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August 25, 2017

599. Letting Go of an Infatuation

By Marlen

Or closing doors or cycles from the past by verifying in physical reality what was the ‘myth’ I had created about certain things/people in my life that I can now let go of.

The word ‘infatuation’ just popped up as I asked myself what is the word that I require to look at and open up in relation to what I decided to experience yesterday, which is cool because many times we believe we have to get the answer ‘somewhere else out there’ when in fact it is all here as ourselves.

So what was also highlighted from this word infatuation is the ‘fat’ in it and it’s an interesting thing to look at because there’s been a couple of audios recently released at Eqafe.com that explain the relationship of Fat in the physical body, the unseen dimensions and relationships of it between our emotions, our minds and the effect or impact our participation in them has at a visible level on our physical body. What interested me is to become aware of how we sometimes hold on to certain memories in our minds based on an emotional or feeling attachment we create to them, and I’ve been in a way in my current reality deliberately opening up these ‘emotional attachments’ to the memories about people in my past and getting to see what’s of real substance in them and what is a sheer form of ‘junk food’ that I’ve been nibbling on in my mind for an extended period of time, with no other purpose than holding on to the ideas, experiences and yes, ‘memories’ about these past situations with these people that were all in my head really and had no context to my current reality.

Here’s a quote from it:

 “This is what most people live as really, your memories are like an emotional sentiment, you want to cling and hold on to for some odd reason.

Same as what anyone would hold onto a picture of a loved one, and every time they look at that picture they become emotional, it’s an emotional sentiment. You do the no different thing to your own memories in your mind. Many people wonder “why am I holding on to these emotional memories?” – The same question can be asked on why you’re holding on to a picture or an emotional state. That’s also showing the within and without.” – Fat and the Body’s Energy – What Matters in Matter

Yesterday I particularly decided to for once and for all stop ‘fooling around’ with some memories attached to a particular relationship that didn’t end up well in my life several years ago and actually get to see the person again and realize for once and for all how much I had been ‘dwelling’ on that situation without actually giving it direction, and how much it had in fact consumed me – or rather how much I had ‘stacked up’ the memories as a burden on me – that were in fact all self-created and didn’t exist as much of a ‘problem’ in the other person’s life.

In this I saw how much of an infatuation I had created towards all the memories, ideas, moments I had lived with such person and how it had all ‘boiled down to’ a form of misunderstanding or ‘spat’ that I believed I had to resolve through getting to see the person again. However I realized it had all mostly been created in my own head and how I made it an issue about it that I kept rewinding and recycling in my head for several years, to the point where it would come up in dreams and it seemed it just wasn’t ‘leaving me alone’ but! The reality is that I was the one still holding on to it, clinging to it because of the ‘feeding ground’ it became for me, my mind, my self-definition and a form of ‘lockage’ into the past.

On Monday I was talking to a friend about this particular situation lived in the past within such relationship and as I was talking about it I realized how silly it was for me to keep holding on to this kind of apparent ‘tragic end’ to a certain relationship and believing that it had to do with the other person, when in fact it was all done for and by myself throughout a great chunk of my life, which explains why it had become such an extensive part of my consciousness. This one relationship I had defined as that one point that was either going to fully ‘lock me in’ to what I was supposed to be or one that I would completely turn around and walk away from in order to step out of the ‘preplanned’ route for me in my life. I did the latter, physically, but in my mind there still existed a form of ‘holding on to’ experiences for the sheer ‘memory value’ that makes no sense at all to hold on to, really.

And here also to understand that memories – as anything that we’ve gone through from years ago to the moment before this one here – will always be part of ourselves, we cannot ‘erase’ memories, but we can change who we are in relation to them and this is where the ‘infatuation’ word comes in nicely, where I had in fact developed a form of infatuation in relation to the past and the idea of what this person represented in my life, sort of like my own memory-portrait that I would every now and then look at and recreate some kind of puzzling experience from yearning, to hope, to regret, to judgment and criticism towards the other person. In the end, it became this one ‘basket’ wherein I would throw in all kinds of mixed feelings and emotions and I’ve been ‘carrying it around’ for such a long time that it’s in fact actually kind of ridiculous now that I see how the other person has existed in relation to the same situation and how I blew things out of proportion in my head, which is another particular ‘trait’ of ourselves when thinking and experiencing emotions or feelings in our minds about things = they don’t really have anything to do with physicality of things, it’s all self-induced and self-created.

