can be useful for further profiting schemes – therefore, there has never been an actual role model promoted in our society that considers life in equality which is why we are here as Destonians to be and become the example of what it is to equalize ourselves as physical beings, stopping all delusions of lack as experiences in the mind and focus on solving the physical problems in reality of actual Lack which is for example, lacking food to eat, lacking water to drink and have proper hygiene, lacking vocabulary and basic skills to live, lacking parental support, lacking compassion for others to place ourselves in the shoes of those that actually Lack money simply to make it in this world, that lack a place to live and as such, their weakness is real as thin bodies that lack nutrients to survive – that is real weakness that exists as a result of our mind-delusions seeking ‘strength’ as ‘power’ and ‘superiority’ while missing out the physicality and reality of what is here wherein we are simply not regarding each other as equals – and that in itself, is already showing to what extent any possible ‘positive trait’ can only be founded upon abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project an idea of strength as a way to perpetuate what I believe I must ‘hold on to’ as an idea of myself within this system, wherein I had played the role of the ‘role model’ in certain aspects which became unsustainable and a point of inner conflict because of realizing that it was only based upon fake values within a system that was only imposed and followed and bought– therefore, actually not being able to ‘follow through’ with the lie of myself as such character – which is how everything has to ‘fall down’ and just like the tower that must be debunked – all must go before the new can emerge – thus I realize that I cannot hold on to any single ‘trait’ that I had as an Idea of myself that was not yet integrated as the physicality as who I am.

This does not mean now denying or opposing or avoiding ‘strength’ or anything like that, this only means aligning myself to a physical consideration of strength that is not an Effort – and this I worked actually in my Desteni I Process and remember very well how I had written the word ‘effort’ and my buddy said to change the effort word for Physical ability as the movement required to move things/ direct things in a specific direction/ outcome.

We can see how it is an ability that is ‘available’ for all as part of our self-movement – it is not then based on energy, which means, it cannot exist as an Idea of myself based on past experiences such as ‘keeping up to my ground’ and being ‘courageous’ but mostly out of fear – thus

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold backchat such as ‘I can do it, I can do it all’ placing an overload within myself to believe that I could ‘take it all’ and come out ‘victorious’ as I had always done throughout my life, wherein no matter what I would always ‘make it,’ which is something that I took for granted and actually became detrimental to understand what real effort is and implies, specifically once that you are no longer in a ranking system such as school where you can be praised for having some preprogrammed wits, but when it comes to physical reality none of that is of actual substance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project strength as something ‘superior’ than myself and as such ‘live up to it’ through utilizing energy as self-talk and self-definitions instead of regarding the physicality of myself as that constant and continuous realization of strength as who I am.

 

When and as I see myself talking to myself believing that ‘I can do it all’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is a self-positive-talk based on past patterns wherein I would always be able to ‘make it’ – or at least that’s the belief that I guarded as myself – and instead realize that there is no such platform for me to always ‘have it easy’ and as such, real effort, real self direction is required. And this is where any Idea of myself as ‘strong’ must be debunked in order to establish a real physical consideration of strength as breath, here, physically.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to hold backchat such as ‘I am not strong enough to go through that’ or ‘I don’t feel strong today/ I feel weak’ wherein I am accepting and allowing energy to direct me instead of me realizing that all strength is existent here as breath as the physical.

 

When and as I see myself self-talking myself about being ‘weak’ or not being ‘strong enough today,’ I stop and I breathe – I stand up and physically ground myself to realize that all ideas of ‘weakness’ are only energetic leeches I’ve fed in my own mind and as such, ground myself as the physical breathing and understanding such breath as my actual strength in every moment.

 

  • Reaction:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in discomfort and general haziness whenever I am not fully here as the physical strength of breath and as such, reacting within ‘giving up’ modes which can only exist due to having the time and ability to ‘give up’ because I am not in a survival mode – which implies one thing: Giving up is only an elitist act of self indulgence wherein I realize that people working 18 hours a day give up committing suicide due to lacking actual strength to keep going due to being malnourished and lacking any actual self-motivation to live, as how can that be a ‘life’ when living as a slave –

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in ‘weakness’ and ‘powerlessness’ while taking for granted everything that I have as an actual platform for me to move and be consistent her as breath, as the physical strength that I really am.

 

When and as I see myself reacting in ‘powerlessness’ and ‘hopelessness’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that in this experience I am only fueling energy as the result of the friction and conflict in my mind. Thus I direct myself to Stop all self diminishing within the understanding that I am only propitiating a continuation of an inner cycle in my mind as an energetic experience of ups and downs, which is not acceptable.

I commit myself to realize and bring myself back to Earth to be aware of the opportunity I have, the time available, the physical integrity that I exist as in order to move myself to my fullest potential that is nothing elusive or separate from me, but a point I commit myself to realize and integrate as a constant living realization of who I really am in the physical.

 

 

  • Physical Dimension:
    • Positive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘play strong’ as in walking with more tension in my physical body in a self-conscious manner projected toward others as a sense of superiority/ strength, which proves that while being alone I don’t require to play these characters but it only exists as a personality created toward ‘others’ as general people in my environment when stepping into the world  – so to speak.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use words that I have defined as strength, as a way to ‘keep my stance’ which comes through as a sense of imposition or intolerance – this means that whenever I am not fully clear as myself when writing, I project this idea of strength through energy instead of directing myself in common sense.

 

When and as I see myself ‘playing strong’ around others through standing very straight But with a tension in my body – not breathing properly but being self-conscious in the mind toward others – I stop and I breathe – I allow myself to go back to that fluidity and comfort that I realize I am able to exist as whenever I am physically here moving and walking, which is what actually being here is about – any tension experienced, I flag point it, look at my thinking, what did I see, what came up from ‘nowhere’ in the mind, what did I hear, what did I remember –  as these are all basic points that can lead me to change my stance and physical beingness here in one moment – thus

I commit myself to be breathing and fully aware of the least physical change as a slight tension wherein I play out the ‘strength’ character out of fearing facing something-someone – and as such, take responsibility for it through writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application.