I also noticed how at a physical level I became quite ‘drained’ at the end of the day yesterday due to the amount of expectation that I built around this encounter, which I decided to entirely do by myself and in a way within a ‘once and for all stop ‘fooling around’ stance’ with my own mind and memories and rather face the real deal to demystify the ideas around this person and what once was in our relationship.

I realize the importance of speaking out as in sounding, verbalizing, talking about things that we have kept in our minds like a broken record for a long time. I’m actually glad that I started sharing about this on Monday and three days after I decided to give it some direction for once and for all, because it was only through sounding it/verbalizing it, talking about it with another person that I could see how it was kind of ‘foolish’ to be holding on to that in my mind, and saw how it was one of these ‘hooks’ with which I had been trapped in the past without fully and truly deciding to let go of it, which is what I have concluded that I have to actually do and live from all of this.

There are things that we might ‘hold on to’ for no other reason than deciding to continue defining ‘who we are’ in relation to such person, past situation as a memory – and in doing so, creating a constant ‘infatuation’ that is entirely fed by ourselves, by our participation in it, by trying to find ‘if there’s something more to it that we are not seeing’ when in fact, there are things that we just have to write, self-forgive, understand AND fully decide to let go.

See, throughout the years I had done the writing, I had done extensive self-forgiveness on it, but I hadn’t made a full and complete decision to actually let go of the attachment as this ‘sticky thought’ or memory that I had actually wanted to hold on to for the sheer ‘energy value’ entertainment to it. So I realize I have to actually make peace with it and remind myself that: that’s part of the past, that’s done, there’s nothing ‘there’ in it to see anymore – what was learned and gotten from it is here as myself, and all the rest I let go and let it ‘rest in peace’ as the memories they are as a part of my life, as a part of who I once was and in that, I realize I don’t have to define myself in relation to it any longer. I decide now to see the memories for what they are and instead see the people for who they currently are in their lives.

Lol, just checking the meaning of the word ‘infatuation’ and voilà! Perfect description

ORIGIN

            C16: from Latin infatuat-, infatuare ‘make foolish’.

I can definitely see how I’ve been quite foolish around this point, and how I am definitely at a point of maturity where I am shedding the things that I held on to by actually cross-referencing in reality who am I in relation to these people by actually talking to them, seeing who they are, seeing how I experience myself in relation to them in their presence.

And the reality is that it was all very ‘anti-climatic’ – as it definitely should be – in the sense that there was nothing moving in me while in their presence, more like I was very ‘shifty’ prior to meeting these people from past relationships and being a bit anxious, nervous or building up an expectation that became quite felt at a physical level due to mostly how it’s been such a long time since I last interacted with them and in a way trying to ‘wrap my mind’ about all the potential outflows from it, but that’s where I realized I could only trust myself in the moment, calm myself down through for example walking slowly on my way to meet the other person, but that didn’t really help much during yesterday’s case and situation where I had definitely stacked up a lot of expectations throughout a long, long time – like years – so it played out right before or ‘on my way’ to the meeting point and it was quite interesting as well that once that I was standing in front of the person, it started diffusing, the whole ‘build up’ was finally waning, but this doesn’t mean it didn’t have any effect on my body – oh yes, it did.

I realize how much it sucks to create these burdens and ‘ups and downs’ by ourselves in our own minds and bodies based on these infatuations created about something or someone. In my case definitely existing a lot in relation to ‘the past’ and holding on to it like a form of trophy which makes no sense really. In that case it creates atrophy in my own self-creation, evolution and expansion in my current reality, because of ‘holding on to’ whatever it is that in my mind I saw as ‘unresolved issues’ around certain things or even if it was holding on to the ‘good stuff’ that once was – same thing – it’s not living fully in the present, in what’s ‘here’ and current in my life.

And here it doesn’t mean I don’t have to ‘ever talk to these people again,’ nope. I of course can, but not see them as ‘the icons’ I created of them in the filing of my past, but rather approach them anew, as I approach other people that I’ve been meeting recently in my reality, and it’s a much more liberating interaction because we are not holding on to ‘things of the past’ to define ‘who we are’ or ‘who we should be’ towards them. If anything it was also cool for me to see that I didn’t ‘adjust’ who I am around these people, I definitely have gotten to a point where I am what I am regardless of who I talk to, which is a cool constant point as well.

I’ve also realized that it isn’t about having to actually go to the people and sort things out or ‘lay things out with them to create peace’  – I mean if one can do it, cool, it’s a nice test anyways to see how one experiences oneself in such situations – but for the most part it is really about deciding to resolve it within ourselves, through the usual tools of writing, self-forgiveness in self honesty and then the important chunk of it is actually letting go of it which means, no longer feeding such memories, such ‘what ifs’ in our minds which become like this junk food that I’ve been eating up or ‘munching at’ for far too long now.

In such case as with anything, one can always recognize the cool points learned from such past relationships – including the ‘falls’ we had in them and what we can learn about ourselves from those ‘bitter’ situations. We can also see which words are related to self-supportive points that we can create an awareness of and decide to live fully as ourselves. I found yesterday how I had in fact become some of these words I learned from this person and how we were both playing that word out now with other people in the moment, which was interesting because I didn’t have to ‘remember’ what role I used to play in such situations when he would be the one living the word ‘openness’ in interactions with other people, which would mean I was more like ‘standing in the background.’ This time I was already living such openness to talk to someone I’ve never seen in my life and develop an interest in who they are and what they do, which I learned from this particular old friend who was also present and was simply funny to see that happening in the moment, and that’s for example one point I learned from him that I decided to keep on living in my life and a few other things that I found are supportive in my relationship to people in general, especially those that I don’t have any prior relationship or contact with, but have that ability to start a conversation and get to know any person a bit, which is quite cool.

Anyways, that’s an example of things I’ve learned from people in my past, and sure with some it shall be cool to see them every now and then, but for the most part my approach to them is no longer from a starting point of ‘continuing what we left off from in the past’ or ‘holding on to the idea I had of them’ or ‘wanting to re-ignite what once was in our relationship in the past’ because as much as some people might still be generally ‘the same’ after so many years, I definitely have changed quite a bit and it’s also cool to see and confirm how there are certain things that were maybe pertinent to me at some point in my past, but I’ve also now moved on to other things and I’m quite glad about it as well because there is also a way for me to reference ‘who I currently am’ in relation to things, situations, people that I once could identify myself with in quite an extensive manner.  It’s like going into a time capsule and seeing who am I currently in relation to this point of my past and realizing well yeah, of course it’s no longer relevant to my current reality, therefore the ‘spell of the past’ is gone and that’s what is liberating to me

Maybe I had to corroborate this with my own eyes and in my own presence, to debunk these ‘ghosts from the past’ and stop fooling myself in relation to it all, which is quite cool and I do ponder ‘man, what took me so long?’ But, it’s been an ongoing process for the last couple of months that goes ‘in tune’ with various other things opening up in my life where I am also in a way ‘closing the door from the past’, where I can let go of ‘who I was’ or how I would generally see and define me in relation to others and what others ‘were to me’ back then and instead be able to approach them from a current-reality standpoint and that’s definitely supportive to do, it’s a grounding process and experience which is assisting me to put the past to rest as it should in my mind and body.

Thanks for reading and check out the Eqafe.com interviews I suggested above that explain the relationship of fat in the body and mind, very interesting stuff that our current science hasn’t caught up with yet

 

 

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March 6, 2012

Why isn’t Love an Illegal drug?

By Marlen

 

I had felt a tremendous ‘yearning’ for something in my  life, it really drove me toward various directions wherein I was seeking this ‘something’ that I was ‘missing’ – apparently – and what’s funny is that it could be equally fulfilled with eating a chocolate, watching a  film or having a nice sex-session… and nope my ‘meditation’ never took me to such bliss, I guess I was too much of a neophyte in that.

 

What I never knew until now is that such yearning to be fool-filled was in fact nothing else but a preprogrammed system that we have accepted as ‘who we are’ which was given with the promise of ‘Eternal Life’ – or at least a Heavenly-experience once you die. We accepted this yearning for a spiritual realm wherein ‘everything would be fine’ as ‘that which is real’ of ourselves. By having this promise on the shelf, we accepted to live a life of ‘learning lessons’ and generating all types of connections to something ‘divine’ or at least something that could bring us ‘closer to God,’ similar to that Heavenly-experience which many would channel through different ways: spirituality, religion, relationships, sports, sex, drugs, alcohol to name but a few.  Now it makes sense! All those miserable years I spent within this ‘yearning’ for something else was nothing but me following my mind – because I always accepted my mind as ‘who I am’ – see.king to obtain the ultimate happiness/ bliss/ fulfillment in life. I never considered or even accepted myself as a ‘whole’ within my own body before.