 

When and as I see myself wanting to write something that sounds ‘strong’ in order to impose a sense of authority through energy as I write it, I stop and I breathe – this is where I have to give myself a moment to not rush into this protection mechanism of portraying ‘strength’ through words, but instead, allow myself to asses the situation and come back to it after a few breaths or moving around to see the point for what It is and give it direction while being stable- here as breath. This is to ensure that all that I speak is actually physically here and not just a quick mechanism to protect myself or others from what I perceive as an attack to which I have to ‘defend myself’ from.

 

I realize that I can only play the game of wanting to ‘defend’ myself if I regard my own self as something that can be ‘abused’ or ‘violated’ or ‘brought down’ by words that others may express toward myself or others. Thus I commit myself to realize the words strength as the ability to move and be directive as who I am and exist as in physicality, not a concept.

 

I also realize that there is no real ‘positive physical experience’ as it is stemming from blatant fear to present this sense of superiority and ‘togetherness’ in physical presentation.

 

    • negative

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slouch and have eyes all droopy-down whenever I feel weak and get to a point of even creating an experience of actual muscular weakness sensation wherein I simply don’t want to move because of believing that ‘I am not strong enough today,’ without realizing the level of abuse and self manipulation that exists within this, only to victimize ourselves to not be readily here every moment in a sound state that is always here whenever we stick to physicality.

 

When and as I see myself experiencing any form of energetic ‘weakness’ as a perceived ‘lack of strength’ – I stop and I breathe – I bring myself to the actual living strength of myself here as breath, as the physical and move. Breathe out the experience until I am aware that my eyes are no longer ‘down/ droopy’ and I am not deliberately slouching as a way to send a signal ‘I feel like shit today’ which is not acceptable as that is an indication of clear mind possession.

 

I commit myself to stop all mind possessions the moment that I start experiencing a ‘weakness’ energetic experience, which usually leads to a ‘giving up’ in the moment. I assist and support myself to stick to physicality and breath as the actual power and strength I really am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out this ‘ideal’ of strength based on knowledge and information linked to ‘intelligence’ within what is currently understood as intelligence, responsibility and ‘courage’ which was all stemming from being defense mechanisms and preprogrammed traits that I believed was in fact ‘who I am,’ without realizing that any self definition existent as knowledge and information at a mind level are not sustainable/ are not real as the physical thus

I commit myself to live the definition of strength as the physical ability to move and direct myself to a defined direction/ outcome/ to do that which I propose myself to do and be here as breath as the only and actual ‘fuel’ that I require to continue and do it.

 

I realize that the ‘roots’ that I had as ‘strength’ were not real, since they were based upon a self-belief of ‘who I am’ within the world-system as the values I perceived myself to be/ have which in no way stood in alignment to the physicality of who I really am as equal as everyone, as the actual strength that is an ability and capability within all equally.

 

I realize that any belief of ‘lacking strength’/ not being strong enough is actually self-manipulation to not actually just ‘do it’ and step out of the inner turmoil of mind-fixes as energetic experiences that in no way mean an actual self-realization of the physicality that is constantly here as breath, as the real power that we all are and exist as.

 

Directing such strength as a diligent self movement is the commitment, so that no ‘wavering’ occur and if it does occur, I immediately investigate it without leaving further ‘space’ to ‘try and find it out later’ – as that is what only keeps a point of suppression leading to further consequences in the mind and in my physical reality as in ‘not moving’ effectively.

 

 

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177. Imagining Positive Outcomes as Conditions to Move

Imagination Reactions – Procrastination Character
Positive Imagination

Within this, the imagination of a ‘better thing to do’ such as simply going out for a walk and imagining the entire play out of having a ‘cool time’ within it forms part of the immediate thought and imagination that covers-up the points I reviewed in the last blog in relation to the negative imagination.

The other future projection is exactly the opposite of what I have imagined/ pictured myself in within the point of confrontation with the ‘jury’ and instead of having them bashing my work, praising and ‘loving it’ which is how I then also create this laxity and sensation within me of relief, or even expectation as an experience wherein all of this is happening in my mind with no actual physical ‘input’ so to speak to actually simply get this done and stopping future-projections that only serve my own mind-interest instead of giving myself direction in the physical.

As I had explained as well, walking as the ‘sacred time of the day’ within my routine, as that untouchable aspect that I have defined as a ‘must do no matter what’ and how I can implement this same drive toward any other point/ activity in my reality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with excitement to going out for a walk due to how I have defined this experience of walking outside as a positive thing to do within my day, yet it has been used to also distract myself to get to the positive point in my day and avoid looking at the rest of the points that also require my attention and equal-input to get them done thus

When and as I see myself reacting with enthusiasm and excitement and be just ‘ready’ to go out for a walk, I stop and I breathe – I realize and make sure that I am not using this as an excuse to leave what I have to do ‘for later’ and excusing myself with further self-talk of why I should go outside – thus

I commit myself to make the decision to go outside based on how I have covered my basic priorities during the day or not – as I realize that it is within this excitement and expectation of going outside that I suddenly ‘let everything go’ and justify it with ‘giving myself some time’ but from the perspective of actually pushing aside/ covering up the initial negative experience that I am in fact trying to ‘make alright’ through the positive experience of going out for a walk, which is not acceptable.

I commit myself to expand and express myself as ‘steadfastness’ toward every activity that I commit myself to do, as this is what I see and realize assists and support me to not allow myself to go into thoughts, pictures, imagination about ‘doing something’ but simply giving myself direction in a physical manner, not allowing myself to have ‘second thoughts’ about things.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine myself within a situation of facing/ confronting and exposing my written document to more people and them reacting with amazement and delight about what I have to say, creating a positive experience within me in that moment of being imagining this such as a warm sensation in my stomach and creating this upliftment within me that I am only making up in my mind and experienced at a physical level, without seeing and realizing that I am in fact NOT doing anything physically but only up there entertaining myself in my mind with positive outcomes and expectations that have no foundation in any way whatsoever but mere desires and delusions of grandeur – thus

 

When and as I see myself imagining myself in this future projection moment of presenting my work to more people, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this positive experience is a cover up for the fear of having the exact opposite happening in reality within the same situation as a negative experience – thus I realize that in order to DO something, I don’t require to future project, I don’t require to have either a positive or a negative experience, it is only about myself being congruent with my doings and commitments that I am pressing here and stop all mind-entertainment that serves no other purpose but making it ‘alright’ within my mind to simply not do things and believing that ‘somehow’ it will all turn out just fine, which is the laxity that must be stopped in order to get to the physical points that must be done.