 

When we would break apart from relationships or desiring relationships, we were in fact seeking to fulfill our ‘love-fix’ again, which has been also explained by science as a chemical-fixation  within our bodies. That’s how stopping a relationship is similar to the process of withdrawing from a certain drug. This is what we have accepted as ‘love’ – or even the term ‘lovesick’ when getting too much of it– however it’s gotten way more toxic than a simple chemical-dependency at a biological level.

 

 

And, if one look at for example, drugs/alcohol – it give one that positive/heavenly experience – equal-to and one-with that heavenly-experience self as the soul desired and so addictions are created to energy/heaven/afterlife searching for the ‘better life’ as we’re pre-programmed to yearn for ‘that experience’. – Sunette Spies

 

 

The fact is that when reading Sunette’s explanation on this energetic aspect, the word ‘drug’ popped up and began remembering how easy it was to get a quick-fix on an experience induced by a chemical drug, by spirituality, by this yearning to ‘be fulfilled within a relationship.’ It literally becomes this icky obsession that keeps us occupied in our minds the whole time, without even daring to ask ‘Is it really ME here that is yearning for this? Or is this just a mind-generated addiction?– for all cases, addictions begin at a mind level.

 

 

No wonder that it is easy to get fixated on drugs, sex, relationship, spirituality = we were preprogrammed to do this. And this ‘human trait’ became a juicy predisposition for anyone that sought to make money out of human’s feeble character easily swayed by desires –which is what has been vindicated as the infamous  ‘Human Nature.’ Yes, this great excuse to always be seeking for our personal-interest and seeking to be satisfied/ fulfilled/ content with buying, consuming and generating any form of ‘pleasant experience’ – whichever ‘form’ such experience would take.

 

 

My fix

I also fell for this big time. It began with this inextricable yearning for ‘something’ that lead me to become a music-junky – for real and by this I mean being listening to music most of the time when I was not in school and/or sleeping, even though I would go as far as sleeping with my earphones on sometimes. By this creating all of these ‘mental relationships’ with people that I got to idolize from the bands I liked. I can identify this ‘idolizing’ process as something similar to ‘feeling understood’ or even ‘cared for’ because of someone externalizing that which I then thought I was ‘also feeling’ inside me.

 

This is where the entire identification of myself as emotions/ feelings began, simply because I was yearning to experience the same that I could see those beings were experiencing when performing. I guess this is how I chose to be an ‘artist’ lol, because it was a way to justify me being extremely used to ‘being emotional’ and ‘being in touch with myself’ lolol I am laughing because I have written heaps before about me being a drama queen, and the usual stereotype of ‘artists’ is that of being an egotistical emotional-driven being that is then ‘accepted as is’ because ‘that’s who artists are/ that’s what they do,’ being and feeling ‘misunderstood’ and extremely ‘sensitive’ to the world.  Fascinating that we even created such niches in our society to never allow to question such experiences within ourselves, but even glorify them to the extent of equating ‘being a sensitive being’ to something that was almost touched by the hand of god, which is how artists were also identified as in the past.

 

Yes, we accepted these experiences or ‘gifts’ as a god-given trait or ‘right’ as you may wish to call it as well, I mean, we’ve essentially walked endless cycles of living out the same lives without being able to remember it, without getting to a point of ever questioning anything of this existence. And oh no if you actually got to a certain point of Self-Realization: you were screwed till the 9th hell which is here on Earth anyways, but just in a more miserable and in a position wherein ‘those in heaven’ would make sure that no one could get to a point of realizing who they really are.

 

So, I accepted myself as this ‘sensitive being’ and proceeded to cultivate my ‘sensitive preferences’ such as sticking to the world of ‘the intangible’ like music, literature, philosophy, painting, writing and so forth – I used to talk a lot to myself, it was my primary relationship and how I probably built up this idea of being a bit ‘coo-coo’ for doing that, never realizing that all humans do that, yet some hide it or simply take it as the infamous ‘human nature’ without having ever pondered ‘hmm, but where are these thoughts, feelings and emotions essentially coming from?’ So this is how I began giving myself my own ‘fixes’ through generating thoughts, feelings and emotions through all of these ‘activities.’

I never equated that to the same fix that everyone else was looking as ‘love’ – it is only now that I can understand I also drove myself through a similar vein.

 

 

The love fix

So I eventually got involved in relationships and got to see what a marvelous fix it was, and the fact is that it is accepted in this world without a question makes it something as ‘normal’ as having to eat to live. There are millions of songs, books, and anything that I could think of related to ‘love’ and ‘relationships’ and being happy or being feeling miserable because of not having this love-fix.

 

But,  I developed another curiosity which was mostly enticed by movies that I was attracted to for ‘some odd reason’= preprogrammed – wherein drugs was the main player. I know that there are many beings that have gone through this, in fact some of these movies became the first ‘bridge’ I built as a ‘likeness’ with someone that I could then call a ‘best friend’ or even ‘soul mate’ for that matter lol. So, I was very curious about drugs and dedicated some hours to reading articles about it, investigating the effects, read about the movements related to drugs like the ‘rave’ era in the 90’s, the Oxycontin boom in the early 200o’s and all the hype about heroin from the 70’s on. Music was pretty much linked to drugs and with me having ‘admired’ all these beings as personal-heroes, it lead me to think that ‘this is it, that must be that which I must be yearning for.’

 

So, just as anyone else in the world, I became a junky for various things including relationships, sex, weed, music, books, anything that could give me a very ‘specific’ energy- obviously at that time I didn’t question this nor did I ponder why I was ‘driven’ to-it, I just accepted it as part of my ‘personality.’ All the music I would listen, the relationships I had, the stories I would read, the nature of my writings would give me a specific energetic-kick that I then defined as ‘who I am.’ This only lead me to seek – just as any other junky in this world – ‘new ways’ of taking the energetic-kick to ‘the next level.’

 

An examples is how in pornography, beings stop getting their ‘fix’ out of the usual porn and go into various ‘specialized’ ways of presenting naked bodies that they can jack off to. That’s how sadistic porn, pedophilia and any other paraphilia is formed: becoming more specific in that which ‘turns you on,’ just like a machine that requires oil and fuel to ‘keep going,’ to keep ‘riding the rollercoaster’ which we have defined as ‘life.’

 

This is how we initially react so much to the point of having to stop our minds, simply because we are all addicts to generate experiences in whichever way we find ourselves ‘comfortable’ with. We have all sought for a ‘something’ to fulfill within our lives to give us a specific feeling/ emotion that we have called ‘being alive.’ It is fascinating how in our world and society, not being experiencing feelings or emotions is seeing as a malady, is seen as if ‘something is wrong’ with the being because, apparently, the being is ‘detached from reality.’ This is because of having defined life as a constant stream of energetic experiences, instead of realizing that it is an actual physical constancy and consistency just as we breathe here – in and out – at the physical pace that is not bound to ‘time.’ We end up depleting ourselves while trying to get the ‘most experiences throughout our day/ our lifetime.’

 

 

 

Love is a Drug

 

“Thus for spirituality to exist as love and peace — we have to allow ourselves to be blind to the actuality of the conditions in this world and promote this world as an illusion with reality only after death, making it impossible to reason with the spirituals”
– Bernard Poolman

 

 

I definitely got to experiment with drugs in order to see if I could get to this ‘transcendental state’ which I had heard, read and mindfucked myself-with from stories about Maria Sabina, Carlos Castañeda, Alejandro Jodorowsky and his ‘once in a lifetime’ intake of LSD – apparently – as well as Terence McKenna whom I had gotten to know of when investigating about entheogens, an intake of mushrooms or any other drug to create a connection with ‘the whole.’ So I was quite interested into this entire ‘exploration’ as a way to get to ‘transcendental planes’- I actually was ‘this close’ to further down that rabbit hole .  I was ‘saved by the bell.’