I commit myself to stop imagining pictures, moments with more people ‘praising my work’ and within this reacting with a positive experience of upliftment, grandeur, importance that is only founded upon my mind, my secret desires to ‘win’ no matter what and be ‘recognized’  – I realize that within these seemingly ‘innocent’ participation in the mind, I am in fact abdicating the self responsibility toward actual physical DOING and instead, I am getting a physical high of thoughts in my head, which proves to what extent I have allowed myself to use my physical body as a self-projector of ‘good experiences’ while leaving the actual DOING for ‘another time,’ which implies that imagination as a positive experience is also another way to procrastinate and delude ourselves into a positive outcome without any real foundation of it as a physical-doing.

I realize that indulging in imagination is also a way to suit my needs and ‘soothe my fears’ like covering them up with something ‘better to think,’ instead of realizing that this is not about a Thinking process but a Doing that does not require me to project a future certain outcome that I can create a point of ‘satisfaction’ about, without physically first doing it.

This reveals how I have tended to only ‘move’ myself based on having a certainty of ending up ‘winning’ having the result that ‘I expect/ that I want’ and when this is not  in place, I do not do it because of actually being fearing the ‘negative outcome’ within all of this, which is how I comfort myself with ‘positive outcomes’ without realizing how either/or positive or negative are equally abusive in fact.

 

Thus, equalizing myself to the physical dimension of reality implies: I do not require to have ‘certainty’ created in my mind toward doing something, I simply require to just do it.

I realize that I do not require to have a positive input or drive to do things through imagining a ‘reward’ of sorts for doing it, that would be conditioning myself to only move according to there being ‘something in it for me.’

I realize that If I am here to stand for an equal and one self-movement as the physical, there has to be no energetic drive existent within me to ‘feel like doing something’ – I instead, take a deep breath, recognize that breath as the physical living-force is all I really require to get things done.

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145. Possessed by my Possessions

Continuing from 144. Obsessive and Possessive Patterns: My belongings 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to picture ‘my suitcase’ filled with al ‘my belongings’ getting lost and going into fear, wherein the most prominent thought is ‘I will have to buy everything again’ which is that one point defines an actual fact of ‘losing something’ according to losing money through losing the stuff that I’ve bought with money.

When and as I see myself fearing losing money as ‘losing my belongings,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that yes I may have to get things again if something gets lost and is indispensable to live, however it is not create an entire point of possession when losing something. I can instead realize how it doesn’t matter if I ‘lose it all,’as it is to realize that I never in fact ‘owned’ anything as who I am in fact cannot be lost.

I realized that everything that I have believed myself to be in relation to ‘my belongings’ and calling stuff ‘my belongings’ is part of the personal brainwash wherein through money we’ve acquired things that we have defined as ‘our property’ – even sometimes becoming possessed by them – instead of realizing that in equality and oneness as everything that is here, there can exist no ‘real ownership’ in any way whatsoever. How can there be if we cannot even be aware of ourselves as our own physical body and actually BE in it/ as it, we only use it as a way to continue creating ideas beliefs and perceptions of who we are as our thoughts, as our belongings, as ‘that which we own,’ which is the thinking-pattern that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become when accepting the ‘who I am’ in relation to money in a world where life and everything that is of the Earth has been given a numerical value as a ‘price’ that defines the amount of money that we require to have to ‘own it’ because we haven’t simply decided to create a system wherein we can give to each other that which we require to live unconditionally. It is really a matter of deciding to do so.

I commit myself to at all times realize how it is only through the premise and existence of money-consciousness as ‘value’ over life that I can perceive a sense of ‘loss’ and ‘lack’ toward something/ someone in my reality. Thus it is to realize how I can in fact walk this process to equalize myself as my mind, my physical body and the thoughts that I use to define ‘who I am’ to ensure that I no longer ‘think’ of something as a point of property or ownership, but instead realize that it belongs to HERE and is available  for everyone – it is in fact ourselves that must ensure we create a physical system to support all beings Equally, just the way proposed in the Equal Money System which begins at a thought level of how we relate ourselves to the physical reality, ensuring that we do not view ‘who we are’ according to the amount of money we have/ don’t have and the stuff that we buy with it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge someone as ‘careless’ because of presenting little to no attachment to things as ‘belongings.’ I see and realize that worrying and being concerned about ‘losing stuff’ is a point that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as/ be brainwashed with in a continual ‘fear of loss’ in relation to  ‘who I am’ when it comes to ‘my belongings’ as a point of constant possession, instead of realizing that I can in fact use what is here, what I currently have at my disposition to support myself to live, but at all times realizing that I cannot possibly ‘own’ it, as property is in fact a delusion backed by our current capitalist system as our ‘thought-making doctrine’ that we believe is ‘who we are,’ wherein we have given value to everything and everyone in separation of ourselves as one and equal as Life.

When and as I see myself judging someone as ‘careless’ for not ‘caring’ about ‘losing stuff, I stop and I breathe – I realize that I was taught to always ‘be careful with my money/ save it/ keep it/ not squander it’ which became a constant fear-reminder to see money as something ‘superior’ to me, wherein the loss of it would mean ‘being scolded for losing money/ wasting money’ without realizing that money in fact is just paper and coins that we have elevated to a godly status, missing out the entire reality of who we really are as life, as everything that is here that is actually being depleted/ lost because of us using and existing within/as a monetary system that functions according to the utmost exploitation of the Earth’s resources to build our happy-go-lucky lives of buying, consuming, repeating  until we are ‘satisfied’ about having ‘all the money we can’ and equate that to being ‘happy successful’ and ‘satisfied’ – thus

I commit myself to realize at all times that creating an experience upon ‘losing’ something is an actual product of my own brainwashing in relation to the value of money as the thing that ‘I buy my belongings with,’ which I have judged as a ‘separate point’ and in fact, perceived as ‘my happiness/ my satisfaction’ in separation of myself.