 

No wonder ‘ecstasy’ is called the ‘love drug’ because it really becomes this ever-glowing experience wherein everything just feels great – it is a FEELING, it is a literal mindfuck and we all go throughout our lives seeking for this ‘great experience.’ I mean, once again, look at your movie plots, songs, books, adds, religion, spirituality, self-improvement courses, self-help associations, supermarkets, it’s all about indulging into the gooey love experience that will ‘give a meaning to your life.’

 

Well, if by ‘meaning of life’ we have accepted being constantly experiencing such a chemically-induced experience that we have called ‘love,’ no wonder we’re living in a world full of addicts.

 

Unfortunately, this addiction has become also the greatest ESC button to neglect the reality that is HERE as our world, wherein we all know that no positive thinking, no ‘loving thoughts, no ‘meditation’ or seeing ‘world peace’ with daily prayer will bring food, water, shelter and proper living conditions to human beings that are starving on a daily basis.

 

‘Good spirits’ is then the perfect excuse to get drunk on the holy-spirit of alcohol, drugs, sex and call this a ‘heaven on Earth.’ Is this all that we aim for? Waiting for weekends to come to get a ‘heavenly mindfucking experience,’ getting a huge hangover the next day, ending up spending what was earned through the week, to then forget about the ‘awkward parts,’ keep the ‘nice fluffy experience’ as a memory to ‘save’ and be willing to do it all over again the next one. This is what we have diminished ‘life’ to, what a gas.

 

We induce this idea of ‘excitement’ and ‘happiness’ toward children as well, making use of the infamous chemical catalyzers to produce altered states of beingness which are commonly accepted as: candies. Can.dies as the sellable version of Sugar is then linked to ‘love’ through giving them as a ‘demonstration’ of care/ love toward people which is just the same as giving an ecstasy to your lover get the same ‘hype’ within a relationship again. And the reality is that all of this is seen as ‘normal’ without realizing that we have all been playing out the same game – either alone or along with others – within seeking this ‘something’ that will make us ‘feel’-something – you name the game, it costs money usually and it keeps us well occupied in our heads while neglecting the reality that is HERE as this world, that is now suffering the effects of a self-interest driven society.

 

Why would we want to be ‘eternal’ then? To continue seeking more fuel to energize our systems and get a fluffy experience, while neglecting the fact that the acquisition and extraction of such energy is depleting the planet itself?

 

 

God Is Love

I stumbled upon the definition for:

amphetamine 
n    noun a synthetic mood-altering drug, used illegally as a stimulant.

 

So, if love, sex, spirituality, alcohol, drugs, movies, songs, food, religion and god is able to give you a mood-swing ( lol ) why aren’t all of these things dubbed as ‘illegal stimulants’? Everything can be a drug for that matter and the fact that some are legal or illegal is just a matter of money.

You can get legal amphetamines in dieting procedures as well as using other masking-names for it like Benzedrine. Prozac is just the ‘over the counter’ counteract for it, wherein depression is just the reversed form of being in love – lol. Chemicals to ‘treat depression’ are seen as ‘meds’ whereas anything that induces love – which is a drug, remember – is promoted extensively just like candy, literally. Both are equally profitable and this is how, we can just say that we are full of drugs everywhere, just by our accepted and allowed ‘human nature’ as having to be experiencing something to being alive.

 

 

So, to get out of the ‘love trap’ or any other drug that keeps us bound to the ‘ups and downs’ we have dared to call ‘life’s cycles’ and ‘human nature,’ we must stop our dependency to thinking, to being constantly seeking to ‘feel’ something – as simple as that.

 

Love has been a trap that we have all fallen for – in one way or another – even in its opposite as ‘hate’ wherein the same energetic input is placed onto oneself or others, yet only varying on it being positive or negative energy = the human remains the same in that constant mind-trap wanting to be ‘experiencing’ something all the time.

 

What’s interesting from this is that I had despised ‘love’ all the way, dubbing it as something ‘too cheesy for my pizza’ yet never realized I had indulged in the exact same thing whenever I would have a relationship or would be seeking (or sickening) myself with a more ‘spiritual’ approach of such love through wanting to establish a connection with ‘the whole’ and, obviously, when indulging in chemically induced experiences through drugs.  I was only disconnected from HERE because of being thinking/ feeling/ yearning  instead of breathing myself here.

For that, the ‘God’ character is the main narco in this whole Earth-reality. ‘God is Love,’ remember?

 

 

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