I realize that in my mind to disguise the actual ‘specialness’ I had created toward money, I gave ‘more value’ to the actual ‘things’ as belongings, which reveals how it is that we can deceive ourselves to separate money as the bills and coins from the actual ‘stuff’ that we bought with money as ‘belongings,’ as if money in itself was just a  ‘nasty powerful thing’ yet when transformed into an ability to possess/ own something, it suddenly becomes ‘alright’ because we’ve made it ‘alright’ to believe we can in fact own something. This is creating yet another value-system upon things besides the original delusion as money-consciousness having any real value in itself upon life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge myself for ‘not caring about what I have’ wherein I was then taught to ‘actually care’ because ‘money had been spent on me/ the things I own and use,’ which then became my way of thinking as the acquired conception of money as something that I had to regard as ‘separate’ and ‘special’ within the confines of my mind and the value imprinted onto things I own, used, the food I ate, the clothes I wore, the materials I worked with, making of money this ‘one thing’ that I would create a separate bubble of concern for and utmost care due to how I believed that money was in fact something ‘important’ to take care of, without ever asking how this money came to be, why it is that money is being used to abuse each other/ the Earth and the animal kingdom or how it is that money can exist as debt.

When and as I see myself believing that ‘I must care about money’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that money is currently the key to keep supporting ourselves to live and how it is that we must work currently in order to live – however, it is not to dismiss the fact that it is only a means to get the points we require to live and that in no way can we continue regarding it as a separate superior point to ourselves, as that would be then the point of abuse that we ‘hold on to’ and as such, tampering our ability to equalize ourselves as life.

I commit myself to care about money within the consideration of it being a tool to survive at the moment – however I also commit myself to walk the process of redefining money as a tool to administrate the Earth’s resources and make them available to all beings equally as it always should have been.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not realize how I have used money as a way to lie and deceive myself and others to believe that because I have money, I have the right to ‘own’ something because ‘I bought it with MY money,’ which is no different to believing in a god/holy spirit/superior force endowing me with this magnificent ‘power’ to ‘own’ something/ someone – thus

When and as I see myself believing that I can in fact ‘own’ something – I stop and I breathe – I remind myself of the joke that the holy-spirit and god endowing powers imply as an equivalent to the belief of me being able to ‘own something,’ as this is a quick an effective way to debunk any special regard I had kept toward money as an actual ‘power’ to ‘get what I want,’ which is then a point wherein I can instead, check my point of self interest/ self definition instead of holding something as ‘important’ in my mind without any awareness of what it is that I am in fact being possessed by in a single moment, which in such events, it is only being possessed by the holy-money-consciousness concept of money that is used to abuse life in a self-righteous mode.

I commit myself to redefine money as a current practical tool that I use in order to be able to support myself to survive and direct it to continue supporting myself/others to actually step out of our delusional money-trap as an enslavement system and in fact, destine money to implement the ultimate solution that will Ensure Life is Equalized at last in all ways, wherein money then will have no ‘meaning’ other than a counting tool to administrate the Earth’s resources in a way that is best for all life.

I realize that it is through me stopping and correcting the relationship I have held toward money that I begin the actual living of Equal-money as myself, wherein I no longer hold any ‘special value’ upon everything that is Here as Life, as I can then realize myself as being one and equal to it all as well.

 

This places things into perspective and realize how we have defined ‘our belongings/ possessions’ as things we have acquired with money that exists in a monetary system wherein Life is not considered at all.

Thus it is to realize who we are toward money as a thought in our minds that exists as the premise and accepted ‘value over life,’ which is unacceptable. Thus, what we have to redefine is our relationship toward money, our relationship toward ourselves as the thoughts that have accepted and allowed ourselves to exist within/ as a system of ‘values’ in separation of life.
I realize that everything that we have become as our current monetary system began with a thought, a thinking pattern of wanting to ‘own’ something, have ‘power’ over others, wanting to earn, have, use and even abuse for our own benefit and satisfaction as a delusion of possibly being able to be ‘more’ than who and what we already are.

 

The question here to ask ourselves is: have we ever then lived according to the physical realization of equality as life? No, we haven’t. Hence the Equal Money System exists as the realization and practical implementation of life as the one and only value on Earth, using Money as a simple tool that will allow us to learn how to live as equals, how to give to each other what we want for ourselves and as such, stop living in fear of loss, stop living being possessed by our possessions. I realize that who I am cannot be reduced to having/owning something, as this is in fact the ‘flawed’ association to equalize: we cannot own something, we can only use it to support ourselves to live. I realize that to be and become possessed by ‘wealth’/ money is the same as being possessed by a holy spirit believing ourselves to be ‘powerful’ in fact. We are not, we have only abused life through our current conception of money – thus it is time to stop.

I commit myself to stop brainwashing children about money being ‘the point of power to save’ as this is in fact the actual thought accepted and allowed as ‘real’ that determined my entire relationship toward money as something ‘superior’ to myself, something that I had to regard as ‘important,’ within the belief that it is what would allow me to OWN things – so is this the power of the NOW?

 

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71. Knowledge is $ Power

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the fact that money is just like knowledge that is not readily available for everyone and that is the very cause of social inequality as education can only be obtained if there is Money –  if there is no Money = no education which means that no knowledge = No Power in our current world-system configuration.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the fact that knowledge as ‘value’ in itself contributes to the existence and generational perpetuation of wealth and starvation as once you are born in a ‘golden crib’ = you are prone to remain in such a position for the rest of your life and your children – while when being born into a precarious situation of no money/ absolute starvation, poverty or ‘modern day enslavement’ = you are prone and most like to remain in such a position for the rest of your life, both due to the ability/ inability to get proper education in order to have the means/ tools to survive in this world as ‘knowledge’ that is an asset that one becomes in order to sell ourselves within the system as ‘knowledge and information that creates profit’ for some others that are able to pay for our services/ employ us.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use Intellect as knowledge and information in order to differentiate myself from other human beings as being ‘well educated’ in comparison to being ‘not educated’ implying the essential difference that creates a rift in a being’s life as education/ knowledge becomes an asset itself in order to get a job/ make a living, wherein through denying education to all beings Equally, we are agreeing to have 2/3 of the population bound to menial/ odd jobs or absolute poverty/ starvation mode due to them not having been given unconditional support as Education in order to have Equal Choices in Life, the same way that anyone with enough money has in this world – within this

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that these so called  ‘Choices’ are also arranged, schemed and obviously dependent on the current same system of abuse wherein no matter which ‘choice’  of career/ profession we take, they are all equally bound to one single point: supporting the same polarized system of money that does not regard LIFE as an Equal  and one Value as who we are, but rather considers Money as the ‘real value’ over life which is used as a means to control people’s lives and their futures to either live or die according to the ability to survive in the system.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Not realize that by selling Education and making of Education an asset in itself, we are diminishing the probabilities of an equal world due to money not being given to all beings equally and unconditionally – nor is Education absolutely Free and of the utmost quality to prepare a being to Live, but is only a training and indoctrination in order to continue and perpetuate the same system wherein money is the one ‘power’ that is sought for, placing aside any attempt and encouragement to the betterment of all beings equally, which implies that Education in itself is elitism = it is only ‘power’ for some that have the money to begin with to obtain such same training to perpetuate that same money that they have, with no consideration of first giving equal-education to those that have No Access to it, as that would mean that there would be ‘less chances’ of ‘making it’ in this world due to how we have limited ourselves to only aspire to the get to the top of the hierarchical system wherein only a few can reside in, which makes of Education a simple straining training ground of teaching beings survival-tactics, competition and the idea that life is a struggle and must be strived for, which is teaching beings to ‘do everything they can’ to get money/ survive in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make of knowledge and information an asset in itself wherein the more a person ‘knows’ = the more they are regarded as ‘valuable’ within this system, while neglecting that knowledge in itself has Never been placed at the service of life, to promote actual common sense in practical ways wherein a real new Human Being could emerge through proper education based on a living principle of Life in Equality – but instead, knowledge has served its own creator/ god as money and the world-system that we live in today, which implies that Knowledge is Useless to create a world that is best for all due to how it is currently being valued and equated as Money in itself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘worth’ myself according to the knowledge and information that I have and that I use in order to ‘speak about the system’ without realizing that within the intellectualization of the problems of the world, we are in fact simply perpetuating the same system of abuse due to the purpose and starting point of knowledge in this world as power in itself. This implies that the more that I praise knowledge as ‘truth’ and ‘the way’ to create solution sin this world, the more ‘Money’ as the current world system is being promoted, because of and due to how knowledge is being used as an asset in itself within individuals and the world system as ‘Education’ which is an added value to beings themselves.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that intellect is a product of capitalism itself, as the value placed over words as ‘more than life’ due to the service that knowledge renders to perpetuate a belief-system of value over life, as the current capitalist system demonstrates. Therefore I see that I have accepted my own brainwash as the rationalization of real problems in the world as some form of ‘supreme knowledge’ that only ‘specialists’ can talk about, without realizing that such ‘specialists’ have never before and not yet created and proposed an overall system reform that can create and establish laws and principles of Life in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that every moment that I am able to philosophize and intellectualize reality through words learned in school within a system that entertains people earning good money by theorizing about reality, I am in fact spiting the actual reality where 2/3 of the world suffer while I can pretend to ‘ find solutions’ that involve using the same Money that has caused the condition of suffering, poverty and abuse of life, which means that there is no way that a single theory can change the world and the lives of actual living beings unless such intellect is used to establish the logistics to create a new monetary system that is able to provide life’s resources for all living beings in Equality as Life.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that theorizing solutions and never placing them into practical living application is proof that no philosophy, political or sociological study have created a radical change in reality, because all are still trying to find ‘options’ to capitalism while using ‘alternatives’ that in no way consider Life in Equality and the need for a complete system overhaul, which implies that no knowledge and sophism will do the actual education to realize how we have accepted Money as a single word that seems unchangeable without realizing the make-believe system of social convention it actually is.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that making money out of intellectualizing the problems of the world is capitalist spitefulness wherein the actual solutions are absolutely neglected and deliberately ignored in order to continue and perpetuate an elitist system wherein only a few can ‘ponder’ solutions for the world while the reality of having no money as no access to life is growing in an ever so frightening manner, which should leave things clear by now on how MONEY is the actual motivation to ‘seek solutions’ with no conclusive results, because that would mean that many professions would no longer be required and people fear losing their current position if an actual solution was established, which once again reveals that intellectualism is very well paid to ever consider proposing a new economic system based on Life in Equality, without realizing that Equality does not mean poverty and only getting a limited ration of resources to live, which is part of the mind control established as the word ‘Equality’ without having any context how such Equality is who we are as LIFE itself.

 

I commit myself to educate myself about reality, the inner workings of the system to realize how I have separated myself from the solution to the problems in the world through knowledge and information instead of practically being the change that I see is required, beginning with stopping all forms of desire for power and greed, stopping following that which I was taught in school I should ‘aim for’ which is success, power, directing people and becoming a ‘leader’ in a world where the leadership positions are only available for a Few/ minority that has had the opportunity above others to get to such positions.

 

I realize the importance of education to create a transition in this system, wherein learning the basic aspects of our reality imply walking the solution as each individual that is able to take Self-Responsibility within this world system, creating a point of change not in separation of systems of knowledge and information as an asset, but rather using and implementing solutions based in Common Sense living as what’s best for all, wherein all beings from a young age as children can begin understanding what it is to create a world in Equality, taking Self Responsibility for themselves and the co-creation process of a world-system based on Life in Equality.

 

I commit myself to expose how knowledge is in fact capitalist spitefulness in a world where knowledge decides who is ‘better’ and who’s ‘who’ in the world system according to the amount of money that is able to be made from ‘theorizing’ about reality, instead of using that knowledge to equalize society as practical skills and education that is based upon the equal-standing of all beings in the same world system, instead of promoting greed, desire for powerful positions, competition and rivalry between individuals from the very first stages of and within the schooling systems.

 

I commit myself to support myself to stick to practical living-understanding of reality wherein no knowledge and information about the world-system becomes a ‘moreness’ and a ‘superior value’ within myself, but instead I take each point as a means to realize my responsibility within the system and within that, ensure that I use the tools that I am being unconditionally given and provided as writing, self forgiveness, self corrective application to walk my own mind and within this, see/ realize and understand that Life is Not Knowledge and that at the moment, all of it is just a tool to ensure that we understand the implications of the separation we have created as words, as money as the entire configuration of our world system, to ensure that we Stop all forms of separation through practically realizing our Equality and Oneness as Life, wherein no knowledge will exist in separation as a ‘value’ in itself, but will be only Living Words that All Beings will be equally capable of living and understanding, as that is the only way that we can begin to Understand WHY and HOW the Equal Money System is the only way to restore Life in Equality on Earth and this Existence.

 

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Intellect of the Human Lacks All Life Morality as it is Not Life, but Mind as Self-Interest – and therefore it Only Designs Systems which will Profit the Self-Interest of Individuals, or Organizations, or Families – while Life is just seen as a Commodity to be Traded for Personal Happiness.” Bernard Poolman*

 

 

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70. ‘Money is My True Desire’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship with money itself as my ultimate desire, love and wish in my reality wherein I have linked the word ‘Money’ to all that which I can Buy, consume and own in order to create a positive experience within me, which I have called ‘empowerment’ linked to a state of ‘happiness’/ success/ fulfillment and joy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to learn that life is all about getting to this ultimate happiness and success within the society, which is tacitly implying having a lot of money in order to buy a lot of things that can denote that ‘I have money, I am powerful, I am happy, I am fulfilled, I can have everything I want’ – without realizing that I was trained to think this way when linking money as an added-value onto who I am as a human being that is Life in itself already – not realizing that Life is the one and only True-Value in existence.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my value/wealth as money to others’ wealth/money, and constantly see ‘where I stand’ in relation to other’s money/ wealth, which implies that I can only consider myself as being ‘successful’ if I see myself having More things, owning, continually being able to buy everything that I want as a means to create a positive experience within me, as a sense of empowerment and success over others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make decisions in life in relation to my studies, my career, my relationships in accordance to ‘who I want to be’ as the amount of money I want to have, which means that I am only existing For Money, for that Success and elusive Happiness that, due to how I have been brainwashed to think that happiness = consuming/ buying/ owning/ possessing all I want, need and desire, I require a Lot of Money to achieve that, which is how I have placed myself to do everything I can in order to get that much money to fulfill my desire, without realizing that in this logical assumption that I have missed the entire point of Myself as Life of Equality and Oneness as the one and only real value in this world –  but instead have diminished ‘living’ and ‘my life’ to only Living-For-Money, to create and fulfill my desires and positive experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Money as a positive word due to all the images I have linked to it as owning, buying, consuming everything that I can in order to have a ‘great life experience,’ within this accepting that my ‘beingness’ is defined according to the amount of money I have/ own, as a determinant factor of who I am, what I do, who I am toward others and how I compare myself to others in society, because this is what I have learned to be and become: a person that is fighting and striving to ‘make it’ in this like, with ‘making it’ signifying getting a lot of money in order to have All that ‘I’ Want – without ever questioning if this attainment is even possible for those that have nothing to eat and are deliberately secluded from this ‘choice’ in life by our own acceptance and allowance of money as separation from who we are as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Money as a negative thing whenever I Don’t have any money, which is when I start questioning WHY I can’t have money given to me unconditionally, why is money not given to all beings in order to have a dignified living – within this realizing that: as long as I have money = I only care to augment my own capital/ money/ wealth and attain more and more and more until I am saturated with the most money I can make in my every day living – and when I have No Money, I feel miserable, I feel ostracized, rejected, doomed, see everything dismal and with anger because I cannot have what Others have, wherein the example of the rich/ wealthy stand as that ultimate desire that is simply denied to me by the world-system, without realizing that we have all collectively agreed to make of this money system a grace and a disgrace for humanity according to the access each one has to Money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whenever I see myself worrying about money, thinking about money, wanting and desiring money, I am in fact accepting the premise of money not being a tool given to all to live, but has become the very reason and purpose of my every day living as a motivation to live, wherein I have absolutely forgotten Who and What I am as Life/ Living of oneness and equality, because money has become our very separation from that absolute wholeness that we could in fact live in/as if we all collectively agreed that Money can be a Tool to provide, give and share to one another that which is here of the Earth in order to LIVE a wholeness of life as Equals.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take Life for Granted whenever I am only existing as this desire and constant search for Money as that experience of fulfillment, happiness, bliss, completion without realizing that it is all based on a consumerist society wherein even if I have enough to eat, to live well and comfortably, I am seeking MORE as that is what I have defined as ‘Success’ and ‘Happiness’ – wherein I go day by day comparing myself to the lives of other human beings in order to see ‘who I am’ according to the money that I have and the money that I see others have.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to others if I see that they have a lot of money which I have then defined as them being happy, fulfilled, satisfied with themselves as a synonym of ‘wholeness’ without realizing that the only wholeness that can exist is as the totality of this world, as LIFE itself that we have controlled, diminished and made an object of desire when equated to money within a monetary system that does not grant equal-access to Life by virtue of Living – this implies that who I am in relation to others exists as the separation that I have accepted and allowed as my self-definition according to the money that I have and that I compare myself to others according to the amount of money they own and I have.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as either poor/ middle-class/ rich as ‘Who I Am’ because of having accepted myself to be defined to one single point in my reality as Money which determines my survival, my desires of wanting More and seeking to be ‘fulfilled’ through and as money, wherein all that I seek is to constantly being able to Buy myself Experiences that I have linked to joy, happiness, success, completion, fulfillment, satisfaction as the ability to buy, own and consume everything that I can with the power I have given away when separating myself from Life into and as the acceptance of the current monetary system as Capitalism.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to visually associate Money with everything in my reality, even my physical body, as I have come to accept the fact that organs of the physical body have a price as well as hair, selling pregnancy hosting, the image of my physical body, blood, semen, fetuses and other bodily parts and functions that can be sold, including sexual services that a body can provide which are also due-to and part of the same necessity that we’ve made ourselves dependent on as Money.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within accepting money as my ultimate desire, I am neglecting the fact that all I am consuming is Myself in the name of a positive experience that I have linked to a single Idea, belief and concept of happiness, satisfaction and completion according to that which I have been taught and learned throughout my life wherein all that I know is that ‘I need money to live’ and in that single acceptance, directing my entire life, my choices, my drive to live for and as the desire of money, forgetting about who I am as Life in its totality.

 

I realize, see and understand that in order to stop defining myself as this ‘desire for money,’ I have to walk a process wherein I stop placing value in separation of myself as the things I buy, consume and own as a positive experience and an ‘accumulation of worth’ as ‘who I am,’ which is realizing that all the power I have embedded to money itself is a fake-value system, a make-believe system of ‘worth’ in separation of Life which is what and who I am as all as one and equal – which means that my desire for money is currently ‘real’ as long as we continue accepting and allowing the same capitalist monetary system where a ‘Successful Living’ is only linked to Money.

 

I realize, see and understand that this idea of money as a ‘moreness’ of myself, as this positive experience is in fact a product of the brainwashing that I have lived in as this current system wherein Life can only ‘thrive’ if having money, without having ever questioned why such money was not readily-given as a birth right, which implies that money in itself is a system of desires as the separation from ourselves as Life into a system of control/ power that promotes greed for its own continuation and survival, without ever questioning how the abuse in this world as the inability to have access to money/ poverty/ starvation and all the abusive jobs that are ‘the last resort’ to get money for the majority of the world, are in fact the abusive means that are used in order to create/ manifest the ideal of wealth and ‘fulfillment’ as a real inequality that is visible in our society –  I see and realize now that money is a make-believe system that only benefited a minority while having a majority with no access or in a constant survival-mode wherein one is pushed and forced to do ‘anything for money’ which includes activities and actions that clearly denigrate our own physical body, life itself into an absolute depletion of life, due to our accepted and allowed sectarian elitist monetary system that is only at the service of a few as those with money in the world.

 

I commit myself to stop my constant need, desire and yearning for ‘all the money in the world’ wherein the acceptance of a ‘millionaire’ is no longer part of my daydreaming desires as an image and picture of myself as being ‘eternally happy and satisfied with myself’ as I realize that in doing so, I am tacitly agreeing and accepting the abuse, the poverty, starvation and all forms of life degradation in the name of my dream, my desire, my positive experience, which is how and why I have to now take Responsibility for what I have done, what I have become

 

I commit myself to within stopping myself within this constant desire to buy, consume, own and Experience life through and as what I can buy into as happiness/ success/ fulfillment – I take responsibility for walking my own process to realize the absurdity of having separated ourselves from who we are as Life of Oneness and Equality and in that, commit myself to be part of the people in the world that create a New World System based on the recognition and realization of who we are as Life as One and Equal – which means that a New Monetary System must be in place, which is the Equal Money System, wherein we stop being bound to the One System that Rules us All as a belief-system of abuse, and turn money into a tool to give and receive life as equals, as we all realize that we all want to have a comfortable life, the best possible education, food, housing, the most suitable transportation, entertainment that is in support of who we are as Life, and that can only exist if I first Stop my participation within the current monetary system of abuse – in all its inner workings – and transform myself to stand as the necessary change in the meaning of who I am not as a ‘person that desires money to live’ but a person that stands as the worth/value of life itself, which is the only value I really am and exist as – within the realization that we had trapped ourselves in a make-believe system of separation of who we are as life into a form of control, discrimination and ‘power over life’ that was never real in itself, but was ‘made real’ according to how we complied and obeyed to it as the only way to ‘continue living,’ which is unacceptable and must be obviously changed in the name of Life as who we are as Equals.

 

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68. Money is a Hegemonic Language

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Money as a language is elitism, because it is not a language that All beings can equally participate in – this makes Money a language that has commanded the greatest abuse that is daily lived as the ‘power’ that we have all collectively accepted and allowed ‘money’ to have and exist as, which reveals that money as a hegemonic system was never meant to be in the best interest of all, but as a weapon of choice to create desires, inflate egos as the mind of men and justify denying life to others as market-forces that are obviously also man-made in the name of self-interest and personal glorification at the literal expense of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that money is a hegemonic system because its rules and regulations and actual functioning is not revealed, shown or taught in schools, which is a basic aspect/ point that should be implemented in order to make sure that all transactions existent as money can be equally-understood by people, as equal understanding implies equal-power. This is what makes economics and financial systems the very tool to exert power as their ‘terms and conditions’ as rules and regulations can only be understood by a people that are trained to perpetuate its apparent ‘complexity,’ which is meant to only divide and conquer over the population when the majority has no access to such understanding, or no interest at all in it due to it being a secluded and elitist group of people the ones that make the rules and regulations to their own benefit.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the greatest imperialism that humanity has lived is Money, as it became the primary motivation to control, divide and conquer in means of establishing power over a certain population, which is an action that money enabled through its unequal existence and access for all beings equally, becoming a means to establish control and ‘order’ upon the lives of human beings– hence Money as a language became the real ‘king of the world’ through processes of imperialism/ colonization as the imposition of a particular currency/ worth/ value over Life.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realize that the real dictator over the world is money as the creation of human being to which we have all enslaved ourselves and nature to, which is now revealing the consequences of such forced-imposition over Life as the depletion, destruction and absolute obliteration of nature and the animal kingdom evidences, as the demonstration of the obvious consequence of a man-made system in separation of ourselves is followed in means of having ‘power’ upon Life, not realizing that Life as a system can Only function if it is Equally regarded, Equally provided and given to all in Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see everything around me in monetary terms and no longer as unconditional available matter that can be distributed to all beings equally, but instead has become an asset/ product in itself that can be capitalized, which is a form of having power/control over and raping the nature and unconditional-beingness of everything on Earth, turning it all into a separate value of which, when arbitrarily owned/ possessed by an individual, can be capitalized according to our current rules/ regulations of the monetary system that is not based on providing ALL with equal-access to everything that is here of/ as the Earth, but has made of Life a Market that was built in the name of establishing control over resources through deliberately denying to all human beings having equal-access to it, because that would mean that No Abuse would be possible = No Power over others/ life itself, which is what we are currently accepting and allowing as capitalism and our current monetary system.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that through accepting money as a sign of ‘power’ to acquire that which I require to live, I was inheriting ‘the best option available’ as world-system due to the trust placed on parents and those in ‘powerful positions,’ wherein through believing and trusting that they are really looking after the ‘best interest of all,’ I proceeding to merely follow and comply the system, believing that it was the best possible option to live-by in this world – within this

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to see the ‘lack of money’ as part of the individual’s lessons for not wanting to contribute in a ‘productive sector’ of society, being lazy, bad karma and any other excuse that I could use in order to justify my acceptance of poverty and starvation as part of my everyday reality, becoming part of the ‘social scenario’ without further questioning it.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that Money as a language was not created in the best interest of all, but rather in means of Controlling All for the benefit of some – which is why and how Money as it currently exist must come to an end as a language and re-signify itself with a New definition that can stand Here as the Reality of Who and What We Are as One and Equal, which means that Money can only take One Single and Only New Meaning and Value: Life in Equality for/as All.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what we are witnessing as this world and all the events that point out to a monetary de-function/ death, is the inevitable fall of what had begun with a certain beginning and an end, as all systems based on energy that are not equally giving and receiving in a symbiotic relationship, are meant to die due to/ because of the inevitable abuse upon life with such an artificially-made system in means of control, which cannot be sustainable now that Life in Equality is the only Principle that will prevail in our existence.

 

I commit myself to make of Money as Equal-Money a Universal Language that all can have access to as a means of getting and receiving that which is required to live, wherein power over life is no longer possible/ existent as a meaning-itself within beings’ minds, as we will understand that it is only through giving and receiving in Equality that Who We Are as Equal Participants in this Social Organism can thrive as a Living-Organism in Equal relationships of power. This means that no more discrimination and elitism will ever exist once that we LIVE the Meaning of Equal-Money as Equally Giving and Receiving what we need and require to live as Equals in this world and Existence.

 

I commit myself to create the necessary Shift in the language that Money represents in this world, to re-educate ourselves on how it is through the value/ meaning/ worth we give to Words as the meaning of ‘who we are’ and what we accept and allow ourselves to exist-as, that we create our own prison or liberation – hence, the current monetary system is currently a prison-word that we can Revitalize and Shift into a New Meaning that Signifies Life in Equality – Money as a means to administrate the relationships between individuals and the resources available, to ensure that all are equally able to have access to the resources, products and services that stem from and of the Earth, and give / receive them unconditionally through money as an administrative tool to ensure that Real Economy takes place in consideration of the physicality of Life on Earth as Equality.

 

I realize that, just as the evolution and shifting necessary within the power that language has over beings and the relationships defined by words and people toward the environment and each other, it is a progressive process wherein the meaning of Life in Equality must be imparted as an Educational Process first, so that we can grasp what does Equality as a Quality of Being Here as Who and What we Are as Life means; this way, Money as a word lived in Equality means it is stemming from such understanding and living realization, which signifies it can only exist as a tool that benefits all as equal-participants of the world-community, using money as a language as a means of communication with the environment and each other in equal relationship to one another.

 

I realize that the assimilation of Life in Equality is but a concept that cannot be grasped only through words, because such words have Never Been Lived. Hence, I commit myself to stand as the example of what it means to equalize life as myself, as the self-forgiveness process of all the relationships that I have formed in separation of myself, to see how I have placed value/ worth in separation of myself as life itself – and from there, realize that in order to create an actual change in this world, the very Meaning of the Word Equality must be first lived within and as individuals that are able to stand as Living Examples of what Equality implies as a Living-Realization of Who and What we are in and as this World and Existence.

 

I commit myself to explain that a mint linguistic system must be in order with the ways that the population live within themselves, as words can only be Lived if realized as a Living-Aspect of Self, as a inherent quality that truly denotes who and what we are as such word, which means that Equal-Money in the Equal Money System  is the word that will allow us to first train ourselves to consider that the one and only value in Life is Life itself, and that such means of exchange as Equal-Money cannot mean any ‘more’ or ‘less’ than Life itself.

 

I commit myself to establish money as an Homogeneous System wherein all being and parts coexist in harmony where no harm is perpetuated by the lack or excess of money as ‘power over life,’ but instead is understood and amalgamated as an equal and one tool that each one can use as a word, as a means to signify the actual giving and receiving in equality, which is what ‘Love’ would really mean in a tangible and physical way as a System that Works for All Equally.

 

I commit myself to make of Money a language that signifies the best interest of all in all ways, that can be easily understood as there won’t be any fraudulent means to ‘gain power’ over others, as the only real power will only exist in Equality as Life.

 

“I commit myself to show that all words are Compromised to Serve the Profit Motive and that when you Investigate the nature of the Relationships implied by Words you will find the Profit/WIN Motive in there Somewhere.” Bernard Poolman *

 

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